#i have a surgery on friday

[claratyler]

🙃 literally at the end of my fucking rope

#have been going through a weird helath moment!!! for mo ths now #i have a surgery on friday #my 15 yo dog is NOT doing well shes having a string of random issues #i need and WANT to compose for my fricking class and my final concert but god i never find the fuckinf time and space nc my dog needs #so much from me #24/7 and of course i do it #of course shes my priority i love her but omg i cant deal with this #i miss my grandpa and i cant do this with my doggy all over again #my grandma is hurt all over and i had a dream the other day she didnt remember me #i think im leading someone on but idk what is wrong with me idk what i want or what imdoing #i have been told i cant go to bed ay 4 am anymroe or more health issues will arise #and this sucks bc usually id stay up really late and slee like 3 hrs #precisely bcits IMPOSSIBLE to do anything during the day #my family always fucking needs something!!! #the only time i get to myself is at 3 am #and now i dont have that either!! #im so im at fucking wits end here

[transboysokka]

@zukki-week Day 5: "There was only one bed" but now it's THREE people

AKA they all fell asleep in Zuko's bed after another assassination scare and are about to wake up like this except Zuko actually just might already be awake but is fine to keep pretending to sleep because he doesn't want to disentangle his leg from Sokka's quite yet because... this is actually... kind of nice?

#it’s fRIDAY IN MY TIME ZONE BITCHES GET ZUKKI’D #trying a new style for this... i dont... hate it #i did rely heavily on a reference for this one but i lost it. ill try to find it again and post it if i do #WOULD zuko be comfy enough yet at this point to have his shirt off around them i actually doubt it but i want to see his top surgery scars. #mine #zukki #zukki fanart #atla #zukki week 2023 #happy zukki week #greatest hits #100

[aliceundrground]

Black Friday / Cyber Monday sales are wild this year. 100% off boobs? In this economy!?

#hi Im having top surgery on Monday and I couldn't resist lmao #trans #top surgery #trans masc #they/them #black friday #cyber monday #lmao #hatter chats #hatters tiddy get riddy

[yuri-for-businesswomen]

i might have to take another break the amount of dumbassery i come across recently (as seen in the shit talking tag) is getting exorbitant, im just not terminally online enough for this shit. i have a life… whats the point of getting pissed off by some maladjusted individuals who probably never leave their house or only interact with other maladjusted individuals. i wish for everyone with these shitty takes to get a life honestly

#shit talking #i mean i have surgery on friday so i wont have much to do the coming week 😑 so i will end up here anyways but whatever #it had to be said i feel like someone has turned up the dumbassometer #not even talkign about any specific group i see this shit from everywhere

[silveredsticks]

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#so i woke up really early #and that was okay cos inwatched avs while i loaded the dishwasher and fed henry (cat not popstar) and washed my face and logged into work #four day weekends are so nice but my bosses emails ugh #i managed to have three meetings #one of which i had to contribute a lot to #and get a ministerial response completed while watching that utterly borked nucks match #and now i am having morning tea and feeling good #ive decided its not too late to plant sweet peas #i couldn't do it cos of surgery but look its still Autumn.. #and idk i just feel gd about this week #i am enjoying organising the house in a low pressure way and writing my fic and i see neil on wed #and it is mamas birthday on Saturday so on Friday my sisters and i will have dinner at a nice place by the harbour #near where she wants her ashes scattered under the bridge where you walk round the corner and see soh #and we'll talk about things she would have hated and things she would have loved since she died #and I'll cry into my sydney rock oysters and miss her #but im missing her as i stand in the kitchen typing this waiting for the kettle to boil so you know #silv rambles #sorry i just do this on whichever blog im using the most #block the silv rambles tag if its super annoying

[silenthillbunni]

🤧🐀🌧️🌊

#need to clear my head; #im in such a bad mood. my face is in a perpetual angry state. im just so so bitter nd pessimistic rn #trying not to get stuck in negative chaos thought spirals nd to just take it as it come #nd be patient bc recovery takes time i know. but i havent been able to feel healthy or functional for 7 months nd i am so tired #i cant help but worry abt my health nd what kinda diet i can have nd how to work all of that out. #like the removal of the gallbladder dont ensure a good digestive system. they remove it bc it can irrepairably hurt u #also im so so stressed out abt school nd my courses. i already had to drop one last week. nd it isnt looking like i'll be able to pass my #eng class.. it just isnt looking like it's realistic at all :/ i personally dont mind if i fail. but i can get issues w my wellfare hmm #bc like im still feeling rough nd u only get sick leave for one week after surgery.. so i have to go on thursday nd friday but im gnna #be in pain plus be so hungry nd be unable to concentrate idk #idk idk!! im already willing to take out loans to finish my upper secondary school.. but i have to make it work w timing nd stuff so im not #sitting here unable to pay rent or the bills or food lmao. so idk have to fix it somehow #nd the pressure of this country rapidly declining state is stressing me tf out!! having nazi conservative rightists in the ruling is just #dreadful!!!! for many reasons but atm idek if i can do distance classes like i wanted to :// #i just.. wanna be able to go for my long walks. go to the gym. eat normally. have coffee. study nd finish highschool. #then apply for whatever program i can nd move to another calmer city. prob eventually find a path to move to another country. like norway.. #im thinking too much but my thoughts are spinning nd killing me like i cant stop it im so scared nd anxious lmao 💀 #im also trying to be brave and write to the psych clinic for personality disorders nd be upset nd 'beg' them for help ksksksks. #but like... the thing abt having avpd is that i kinda dont wanna bc im scared of the possibility of them helping me lol #im just in a low place nd bad headspace and it's just getring worse nd im getting more nd more tired #i dont have much more energy to keep it together nd pretend like im ok or like i have hope lmaoooo idk what to do #anyway... idk idk guess i just gotta .. keep crawling forward anyway i can

[dickpuncher420]

not me foolishly thinking i’d be able to get stuff done after my surgery when i literally did nothing but sleep for a week straight after the first one 🫠

#i messaged one of my profs like ‘hi sorry i know we had a thing due friday but i had surgery literally the day before so i didnt have time’ #‘but i’ll def get it done this weekend and sent to u by monday!’ #and then i slept. all day saturday and sunday. lmao #im just so tireddddddd i cant do anythinggggggg #dick punches

[zyx]

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#my mom was diagnosed with retinal detachment a few days ago and has to undergo surgery urgently #or she may lose sight in that eye :( #surgery is quite pricey and we’re… struggling #and im so worried about her #her surgery is on friday #i just :((((( #my mom is the nicest sweetest woman on earth she doesn’t deserve all the bad things that have happened to her 😭 #~

[forcedjuggalofication]

gonna need new crutches for real this month bc i’ve been in enough pain that i haven’t been able to push myself to go without lately, and the underarm crutches i have rn are absolute ass :(

#i cannot afford new crutches right now but i don’t really have a choice anymore #also will probably go to the hospital monday #i would go today but it’s friday (bar night) and theres a hockey game so it’ll be busy as fuck #and i’d probably be waiting all night just to be told to take advil and come back if it gets worse again #i hate the hospital ugh #if they have to do more surgery i hope they give me the option to amputate instead bc i’d rather do that at this point #disabled #actually disabled

[pears-trinkets]

Love how mad Mischa was that i dragged her to the vet once again that she kept rubbing her nose against the carrier backpack I carried her in and now she has a bright red booboo on the top her nose

#i have to carry her 1.6 km / 1 mile to the vet and then back and i guess she just felt like shredding her nose against the rubber grit #shhhh dont tell her that we're going back on friday to check on the inflammation #but shes feeling much better again! 😭🥹 i took this photo on the bench on the balcony where she begged for treats #and the soft treats are available again and i bought like 8 bags so we're good for at least a month or two #we just played and now shes begging for dinner and im so glad shes annoying again😭😭😭 #i cried so much the past weekend she wouldnt come out of my closet and would scream in a very weird voice when i tried to touch her #the vet was so nice to her she was like :3 mischa we're gonna be friends i tell you you secretly like me do you :3 #they we're so gentle and kind with her 😭 #they made her a little cave out of towels so shed feel better #and her liver is doing better too 😭 i was so afraid we fucked it up completely with the surgery and then the pain meds and the treats #hate to say it but this expensive vet is really worth it even if the surgery and appointments are like 2.6k euro #and back in 2018 sissys 3 day kidney dialysis stay was like... half of that

[prnkill]

Last day of work before I go on a month long break

#surgery is friday #but i have a concert tomorrow #and a bunch of stuff to get ready

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else

#i have to sleep a lot. i’m at the point where functioning requires 8 hours of sleep if not more #I should probably be getting 10+ but i’m a student and i work so 8 is the minimum. but then also getting ready for bed is a whole process s #the whole thing can take 10-12 hours depending how much im sleeping. just to make sure i can do anything #that is time in my day i cannot use for anything else. it’s not ‘oh but i can push through it’ because i can’t without spending the next da #lightheaded and nauseous and vaguely dizzy and with such intense brain fog I can’t think with my fatigue so bad i genuinely don’t know how #get myself to work a lot of days. my abled peers don’t have to deal with this at all. they have unlimited study time if they want to #and yeah it is a choice i’m making that’s true i could just not do. except i would lose my job and fail out of college because i would not #be able to get to classes or do my homework or think. but being told ‘but you are making choices about your life’ when i have lost so much #of what i used to be able to do because i am spiralling down and continuing to get worse is so. #literally last year i would wake up at 6:30 and then go to school till 3 and then go to my internship until 10 and get home at 11 and be in #bed anywhere from midnight to two in the morning and then wake up the next day and do it all again. i graduated with a 3.9 gpa and made it #into my top college while dealing with my cancer symptoms and then the two surgeries about it #but now i lose half my day to just making sure i can get out of bed. i can’t go anywhere because my body is physically too exhausted #any extra time goes into doing homework or occasionally time to myself #not decimating my health by doing minimum body care responsibilities isn’t freeing. occasionally i have a good day which is freeing but tha #usually goes into just. other things outside class or work or eating. I don’t go do something for myself or go do something fun on good day #because I still can’t. good days just mean i don’t want to lie down on the pavement when i’m going somewhere #I just. I don’t magically have control over my life because i try to get enough sleep. i lose half my day to doing that and ultimately it’s #just a bodily function that would have to happen anyway #this is a vent post im just having a really hard time right now because it feels like im in exponential decline. it was nowhere near this #bad last semester. my grades are tanking and i have no free time because anything outside of sleep is either work or school #vent tw #yall can rb this just ignore my tags completely #disability #chronically ill #i keep trying to explain to people how pots works because that’s all logical but there’s no way to explain what it’s doing to my body or ho #i feel all the time. the last time i felt this bad was when i had a bad flu or immediately after surgeries because i don’t react well to #anesthesia and always come out of them feeling like shit. and now i just feel like this all the time and it’s only getting worse #I can’t even stay up late anymore because my body feels like it isn’t counting the sleep even if I get 8 hours #I can deal if I have a free day the day after but that just leaves Friday and Saturday nights and I usually still have to do homework

[nokingsonlyfooles]

EIGHT CHIPS

This is not my photo. These are not our chips. We were hungry and it didn't occur to us to take a photo. Nevertheless, we ordered pico de gallo at this restaurant, it came on a square plate just like this guac, and it had EIGHT CHIPS stuck in it. (I see TEN in the guacamole above. I suppose, that's an improvement? A couple of them seem pretty small so maybe it's like boneless wings and they're going by weight? I have so many questions and all of them are WHY??)

Our friends recommended this place. It has good Google reviews! I don't know what Canada does to a person that makes them think "chips and pico" means "EIGHT CHIPS served IN the pico for maximum sogginess" but I hope it doesn't happen to ME. If it does, let me exist in blissful ignorance and don't try to restore me to my former self.

Canada, this is a crime against my culture and me personally and YOU WILL PAY - presumably in maple syrup, or some other food you actually do well. (Keep your poutine. I don't like it!)

*sigh* All hyperbole aside, this is about how the doctor went, before dinner. She was over an hour behind again. I spent the whole time in the very bright waiting room with the heater blowing in my dry eyes. I was not in the best shape by the time she actually saw me, but I did have enough time to express my concerns, and have them dismissed. While my spouse gave me a Live Slug Reaction over the doctor's shoulder every time she condescended to me or lacked obvious information.

"What do you mean 'who did your eye surgery and when did you have it'? YOU REFERRED US! THIS IS A FOLLOW-UP!"

But there is nothing physically wrong enough to snap the doctor out of, "You're fine! See you later!" mode. My struggles are being attributed to the binocular vision dysfunction and my insanely dominant right eye. I thought we were trying to teach my brain to lean on my right eye a little less, but maybe not. I'm going to check in on Friday with the tech who gives me exercises and get some more exercises. And beyond that, the doc thinks I should keep doing what I'm already doing and I'll adjust. When, tho? Beats me!

I was not told that my binocular vision dysfunction would prolong my recovery. Maybe they were hoping it wouldn't! But it is. I'm supposed to have informed consent for making these medical decisions and I'm not getting it. I don't want to add that I HAVE OBVIOUS ROSACEA and that can make dry eyes worse, and nobody mentioned that to me at any point (not even today). I had to find that out myself Googling "dry eyes" after I already had the dang surgery.

I've got to start presenting as more masc, just for the damn doctors. Woman =/= Brain-Damaged Child with Hypochondria, but it reads that way in medicine and I'm gettin' really, literally sick of it.

#doctors #updates #eye surgery #mexican food #or whatever you wanna call that #EIGHT CHIPS #EIGHT CHIPS cost $7!! #and i have no idea what the doctor costs because the front desk people don't seem to know #they said they'd figure it out on friday #ha ha ha okay! why do i not believe you?

[thesearethingsetcetera]

the combination ice cream truck parked outside with a drum circle is really not helping me understand surgeries of the urinary tract

#i have an exam friday surgery in a week and another exam the friday following #i'm going to explode a little #or beat the ice cream truck with my bat #the drum circle can hang out its fine

[ocala-is-calling]

What a way to celebrate a first Gotcha Day! With your snoot smooshed against your favorite sleepy brother's leg!

This exact time one year ago we were nearing the end of a 12ish hour straight drive home and I was about to experience the puppy blues for all of about 2 hours before never feeling it again because you are perfect. Happy first gotcha day, baby girl ❤️ There will be at least 20 more

#dogblr #snootblr #silken windhound #ocala #1 year #14 months #catblr #Mister #these last couple of weeks have been rough #my spouse's surgery is Friday morning and I'm terrified because his heart is a bit wonky sometimes #I really hope it all goes smoothly #I did not want to derail a gotcha day post with this but I've been stressing big time 🙃 #at least it's in the tags #I'm so glad I have my pets so I can freak out a bit less