#i just want to be done with this job lol

[dilfian]

walked in to this when i clocked in

#xoxo #that was over an hr ago. but this is still cracking me up. #im leaving it for gci he can fix it. #probably the guy who cleans the floors. OR night crew. either is funny to me. #this isnt even the first time either but its been awhile. #anyways i refilled the middle aisle display. . .oh i forgot to take a pic. i will when i go back inside. #ive refilled aframe. still leaving monster rack alone. now im consolidating perennial tables bc i havent yet. #i woke up early 5am and went. ok yeah im just going to go in and work the rest of my hrs except 1 hr exactish. #wait no i'll have 3hrs left. . .nvm lol #but i can go in super early on sat and then be done. #do like a 6:30 to 9:30 and skeddadle. #i will hate to stay all day again today but whew. . . #i just want to be done with this job lol

[densewentz]

#wwdits #what we do in the shadows #nandermo #ladja #guillermo de la cruz #nandor the relentless #nadja of antipaxos #laszlo cravensworth #colin robinson #nadja and laszlo #my take on the damn jackie meme rip lol #Fanart #digital artist #artists on tumblr #digital art #mini comic #its a rush job but i really just wanted it done lol #my art

[antidotesprout]

Subway Boss tattoo design I made for a tattoo I will likely never get 🥲

#sprout art #work done at day job away from sewing supplies #I guess if anyone wants to get this go for it lol just let me know #should I put this on a shirt for sale lmao

[blue-unifox]

Sgg robbed us of the option to choose our Reader’s kind of species so I’m doing that myself

#my art #pyre #reader pyre #I LIVED BITCH #well I was just rly busy lol #abt to be busy as well in like uhhh a month #last uni year does that to u #anw I was for real googling snakes w arthritis for this #I was trying to keep to the option of the Reader being disabled but in ways so they still can’t participate in the rites #and if you want your own spin on this you can! I’d love to see all the different reader interpretations #could’ve done a little bit better job on the designs tbh #oh well #I enjoyed doing the doggy harp and wyrm #I’m surprised this concept hasn’t been done before #there was like one fic abt the reader being a harp prince but that’s about it

[dmclemblems]

“Claude in Hopes is exactly the same way he is in Houses! He’s always been like that and has the same feelings/morals!”

Claude in GW/Hopes:

Claude, literally, in Houses:

Let that speak for the fact that Claude was written with a 180 characterization in Hopes.

Claude wants peace and to bring everyone together; not to tear them further apart. That is his character.

#I’m still in the middle of answering this ask I got but yeah #even Edelgard noticed Claude really loves bringing ppl together in WC #when she says ''you really value that sort of thing don't you'' after the Eagle/Lion (+Deer >.> ) battle #like if Claude's goal was to destroy Fodlan and just leave a mess of it A+++ you did an astounding show stopping brilliantly done job #if your goal was peace well you fucked that up pretty good buddy #in Hopes too like he's literally arguing with Lorenz about it while Lorenz is like ??? bruh wtf ??? #literally who cares what some politicians did 300 years ago certainly not Houses Claude #in fact Claude said fuck our history sideways with a cactus let's make peace and be friends #AND he got the approval from the whole roundtable and that's all we know on the topic bc it's all we needed to know #versus in GW where it's explicitly stated that it took some doing for them to allow Claude to be king #meaning the roundtable was not up for what he was suggesting and needed to be convinced #they needed it enough that Lorenz pointed it out to everyone and from a narrative standpoint #AM Claude doesn't need to say how the meeting went and all we need to know is that it worked out #but in GW it's told to us that the meeting was very long and it took some doing for them to trust Claude's judgment #the meeting is presented in a more uncertain light with how the lords felt abt it whereas in AM #it's not told to us how things went bc it's not important. a negative aspect (i.e. the roundtable not being able to come to an agreement) #is an important thing to note and if there was any negative aspect of it in AM they would've put it in there #meaning the roundtable trusts AM Claude's judgment enough when he tells them he wants to put their two nations together again #idk how else to explain that so I hope you get what I mean lol #I just find it completely baffling that people actually say both Claudes are the same person and that he was always like how he is in Hopes #like you can like his character in Hopes and enjoy that portrayal of him but at least admit he's written differently you know? #I hate when I see people say that Claude fans didn't understand his character in Houses at all bc they don't like him in Hopes #when you have literal staunch polar opposite sentences coming out of his mouth in these two scenes #the Claude we get in AM is the same Claude - the same person at his core - as he is in VW and all the routes #Houses Claude does not blame whatever the fuck Leicester and Faerghus did 300 years ago on the people living in their present #he also doesn't blame Dimitri or anyone else presently in power for Daphnel #GW Claude there is just grasping at unimportant and insignificant straws to justify his invasion #pretty sure AM Claude would be like ''hey dimi lemme borrow failnaught back real quick'' and smack GW Claude with it #then kindly hand it back to Dimi and smile and wave

[hood-ex]

It’s only been 4 days of working 12 hours shifts, but I feel like I haven’t talked to y’all in a billion years. Or had the chance to have any Dick thoughts. Like nooo what do you mean I can’t think about him all the time now 😩? What do you meaaan?!

#I also have a date tomorrow which I just want to be over with #bc I’m tired of having responsibilities LOL #I just want to go on my walks and rot like before #no but here is what I’ve learned from jobs #NEVER take a job with a split shift where you work-are off for 3 hours-and go back to work #NEVER take a graveyard shift job-they will eat you alive #NEVER take a 12 hour shift job your whole day is literally gone #and it feels like you’re stuck in a loop of always being at your job #honestly brunch restaurant jobs are where it’s at #working from like 7-2 #whew shoulda done that lmao

[housewifebuck]

Is anyone else feeling so fucking burnt out lately they’re about ready to end it all fr

#personal #my meds are fucked up my mental state is fucked up my house is a mess and my job is running me into the fucking ground #I’m just like. feeling very Done lately #I’m not gonna like….do anything ……I havr too much on my plate to hoist off onto anyone else rn #but by god I want to. lol

[steelthroat]

Self-taught artist? Went to art school? Why not both?????

Artist who went/is going to art school, but teachers ignored them/are never in class/just care about their favorites so they kind of had to learn things by themself and then go crawling like a worm to the professors and ask "like this?" And they grunt and nod instead of giving constructive criticism.

#steel rambles #or you know #when the prof uses your project to experiment so when they do their own thing they know what to do because they watched you #I am this close to get my painting and slam it on my professor's head #I told the other lab's assistant what that asshole is making me do and she was horrified #HEY AT LEAST NOW I KNOW IT'S NOT ME BUT HIM! #ha! #I'm gonna cry so hard lol I could have just done the project the same way I did it last year #“BuT nOu” he wanted me to “tRy SoMeThInG nEw” #FUCK YOU???? if something worked once why the hell should I do something harder with worse results????? #but I'm gonna do it anyway now #and it's gonna look good #because fuck you I'm gonna do a good job no matter how much this asshole is gonna try and make things difficult #but I swear if he doesn't take the difficulty into account when he's gonna give me my grades... #you'll hear about me on the news I swear. #just a few months and I'm never gonna see him again #just a few months! #AAAAAAAAARGH

[leisurecd]

my job would be enjoyable if my colleagues didn’t mind me asking questions cos i’m still learning and so scared

#like oh the new person doesn’t understand everything yet? wow they must be stupid #i hate having a job i wish i had just done another uni degree but 1) i wouldnt know what and 2) i was too scared of all the stress i endured #cos i’m insane and need the best grades in everything or i explode and i didnt want to put up with that pressure again #but tbh i enjoyed studying way more than having a job #i genuinely hate my life atm lol #i also hate how socially awkward i am but that something else i need to deal with

[easeupkid]

um. okay why is it impossible for me to find a job that is not a summer internship or not like for being a managing editor.

#i need a real job but also this is my first real job out of college like lol #like i’ve done the internship shit and i have a lot of college media experience and a lot of good experience from my internship! i’m ready #for something real but for some reason places are only hiring bitches with 5+ years experience like what am i supposed to do then lol #anyways just very stressed because i really want something lined up by graduation and that is like a month away lol #and i KNOW i have a good resume and a good portfolio and am pretty hireable but like where are the jobs #anyways . grr

[bunnihearted]

🦭

#ok lol my social worker called me nd talked a little but so now i know they've approved it lmao. #ok i can relax abt that for now.. i still need a job tho 🥶 #im not even against having a job like PLEASE i want one #i want to be financially independent #im good at saving nd stuff like plz plz #but yeah im 25 w no experience plus i have avpd so idek how to practically find a job #i just dont know. i realize that sounds stupid but my disorder is ssly limiting me 😭 #fuck. still dont know if i can sleep bc im so stressed abt everything #also got me thinking abt how i dont wanna get old. like genuinely i dont want it #i want to be 50 max nd thrn im done. wnna blow my brains out lol #after my mom passes away (when shes old it's gonna be at least 40 more years!!!!!) im finished #so i want to live for the moment i rlly do. i want to fit as much good as i can now #plus global warming.. i rlly dont think life as we know it now will last that long #so anyway.. too much anxiety wtfffff idk what to do lol

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

The Saint of Bright Doors

a surreal Sri Lankan fantasy about colonialism, revolution, mixing fantasy with the modern world

follows a man raised by his mother to kill his father, a god-like cult leader

but as an adult he puts aside his life of violence and moves to the city for a quiet life

he becomes fascinated with ‘bright doors’ around the city that never open and have no other side, and joins a group studying them to find out more

and a support group for those with divine heritage that becomes increasingly revolutionary, until the task he was made for reemerges and his life upends

#the Saint of Bright Doors #aroaessidhe 2024 reads #this is kind of hard to explain I dont know if I did a very good job here lol #it is weird and full of so many interesting elements. I’m still not entirely sure how I feel about it but?? I really liked it mostly??? #It starts pretty small scale focused on the MC & slowly unravels the wider worldbuilding and narrative elements in a really interesting way #The first chapter or two I assumed it was typical high fantasy but then it’s like. oh this is a modern city. with emails and stuff. #The pacing is a bit weird - it’s quite meandering and also pivots significantly in the second half. tbh I’m still ????? about the ending lm #but also I am happy to float through on vibes. #and there’s some elements (like the doors that become….not that relevant) that I want to know more about. (as an aside - I saw someone say #that it’s a very clear retelling about Buddha’s son? which idk enough about but probably could give a deeper context to a lot of it) #writing style is kinda detached from the MC but also there is a reason for this that makes sense with the twist near the end! #which is a kind of twist i LOVE. Maybe I wish it had been emphasised a bit more over the story though? unsure. #I thought his mother's story was interesting also - you think she's an terrible parent just there for background context at the start but #then when she tells her story it's like ohh there's more context here. #also I hesitate to just say ‘if you like the spear cuts-- you should read this’ because I think the elements that are similar are done in a #kinda different way and might disappoint you if you’re expecting it to be the same as spear….but regardless the sort of dreamy writing #rich world; narrative with fantasy but also modern day elements; some of the writing style; mlm MC (tho not a romance) #idk. it will definitely not work for everyone but I enjoyed it overall #also it is full of queerness #bisexual books

[kithj]

my 2023 year in review:

published the most recent update for tnp in january

started work on hh originally in twine back in march

wrote and published one day hike in april

wrote and published faith in june for neo-twiny jam

refined hh as a novel instead and wrote the first draft between may-august

wrote and published siren's call in september

also started working on blood choke in may and published the prologue & ch1-2 in july, then ch3 in november

i started a few things that i haven't finished but will hopefully finish this year... bleeding heart will definitely be published within the next month for vampjamp.

i guess my hopes for this year will be:

finish bleeding heart in time for vampjamp (this will definitely happen)

finish the blackwater route for tnp and finally move on to ch3

ch4 of blood choke

workshop hell or highwater & decide what direction i want to take it in

start second draft of hh

#i did write a lot this year i guess. lol #just not for any of the projects i should have (tnp) #i cant really say im that proud of anything that i published tho #one day hike was cathartic and felt like the best thing i'd ever written at the time #but really i think it's just cus i actually finished something for once lmfao #i havent reread it and probably won't #i rushed siren's call and also havent reread it since september #i do like what ive done with blood choke. but im disappointed how much i dropped productivity on it after november #tnp took me at least 2 yrs before i started writing this slow #its frustrating how fast it happened with blood choke... #and even more frustrating bc im so excited for what i have planned. i want to be more proud of it #oh well. the time will pass anyways as they say #i really wish i had an office or desk to write at. i feel like i would be so much more motivated & productive #and also if i didnt work my shitty soul-sucking retail job but. lol

[pepprs]

i literally need there to stop being situations circumstances events developments complications and happenstances. for the fucking love of god

#purrs #but there will never stop being any of those things so actually what i literally need is to learn HARD AND FAST how to stop getting so #fucking triggered over a situation i know is NOTHING so bad that im anxious for the entire rest of the day and can’t even get any work done. #like (jade from tesco voice) girls… im not gonna lie to you. i think therapy is not working. i think i am not mentally or emotionally strong #enough to work in this job and i think i am never going to get mentally or emotionally stronger. ive been stuck in the quicksand too long #and now im atrophying. i cannot develop the situational awareness and motor skills or awakeness (and i mean AWAKEness.) to safely and #consistently drive a car. i cannot develop the intellect and drive and courage to get an advanced degree or be in a leadership position that #everyone actually sees as a leadership position lmfao. and i cannot develop the emotional intelligence and inner peace to not get triggered #out of my fucking mind at work to the point where im having anxiety heart palpitations and fighting back tears. i am just stuck as i am #forever. and you know how i know that? BECAUSE IVE WORKED AT THE NATIONALLY RENOWNED CENTER FOR YOU-ARE-NOT-STUCK-AS-YOU-ARE-FOREVER FOR #FIVE FUCKING YEARS SINCE ITS LITERAL FOUNDING AND HELPED TO FOUND IT AND IM STILL LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!! i go back to square one EVERY #FUCKING DAY!!!!!!!! how am i supposed to tell other people who they are is what they bring and the world can change and whatever when i am #the fucking antithesis of that. when i don’t even believe my own words. like the way i want to punch out every window in this building rn i #HATE BEING LIKe this i hate being in the psychic prison of scared little girl mode all the time forever no matter what and being beyond help #and disappointing and burdening the people around me because i can’t be fucking normal about like. hierarchy and institutional politics LOL #delete later

[dorothygale]

i did the math and i've watched approximately 70 hours of call the midwife since i started it ten days ago so that's why i was severely offline all weekend btw

#which idk how that's even physically possible even bc that's 7 hours a day and i do have. a job. #even including weekends? but the math does not lie #ever since i was a little girl i knew i wanted to watch things on screens a lot and now i'm living my dream <3 #i just finished s9 #i miss patsy but lucille is now the loml forever and ever #i havent done the Watched A New Show Notification Via Gifset Reblogging bc i want to avoid spoilers lol #rest assured i'll be super annoying when i get caught up #blabs #*ctm

[memorys-skyscraper]

the scene in yakuza 5 where shinada and milky dance on the roof talking about how they should run away and start over in a new town with new jobs and new lives, only for milky to abruptly stop and let shinada go when she gets called back downstairs to work, while shinada is sent stumbling by suddenly being let go until he too comes to a stop, burns a hole in my brain

#rambles #yakuza #yakuza liveblogging #like man. MAN. that shit hits home #milky saying 'i wanna be a teacher this time- that was my dream as a kid!' #and shinada replying 'you can! nothings stopping you! you can start over!' with a tone that borders on hysterical #he's so desperate to believe it's possible because in that moment he can see it- he sees his way out #for a moment he's blind to all the things that have kept him from doing exactly what he's proposing every other time he's considered it #hes trapped in a glass house- he can see freedom but knows he cant reach it. but for a moment he lets himself forget the glass is there #but milky doesnt. she thinks hes being cute and plays along but as soon as she lets him go the music cuts and the moment is gone. #reality comes crashing back down- they're not going anywhere. #and i mean. idk if this is a common/universal experience but ive had many a late night where ive done exactly the same thing #fantasized about quitting my job/going back to school/finding some means of self employment/moving somewhere totally new #and ive had those fleeting moments where i could see it- i could see how i could make it work #or i could see that there's nothing *physically* stopping me from doing any of those things #and if i could just sum up enough courage i could do anything i wanted with my life #but then i wake up the next day and that vision is gone. #i cant see outside the glass house anymore- i can only see the reflection of the inside. #tl;dr i should revisit y5- the writers were cooking and i didnt take enough time to savor it #(esp not the shinada section bc i hated his combat style lol)