#i like making myself cry

[sunflowervolum-6]

im yours to keep and im yours to lose // youre losing me

#i like making myself cry

[young-prince-firefly]

"So what if I die, it's not like anyone would care!"

"I would!"

"Like hell you would! You've done nothing but make my life horrible! In fact... you're the reason I can't stand myself, and why I can't live any longer! So don't you dare say you would care..."

^^^^

Kaeya and Diluc

#i like making myself cry #angst #suicidal ideation kind of #arguing #low self esteem #trauma implied #minor swearing #death #dialouge only #hcs #kaeya alberich #diluc ragnvindr #ragbros #genshin impact #somebody tell them to get along #firefly posts

[remidrawsstuffs]

I wonder what could've happened if crowley didn't put his sunglasses on when he walked away after "nothing lasts forever" and ended up kissing aziraphale. Same manner, same circumstances, just him without his shades, his protection of some sort. And after the kiss, his eyes were slightly open, his gaze tender yet desperate.

Would it have made a difference? Would it cause more hurt for the both of them? Would aziraphale say anything else other than "I forgive you" after seeing crowley in his most vulnerable and open? Vulnerability would've been evident but, what would've happened? What could've happened?

#aziraphale #crowley #good omens #i like making myself cry #i love this series so much #what if aziraphale said I forgive you and saw more tears well up in crowley's eyes #I would've cried much more than a river

[specialgraded]

gojo being the strongest but geto is his weakness

#ooc tbd. #i like making myself cry #thinking about them tbh #im working on a playlist as we speak

[eggs-can-draw]

Depends what are you think of animaticing

I unno something naegamigiri fam related I'm honestly open to anything rn

#eggs can answer #if you held a gun to my head and told me to specify Id say maybe not an animation meme? theyre just generally not my style #I like making myself cry #one of my animations made my mom cry when she first saw it (and lowkey changed a song for me forever) #g-eetings

[green-sky8834]

I wonder if c!philza left for his hardcore world when he realized the dsmp was about to be nuked

or if his attachment to c!techno was too great to leave him behind

#I like making myself cry #I'm not a lorehead so idk what happened to c!philza and c!techno #greentalk #dsmpblr #dsmp lore #c!philza #philza

[walechu]

I like to cry myself to sleep while imaging Dustin carrying Eddie's lifeless body to his trailer in the upside down, laying him gently on the bed and sitting next to it for a few minutes before dry his tears and leaving.

#stranger things #dustin henderson #eddie munson #eddie my beloved #sobbing #cause this is an headcanon I had rn #thinking how Dustin would have feel #in that moment #the idea of leaving Eddie's body in the open really disgusted him #so he carried a body way to heavy and big of his #with an injury to his leg fyi #so yea #i like making myself cry

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post. #writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers. #at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going. #when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like. #it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases - #at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory. #it was what i had seen. #and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol' #so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID. #he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

[teaboot]

You need to make art that nobody else likes. You need to make art that speaks to you alone. You need to cradle a serpent that eats its own tail and you need to love it until it loves you back

#The best art I've ever made will never be hung in anyone's home #That's not the point #It's not about being good #It's about being real #It's about eating something unpalatable #It's about being consumed #And tasting bitter #It's gorging yourself on crude oil just to feel something different #It's biting your tongue to make yourself cry #I'm saying that I am capable of making you feel good through personal sacrifice but I kind of don't want to cut myself up like that #If you want my heart to taste good you have to prepare it yourself #That isn't my problem

[sems-diarie]

death is insane. wdym i’ll never see my grandmother again

#she’s in her chair in the den cant nobody tell me nothing ok #death tw #grief #what’s this house without my grandmother in it? (all the people she left behind) #i cried this morning while eating grits she taught my mother how to make. love is so big when i think of it like that #i thought i heard her walker clack in the hallway last night. #she wears glasses & we have to decide where to keep them #grief is so strange #i can’t keep crying by myself (i’ll be crying for the rest of my life) #love is carrying on. i think.

[fumifooms]

The world must know about french Chilchuck’s chuckles

#Dungeon meshi #chilchuck tims #delicious in dungeon #Gloutons et dragons #I love how once again the thing that gives him kicks is others’ misfortune. “I burned myself while making soup…” Chil: “😂🤪” #Let me tell you when I heard the second one my hand flew to clasp my mouth as my eyes sparkled all like 🥹 He sounds so happy… #I looked like that crying cat with a paw on its mouth meme #I can’t wait for there to be compilations of Chilchuck laughing at others in 4k with sound… #Chilchuck laugh compilation… I believe in the community it’ll happen

[tmos-time]

ive only seen acts 1-2 of in stars and time and dear god that was enough for me to make fanart lol

#tmos has art #in stars and time #siffrin #i can TELL this game is going to make me cry LMAO #watched the jello apocalypse vods up until ~3/4ths of vod 3 and was like. oguhghg i gotta play this for myself NOW NOW NOW #so i will be doing that as soon as i post this LOL <3

[remidrawsstuffs]

Y'all know that scene where crowley was looking through an astrology book and had the pages flying everywhere, or when in heaven where he kind of flung the files and it all floated? yeah, imagine that but with Aziraphale's diary entries.

Imagine he comes back to the bookshop after aziraphale had left. Then he finds his angel's diary and dows the floating pages thing while reads through each page in the book shop and each memory hurts until she just breaks down and sits on the floor.

The pages of memories of her and aziraphale just floating around her, stuck in time as he weeps.

(I made this in a tiktok comment section and wanted to share it here cause pain)

#good omens s1 #good omens s2 #good omens #i love this series so much #i like making myself cry #save me #imagine he reads the entries everyday and saw the entry for the day aziraphale said they were “fratenizing” and it says he regretted it. #and sees another entry where aziraphale regretted saying he didn't like crowley

[actuallyitsstar]

grief is not a feeling, but a neighborhood. this is where i come from. everyone i love still lives here. // (insp.)

#top gun maverick #top gun #filmedit #topgunmaverickedit #filmgifs #tgmedit #top gun edit #pete maverick mitchell #tom iceman kazansky #nick goose bradshaw #top gun maverick gifs #filmtvdaily #topgundaily #stars tg edits #stars gifs #mine #the way this made me SO FUCKING SAD. WTF. ME @MYSELF: STOP IT!!!!! #what can i say tho. ever since i saw the insp i just H A D to make a top gun edit of this. had to. it was The Law #anyways hope it makes u sad too ig akdhdjfhfjfh. ur welcome <3 #love how i get stuck trying to write fluff so im like i know. lemme edit a lot of maverick crying. akdhfjfhfjfhf

[avadaniels]

FELLOW TRAVELERS 1x06 “Beyond Measure”

#fellow travelers #ft spoilers #matt bomer #hawkins fuller #jackson fuller #etienne kellici #fellowtravelersedit #userluz #iuserzoe #* #i love to cry... #i think jackson reflects what hawk felt like growing up #but hawk is being a way better dad than his own father 🥺 #and the line “we're all going to be fine” reassuring jackson but also himself. about his family and about tim #IM MAKING MYSELF SAD

[bizarreandjarring]

harrier if you didn’t want this to be romantic why did you wear your most boobylicious shirt ???

#answer the question harry #shoutout to alex brainrotdotorg for helping me with the dialogue options :3 #i haven’t been that active so i’m just like *drops this like a hot potato and runs from the room* #i think i’d pick 3 or 5 #man i STRUGGLED with this piece #i literally went to outback steakhouse and got a bloomin onion with a friend as research for this #i tried like 5 different versions before i got a drawing i didn’t despise #it’s been an uphill battle making this stupid fucking comic #i’m gonna cry myself to sleep now #my art #disco elysium #harry du bois #kim kitsuragi #oh also kim is drinking a dr pepper and harry is drinking a fancy juice. in case you were wondering #he loves juice. he’s just like me