The fact that Crowley believes so purely in Aziraphale's goodness and forgiveness...
Knowing full well how seething this made him inside, he merely smiled kindly and said nothing, because Crowley knows how divinely unselfish and good Aziraphale is.
Because since the Beginning, Aziraphale accepted him, never thought he was evil or dangerous or Bad just because he was a demon now. Aziraphale put his wing over him, talked to him as an equal, and listened to him, despite what he was, because Aziraphale is that unselfish and that good and that much a well of kindness.
That's why he was so afraid for Aziraphale's life, so protective and desperate this season to save him, why he's always so happy to rescue his angel... because he knows Aziraphale won't do it for himself, because Aziraphale is not about self-preservation.
He's about doing the Right thing, no matter its costs. His angel would walk into Hell because he did a good thing. He would appeal to Heaven and God before running away at the end of the world, because it's the only course of action where everyone could be saved, the right thing to do.
That's why Crowley is terrified this season, because they aren't anymore hiding out from Head Office, they are actively on the run every day of their lives, waiting for the day the shoe dropped and Heaven and Hell decide to team up and wage war on the earth (and them).
That's why he's so destroyed by Aziraphale choosing to go back to Heaven, because he knows all too well how much his angel's kindness and willingness to see the good in something can warp the angel's perspective and his safety. And yet he knows that's exactly what Aziraphale would do, because that's the Aziraphale he fell in love with, the one who would look Gabriel in the face with a kind smile and say, "May we meet on a better occasion." The Aziraphale who, with the same generous unselfish act, break his heart in a million pieces.
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If I had a nickel for every time an angel broke up with his demonic boyfriend in a completely devastating way (that he clearly did not want to do but convinced himself was the only righteous thing to do) in a bookshop, I'd have two nickels. Which isn't a lot, if you think about it, but still-
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why did ex husband bkg and reader break up ? 😞😞😞
oh dear 🥺 i think it was just a lot at once for you both 🥺
i said this in the tags already, but — i think being a father really, really terrified bakugou. whether he knew he wanted kids or not, the finality in the fact that he was bringing a tiny human into the world to mold and shape is like ajfeuehwkq because he has his issues and his problems and his sensitivities and his traumas and he knows all about them, had them for a while. how that impacts you, i think even after your lil baby was born, he was still working on that. it's probably something he'll have to work on for the rest of his life, the way he copes and deals with his humanness.
but now he's got a teeny baby ? 🥺 one that will watch his every move ? 🥺 one that will learn from him, whether katsuki wants him to or not ? 🥺 you're an adult and the way in which katsuki affects you can be resolved a little easier, because you're a fully developed person, but a baby ?? oh god, i think he was fucking terrified LOL of course happy, ultimately, but this was something that was going to completely alter the course of his life from then on.
and having a baby is hard !! they get sick and scream and cry and it's exhausting, trying to keep up with them !! you come second, especially when a baby is so young, and that is a big change !! coupled with the fact that he's a top hero with responsibilities he can't ignore; there were many, many times when he had to go, you know ? a child couldn't take precedent over his career, even if he wanted it to and — i don't think he wanted it to ? i don't mean this as a negative, but i think there was (keyword: was) a time when he preferred being out on patrol, taking down criminals and working himself to the bone, instead of facing this monumental, inescapable change in his life.
being a hero is all he knows, it's something he's done for so long, and he doesn't know shit about babies !! and i don't mean this to say he totally abandoned you, but he wasn't always home and it's hard enough !! and you had to do a big chunk of it alone 🥺 and it's hard not to get resentful about that 🥺 you're both tired and frustrated and having to adapt and i think it was easy to fight and get distant.
it didn't happen right away, but i do think it was sudden, when it did. you probably asked him not to go to work at times — which was a hard thing to do — and he had to walk out that door and live with himself — which was even harder. i think you wanted time away because you were angry, and then the fight about the house began; he wanted you and the baby to stay, but you didn't want to sit there anymore without him; what the fuck was katsuki going to do with a four bedroom house by himself? it was a mess.
i think you were probably living separately for about a month or two — which put a larger strain on your relationship — before you requested the divorce. because it just wasn't working and i think you were hurt and katsuki was trying but wasn't communicating, which hurt more, and it just kind of imploded. and katsuki was like ABSOLUTELY. NOT — which only started another fight LOL
would not sign anything. would not even talk about it. wouldn't entertain the thought. he's angry because you're angry, he's yelling because you're yelling, your baby is crying and you're fighting over who is going to change him, where he's going to sleep for the night; why would he go with katsuki, when he can never stay home long enough to take care of him ? but if you want him to be around s'damn bad, why are you trying to keep him away ? it was a MESS.
it takes his dad talking to him to figure out what to do, as heart-breaking as that is. has to tell him that time apart might be what's best for the both of you, that holding on too tight might cause more pain than he realizes. it seems like the end, but — it doesn't have to be. you have the rest of your son's life, at least, to understand what you really want from each other, and it was better to preserve that in the safest way possible than to cause irreparable damage.
he only agrees on the condition that you see each other every week, taking the time to have dinner as a family. custody is a fickle thing and you're both more than happy to figure it out amongst yourselves — which you have, over time. it was finalized quickly, once he stopped resisting. once he decided to place his hope in the future alone.
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Crowley is God.
My name is ******y, and I have a problem.
I’m so addicted to a fandom that I actually have dreams involving two certain characters. (Not THOSE kind of dreams… mostly)
Last night’s dream:
Aziraphale discovered Crowley was God, and everyone’s mind was wiped except the Metatron’s. The Metatron was actually Satan, and had great fun screwing with Crowley all those years.
The Metatron was acting as both God and Satan, except Crowley and Aziraphale always remembered God’s (or Crowley’s) love of humanity, thus thwarting… a lot of thwarting.
The Metatron was not happy and tried to separate them. And this is when the truth was revealed.
When Crowley was God, he wasn’t solo. He was more about collaboration, thus opening himself up to those that were power hungry. The memory wipe started prior to the Fall, gradually making Crowley forget that he WAS the almighty.
Aziraphale knew that Crowley was high up, but when they met before the beginning, the wipe had started for him too. He was pure love and concern for his new friend, and those emotions were free of any lust for power.
When Crowley discovered he was God, he and Aziraphale destroyed the institutions of Heaven and Hell, bringing all celestials back together. He gave up his God status to spend eternity with Aziraphale, and made Muriel the next God.
I’m not sure what that says about my obsession, but I was very happy when I woke up.
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stoner!kiri who cant help but hold you close in his lap during the sesh n dry hump you with a hand down your pants fingering u as you hold the blunt.. opened mouth kisses on the juncture between ur shoulder and neck, all sorts of praises coming from his mouth.. wah :(
idk stoner!kiri smelling like adidas colgne and weed n a little bit of musk.. wahh i want him to destroy me :(
Sorry to diverge from the sexy, I’m just so 😖 at the thought of like… Kiri getting off of patrol the night before a few days off, and like… getting home, immediately getting high and then falling asleep on the couch (cuz he’s too lazy to shower and you probs wouldn’t want him in bed)… and waking up groggy, smelling all musky and manly and weedy and wondering why you keep trying to hug him LMAOOO.
I’d be all up on him trying to get a whiff, even if I’d still be calling him stinky the whole time hfndjfjdjvh. Also Kiri w/ big weed brain fog for the first hour after he wakes up… rhsmfjkfjckfk scratching his head and just following you around trying to get you in the shower with him… *zim voice* I HAVE A MIGHTY NEED🤲🏻
But also YESSSDDD to the sexy… He’s kinda like this anyway (thank you T), a very casual toucher… but when he’s stoned, his hand is going straight into your panties whether the attention is meant to be on you or not. All heavy breathing and spacey hickeys that bruise kinda badly cuz he’s not paying attention… not letting you move until you’ve cum three, four times and are begging (hyper aware of safe words though, he’s a hero Through and Through)…
Yeah. I’d sleep good after that, too.
(Bakugo always gets on his case abt wasting weed cuz he has a bad habit of not putting anything out before kissing you LMAOOO)
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