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new-york-no-shoes · 8 days

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I hoped against hope that Taylor would give me an all too well for my adult self on this record and she really said “bestie I’ll do you one better” and slipped me The Manuscript. I’ve honestly never wanted to unhear something more in my life. Turns out I was not prepared.

#to be clear I love it more than anything #I just wasn’t ready to sob like this for hours #I haven’t got through it once without losing it #but I know it’s gonna be SO healing #I just did my makeup and it’s completely fucked now lol #taylor swift #the manuscript #the tortured poets department #ttpd #the tortured poets department: the anthology

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promptsbytaurie · 3 months

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do you have any good references for kiss scenes 🥲

of course!! let me know if you want/need more :D

fics for reference: good kiss scenes

the art of missing the ground - not too exaggerated of a kiss, feels very natural, sweet

paths are made by walking - a bit spicier ig?? i dunno these are more lighthearted

where you go, i will follow - kiss has meaning!!! kiss as a plot device!! good example of more 'negative' reasons ig (still soft tho)

but you saw enough - more climactic? also kinda spicier soooo...? (help me)

pick me up and dust me off - literally so soft you will get cavities. top tier fic. natural kiss too, not too exaggerated

shrapnel - good example, shows that not every relationship has to begin with or star a kiss

(ain't nothin' like) the real thing - definitely spicier. nice example of buildup and that good ol climactic approach where you're literally just screaming 'oh my god kiss already'

listen (he's already told you five times) - another good example of when kissing is not the only form of love!

i counted days, i counted miles - excellent buildup, the kiss has... meaning? it isn't just a kiss yknow it has emotional depth

but we can try - also has meaning. i'm not a huge fan of the trope where like 'oh they aren't in love/dating until they kiss' but this fic actually writes it really well!

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stormyoceans · 2 years

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losing my mind like. sorry i know i never shut up about dark pete burning the whole mafia world down to save vegas and macau but. i've seriously been losing my mind over it like

give me vegas and macau being late home after vegas went to pick macau up at school on his bike and not answering their phones and pete immediately knowing something is wrong. give me pete calling chay to ask if he saw them actually leave together and then, at chay's affirmative answer, calling arm all business-like: "i need a favor, but you can't tell anyone about it. if you won't help me just say so right away, i don't have time to waste." give me pete asking arm to hack into the security cameras on the way from macau's school to their home and watching all the footages until he spots a van cutting vegas' bike off and then taking vegas and macau away.

give me pete figuring out it's not a ransom situation but a personal vengeance. give me pete manipulating, bribing, maiming, and torturing people, promising them not to kill them if they give him the information he needs and then killing them anyway because whoever was behind this can't know pete is coming and dead men tell no tales. give me kinn and porsche eventually finding out what’s happening and asking pete why he didn’t go to them for help. give me pete answering, cold and detached, ‘frankly, i haven’t ruled out the involvement of the main family in this, yet. nor of the new minor one.’ give me porsche’s indignant ‘ai’pete!’ before trying to stop pete from leaving. give me pete pointing his gun at porsche because yes, porsche is his friend and pete loves him dearly, but that’s pete’s family they’re talking about and no one – NO ONE – is gonna tell pete how he has to go about saving it, if someone was stupid enough to think they could mess with vegas and macau now that they don’t hold the title of heirs of the minor family anymore, well then pete has to show them just how fucking wrong they are and bring them as an example for everyone else.

give me pete finally finding out who’s behind it and where they are keeping vegas and macau and getting ready to bring down an entire building full of people armed only with a gun and a knife. give me pete being smart about it, using stealth and smoke bombs to conceal his attacks, preferring the knife over a gun he would have to reload over and over again, putting into practice his experience as a boxer and all of chan’s teachings: circle around the target rather than move in a straight line; forgo the heart and target the abdominal aorta that sits unguarded at the top of the abdomen at the meeting of the ribs; if the opponent is guarding their vital targets well, strike at less vital areas to make the defender move and then go for the carotid in the neck, the brachial artery in the arm or the radial artery in the forearm, the femoral artery in the leg, the abdomen. give me pete finding macau locked alone in a room and macau not caring about the blood covering pete from head to toes and just hugging him tight because pete really came for them. give me pete handing the gun to macau because there’s no way he’s leaving macau behind and the two of them fighting their way to wherever they’re keeping vegas. give me vegas tied to a chair, half-high with whatever drug they injected in his system to keep him from fighting back, a constellation of cuts and bruises all over his body. give me vegas never seeing something so beautiful as pete, covered in blood and knife in hand, killing the dudes assigned to keep guard to vegas' room and then dropping on his knees in front of vegas to gently cup his face and put their foreheads together.

and the fucker who did this? give me pete dragging him in front of vegas and macau and not killing him right away, but slowly cutting him up and tearing him apart for every wound he can see on the two brothers: a tooth for macau’s split lip, an eye for the bruise blooming on vegas’ cheekbone, all of his fingers for vegas’ broken arm. and then, finally, give me pete bringing vegas and macau home and the three of them piling together in the same bed, holding each other all night, their little family of three that no one is allowed to touch.

#feeling some type of way tonight #who am i kidding i always feel some type of way about them #also i firmly believe pete doesn't enjoy torturing people like vegas does but as soon as someone touches vegas and macau?#well that changed everything #just as 'i will always love and be loyal to the main family' means fuck all to pete as soon as he suspects them #because he will never love or be loyal to someone as much as he is to this little family he found #also when pete finds vegas they obviously kiss too and vegas (even if he's drugged and hurt) is like #'if my little brother weren't in the room with us i'd fuck you right here and now'#and pete laughs and is like 'so macau being present is the only issue you see here? not like.. your general condition? you look like shit'#vegas actually THINKS about it. 'you could ride me'#pete just shakes his head utterly amused. 'i don't think that would satisfy either of us.'#and it's TRUE because what vegas actually wants is to spread pete out on a bed and take his time to worship every inch of pete's body until #pete is a sobbing shivering mess just begging for release #anyway..#i miss them every day #m: txt #vegaspete

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spoonyglitteraunt · 2 months

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If anyone wonders where I've been the past few days, I've been researching a new PC. The last time I did this was nearly ten years ago and I remember it not being fun then, but now it's just so. much. worse.

Back then it was easier to find decent information, now it's an ocean of articles that read like [company] sponsored up to tell you how their stuff definitely is the best on the market right now and please please please buy from them with our affiliate link so we get paid. Or articles that are so clearly AI CEO optimised bullshit that the start of a sentence doesn't know what end of it is saying. So I've spent the past few days alternating between

and

also fun fact, apparently if you look up a cry gif but not sob or sobbing for some reason tumblr goes Are you ok fam? Do you need a please don't do something drastic phone line?

No tumblr, I'm not ok, I'm definitely not ok. Also you do realise a lot of your users are not in the US, right?

Anyway thanks to the help of some very sweet and lovely people I now have some things figured out. But definitely not out of the woods yet.

I'm so tired.

Remind me why I'm doing this again?

... ok, fiiiine.

#sobs as computer specs circle around her head like loony tunes concussion birdies #I just want someone to go here this one just get this one and you'll be set for the next decade and don't break the bank #I know that's unrealistic but it's a crime against spoonies to make this so difficult #and it's so much money that I can't not agonise over it to the point of torture #also since I need to find one for both me and my dad it's double the problem #without the help of the lovely server people keeping me from just giving up I'd not even gotten this far #and yet the finish line is still very much beyond the horizon #gif warning

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baeshijima · 1 year

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its only just set in the fact my first finals exam is tmrw.

;w;

#sophie’s idle chatter #i am. not okay.#if anything im just praying theres only two 16 markers in the psych paper 1 tmrw bc if theres more then my paper will be soaked by my tears #when i get back home im making banoffee pie with my dad bc he said it will help calm my stress levels #once again ty dad i love u very much even if u torture me with ur dad jokes 🫶🫶#im just dreading may 25th and then june 5th bc ive got eng lang and psych on both days ;w;;;;#and the rest of june is bio until the 21st #sobs so loud im praying for a somewhat healthy sleep schedule over these next two months 😔

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hecksupremechips · 2 months

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The best feeling in the world is when there’s a piece of media you know you love and you’ve hyped it up as your favorite thing for so long but you haven’t revisited it in a while so you start to worry if it’s really as good as you make it out to be and so you go back and revisit it and it’s like. Oh this is even better than I remembered this shit rules

#the klock keeps ticking #i always get this feeling when i play 999 but tonight i got it with the letter #cuz ive uh finally decided to bite the bullet and play the evil meanie route where everyone dies 😟#a route ive put off for so long cuz its just too damn sad to think about akjdksk god it hurts #and ive played like for the most part every route of this game EXCEPT this one but i know the ending is really dark and i need to see it #plus i will at least get my beloved torture scene in so thats nice #i didnt kill off isabella though its a coma route which i hope still allows me to get the ending i want cuz i mean shell still be out of #commission in the final scene so hopefully it works out #but yeah no i started off tonight on the marianne chapter and while i did skip around through it cuz ive played it many times and i just #wanna get to the important stuff already alskj i also just replayed some of the best parts #aka the shit where lorraine appears and the gay shit alksks and god like hnnnghh not only does this chapter still ruin me emotionally #i also just remembered why i love this character so much and remembered just how good the character writing in this game is #and i also played into the rebecca chapter and didnt skip as much cuz i actually am not as familiar with the coma route #cuz it makes me sad and i never revisited it lol and i havent gotten to The Scene that makes me sob yet #its so coming though dont worry but idk i guess its just been cuz ive been thinking about p3 so much lately #and in particular shinji both the death route and coma route but in particular the coma cuz thats what im writing #and damn lol the letter just writes the grief and nuanced relationships and death stuff so much better lol god #like marianne loses her childhood best friend whom she has a gay ass relationship with to suicide and like its just better #she blames herself and still isnt even kinda okay with it after 13 years #like it just fucking ruined her and the only thing keeping her from losing it is her repression and drinking problem and unattached sex #and then with coma route well fucking first off isabellas friends actually like. visit her frequently damn #and they just all have such unique ways of coping like Zach is being optimistic so no one gets too upset #rebecca is sorta in charge of making sure everything goes smoothly she has to contact the family and make big decisions #and shes also just taking the most stress and shes got so many complicated feelings around isabella going on but she genuinely cannot stand #that isabella is hurt shes fucking destroyed she loves isabella and then ashton AAAAA god yeah i also just remembered that hes SUCH a good #character hes like being a genuine asshole right like Rebecca calls to tell him that isabella is comatose now and he literally doesnt let #her say anything he literally says ‘i dont have time for other things rn’ like the wellness of his friend is just ‘other things’#but you just know thats not it not at all hes burying himself in work to the point of destruction so he can figure out who did this and make #everything okay and he refuses to show even an ounce of vulnerability cuz THE SECOND HE DOES IT ALL COMES OUT AND HE CANT GET OUT OF BED #ANYMORE CUZ HOW IS HE SUPPOSED TO BE OKAY WHEN THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE IS DYING

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stuck-in-the-ghost-zone · 5 days

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i s2g if one more person asks kaneki "what happened to you" "what changed" HE GOT PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY TORTURED?!?!?! FOR LIKE A MONTH?!?!?! SORRY THAT CHANGES A GUY!?!?!?!?

#IM SO . LIKE #MANS BEING HAUNTED BY HIS CANNIBALISM GHOSTS HE DOESNT HAVE THE COGNITIVE LIKE. EMOTIONAL CAPACITY TO SAY I GOT TORTURED UNTIL MY MINE BROKE #LIKE. YALL.#ESPECIALLY COMING FROM ONE OF THE OTHER GHOULS LIKE *YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO HIM* YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO SAVE HIM ?!? WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT #aaaohhhhh the fuckinggg. tragedy of it all. thinking abt it from amons perspective like u fight this scrawny little ghoul #who looks like a kid and refuses to kill you and says this whole speech abt how not one person is to blame for jow the world is etc etc.#and then you see him again and hes got fucking centipedes crawling from his back and hes eating people snd laughing #and then he breaks out of it and starts sobbing and you let him live . and its like. what happened.#sorry. unexpected emotional moment.#shaking kaneki like a dog with a squeaky toy. this is not the same person. but it is !!!!! but its noy #reaction time #anyway. kaneki and amon are killing each other now. smile emoji #“if only we wouldve met under different circumstances i wouldve loved to sit and discuss this with you” SIGHHHHHHH

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iwantyoursexmp3 · 7 months

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you really just can't go back after you got queerbaited by destiel throughout the 2010s. that changes you permanently

#im in a posting mood tonight :3 #i started my spn rewatch like omg i hateee destiel its so annoying what they did w castiel's character #then its like ohhhh dean prayed to cas all night :(#i was like ouhhh i need to make beau's contemporary playlist then was like #ouhhh beau would probably like the music i liked when i was 12 #now i am using tumblr the same way i did when i was 12 #fun fact right as i got into spn i changed the cover on my facebook #to this edit of dean crying #the scene in s4 when he's describing being tortured in hell for the fellow supernatural scholars #and i captioned it like I LOVE WHEN DEAN CRIES $*£(%*“%”%?????? SOBBING #i was twelve!

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mishkakagehishka · 8 months

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His laugh....😭😭😭😭

#that audio that's like ''leave me alone baby!!! ..... [ugly sobbing] YOU'RE MY BABY AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH''#me spending all my time torturing Mika vs remembering i do kinda love him #enstars lb

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astragatwo · 8 months

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rose's birthday today.. i'm sad we can't appreciate her under better circumstances 😔

IM SO UPSET ABOUT THIS WAAAAUUGHHGHHHHG

It's not going to stop me from drawing her something because that's my wife I need to but MAN I really wish I could do that without everything else happening nagging me 😭😭😭😭😭

Maybe I should just allot myself 24hrs to close my eyes and just celebrate my favorite character's birthday in peace and then go back to being smad about all of this

#ask #Anonymous #today was orchestrated specifically to torture me #new w corp ids featuring the e.asian trio aka my most favorite limbinis on my wife's birthday they are taunting me with the w corp stuff #AAUAUUGHGHHGHGHHHGHHGH SOBS #cannot think of anything more specific to target me specifically #head in ahnds this is torture #im largely done feeling. awful and like shit abt pm imploding but im still. sad. i miss the community so much #aaauhhghggggghhghhhhhgh soungs of agonized crying #not art #also anon if u see this i need you to know how unimaginably happy i was to see this ask in my inbox i love u /p

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kraviolis · 8 months

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anyone: cleo shaw,

me, instantly: