#i mean it's kind of silly but this is the only way i can really go about this sort of thing

[skitskatdacat63]

For @sansebastinae and @boisinnot, my fellow saint seb truthers :)

+ the usual

Yayyyy finished a drawing! Haha only took me...2 weeks. I kept going back and forth on whether I could finish it tonight, and I really wasn't going to. But then I looked at the unfinished version on a different screen and was like oh? Not too bad actually?? So I finished it :) First of all, ofc, here is the process. Kinda weird seeing it for smth like this, it makes me feel like I'm the painter in rennaisance au, not Mark dhjfkf

Ah I was gonna draw a silly renaissance au comic to accompany this(read: lighten the mood), but it's 5 am and I've still not really drafted it well, so! I'd like to finish it at some point bcs I wanna draw more chibi comics, but when I finish smth, I can't help but immediately want to post it, so part 2 will have to wait. I'll show you the outline though so you can at least imagine 😭

^ So many renaissance and beyond paintings of Saint Sebastian are always the most horny thing ever. Like pre/early rennaisance, yeah he was naked and all that, but they were pretty chaste, and uhhhhh suffering?? Well the newer paintings are suffering, but in a different way, if you know what I mean.

So I feel like Mark's the type to be overly pedantic about it, and refuses to make borderline porn of a saint, I mean, god forbid, Seb!!! But then he just. Does anyways. Because he can't control his lust for Seb even when drawing him half dead. I just imagine him holding the paintbrush in a death grip like "must not be horny. Must not draw him sexy. Must make him chaste." And then he ends up with the one seen above. Seb is all smug about it. "Wow you'd wanna fuck me even while I'm all bloody and dying? 🥺"

Mark: "oh I'll make you bloody, alright."

But god so funny to imagine Seb doing all these different slutty poses, like arching his back as much as possible, the cloth nearly falling off at all times, etc etc. And Mark finally lands on this pose bcs he hopes the suffering will outweigh the horny. It doesn't. Also Seb is genuinely serious once he actually gets into the pose, focus mode on. And honestly that's even worse for Mark, bcs it's so much more arousing to see Seb in his element, focused. Tbf I think Seb could be drinking water, and Mark would still find some way to sexualize it. Don't look at his sketches!! They're just filled with Seb doing all kinds of random activities.

Also! Here is the painting I referenced this off of, must give credit where credit is due ofc

The Dying St. Sebastian by François Fabre

Also this isn't really relevant in the context of this drawing specifically. But I looked thru a bunch of Saint Sebastian paintings while trying to find one I could reference, and I came across this middle ages one that actually looks so much like boy king seb 😭 I guess it really is meant to be!

St Sebastian between St Roch and St Peter by Pietro Perugino

Lmao but do you see the difference between early rennaisance and later work???

#i cannot control myself anymore i must draw dark things :) #past 3/4 drawings have had blood i think 😭😭 old habits returning #BUT THIS SAINTLY OKAY ITS HOLY ITS FINE #also 005. when i said id draw you a saint seb seb i meant it!!! #<- tho mostly you changed your username when i was already drawing saint seb 😭 #but i was gonna dedicate it to you anyways :) so funny coincidence #i wasnt gonna put any lore in the read more cause i didnt think i had any #and then i did. as always. #if is say i have nothing to write just give me a min and i will sjdkfk #i dont draw nakedness im surprised this isnt too bad 😭😭 #also im happy cause i stopped myself from stressing over it being too overly detailed #loose fabric my behated 😡😡 but then i realized. i dont have to kms over it so i didnt! #still looks pretty good :) but i mostly like his torso face and hair ahhhh #lol also ik saint seb fits older seb better but. i like twink seb okay 🫣 also its an au thing so #MAN I WISH I FINISHED THE COMIC ACCOMPANIMENT #but it just wasnt clicking and i ended up drawing this first instead #but yes humbly please take my seb offering #f1 #formula 1 #<- again absurd to tag this at this point but idc #sebastian vettel #sv5 #catie.art. #martian #<- not inherently in the drawing itself BUT ITS THERE #tw blood #rennaisance muse au

[deeply-unserious-fellow]

The reason I think Alastor should be in the wrong(or at least mostly in the wrong) in his and Vox's falling out is that I don't think their relationship would be worth exploring as deeply as it sounds like it will be next season if Vox was the primary reason they started fighting, because it would do NOTHING for Alastor's arc.

Like- okay, Alastor's arc is very clearly going to be about learning that trusting people is Okay and not a sign of weakness, right? He's literally the only character in the show that is very clearly about the power of friendship who refuses to accept any sort of help, like even the VILLAINS are constantly hyping eachother up! If they fell apart because of something Vox did, and their relationship is going to be super important next season, wouldn't that not really do anything for Alastor's arc? Unless Vox pulling some weird shit is the ROOT CAUSE of Alastor's trust issues, but, given what we know about his past and how his ego seems to be the biggest contributor to said issues, I don't think it is. Alastor would HAVE to have contributed SIGNIFICANTLY to their falling out if their relationship is going to mean anything to his arc, because otherwise it just feels more like a weird aside then anything else? Like "oh yeah we used to be friends but then he did some weird shit and now we're not friends anymore". It adds nothing. There's nothing emotional for Alastor to confront in this scenario.

Which makes for a more interesting story, the relationship between the mc and someone from their past who, while they miss, isn't the kind of person they want to be around anymore so they don't really feel bad about cutting them off who ALSO doesn't pose any real Active Threat to the mc, or the mcs relationship with someone who they respected a lot but cut off because they felt the two of them were getting too close and we can't have THAT, now can we? It's the second one. It's the second one because the second one HAS HIGHER STAKES! The first one makes for a good one episode plotline, but for a season long arc? Takes where Vox is in the wrong actually make VOX a more interesting character to follow then Alastor, because that makes HIM the only one with an actual emotional stake in the conflict. But this isn't Vox's story. It's Alastor's story. Alastor is the main character. Which means, for their relationship to provide anything of value to the plot, Alastor needs to have emotional stakes in the situation too. The best villains are the ones that force your characters to grow and become better people(unless you're doing a silly little monster of the week type of show but THAT'S NOT WHAT HAZBIN IS-), and the only way Vox being the main antagonist next season is gonna cause any kind of growth is if Alastor is being forced to reconcile with his past.

Anyways uh, yeah that's it. I could do a tangent about how their relationship lowkey parallels Fizz & Blitzø(a comparison I made in this post but didn't actually go into depth on bcuz it wasn't relevant to the post beyond supporting my argument + didn't have much backing at the time), but I do NOT have the brain power to go in-depth comparing and contrasting that stuff rn, bcuz, despite the similarities, whatever the fuck Vox & Al have going on seems to be a LOT more Complicated and Sad then an accident and some dad-induced miscommunication. So I'm just gonna leave it at that :)

#hazbin hotel #hazbin alastor #hazbin hotel alastor #alastor hazbin hotel #hazbin vox #hazbin hotel vox #vox hazbin hotel #staticradio #radiostatic #alastor x vox #not rlly ship but Im not actively shitting on the pairing so I might as well tag the ship lol #late night ramblings #gal overanalyzes random shit

[nezz-cringe-crib]

growing up is realizing that dipcifica was actually a pretty damn good ship and holy shit i totally misjudged this pairing.

i never really liked dipcifica mainly because of how it got represented by the fandom, but looking back on it, it would've made a lot of sense and it would've been beneficial for both of them to date each other. and even in a completely platonic sense, their dynamic worked well enough that they could've done a lot more together.

dipper is a very nerdy awkward guy, clearly. he likes solving mysteries and sometimes he gets a little in over his head because of it. and his silly little awkward teenage love life reflects all of these things. that little shrimp was disney's #1 simp, it's actually insane. whenever he'd start to fall for a girl it'd end up going pretty terribly because he'd have no idea how to just act like himself and he'd also become a little bit of a jerk. (i'm not trying to like dog on dipper btw. he's just a kid and these are all understandable flaws, especially at his age and at the time period gravity falls took place in). however, with pacifica, a lot of these flaws are manageable solely because of how they're introduced to each other. dipper hates pacifica at first and wants nothing to do with her, but eventually they're forced to work together and realize "huh. we actually make a really good team." for dipper, this gradual building of a relationship is really beneficial to him. he wouldn't just go head-first into simping for some random girl and he'd also learn to respect her as a person and realize when he's being a little bit of a dick. being with pacifica, platonically or romantically (though personally i think romantically would strengthen their pros more but thats just my personal taste), would've helped dipper become a better person.

this goes for pacifica as well. pacifica's homelife is extremely controlling and it's what groomed her into becoming the mean girl that she's first presented as. as the show continues though, it's clear that she doesn't really want to be mean to anybody. she only acts spoiled because she doesn't know what else she can act like. she wants to connect to people but she's been so forced into this fake rich life that she has no idea how to be genuine with anybody. that's why her having a connection to dipper is so important. dipper is a little blunt, and he especially won't hide that from pacifica because he initially hates her and her family's lifestyle, so this'll eventually help pacifica realize "oh shit. i'm kind of a dick. my family are kind of huge dicks." and we do end up seeing this from her in "Northwest Mansion Mystery". she learns how to be herself, learns who "herself" even means, and learns to stand up for who she is when she figures that out. also pacifica's pretty damn smart???? especially socially???? she could absolutely help dipper do a lot of things when it comes to mystery solving, and with her status it'll most likely be things that dipper could never pull off and never even thought about because that's just what he's used to. they'd both end up learning a lot from each other because they'd be dragged into environments that they're not familiar with, but the other is. and their different perspectives/lifestyles would help the other view their environment in a new light.

not only is their relationship genuinely really beneficial to the both of them, but i also just know that their dialogue and scenes with each other would be so damn silly i can't not say yes to it anymore. i also just personally like headcanoning them both as bisexual so that's a plus for me.

anyways, tldr: i was wrong about dipcifica and its actually really good, i just think people should really analyze their relationship more since the way the fandom presents it (or how ive personally seen the fandom present it) is a little icky and shallow at least in my opinion. yay for dipcifica being silly little goobers :3

#gravity falls #analysis #dipper pines #pacifica northwest #dipcifica

[mama-qwerty]

The Knuckles Series - Review

Okay. So.

Finished the series.

I have thoughts.

First of all, it was fun. I view it as kinda filler episode material, that if someone watched just the movies they wouldn’t miss much. I watched it with my family and there were times we were all laughing and cheering and just enjoying the ride. It was silly and fun and Knuckles was adorable in every scene he was in.

That said, was it perfect?

No. No, it was not.

Here’s my take on some problems.

~ Setup felt rushed

We had the barest glimpse into Knux’s difficulty adjusting to a life on Earth, which, honestly, just made it look like he wasn’t being challenged enough. He can’t go from being on the run and fighting for his life at every turn to just sitting around playing VR and goofing off. That’s just not who he is.

Not to mention, his interpersonal skills are practically non-existent. He fought his whole childhood away. Presumably, anyone who came near him either wanted to exploit him, use him, or fight him. So he’s used to just doing things on his own, with no one to answer to, or take into consideration. That’s what I saw at the beginning—and honestly, it may have been easily handled had Maddie sat down with him and actually tried to get to know and understand him a little better.

~ Maddie

I felt for her, I really did. And I get that she was frustrated. Tom’s off who-knows-where, and she’s left at home trying to get the damage to the house fixed, while keeping tabs on three super powered alien kids, one of whom is actively attacking handymen, dragging a ton of dirt and sharpened sticks into the living room to make a warrior fighting pit, and dismantling the car to build himself an Iron Throne in the dining room.

She’s frustrated, and doing everything she can to keep herself from snapping. She didn’t sign up for this, but now has to learn on the fly how to deal with three very different, and very special needs kiddos.

But her referring to Knuckles as “our little red barbarian friend” kinda rubbed me the wrong way. He’s not a barbarian. He’s a warrior. He’s a traumatized kid who feels like the honor of his entire tribe rests on his shoulders. He’s struggling with this change and instead of trying to sit down and talk to the kid to explain how things are done on Earth, and see if there was some kind of agreement they could reach to keep them both happy, she just kinda gives up and walks away. Not very understanding, and doesn’t make her come off looking very good.

~ Pachacamac

Okay, this is just weird. Pachacamac, for those who don’t know, in the games is the warmongering echidna tribe chief who led the warriors in an assault to take the Master Emerald’s power for themselves. In the process, they enraged Chaos, the God of Destruction, who all but wiped out the Knuckles clan.

I know, I know, game and movie universes are different. The movie team has taken liberties before with certain aspects of Sonic lore, so this shouldn’t be any different.

Except it is. Canonically, Pachacamac is not a good guy. He’s not even a morally gray character. He is not an honored chief, who trained Knuckles and is now his wise spirit guide. He was the cause of the fall of Knuckles’ entire tribe, thanks to his greed and lust for power.

Making Pachacamac essentially Yoda is like changing Robotnik into a kindly grandfather figure. I mean, what??

The only thing I can think this harkens back to is Longclaw’s little hologram message from the second movie, in which she gives Sonic a quest to find the Master Emerald before Knuckles does. Which, okay, it’s a lost loved one giving a final message to help direct the character on a new path.

Except, Pachacamac isn’t a lost loved one for Knuckles. We did not see any interaction between Knux and Pach. We did see interaction between Knuckles and his father, who would have been a much better choice to send his son on a new path.

(I did, however, see this post that makes SOOOOO much sense in why Pachy appears to Knux, and instructs him to train Wade, specifically.)

~ The Master Emerald

Speaking of, WHERE IS IT? It was referenced numerous times, but never shown once. The absolute least the show could have done was show it well secured, with a Tails’ created security system in place. Show Knux meditating near it, or praying to his ancestors that they can rest easy knowing that the Emerald is safely back in the hands of the echidna once more.

The absolute lack of a presence of it is strange, considering the pursuit of it was what caused the near extinction of both the echidna and the owls. It was Knuckles’ focus for his entire life. Yet he simply leaves it behind without a second thought?

~ Wanda

OMG I hated Wade’s sister. Just, hated her. She was immature, abrasive, abusive, unnecessarily antagonistic with Wade (which seemed to be a life-long thing if the flashbacks are anything to go by) and just struck me as someone who was overcompensating for something. She’s a bully and it’s no wonder Wade is the way he is if he had to grow up with someone like her.

~ No Closure

We didn’t see them arrive back home, where Maddie would hand them their asses for just disappearing like that and not telling her. She was likely worried out of her mind the whole time. And I would have liked to have seen Sonic and Tails try to cover for Knux’s absence, in funny little brotherly shenanigans.

As I said above, I still found it fun. I loved Mother Whipple. I loved Knux’s interactions with her. I loved how Wade grew over their little trip. It was an enjoyable ride, and my whole family really had fun.

How would I have done it differently?

Well, that’s a different post.

#knuckles series review #knuckles series spoilers #knuckles the echidna #wade whipple

[kentopedia]

after some thinking, i’m going to put a pause on all my jjk wips & work on some other things <3

#thanks for all ur kindness btw #& i’m sorry if you just follow me for jjk :( #i think this is the best thing for me to do regarding my feelings around the fandom & the only way i can truly put some distance between it #which this doesn’t mean i’ll stop writing for it forever <33 just for at least a couple weeks !! #i’m sorry this probably seems really silly and dramatic but #i just havent been happy on tumblr :( #& i won’t change my url or theme or anything !!! just loving kento from a distance lol #love u all so very much !!!! #and i just wanted to let you know in case you think i’m dropping kento forever (im not) or you’re waiting on something #but also feel free to unfollow if you don’t want to see my other work lol #i’ll also probably not consume much content of it either very sorry to my jjk mooties :(((

[inloveanddepth]

love these guys

#i like how cringe they all are. like all of them are flawed & immensely cringe. no one's main is safe #they're cringe in different ways & some more than others but they're all cringe. love it #why are the fans for my two favourite soul fighter champions the autistic-coded ones !! #why are the autistic-coded ones the most unhinged.... #though tbh i think you could make an argument for all 5 of them being autistic 😭 #sommer's homemade jhin cosplay is so cute #they somehow managed to capture the exact brand of weird that jhin fans are. bravo #i think the funniest part about him is that jhin would not be able to stand him lmao #him wearing a shirt with the same art that's on the print he's holding makes me crack up for some reason #obsessed with the jacked yordle named rizz.... she's everything #also can i just say i love the crop top on guy. fantastic creative decision. so many crop tops in soul fighter i love it #kiri is crazy though what do you mean she's literally selling rpf at an event that the people she's writing rpf about are at #her repeatedly trying to get samira to read her fanfiction is kind of hilarious #& then she tells samira she's going to write fanfic about her. which is kiri's way of praising her. she is nuts (affectionate) #the way she keeps casually mentioning pyke totally kills people in this universe & she still adores him #she's the worst kind of fangirl (which is the point. they're all parodies) but it's hard to hate her lol she's so silly #my only issue with her is that she's a jhin hater.... how rude #i know her tumblr game goes crazy #the only character i'm confused by is jade. the lux fangirling felt really forced to me #it's not reflected in her design at all; honestly she looks more like evelynn #especially when riki guy & rizz & sommer are all clearly emulating gwen sett & jhin respectively #plus jade's shtick was more about parodying true crime & political content creators it seemed. the lux stuff felt tacked on #i guess it was because dema is after lux & jade doesn't like dema but it felt over the top at least #on top of the fact that it's pretty hard to make sjw characters actually funny #they should've made a dema bootlicker character tbh. for funzies #i think riot should publish some of kiri's fanfiction on the universe site. wouldn't that be silly #they could do one for each of them! a transcription of one of jade's podcast episodes; guy & rizz's training regimen; a poem from sommer #hope some of them show up in LoR sometime. just for fun #league of legends #soul fighter

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

trying this new thing where I try to be nice to myself for not writing whenever I want to or whenever I usually expect myself to write :)

#ACTUALLY HELPFUL??? #cuz like sometimes I DO want to write but I just don’t do it either cuz I don’t feel like emotionally ready #(which happens a lot lol I am SENSITIVE) #or like sometimes I just have an expectation I won’t go XYZ days without drafting #now I love me some consistency but also it’s ok lol #having fun in other ways !!! BY THAT I MEAN NETFLIX EDITS #I ALSOOO wanna use this encourage myself to brainstorm more LOL #cuz to be fair I only ever really engage in my writing when I’m actually drafting #which is kind of a newer development (last 3 years) in my process that I don’t like #like girl can you think OUTSIDE of drafting hours???? like let’s get silly in the notes app!!!!

[britneyshakespeare]

you know i mentioned last night that i realized only *after* i started rereading david copperfield that since i recently became an aunt, i was gonna see the story from a whole new angle and start relating more to betsey trotwood. i didn't even think about how at salem house i was gonna be poor mr. mell...

#i mean i didnt really think about mr. mell much because he's more of a minor character #he doesnt come back throughout david's life like steerforth or traddles or emily or agnes or #or or or all these other dozen major characters #in fact i only think of salem house as a minor part of the book. the shit we gotta get through to get to aunt betsey again #in a sense i cant wait to be done with it again #but oh my god reading about the rowdy schoolroom and how he's hardly managing to handle his stress #MEEEEE!!!!!! ME AN EDUCATOR #diana rereads david copperfield #literally just let me fucking play my flute badly in peace #you know i really have grown up a lot in the past 5 years bc all the adults used to just be caricatures to me #in the sense that all of dickens' characters are kind of caricatures. theyre exaggerated and silly #whether theyre supposed to be archetypal good or bad people. #because the way dickens uses hyperbole. sometimes it's just too true! #like the assholery of steerforth. how disingenuous but charming and persuasive he can be #that is SO true to how it feels to look up to older people as a young child. david copperfield's yielding to him is so realistic #david copperfield's own childish innocence throughout the early chapters seems comical but is emotionally true to how childhood feels. #these were the parts of the novel that resonated with me very deeply at 19. and they still do #but oh now. now i understand the position of the working adults. especially since i work w kids now how different it all feels. #and have worked w kids for several years too. but only about a year after reading dc. actually almost 2 years #im one of the bumbling incompetent adults. oh dear. oh lord.

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

A Tale of Seashells & Shenanigans

YA fantasy

follows a grumpy 19yo who works in the fantasy thriftstore

when a girl tells them she accidentally donated her selkie sealskin on their watch, they have to go on a quest with her across the sea to the other store the donations were sent to against their will

but things quickly go wrong and they get stranded on a desert island, and they have to survive by busking, and hitchhike with some pirates to make their way there, and their frustration eventually grows into attachment

nonbinary ace disabled (cane user) MC, aroace ‘love interest’, QPR-ish

#A Tale of Seashells & Shenanigans #aroaessidhe 2024 reads #Hm.. I like the idea of this but it was a bit all over the place and I feel like the relationship development wasn’t great #the MC spends most of the book being pretty horrible to a very timid well-meaning autistic girl who isn’t mean back. #(like mutual antagonism can feel more even yknow?) Like yes this is the focus of their character development - we know why they’re like thi #the fact that they’re mean to her is very much addressed; they apologise eventually; the author is autistic and making intentional choices. #but......they apologise but then are mean again over & over. it keeps happening and it’s just not fun to read when it’s 80% of the book? #them being nice to her is a way smaller part and I just don’t really buy the love at the end. #I think the author’s strength is definitely in real world settings where it can just focus on the characters #- I feel like this kind of silly anachronistic fantasy world needs to be leaned into a bit more? #I also felt like Tillie was quite self hating (or: only focusing on the negatives) about being autistic and aroace with the MC there to tel #her that no it's ok! Of course that’s a realistic experience but I find when it’s so succinct like that it feels really….reductive; idk. #pet peeve i keep running into #I did kinda enjoy the detail of ‘I’m ace siren’s won’t effect me’ *immediately flings self overboard after hearing them* lmao #but yeah I feel like some sections of this could have been cut out and a couple things expanded on and I might have enjoyed it more

[thisgodwontforgiveyou]

its very like. not fanfic bc that has connotations now but i guess the way fanfics were up to the late 2000s before the calcifaction of Fandom Culture as a thing anyone knew as a cohesive term it feels like a CYOA text rp thread from a forum for a real crpg or wow or something

#its very magically insulated from the cynicism of AAA gaming but also has that kind of pointless gamerness that #you can only really get from AAA games #its definitely got a lot of biowareness to it in a tongue in cheek way but sort of how like #unreal had quakeness in a tongue in cheek way but wasnt just slavishly devoted to being quake #kind fo a bad example cus quake is awesome and unreals sucks shit but you know what i mean. #its not a bioware copy and its not a sardonic commentary on bioware its just a very silly adventure #by some people who were entertained by a bioware game

[violentlydefending]

i wish so bad i had more ideas for slam dunk fanart bc that shit is living in my head rent-free. like unironically it's just in the back there on loop. for forever now, i think, probably.

#the movie was. really good. i really enjoyed it. and i am genuinely contemplating going out of my way to watch it in theatres again. #despite that being something i basically never do #and it'd be just by myself bc the only friend who was available and interested already went with me the first time LMAO #IT'S JUST LINGERING THERE. I CAN'T STOP #but i also have no fanart ideas :( #and by fanart ideas i mean silly dumb fancomic ideas bc that's the only kind of fanart i know how to make #i have One (1) thing i'm considering working on more but it's not even that funny. it's just the only thing i can think of LMAO #haven't watched the anime so i might do that to help me ride this slam dunk wave out #contra.txt

[victory-cookies]

the only irl friend I have that I feel comfortable actually talking about the things I enjoy with just insulted me for gushing about smth to her over snap last night and now I want to cry

#this is going in the tags bc it’s stupid but it’s making me sad so #the only irl friend I have that I actually felt comfortable sharing my interests with just made fun of me #for gushing to her about smth over snap last night #and I’m at work rn so I can’t even cry bc in a few minutes I’m back out on the floor #but just like. I think I have rsd (especially around my interests and then my intelligence but that’s not pertinent here) #so I’ve never really been super open about what things interest me bc when I get made fun of for it or those things get insulted #It really hurts #the only people I’ve really felt comfortable opening up to are like. Sid obv and then this one friend of mine #bc the two of us found out we shared some interests and started like. telling each other about other things we like #I’d tell her about my silly little tv shows and podcasts and she’d tell me about the movies and books she was into #and I’ve explained to her before how I’ve never really been comfortable enough to talk about that shit and how I appreciated her being kind #and not insulting me like other people have in the past #but today I’m sitting on break and watching the replies she sent me and one of them is just a clip in response to my video from last night #where she just goes ‘girl I literally don’t care’ (and this was not in a joking way like that was her response #and it was in a tone that implied ‘so shut up about it’) #and like I get it! I am often not interested in the things that people tell me about! but I try to be earnest and engaged #and I can understand loving smth and wanting to share it with others! and how it sucks when people are then mean about it! #like when she tells me about a teen drama romance book or sends me instagram reels of cake decorating I try to respond with enthusiasm! #bc while the content may not interest me I like hearing about the things she enjoys and I’m glad she feels open to telling me about stuff! #but now I don’t want to share shit with her anymore bc this has given me a huge spike in anxiety and I feel like shit #idk. it’s stupid but it sucks #vent #ig

[chaotictomtom]

LOVED SAW X!!! gonna put in the tags my """review""" to not spoil anyone even though. we're a month late here in france. but just in case.

#i don't rlly have a rank system of my fav movies...but this one goes very high alongside THE FIRST ONE I THINK... #LOOOVE THE INTIMACY OF BEING DIRECTLY IN THE TRAP ALONGSIDE THEM #so happy to see billy even tho i think it's kind of silly. as. there's not point to have a tape and all when the ppl have already seen you #so it's not really as creepy as not doing wtf's going on who's doing this to you etc. but ig the. prosperity or dmth #*smth. stuff to leave behind so ppl can understand what happened or smth idkidkidkidk #FUCK TIMED TRAP 🖕🖕🖕 #for matteo like. it is kinda frustrating that he did it and still he “lost” but that already happened to lots of other ppl in the franchise #BUT VALENTINA?????????? HELLO?!!!! #i think she was way too close to be free that it's actually super really unfair. not that all this is fair but. it's no better to me than #rigged traps. just as frustrating as adam's #i think #GABRIELLAAAAA.... #wahhhwahhhh....... fucked up that we was treated as harsh as the others. i think. i mean it's fucked up for the ithers too but yeah. #mandy!!!!! almsot clapped and cheered seeing her #ppl going “who's that” on my left 🙄 THAT'S MANDY MY FAVOURITE FUCKED UP CREACHURE 🖕🖕🖕🖕 #LOOOVE HER LIL JUMP I ALREADY SAW IN GIFS #these same kids kept going “who's [name of character CURRENTLY IN THE TRAP. NAMED SAID A BILLION TIMES AT THIS MOMENT KN TIME] #i get not remembering characters' names but this was. when there xas only TWO PPL LEFT.... THE DOC... SO LIKE... HELLO #who's that john they're talking abt again lol #wishing i haven't watched the trailer like every single time i watch trailers but it'snfine #anyway loved loved loved it :3 will rewatch it real soon in vo #i wish lawrence was here.... #also the BTS photos of that adam look alike 🧍 i really thought we would get a dramatic shot and all AT LEAST #but seeing the bathroom made me actually cheer lol #ANYWAY THAT'S ALL FOR NOW I THINK. #waiting for bf's train to arrive hehe yipeeee

[sysig]

Splenda (Patreon)

#Doodles #Splendorman #Slenderman #So fun fact about me: I was actually big into the Slender Family back in the day #I mean like before joining the internet as a contributing member back in the day lol #I made a small handful of Slender art but I don't think I've ever posted any of it - shifting interests y'know #There was one artist in particular I really liked who made Slender art that was all very soft and light #Unfortunately tho I can't find any of their posts anymore #Either I followed their work exclusively before joining DA myself and therefore didn't fave anything #Or - and what looks more likely - their content has been purged :( #Dunno if it was them or what but the only place I can find their art is on Pinterest and obvs I can't find their username there #Splendor was always my favourite tho I love his whimsicality #I'm still feeling kind of nostalgic so I decided to go looking for inspiration in the way way back beforetimes lol #He's fun to draw ♪ Love me a suit with tails and a bowtie! Very cute #The polka dots were a fun experiment in editing lol #They're very goofy hehe ♪ I like them #It was funny drawing a fully dark mouth as well! But he's most often portrayed with abyss-like holes in his face lol #I really should see if I can find some of my old Slender art - I had some silly crackships and I remember drawing him in German class #Taking a bubble bath if I remember right?? It's been a while lol

[smile-files]

i think one of the most fun things about having goody gardens is that it lets me not worry about being fully cohesive... like if i want to wear more comfy, flannely, corduroy-y things? that's worrywart! if i want to wear brighter, happier, more childlike things? that's sunshine lollipop! etc. and also this way i have an excuse to have like... 7 fursonas at once. if i so desired. it's all about self-expression!! whee!!!

#melonposting #i mean it's kind of silly but this is the only way i can really go about this sort of thing #because one part of me is saying: it doesn't have to make sense! just have fun! embrace the whimsical fantastical child in you!!! #but then another part of me is saying: but it has to have logic! it has to make sense! i have so many questions!! #i.e. autism vs autism haha #but anyway these folks being explicitly parts of my imagination/mind/conscience/psyche makes it easier to suspend my disbelief #like these are imaginary friends. they don't really exist. they can be whatever i want!! #and so there's some logic there that my brain can wrap around #(there's four-eyes getting all picky! haha!!) #also it just helps in justifying how complex i am (i mean i am a person after all! i'm always going to be complex!!) #because of course that part of my brain wants to find some method to the madness #it's compartmentalizing!! that's really what it is!!! #anyway this is just an excuse for me to continue to be indecisive about a fursona species haha #i'd imagine magic can turn his neighbors into different things #so he can make them into corresponding fursonas and objectsonas!!! it all makes sense!!!!!!!!! #but i feel like each of them would also by default be able to turn into a different butterfly or moth :D #like as a natural sort of thing for them. without magic's help #i am full of butterflies!!!!!! whee #sorry for rambling i just really what goody gardens has done for me :)

[arcaneyouth]

i think the one downside to people thinking my comic is super awesome and compelling is that i don't actually get to ramble about spoilers very often because people really want to see it play out naturally aisdUHASLDIUHASLIDH which is fair and flattering. i'm going to implode with all the words in my chest i'm not allowed to say tho

#what do you mean i don't get to tell you everythinga bout my ocs i love my ocs???? #i'm fairly sure most of the people in my spoilers chat have it muted which is their right and they can do whatever they want #i'm just in the hell of my own making #i fucking love talking sooo so so much #and there's only a few people who i can legally ramble about this specific stuff to 😔 life is so suffering #queued post #as silly as this problem is. it is genuinely kind of distressing sometimes #i don't expect anyone to let me pity ramble to them it's fine i care about artistic integrity i understand why i can't ramble about this #it is also still so much i can't say and can't typically get a proper outlet for #i have GOT to find new ways to cope with this #writing script has been semi helpful..... i've gotten a TON of writing sessions in the last couple months #half of which were because i was so excited i couldn't breathe and i got it out through Writing It Out #other times tho? it just gets me more excited and more sad i can't tell anyone yet ALSIUDHASLIUDHASD #my torment as a person making a story is endless #when i was younger my problem was that i didn't get a lot of validation because nobody knew my comic #my problem now is i'm still not getting validation because i've done a really good job and now can't talk about it more without consequence #either way it's kinda lonely. hyperfixating on ocs is rough.