#i know this post is so stupid and theres probably a better way to phrase this stupid joke

[nathanielthecurious]

hey guys i keep hearing about this concerning new side effect where the covid vaccine turns you into an alpha chad and makes your dick bigger :/ stay safe out there

#their actual plan for targeting men is to frame it around protecting others rather than protecting yourself #but I like my idea better :) #i know this post is so stupid and theres probably a better way to phrase this stupid joke

[illfoandillfie]

Promise

Pairing: Aromantic!Fem!Reader x Ben Hardy

Warnings: Implied smut and some Feelings talk but honestly it’s pretty tame.

Words: 1,413

A/N: It’s Aggressively Arospec Week! So, as promised, I’m going to be posting a few blurbs/short one shots and things during the coming week to celebrate, all of them taking place within my Platonically verse. All of the posts will be tagged as “platonically event” in case you want to find them later (or block the tag)

This first one is inspired by a song - Promise by The Novel Ideas. I think it was probably written with a more romantic relationship in mind but theres a few lyrics in there that I choose to interpret as queerplatonic, and that especially reminded me of Ben and Reader in Platonically.

Ben’s house was a comforting place. You’d always felt comfortable there, since you’d first become friends with Ben, but especially after you got together. It was bigger than your place for one, an actual house and not a rundown flat you had to share to afford, though it was still fairly small. Its yard was almost non-existent but there was a scrap out the back that caught the sun in the afternoons. More than once you and however many friends had huddled there on wintery afternoons to warm up or else sprawled out in as few layers as you could get away with hoping the mercury wouldn’t rise much higher. So, after a day mostly spent indoors, huddled at your computers, you and Ben decided it might be nice to take a picnic rug out into the sunshine to relax before you had to worry about dinner. Of course, when Ben suggested the idea he chose to use the phrase, “boost our vitamin D levels” and you thought he was insinuating something else entirely.   “Well if that’s really what you want,” he laughed, pretending to reach for the waistband of his joggers.

Instead you stuck to his original idea, grabbing a fuzzy orange blanket from his wardrobe and laying it out over the patchy grass, throwing a couple of pillows down on top so your heads at least would be comfortable. For a while you just sort of did your own things near each other. Ben was preparing for a new movie so took the opportunity to read over the information he had and sections of the script, occasionally muttering to himself or highlighting something important (nearly always almost dropping his phone onto his face). And you happily stretched out beside him, relishing the warmth of the sun as you played games on your phone and scrolled through Tumblr. But, the lower in the sky the sun got, the closer together you moved until the sky was tinted with pink and you were laying perpendicular to each other, your head resting on his stomach. With a sigh, Ben set aside his phone and looked up at the wispy clouds moving across the sky. You knew what he was thinking about though he stayed quiet. “How long before you go?” “We start shooting in two weeks but I fly out a little before that just so I can get settled and meet everyone and there’s time to do any prep stuff before filming actually begins.” He paused but realised he hadn’t really answered you, “twelve days,” “Thats ages away,” you said with a soft laugh though you both knew the time would go by quickly. It wouldn’t be the first time you waved Ben off at the airport, but it would be the first time since you’d decided to be queerplatonic partners. Something about it made you a little sad, knowing you wouldn’t have your best friend by your side for the few months it took to film the movie, but it wasn’t the end of the world and you were excited on his behalf too.   Ben sighed again, less audibly than before but you could feel it in the way his stomach and chest moved so you rolled over to face him, propping yourself up on your elbow, studying the pensive expression he wore and determining he needed cheering up.   “I expect you to bring me back a present,” He smiled, his eyes drifting from the sky down to you as he let his head turn to the side, “I’ll keep that in mind,” “And I don’t mean something crappy like sweets or whatever junk you usually bring me. That was fine before but there has to be some sort of perk since I’m your partner now. I mean, everyone thinks I’m your girlfriend so you really have no choice here, you have to bring me something good.” The smile slowly spread until Ben was laughing, “Okay, something good it is then.” You giggled along with him, ignoring the patch of hard dirt under your elbow until you couldn’t any longer and instead rolled onto your back so you could lie beside him and let him wrap you up in his arms. And for a little while that was enough. It was close to being too warm, hot as you were from laying in the sun, but you didn’t mind, content in the knowledge that Ben was happy too.

Slowly his grip loosened until it was just his palm rubbing gently over your stomach and side, his thoughts back where they’d been before, “If I’d known I wouldn’t have auditioned for the movie,” “What?” “If I’d known things between us would work. At the time I kinda figured it was a good excuse in case asking you out ruined shit. I could just lay low for a few weeks and then dip, give you some space. But now it kinda feels like a mistake.” “Are you kidding? It’s a great roll, Ben, and you’re going to be amazing in it.” “Yeah I know, and I am excited about it,” “I’d hope so since it means you get to go to Greece,” He gave another soft chuckle at that, “Yeah that’s definitely part of my excitement. And it will be fun. But things are really good with you. Like really good. And I don’t want to ruin that by leaving.” You understood where he was coming from but still felt he was being a bit ridiculous, “You better not be getting romantically sentimental on me. It’s not like we live in the Regency period and have to rely on letters in the post or whatever. And besides, we’re not romantically involved so it’s a bit stupid for you to get all depressed about going.” You gave him a poke in the ribs for good measure.   “I promise I’m not,” there was an audible lift in his voice, “I just feel very protective of you. I don’t want you to be sad.” “Uhhhh, I’m going to be house sitting for you so there’s no chance of me being sad. I’ll have this place to myself and I am definitely going to enjoy it. Playing music as loud as I want, eating my way through your stash of chocolate, playing all your video games whenever I want. Able to be loud when I masturbate. No need to worry about accidentally waking up a roommate or walking in on her giving her boyfriend a bj. Fucking paradise really.” Ben snorted at the last bit and squeezed you tight again before kissing your temple, “Okay, sad isn’t a problem then. But I also don’t want you to realise I’m not necessary.” It was your turn to snort though it was less about amusement and more about how daft Ben sounded, “But you aren’t necessary.” “Way to make a guy feel special Y/N,” “No it’s a good thing. Like, being aro, I know I don’t need a relationship of any kind and, honestly, I’d be happy being single. I was happy being single for a long time. I have no desire for a relationship. But I want to be with you anyway. It doesn’t matter that I don’t feel a particular way for you. I just like you so much and think you’re such a good friend and we have so much fun that I’m happy with you. And I don’t want to stop being with you. You being in Greece isn’t going to change that.” “Guess I never thought of it like that. Kinda sweet actually.” “Plus, y’know, we’re pretty great at sex, right?” “Oh definitely great at it.”

It was much darker by then, the sun hanging low in the sky, but you barely noticed as Ben’s lips met yours, soft and comforting at first though neither of you seemed to want to be the one to stop the kiss. So neither of you did stop it. Instead you both shifted around to make it easier, eventually settling with his knee between your legs, giving you something to rock against as his arms loosened and his hands slid down to cup your arse. You knew you would miss him while he was away. He was your best friend so of course you would. But you weren’t worried. And you hoped you could at least distract Ben from whatever worries he had about it, if not cure them entirely.   “It’s getting dark Benny, you wanna move this inside? Think I’m a little low on Vitamin D.”

#my writing #my blurbs #ben hardy x reader #ben hardy imagine #if you have anything you want to see from this pairing feel free to submit things #i got 3 requests all from the same person #(Love you L) #as well as having a few of my own ideas #but i'm very very happy to write other things people come up with #and they don't have to be explicitly about her being aro #one of the requests is just straight up smut and im very excited about it #anyway #i wanted to post this one first because #entirely coincidentally #one of the requests fit really really well as a sequel to it #so expect that one tomorrow! #platonically event

[polyhexian]

[smacks my pizza hands down on the table]

RATCHET is a GOOD BOY and he is NICER to whirl than most and youre GONNA act like it

here is our VERY FIRST interaction between whirl and ratchet in mtmte. whirl fucking body slams cyclonus so hard he knocks him offline right in front of ratchet and my boy keeps that shit on LOCK he does NOT wig out, his FIRST words to whirl are “Whirl...? You okay? What’s going on?”

I know “Better at de-escalating than rung” is a low bar but look at him, de-escalating. staying calm. trying to make him calm. 

RATCHET is the one whos like “okay we have to bring whirl with us hes clearly a danger to himself and others.” prickly grumpy man persona, but hes still concerned not just that whirls hurt but that he is, again, a danger to himself and others, you can’t risk leaving him

like im pretty sure this is legitimately the meanest thing ratchet ever says about whirl and its pretty small time compared to what other people say, AND hes unconscious and cant hear it in the first place

“Whirl! Listen! You’re safe! You’re among friends!” 1. ratchet called himself his friend on purpose like he knows who whirl is 2. i know i already shit on rung being bad at de-escalation once but like, seriously. 3. amazing! “you’re safe!” is his go to, its almost like ratchet looks at someone waking up and immediately having a violent fit as probably another patient with ptsd freaking out

okay its my post so im allowed to side track to shit on rung if i want but like, again, rung is bad at his job, he really should be able to deescalate someone having a night terror without defaulting to what amounts to a threat, like, whirl has a big stupid pincer hes not even choking you dummy youve survived four million years of war and every person youve ever met has ptsd you REALLY should be better at this by now

like i look at this interaction and i try to think of the way any other character might have phrased this and i do NOT think they would have been as gentle lol

this is issue 16!!! 16!!! whirl is still an asshole! and yet ratchet thinks of two people when hes facing down inevitable death- i mean, drift also,but drift is two feet away from him, but he thinks of first aid and he thinks of whirl, ive literally just showed you ever other noteable interaction between whirl and ratchet up to this point, theres nothing missing. ratchet doesnt owe him shit, whirl didnt ask him anything, and most importantly, ratchet was not THERE for the fort max situation! he wasnt in the room! either drift told him whirls shtick or he already knew. ratchets the only person at this point who treats empurata as something thats like, serious, swerve makes jokes about whirl not being expressive, fort max calls him damaged, NO one treats empurata as serious or traumatic at this point in the series except for ratchet because of COURSE he would. hes an ex senate doctor. ratchet knows what they did to him and why they would have done it, of course he pities whirl

like i dont need to note ratchet left him his hands when he did eventually die because we all know that already, but like, that wasn’t a new thing for him, it wasnt something he decided to do after whirl finally stopped being an asshole all the time or after his character development, ratchet had him marked down for that since the beginning. and then after the lost light ended its run, decades and decades since he seen whirl ratchet STILL left him his hands

SLAPS my pizza hands on the table Ratchet does NOT hate whirl, he in fact deeply sympathizes with him and is probably nicer to him than anybody else, and even though ratchet finds him just as obnoxious and insufferable as every other person who is subjected to whirls presence does ratchet is STILL gentle and sympathetic toward him because hes a GOOD grandpa

#maccadam #im main tagging this bitch #transformers #ratchet #mtmte #whirl

[kumoriyami-xiuzhen]

Hakuouki Yuugiroku 3 Short Episode “Very Similar”

This translation is from the 3rd Yuugiroku game “Hakuoki Yuugiroku - Taishitachi no Daienkai,” and I will not be referring to it as such since it’s too much of a hassle to copy/paste/look up the title every time plus I reserve the right to be lazy since I don’t see anyone else translating anything from this game! xD lol... as such, this why I will only be tagging this under ‘Yuugiroku 3.’

ANYWAY.

when i was taking a break from filling up my queue with ssl stuff, i ended up translating this for some reason. lol. should probably have done something from kyoka-roku since there’s still that rain scenario stuff and the other char povs to do, but since i have translations for about 95% of this game (not counting yuugiroku 1 [have a patched psp iso file but I don’t care to learn how to extract text from it as i’m lazy] and 2 [have various tl for this... very unorganized plus some of it is incomplete] which are bundled onto this vita game), i figured that it didn’t matter if i got a tiny head-start. The only thing I can’t translate/have no translations for from this game is the section that has no text where the guys comment on various drinks or something (can’t remember what they are aside from sake cuz i distinctly remember Saito saying something about sake and tofu lol), and the misc dialogue that occurs when you select something in the menu or during the mini-games.

In regards to this content, I think this was in what was referred to as the “Appreciation section” [not sure+too lazy to check jp mtl], though the translation of the text on the right on the first image below the cut is ‘episode’ in Chinese so I will be labelling this as such... There are a total of 9 in these in the game.

all images used in this post are my screenshots aside from the game box art (this is the limited ed bonus version). do not repost elsewhere.

enjoy~

Hakuouki Yuugiroku Taishitachi no Daienkai - Episode “Very Similar” 

Translation by KumoriYami

Characters [text on bottom left]: Hijikata, Okita, Sakamoto 

Hijikata: Ah, I'm back.

Sakamoto: Yo Hijikata, I've come to visit.

Hijikata: ...! You are Sakamoto! What are you doing here!

Souji: We were just talking about HIjikata-san.

Hijikata: Me?

Sakamoto: Yeah! You and I were born in the 6th year of Tenpō [天保], really what a coincidence!

Hijikata: What nonsense, weren't there a lot of people born in that year?

Souji: That's not all, Sakamoto-san is also the youngest son of a rich family.

It's no wonder why [these] two [have] faces that looked completely spoiled by everyone and the world around them.

Hijikatta: Are you qualified to tell me that?

I suffered a lot during those days/years [the actual word used is "years" but the phrase used can mean either "in those days", "during that time", and "in those years"].

Sakamoto: That's right, have you tried being a merchant?

If you're capable of doing that, you should go and open and up your own store. [theres no damn pronoun subject in this sentence but based on jp mtl  and context, im assuming he's telling souji off]

Souji: Hijikatasan, you opened a store/ran a store? With his temper? That's not the way to joke [That's not something to joke about/That's a bad joke?].

Hijikata: Shut up! I also didn't think that suitable for me to do.

Sakamoto: After your parents also died early. [Weren't you] raised by your eldest sister who is [now the] closest to you too? Actually, that's another a coincidence!

Souji: Eh, it is like that. I was also left with my elder sister after my parents died early.

Sakamoto: Oh, then you were also brought up by your elder sister!

Souji: I don't remember so who knows.

Sakamoto: You don't remember....... you can't remember your own sister?

Souji: Mah, it's more complicated for me.

Sakamoto: (whispered) Although I don't understand that, it's better to not ask questions.

Hijikatta:  (whispers) Yeah, the exterior of this guy is [already] super troublesome.

Souji: By the way, doesn't Sakamoto-san have a friend who is sick and bedridden?

Sakamotto: Ah you're talking about Takasugi?

That guy is bedridden [literally: 'to fall gravely ill, never to recover' (idiom)] because of tuberculosis.

Hijikata: Tuberculosis.......  it's said to be an incurable disease, [we?] should go and meet him while he's still alive.

Souji: Hm....... There are similarities even in this aspect?

Hijikata: What did you say?

Souji: Nothing, just thinking aloud.

(”art” cg)

Hijikata: That reminds me, this morning you drew on my face while I was asleep!

Souji: I obviously used prepared ink, [so] I don't know how you managed to remove it.

Hijikata: I was desperately worked to get it off! It would have been a disaster if I didn't leave without checking a mirror!

Souji: It would be better to have all the mirrors inside headquarters hidden away next time I draw.

Hijikata: Souji, you.......!

Sakamoto: I don't know if the relationship between you is good or bad.

I've heard that the Shinsengumi rules and ranks are well respected [maintained/adhered to.. i guess?].

But this doesn't look it's harsh to a deranged degree.

Souji: that's right, even though Hijikata-san looks like this, he's a very tolerant person.

(cg 2)

Hijikata: Hmph, it's annoying how you say whatever comes to mind [say whatever you please].

Souji: I'm serious, I truly respect Hijikata-san.

Hijkata: Shut up. If you're going to be making stupid comments, hurry up and leave with Sakamoto. I have documents I need to write!

Sakamoto: What? It wasn't easy for me to come/I finally managed to come [yet] you're so cold and detached.

Souji: Hijikata-san is such a person, but as he says, we should go. Ah by the way Sakamoto-san, are you able to write haiku?

Sakamoto: Oh? I'm only able to write basic phrases at the level of an ordinary person [I can only write basic phrases].

Souji: I have a lovely book of haiku, would you like to take a look?

(oni cg with horns + sound of thunder)

Hijikata: You stole my haiku collection again! I will absolutely not be letting you off today!

--------------------

did this in june lol. 

i do like these short stories... not that yuugiroku 3 has any real plot to speak of, though i have no idea when I’ll translate another of these or anything from this game again for that matter since i still got ssl and ginsei no shou to work on.

#hakuoki #hakuouki #Hakuoki Game Translation #Hakuoki Yuugiroku 3 #Hijikata Toshizou #Okita Souji #sakamoto ryouma

[qk1]

gonna post a dang dream cause it was dang weird and I want a link to send

    it was in the form of like, a movie? main character is me but is blonde girl, looking like stock 30-something protagonist chick from an apatow movie. but this is some sort of drama. i can't tell whats going on specifically because the dialogue makes no sense. i am arguing in a room with some other girls, ones older, scolding me i think. i get my things and go.

     i get in my car, but where i was parked was in some grass. while driving into the road, i realize its a much steeper dropoff onto the road than i thought, and it bottoms out and damages my car. brand new car all fucked up. im mad but oh well, i drive on.

     seems the movie keeps switching genres because now its like a dumb 2000s era college comedy where i keep getting into small accidents as im driving. more and more of the car gets damaged. but like, damaged as in gets hit and falls off completely.

     eventually i am driving what is basically a car frame with just wheels, engine, and a couple body panels left (which is funny because that joke doesnt work anymore since nowadays cars dont have frames like that, theyre unibodies, so fuck you dream). i am super pissed off cause there goes my new car, and its all because hundreds of stupid people keep crashing into me.

     im driving out in the woods and its getting dark. now the genre switches to horror as i am forced to abandon whats left of my car, on a dark country road in the woods. the last guy i crash into is one last jock from the comedy who is trying to apologize to me stupidly when he gets utterly gored from behind by some mchael myers killer dude.

     so obviously i take off running. i try to stay on the road but it turns into trail anf then just into forest. i am gradually less aware of my surroundings until im not even sure why im running and i end up on a train.

     there are a couple people on the train, presumably the party i boarded with, but i don't know them. i try to warn them qbout the guy chasing me but they just laugh. then he shows up and kills another person.

     he manages to hit me a couple times, and now im like the car from earlier, pieces of me coming off. but its just cosmetic damage this time, for lack of a better phrase. little bits of flesh here and there.

     i get hit on the head and i think im fine. but when i examine the damage, a piece of my skull, between my temple and forehead, comes off in my hand, sticky strands of blood and meninges detatching as i pull.

     i escape enough to lock myself in a dark-ish bathroom with one other person. i can see enough that i can tell its in a home, not a train. theres a full size tub and a pedestal sink. the other person is pacing back and forth, gesticulating and rambling.

     shes explaining some barely comprehensible paranoid delusion about how dreams, ones with a series of scenarios like I'm having, are some kind of matrix prison thing. our souls or consciousness or whatever are forced to jump from one body/reality to the next while the body is perpetually sleeping, somnambulantly performing menial tasks necessary for the prison to function.

     the dreams act as instructions for the body. like, in the dream im, say, taking a food item out of a fridge, but in physical reality, my sleeping enslaved body is doing some job that requires bending over, opening a container, and taking a thing out to put into some other container.

     but are the dreams just post hoc rationalizations for the otherwise incomprehensible tasks my body is forced to perform, unbeknownst to me, beyond my control?

     I brush off their schizophrenic conspiracy yheory and leave the dark bathroom, abandoning my plan to assess my damage in the mirror. im sure its fine

     i walk out and im in an apartment. but its somehow mine? and im hosting a party? but i dont know the place or the people so i guess it's still movie mode. im hungry as hell and all the fast food burgers somebody bought got eaten. i go to the fridge and try to microwave some white castle burgers.

     but then everyone is leaving and i have to go with them? for some reason? and this is now like, a lame teens dramedy? like, juno or something? i hate it still? i grab the obly thing in the fridge left and leave with them. we're out in a neighborhood street as the sun is coming up.

     its the old abandoned neighborhood trope again. this neighborhood is tree lined and was probably pretty, but recently abandoned but there must have been a storm. everything is wet leaves and branches broken off the trees strewn about, clogging the road.

     i still have this weed in my hands and im idly picking out stems as we walk. but as i pick i come to realize its just about all stems and either i dropped the flowers or there never was any real weed in it. and im finding inchworms.

     i freak out and drop all of it as i realize all the "stems" in my hands are inchworms or some other kind of caterpillar/worm. i try to point out how weird this is but i look up and whoever i was walking with are all gone. im looking around for people and i just see wet broken branches and dead houses.

     i notice a big arm-width, 12 foot or so branch is kinda moving. i look closer and its not a branch, its also a worm thing, with that same dry caterpillar texture. freaks me out. but im thinking i must be seeing things, it looked just like a branch a second ago. i look closer at the end of it and i can see its dead-eyed bug face turn toward me.

     but for slme reason, maybe because of the fear and panic im feeling, i can see far too much detail (this high-res sharp detail thing happens a lot in my dreams). its face, and all its alien bug features, seem to be segmented, or a lattice of some kind, made up of little spider-like eyes. but the eyes start squirming, like im seeing the tips of larvae in a beehive.

     and from these little orifices out pop, one by one, those little stem-like inchworms, the worm was worms all along, all the way down, its all bugs and crawly and wet leaves and dry wiggling worms and i wake up

#dream #unibody vs body-on-frame

[lee-donghun]

I mentioned earlier that I wanted to talk about my logan theory in depth. I can’t take complete credit for it though, some points i’ve picked up from other people after all, but i still want to add some more insight on this from my perspective.

first: https://tyrus-is-endgame-fight-me.tumblr.com/post/184088552454/okay-so-there-is-one-part-of-the-new-video-that-i at point point I talk about a theory involving the clothing style(not my own) and how it could help to prove that Virgil was a dark side and wants to hide this. Theres a plot hole in this theory involving Logan though. OP of that theory ( @just-a-random-word ) even mentioned it in the tags (and probably the comments)

Basically, Roman and Patton wear all bright colours to symbolize their “lightness”, and Deciet and Virgil wear black with a single accented colour at most.

According to this though, shouldn’t Logan be a dark side? he has a single spot of white to be fair but for the most part- what does he wear right now? a black shirt and a dark blue tie (remember the dark blue tie for later).

in that aforementioned post, I explained it to the fact that logan probably wanted to look more professional, and thinks a black shirt looks better with a coloured tie. Now, because of his character, this could easily have been true if it wasn’t for some minor details.

1) haven’t we seen him in jeans? if he was purely focused on appearing professional- than wouldn’t he wouldn’t wear jeans. Dark or not- he would wear dress pants. Much more professional- don’t you think? However, it seems his tie is enough for him right now, and so thus-professionalism isn’t the only thing on his mind

2) the tie. In the beginning- the tie was light blue like Patton, but he darkened it. The only other side to change a colour, was Virgil but he lightened up a bit which in my mind at least, symbolizes how Virgil was realizing that he was finally earning his spot amongst them all, and growing-or changing-. So wouldn’t it make sense that Logan’s change meant a change in himself as well? I highly doubt that he changed yet at this point, for it wouldn’t make sense. However- I do believe that it foreshadowed change.

Besides just the clothes though, let’s take a look at Logan’s attitude. 

we all know Logan has a temper. We’ve seen many examples of him lashing out, especially when it comes to him lying. The question is though- why would the logical one have the anger issuses? shouldn’t he be the rational one, thinking things through first? but no- he’s impulsive at times. 

Is it really so far off to believe that Logan’s anger wouldn’t get the best of him for an extended period as well? especially when he’s been hurt again and again-

let me back up here-

How many times has Roman insulted him? a lot.

Has Virgil gotten mad at him? yep.

Patton even yelled at him in “Moving On Part 2″, causing Logan to storm off.

You add that to Deceit is the one to call Logan “everyone’s favorite character”, and while it’s proven that he can tell the truth if he chooses to, it’s likely that Logan wouldn’t of taken it as the truth.

Moving back towards his attitude though, Logan has proven to be insecure and not able to hide it.

This specific gif isn’t the best example, it still counts mind you, but it’s what I could find. In this, Logan got upset because he wanted to solve the problem by himself, to prove that he should be listened to and regarded as important as well. On first glance, it could be passed off as “he’s a know-it-all who believes that he would never need help” and he doesn’t trust patton to not disrupt him perhaps, but when you look deeper, there’s more. Logan got really upset fast, or he wouldn’t have yelled, so he obviously feels that Thomas feels that he’s inferior to the rest. Thinking this about Roman would make sense, because as a actor and singer, Thomas places more empathsis on his creatitivity than his logic abilities but for the others? For him to think that even Virgil- Thomas’ ANXIETY- has been more helpful? Logan can’t be very secure.

It’s true that in this episode, Logan still blamed everyone but himself but insecure or not, he’d probably still think he’s *know* if his fault.He may have felt in the back of his mind, but tried to ignore it, and purposely avoided suggesting it, but when someone else did it, he couldn’t avoid it anymore. This part is merely a speculation though, for theres no evidence to back this part up.

Let’s look at this one. Logan worked on learning spanish simply because Roman knew it, and he didn’t. Roman knowing something that he didn’t probably hurt, especially because’s well Logic. Now, while, this specific phrase was obviously used as an insult- he also chose “stupid” for a reason. He was telling *himself* that he’s smart and Roman isn’t.

In a different episode, “Is LYING good?”, when we are introduced to Deciet, Logan also showed a lack of confidence when Deciet -disguised as patton- was saying things about Kant. Instead of simply being proud that Patton knew something (though he did express that he was proud as wll), at one point he says “I know things too” which should have been implied without him saying anything. He’s logic- of course he’s smart. Yet, he still felt the need to say this. He obviously felt insecure that the others were questioning his abilities, and probably wanted to remind himself of that as well.

What’s strikes me as odd about this- is what would be the purpose of him being insecure? Roman deals with ego- so pride or lack there of in moments makes sense for Roman, in Virgil because of his anxiety function, and even Patton as emotions. Logan though? how would insecurity be logical?

So, he’s insecure, he has a temper, and he’s well- decietful himself. 

He’s always saying how he’s emotionless- but i don’t even need to explain how this isn’t true. I”ve already done that above. He not only feels emotions- but can feel so passionately that they even defeat any sense of logic for him as well.

Basically, Logan has proven to show his own less than happy and helpful emotions yet tries to hide it. If Thomas didn’t have a reason behind Logan’s intense emotions, than why would he have Logan lie all the time? The one who is always yelling “Falsehood”?

So- while i’m not saying that Logan is a dark side, he’s not exactly a light side either. 

I can’t help but feel like we havent seen the climax of Logan’s emotions just yet. Sure- he threw something at Roman, but I feel like they’ll be more. After all- everyone was shocked in that episode right than- but never really mentioned it again. I may just be crazy- but I feel like Logan will explode in a larger way. Logan will be forced to confront his feelings, and maybe Deciet will be the one to do this. (remember in the last video? Logan: “I don’t feel anything”, Deciet: “oh of course you don’t” in a mocking tone) 

I can’t say I know how this will play out- but I feel like *not* having Logan’s objection to feelings having a reasoning behind it would be bad characterization on Thomas and Joan’s part. There’d be no point in his outbursts really.

So to summarize: Logan will explode and forced to confront his emotions.

@pawtonsanders as promised! -also I apologize for probably wasting your time, i always take an overly long time to get to my conclusions because I feel like I have to explain everything. It’s how I end up with atleast a paragraph on answers that only need a sentence-

-this was going to be longer, but i forced myself to cut back on some of it-

#logan sanders #thomas sanders #logic #sanders sides theories #sanders sides #theories

[void-official]

“Micro-identities/’Mogai/ya’ll literally just be making shit up now” OK. i’m sorry im stuck on this and this is the last i’ll talk about it today bc fuck it. I’m gonna be Real for a second. And it’s going to be awkward, and it’s going to be long, and I’m gonna Lose Follower bc defending micro-labels is Cringe. Whatever. I get it. go ahead and unfollow. The rest of you who actually care. and in the spirit of Pride Month, as someone who feels like they’re almost never allowed to express Pride in who I am? Here we go.

I’m bi. Most of you can probably tell, im not exactly subtle about it.

I’m bi. But

my actual interest in dating or having sex with Anyone has been pretty much negligible for my entire life. I just don’t Care. I never have. Dating and sex seem like a hassle to me and I don’t feel like i’m particularly missing out by not taking part in them. It doesn’t negate my enjoyment of peoples bodies necessarily, nor does it mean I never get crushes on people it just means at the end of the day, my desire to go out there and find people to have sex with and/or date has always been like. really really low. Even if the opportunity was there. And i’ve come to terms with this. I accept this about myself.

There is actually a great deal of overlap between bi and ace identity. all those ‘weird little terms’ like ‘demisexual’ you guys hate so much were originally created for people like me, who feel like they are fundamentally not allowed to call themselves something straightforward like ‘bi’ (or straight/gay/lesbian) without people inevitably screaming at them for Doing It Wrong. So they can describe how they feel in a brief word, instead of having to go through the pains of explaining the complex relationship they have with sexual attraction to every fucking person who asks what their sexuality is.

saying ‘well you should just be able to say bi and leave it at that’ doesn’t actually account for the experiences i have when i Just Say i’m Bi. Even me Just Saying ‘im bi’ i’ve always gotta deal with harassment from people whoget weirdly agressive about -why- i’m not out there fucking or dating the people i claim im attracted to. Am I a prude? a Tease? Just an ‘Acey’ lying for brownie points? Am I Actually Just Traumatized? (They ask in a really aggressive condescending way, like thats actually how you should talk to someone you think is potentially traumatized) But by the standards of this discourse, i’m not allowed to call myself ace either, because then people are going to yell at me that if I experience the tiniest smidgen of sexual attraction or romantic inclination sometimes, or post pictures of sexy video game characters, clearly i cant be that either  I literally can’t win. there is not a thing I can call myself that won’t earn me the ire of LGBT people on tumblr who think they know me and what i should call myself better than I do. And believe me i hate talking about this More than you do. I’d rather just shut up and let people Assume i’m whatever they want me to be sometimes but then mutuals i thought i trusted will inevitably openly make fun of the people who outwardly call themselves demisexual or whatever microlabel is trendy to shit on currently, and usually i bite my tongue cause at the end of the day its Just Words, right? I don’t even use that word, right? Its just words and some words can be interchangeable and not everyone knows what they mean which can feel alienating and unnecessary to people who don’t understand them. I -get- why people ‘cringe’ when they see like 10 terms they don’t understand in someones bio. why do you think i don’t even list anything about my sexuality in mine other than my pronouns?

but I always remember like. just bc that label isnt For Me, it doesn’t mean there might be someone in a similar position to me who doesnt feel comfortable just calling themeslves bi, and prefers the label ‘demisexual biromantic’ who feels like that phrase puts them in a place of peace and contentment, and I wouldn’t argue with them about it. Bc thats their fucking choice. Them being happy with who they are takes priority over my personal opinions of the language they use. same with gender nonconforming people who dont want call themselves trans or nonbinary. Thats fucking Fine. I’m not telling you to have to use the same words as me if you don’t feel like they’re necessary or accurate. I literally don’t give a rats ass what words you use to identify yourself so long as they’re not being used to hurt other people. I just want to be able to have Words, for myself, that describe how I feel, that don’t result in people treating my entire identity like some shitty discourse Meme. And right now I have none. No matter what I call myself, people choose tell me it’s not accurate, or its too complicated.

As for all these shitty fucking posts about people ‘forcing’ young people to take up labels. This. This doesn’t actually happen? (OK I won’t say it doesn’t happen ever on an individual level? but that its not something enforced or encouraged by any group as a practice, and that distinction is necessary, bc saying it happens on a large scale literally implies predatory intentions from a massive group of people instead of members of the group behaving poorly as individuals)

Demisexual people as a whole have literally never told me i had to call myself demi just bc my sense of how i experience attraction might be similar to theirs. Ace people as a whole don’t usually tell people whose lack of sexual attraction is caused by trauma or who havent developed enough to experience sexual attraction that they -have- to call themselves ace. Most Bi or Pan people are fine with the fact that their labels have a lot of overlap and that the line between these things can be murky, they arent actually constantly ready to tear each others throats out over whose terminology is correct. All of this shit is made up by hateful people, or people taking a few examples of poor behavior out of context as an excuse to shit on everyone else, and well meaning people keep falling for it bc it -seems- helpful to be. reactive. I guess? to people you’re constantly told are hurtful to the causes of marginalized people. but im telling you. its not true. literally nobody forces you to call yourself any of these words, they just Exist out there in case you want them, and if you think thats somehow a threat to other peoples identities or to Minors just like, conceptually, for existing, for being Too Specific, im sorry but what other word is there for your reaction than phobic? If an individual derails a conversation about Y to be like “You didn’t include _X_” or tries to force their views on a minor who hasn’t developed a stable sense of identity yet, that is an Individual behaving in an inappropriate manner, not an invitation for you to throw the whole group under the bus. I hate to tell you but if you’re using examples of individuals on tumblr who say stupid shit, everyone on tumblr says stupid shit and butts in conversationally where they’re not welcome. Universally. It’s how tumblr is formatted. Trust me, I have like 4 viral posts going right now.

i’m just tired of it at this point. im not cool with people who stretch to make fun of micro-labels all the time and think they’re being woke allies or w/e to the ‘real LGBTs’.  Even if a lot of the time I personally don’t care for all the labels and wouldn’t choose them for myself, I still feel like If you can’t treat people like individuals and assess their character on a case by case basis, i don’t trust you. I don’t like people who stereotype and LGBT people are not immune to this behavior. Like i don’t say it often but it fucking hurts, and it hurts other people I’m close to who I know have similar complicated identities and struggle coming up w/words to describe themselves that the whole of tumblr LGBT+ will approve of and agree with (clearly an impossibility because there are still people who don’t want bi and trans to even be in there). I might tolerate the constant jokes and not block on principle of knowing not everyone has ingested and thought about this discourse in the same way I have, and im a big tough adult, ultimately i can take it. but inside i know no matter what i call myself, if i were earnest with some of you about how i feel I’d probably be just another ‘special snowflake Delusional mogai creep’ to you, and i can’t deny that fucking hurts to think about. I try not to talk about it openly bc it embarrasses me, bc i dont think my sexuality should have to be battle ground for discourse for people who are supposed to be on my side. But there it is. I think most of this discourse is Trash, and clearly not for the reason most people on here say its trash, not bc theres ‘too many specific words, y’all just be Making Shit Up’ but because so many of you are more caught up in the words than the substance of the arguments or the needs of people whose experiences might have a lot of overlap with yours regardless of what word they’re using to describe it.

Anyway. happy pride to LGBTQA+ people who still dont really feel pride in themselves or their identity. I’d say you’re valid, but you don’t need my validation or anyone elses to understand that you’re a person deserving of respect and compassion. You exist as who you are, and you have to come to terms with who that is, regardless of whether or not you feel like you’re accepted for it. if not pride then, settle for confidence in who you are.

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[dilfsdotnet]

Yo you should answer all of these scene questions👀👀

:OOO

you think so lad???? shit dawg i was thinkin just a few at a time but if that what u want my dear nonnie i will supply

1. wats ur scene name?

i was thinkin maybe ‘gods mistake’ would be a good one but then. i found a way to make it both danganronpa related, and, even better, a fucking pun as well. ‘kamukura kamukura jasqueen’, or just ‘kamukura jasqueen’ for short is good k thxxx

2. describe ur dream outfit!

oooo gosh this ones trickyy!! there are so many good outfits out there, especially in the scene community!! but it’d have to have a few tiny elements of dr cosplay to add a lil of my dangan-weeb culture in there ofc! more specifically, id really love to get one of kazuichis jumpsuit and just wig out and add shit like this just because i could:

(id just rlly love going out in all those glowy/shiny things at night like all that haha..and yes the shoes would probably kill me/my fuckin feet if i tried to walk in them but shut up i love them theyre cute as fuck)

3. describe ur dream haircut!

oo another tricky one!! i do like my regular hair, and honestly id be lying if i said i didnt love ibuki’s hairdo too but id defs have to go with something like this!!

yaaaassss, so pretty and spikeeeey! maybe id dye my natural hair colour black and/or add some funky colours if i ever actually got this style down!

4. describe ur dream room!

i have a lot of ideas for dream bedrooms actually, but heres a visual image of one of them i found!!!

MIKU ROOM MIKU ROOM MIKU ROOM MIKU ROOM

(this specific idea arose mainly just for the aesthetic but i also find it super cute and a good environment to be in general hhhnnggg)

5. if u could make anything out of kandi, wat would u make?

oh you mean those colourful beads and bracelet things??? i love those man!!! theyre so visually appealing to me aaaaa…id probably just make a fuck-ton of those and most probably use the little letter beads to say random words/phrases like ‘aubergine’ and ‘despacito’ knowing my shitposter self lmaooo! id definitely make a sansmaeda themed one too thoo fr

6. wat would u write on ur shoez?

it’d probably range from things like a simple kaomoji doodle to something randum and stupid like ‘seesaw’ bc yes asjnd

7. wat kinda piercingz/tattooz do u hav/want?

i dont think i rlly want any real piercings (at least not atm) but id totally go for those fake stick-on gemstone lookin’ ones! and as for tattoos, i cant rlly see myself gettin one of those rn either, but id want something like a mario power-up, preferably the bell one/cat suit powerup!!! its my favorite powerup and its sooo cute!!!

8. fave genrez?

i dont rlly have a specific genre, i like most kinds of music, but i rlly like energetic music that i can dance tooo!!! >w

9. fave bandz?

im a big fan of gorillaz and botdf!!! i like p!atd as well but havent listened to it in a while.. gatta catch up loool

10. fave songz?

my favs alternate a lot, but atm im super into ‘slow dancing in the dark’ by joji!!! so much emotiooon quq…also rlly hooked on botdf and jefree star’s ‘sexting’ tooo lmaooo

11. fave lyricz?

‘The world keeps spinning Among this sinning Oh what a cruel and disgusting place The purest moonlight Is bloodied by plight And screaming resonants But somehow I know That it’s all for show The world will reveal it’s true beauty soon And we’ll all reach towards the moon ‘

its so deep but its from a fucking kaito momota fansong and i love that asnkjdnefe

12. hav u evr been to a concert?

not in a damn long while my lad,, rip australians not havin many artists they like from other countries tour there ;-;

13. do u wanna be in a band?

ive always thought thatd be pretty cool ngl!!! tourin around with ur bandmate friends, makin awesome fuckin tunes, people lovin u and ur music, just livin the dream in general,, nice

14. wats da best soda/energy drink flavour?

havent rlly had any as of rn  my lad so i wouldnt know :/

15. wat do u miss most abt old internet?

i loved that we could all just be ourselves and act like the kids we are inside without bein reprimanded at all.. it aint rlly that much of an issue for me but i still think itd be a lot nicer if it was like that again sometimes,,

16. wats da best old meme?

ooohhh there are so many i still miss man! numa numa ermagerd and doge still remind me of the glory days…when old animeme was good and you could still haz ur cheezburgers in peace. also rage comics! rage comics were good what happened

17. best place 2 buy clothez?

i dont think theres any hot topics in australia but if there is. i will hunt it down you hear me

18. wat r ur fave accessoriez?

OH THERES SO MANY GOOD ONES??? as i stated b4 i rly love kandi bracelets and other glowy/led things!!! also rlly love ties with cute and fun patterns and long colourful and/or ripped socks like ibuki’s too hehe

19. wats ur best tip fr ppl that just got into scenecore?

im not rlly the best at advice, but my main point would be-just hav fun here dudes!!! dont let anyone else bulli u abt it, we’re supportive people, u can talk to me or anyone else whos willin to listen an/or help for reassurance ofc

20. opinion on furbiez?

oOH MY GOD YES. FURBIES. MY BABIES I WANT 10 OF THESE CHILDREN…I ACTUALLY HAVE A FURBY HE LIKES SLEEPING IN HIS SPECIAL DRAWER AND HIS NAME IS TINGLE I ADORE HIM I’LL POST A OF PICTURE LATER MAYBE

21. opinion on funko popz?

i like em and ive seen lots at eb games, but i dont buy em much..i do have a megaman pop with a broken arm tho loool

22. wats ur fave pattern? (zebra/leopard print etc)

i looove a lot of patterns but not gonna lie im always a sucker for rainbow checkerboard patterns yknow hehe!

23. fave color combo?

i dont have one rlly…soooo many possible comboooos…cx

24. sumthing u liked as a kid dat u still like?

im still going on girlsgogames and recently, ive finally mastered sues beauty machine!!!! its so good and fun all of ya’ll should try it my dudeeees

25. wats ur most used emoticon? 0w0

as most of ya’ll probs alredy know i spam ‘:O’ a lot, but one of my bigger favs is actually ‘x3′ and my fav kaomoji is ‘ଘ(੭ˊ꒳​ˋ)੭✧’ (both of them are so kyooot >w

26. wats ur fav typin quirk?

i luv talkin like dis, but i dont rly do it that often loool…i awso wuv tawking in ‘owo’ speak wike dis >//w//>

27. do u wish ur fllwrz talked 2 u moar?

hellz yeaaa!!! i luv followr interaction my dudee! it makes me super happi when u all talk to me heehee! x3c

28. tag ur fave scene blawgz!

:O !!! oh gawd!!! i dont know many atm but heeereee!

@xxadam-antidotexx (op of the ask meme)

@glitchkichi (not sure if this counts but their stuff’s rlly cool >v

@otonashi-banana (scene boyf…wuv im more than anythin >///w///>

29. wat got u into scenecore?

i dont remember exactly how it happened but i’d always sorta wanted to go back to the glory days that was the old web and the scene era, and that, coupled with a bright, colourful aesthetic that i could really enjoy, drew me in like a moth to a neon colored flame ig looollll

30. how long hav u been scene?

i’ve only been officially apart of the community for about a few months now (at time of writing) i reckon so some things are still a lil new to me ig ^^;;

31. wats da best thing abt being scene?

the freedom of bein able to express myself 4 one thing, and its just so fun being so ‘out-there’ yknow???? it feels so great really

32. do u hav a fursona?

i…actually used to but ive moved on from the furry fandom and ive grown more attached to my human sona anyway sooo :/

33. r u in sum “cringy” fandomz?

YEA man!! i dont rlly think dr is inherently considered ‘cringey’ but undertale is and im in that one for sure!!! i also kinda technically never left the skylanders fandom(?) so theres that too ig??? oh yeah and who wants to let me draw my old moshi monsters characters COWARDS

34. do u liek plushiez?

YASSSS QUEEEN!!!! i have HEAPS of them in my room on my desk with my gonta shrine

35. do u liek stickerz?

also a big yaaassss from me dawggg!!! i love them and i love those ones that you stick on your fase like this!

its so cuuute!!!

36. do u hav a friendproject?

i dont, not at the moment a least, actually! didnt even know what it was til recently but it looks kewl haha

37. do u hav any other scene account?

well, i haz this one, and i also have an emowire account for shuichi if that counts!!

38. do u make art? (drawingz, blingeez, etc.)

YES!!! i love to draw and i also make blingee edits sometimes!!! ITS SO FUN XD !!!

39. wats da most scene thing? (anything!)

hmmm, weeell…i think the most stereotyped thing would be that kewl, suuuper big hair like this;

its really prettyyyy, and i love all that colouuur!!!

40. ask ur own randum question!!

hm, oh wowie, since the anon didnt specifically ask this one…POTATOES!!! X3

phew, finally done, that was a lot of typing! this was so fun to do though, so thank u nonnie!!! :3

#ask #ask meme #scene revival #scenecore #scene kid #scene #anon #oh god what now jasu

[hercaeus]

roleplaying an east asian character outside of japanese does NOT give you the right to use "chink", it's a chinese centered slur and don't you dare say otherwise. you don't have the power to use this word, especially when you look european as fuck.

ok i have to take a minute to handle this. first, thanks for bringing it to my attention.

[[MORE]]

a) you’re right, b) i’m very deeply confused and concerned by this ask.

i’m afraid i know who sent this but in case i’m wrong i’m posting this instead of messaging the person and having some kind of conversation, which i would much rather do.

i have only the vaguest memory of ever typing that word with my pale fingers, but based on what you said about a non japanese east asian character, i assume you’re talking about amadeus. i searched through his tumblr and all his discord content and i found 2 times ever that i’d used it, both of which were in november of last year. one was an ooc comment on artists drawing “c- eyes”, and the other was an ic comment based in ic discomfort and not an attempt to reclaim.

i should have censored the ic comment or probably not said it at all. given, and i’m genuinely very sorry for any upset i caused. i am a stupid bitch and i do stupid shit, and i’m still learning. theres detail i could go over with the ooc comment, BUT it boils down to: if it made any asian person uncomfortable, i’m sorry i said it, and i won’t do it again. i am constantly working on knowing my place in the community, especially looking white to most people as you mentioned.

i also would have made a judgement call not to use that slur today (maybe evidenced by the fact that i haven’t used it since november?) because i really am hopefully evolving as a human.

that being said. if those two messages are what you’re referring to: i feel confused and concerned because they were sent in a discord server with specific membership, almost a full year ago. to have said nothing at the time, held on to the feeling for ten months, and addressed it now in an anonymous message that’s phrased as if it’s something i just now did and defended, makes me feel some sort of way. i always hope, especially with the people in that server, that i seem like someone you can reach out to immediately (or as soon as you’re emotionally able) when i’ve done something wrong. i hope the people i’m around in a close capacity like that know that i’m constantly trying to be better and want desperately to be told when i’ve messed up so that i can make amends. if that doesn’t come across it’s definitely gonna be #1 on my self improvement to do list asap. the idea that this has been festering for so long is really upsetting, especially if my actions came across with the malice this ask seems to imply i had. i am firstly so sorry if this has been weighing on you all this time, and secondly pretty freaked out because that’s the kind of grudge holding that scares the bejeezus out of me.

if those two messages aren’t what youre referring to: i still apologize for them, and i really would like to know what i did to prompt your message.

#ooc #im so tired but i want you to know i saw this and am taking you one hundred percent seriously before i go to bed

[transgenderboobs]

i waz making a post abt bisexual kevin (whch i’m still gonna make u mark my mcfucken words) and it turned into a lot of rambling about kevin and jean’s relationship back in the day so. here’s some hcs about jean/kevin

(also pls consider that “hold me tight or don’t” by fall out boy is a jean/kevin song)

kevin is a little terrified when his first actual, real crush winds up being on jean moreau, of all people

(i’ve fucking said it before but i’m so positive jean moreau was kevin’s bi awakening i will fight And die on this hill it’s basically canon to me)

he always thought “butterflies in your stomach” was a stupid expression until he met jean because holy shit that kid did funny things to his insides

jean is honestly on the of the prettiest people kevin has ever seen in his life

like he’s got dark hair and these soft gray eyes and back then before kevin’s growth spurt he had a decent few inches on kevin height-wise

and like. if that wasn’t enough, he’s got. The Accent, and whenever he speaks in french kevin’s so gone

and on top of that his first few years in the nest he was still angry and fighting every step of the way 

he offers to learn french half so jean doesn’t lose that connection to who he used to be before he entered this nightmare, and also half so he can spend a couple hours alone w/ jean speaking french the entire time.

but anyway. the french lessons.

jean starts teaching kevin french when they were about 13 or 14

the ravens already run on sixteen hour days, but every night, after riko’s fallen asleep, kevin will sneak out of he and riko’s room and into jean’s, and they’ll spend a few more hours sitting together on jean’s bed while jean does his best to teach kevin his native language

like. a teenager isn’t the best teacher, but kevin’s not gonna give up. 

he knows how much being force to speak only english sucks for jean, so he’s intent on making this effort to give jean a piece of himself back

it’s the least he can do, and he just wants to do whatever he can to make jean feel a little better, especially as they get older and riko’s abuse gets crueler

but we’re not gonna talk abt riko here b/c my heart hurts too bad

so anyway

when they’re about 15, kevin’s mostly fluent, but there’s still more he could learn, and he’s not ready to stop these sessions.

they’re probably the only times of the day jean and kevin get to just. exist. and experience some friendliness, some comfort

so okay:

this one evening, after a practice so grueling riko completely ignored jean and just went straight to bed, kevin and jean r in jean’s room

there’s this one phrase that kevin has been trying to get right for almost half an hour, but he keeps struggling on the pronunciation and jean won’t let him move on until he gets it right

so kevin’s trooping along, butchering the french language, when he hears jean let out a huff of laughter

now okay, kevin can count on one hand the number of times he’s seen jean smile since he came to evermore

he’s never heard him laugh

it’s. Wow

like really its probably one of the prettiest things kevin has ever heard. 

before kevin even realizes what he’s doing, he leans forward and kisses jean before the sound dies down completely

it’s honestly a toss up over which one of them is more surprised by this. kevin’s never been the type to just. do shit like this

kevin’s even more surprised when jean kisses him back, his fingers coming up to brush against kevin’s cheek

after that, their late night french sessions become more kissing and fooling around than actual french (theres. a pun here about. french kissing but i’m not clever enough to make it)

needless to say they don’t actually Make It as a couple. they couldn’t, really, not down in the nest

riko finds out after about a year, and when he does he. well. he tears kevin and jean apart (but we’re not gonna talk about that in detail because it makes me Too Fucking Sad)

of course, there’s still moments, even after they’ve ended the romantic part of their relationship

kevin’s always there to patch jean up, to stitch up his cuts and wash blood off his skin or even just hold him after riko’s done something particularly Evil

he’ll still do anything to ease even a portion of jean’s suffering down here

they’re always gonna mean a lot to each other (even if jean spends a few years being angry as hell at kevin for leaving him behind when he left) 

but kevin meets thea, and eventually jean meets jeremy

and it’s not like they ever could’ve made it work outside of the nest. neither one of them could’ve healed with that constant reminded of evermore

so maybe it’s for the best that things didn’t work out

:-/

#YEET #jean moreau #kevin day #aftg #loverboy writings #loverboy posts #jevin tag

[zenyattasperceptrons]

sj rambling like goddamn for real

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i know it’s not “time for rhetoric”

theres literally people chanting na/zi slogans on the street. and that’s terrifying. and i don’t even know the half of how terrifying it can be. and it needs to stop. yeah.

but. ive been grappling with this phrase in my head for a while. im not quite sure it makes sense yet. but it’s something like, “opposite is not dissimilar.” if something is “opposite” it actually has quite a lot to do with the thing it’s opposite to. It’s across from this thing on one single axis, as opposed to catty corner and off in another section on the y coordinate and blah blah...

so. yknow. no, i don’t think people who use tactics similar to the alt-r/ight, but on the other end of the political spectrum are “just as bad.” it’s very difficult to be “just as bad” as... actual... na/zis ....but. I do think those tactics are incredibly polarizing and short-term and...well, violent. And I don’t know if you’ve looked around America lately (I wish I could stop looking around), polarization looks like an absolute shitshow. I mean, part of it is that the loudest voices are the most extreme, so the ones you hear about are the ones who are pretty set in their ways.

But there are people who follow more right-wing politics that aren’t that polarized. Yet. And they’re probably thinking, yknow...what a mess their party has become. Like, in some ways, don’t you really wish we could trade for Romney right now? Like, he’s obviously not the #1 choice but if your only option was Romney or this, I would take Romney. And I bet a lot of republicans feel that way too. They don’t want to be associated with this. Some might very strongly feel that it needs to stop, they just...aren’t sure what to do about it.

And there’s not a lot of entry points for that when all of the talk going around is something like... yknow.. “all republicans are horrid beings and this was the obvious outcome of their beliefs” etc etc and. so. there’s not a lot of places where people can go and get something like. “okay. we don’t agree on some things. and we’re definitely going to hash that out. but we can do that LATER. right now we need to work together to stop this absolute cancer from taking over america.” but aside our differences. work together. it sounds optimistic, but...is it naive to say that people on any side would like there to not be na/zis in america right now? i... hope not.

i just. I don’t want to be “opposite” to this group. I want to be the wrench in the entire system. I don’t want to hammer this nail so deep into the ground with brute force that you don’t see it anymore, but it might still wiggle out if the floorboards loosen. I want there to be no need for this nail. I want to redo the entire floor, yknow. I want the people who have these beliefs to...not feel anymore like they need them. Now that...that’s naive. That’s idealistic. But I think working with that goal in mind is better than. Not.

I just don’t know how to deal with the short term problem while considering long term effects. i dont have the answer here. maybe...maybe we need to do whatever we can to stop this from happening right now

but. maybe this is a cycle. maybe what’s happening is the pushback just keeps springing over with as much force as it took to push it back down. I haven’t...been alive to see most of these cycles so it’s really hard to make a big picture out of it but. Bush? We hated him. What a shitshow! He was so bad we all rallied together to get Obama elected, and that was good. I’m glad that happened. But then...republicans were so mad about this yknow, the entire government refused to do anything his entire administration. how many times did they do that stupid vote to repeal the ACA instead of getting actual work done? and we thought they were just...being extremely childish about this whole thing! making policy isn’t about standing steadfast in the ground and refusing to move, it’s about compromising and figuring out a solution that can move forward.

and then...the pushback was, unfortunately, this guy. which i still have trouble believing got legitimately elected. i don’t think my heart can take the idea of this guy getting legitimately elected. and...what did the democrats do? they said, no. we’re going to sit and oppose every single thing this guy wants to do. and... i want them to do that. i desperately do. but now i understand how the republicans felt when obama was in office. i can’t say i agree with those feelings, i don’t think “oh, well what they did under obama was okay i guess,” but i understand what it feels like.

but. how do you compromise when your parties are growing more and more polarized with more and more separate ideals and more and more sentiment that the other side is evil and wants to destroy you.

because. well... personally, i can’t think of republican policy without thinking of people...dying in result. in direct result. people need food stamps to eat. they need welfare and health insurance, god do people need health insurance. these policies will kill people, and that is my genuine belief.

and i don’t understand how republicans can oppose what we stand for. I don’t.

But... I do believe they feel the same way. Somehow. I can’t explain it, but I know they feel this way. We are a direct threat to their lives. I don’t agree with it. But it’s a fact that that sentiment exists in some people.

so where do we go from here. we can’t relax and begin to compromise unless they relax and begin to compromise at an exactly equal pace. and how do you do that? how do you enforce that? how do you enforce trust and goodwill? how do you take the first step forward in letting the barricade down without getting completely stampeded by people who are, at this point, absolutely happy to take the opportunity?

i don’t know. im lost. i’m completely at a loss here as to how to move forward.

but i know that pushing back with brute force is...going to end in violence. somehow. we can’t keep up like this. something is going to break. our government cannot operate like this anymore. let’s be honest--it’s not operating like this anymore. our government is no longer functioning.

and that’s how things change, i guess. that’s how colonies threw off their colonizers. a violent revolution. that’s the way to do away with the system and build another on top of the rubble.

but since when has that worked out. that’s not an option i’m excited about. people will die. we all know how war works these days. it’s not a bunch of volunteers going off into an empty field and fighting in the name of their country. it’s personal. it involves civilians. it’s long and drawn out and it’s automated. innocent people get involved. all of those people we’re trying to protect with government benefits--what will happen to them if there’s not a government anymore. i just.

i don’t know what the conclusion of this post was supposed to be anymore.

i think what i really want to say, and what i really want to be true, but wishing isn’t going to make it come into existence

i want to release the pressure. i want people who are capable of doing this, and not in immediate danger, to reach out to those around them and talk to them. i want to be human to each other and i want to be understanding. i want to talk about ideals. yes, i want to sit down and have a goddamn talk about ideals and that doesn’t make me a traitor to our cause because there are so many of us and we can be doing different things at the same time! violence is a shitty patch-up job for what’s going on right now. if you’re in direct danger or someone close to you is in direct danger then yes, take action, please, protect yourself, protect those close to you, protect strangers who need your protection, but don’t pretend like self-defense is a political solution to what’s going on right now. it’s necessary, but it’s not addressing the root cause. we can’t go around perpetuating it because that’s not what we should want. we want people to feel safe because when people feel safe they don’t enact violence against other people at least in the large, large majority of cases. i don’t want those who can’t defend themselves to have to continue relying on other people to help them, i want them to feel safe on their own. i don’t want to put vulnerable people’s lives at risk for the sake of some kind of righteous vigilante justice. i want to have a system that works and to me what that means is people who are willing to talk to each other and be compassionate and address concerns and just. just be human! connect! hold fucking hands and sing songs together!!!!! fuck it!!!

fuck it!!!! the tools of violence are bad tools and the second we lay them down they’ll get picked up by people who will use them against us and idk about you but i dont want to keep violence in an iron grip all my life!!! AUGH

#sj stuff // #i fuck. hate. the whole. #hiddenlayer.txt

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oh okay im going to do an ask meme and put it under a cut bc i am having trouble sleeping tonight and my switch is charging :(

1: Do you ever wish you were someone else?

i think everyone does at some point. i dnt have a desire to be a specific other person, but a different version of myself i guess. i dnt have strong envy targeted at individuals but a lot of sadness related to my choices and circumstances that have culminated bc of them

2: What is your full name?

i am not going to post that here

3: How old are you and how old do you get mistaken for?

i’m 24 (25 nxt month... that’s weird) and usually people assume i’m 20-22

4: Have you ever dyed your hair?

i’ve lost count of how many times

5: What’s your eye color?

very dark brown

6: Your opinion about your body and how comfortable you are with it

ive talked a lot abt this in the past so im going to reiterate the same things ive said abt it in the past – i dnt have an abundance of gripes w it cosmetically, but i have a lot of anger (esp rn) towards my endometriosis, and i see my body as an extension of myself. & i dnt like myself very much. so there is that

7: Do you have any tattoos or piercings?

i have a white ink tattoo of the neptune symbol on my left wrist and my ears are pierced

8: What would you say is your best quality?

i dnt know

9: What are you really bad at?

i can’t dance lmfao

10: What talent do you wish you had?

i wish i was better at writing, in general & songwriting. i’m not completely terrible at it, but i dnt have a natural gift for it and i wish i didnt have to expend as much effort to improve it

11: Are you nice to everyone?

i try to be but it doesnt always happen like that... usually yes unless i feel provoked

12: What do you think about the most?

usually stuff like “how would life be different now if i did (abc) instead of (xyz)?”

13: Things you like/dislike about yourself

i like my sense of style and that i can be very disciplined when i put my mind to it. i dnt like that i usually do not Put My Mind To It and that i have doormat tendencies

14: What is your least favorite word?

i can’t think of one but i rly hate “nourish”, “catty-cornered”, “crabby”, “folks”, “peck”, anything that can be categorized as “heckin doggo” genre babyspeak, “trauma” and “empower” bc they’re misused so often... and i rly strongly hate the word “h*rny” lmfao ive always thought it was auditory/visual vomit and it dznt help that the context is never good

15: What is your favorite word?

again i dnt have a favorite but i’m very fond of “eloquent”, “neon”, “incandescent”, “anodyne”, “mechanism”, and “celestial”

16: Are you more like your mom or your dad?

i look more like my dad but i bear very little resemblance to either of them in terms of character

17: Would you ever smile at a stranger?

it’s polite? why wouldnt i

18: A reason you’ve lied to someone

because i dnt want to look pathetic

19: Are you lying about anything right now?

im not being honest w andrew abt how conflicted i am towards him

20: Have you kissed someone older than you?

only one who was significantly older than me

21: Do you believe in love at first sight?

instant connections, yeah. love, obviously not... but i also dnt think the phrase is meant to be taken completely literally

22: Do you believe in soulmates?

not in the traditional sense but i do use the phrase “soulmate” to describe life-altering figures that ive viewed affectionately. but none of those ppl are rly in my life to the capacity they once were anymore. so like i said. not in the traditional sense

23: Are looks important?

im assuming this is in the context of relationships & people who say they aren’t are lying

24: Opinion on relationship age differences

they matter less the older both parties are, i think that is the general rule of thumb. justin was almost a decade older than me and i wasn’t too bothered by that. but i think i would be if it was anyone older than that? as for people who aren’t me... i judge but i keep it mostly to myself

25: Would you date someone off the Internet?

no

26: Have you ever cried over a boy/girl?

been doing it since i was 12 😎🤟

27: Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

default state

28: Anyone you’re giving up on right now?

myself, basically

29: Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

andrew but lbr they are not wrong to feel that way

30: Have you ever liked your best friend?

sore subject

31: How does someone win your heart?

if they make me feel less alone, like in the “i identify strongly w this person, and i like them, and in turn i like myself a little more” way. the “being around you makes me feel like a person and not a freak of nature hiding behind groucho marx glasses” way

32: What turns you on?

im not answering this in the sexual way but i tend to think people are more likable and attractive when they think critically, have a quick wit... a lot of nonverbal things too but it’s hard to capture what that is in writing bc i can’t always readily identify it

33: What turns you off?

same as above w the nothing sexual disclaimer. i hate recycled meme type humor and people whose entire personality is the media they consume (like adults who are weirdly into disney)

34: Do you get jealous easily?

not easily but it gets triggered by rly strange things

35: What is your definition of cheating?

in the broadest definition, intimacy that goes beyond the discussed boundaries of a relationship. but i also cant foresee myself in a situation where im going on dates w several different ppl again consistently bc it wrought havoc on my brain, so i doubt that’s ever going to be anything other than What Everyone Understands As Cheating for me personally.

36: Do you forgive betrayal?

more easily than i probably should

37: Have you ever been cheated on?

ive had my suspicions in the past but nothing that i was ever able to confirm

38: Have you ever cheated on someone?

no but ive come closer to it than im proud of

39: How often do you listen to music?

pretty infrequently these days

40: First concert you attended

cyndi lauper lmfao

41: Last movie you watched

i think hereditary

42: Favorite type of movie

any slow burning drama w horror/suspense elements

43: Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?

i can think of 4 things that i rly would prefer to be left in the dustbin of history but one of them wasn’t like Traumatic, jst stupid and embarrassing 

44: Are you good at hiding your feelings?

i’d say i’m abt as subtle as a gun 

45: Do you fall in love easily?

somewhat? i think i do it incorrectly

46: Do you think people say I love you too much?

i dnt think theres anything wrong w that

47: What’s your favorite holiday?

anything that’s an excuse to party w no gift giving obligations

48: Are you a forgiving person? Do you like being that way?

generally yes and i have mixed feelings abt it

49: Where’s the most magical place on earth?

south 17th street

50: What’s your “type”?

the details are fluid but i think my entire dating/significant crush history can be summarized w “people who look like they dnt know how to use power tools’

#Ask memes