#i have zero chill actually

[neptune-scythe]

No one:

Not a single soul ever:

Me *watching shadow and bone: ooooooo she decked him BUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

#this is about nina and kaz if you didn't guess #i have zero chill actually #the adhd has consumed me today #I've seen this 12 times and yet i do not behave as such #she really did deck him tho #it was very funny #but then again i laugh at everything #i cannot watch this show in the presence of other people #i laugh at the weirdest shit #why are the tags a whole post in themselves #someone stop me #send help #shadow and bone #six of crows #grishaverse #kaz brekker #nina zenik

[agerasiaa]

Hazbin Hotel ep 5 and 6 spoilers!

I’m sorry but WHAT was that? I loved the first 4 episodes even when I could agree they were a little rushed and introduced us to way too many new characters without really letting us see the main cast. But the new eps were next level. Introducing characters, past reveals, lore left and right. All emotional moments have zero weight because they come out of nowhere. No one is having an actual arc— stuff just happens faster than you can chew the stuff that happened 1 minute before.

Alastor suddenly claiming him and Charlie have a father-daughter relationship? Like yeah he was probably just doing that to piss off Lucifer (WHO HE HAS NO REASON TO DISLIKE AS MUCH AS HE JUST DOES? it’s so funny) but we have literally seen Charlie and him interact like what? Once in the first ep and suddenly they have a dynamic that hasn’t developed at all to how they act around each other. And this is just one example of the many problems I have with the new eps…

The hotel is helping Angel. HOW? We have seen no actual redemption stuff that would help someone out of drug addiction or change his attitude. The one that helped was Husk and the only thing he did was have one conversation with Angel and suddenly Angel has gone through sooo much character development—even standing up to Valentino who he has no reason to suddenly not fear. (To be fair, it has been probably a few months since the events of ep four, but for a watcher it doesn’t feel like that. So the development seems a little sudden.)

Other notes:

Heaven having no rules who gets to heaven and who not, and no one just ever questioned it

Why are we even introduced to Heaven yet? Many types of reveals that happen are not season 1 material at all (or it would be if they had more episodes)

Charlie and Lucifer had a distant relationship and Charlie supposedly had ”daddy issues” and then they are just— so happy with each other and everything is resolved SO EASILY / FAST

The whole premise of the Hotel seems to be meaningless. Charlie’s great plan for redemption was… trust falls. Didn’t work. Now they must get to Heaven bc how could that be!? Like girl…

Everyone needs their own episodes! Lucifer and Alastor and Mimzy stuffed together. Vaggie and Angel Dust again and the entirety of heaven all together in a 20 minute episode—

I really wanted to love this show because I’m invested in the characters due to waiting 4 years, but it’s just… it’s so badly written. The actual plot is likeable, but the pacing and the amount of off-screen stuff is just too much. (From episode 1 to 6, 5 months have passed, but it feels more like a couple of weeks at best.)

(I still love the show tho. For the songs and the characters.)

#hazbin hotel #alastor #charlie morningstar #angel dust #my first time ever critizing something on social media #hazbin hotel… I love your concept and characters but… what #the unnecessary beef between Al and Lucifer is so funny tho XD #also Alastor had zero chill I love him #it feels like we have the key moments but are missing the actual show #a deeply flawed show but I still love it :)

[peach-coke]

"Never laid a hand on me. He couldn't be bothered. Said I was a disappointment. Not good enough to carry his name. I thought I could do it better than my father did." ➤ The Boys || 3.08 - The Instant White-Hot Wild

#The Boys Spoilers #The Boys S3 #The Boys Amazon #The Boys #The Boys Gifs #TheBoysEdit #CanonTheBoysGifs #TVEdit #CinemaTV #Homelander #Soldier Boy #Billy Butcher #Queen Maeve #My Gifs #The Boys 3.08 #I can't believe this b***h... #actually made me feel DEVASTATED for Homelander #Like oh my god Ben #You have zero chill

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

Feeling very violent rn so here's a very controversial opinion:

Everything after season one of Young Justice sucked.

Look, I know I'm obsessed with the show but that doesn't mean it's good, it means that I'm too deep into it at this point to get out. There are good moments within the other seasons but in general? They were not good.

I'm sorry. I understand that they wanted to be creative and have a neat narrative and deep lore and all that. And they do! The narrative and lore is extremely deep.

But the plot? The characters??

Season one was an actual functional show that balanced character development, plot and dialogue with world building, lore and messaging.

The other seasons do not do that.

Season two bounced back and forth between like 16 characters. We got some development for some characters but even that was minimal compared to the character development in S1. And this isn't me complaining that the og group wasn't in S2 enough. That's not my issue. I would've loved to focus on a new group and I think that Jaime, Bart, Ed and Gar would've been super cool to focus on. I loved what character development they did have and I craved more.

But the problem? The problem is when you have 16 fucking characters that you are trying to develop and shove into a coherent plot and have actual meaningful scenes. There just wasn't enough focus on S2. Imo, S2 was meh because the characters got left by the wayside. The plot, dialogue, world building, lore and messaging was fine, there just seemed to be a lack of heart/warmth in the show because of the characters. It's hard to get invested.

Then holy shit. S3 introduced more characters. And the plot got more contrived and 'big picture' to the point that it started to abstract. It felt like nothing mattered. There were no stakes, you were just watching things happen. There was 50 fucking things happening an episode and 80% of it was lore/world building. It felt like I was studying for a fictional history exam.

I'm pretty sure the main character in S3 was earth 16. Just the entire universe. Because goddamn. We checked in on almost every living being and EVERYTHING was a plot point. Most of it wasn't even relevant to anything happening in the season. Man it was.... it was bad.

And at that point it just wasn't enjoyable at all to watch. I probably should've stopped watching but at that point the sunk cost fallacy had already kicked in. I knew it could be good. Maybe it could be good again. And people were constantly praising it as cinematic genius so I was like 'okay well maybe I'm missing the point? Maybe you aren't supposed to enjoy shows? Maybe this is fine?'

But season four broke me.

The creators heard that people were frustrated by the lack of character focus and the episodes following 72 characters and the episodes switching between 50 different subplots every episode and their solution? Their solution was to take allllllll the different unconnected plots and, instead of evenly spreading them throughout the season, jam them all into 'arcs'. So you had a bunch of mini seasons consisting of 3-5 episodes dedicated to a cast of ~5-8 characters (some of them new). And each of these episodes had unconnected a plots, b plots and c plots.

THAT IS NOT A SOLUTION

Holy shit that is not a solution.

Not to mention the overarching plot of the season, in which we had no fucking clue what was happening until the final episodes where everything became a speedrun to wrap everything up. We literally had no idea what the main plot was until it was ending.

Good god it was bad. It's bad writing!

I know people liked it and good for them. You should like what you like and you don't have to justify it. But for me it was insanity. I'm sorry I actually don't want a season long subplot where Beast Boy is depressed and sleeps all day. I would be cool with it if it had anything to do with the larger story but, surprisingly, spending five minutes watching Beast Boy sleep every episode didn't make for compelling storytelling.

I'm still not over how we didn't even know who the main villain was until the end of the season. And then all of a sudden he does a villain monologue to tell everyone his evil plan and his motives. Super cool actually. I love it when I have no idea what the stakes are for the majority of a show. It's incredibly good storytelling when you leave the audience in the dark about a major player in the plot for all of the plot. And then doing an info dump evil monologue in the final episodes to rush through the explanation??? Fucking fantastic and not a sign of terrible pacing at all.

I'm just so frustrated. The show isn't about being a show anymore. The show is an entire cinematic universe shoved into 20 something episodes. It's desperate to tell every single story at once, audience, pacing and good writing be damned.

I'm so tired of the constant praising of Greg. His whole 'i don't write endings because life doesn't have endings' and 'i don't write cliffhangers, I just leave things open ended' thing is pretentious bullshit. I'm tired of pretending it's not. A good story has an ending. Stories are not life! Some of the best shows I've ever watched had planned endings. And oh my god. The cliffhanger thing... that's just semantics my guy. Greg you write cliffhangers. You can insist they aren't but I'm going to call a spade a spade.

It's also.... I'm fine with explaining things, in fact I love it because it's an excuse to talk about the stuff I love, and I have a fairly decent knowledge of comic book lore. So, I could not only understand what was happening in the show but I was also super enthusiastic about explaining it to people. But hey Greg? Hey buddy? If 90% of your audience doesn't know what the fuck is going on and needs to be familiar with super specific obscure comic characters from the 70's then you might have a problem.

I think I realized halfway through s4 that the most enjoyment I got from an episode was when an obscure comic character would cameo in it. But then I realized that a) they generally weren't explained at all and b) 50% of the time they weren't just hanging out in the background and they were vital to the plot. So to understand who the fuck they were and what the fuck was happening you had to be familiar with... well all of DC comics actually.

Anyway this rant is getting long and unhinged and I don't think there's a point so I'm going to cut myself off even though I have so much more to say on the topic. I think my general point is just that I didn't enjoy watching the later seasons and it's chill if you did and we should all respect each other's opinions ✌️

#rant #oh also the messaging sucked #the messages itself were fine. like 'you should go to therapy if you are depressed' and 'respect people's religions' and #'figuring out your gender/sexual identity is chill af' #those are great messages. the content is great and i don't disagree #BUT HOLY FUCK #yo Zatara ranting about his religion to Fate for 15 minutes is not how you get a message across #messages are supposed to be like themes and subtle points of the narrative #it's not supposed to be a fucking psa where the characters just talk for half the episode and say the message verbatim to the audience #itd be like if in season one M'gann stood up and spent ten minutes talking about the damaging psychological effects of body image issues #and everyone else just sat there and nothing happened and M'gann just kinda spoke about it #or if Artemis was just like 'im going to do a presentation on why child abuse is bad' #its just. thats not. thats not how messages in a plot work #but they didn't develop the characters enough. so instead of s1 where the messages were blatantly obvious #we just had side character zatara who we know nothing about talk about religion like he was doing a PSA for kindergartners #because we don't know his character and he had zero focus so that was literally the only way to get the message across #and im sorry but that's bad writing. if you are sacrificing character plot and narrative for a message then maybe scrap the message #or you know actually have a developed character do the message. like write the message through a developed character so it doesn't #need to be spoonfed to the audience like we're five year olds learning different shapes from a teacher

[icewindandboringhorror]

Hrmm... Revising my game and I feel like there's still sooo much writing left to do, for something that probably won't even amount to much, so.. I do want to narrow my focus more (especially given my health problems seeming to get worse/less energy the past few years), but I'm not sure how would be best to...

I currently have 5 characters as the Main ones with full planned questlines and such, with each character having 6 quests you can do for them. But I haven't really started the writing for the 5th main character. So then I was thinking, if I were going to write 6 full quests worth of content anyway... is it better to allocate that time on just doing a Complete 6 Quests for ONE single character, OR would it be better to do something like.. choose THREE side characters and do 2 quests for each of them? So that people have a wider variety to interact with and sort of sample around (of course with the idea that, once the first version of the game is released, IF people actually care about it enough to make it worth the effort, I would then add additional content to complete those 3 characters stories as well)

-

SO... If you were playing an interactive fiction sort of game centered around talking to & doing quests for a cast of characters (like there's no larger plot, more it's just about interacting with people, every character kind of has a self contained story, the focus is just learning about them and the world and exploring the area) --- Which would you rather have?

(and of course it would be stated up front which characters have only partial questlines, so people don't expect them to have full quests like the others and then get disappointed, or etc. etc.)

Basically, is it better to just focus in specifically on having one fully complete questline? Or for there to be a few stories that are not complete yet, but have more initial options available?

#I guess I just feel weird about investing too much into characters if possibly nobody will like them. so the idea of being able to sample #around a wider variety opens up the option of like 'hey even if neither of these 4 are your favorite - you have 3 other options soon too!' #or whatever. BUT I also am very anti-the trend of releasing half finished games or shit like that where people preorder and then #the game sucks on actual release and isn't fully playable or good until 5 updates later #HOWEVER.. those are giant companies with hundreds of employees and millions in funding. I feel like it's different for someone #if they're just like ''hey I am getting zero money for this and doing it entirely on my own in my free time and before I do like 50+ hours #of work on top of the 100+ hours of work that I already did - I would like maybe to at least see some proof #people are interested in this - so I'm releasing the game with like a small amount of the originally intended content removed #that I still have planned out and hope to add later and the game is still entirely done and completely functional #except for just a few quests I might add later.. sorry'' etc. etc. ??? like I think that's different. but maybe some people dont see #it that way and would still be like 'grrr.. how dare there be unfinished options..>:V" idk #And the nature of the quests is such that it's not weird to have it be partial like.. again.there's no major plot. it's not like the quests #are leading up to some dramatic thing and having them half done would make it feel like a cliffhanger. It's meant to be very casual just #chilling and doing little tasks and such. And last thing to clarify I guess - by 'side character' I don't mean taking some unimportant bac #ground character and forcing them to have quests. I mean like.. originally the game had 8 full characters and I thought that was #too much so I cut it down to 5. So I still had everything planned for all the side characters too. Id' just be like.. re-giving them #quests and focuses that were already planned from the beginning but that I got rid of.. former main characters banished to the side lol.. #ANYWAY... hrmm... hard to decide... It's just so niche I think. I feel more and more like I should just get it to a 'proof #of concept' state and get it out there to interest check rather than invest in it soooo much for nothing. Because I really do not have the #tastes other people do or interact with games or have interest in things in the same way. A lot of the stuff that I love (slow. character #focused things with basicaly no action or plot where its' just about getting to explore a world and learn about #people in a casual low stakes setting but ALSO not romance) I think people find very boring so... lol... #This year as I try to pick the project back up again after abandoning it for like 3 years I keep looking at stuff and going.. ough... #yeah... cut this maybe.. I should cut that too.. I should make them a side character.. remove this.. blah blah.. #Though I did ADD a journal and inventory system and other things that like People Expect Games To Have so.. maybe #that will count for something.. hey..you can collect items.. it's not just 'talking to elves for 600 hours simulator'.. are you #entertained yet? lol.... When I was making my other tiny game for that pet website and I gave it to the play testers and someone was like #''it should have achievements so I feel I'm working towards something concrete'' I was literally so blindsided like..??... people WANT that #in games..? is the goal not simply to wander aimlessly &fixate on world/character lore& make your own silly pointless personal goals? I did #do them though because it IS fun to make up little achievement names and such but.. i fear i am out of touch so bad lol..

[possamble]

Question to a fanfic writer: do you think that, in Marcille’s research ways *And* her love for romance novels… would result in her writing some in-universe fanfics of her own? Like, maybe she hypes herself up on something and get disappointed, or maybe she finds some character decision isn’t as ideal as she thinks it could be? Or it’s as simple as she wants to play around with the characters and see what happens?

I can’t help but imagine a scenario where she’s struggling with some romantic trouble irl and she’s struggling with deciding on what to do, but then the answer slaps itself upside her head when she rediscovers her fanfics and how she LITERALLY made a character or two do the exact romantic decision she needs to do? It would so silly but yet I can’t help but find it so charming. Hell, just the imagery of her writing romance fanfics of her own At All is just… delightful to me hehehe.

you know I've been rotating this in my head since I saw it this morning and. I went through a wild journey of opinions before I realized... Marcille wouldn't think about fanfiction like we think about it. In the modern age, yeah, she'd be a complete tumblrina -- but we're talking about a 17th century-ish fantasy setting.

Writing before the digital age was a physical commitment to investing ink and paper into your thoughts -- and this is even before mass production can make pens and notebooks kind of whatever to buy and use on a regular basis. I'm sure the situation wasn't dire, but I really can't see Marcille, perfect honor student, using her allotted supply of stationery at the academy on super frivolous things.

Fanfiction has been normalized incredibly fast in the past few decades. Think about now normal and popular D&D is nowadays compared to how much people looked down on it 20-30 years ago. Fanfiction was a freakass nerd thing to do until relatively recent history, something that was even considered offensive to the original creators.

Remember, we've already seen Marcille react to adaptations with disgust. She's kind of a hater and an elitist fan. She also considers herself a Reputable Academic. In a setting where a digitized culture hasn't reframed fanfiction as an act of appreciation and creativity, she would absoluuuuuuuutely think that fanfiction was complete loser shit.

If she did write anything about her favourite books... She'd. She'd be one of those assholes who writes huge scathing reviews of Dal Clan translations into Common. She'd be the fantasy equivalent of those Weebs/Japanese elitists on twitter tearing through every single localization choice in anime and JRPGs and being so so annoying about it.

If we're being charitable, we could say she'd be able to appreciate non-faithful translation choices that still do a good job of carrying over the original spirit of what was said. But I think we also have to acknowledge the possibility that, at her worst, she'd really really be like those guys who were malding about the Unicorn Overlord localizations so hard the (correction: Final Fantasy Tactics Creator, not the Unicorn Overlord devs) had to step forward and ratio them. (The silver lining is that she'd never get published in the arts review newspapers/journals that she submits her essays to. those poor editors just have to deal with her being persistent.)

#asks #marcille donato #dungeon meshi #im so sorry anon your idea was very cute and i know i wasn't supposed to take this so seriously but #god. the revelation hit me and i just cried laughing #she's so horrendous. i love her so fucking much. #i really do think the only setting she'd be able to write fanfiction is in modern aus #bc then she can just delete stuff she doesn't like and lose nothing but the time it took to write it #the problem is that she has the kind of perfectionism that stops her from doing things unless she can do them competently the first time #(gifted child syndrome) #but writing fiction is a skill. one that she would have to hone from zero. while not necessarily having natural talent for it. #her reading standards would be so much higher than her writing ability and she'd haaaaate that #... that said #i can see her absentmindedly dabbling in short form poetry in the margins of her journal #i think that's small enough of a scale that she'd accidentally do it a lot without thinking about it too hard #until she was actually half-decent at it one day #like... starting some years into the post-canon. this is crucial. she needs to chill a bit before this could happen

[mummer]

what was mance’s actual plan in a scenario where he can take castle black and let all the free folk through the wall (i.e. if jon died before warning them). let them disperse into the gift and just. fend for themselves i guess? would his kingship have ended there? was there ever a plan more complex than “dont get turned into ice zombies” or was he just riffing the whole time. was he imagining some kind of treaty? maybe his plans relied on there still being a reasonable stark in winterfell lol. but it’s not like he can negotiate with the boltons or stannis… and the wildlings are so fractured they would IMMEDIATELY split off. like what would he have DONE if he won? was he doomed from the start??? someone please spitball with me

#ive been trying to crowdsource ideas about this for insane fanficky reasons but it’s like #cause the wildlings are not like. centralized he cant just keep them at castle black forever there are 100000 of them #he also would have. zero information about current northern politics #at castle black he’s in an ok position esp if he also takes the shadow tower but he still has stannis + some dregs at eastwatch #he could.. maybe.. take empty winterfell before the boltons ever got there but would it even help? there wouldnt be any food there #and the bolton coalition might even actually be bolstered if they had a common enemy lol #however: no one would go to hardhome. So at least theres that #i guess it would devolve into a chaotic mass migration scenario but mance is like. Clever and wily i cant imagine he didnt have a PLAN!!! #the smart move would be to take moat cailin before roose can come up but. To accomplish what exactly #i mean if everyone chilled repopulating the gift would anyone even care. you’re gonna massacre a hundred thousand civilian wildlings? #But stannis is the issue there he would not allow that he would want to reinstate the watch. hmmmm

[this-is-krikkit]

this is possibly not the best time to mention it but here i am, sleep deprived and hungover from the snk finale. and i've just turned the tv on to find that the ICE SKATING GRAND PRIX is currently airing????

these fictional drawing shows really have taken over my fucking life haven't they

#they just announced ''the next skater representing Japan'' and guess what #i IMMEDIATELY SOBBED LMAO #yuri!!! on ice #yuri on ice #i have a lot of feelings and zero chill ok!!!! #😭😭😭😭 #my brain feels on fire lmao #what did i expect i knew this was an actual sports!! #so why am i so surprised?? #real ice skating is even more beautiful than yoi made it look #isu grand prix #i'm recognizing steps!!! it's amazing??

[veradune]

Me: I should go for a nice relaxing swim after a year out of the pool!

Also me: violently thrashing up and down the fast lane cursing the inventor of the Butterfly while flailing out an hours' worth of drills and sprints

#I continue to have zero chill at this sport #the body is weak but the mind still believes im a competitive swimmer #i did actually get some relaxing lengths in after nearly killing myself! #personal #competitive swimming #so I did 2km #am ded

[elialys]

Since I've finished Shivered Bones, the new "let's emotionally torture my favorite character" project I've been working on is all about post-season 4 pregnant Olivia having serious cortexiphan related angst because of how it might affect her baby, because I have zero chill

#takes place a few weeks after 'The Bullet' because i have ZERO CHILL #will include family drama too with nina & rachel & missing memories because NO CHILL #also lots of p/o soft love but that's a given #writing #olivia dunham #is doomed with me #i actually started this fic in 2015 hahaha

[bluesidedown]

.....

#why must my brain insist that dating is existentially terrifying. #like literally there are no actual red flags in this relationship but my brain is just like. this is change and vulnerability which os Bad #so obviously you should break up immediately for zero reason #but then when i tell myself umm hello that's stupid and also deeply selfish and hurtful dont do thay #then my brain is like ah. but that is because secretly something is terribly wrong and you obviously want to pursue this relationship #despite what prudence and good judgment™️ would have to say #and then im like no there is no reason why this is not good hello #and my brain is like ah. but are you sure. because you are young and naive and have never dated before which disqualifies you #from having opinions. #and then i pray about it and God is like. child chill out a bit i am leading you. trust me. #and then my brain shuts up but my emotions are like. *nebulous dread* #anyway. #we are having a Growing Experience over here and it is probably good for me but not real fun #(except when yknow i actually spend time with the boy and then im like. why am i dumb.)

[bittwitchy]

oh no, i have a type

#its funny how im not romantically attracted to w/illiam a/fton tho given basically every other character like him i have been #i diDNT WANNA GO HERE #as it happens tho this man is canon aroace so i have zero shot but thats okay #but my GOD do i have a type #i think in my o/nce upon a t/ime rewrite i need to have j/efferson kill someone #just so he fits more #he has the right personality but he lacks the actually stabs people tendencies #cmon jeffy u have the coat and everything lets go #im perfectly normal and fine and everything is totally chill i am totally chill

[sinfullyrosey]

When you’re currently working on finishing up one of your many drafts instead of studying for your final, but the catch is you’re writing for a character that’s going to make a majority of the fandom Big Mad(TM).

#Rosey Rambles #I got a whole week to study so I'm good #and this draft has been haunting me for half a year now #I'm still debating whether or not I'll have the balls to actually post it #on one hand pissing off like 99% of the fanbase is hilarious to me #but on the other hand the fandom scares me and I fear I'll get called out by the extremists with zero chill #but on the third hand I don't think anyone has ever written for him in this manner and I kind of want bragging rights #ya know what if anyone can guess who the fuck I'm talking about I'll just post it and watch the possible chaos unfold #after all the fanbase has written far worse than what I'm currently writing so /shrugs/

[aeide-thea]

feeling just. extremely weary and sad abt people who imo are both wrong and mean in their analysis of oppressive dynamics. also at some level laughing at myself that this is legitimately what's gotten me down. well. also global warming and microplastics.

anyway. not gonna get into specifics bc some of you agree with them, lol, but. i guess i just wish we all focused a little more on staying in our own lanes and articulating our pain in its own context instead of jumping so fucking fast to framing suffering as a zero-sum game and using our own to justify dismissing other people's by comparison.

#i just feel like. for any axis i'm marginalized along #i have zero desire to look at other people and police whether they're less marginalized than me #or decide that people who *are* less marginalized along that axis must therefore have zero ~valid~ pain or difficulty #and it's totally chill for me to talk about them without any empathy #people are almost always dealing with something difficult & anyway i think it's much more useful to discuss the impact of specific behavior #than it is for me to start making sweeping dismissive claims abt someone's identity #or abt more of their experience than i'm actually privy to #that's vague and incoherent bc i'm conflating a bunch of different things that have rubbed me the wrong way recently but like #idk. we're all so fucking traumatized and suspicious and vicious. extremely not healing as an environment and makes me real sad. #like what happened to being careful with one another so we can be powerful as a coalition #anyway. tbd maybe it's just like. you think you're gonna escape yr cisheteronormative nuclear family and Find Community #and then you realize yr cripplingly fucked up and fail to achieve escape velocity and yr ''''community'''' is a bed of pustulent cacti #anyway. time to do some more unfollowing maybe bc a lot of you ARE sweethearts i'm just feeling bruised by some specific discourse

[vvanessaives]

THE HOUND: last puzzle piece of my arasaka death triangle. they don’t bite..unless you ask

#these are lazy i just wanted to toss them around and show them to the world since i've got them on my mind since months now and never #gave them an actual Face jfdhsk idk!! i'm spinning him in my mind. #(also needed to start their tag on here bc..rn the tag on my oc page for them leads to zero posts fjdfk) #from taiwan to china (kang tao) to night city (arasaka) to wherever the other 2 idiots (akira & eva) move to with furor #them/him :) he does have an actual name but uses it extremely little and i'm still changing it for the 400th time kjfdshfkj #anyways!! they are my last corpo asshole for now. i need to chill bc the 77 lore is running too deep and im getting confused #oc: the hound #*ocstuff #cp2077 #LAST THING I SWEAR!!!!!!! their lil ears..they look like a bat..a vampire..idk. THAT'S MY BOY #scheduled posting

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ugh. i wasted a lot of time and money today #bc my leg was suddenly hurting a lot more today and it kinda freaked me out so i went to urgent care #and then they had me get an x ray. luckily my hip looks fine and like i thought i probably strained or tore like an adductor muscle #so all that for something i already knew. but she said i should just chill for like 3 weeks and let it heal #at least nothing worse was wrong but its really annoying. i want to run 😫 #wtf am i gonna do to dispel energy??? ugh. and i was supposed to go to thr post office today to send stuff #ill have to go tomorrow. bleh. its so annoying #part of it is just that i hate having to interact with people. like talking to people. like im sure i come across as v young #bc im so anxious and hesitant and im like zero eye contact. so idk it just feels kinda embarrassing #i wanna b like. bro i promis im not stupid. i have 2 advanced degrees in biology and im going for a 3rd. u can talk to me like an adult #its probably just me projecting. my perception is distorted from being made fun of by my sister lol #whatever. at least its just 3 weeks. tho it does remind me i havent been to an actual doctor in like 5 years #...probably should do thst before i move. or idk maybe ill just wait a month and go before school starts #ugh. fuck the American Healthcare system. they looked at me for like 5min and to go to urgent care was $125 with my insurance #thats just to b seen. like i can afford that but what r u supposed to do if u cant? #unrelated #at least its not as bad as when i passed out in class and took a 10 min ambulance ride that somehow cost $700