#i hope she is at peace now

[happyfreeconfusedaandlonely]

save me,, waiting room by phoebe bridgers,, save me,,

#phoebe bridgers #waiting room #know its for the better #sitting with my first aid & bleeding #i hope she is at peace now #death is so weird

[bloopuoo]

dreamlike

#based on bedmans color 19!!!! #gave delilah an on-theme palette too but since bedmans hair is already greenish she gets purple :) #i hope they bring back these reality defying colors in strive #wow something bright and peaceful for once #as much as i trust the daisuke vision i need them to be together and happy now #guilty gear #bedman #delilah #gg #ggst #bloou_art

[pjo-hoo-toa-freakazoid]

A lil rant about my experience with this god forsaken fandom

I made this blog around 2020 when I was 13 years old. This was my first shot at a dedicated fandom blog and I was pretty excited for it, to make friends, draw fanart, post fun stuff and what not.

All fun right? Right, so tell me why was it that literal 20 years olds felt the need to harass me, a then 13 year old girl with a relatively small blog, for the dumbest reasons possible?

What did I do that subjected me to 2 and a half years worth constant daily threats and harassment? Hmm???

You wanna know my crime? Apparently I showed interest in an antagonist character, which is so awful that grown adults felt the need to bully me. And following those adults came young impressionable people my age, that joined the bandwagon of hate against me.

As if other fandoms don’t have people literally dedicating themselves to a villain, no one bats an eye to that. Why did this fandom have such an issue? I also apparently dared to criticise the main character for a few of his flaws. Such a horrible thing to do right? I need to be burnt at the stake for it right?

I didn’t follow the “fixed” standards of the fandom so I was to be sent de*th/r*pe threats daily?? For not following the “rules” I was to be ostracised?

No please someone explain…I’m but a dumb bitch, I don’t understand what I did so terribly wrong to deserve this? Did I start a war? Did I rip open someone’s plush? Did I bully someone for not having the same ideology as me?

No it was but the fandom itself that for some reason found it so fun to bully a 13 year old, send her de*th and r*pe threats all because of not being of pjo fandom standards…let’s go and bombard her with hate!!

Do you realise how fucking stupid…this all sounds? Do you realise how low this is? Was bullying a child so fun? So trendy at the time?

Then came the victim blaming- I laugh everytime I remember people saying I must have done something really bad to get such harassment, that it’s all for attention. What kid wants to get hate everyday of their life for 2 whole fucking years? Tell me?

You know wanna know what I did wrong? Fight back, call the hate anons out for their bigotry. I was vocal about it, that’s what I did wrong right? Stand my ground? People said to ignore it and I did. But I still got bullied daily even if I didn’t respond. What was all this for?

I can imagine people asking why I didn’t simply leave the fandom? Why the fuck should I? I enjoy the stories, I enjoy the characters, they were my escape from real life struggles. It was the bullying I didn’t enjoy. Everyday I’d log on to enjoy posts and a few minutes later when the bigots found out I was active I was sent an anonymous threat.

Many of my oldest friends had to reduce the amount they interacted with me in fear of receiving harassment themselves. The extent of this is bigotry is beyond my understanding.

I did not deserve this much suffering AND ALL FOR WHAT? A STUPID LITTLE REASON THAT HAS BARELY ANY WEIGHT TO IT. Do people even realise the extent of what happened is beyond me. And Idc if I sound selfish, I want a fucking apology from all those bigots. I want compensation for the 2 and a half years of abuse I endured alone. I just want this bigotry to end, which surprise surprise! Still continues to happen.

Why do I bring this up now that it’s all over you ask? I’ve actually brought it up once before, but it was swept under the rug, (My deepest appreciation to the very few people who supported me when I first talked about it) I’m just finally being more vocal, because this has stuck with me. For all those 4 years this has stuck with me. It doesn’t mean if it’s over for now that all the trauma doesn’t linger. It still affects me to this day.

In fact I’m still being stalked by one of the people who sent me hate anons. One of the hate anons was revealed to be one of my bestest friends, they had admitted this to me and had the nerve to beg me to still remain friends. They were also the person who groomed me. They have left the fandom scene and I’ve rid of them from my life but they still continue to stalk me.

What do I get from ranting about all this? A bit of solace, a bit of weight off my shoulders. But nearly not enough for me to actually fucking heal. I also want people to realise how bigoted some are and how horrible the mentality of “fixed fandom standards/ideologies” is and that we as a fandom need to fucking change. Heck I know this issues in every fandom. But can we at least start with ours for a change for once?

Along side all of this there’s also a lot of racism and trans/homophobia that still actively prevails. Just look at what Leah went through when her casting was announced. Did she deserve all of that?? “Not my annabeth” do you realise how horrible that is to say to a CHILD? She is Annabeth whether you like it or not. And you are very welcome to leave if you wish to stick to your stupid racist nonsense.

I bet there are many others who have probably suffered the same may it not be for the same reasons, but everyone of them deserve their apologies and compensation as well.

Idc if I’ll get hate for this. I said what I said. I’m just so done.

#trigger warning #tw hate #I was also informed I was being mocked in group chats and there were sick rumours about me. #i won’t give a fuck if I get harassed again cux this literally shows how low this fandom will get #there’s so many layers to this I haven’t even gone into detail on #but I just want atleast this off of my chest. I was shaking and short of breath as I wrote this #I wish to thank all my oldest moots and friends that stuck by me despite everything. I cannot express how thankful I am to you guys #love you all tons. #what do u mean by compensation? just an apology from the same people who hurt me. which is nearly impossible. but idc I want to find them #and confront them. I need to bring my 13 year old self justice for what she went through. I pushed her feelings aside when this was over #but she never healed. I’m hoping she gets a bit of peace for now. #pjo fandom #percy jackson fandom #fandom toxicity

[mayasdeluca]

To my wife...

#ashlyn harris #ali krieger #krashlyn #gotham fc #nwsl #uswnt #jesus christ i was not ready 😭😭 #i lost it at this part of the speech #was not expecting her to do this now but i hope shes at peace with the decision and enjoys retirement

[unlicensedinvestigator]

prince consort gerard of greenleigh, formerly a frog, and soon to be a frog again

#d20 #d20 neverafter #prince gerard of greenleigh #prince gerard #neverafter #frog man #divorcee #as i said in my wip post #I’m a total sucker for romance and I really hope he and his wife reconcile as he realizes his errors in being a supportive #selfless husband #even better I hope that Elody kills the snow queen and goes back to look for her husband #bc she genuinely cares and still loves him #but he wasn’t made for war and now they can have a candid conversation without the war in the way #anyway she sees him and what his doubt and buried self loathing and selfishness has had him become again #they talk and make up #yknow #the stuff of healthy relationship fairytales #I saw someone tag my post about them thinking Gerard would look like murph and i agree but a) let me draw this twunk in peace #and b) I will not make murph fanart. yet. maybe.

[mulherrviado]

Some of you never loved/obsessed over someone so deeply, that you would rather stay on their side even in chains than let them go and it shows

#jasper su #lapis lazuli su #jaspis #lasper #steven universe #the difference between me and jasper is that im on therapy for almost 15 years now #i hope she finds her peace #like lapis did #i love both of them very dearly

[napping-sapphic]

tbh we need to buy matching stuffed animals to send each other pictures of whenever we are apart

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #i an So Sleepy #waking up at 2am to yearn for a bit and now i going back to sleep #i had a 5 hour exam earlier and i have never been more in love with sleep #it’s good i don’t have a gf idk if i’d love her more than sleep rn i am so tired #but my brain was like: but what if matching stuffed animals #and she was right😤 #and i wanted to share the revelation before i forgot it #i love u i hope u get some really good sleep soon i hope you have a good day i hope u get to laugh i hope u get a peaceful moment

[adelaidedrubman]

fucking FINALLY realized who gortash reminds me of it’s garth brooks’s alt rock sona chris gaines

#has been driving me crazy this entire time now i can be at peace #bg3 she types out in hopes this can be caught by filters for my mutuals without going in the main tags

[aquanutart]

After saving the land before them Zelda and link were tied and they need to sleep. So they went on there Horse to the Village to Link’s house. As Zelda was so happy she was also glad to know that all that had happened was all in the past.

Zelda was so happy to not be in the Castle trying to stay awake. Everything was fine now she was with Link. When they got about 4 hours away Zelda saw that there were some people out in the distance. She had not seen people in forever she said to link to set up camp for the night and she would go talk to the people and she would come back with some food so they could cook.

Link looked at the people in concern I will be fine just go set up camp he nodded his head. Zelda loved to see the blue sky and the birds and the sway of the grass she never wanted to it to end. When she started talking to the people they were a little of but she just thought that they were excited to see her they just offered bananas to her. All at once she remembered that Link told her about a Yiga clans they would look like a normal person but they were not.

she screamed “Link” he came running at full speed and right on time the Yiga clan members were not the week kind but the much harder to kill ones. One did have a bow though Link killed the one with a sword first but the one with a bow was so fast Link told Zelda to run back to camp she didn’t want to leave him alone but she went behind a big rocks and hid.

Zelda Hurd nothing but a sweet sound of a little bird chirping in the distance. Then she heard a scream it sounded like a link she ran all the way to him the Yiga was not dead but it retreated because it has fulfill its duties. It had shot Link right in the chest with his bow 4 times he was wheezing and gasping for air. Link grabbed two of the arrows and pulled them out. Zelda squinted with fear she knew that it needed to be tended to right away. But all she had was bananas and a small cloth she was watching him grab the other two arrows and he was pulling them out. He Was in a great amount of pain. She tried to talk to him for the very first time she said “ we need to get you to a stable first but we then will rush to Hatnao village”. Link tried to speak but the pain took over.

“shh you need to save your strength right now” Zelda said. She could tell that he Was in A lot of pain. Blood started to turn his clothes red and Zelda new that she will need to hurry or he wouldn’t make it! she said to him can you get on the horse he said. I-can try-to get on…. She was getting so worried that he wouldn’t be able to make it. She helped him get on the horse and they started to ride.

after about an hour or so it started to get worse they were about 20 minutes away from the staple. And he fell off his horse Zelda jumped off and rushed to the side. He was Groaning with pain as much more blood came out. At this time he was as white as the cloud He was barely breathing and struggling when he was. They finally got to a stable she found some cloth and wiped off the wound with some water. He was wincing with pain she didn’t want it to be painful but she wanted to be clean.

she turned one of the horses in so they could ride together in and he can rest. Zelda did not notice how much blood he had Lost buddy was struggling because of the blood loss they were almost to the village about only 30 minutes away when it started to get worse blood was rushing out now and Zelda was worried. The time before his eyes were open but his eyes started the clothes slowly.

Zelda knew it had to be because of blood loss or was that the reason she turned around and stop the horse she put her hand to Link’s for head he had a very high fever. She knew that the fever was going to cause some pain and some discomfort but she knew she had to get to the village that was all of her concern. when she made it to the village people came running out of their houses link was not awake anymore so They took him to his house and laid him down on the bed. Zelda fell asleep on the bedside Well they tend to his wounds.

She was still very worried for him but than her friend pura came in she said check it her normal thing she looked at link and said what happened Zelda explain to the story as pura made some food on the stove for when he woke up and fore them of course. They talked for hours then Link woke up wai-r am I… don’t worry you’re in your house he fell back asleep after about 20 minutes he was obviously exhausted from blood loss and a fever. After he was all better and able to walk again I Zelda and him continue their adventures as one! The end. Thank you so much for your kindness and your help for your love and kindness always gives me energy.❤️❤️❤️ I just want to ask if you can draw like a little seen out of this you are such an inspiration to me 😊

Hello! Thank you for all your kind words!! I'm really happy if I can give you energy; thank you for all your kindness and positivity as well! I always see you tagging people just to say nice things to them; it's really sweet and always makes me smile! 😊😊💖

Thank you so much for sharing your story! I really enjoyed reading it!! I don't take requests, but I did imagine this based on your story! (I'm sorry if it's not exactly what you had in mind!)

#legend of zelda #botw #zelink #zelda #link #aquanutart #replies #long post #blood #I hope there's always someone looking after you as well as zelda is taking care of link! 💖 #I read your recent post and I'm so sorry to hear what you're going through 😭 #I'm wishing for you to be well and that you keep doing everything you love! you deserve to always have people who care by your side! #I feel so glad that Zelda doesn't have to worry now that she's with Link and they can share the house in Hateno Village! #At least it seemed so peaceful but then--?!! It's sweet that Link tells her to get to safety while he rushes to protect them both! 😭 #I was really worried about Link when the Yiga shot him so many times!!! #and Zelda only had bananas and a small cloth! That's not enough to treat such severe wounds oh no!!! #he pulled all those arrows out himself?!!! no wonder he was in such a great amount of pain! OUCH that sounds horrible!!! 😭😭😭 #treating a wound hurts but Zelda's right it's more important for it to be clean! #the wound sounds so painful I'm so worried about him.. poor zelda wondering if he's going to make it! 😭 #and now he has a fever too oh no?!! I can feel what a rush theyre in when they arrive at the village; Zelda thinking only of getting there! #HE'S OKAY!!! I'm so relieved he was able to recover from that incredible amount of blood loss!! 😭😭😭 #I hope Zelda will stay by his side and hold his hand while he recovers! I love that they continue their adventures together!! #I'm so glad there was a happy ending! Thank you for sharing your story! I've never gotten an ask like this before!

[vigilskeep]

That haircut and the Stubble👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼 for scaea looks so good fr. But I was not expecting them to be blonde. Jumpscared

JGSNJJGSSJLS

this is actually incredible timing i am in the black emporium deciding what her hair colour should be for her to be less tethras coded right now. if anyone has thoughts i’m all ears. your vote could be what prevents her from being even blonder which IS on the table

#im thinking abt red. #she looks good in dark brown but i was hoping to have ONE light-haired character to draw #if its what works its what works though #im trying to figure out what suits the name #if anyone just wants to chime in with the hair colour vibe scaea makes them think of #speak now or forever hold your peace

[dyketubbo]

ik normally we talk about situations like what shubble opened up about, we wanted to take time to think through everything especially because of how upsetting the topic is to us personally. as of now, we do agree that signs point to wilbur so we wont support him and we encourage others to not support him during this time and especially not actively defend him.

but we dont want to make a big deal out of not supporting him so focus can be on shubble and people learning how to see signs of abuse. we're already not very active due to our own recent experience with a traumatizing friendship (we hesitate to really call it abuse yet) but regarding that experience and others weve had we can focus on another big part of shubbles stream: educating others about the signs of abuse. so we want to use the rest of this post to talk about that

abusers will be everywhere and anywhere. yes there will be more in this community, but youll find them no matter where you go and there will be abusers in your personal life as well, whether you end up being abused or someone you know does. theres abusers who are "obvious", who scream and yell and hit. and theres abusers who are charismatic, who will be supportive and funny and yet passive aggressive and backstabbing. and theres abusers who will be quiet and cold and manipulative. and theres abusers who fall into multiple "categories" because theyre complex people just like anyone else and thats why abuse can happen to everyone. because abusers can be anyone.

dont get yourself caught up in how "theyre such a good person", dont get yourself caught up in thinking abuse could never happen to you. if you find yourself in a situation where communication doesnt work, where the other person hurts you over and over and doesnt show signs of getting better, where you keep finding ways to blame yourself and defend them (especially if you find yourself thinking that you deserve how they treat you), where youre scared of them and how theyd react if you told them so, where when you tell them you dont like how they treat you they dismiss you and start treating you worse, look into how to get out of there.

and know that it will take a while. that abuse is hard to get away from. that sometimes youll be trapped for a long time and sometimes youll relapse and defend them even after youve realized theyre abusive. and there will be people who support your abuser over you and people who will hate you and believe your abuser over you. and there will be people who support you but will still support your abuser too for whatever reason. and there will be people who support you fullheartedly and care for you and help you even if it takes you a long time to find them.

abuse is complex. "good people" can be abusive. no matter the fandom, no matter the community, no matter the when who where how why there will always be abusers around. no matter where you go or who you talk to there will always be some case of abuse. the important thing is to educate yourself.

learn about tactics like DARVO (deny, attack, reverse [the roles of] victim and offender), keep notes of the hotlines and organizations about abuse. keep the discussion of how to spot abuse and support the victims open. and always, always, keep more affection in your heart for victims than you do hate for abusers. make yourself someone who can be confided in and trusted to not take advantage of that trust.

and remember: if youre a victim yourself, its okay if you didnt do everything "right". its okay if your feelings keep changing, its okay if you were an asshole victim, its okay if you didnt see the signs even when others pointed them out to you, its okay if you did things "wrong". abuse is hard to sort through and what matters is not whether you "provoked" them, its that they had the power to hurt you and get away with it and they used it, over and over. and thats horrible and what you deserve is to get out and to be able to speak about it without getting hurt for it.

if shubble's story and others like hers resonate with you, tell people. it doesnt have to be public. in most cases it shouldnt be. tell people who you can trust in private and get the support you need so that when youre able and ready to you can get out. and know that there are people like you and even if you feel alone right now you wont be forever

#all the peace and care to shubble. we saw the vod seems to be deleted and we hope shes doing okay right now #critter calls #mostly pres but not just me sooo overall system tag #would say sorry for the long post but we arent really sorry. its an important topic #for the record we dont support how far some people have gone with speculation #we saw people on twt making full fucking timelines and sharing screenshots of shubbles deleted reddit post #dont fucking do that. all the information shubble could share on the matter was in the stream #dont pry any more into their life more than they shared #we have the information we need to know that it was likely wilbur but thats all. and if shubble says that she isnt saying names for- #-reasons outside of just not wanting to then.. i dont think its good or safe for her for people to keep prying #we dont even like the speculation that brought us to believing its wilbur #not because we believe wilbur couldnt do something like this (anyone could) but because #we know we would hate people prying into our life to find out the details about our abuse

[boxwinebaddie]

an uncle nina check in <3

hi team! thanks for sticking around! i know my blog isn't always the most exciting and enriching place in the world in terms of content, but i am very /content/ to have you all here. <3333

i promise, oddly enough, i have A TON of inspiration and ideas for all my weird styles ( if you're curious about anything please lmk! i've been trying to flesh out my aus out lately ), i've just been in a major bummer depression era lately, so it's hard for me to get my asks done and i'm having a hard time committing to finishing my writing. :<

i think it's because of stress and my bipolar, but i am trying to get back on the horse! ( are we all laughing at the idea of me trying to get on a horse? i'd start crying help city girl fail moment for me ) yeehaw!

and while, unfortunately due to the instability ( fabulous legendary iconery ) of my pretty girl popstar personality, i do not know whether i will be answering almost no questions or one million, regardless of that, i just wanted to let you know, i'm still here, still kicking my feet, twirling my hair, cooking...i'm just really trying not to force myself to put out anything i don't like...and only do what makes me truly happy.

however, nothing, my dear sweet e-darlings...

makes me happier than coming home to all of you. <333

so thank you for flooding even the darkest corners of my life with bright light, supporting my phantom fics and being wonderful,

uncle nina xx

#nina speaks #hi my loves #idk what the point of this was #i just know my blog is really inconsistent and i know i dont really post anything or anything that useful #but i wanted you to know that i love you very much and i still care a lot about all of you and all my content actually #which i have been fleshing out in notebooks and google docs i've been doing lots of world building and character study #so feel free to ask me something challenging about any part of my nina sp auniverse that interests u itll make my brain work #i've also been taking very silly but dilligent notes abt what ravesey style looks like for ter so if u want to laff at those u can #i just love taking notes on detail and understanding exactly what characters look like or what settings appear like idk #might be some experimental writing on here i like doing different mediums like i was being silly #and started writing a netflix trailer for rm haha i also have been doing weird personality tests and questionnaires #i've been trying to think very deeply about tkak and my tfbw styles if u have any questions there and am deep plotting rm #trying to be impactful while also keeping things fun and learning to enjoy myself again i suppose #so again thakn u for being here sorry its weird on here but thank u for supporting me as i learn and grow my sunshines #also ik i have a ton of asks and uve already asked me so many things so never feel inclined to message me #but i love hearing what ur curious about hopefully i can answer some stuff eventually but again im on a break #i'm here but i'm not this is a safe place we try and fail we have fun and promote style world domination thru my weird styles #ilysm i'm shutting up now i promise i'm still here i'm just trying to be healthy and happy esp rn when i am not emotionally well #gotta protect my peace and my vibe palace but im still here! #MWAH MWAH MWAAAAAH #really trying to heal my inner child or like the girl in me that liked to write silly stories and create crazy things #weird hcs big dramatic plots silly stuff...i want to honor that girl because she was happy and free and had fun #and i want to do that again so lets have fun guys #no judgement no seriousness just good vibes and good reads #welcome to the uncle nina learns to laugh again arc #i hope you enjoy it

[femmesandhoney]

my mom is friend's with a guy who's paralyzed and can only control some movement in his hands/fingers and very minimally his arms. he has specialized equipment from his wheelchair, to reconstructing his bathroom, specialized bed and machines to get in and out of it, all this expensive medical gear to accommodate his paralysis. his wife is his carer, though he's grown enough and has lived long enough with it that he's able to do many things on his own. but even then he cannot easily travel with his wife and kids, cannot just on a whim do things he wants to do without struggle, and has to be aided by others to do things that many of us take for granted like washing ourselves. being paralyzed and with minimal mobility, especially when you've lived much of your adult life with full mobility and control of your body, is a terrifying and a hugely expensive experience that changes the trajectory of your life. anyone playing down how that man injured that woman deserves a world of karma, they don't realize how serious it is or just do not care about Bird in the slightest.

#like those people saying that shit have never actually known people who are paralyzed #i've met that man many times and been in his house and seen my mom help him when his wife is out of town #that equipment is NOT cheap to buy to make his life easier it's expensive and clunky and large and takes up space #like it's necessary and changes that woman's and her families lives when you see all the things she cannot do for herself now #i hope she finds peace with it like he did and happiness at the end of the day bc that is not a world most of us expect to wake up to #if anything i hope she recovers well and doesn't have as many mobility issues as he did

[marimayscarlett]

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#my daughter is turning one today and i quite literally can't process how fast this year came and went #looked at pictures of her throughout this year and it's just crazy #this year was so stressful due to hospital stays surgery family drama and last but not least the R+ disaster #i know that 2023 is still not over but overall i hope that the new year in my daughter's life will bring some peace and relaxation #because she needs it need it just a normal baby year which so many experienced around us but we didn't #I'm just glad she's happy and healthy now #so this birthday today is of course a milestone but also a maybe new fresh start for a lot of things #i know i should be so focused on this but i just hope for no more hospital stays a healthy baby and R+ tickets #that's all i want and need

[winnie-the-monster]

How anyone can call these two selfish I’ll never know

#like they are selfless to a fault #that it got to the point where it was a big problem #it was so unhealthy #I wish they were selfish or did something selfish #I wouldn’t even care what it was #but nope #bc apparently Hope is selfish for wanting Landon back and not want to lose anyone else she cares about #and Landon is selfish for helping the necromator/Ted go to peace and for bringing Jed Kaleb and mg back to life #oh he’s also selfish for wanting to be with Hope and not trapped in limbo(3x17) #random Handon rants bc I just had to see someone call them selfish today #handon #lol now I have to go think up my 37456 headcanon of them getting to be happy

[tunamayojazz]

a look into yuta and toge's couple dorm life

(template by pckgmeat)

#i just think yuta plays takashi kokubo's music bc it helps him sleep/have a peaceful time #i really tried to nail the average japanese self-help book cover vibe lol i hope i did #ive drawn toge reading skip to loafer before so naturally he also reads hirayasumi #which i highly recommend for slice of life enjoyers by the way #kinda regret drawing toge's cursed speaker bc i think i could have drawn something else that showed his personality more #well ill say it here #it would have been a personal planner/journal plastered with splatoon and panda stickers #the stickers are slipped in between the cover and a protective sleeve he does not stick them directly onto the planner itself #it must be said #ive also talked about this before in another artwork but toge takes his stationary very seriously #the first years have observed this and actually chipped in to get a expensive gift card from his favorite stationary store for his bday #they also know which store because they all go on shopping trips ! and that's canon #as you can see i have a lot to say about this and i love it. brainrot is a wonderful thing #in contrast to toge enjoying cooking at home maki is a restaurant/cafe connoisseur #she enjoys eating toge's food too but really finds joy in eating out and exploring all the food tokyo has to offer. mostly unhealthy food #that's why yuta looks out for chances to get food coupons and brochures about new eateries in the city #a thoughtful person to his friends #he's always thinking of them #ok im done for now but i have more to say. will continue in another post lol #thank you for reading ! #ottoge #inuokko #inumaki toge #inumaki #okkotsu yuuta #okkotsu yuta #yuuta #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #art