#i have been getting so many nice messages lately! thank you everyone who sends them!
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you are the cool guy I walk by every day but I'm too intimidated to say anything to if Tumblr (you are like 30-40% of my dash on any given day)
!!! this is so nice!! though i am not that cool, obvious by the fact that i am 30-40% of your dash :') i love getting asks/messages even if i can't reply right away. don't be afraid to send them!!
#asks#anonymous#i have been getting so many nice messages lately! thank you everyone who sends them!
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Same Lights, Camera, Sing Your Sins anon here (you know if I'm gonna keep sending anon asks because of ideas, I need a shorter name...) Glad they're getting time to cool off on what happened during the trial. This project is hard on them all QvQ
Okay another thought! While working on the Trial 2 MVs, you think the prisoners get to watch everyone's first MVs? Like, maybe praise how each video looks ("Oh my gosh, Amane you look amazing!"), making comments with Jackalope's artistic choices (Shidou's flower mummy) and how stiff some of the prisoners look ("Fuuta you're walking like a tinman." "Shut up!"), some singing along to songs they've overheard earlier (Kotoko singing Weakness), and...er...shirtless Mikoto ("Amane don't look!"). Idk, this makes their filming for the next MVs sound more fun as they hang out.
Hello again!! omg Thank You for sharing once again, I’m obsessed with that 🥺🥺🥺 That's so wonderful picturing a little movie night... (And yes, feel free to pick a name :D else I will dub thee 🎬 next time given the theme lmao)
Okay so my original idea was that those first videos were actually watched on the down-low. There were a few days of nothing going on while the prisoners debriefed, made plans, and communicated their song ideas to the writers to start working with. (Minor detail but I think they’re cut off from the world still, no internet access though they can exchange a few messages/visits with family). They do, however, get access to the others’ T1 videos on their phones/ facility computers. Everyone gave permission to watch them, but there’s a bit of hesitancy. They haven’t started filming their new videos yet, so no one has gotten a look that deep into anyone else’s hearts. Just because they’re closer in this au doesn’t make them better communicators -- there’s still a lot that’s been left unsaid regarding near-murders and their true selves. So they only watch them in secret out of respect.
Haruka hides under the covers to watch After Pain on loop late into the night (going “she’s just like me fr”). Fuuta doesn’t care much for the others’ songs but tries to decipher the crimes as best as he can. He probably gets one stuck in his head the next few days that he finds really embarrassing. Mahiru gets very emotional over the other lovers, doing a poor job of hiding her sympathy toward Yuno, Shidou, and Kazui in the following days. Kazui is embarrassed to watch Throw Down so often, but Shidou is such a subtle man and it’s nice to see a more open side to him (who admits to lying as well). Amane takes a while to watch them -- they’re videos supporting murder and sin, after all -- but once she convinces herself it’s to help the experiment, she allows herself to enjoy them. Kotoko does the same as Fuuta but jumps straight into Fandom Mode and starts taking notes and analyzing the others’ videos. She keeps a secret folder on her phone of theories and symbolism and screenshots for reference.
HOWEVER
You have opened my eyes to Milgram Movie Night 👁️👁️
Everyone realizes they’re going to need to get comfortable with a lot of personal info really quickly, since T2 filming starts in a few days. Rather than Jackalope’s suggestion of undergoing a painful group circle talk, they go with Mikoto’s idea to all sit down to watch the videos together. This keeps the atmosphere up while they watch, allowing for many compliments and encouragement. It also lets the singer defend things in their video if they see fit, though most let it speak for itself. (Fuuta: “ah, back when I was a menace online.” “You’re still like that Fuuta.” “I’m a changed man!” “You got one guilty verdict and nothing’s even happened yet.”)
I love all of those reactions so much ahhhh! Amane getting showered in compliments like she deserves. Honestly, all of them getting showered in complements because it's what they deserve ;-; Playful teasing getting thrown around for everyone. Not even Jackalope is safe from their heckling (see: Throw Down flower person), and he's not even there to defend himself. There’s lots of blushing and eye covering during MeMe. And a singalong aspect!! I don’t know I didn’t think to incorporate that into the fic so far -- there’s nothing quite like heckling your friend onstage by echoing their lines really loud from the wings asdfsdfsd. Mikoto recognizes the video game from Fuuta’s and makes his whole day. Mahiru and Shidou realize they have both flowers and food in common, and get to talking. All at once, everything clicks into place for why Amane hated Shidou him so much.
I'm also realizing Kazui would have a Moment TM while seeing all the prisoners talking so comfortably about their deepest selves and struggles. I don't think he'd break down and open up just yet, but I bet it's be a pretty big change of heart for him to see such honesty/vulnerability...
Plus, most of my original ideas can still stand after the fact! There's no shame in seeing too much personal info about another prisoner, the only shame comes from just how many time the video was looped in private lmao
#milgram#thank you for sharing your thoughts waaahhh these have been making me sooo crazy!!!#and ive seen people using emoji nicknames and thought it was cute but feel free to pick an actual name haha#i would do anything for the vas to cover other trial songs ;-;#i just love the idea of them singing together so much...#im not a theater kid but i did dance and been backstage for some shows so i know what its like when the rest of the company is shouting out#the song thats currently playing for the dancers onstage#im just picturing the prisoners getting silly on set while the background track is playing and they start singing along#or like everyone shouting along with muu's big moment 'kawaiso nano!' or joining in the 'aaahhh-LOVE' in cat#ill have to keep that in mind for the t3 drabbles....#this made me remember theres a line in the fic insinuating kazui never saw harrow so maybe i go back and fix that later#because i always intended for them to see all the videos#i try to keep my fics fairly ship-neutral but theres definitely potential here for prisoners getting caught looping the singer they have#a thing for :')#lights camera sing your sins#ask
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» ━━ SABRINA CARPENTER ‘ EMAILS I CAN’T SEND ’ SENTENCE MEMES.
lyrics pulled from sabrina carpenter’s album ‘ emails i can’t send. ’ please amend pronouns where necessary. nsfw content present.
EMAILS I CAN’T SEND.
“ it’s times like these i wish i had a time machine. ”
“ were you really sleeping ? ”
“ were you lying to me and the family ? ”
“ there’s no us in us when i’m lacking trust. ”
“ you want to discuss ? ”
“ you disgust me. ”
“ don’t make me cuss you out. ”
“ why did you let me down ? ”
“ don’t say sorry now. ”
“ thanks to you, i can’t love right. ”
“ i get nice guys and villainise them. ”
“ i read their texts like they’re having sex right now. ”
“ i’m scared i’ll find out that it’s true. ”
“ i blame you for every worst i assume. ”
“ don’t think i’ll find forgiveness as fast as mom did. ”
“ god i love you, but you’re such a dipshit. ”
“ you were all i looked up to, now i can’t even look at you. ”
VICIOUS.
" it was dressed up in heated emotion. ”
“ i tried to look for the best in the worst. ”
“ fuck me, that caused a commotion. ”
“ you’re lucky i’m a private person. ”
“ i’ve quietly carried your burden. ”
“ everyone thinks you’re an angel but shit, i would probably use different wording. ”
“ you’re so vicious. ”
“ love me and then pretend you didn’t. ”
“ crush my heart and wreck my image. ”
“ why you gotta be so vicious ? ”
“ you just run to whoever is winning. ”
“ you said it was me and you for life and now you’re kinda acting like i died. ”
“ you don’t feel remorse. you don’t feel the effects. ”
“ you don’t think you hurt me if you wish me the best. ”
“ i should have known all along i was only the next one to take your love songs as a promise. ”
“ i loved you, but i wish i didn’t. ”
READ YOUR MIND.
“ i can’t read your mind. ”
“ you say that you need to be alone, but night and day you want me at your beck and call. ”
“ you say you know that you might be crossing a line.. ”
“ to think we could ever be casual. ”
“ you’re not my friend. ”
“ why the fuss ? if you say you wanna be mine ? ”
“ tell me, what’s going to happen when it’s you and me in a room but you know you can’t have it ? ”
“ did i get the message in the way you intended ? ”
“ tell me that you need me in your life. ”
BECAUSE I LIKED A BOY.
“ you showed up with a boombox. ”
“ who knew cuddling on trampolines could be so reckless ? ”
“ we bonded over black eyed peas and complicated exes. ”
“ it was all so innocent. ”
“ now i’m a homewrecker, i’m a slut. ”
“ i’ve got death threats filling up semitrucks. ”
“ tell me who i am. ”
“ guess i don’t have a choice. ”
“ i’m the hot topic on your tongue. ”
“ i’m a rebound getting around stealing from the young. ”
“ everything’s derailing. ”
“ i was only trying to hold you close. ”
“ you said i’m too late to be your first love but i’ll always be your favourite. ”
“ and all of this for what ? ”
“ when everything went down, we’d already broken up ! ”
ALREADY OVER.
“ we’ve been talking for hours about how we shouldn’t talk for hours on end. ”
“ we’d probably be better off as friends. ”
“ same time here next weekend ? ”
“ say we won’t do this again. ”
“ how am i supposed to close the door when i still need the closure ? ”
“ how am i supposed to leave you now ? ”
“ selfishly, i don’t want to give you time to be on someone else’s lips. ”
“ after the aftermath, i know you’ll be coming back. ”
HOW MANY THINGS.
“ there’s no hiding from the thought of us. ”
“ i got ways to find you anywhere. ”
“ i consider you, i’m not trying to. ”
“ it doesn’t matter whether or not i want to, i can’t help it. ”
“ it’s a habit. ”
“ your corner in my mind is well established. ”
“ i wonder how many things you think about before you get to me. ”
“ i feel myself falling further down your priorities. ”
“ i still make excuses for you constantly. ”
“ remember when you left once ? that never made too much sense to me. ”
“ it hurt you so bad hurting me. ”
“ you really came to me for sympathy. ”
“ am i not even a second thought ? ”
BET U WANNA.
“ you told me i’m your only. ”
“ it’s all unfolding babe. ”
“ didn’t think about it when you let me down. ”
“ hurts to see me out of your reach. ”
“ bet you want to love me now. ”
“ that’s right, feel the way it feels when you don’t have control. ”
“ is it feeding all your fears ? ”
“ i bet you hate the way that you said goodbye, and you can’t even tell me why. ”
“ i hate the way that you left me dry. ”
“ i’ll keep that between you and i. ”
NONSENSE.
“ i might change your contact to ‘don’t leave me alone’. ”
“ you said you like my eyes and you like to make them roll. ”
“ treat me like a queen. ”
“ now you’ve got me thrown. ”
“ i can’t help myself when you get close to me. ”
“ i don’t want no one else. ”
“ here’s a lil song i wrote, it’s about you and me. ”
“ i’ll be honest, looking at you got me thinking nonsense. ”
“ when you’ve got your arms around me, it feels so good. ”
“ i can’t find my chill, i must have lost it. ”
FAST TIMES.
“ sky looks so purple i can taste it. ”
“ what the fuck is patience ? ”
“ give me a second to forget i ever really meant it. ”
“ my feelings used to be serrated. ”
“ you speak in such a perfect cadence. ”
BAD FOR BUSINESS.
“ he’s good for my heart, but he’s bad for business. ”
“ he tears me apart when he grants my wishes. ”
“ all my friends think i’ve gone crazy. ”
“ we look good in photographs. ”
“ i like the way you like to laugh at dirty jokes. ”
“ i’ve never been so glad to be so tired. ”
“ i’m mad for you. ”
“ it’s sad but it’s true. ”
“ if i’m just writing happy songs, will anybody sing along ? ”
“ you had to go and break into my head. ”
“ i would try to fight these feelings but i can’t find a single reason. ”
“ i’d make all the same mistakes again. ”
“ he’s good, it’s bad. the best i’ve ever had. ”
“ i know that everyone sees that he’ll be the death of me. ”
DECODE.
“ you’re good at the falling, not the staying there. ”
“ you’re good at the giving too much and then getting scared. ”
“ you’re good at impersonating someone who cares. ”
“ you had me for a minute there. ”
“ now i wonder why i let your confusion keep me up at night. ”
“ i reread every single undertone and i overanalyse it. ”
“ where else can we go ? ”
“ there’s nothing left here to decode. i’m done looking for signs. ”
“ there’s a weight off my shoulders now that i don’t chase you. ”
“ did that emasculate you ? ”
“ learning from you that i can walk away too. ”
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you're making me consider watching those east asian (korean? japanese?) romantic tv shows you watch. do you have any recommendations for someone who tried to watch one (1) k-drama once (1x) and quickly stopped because the genre conventions were very different from what i was used to and that made it take more energy than i was expecting. (was expecting a typical romantic comedy plot like i'm used to and like, i think it was a typical romantic comedy plot but just like, not western)
like, is there a show that's relatively easy to get into? did i get unlucky with that one k-drama (and my own capacity for adjustment in that moment)?
also something that can help me watch stuff is episode summaries to read beforehand, if you're the kind of person who reads episode summaries sometimes and if so, do you have a recommendation for where to read them?
if this ask feels like work to you, please don't answer it. but if this feels like a nice chance to get someone into a thing you're into, i'd love to hear your recommendations
also i'm guessing they don't speak english in thesee shows, nor dutch, so like, would the first result on google for "show name watch free online" typically have good subtitles or are there things to watch out for or look for?
hi bestie, thank you so much for sending me this ask! i'm really happy to hear that my obsession has made you want to check out what the fuss is all about 😍 i've been almost exclusively watching shows from thailand for the past few months, and i'll gladly recommend some! (as for the episode summaries thing, i'm sorry i can't help you, i never read stuff like that.)
many of these shows are free to watch on youtube, and they usually come with english subtitles of varying quality. lately, gmmtv shows have had really amazing translations, but you need to be a bit forgiving with some of the older shows and shows made by other studios.
that said, let's get into the recommendations!
personally, i started this journey with kinnporsche the series (2022, 14 episodes), but that's like being dropped into the ocean from 500 feet above ground with no warning and expected to stay alive by any means necessary. the experience was absolutely amazing and 100% life-changing for me, and i've been showing kp to as many of my irl friends as possible because in my opinion, everyone should watch it, but as a first foray into thai bl it is... a LOT. (if that sounds intriguing to you, message me privately about where to watch it.)
however, here are some other suggestions in case you want to ease into the whole thing:
are you into comedy?
bad buddy (2021, 12 episodes) free to watch on youtube
this one became an instant classic and has a HUGE fandom here on tumblr. two college students have a shared history as the kids of two families who hate each other, and have been made to compete in everything since childhood... however, what their parents didn't plan for was the two of them falling in love. amazing chemistry between the main couple, will make you ugly cry.
my school president (2022, 12 episodes) free to watch on viki
super sweet romcom about a group of school friends who are in a band and are trying to win a battle of the bands type competition. the main love story is cute, heartfelt and very moving and you're going to end up wanting to adopt all of the kids.
care for some higher heat?
only friends (2023, ongoing) free to watch on youtube
if you want to get into something that's currently airing with a vibrant and active fandom, try only friends. everyone is problematic, morality is for losers, it's incredibly erotic, it's been three episodes and almost all of the main characters have already had sex scenes. plot what plot/insane college friend group without plot.
in case you would like to sob uncontrollably:
laws of attraction (2023, ongoing) free to watch on youtube
a man's niece is killed in a car accident that might actually be a murder. said man hires an unhinged lawyer to investigate. still airing (final episode will air on saturday), WILL twist your heart in such a way that you're probably going to need therapy. insanely heated chemistry between the main pairing, absolutely incredible acting from film thanapat.
moonlight chicken (2023, 8 episodes) free to watch on youtube
a poor restaurant owner is struggling dealing with raising his nephew, his own trauma and the pressures of capitalism. also, some guy he slept with keeps hanging around his restaurant because he wants to teach him to love again. this show makes you feel pain but it always hands you a cup of hot chocolate and caresses your back right after. aftercare for the viewer done right.
free philosophy classes wanted?
not me (2021, 14 episodes) free to watch on youtube
local group of gay anarchists are trying to bring a capitalist to justice. they discuss the concepts of justice and morality at length. what exactly is the power of art? if the law is unjust, then how to define justice? and how can we change the world for the better? made by a trans woman, a must-watch in the genre.
be my favorite (2023, 12 episodes) free to watch on youtube
what does it mean to live a good life? how can we ever know what choices to make? what if you could go back and change the things you did wrong? very gentle, compassionate and kind storytelling. this is my personal favorite bl after kinnporsche and about as far from kinnporsche storytelling-wise as anything could possibly get.
why not go for the classics?
until we meet again (2019, 17 episodes) free to watch on youtube
two college students discover they have a soulmate bond and get flashes of memory from their previous lives, making one of them incredibly traumatized as they try to find out what really happened back then. this one is truly a classic bl: filmed on a potato, atrocious audio quality, trope-heavy. however, the way this show manages to sneak up on you and threaten your entire life is unparalleled and i'm still not over those final two episodes.
he's coming to me (2019, 8 episodes) free to watch on youtube
this one is a hidden gem. there's almost no fandom for it on here but it's a show that i can recommend wholeheartedly. a guy falls in love with a ghost he keeps seeing in the cemetery and tries to help him unravel the secret of his violent death. features a whole bunch of actors who are now considered veterans/heavy hitters.
i hope this was helpful! message me if you have any more questions 😊
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hi meda!
i’m back with another “gentle reminders” ask. it goes in line with one of my personal goals this year of trying to work on my kindness and how i show that kindness to others.
the beginning of a new year is always a bit tough for many people, for many reasons but at the scale of the fandom, i have noticed some negativity starting to spread. maybe it’s bound to happen on any social media but i always considered tumblr to be different, to be over the kind of discourse you could find on other apps. this place has been a true haven for many of us and i would like to keep it that way, so i thought, as a way to counterbalance this negativity, i could compensate with a nice message for one of the driving forces in the fandom: our dear writers.
i would like to begin by saying thank you.
thank you for dedicating your time, your energy, your love and sharing pieces of yourself with us. the fandom wouldn’t be what it is without you: just like a body needs a brain or a heart to function properly, fandoms need writers like they need others contributing. thank you for offering diversity, engaging with different tropes and characters to reach as many readers as possible. i will admit, some things proposed are not my cup of tea but i know they can be enjoyed by others, the same way some of my favorite fics wouldn’t necessarily attract others. so thank you for giving a chance to everyone to find what they enjoy, to discover, to learn, to cry, to laugh, to love and to be able to do so in an open, safe space.
thank you for interacting with us as well. thank you for responding to our questions, sharing snippets when we get impatient, teasing us with your new ideas and making life a little more fun and exciting every day.
and of course, thank you for doing all of this for free. for expecting so little in return when you give us so much.
now a few things i want you to remember:
although we’re all thankful for having access to your art, your first fan should be yourself. write what you enjoy, write that self-indulgent fic, write your favorite trope, an improbable duo or crossover because you’ve always wanted to. do it for yourself.
in the same way, have fun with it. writing is a hobby, it’s not your job, it’s not supposed to be a chore. so do what makes you happy.
don’t worry about updating fics, about being slow, about posting too much or too little. some things might take time, some might need an hour to be posted but in the end, they all matter just the same. they’re worth being read and cherished and we will appreciate them.
whether you have thousands of notes or barely a few hundreds, you have your place here. you’re still an amazing writer, you’re still an artist regardless of the stats.
whether i've had time to binge-read your stories or just discovered you. thank you. i love you. i’m grateful for you. i see and appreciate your work. your efforts. you.
i’m sorry if you’ve ever been received with negativity but i hope this can make up for some of it.
you deserve nothing but kindness and appreciation and i hope you know how much you matter here.
sending you all my love,
anna 💗
Oh goodness gracious…I’m not going to lie, this made me a tad bit emotional. I haven’t posted much of my work. And honestly, that’s partially due to the level of negativity that has been propagating lately in this fandom. For me, it makes it a lot harder to just let go and write and post what I want to.
Hell, I currently have a WIP that I’m genuinely loving but I’m so afraid of subjecting it to an audience that can be so unforgiving. But no more. None of us should let that fear control the art we produce. It’s a story I want to tell so it deserves telling.
Kindness from folks like you heals a little bit of my soul. It reassures me to know that amidst the discourse and negativity, there are plenty of people who also just want to hang out, have fun, and spread love. Thank you for taking the time to send out these asks to folks in the community. Please know that your words mean a great deal and that they’re hugely appreciated. Take care of yourself and don’t be a stranger, Anna. 💛
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hi nini!
i’m back with another “gentle reminders” ask. it goes in line with one of my personal goals this year of trying to work on my kindness and how i show that kindness to others.
the beginning of a new year is always a bit tough for many people, for many reasons but at the scale of the fandom, i have noticed some negativity starting to spread. maybe it’s bound to happen on any social media but i always considered tumblr to be different, to be over the kind of discourse you could find on other apps. this place has been a true haven for many of us and i would like to keep it that way, so i thought, as a way to counterbalance this negativity, i could compensate with a nice message for one of the driving forces in the fandom: our dear writers.
i would like to begin by saying thank you.
thank you for dedicating your time, your energy, your love and sharing pieces of yourself with us. the fandom wouldn’t be what it is without you: just like a body needs a brain or a heart to function properly, fandoms need writers like they need others contributing. thank you for offering diversity, engaging with different tropes and characters to reach as many readers as possible. i will admit, some things proposed are not my cup of tea but i know they can be enjoyed by others, the same way some of my favorite fics wouldn’t necessarily attract others. so thank you for giving a chance to everyone to find what they enjoy, to discover, to learn, to cry, to laugh, to love and to be able to do so in an open, safe space.
thank you for interacting with us as well. thank you for responding to our questions, sharing snippets when we get impatient, teasing us with your new ideas and making life a little more fun and exciting every day.
and of course, thank you for doing all of this for free. for expecting so little in return when you give us so much.
now a few things i want you to remember:
although we’re all thankful for having access to your art, your first fan should be yourself. write what you enjoy, write that self-indulgent fic, write your favorite trope, an improbable duo or crossover because you’ve always wanted to. do it for yourself.
in the same way, have fun with it. writing is a hobby, it’s not your job, it’s not supposed to be a chore. so do what makes you happy.
don’t worry about updating fics, about being slow, about posting too much or too little. some things might take time, some might need an hour to be posted but in the end, they all matter just the same. they’re worth being read and cherished and we will appreciate them.
whether you have thousands of notes or barely a few hundreds, you have your place here. you’re still an amazing writer, you’re still an artist regardless of the stats.
whether i've had time to binge-read your stories or just discovered you. thank you. i love you. i’m grateful for you. i see and appreciate your work. your efforts. you.
i’m sorry if you’ve ever been received with negativity but i hope this can make up for some of it.
you deserve nothing but kindness and appreciation and i hope you know how much you matter here.
sending you all my love,
anna 💗
omg sweet anna!! 😭 where do i even begin??
this is incredibly kind. despite all the discourse that’s happened lately on social media, people like you who choose to spread kindness trump all negativity.
my page being called a safe space is truly the highest praise, thank you 🥹 genuinely hope people find my blog as a safe space to be who they are, and to just be. 🫶🏼
thank you so so much for your generosity, and the gentle reminders. i’ve been down in the dumps about my writing lately, and this just boosted my confidence and motivation. 🥹
you unknowingly made my whole MONTH with your sweetness, and i just want you to know how grateful i am for you. your love and warmth is palpable, i wanna grab you and hug you through the screen! thank you for being here and for being you. 🫂
i love you, sweet girl!! 🩷
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Hi grandma ♡ first off, I just want to say thank you for being here. I don't really have either of my biological grandmothers anymore, and I never got to come out to either of them, so having you here is comforting, in a way. I hope you're having a lovely pride month.
Today I learned how to use a new feature on my drawing app! It makes taking the background out of pictures *much* easier, which means I can make even more edits and art easily!
I also finally remade an old pin. The first piece of pride merch I made myself (in secret) was a pin made out of hot glue and nail polish and it had the word "Ace" on a galaxy background. Today, now that I'm out and have learned new art mediums, I was able to remake it in uv resin, and it looks so pretty, and I love how the change from simple, easy to work with, quick-and-messy to more complex, detailed, and professional looking illustrates how I was in the closet compared to how I am now that I can be out.
It also feels kind of empowering, which is nice because lately with the news I've been feeling pretty anxious and unsure, because although I live in a pretty safe state, not everyone does, and I fear for the rest of our community and for the future of the US (and the world). So having something that represents being unapologetic is nice.
Lastly, it's officially six years since I got my asexual pride ring that I wear basically 24/7, and I feel really proud of who I've become and I'm really happy about who I've been able to meet because of being part of the queer community. I wish the ace and aro communities were more accepted and welcomed in online pride spaces, but the experiences I've had in real life have been nothing but wonderful.
Are you looking forward to anything this pride? Do you have any new projects you're working on? I'd love to hear about them! I hope you have a wonderful evening, and a wonderful pride month. Thank you, grandma ♡
oh my dearest, this is the sweetest message and i appreciate your kind words and hearing about your art and what is happening for you more than you could ever know.
i am so proud of you and who you are! you sound like a wonderful person and artist with much light to share with the world and our community! how lucky we are to have you.
in excellent and hopeful news, some harmful legislation has not been passed in the US which is a great relief for our community. i know things can be quite frightening at the moment but i’m trying to see the hope when it comes.
this pride, i am so fortunate to have a very very wonderful girlfriend! we had a delightful celebration picnic this week and are planning ways to celebrate our love and community. my library is hosting a local queer history exhibit i am very excited to investigate. i’ve many artistic projects on the go at the moment! i just finished up production week on a show i am currently working on which was thrilling and wonderful. i’ve recently got a rather large commission i’m very excited to get started on also. today though, i am enjoying the sun on the balcony with tea and an excellent book.
my exceptional friend, i am wishing you the happiest and safest of pride months! thank you for your joyous update and please do keep me in the loop! sending you all my love 💛
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Tw talks about bipolar disorder and adhd ahead
If a friend texts that she’s sick in a work group chat do you expect her to text you privately because you’ve made plans go to out to eat because she said “I’ll text you tomorrow how I feel”
When I asked about it I got this as an message “Also put in the group app that I'm sick. Thought that was clear” like bitch yes maybe to them but I’m not a fucking dog but I’d really liked it if you’d shot me a text privately.. ughhh it took everything in me not to tell her a private one would have been nice
Lately things she’s telling don’t match with what she’s telling at work. Now all of a sudden she has ADHD solemnly because her bf got in a small car accident which means she’s not the center of attention anymore. I told my mom about it and she found it strange like you can’t have bipolar disorder and ADHD (she never got officially diagnosed by a doctor.. as far as I know) ever since the new year started I feel like we’re kinda like casual colleagues and JUST friends you know like I don’t know shit about her anymore
(Also do I work with my /best/ friend yes. Do I regret telling 1,5 years ago that it was fine by me if she started working the same job as me FUCK YES. I’ve send you an ask about my best not so best friend last year or so. So maybe you know who I am, I also did send you an ask with a tw up top before. Anyways I feel a lot calmer now that I could vent to someone.)
Thanks for always listening to our bitch ass stories and giving feedback on what to do going forward. You don’t have to answer if you don’t want to.
hmmm. first of all, hug 🫂 i'm sorry the two of you have been going through a rough patch... such things always suck big time :(
so, i'd say it'd be best to communicate that with her — but in order to do that, i'd start calmly, when you're in a peaceful mindset, and not too angry anymore.
i think when someone's sick, the energy is quite low, right? perhaps she forgot your guys' plans (which sucks); or maybe she thought it'd be sufficient to put the message in your gc? yeah, i personally would still text someone privately, but that's different for everyone, too. though she probably could've phrased it nicer than she did...
about the bipolar/adhd thing, i unfortunately don't know enough about this, but i did a quick google search and apparently those two can co-occur? if someone's able to educate me on this, please feel free :') self-diagnosis, however, is never good, and it happens way too often these days.
so yeah, i think communication always helps if you're open for it!! if possible, suggest for her to go to a doc, too, bc they could give her a definite diagnosis at least. same with the friendship/colleague thing... spill it all out.
and you know, if that convo doesn't work out, that's okay, too. people grow apart, which can absolutely happen when you guys work together as well, since there are so many more layers you get to know about that person. sometimes their personality doesn't align with ours anymore. but i've had such convos before, and some made the friendship stronger and some ended them — both is ok and part of life !!
i'm really happy venting helped you <3 i'm here anytime, no worries babe. y'all are always here for me, too !! but yes, do try a convo — i'm trying to see both your povs and i feel like that's the best solution for now. good luck, love 🥺
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Tag Game: Reveal Your Blogging Style
Thanks to @boysbeloving !! also i completely forgot to do the previous one so i'll add that to the end of this!✨
Highlight what applies to you (blue is my commentary)
different blogs for different interests OR all-in-one blog //
default theme OR custom theme //
one username till death OR change username according to mood/obsession // (i've only changed twice in the 10 yrs i've been here)
round avatar OR square avatar //
personal avatar OR fandom related avatar // (ish)
thematic consistency between header image and avatar OR who gives a fuck //
reblog without tags OR reblog with tags //
category tags only OR personal commentary in tags (along with category tags sometimes) //
like+reblog OR only reblog // (if i only reblog i probably didn't actually want to but felt like i should for whatever reason)
replies allowed on posts OR replies switched off //
askbox open OR askbox closed //
anons allowed OR anons blocked //
respond to every mention in replies OR be a hermit //
a quiet observer and enjoyer OR initiate conversation with an unknown blogger // (i totally would but somehow my social anxiety is worse online lmao)
send ask OR send message on chat OR converse with people in replies // (i only reply to people, can't initiate bc of above reason)
blog from computer/laptop OR blog from phone // (ok im doing this on my laptop bc it's easier but otherwise no)
personal posts OR fandom posts only // (well out of the... 98.000? posts i have less than 10 are personal so) (i def get personal in the tags tho)
have a well organised filled queue OR post intermittently and make it everybody else's problem OR post daily like it's a 9 to 5 //
likes and following displayed on blog OR likes and following hidden //
for the username meaning game: i have a list of words that i really like (that either look nice, sound nice, or feel nice when you say them? idk might be a neurodivergent thing) and cosmic was one of my faves (also bc like... space and stars and stuff<3
and then snufkin is my fave moomin character and the one i relate to the most (and tove jansson is my icon so it felt appropriate)
also the concept of a cosmic-wanderer snufkin is lovely<3
i'd really like to tag so many people but it's late and i can't think of anyone except @sweetsoursugarcube and @vegastheerapanyakul so everyone else pls just consider yourself tagged!! (i'd love to see ppls answers to both tag games!)
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𝐒𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐬' 𝐬𝐥𝐮𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐲 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐭 ༊*·˚
💌 You have been sent an invitation for Smiles' slumber party!
This event will occur every weekend starting on the 9th March up until the 31st March! I hope you take interest in coming along, it would be fun to get to know each other and make memories for this special month!
A message from the host:
Hi guys! I'm happy to announce that I will finally hold an event for my birthday this year! As my birthday is on the 12th March, and unfortunately on a Tuesday, I have decided to do this event for the weekends so we can spend time together!
I would also like to thank everyone, especially those who have been interacting with me, for achieving another milestone during my time here. A handful know that this is my fourth year with this blog and I've met so many lovely moots and followers! Thank you for 2.8k followers and a belated anniversary for this blog!
Choose your activity and more info below !
Activities (you can join more than one!)
౨ৎ ˖ ࣪⊹ Mini Drabble Event using these prompts and send these for me to write. During the slumber party I will post your request with the chosen prompt, the member(s) you would like and the genre. More details the better! (minors stay away from nsfws, view the masterlist at your own risk).
E.g: Could I request [prompt] with [member(s)] and [genre]. [Added detail if you have any so I can see your vision 🫶🏼]
I will post these during the weekends, but you can send them in early so I can have some time to work on them :>
౨ৎ ˖ ࣪⊹ Pass the polaroid! This activity is up to your imagination! Whether you would like to post something to write, create a smau (e.g. texts), moodboard or whatever it is you would like! The creativity field is in your hands! Be sure to tag me in your post, and use the #smiles' slumber party tag so I can reblog it 🤎
Also, please post during the event dates—on the weekends! It'll be like a nice wind down for the end of the week hehe
౨ৎ ˖ ࣪⊹ Queue your song! Similar to mini drabble event (but without the prompt). send me a song of your choice, a member(s) and a genre. I will listen to the song and write a short scenario based off of that song! I would love to know what you guys listen to <3
౨ৎ ˖ ࣪⊹ Get to know me! Send me an ask, ask questions, talk to me about what you're currently reading and send me recs, or we can talk about anything! I would love to talk to more of you. A reminder that anon option is on so if you're shy, then it's okay! <3
Be sure to RSVP (send an ask) if you are wanting to join! This will be the masterlist for the event so posts will be linked below! I hope to hear from you and I can't wait to celebrate this birth month with you!
— Love, Smiles ᡣ𐭩
Masterlist:
౨ৎ Mini drabble event:
₊ ⊹ @junniieesbby — backrow theatre - c.bg, k.th (smut)
₊ ⊹ @honajoong — tba...
₊ ⊹ @blackhairedjjun — late nights, city lights - c.yj (comfort, fluff)
₊ ⊹ anonie — accident - ot5 (angst)
౨ৎ Pass the polaroid:
₊ ⊹ @miupow — orange peel theory w/ txt (texts, fluff)
₊ ⊹ @junniieesbby — tba...
₊ ⊹ @mazeinthemoon — yeonjun moodboard ᡣ𐭩
₊ ⊹ 30th: @seolis-world — tba…
౨ৎ Queue your song:
₊ ⊹ @miupow — tba....
₊ ⊹ @honajoong — tba...
₊ ⊹ @lovejoshua — tba…
₊ ⊹ @seolis-world — best mistake - k.th (angst)
౨ৎ Get to know me:
₊ ⊹ @lovejoshua — ask 1, ask 2, ask 3, ask 4, ask 5,
₊ ⊹ @writingmochi — ask 1, ask 2, ask 3, ask 4, ask 5
₊ ⊹ @blackhairedjjun — ask 1
#smiles' slumber party#it's march!!#come and join <3#txt scenarios#txt imagines#txt drabbles#pls boost!#even if you don't join#I hope someone who sees your rb will!
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I had a good day for the most part. Yesterday I felt like I couldn't catch a break so it was nice that it wasn't as busy for me today. I was able to get caught up this morning and I even had time to get a burrito for breakfast. Normally I have less than 10 minutes to run to the cafeteria in the morning and I don't get to enjoy my food because I have to inhale it.
I only had 1 bad thing happen at work. I found out who was trying to call me last week. Of course it was a debt collector and I had to tell them not to contact me there. I am pretty stressed about my financial situation but it's my fault for being unable to keep on top of stuff. I have been irresponsible. I don't want to get in trouble again. I'm already working with a debt consolidation company as it is and I will probably have to call them at some point. It's very difficult for me to get anything done on the days I work because my brain is fried by the time I get home. It's usually too late to call anyone if I need to. I need to start asking to pay for things right away if I can when I have appointments so I don't get so overwhelmed later. I wish I didn't have so many medical bills to keep track of because that's the only thing I'm having problems with. At least my credit card is paid off and I haven't wanted to use it. I'm probably going to spend a lot of my weekend on the phone because I need to get shit figured out even though that's the last thing I am going to want to do. I should be able to pay a lot of my debt off but I'm not sure how much I will have left after that. I'm tired of feeling like I have people breathing down my neck and calling me all the time.
I have never felt so disorganized in my entire life. I went to leave for work this morning and I caused a mini avalanche in my room because I have so much stuff piled up. I wasn't even mad about it and I just laughed because it's so absurd. Sadly I have gotten used to not being able to walk in here and not being able to find anything. I haven't felt like doing anything about it now that I'm home. It probably will stay like that until the weekend because I don't have the energy to deal with it right now but I know it needs to be taken care of soon. My back has also been bothering me a lot today and I just want to sit because I have been on my feet all day. I wish I felt better too because that would make my life so much easier but I feel bad pretty much every day.
I also think I would feel better if I wasn't constantly worried about our relationship. I am not blaming anyone for my problems. It does affect me a lot though and I can't help it. I've realized that it's very difficult for me to focus on anything when I'm in love with someone. I know things will get better soon. I am trusting you. I'm not sure what I am supposed to do though. I don't know if I'm supposed to say something or not because it feels like you don't want me to. I am so confused and I wish I knew what I was doing. I'm so afraid I'm going to do something wrong and upset you. I don't want to lose you.
Thank you for sending me nice messages today. I appreciate it. They made me smile. 💖💖💖
I am very tired right now and I don't have much else to say. I will try not to worry about stuff anymore tonight. I need to get something to eat at some point and I have stuff I need to do before I go to bed. I hope I'm not up too late and that tomorrow is a good day.
I hope everyone else has a good day tomorrow too!!! :)
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When you get this respond with five things that make you happy!!! Then send to the last ten people you got notifications from. (p.s. hope you're having a nice day <3)
hi annalise!
aahhh! i'm back!! seeing your constant kind messages in my inbox, as silly as it sounds, has been helping me through really hard times. if nobody got me i know my fellow horror coquette-y girlies / ghesties got me :')
5 things that are making me happy right now!
autumn on campus! i live in a city and i get to buy my silly little 7 dollar coffee and walk around to look at the leaves after class!
horror movies! rewatching all the old favourites, observant summer-studiers can tell which ones im watching based on the gifsets i reblog lol!
candles! i've moved from an incense to a candle girl since i can't open the window in my little sublet space since it's too chilly, there are SO many weird candle flavours? vampire blood my beloved
academic validation! sorry for abandoning answering my inbox / updating writing stuff but i'm getting positive attention for schoolwork and it's been really, really, REALLY keeping me going
THE FACT I HAVE GLASSES! i didn't realise how bad i needed them until i own them, so expect a stark decline in typos from me ;)
that's all! thank you for everyone who's been checking up on me even though i've been pretty in the dark lately. love you mutuals, and for people who unfollowed me because they thought i abandoned you im back with the milk baybee!! <33
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i want to preface this by saying i have good intentions AND i am not the best with wording things or getting the point across. take this message if it helps, delete it if it doesn’t! you are not obligated to reply to this either, and i also understand my mindset isn’t going to work for everyone. you can’t reply to anon asks privately, but you don’t have to post this if you don’t want to, either :)
i just want to say that the amount of engagement you get doesn’t matter. i want to see your stuff! i want to see you post about your self ships and your faves and all the things you like — but i also want to remind you that getting a bunch of asks doesn’t make you any less or more valid, okay?
i admit that i get not feeling wanted or accepted by the community (there are a SURPRISING number of people who feel this way, too) so i’m not trying to be like “grrr you’re being so negative! who cares?!?! just cheer up and be magically happy :)” bc it doesn’t work like that, unfortunately 😅 but i want to remind you that you also deserve your space in the community, so please don’t delete your blog over a lack of interactions.
whether you get one letter or many, you are just as equally loved and appreciated AND worthy of having a space online. there are definitely more popular blogs out there with many many interactions (i find myself envying them, too) but that does not make them better than you. besides, i find that the people who often send them asks are like, their friends anyways. (but i lack any in the comm, so.. 💀)
me personally, i often hold back from sending letters because i don’t know many of the popular sources and am afraid of making it ooc 💔 they have anons off and i don’t want them to be weirded out or reveal my blog, etc. but never ever have i not done it because i disliked the blog personally or anything. it does not mean anyone dislikes you or doesn’t care about your ships (honestly: even if nobody cared, you should still post about the things you like) but i will admit that it does feel nice to know some stranger put the effort into writing for you, that people like hearing your stuff, so i’m also sort of conflicted...
i don’t even know where i’m going with this 😅 but i just wanted to say, from one stranger to another, you are very much loved and appreciated. i understand it can be lonely and i am not trying to give you advice or be all like “you’re too sensitive” or nothing! i am just trying to say that i hear you and i hope you either get the interaction you want or learn to be okay with the lack of it. take care and please be more kind to yourself, i hope you do not spiral into negativity and self hatred. we are only here for so long, please be more kind to yourself if you can help it.
sending all my love (and a cold pillow) 💗
Thank you... Ive just really wanted engagement lately bc I've felt pretty dam lonely and having trouble coming up with new situations. My brains been kind of repeating the same stuff on loop and unless I luck out and get an f/o dream it's just the same stuff I've seen a million times before and I'm not sure how to get new thoughts.
I also... Frequently join communities and see everyone get way more love than me and it reminds me of growing up alone a lot. Jebeheb
I'm trying to make friends in to community rlly rlly hard I'm just. Shy and awkward hdhdhfhft. I want to talk to so many ppl but outside of like memes I'm scared to. Even letters I'm scared to bc I have like... No confidence in my writing jsjsjer it's one thing if I'm writing for myself but writing for someone else is scary.
Thank you though...maybe I just need to take a breath and a step back and maybe a break. I just don't know what to do for an escape other than self ship fhfudir I never formed a lot of coping mechanisms just fiction and lately it's been harder and harder for me to get that on my own and I want help from others
I know I shouldn't rely on engagement your right Abt that. I'm trying not to and this did help me feel better. I just wish I could get some help w getting new things in my brain I guess
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Chapter Eight- BIIIIG Truck, BIIIIG Attitude
10/3/2022
You know usually I start typing into this a little earlier in the day because then I don’t forget as much. Although, in all honesty this entire day has been a bit, ummm, distracted.
I just deleted everything I just typed because I was distracted. Imagine that. Now to remember what I had typed. Insert eye roll here. At least it was just one paragraph
I woke up before my alarm. Which was nice. I got to enjoy my coffee and I got my website online. Which honestly I didn’t think I’d be so excited about because I didn’t really know much I’d like venting into a screen everyday. Turns out I really enjoy it. Enough so that I find my self in super power mode. Or as you know it hyper fixated. So although I got a bunch done on my end of the rope my fixation caused me to fail at my normal routine in the morning. Are you starting to recognize the double edged sword yet? I woke the kids up late. Bypassed showers for the kids which means everyone is showering before bed. Oh well, can’t win them all right?
Got to work and was supposed to take two loads to one job. Fifty feet trusses, 60 trusses high. That’s a tall load. Got to location it was a shit show. Small location. BUT my uncle lives right across the way from where I was. So since you unfortunately isn’t working with me for the time being he came over and helped. He is by far the best truck driver I know! I really hope he gets to come back. Anyways, ultimately it was a success and I got the job done successfully with no broken trusses.
I didn’t get a message or a call from Theos school today that’s reassuring. Accept, since we’ve picked him up he’s been nothing short of a mess. Fighting everything me or my husband say. Not listening. At all. Ugh. It’s going to be amazing eventful rest of the day. Addi and Theo are fighting per usual. My brain just can’t take it right now. I am exhausted and stressed to the max. Yay, for being an adult. Insert eye roll here.
I don’t feel very good. Headache. Cramps. All the fun jazz of being female. So all the crying and whining crap has me over stimulated and crabby. I cant wait for the 18th to get here because then I won’t have to deal with part of those problems. I get my hysterectomy then and although it’s a hard pill to swallow I can not wait.
As much as I love being pregnant and having babies around I am happy that door of my life has closed. Instead I get the be an aunty to many more babies to come. And when they decide nothing I do is good enough I get to give them back to their parents filled with sugar and new toys. Spoil them rotten and send them home!
I mentioned earlier Theo wasn’t listening. Well Logan took away his little toy he got at school. For those of you who don’t know Logan is my husband and is “step dad” or “dad” to my older three kids. I’ll explain that more in detail at a different time. So since Theo is suffering a consequence we are suffering the beginning of overstimulation. Not necessarily to the break down point yet but equally as frustrating because the ODD takes over and everything we say goes in one ear and out the other. For me this is beyond frustrating. I hate when I am being ignored and I hate when my kids try to play two ends against center. That’s what happens during these moments Logan will say one thing and instead of listening and responding he try’s talking to me and getting me to intervene.
Dinner and bed time was easy thank goodness. I am drained. Have a good evening!
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HAPPY BIRTHDAYmy love<3💞 no actually the happiest birthday i want nothing more for you than than to experience as many happy moments as possible this year starting today and for you to be as healthy as possible I mean, not to suffer as much and so life might be much more kind to you and also people around you and I want you to enjoy the little nice things and moments in between those not so pretty ones and focus on them it helps sometimes <3 You have no idea what an amazing beautiful special human being you are to me, talking to you in this way makes my life sm better and you deserve for everyone to see you that way and you also deserve everything good in this world🥰 I hope you enjoy the food it's your day I hope you get to feel special. Also, I've never been to your country but I'd like to I mean there must be great places as everywhere else, my country is so small but the nature is worth seeing. Okay and to update you on the text message I actually got a response the very next day but he asked who is it wishing him (😭) but I reminded him and he was like; sorry my memory is so bad i remember everything how are you etc and we exchanged few messages for 2 days and that was it but hellooo like I'm waiting for you to ask me out🙄 i need to update you how it went lol i already convinced my mind it's gonna happen. I might be going crazy but sm situations occur and things that remind me of this person since last week.
hey my love <3 i’m so sorry for my late response 😭 first of all thank you so much for your sweet words, they mean the world to me <3 honestly i’m so happy you send me these messages, they always cheer me up and i’m always excited to read them and know how you’re doing and what’s happening in your life 💌 i did eat cupcakes on my birthday, it was a day like any other but it was fine! and really!! i feel like most people from europe have been to germany for some reason, there’s not much to see here at least not in the place i live in :/ i would love to visit slovakia one day though <3 and i knew he would respond!! i didn’t know you liked him that’s so cute 😭 did he get the hint? where do you know him from? i’m rooting for you and please update me!! i hope he’ll ask you out if he hasn’t already 😭
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📏 The Only Tall Maknae | Wonyoung
Request: hii can i request an izone wonyoung jealous cuddles scenario with shorter fem!reader? thank uu
Plot: Wonyong and the small idol Fem!Reader are in a relationship. During MAMA, Wonyoung gets jealous of her girlfriend.
Words: 2,661
Genre: fluff
Notes: tried to write it in a way that was closer to the thoughtless attitude of teenagers inexperienced in having a relationship as idols. there are spaces for prequels or part two, maybe. if you want, send me a plot and i will write more from this universe! hope you like it! have a nice week!
Wonyoung was happy to be at MAMA again. What made her even happier, in addition to performing and receiving all the love from Wizones, was that you were there, with her. Not exactly with her, since the location of the tables was made so that her group and yours were somewhat distant, but you both were there, giving sneaky glances at each other and dancing excitedly during more animated performances by groups you liked. You had to control yourselves, trying to be discreet, even though almost all the idols in your circle of friends already knew your closeness was something more. There were cameras there and they weren't kind at all.
You met through friends and have been dating for almost a year. Staying with her took away all your tiredness, reinvigorated your energies and left you with a happiness never felt before. She was the most beautiful and adorable girl in the world. And you were lucky to be her girlfriend. Very lucky.
Your group had made the second comeback in a year and, for the first time, your schedules were proximate. You were doing your best and she was doing her best, and you were able to meet in the meantime.
You just didn't expect to be nominated for Best New Female Artist, but Wonyoung was rooting for you, and when it came time to announce the winning group, you focused on her again and sighed.
"You are just a silly in love.", Soojin's voice sounded low in your ear, clearly mocking your "heart eyes" towards Wonyoung.
You felt your cheeks getting hot. The pros and cons of being a maknae... even though you were spoiled in many moments, your group really liked to make jokes about how you lost the bossy pose when you were with your girlfriend. And also the difference between your height and hers. It was extremely evident! But you loved it, after all, you could hide your face on her neck while you hugged.
"I'm not silly!", you said, smiling.
You turned your face to the stage, where the MC's were about to read the name of the award-winning female group.
Your eyes met Wonyoung's for a moment, looking for strength in case your group didn't win, and you gave her a bigger smile, getting back the most beautiful smile in the world.
Until they announced the name of your group.
There was a round of applause and you were a little lost, in shock, looking at your group mates for answers. Did you imagine things or did you really win? Your expression was so shocked that, at the same time, several fans were already turning into a meme on the social media. Feeling goosebumps come and go through your entire body and a light tug from Soeun on your arm, you got up and went from your table to the stage.
After that, everything went very fast. The leader, Soojin, said gratitude words to the fans, the staffs, everyone who supported the group, promises to continue working hard to deliver a good message through music, etc...
Wonyoung was very proud of you and, as your group came down from the stage and went to a part on the side of it for pictures, Yujin made a joke that she couldn't understand, but it was about the two of you. She looked at Eunbi as if she was seeking approval to come to you, but Eunbi was in a conversation with Nako about the award.
"It was pretty obvious that they were going to win, they are the best!", Yena exclaimed, when a new presentation started.
"You guys make a couple of very powerful maknaes, despite the height difference!", Chaewon whispered, from Wonyoung's left side, making her smile.
A few minutes went by and Wonyoung wanted to be able to go directly to you to congratulate you, even if not in the warm way she would do backstage, with a very tight hug and soft kisses on your lips, calling you "my love". Looking for you at your table, Wonyoung frowned. Your whole group was there, even the prize was there with them, but where were you? Were you at the bathroom?
"Where...", Wonyoung's question died in it's beginning. A few tables on the left, there were you. Holding another girl's hands. And that was enough for Wonyoung to feel her cheeks flush with jealousy and her heart sinking into her chest.
"I can't wait to take several selfies with it! It's so beautiful!", whispered Yein beside you, thinking about the award that was in Soojin's hands.
You nodded as you went up the stairs, until you felt a hand on your shoulder. Turning aroung, shoulders and a smile that formed an enlarged heart were the first things that took over your vision, indicating that the person who called you was tall. You focused your gaze on the face, raising your head, and realized that the owner of the smile was Yeeun, as known as J, a member of StayC. And your friend and classmate.
"Hey!", she greeted you, still smiling, and held your hands. "You rocked up there! I only got time to listen to your group's album yesterday, but it's really good! Congratulations on the award!"
"Oh, thank you so much!", you came a little closer to her to allow the girls to go up the narrow stairs. "I'm in love with your album too. ASAP always manages to make me very happy, even on days when my mood is not... good."
You were not praising each other for no reason, you had known each other long enough to not need formal praises.
"I know how hard you and your group worked for it and it was really deserved.", she had a caring glow in her eyes. "I know I haven't been on this idol journey for a long time but if you need anything, I'm here. I know there may be some difficulties but we will get through them together!"
"You can count on me too, Yeeun. This is not easy at all, but we are managing to achieve our dream almost together! Can you believe it?", you said, smiling excitedly.
Until you felt the lighting of the place get a little darker.
Yeeun's eyes landed on a spot above your head. You turned around to see the reason why there was a shadow on you, and there she was. Your girlfriend.
Yeeun greeted Wonyoung, bowing, while she was standing there, beautiful and in that black outfit full of sparkles that left you mesmerized since the beginning of her presentation.
"Hello, bab-sun-babe-nim!", you stuttered, impacted by the beauty of your girlfriend.
Almost calling her "babe", you tried to fix it by calling her (actually trying to call her) sunbaenim. Even though Yeeun knew about your relationship (you had already told her since you were friends), you didn't want any strangers to know. And that place was full of cameras and ears everywhere. It was risky. But your correction to the soft nickname you used to call her only made Wonyoung raise an eyebrow. There was something in her eyes and you knew it wasn't because of the makeup.
Yeeun greeted her and Wonyoung used a polite education towards the girl of almost the same height, differentiating by a few centimeters almost imperceptible, but that, with you between them, made you look much younger than them, even though the three of us had almost the same age.
Wonyoung praised StayC's performance and Yeeun thanked her before saying bye to you both and heading to the table where her group was at.
You raised your hand to Wonyoung's but the tall girl crossed her arms.
"Hey, what's up?", you asked.
"Nothing.", her tone was harsh and you felt a small pain your in your chest, but she had a smile on her face. A fake smile. "I wanted to be the first to congratulate you, but someone has already done that.", The smile was still on her face, for the cameras, but the tone of voice was still kinda rude towards you. "I can't even hold your hands without hear you saying that some people might be surprised by it, but apparently it's just with me. But, congratulations on the award, Y/N. It was well deserved. The girls and I congratulate your group.", she turned and started walking in towards Izone's table.
"Hey, what's up, Wonnie?", you asked, hurrying to catch up with her, but keeping an expression of false happiness on your face.
"Nothing.", her tone of voice cut into your heart, she hadn't even bothered to turn around.
"Hey, you know I can't keep up with your stride, that's not fair."
She stopped on the stairs, in the corridor that led to where her group's table was, turning to you and you almost ran into her, taking a few steps back.
"Just don't!", her gaze on you was as hard as her voice, but the smile was wide open on her face, it was petrified there.
You stopped as you watched your girlfriend move on without looking back.
"I can really do whatever tomorrow morning, I don't care, I just need to get this sorted out as soon as possible."
"I just think it's too late for you to go there...", Soojin had some concern in her voice.
"Have you texted her yet?", Jiyoon asked, stretched out on the living room floor.
"Several times and she doesn't answer nor even reply my texts since yesterday.", you paced back and forth in front of the television.
"If you keep walking like this, we'll find petroleum," said Soeun.
You sat on the floor next to Jiyoon.
"None of the girls answer you?", asked Seojeong, stretching.
"Hyewon replied that she is in a bad mood and locked herself in the room after dinner."
"What did you do, huh?", Yein asked.
"I don't know!", you almost shout, hiding your face in your hands.
"Oh, go on then because one in a bad mood is one thing but two in bad mood in different groups is a punishment! Go, go!", Soojin pulled you by the arm to get up and started pushing you towards the door .
"But what about the manager..."
"We'll find a way to cover you up, don't worry!", Seojeong said and Soojin closed the door.
You went down the stairs, calling an uber.
"Do you know how late it is?", asked Hyewon, rubbing her eyes and yawning.
"I know you don't usually sleep early, Hyewon. But it's a life-and-death situation!", you replied while removing your shoes in the lobby, only your socks on your feet.
"Death for whom? Only if it is for us, right? The sour mood she was in... I asked if she wanted salad and she almost killed me with her eyes!", with a tone of indignation, Sakura started to speak. "What did you do, huh?"
"I don't know!", you were about to cry. "Can I go and talk to her?"
The two girls nodded and you crossed the room to the hall like a bullet. When you opened the door, the room was dark and you already knew the way to Wonyoung's bed because you visited her sometimes. But instead of lying down, you knelt beside the bed, even in the dark, and whispered her name. You wanted to hold her hand but you were afraid. If she was upset with you, she probably wouldn't want you even there.
"Wonyoung?", you called again, this time in a louder tone.
"I can't believe you came here even after I treated you like that."
You didn't understand what the phrase meant.
"Can I lie down?", you asked, receiving in response Wonyoung moving her body to give you some space.
You embraced her in a hug, hoping she wouldn't reject it, even with her back to you. Again, her answer did not come in words. She held your arm around her.
"What did I do? Tell me so I won't repeat it.", your face was on her back.
"I'm feeling ashamed."
"Of me?"
"No! Of you??? Never! I'm ashamed of myself. I can't even look at you...", she confessed.
You were still confused, but you hugged her tighter. You wanted her to feel you there.
"You don't have to. You didn't do anything wrong, Wonnie..."
You heard a loudest sigh and she turned to you, resting her hand on your neck and touching your foreheads.
"I... I was an idiot. You, your group, had just won one of the most important awards of the night! I myself know how it feels to win it, I know how rewarding it is and... at the moment I-I didn't support you because I was... jealous.", you knew you shouldn't interrupt her, she was venting out. "I wish I could've hugged you and praised you... I feel so proud of you and everyting that you have achieved... but I saw you with that girl and she was holding your hands and she was smiling with such affection, I don't know what I was feeling other than jealousy.", her voice showed a little bit of anger and fragility but she kept her hand on your neck, caressing it. "I was wondering if she was special enough to show affection like that in front of so many cameras... if you liked tall maknaes and...", at that moment you laughed. "Hey, don't laugh! This is not funny at all!", she slapped you lightly on the shoulder.
"No, babe, what's funny is that you think I could have eyes for anyone but you."
"Yeah, you go ahead and think it's funny! And if it were me with, I don't know, a short maknae like you, holding her hands, wouldn't you be jealous when you saw it from a distance, without having an idea of what's going on? Would it be funny?"
"Yah! I get it! Don't even make me think of you with someone else.", you took her wrist and stroked it. "Yeeun is just a friend from school and she was congratulating me. There was nothing else. There would never be. She knows about us and gives the greatest support! I just didn't get to introduce you decently because there is never enough time. I want you to see that you don't have to feel jealous because you are the only tall maknae I love. I love you. "
"I'm sorry for ruining everything and making you come here almost at the dawn. You shouldn't have come so late!", she pulled you into a tight hug. "But at the same time I'm so glad and relieved you came.", she whispered that last sentence.
"I would come at anytime.", you whispered back, kissing her cheek.
"It's too late for you to leave. What are you going to do? We can arrange everything for you to stay.", you were going to talk but Wonyoung wouldn't let you. "We can really work it out, make up a very good lie for the managers, take you back to the dorm quickly tomorrow very early. I imagine you have a lot of commitments now that you've won the award but... it's so late... and I want you to stay with me."
"Okay, I'll stay.", you replied, without thinking. "But I need some clothes to sleep."
"Okay, you can borrow Nako's pajamas."
"Hey!"
"I'm kidding!", Wonyoung laughed. "You can borrow one of mine. It'll be huge on you, but you look beautiful anyway."
Embarrassed, you hid your face on her neck and felt her presence for a while, a warm embrace full of a young love that was blooming beautifully. The next day, you would have to deal with your manager scolding you a lot, knowing he would be right, but for now, you would enjoy your time with Wonyoung. Whatever happened next, it wouldn't matter. What mattered now was to be with the only tall maknae that you loved with all your heart.
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