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creachureboy · 1 year

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Golden Kamuy modern AU Hokkaido road trip, requested by anon !

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Sugimoto, Asirpa, Tanigaki, Ogata, and Shiraishi all take a full day road trip to Abashiri, starting in Otaru ! (Featuring Vasily, with no language barrier)

THIS IS LONG i got carried away ehe - thank you to the Anon who suggested this for being patient !!

(I left out a lot of things about abashiri prison cause its. A prison. So it can get depressing, but theres a ton of stuff about it i found out when researching so do take a look if youre interested !)

Separated into parts:

The group meets up and heads to Otaru

In Otaru

Heading to Asahikawa

At Asahikawa

Heading to Abashiri

At Abashiri

The drive back to Otaru

The group all meets up in the airport and drives to Otaru

They rented a little car. A little baby car that looked so much bigger in the photo. Hopefully all the luggage will fit. At least it has a working air conditioning?

Tanigaki is the driver. By god, Tanigaki is the driver. He's calm and rational on the road and driving schools should use him as a model.

Meanwhile Saichi was kicked off of driving duty after someone cut in front of him, causing him to yell and honk, and he even started to tailgate that person. Ruined the experience for everyone else in the car.

Asirpa is a child and should not be driving. "It doesnt seem that hard," she commented. "Why do we need side mirrors when we have a rear view mirror? I can look at the side without a mirror," is something she also said.

Ogata offered to drive, he seemed very calm and the others weren't that worried. Until they found he speeds constantly and cuts past other cars, which not only stresses out the passengers but ilicits more swearing from Sugimoto. They figured they'd let him just be the copilot. Which he's unsurprisingly quite good at.

About Shiraishi, he actually can drive pretty well, he just doesnt have a lisence. Saichi was like "just drive without one, nobody's gonna stop you unless you get into an accident or something." Shiraishi still gets off driving duty, as Tanigaki stops him.

Ogata as the copilot and Tanigaki as the driver experience the luxury of not being in the backseat.

Meanwhile the golden trio in the back drives everyone else crazy by singing "99 buckets of oats on the wall" until their darn throats give out. They lose count at some point and have to start again.

Ogata just pops headphones over his head silently.

Shiraishi INSISTED to bring tons of sweets in the car just in case anyone (he) had a craving. Ogata wanted some too but was too embarassed to ask. Fortunately, Asirpa offered some to him.

Tanigaki calmly points out any cool things they pass by. He did a lot of research beforehand and even printed a little guidebook for everyone to share, which quickly got crumpled after Sugimoto excitedly yanked it out of Shiraishi's hands.

I stg Tanigaki and Ogata are like the adults here, except only one of them is responsible. The other one is technically responsible but only bothers to do so for himself.

Shiraishi announcing to the whole car "are we there yet ? I need to pee :("

Sugimoto gives him a bottle.

Ogata takes the bottle and flings it out the window.

Everyone is chiding him for littering but honestly they all dodged a bullet there.

Otaru !

The gang visits the Otaru canal, its a nice and calming walk. Not too crowded, very nice and scenic, with a comfortable breeze.

Asirpa keeps grabbing at Saichi's phone to take photos, until he just lets her keep it. "Just don't drop it in the canal," is his only condition.

Asirpa's like, "what do you take me for, of course I won't!" Then accidentally drops it on the pavement. Thankfully Sugimoto has a shock absorbant upgraded 20% drop protection scratch resistant run-over-it-with-a-car-and-it'll-be-fine phone case.

Tanigaki is out here just having a good time taking in the sights and the fresh air. He's happy to be there with his loved ones even if they're a chaotic bunch. He ends up meeting with some locals who tell him about the place.

Ogata has already been separated from the group after spotting a cat. Tanigaki let him wander off without a child leash just as long as he's back at the car by a certain time.

Shiraishi and Sugimoto are already arguing about where they should eat for lunch. Saichi insists they should go to this really crowded restaurant cause "it must be popular if theres a crowd". Meanwhile Shiraishi is like "nono its gonna be pricey, we should go to the small places, the small hole in the wall places with the best and cheapest food."

Sometimes their conversation is interrupted by Asirpa showing them a photo she took, asking for feedback of her photography, then getting excited and talking about the photo and things she learned about Otaru until they've all forgotten about the photos.

Tanigaki sees Ogata carrying around a cat, and gives him a look of "we are not taking it with us".

They catch sight of some brunet sitting on a bench with a paint set out. Shiraishi walks up to the guy and just starts talking with no hesitation - "hey what're you painting? Oh, the canal, i guess you would be ! Are you a tourist too ? The sights here are great ! Yknow, i met a pretty girl at a store earlier.."

The guy (cough, vasily) doesnt mind the company, but he really doesnt have much to say. He finds this random stranger interesting.

Asirpa eventually drags shiraishi away. Ogata parts his ways with the cat and everyone hops back into the car. The lunch plans were not pursued considering it was like 10 in the morning.

Under Ogata's request, the next stop is east to Asahikawa

Ogata wants to go to the Hokuchin memorial museum. Nobody in the group understands why he's so fascinated to see stuff from the war, but sure :)

And Asahikawa has something else of interest - the Asahiyama Zoo, with Saichi and Shiraishi are going crazy imagining all the cute animals.

Ogata, sadistically, goes "I'm sure there won't only be cute animals. There will be plenty of dangerous ones too that could hurt you if they got out." Honestly he's just trying to fuck with them for shits n giggles but ends up warming everyones hearts when they go "awww, so you do care !"

So begins the drive there. Shiraishi gets bored and starts a game of I-spy. Asirpa chooses the hardest to find shit and nobody wants to let her choose the thing to spy anymore.

EXCEPT ogata, who somehow manages perfectly to find everything asirpa is talking about with little effort.

Everyone hates when tanigaki does it cause he chooses the most obivious shit. Like "ok I'll try :) hmm i-spy a red car" and everyone finds it in zero seconds. He insists he can do a better job, it's just that he has to keep an eye on the road. Which is fair.

Ogata and asirpa are like "y'all have a skill issue the stuff we point out isnt that hard to find".

Oh yeah and Asirpa learns the term "skill issue" from Ogata and finds it really funny and wont stop saying it to sugimoto and shiraishi at any chance she gets.

Saichi slaps Ogata from the backseat just for the funnies.

Ogata glares and goes "do that again and i'll swerve the wheel." Meanwhile tanigaki at the wheel is like "ogata do not."

Things calm down when shiraishi is scrolling thru memes on his phone and laughs hysterically at them, then shows them to the others in the car, who then also laugh.

Ogata is annoyed at first by the obnoxious laughter in the backseat and doesn't understand what's so funny about the things Shiraishi is showing the others. But he laughs at the grim ones that Shiraishi doesn't find funny, much to his concern.

The ones they all can appreciate are cat memes though.

They dictate the pictures to tanigaki who also doesn't find it quite as funny but he's happy everyone's enjoying themselves.

Ogata and sugimoto try not to laugh challenge ends up in disaster as Saichi laughs at everhthing first and then gets into slapfights with Ogata after getting pissed at how he keeps losing every time.

Tanigaki (dad, bless him) gets everyone to calm down again by saying "keep arguing and we won't stop for ice cream" and suddenly everyone is silent.

In Asahikawa !

They visit the memorial museum first, Ogata has already wandered off, and the others are calling out to him like he's a lost cat.

Asirpa laughs and suggests they bell him.

Ogata magically is summoned just to reject the idea.

He makes a good tourist guide for this, he knows way too much about the exhibits in the museum and is able to give extra explanations that arent written on the plaques. Tanigaki asks lots of questions and it's an engaging conversation, they attract a crowd actually to Ogata's dismay.

Shiraishi laughs like "maybe this guy fought a war in his past life". Ogata does not laugh.

Sugimoto and Asirpa wander off together after a while, and get told off for trying to take pictures in the museum.

They both try and make sense of the plaques without getting help from Ogata or Tanigaki, before eventually getting distracted by snacks in the gift shop.

Shiraishi got separated from the others after taking time to read a plaque but the others had already walked off. He eventually found them but with terror in his eyes - not out of fear of getting left behind, but because "holy shit war is scary".

Next stop ! Asahiyama zoo !

THEY TAKE SO MANY DAMN PICTURES

Actually they make a beeline for the cafeteria first, and the pictures are all blurry because everyone is so hungry so they're all speedwalking.

Sugimoto, with the utmost distress in his voice, asks if the penguin nuggets are made from the penguins at the zoo.

Tanigaki calmly tells him "no, they're just shaped that way. Why are you ordering from the kids menu anyway?"

Oh but Shiraishi shamelessly orders from the kids menu, but he orders a lot. Everything there is so cute and bite sized but the proportions are way too small.

Tanigaki leans down a little to eat when the button pops off and smacks Ogata square in the jaw. His phat tits attract many stares. He is embarassed. Sugimoto and Shiraishi almost get them all kicked out after wolf whistling at tanigaki's tits and heterosexually flirting with him a little too loudly.

Ogata scoots away slightly and pretends not to know them.

Asirpa eats the biggest damn meal on the menu and finishes it with no problem. Shiraishi is like "wow Asirpa, you're already done and I'm still eating !"

Asirpa says, very satisfied, "skill issue."

Once they've eaten, it's time to actually go see the animals.

Sugimoto and Shiraishi cooing at every tiny animal they see. Trying to start a dignified conversation with the hippos, then getting terrified when Ogata tells them about how lethal hippos can be.

They almost get kicked out again when they go to the polar bear exhibit and Asirpa and Tanigaki talk about methods to kill bears, and wondering how different it would be since these are polar bears.

At the capybara exhibit, the group observes how chill the capies are and how well they get along with other species. Saichi comments on how he's a little envious that they're able to have such peaceful interactions all the time. Asirpa understands, and restrains herself from saying "skill issue".

Asirpa sees an owl and excitedly talks about its importance in Ainu culture. She does this for a lot of other animals. Tanigaki participates excitedly in these conversations, bring up his own culture as a Matagi as well.

Oh god where did Ogata disappear to this time.

Last stop, Abashiri

Tbh at this point everyone is tired and some are dozing off in the car. Tanigaki is glad to have some peace and quiet. He turns on the radio, not realising its on like 69420% volume, and accidentally gives everyone a heart attack.

It's a little later than the afternoon, but not quite evening yet. It seems they'll only be able to make one stop in Abashiri. Can you guess where ?

Dumroll please,,,

The Prison !

When Tanigaki was doing research, it seemed to be the most historically impactful place that one could experience in Abashiri in like 2 hours or less, so he figured it would be a perfect final stop to conclude this field trip.

Shiraishi, after playing way too much GTA, insists in the car, "inescapable prison ? Come on, the prisoners just weren't trying hard enough".

Asirpa dares Shiraishi to tell them when they get there how he would escape the prison, to which he agrees to take her up on that.

Tanigaki informs the others that there actually was one person in the past who could escape, and the golden trio yell OOOOOOOO waking ogata up in the process and earning glares which scared nobody.

Sugimoto going "youre not even scary when you glare. Youre like a cat who thinks he didnt get enough snacks".

Shiraishi giggles profusely at this comment before immediately getting serious like "cats are fucking scary sometimes man, i was bitten by one and my head was inflamed for a few days."

Sugimoto and asirpa are like ??? Cats can cause brain swelling ???

Shiraishi is like "no it just bit my head"

Ogata laughs, "you have to have really fucked up for a cat to bite your head!" - A surprisingly wholesome thing for him to be laughing about. The others agreed much to Shiraishi's dismay.

At Abashiri

They finally arrive and park the car, with everyone on alert for parking spots and staring out the windows like meerkats.

They disembark and cross the Mirror Bridge to the prison, admiring the river and the pretty trees. They're also in shock at how fucking huge the place is.

Tanigaki calmly shares the things he researched, such as the prison's highest prisoner count as well as facts behind the bricks used in the building of the walls.

He earns some "ooh"s of interest from Sugimoto and Asirpa

Meanwhile Shiraishis like "ok awesome but wheres the bathroom ?"

Everyone gets a little map pamphlet and saichi giggles and tells him to use the prisoners bathroom.

They meet a familiar brunet, sugimoto is like "hey didnt we meet you in otaru ?"

The familiar man nods and introduces himself as Vasily, and when shiraishi comes back he goes "hey its the artist guy !! Hey artist guy, im gonna prove to asirpa here that i could escape this prison if i wanted to, wanna watch ?"

Vasily is like ?? "How can i watch you escape the prison if you arent a prisoner ?"

Ogata suggests they tie him up.

Sugimoto giggles quietly like a highschool boy and goes "that sounds kinda,,"

Vasily stares at Sugimoto knowing exactly what hes thinking about but none of them say anything.

Tanigaki wants to visit the guard houses first, and out of respect for the driver who busted his ass the whole day, they all follow him. They actually feel very appreciative about how much effort Tanigaki put into the trip for them, even Ogata who would never admit it.

Vasily sometimes wanders off but keeps comimg back to the group. Tanigaki is very impressed by his drawings of Abashiri Prison - so far of the bridge, front gate, and one of the guard posts.

When they finally enter the prison part of the prison, asirpa tells shiraishi that she'll give him some of her stash of sweets if he runs in circles around the central watchpost thing like a dog.

Shiraishi was really about to say yes but ended up declining because there were people around. "I'm not making a fool of myself," he says through gritted teeth.

Sugimoto and ogata tried to play a game where they guessed what the story behind the prisoners in each cell were, but quickly stopped because it got grim really fast.

Asirpa points at a wax sculpture near the skylight windows like "is that the escaped guy tanigaki was talking about ?" And sugimoto throws himself between shiriashi and the plaque that explains how the prisoner escaped, and tells shiraishi to tell them how he wouldve done it without looking at the plaque for answers.

Tanigaki has to pull vasily to the side after he accidentally blocked the road while drawing.

Anyways shiraishi nails the explanation on the head and everyone is like fuck damn this guy can actually escape if he tried ??

They also visit the prison bathhouse and the group expresses pity on the prisoners who barely had any bathtime.

Vasily eagerly tries to sketch out one of the yakuza tattoos that he saw on a wax model.

They also visited the lecture hall which vasily had a field day drawing the architecture of.

Tbh at this point most of the group was gradually realising *hey maybe we shouldnt bicker here lets show some respect* but still have a good time and learn stuff nonetheless.

Finally, on the way back to Otaru

Vasily keeps on following them, and tanigaki is like ? Do you not have some kind of transport ?

He shakes his head, saying he's just been hitching rides

"Well," Tanigaki answers, taking a moment to look at the group, "we'd love to help you but-" he gestures to the car and then to his group of kids friends, "we wont have enough space for you."

Ogata starts chuckling, going "no, we have space".

Everyone is like ?? And sugimoto remarks "last time i checked, shrink rays havent been invented yet."

Ogata suggests they just go grab some rope from the prison and tie vasily to the roof of the car.

Vasily looks a little less certain about riding in this car.

The others reassure him that, no, we are not tying you to the roof, ogata is just like that, please dont call the cops.

Asirpa ends up sitting on saichis lap on the way back, which shiraishi thought would end in disaster but they are actually very comfortable with it.

On the way back tanigaki is so tired actually, hes tempted to let shiraishi or even vasily drive. He decides not to suggest it to them, but shiraishi was actually willing to lend a hand, he just didnt feel like it unless tanigaki asked himself.

They end up stopping for gas and after refilling, tanigaki parks off to the side and takes a powernap in the car. The golden trio unload out of the car and are like "ok we're gonna need enough snacks to last us not only the road trip but also the airplane ride" and scurry off like the goblins they are.

They blow the rest of their budget on snacks and fast food.

Vasily buys a burger from a fast food joint connected to the gas station and brings it to the car for tanigaki. He noticed how exhausted the man was and was like yknow what. Take this.

In the car its just tanigaki, ogata, and vasily now. Vasily shows them the art he made during his trip here - the finished painting of the canal, sketches of all sorts of different architecture, coloured pencil drawings of landscapes, and of course the drawings from abashiri.

Its honestly nice and quiet and relaxing. Ogata quite enjoys the drawings, which only comes out as a disinterested sounding "it's detailed". Vasily is happy to share his art with someone, and tanigaki praises vasilys drawings and is glad to see different places that the group didnt get to see in their limited time there.

When the golden trio get back into the car, they're laughing and talking about something that the car folk don't understand and arent bothering to ask. Ask the trio in 5 minutes and they wont remember either.

Tanigaki didnt really care that they were being noisy, he was just happy he was able to enjoy this trip along with them.

As they continue to drive back to Otaru, Shiraishi comments, "man ive heard stories of hitchhikers yknow ? Sometimes the person you pick up ends up being a murderer, or even the driver is a murderer."

Ogata asks tanigaki with full seriousness "are you a murderer ?"

The golden trio laughs like "nahh hes the biggest sweetheart !"

Shiraishi adds, "I mean, he could in theory, have you seen his muscles?"

Saichi, in a tired stupor, yells "GAY" in Shiraishi's ear, to which Asirpa on his lap smacks him lightheartedly and tells him to quiet down.

Tanigaki just. Chuckles awkwardly.

Saichi adds "nah its not the hitchhiking part im worried about. I just dont know who would want to be in the same car as ogata." Ogata grabs the wheel and tanigaki slaps his hand away and is like dont fucking do that.

The golden trio is like OOOOO TANIGAKI SWORE AT OGATAAA HES IN TROUBLEEE !!!!

Vasily just chuckles along, he isnt part of the chaos gang but he finds their shenanigans amusing. He comments that theyre all like a family.

At some point Vasily pulls out a bag of peanut M&Ms, and Shiraishi immediately yells at the others "SEE ! HE HAS TASTE !"

Saichi is like "Well im SORRY that you like NUTS IN YOUR MOUTH"

Asirpa and Sugimoto pull out their bag of "normal" M&Ms and stare at Shiraishi like he'd just betrayed them.

Ogata would have told them to pipe down but he got free M&Ms so he was just munching away.

Shiraishi also funnels peanut M&M's into Tanigaki's mouth from the backseat, dropping several onto his lap in the process, then going "no dont worry i got it" and trying to grab them off his lap but his heart drops in horror when his hand brushes against Tanigaki's dick and learns of his magnum dong.

He is snapped out of his newfound wave of envy when Vasily offers him more M&Ms.

Shiraishi clings to vasily for snacks. "Pleeeease can i finish the peanut m&ms pretty please ?"

Vasily offers other snacks he brought and pats Shiraishi's bald head. He's like a bald cat. Yosh yosh

Yet another I-spy showdown, this time between vasily and ogata. None of them want to let up and it gradually gets very competitive. Even Asirpa had decided to sit out after a while.

Ogata ended up winning, but not because he was better, but because the golden trio pulled out more snacks and Shiraishi airplaned chips to him like "open wide vasily~~"

At this point the sun has fully set. The car is peaceful. Asirpa is playing wordle and goes "hmm theres the letters p, u, theres also s"

Shiraishi, way too excited, immediately yells "PUSSY" so fucking loudly goddamn.

Ogata wakes up from his dissociative trance and isnt even mad, he then yells pussy.

Asirpa asks what pussy is and sugimoto sweats like oh umm. Well it um. Cat its cat.

Meanwhile at the same time ogata says vagina.

Asirpa yells pussy. Saichi yells pussy. Vasily yells pussy. They wait expectantly for tanigaki. Tanigaki mumbles pussy. They peer pressure him until he yells pussy at the top of his lungs

Then it turns out the fucking window was open.

Anyways. The word was pumas.

Finally, they arrive back in Otaru, and drop Vasily off who then thanks them for the ride. And now the gang heads back to the airport :)

It's a little bittersweet parting ways with him, but they made sure to take lots of photos with Vasily befire they did, and he even left them with a drawing he did of the gang bickering at some point at Abashiri.

Overall, everyone is quite happy with how the trip turned out. They got to spend quality time with each other and experience new things.

But now, they can't wait to get back on the plane and get some rest. :]

#golden kamuy #headcanons #sugimoto saichi #vasily pavlichenko #golden kamuy headcanons #ogata hyakunosuke #shiraishi yoshitake #asirpa #tanigaki genjirou #golden kamuy au #golden kamuy modern au

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eldritchmochi · 7 months

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A N T for that alphabet ask game

A - Ships that you currently like a lot. (They don’t have to be OTPs because not everyone has OTPs.) Friendships, pairings, threesomes, etc. are allowed.

okay uuuuh i mean, obviously shadowgast i have only written like 300k of it in the past few years. im also quite the fan of ashrym/dashrym and callowmore (tho i like my callowmore on the platonic side personally). i will happily make the dirt wizards kiss ANYONE i do have a widomauk fic in the works and i have an idea for a caleb/yussa fic percolating and theres that one porny art by newt with c3 era caleb paired with ashton and orym that im just :lasereyes: yes i will one day write something for it i stg. also fun fact my First Ship for cr was beauyasha like, ep one. i got like 30 seconds into their first interaction and immediately texted cherry at like two am like PLEASE TELL ME THEYRE A SHIP and lo, they were cannon fucking incredible

outside of cr.... stucky, my beloved, especially with skinny steve because i love that sickly twink; big brother hobie creating Situations for gwen and miles (its hard being wingman to two people when you want them to kiss each other and also theyre idiots); kylux, obvs; rey/finn/poe/rose in basically any combination (i wish i didnt have One Hyperfixation Only type adhd because i would LOVE to write my rey/finn/rose idea where rey and rose are mechanics and finn is having car trouble and then they double team him in the office dont ask me why they have straps in the filing cabinet this is pwp); with hs at one point i would literally randomly generate pwp ideas. i didn't often finish them but it was a good exercise especially in characterization but i was mostly read davekat, daverose, any combo of erisolkat, and davejohn because i fukken pavlov'd myself into liking the ship lmao

shit this is gonna get long here is a read more

N - Name three things you wish you saw more or in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice).

hhhh i am so sorry if this sounds mean but the bulk of why i dont read a ton of cr fic when i was constantly devouring kylux fic largely boils down to two things

1. the technical stuff is eeh and 2. there is just not a ton of nuance in characterization or plot

both results in me being perpetually frustrated whenever i try to read most of what i open. theres been some gems!! theres also been a lot of stuff with promise where i can tell in a couple years the writer will knock it out of the park!!! but theres also a god awful amount where i'm just like that is not how dicks work lmao

i am sure a lot of that is because the cr fandom skews a lot younger than kylux (where folks are like 20-30 on average instead of 35-50 kinda younger) plus cr has a LOT of esl speakers compared to kylux whereas a TON of kyluxers have degrees in literature or library science, so like, it makes sense that there's a difference, but it still drive me bonkers that i cant just open a fic and read it without closing it halfway through because its too one note :I

T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending?

nope!! i am very ship and let ship in all regards. there are many things i enjoy (like short!essek or the idea that caleb would and probably has made out with all of his friends) that crop up repeatedly across my fic but i'm down for basically any good faith interpretation and i LOVE when someone writes a weird headcannon so well i have to steal it

there are many letters left of this ask meme if anyone else wants to send me a q!! pls enrich the mochi this is fun

#mochi rambles #mochi asks

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egokillr · 2 years

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It's a pleasure to meet you, I know this is going to sound weird. But I have the desire to be the most beautiful woman in the world, however I have insecurity of other beautiful girls, besides that I want to fall in love with all the men in the world that I want, of course with care and precautions. But then I think there are too many of them and some have a specific physical type of partners or similar things.

aw, its so nice to meet you too!!

and lemme stop you right there!! (and don’t worry im not trynna attack you. yet again, ive been there, too. yall anons have the same issues as i used too i stg.)

look at everything you just said. these are all self inflicted limitations. of course it may be influenced by society to think this way, but its all wrong and so fucking backwards. every single one of us is incredibly beautiful. the “ugliest” person is JUST as beautiful as the “prettiest” person. what’s the difference? well, in this reality, some physical features, sadly, are judged by society and sometimes growing up w this causes us to believe those things. and therefore, it causes us to reflect that onto our reality. other ppl begin to believe these things, not because its true, but because you believe it and they’re just reflecting your beliefs.

jealousy can be transformed into something really beautiful. i want to challenge you to change your perspective on all of these other beautiful people whenever you feel jealous or insecure. look at them as if yes, they are beautiful, but i am just as beautiful. and if you want to change your looks, of course you can do so, but please don’t do it thinking it will make you more perfect or like someone else. because you already are perfect. like RN YOU ALL ARE FUCKING BEAUTIFUL AND PERFECT. look at yourself and love the body you have bc theres nothing stopping you anymore knowing that all of these “standards” are made up and temporary. one day being skinny is best, then the next you have to be slim thick, but then being muscular is the trend. hell no!! be YOURSELF. my tip is, if you wanna change how you look, do it in the name of being art. express YOUR OWN PERSONAL VALUES. you are so unique. this is why comparisons will never benefit you because we’re all so incredibly different yet the same bc we’re all divine beings.

basically, other people are only reflecting your own inner beliefs. you can do, be, or have anything you want. go get all those boyfriends rn!! it never mattered what you look like or how your personality is, etc. its about your beliefs about yourself and the world love. i would suggest looking into everyone is you pushed out if you would like to know more about this.

thank you for this ask, i wish you the best <3

#vic talks

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my0vershareworld · 1 year

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Okay, so not an ask but I'm up late at night and this popped into my head randomly and felt the need to share: HOW I GOT INTO BLEACH IN MIDDLE SCHOOL

Late at night I just finished watching my nightly episodes of Inuyasha on adult swim. I got to turn my tv off and see something called bleach comes after and I decide, fuck it, I can stay awake another thirty minutes.

Cue me being dropped into the non canon Nozomi (who I stg still chose to call her Naomi) arc. It's a really climactic episode and I watch copies of the captains fighting the real versions of themselves or some other captain's double. I was so confused because the swapping between the fights were so confusing. Dog man fighting someone else... Who's the good guy here? The dialog gives NOTHING AWAY. Switches to another fight and eventually I just figured "wow either these are a lot of identical twins or something really interesting is happening and I was dropped into a climax of an arc or episode in general."

When they got to green haired man I was just so invested in how strange it all was and watched from there to the end.

The week after that arc ended, adult swim started the full bringer arc (my favorite arc now, but solidly gave me nightmares). :/

ok since yer talking abt how u get into bleach im gonna talk abt mine bc y not.

so i got into bleach like a year or so ago..i got obsessed and interested in it bc of my friend she keeps talking abt it a lot but i actually never ended up watching the anime but instead i play bbs bc of grimmeow and got the whole story gave to me same with all the fillers

and man was it fun (it rlly was i enjoy playing through the story mode a lot)

i started right off the bat with how ichi become a shinigami and man it was fun to see the scene go off and with my own imagination and not even watching it. it was a lot of fun. all of the fillers are cool some of em are annoying but in general i love is Zanpakuto Unknown Tales Arc absolutely in love with it. the designs for the zanpakutos spirits is so MMMM

then..thats literally how i ended up with watching tybw that came out months ago and become ABSOLUTELY obsessed with bleach

i started writing too bc of my trio and all of them. are a writers and they all make absolutely majestic work out of it. and i decided why not try it out since i never tried writing as a child and posted it online bc i never have any interested in writing

then theres. i somehow become a fanfic writer, an artist, a rper, and a middle schooler

#it drag me deep into bleach even more bc..goddamn bleach got a lot of...hot ass characters with my weird taste in men that i can love

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kisakunt · 3 years

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my fav characters r kisaki, mikey, and kazutora how u think i feel.

#%;blair knows best #takemichi + rindou + souya + izana + chifuyu up there #but #ykw i’m saying.#like #damn bitch you mf LIVE LIKE THIS?#i feel like i’m missing someone i know i am #KOKONOI #i stg theres someone else #i’m going to bed

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chillichats · 2 years

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58 look away im stupid emotional in this

@fathermooshroom for the sake of your entertainment mr moosh i have written down my thoughts as incomprehensibly and as non filtered as possible, starting right after where i was when i sent the ask

mr moosh you piece of shit what the fuck you cant what no NO THIS IS WHAT TECHNO FEARED THE MOST im gonna be sick im gonna throw up im losing my mind WHY

mr moosh do you understand of course you understand but DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHY WOULD YOU why would dream do that?? did he get scared from tommy not holding back? hve there been fights since then? is there something going on from dreams point of view that made it so he had to try and get his hands on whtever it was he needed from spiderman as quickly as possible?? he wanted him alive before so what changed? is it related to whatever he was trying to ‘fix’ the first time??? ive gone on a tangent of thoughts while writing this im going back to reading

no.. being about to die is what makes tommy realise he wants to live... god fuck MR MOOSH YOURE RUINING ME D OYOU UNDERSTAND THAT

oh im trying so desperately not to cry but the visuals of kristin and phil finding his cold body the next morning GOD of FUCK yeah no theres no point in trying not to cry its a repeat of the first chapter but its not /lh its /FUCK

*sobbing* yeahb ranboo hed really like it if he could have your leftovers for lunch tomorrow i cant do thi s i canttt

its been a few minutes and ive sort of., usded up all my easily accessible emotions so im numb for noww and im just. in a well of deep horrified empathy for techno and tubbo who are going through all this and they cant even tell anyone else until the worst happens/would happen

FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF I THOUGHT MY EMOTIONS WERE GONE I THOUGHT ID USED THEM ALL UP ‘with great power comes great responsibility’ FUCK OFF TOMMY SHUT UP

‘youre not gonna miss us youre just gonna be gone’ techno why do i have to kin you in particular god holding my breath to counteract the sobs but its not working

fuck off with your ‘details’ and your ‘predeath sentiment’ tommy I DONT WANT TO KNOW THAT THEY STARTED CRYING AFTER ELLIE DIED ID ONT I DONT

NO OH GOD WILBUR DOESNT UNDERSTAND BUT IF TOMMY DIES HE WILL AND HE”LL KNOW THAT THEY KNEW IT WAS COMING AND THAET THEY KEPT IT FROM HIM yknow what im gonna leave theories until i reach the end because i stg i refuse to torture myself with ideas that might not even happen

‘theyre scared they wont get another chance’ and another round of tears. MR MOOSH IM NOT NORMALLY EMOTIONAL TO THIS EXTENT WHAT HVAE YOU DONE

‘WE’LL SEE YOU IN THE MORNING’ OH GOD KRISTIBN YOU WILL BUT NOT THEI WAY YOU THINK OH GOD OHG OD

he knows cyanide causes a painful death and he wants to sleep to try avoid it FUCK WHAT THE FUCK IM NOT I CANT IM WHAT? NO

im tired of capitals im tired of them but god techno’s making me wanna use them so bad you dont undetstand im legitimately bawling

... ‘ Tommy can’t bring himself to understand why someone would want a character—want their creation—to suffer like that’ fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuvk you

....he knows its tommy

#chillichats #guided evolution #yknow a rly big part of me wanted to suffer silently and just post the word 'fuck' as my review but i needed an outlet and since its night #i cant vent out loud #m r moosh u rly #god #im not gonna ask the number. im not.#ive never cried this much about a fic chapter in my LIFE #and ive read a lot of fic chapters

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hello-yue-here · 3 years

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About your atla ship songs, I have a couple of questions (sorry if my phrasing comes out wrong, english isn't my first language and I worry it might across as accidentally defensive): how did you end up with the choices for zukka, jetko and yuekka (note: I haven't seen the great comet, so feel free to obsess over it, I'm intrigued now and the hype is appreciated!)? Sidenote: I think the mailee choice is HILARIOUS and the tokka one just make me sad, I didn't expect to be attacked like this😭

kdjfha;s i love you im gonna obsess SO HARD over great comet now. you may regret this

this is gonna be so long so the rest is under the cut whoops

yuekka: no one else from great comet

where do i even begin. WHERE DO I EVEN BEGIN

okay so background information on this show: it's based off of a 76 oages excerpt from war and peace and its centered around a woman named natasha (and this guy pierre but he's irrelevant to this song so we wont worry about him) and natasha's bethrothed is off fighting in the war right now. she hasn't seen him in a while but she is in love with him.

every single lyrics of this song SCREAMS yuekka to me. the innocence and purity of their love. the love at first sight. and even the melancholy ending just- i go apeshit for this song. i love this song so much. and denee benton's voice??? kljsdhflwksugf please listen to this song if you haven't already. listen to the whole show. your life will be changed forever.

onto the lyrics (i stg this is ab to be the whole song whoops)

"the moon"

THOSE ARE THE FIRST WORDS ON THE SONG. natasha and andre (her bethrothed) met underneath the moonlight. Sokka and Yue first spoke to eachother at night and always met each other for their most intimate moments under the moonlight. also yue is LITERALLY the moon so like: right of the bat with those two words it's yuekka.

"and i saw your eyes / and i saw your smile / and the world opened wide"

sokka fell in love with yue the moment he saw her in the canal. she literally enchanted this motherfucker. everything about her made his heart go crazy. and 'the world opened wide' to me is from yue's perspective. Yue had never left the north pole and sokka had seen a good chuck of the world at the point. He took her on appa, he told her about his adventures. he saw the world yue wished to see and you know damn well that Sokka would have done anything to give it to her.

"oh the moon /oh the snow in the moonlight / and your childlike eyes and your distant smile / ill never be this happy again / you and i and no one else"

natasha sings fondly about the moon and the snow, seeing as it was where she fell in love with andre. yue and sokka LITERALLY fell in love in the same place: in the snowy nothern water tribe under the light of the moon. childlike eyes: THEYRE CHILDREN!!! distant smile: this is where it gets a little sad. theyre both children with way too many duties during a world that has known nothing but war for the past century. they want to be happy but yeah, theyre smiles are distant and far away because happiness seems out of reach for them most of the time. i'll never be this happy again: the moments yue and sokka shared together were probably the happiest either of them ever were. they were able to ignore the war and the world in the moments they shared together. and with no one else. no one else would be able to give each other this sense of peace and happiness and love.

"joy and life inside our souls / and no body knows just you and me / it's our secret"

Yue and Sokka had to sneak out in secret at night to go and see each other. Yue and Sokka couldn't be together for real because Yue was already engaged, but they were literally in love so she decided to see him anyways in secret. kasdjfhklasjd im losing my mind over them at this point.

"this winer sky / how can anyone sleep / there was never such a night before / i feel like putting my arms around my knees / and squeezing tight as possible / and flying away"

these are my FAVORITE lines in the entire song. yue and sokka had never felt this strongly about anyone before and that's why they are so drawn to each other. they had never experienced love before and they wanted to hold onto it for as long as they could even though they knew they couldnt. Sokka takes yue up on appa and she is wistful and wishes she could live like he does every day: ie flying away. oh my god these two deserved so much better. so much fucking better.

now for the saddes part. the saddest fucking part.

"maybe he'll come today / maybe he came already / and he's sitting in the drawing room / and i simply forgot"

natasha misses andre so intensely at this point. when i first listened to this show and heard this song i was like "wait a min... is andre like... dead?" and im sure i wasnt the only person who assumed that this was why natasha felt so sad by the end of such a beautiful song. (spoiler alert andre is fine)

but this line really exemplifies how sad natasha is, and hints at the fact that andre may never come back. it implies that their relationship is doomed (at least in my opinion) and that's all yuekka. Sokka misses yue intensely when shes gone. Yue accepted her fate almost immediately but sokka was in denial. he thought there had to be another way. but in the end it wasn't meant to be. and sokka will go on, loving yue, wishing for her back, even though it's not possible.

fuck im gonna cry.

zukka: all i've ever known- hadestown

"i was alone so long / i didn't even know that i was lonely / out in the cold so long / i didnt even know that i was cold"

sokka is from the swt so theres where the cold comes in. also in the gaang (initially) it was just him katara and aang. and katara and aang were much closer to each other than sokka was with aang and the two of them were benders so sokka was kind of an outsider with the two of them. He also represses a lot of his emotions and feels the need to do everything himself so i do see a lot of loneliness in sokka. and the fact that so many people in his life have left him (his mom, yue, his dad, suki briefly, etc...) he is known to keep people at an arms length. i see a lot of loneliness in sokka.

zuko's loneliness is a lot more obvious: he has literally been cast out and abandoned by everyone except iroh. and even then he still feels the need to be alone (remember zuko alone? thought so) these boys look after themselves and push others away and revel in their loneliness in order to keep themselves from getting hurt. at least in my opinion on canon and also some fanon because id be a liar if i said fanon didnt influence how i view ALL my ships (not just zukka)

"all ive ever known is how to hold my own / but now I wanna hold you too"

COME ONE MANNNN, they just wanna hold each other. theyre both very big protectors as well and kljhflkasdhg they wanna protect eachother like kljdhfl im gonna lose it rn.

"You take me in your arms / And suddenly there's sunlight all around me / Everything bright and warm / And shining like it never did before / And for a moment I forget / Just how dark and cold it gets"

SUNLIGHT SYMBOLISM. zuko is literally powered by the sun. i don't think i even NEED to elaborate on this one anymore lol. They find comfort in each other away from all of their trauma. when they're together nothing else matters and i personally love that for them. they both deserve love.

"I knew you before we met / And I don't even know you yet / All I know is your someone I have always known"

these two are extremely similar in canon. many parallels. older brothers overshadowed by their prodigy little sisters. longing to make their fathers proud (granted one dad is good and one is fuckin evil), both are pretty bad with emotions. both are seen protecting others before themselves (sokka protecting suki during the serpant's pass, sokka protecting toph on like multiple occassions, zuko protecting katara in the final agni kai), the list goes on. they know who the other is because they see themselves in the other person. they already know each other because they are each other (in a way, not entirely, but the similarities are strong in my opinion)

"I'm gonna hold you forever / The wind will never change on us / Long as we stay with each other / Then it will always be like this"

i just think this line is so cute and sweet (ignoring all the symbolism and foreshadowing that comes with the last line in the musical itself. im gonna pretend this is nothing but happy) and i think these boys deserve happiness so yeah. this song is zukka to me lol.

jetko: thrill of first love- falsettoes

if you've never listened to this song go an do it now. you will know INSTANTLY that it is jetko because of the dynamics alone. marvin and whizzer are pure jetko and i take no crticisms.

marvin and whizzer are both extremely stubborn, and they don't always get along, and they fight a lot, and they get mad at each other a lot, and they are both passionate as hell, and they will bring this passion into everything. they love each other that is without a doubt, but they arent perfect and they are once again stubborn and determined as fuck.

sound familiar? it's literally jetko.

the lyrics aren't what remind me of jetko, but the dynamic itself. the lyrics are too on the nose for a gay couple in 1970's america so that rlly cant apply to jetko all that much. but the way these two characters bounce off of each other and get annoyed with each other and argue with eachother reminds me of jetko. because let's be honest: these two are the most stubborn characters in the whole show. they will fight for what they believe and it will take literally everything to change their minds.

i love jetko but i think they would have petty arguments all the time and get aggravated by one another so easily. and this is even seen in canon: they work so fucking well together but they did not even HESITATE to fight one another after neither of them would give in and let the fight about whether jet was right or wrong about zuko being a firebender. like i cannot say it enough they are stubborn as fuck.

but underneath all that stubborn pettiness and bickering: marvin and whizzer still love each other. and jet and zuko would still love each other. because even though they are stubborn when it comes to arguments, they are even more stubborn and determined when it comes to each other. these two passionate motherfuckers are in love.

(now when i chose this song i decided to ignore the fact that this song literally spells out the fact that marvin and whizzer's relatinoship is doomed because they literally say passion dies. thats the difference between jetko and whizzer and marvin because i dont think passion dies. i chose this song strictly for the bickering lmao)

and i know you didnt ask about tokka but,,,,

i rlly wanna talk about the tokka one

so im going to

tokka: on my own- les mis

look. i KNOW this song is about unrequited love and i love tokka as a couple but,,, the unrequited love in this song just SCREAMS unrequited tokka to me so thats what i went with.

eponine is a girl who has neglectful parents who lives life by her own rules: toph. eponine is shown to be tough and confident and spunky to others but behind all of that she has emotions, she feels love, she hides her vulnerability so much: toph. she is in love with a guy she cant be with because he loves someone else: TOPH

eponine is toph to a t and toph is eponine to a t. this is not up for debate lmao

"without him i feel his arms around me"

toph is always seen grabbing onto someone (and its almost ALWAYS sokka) when she's somewhere where she can't use her feet to see. FEEL and ARMS cmon. look at it.

"and i know / i know that he is blind"

COME ON. IMAGINE TOPH SINGING THIS LINE. this line is already powerful enough in les mis but having toph, a blind character, sing it just makes the symbolism even deeper. toph sees the potential relationship they could have together. toph sees that sokka is oblivious to this. toph is not blind to the truth or the potention, but sokka is blind to her feelings. im about to lose my mind over this line.

"I love him / But every day I'm learning / All my life / I've only been pretending / Without me / His world will go on turning / A world that's full of happiness / That I have never known"

i need to sit down for a moment. toph grew up in a household where her parents did not understand her. she has learned to hide her true emotions and vulnerabilities from everyone. and its the fact that toph knows that she and sokka will never be together and the fact that she still loves him in spite of that is what makes this even more heartbreaking.

"but only on my own"

TOPH AND EPONINE SWEETIES I LOVE YOU

thank you for indulging my theatre kid nonsense. you are very sweet and kind and lovely and awesome and i hope you have a lovely day bestie :) <3

ask me why i think these songs go with these ships

#asks #liv is a theatre nerd #liv is an atla nerd #yuekka #zukka #jetko #tokka #ask me about my ship songs

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monstersandmaw · 3 years

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my infatuation w aliens/monsters started when I was younger thanks to Data,spock, and word from star trek and lemme just say?? disappointed at how little fics/anything is written about worf. idk if you like star trek but yeah just wanted to complain I guess? theres a good amount of Data content and lots of spock but mmm:(( I want to see more worf. I stg I may just bite the bullet and do it myself

I’m so sorry to let you down, Anon, but I’ve never actually even seen anything Star Trek related, so I can’t help you out there. But you wouldn’t be the first to fail to find what you’re looking for and have to write it yourself. That’s how I started writing monster/fantasy stuff (before I found Tumblr and the whole community). I hadn’t found any published books which catered to my desire not to have to ‘cure’ the monster of their ‘curse’ (Beauty and the Beast, I’m looking at you among many, many others), or where the characters were more than happy to live with the things/characteristics that made them not fit into society for whatever reason, etc. so I wrote my own stories.

It is a lot of effort though, so I really sympathise with you for wanting to find something that someone else has written! Good luck in your search, and maybe one of my followers knows of some stories you haven’t found yet? let anon know in the notes, folks.

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guideaus · 2 years

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my mom really just frustrates me so much and i really dont know how to deal with it. what i just said before might seem like a small example, but theres so many instance of her doing things for me or not letting me do things or make decisions for myself and idk why and i stg its gonna make me snap one day

the closest my mom has got to like... thinking abt her actions was when there was some person at the college i go to getting short with her saying she cant manage all my actions because im an adult and telling her not to be a "helicopter parent" and my dad will call my mom that as a joke, which upsets my mom and makes her defensive and refuse to interact with me in that time. i also keep trying to tell her to listen to other people, that i didnt say what she thought i did, and that i can do things, but she'll easily blow me off or not acknowledge what i said (i guess because she could be offended?) and its so frustrating and idk what to say

i hate seeing her actions in relation to me because i always know she would never act that way towards someone else. when we were in arkansas she'd answer questions directed at me before i could speak, if i ask her for help she completely takes over and refuses to let me participate, she'll insert/remove me from events without my knowledge/opinion, and just a bunch of other things and idk what to do and i feel like i'll inevitably snap one of these days

#personal #dont rb #literally the last time we fought she came back and did apologize #but i think just for the fact we were both yelling #instead of recognizing shes treating me like a blind deaf dumb whatever 5 y/o w n oagency

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rosies-pastimes · 3 years

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hi rosie. it has been a while >-<

a big hug for support! send packages of love to you right now

school's at a very busy period for me at the moment, but I'll push through! you got this too rosie ~~

dfgfgh haha no I haven't 👉👈 pancake and sugar cookie are really really adorable

why do you have to write a love song T-T what kind of homework is that 😫 I feel you

ahh you didn't make all of the fences yet... right? and oh another design :o

yess I have saved it somewhere safer now + may will probably heed your advice and write it down somewhere else too

*holds phone delicately* take care of the screen...

oh t-the creampuff- that flustered me real bad /~\

yes yes they looked yummyy (understandable why they are keqing's favourite)

that does remind me that I should go look for some new hoodies that will be comfy hehe cuddle buddy ahhh

it is a very nice colour!! um um um I always say blue haha but there are so many shades...

sdfgfdfg it's okayy (I've never watched either but I do know of them! more ohshc but still not a lot)

I cannot believe we are already halfway into the third last month of 2021 :')

- 🎮

i decided to put my replies in a readmore cuz theyre so long omg-

AND I EXTENDED THAT WHILE IM SORRY 😭😭

shit happened and monday - wednesday felt like i was living a fever dream, and thursday was spent with my extended family and my social battery ran tf out til friday BUT IM HERE NOW IAJIXSJ COPIUM TINGZ 😗✌️

ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ sends love and support aswell WE GOT THIS 💪👁️👄👁️

THEY ARE!! I SAW THIS TIKTOK WHERE SOMEONE TOOK OFF THEIR HATS AND PANCAKE'S HAIR WAS SO FLUFFY 😭😭 IT WAS SO CUTE and is now buried underneath all my favorited videos 🥲-

it was for a creative writing class 🤷‍♀️ i was supet poetic for 2 stanzas and then the chorus flopped it wasnt funny to me 🥲

i may have ran out of wood and got diatracted while farming for it so no u havent done all the fences yet hwehwe 👉👈 nor have i touched my teapot because ive decided to get the new inazuma thingy before i do 😌 AND THE GLOWY PLANTS IM IN LOVE 🥺

the real screen has a little wittle itty bitty crack from when i dropped it down the stairs and i wasnt using the phone case and theres a little nook with no protective glass protecting it 🥲 take care of your screens kids 🥲

child ➖👄➖ of ➖👄➖ the ➖👄➖ lord i had to put my phone down and take a deep breath-

it's been kinda warm here in my city, so hoodies are not an option 🥲 i cant wait for rainy season again 😭😭 cuddle buddies 👌👌

blue is like, so peaceful and calming 😭 it reminds me of the ocean 🥲 i desperately 🥲 want to 🥲 go visit 🥲 BUT CANT 🥲

im not sure if ive asked this before but do you have a favorite anime?? omg im awful HAHAHA

3 more months and its 2022 and i stg if i have to suffer ANOTHER YEAR IN THE HOUSE I WILL RIOT I HAVENT SMACKED MY FRIENDS FOR THEIR DECISIONS IN SO LONG 😭

on the bright side ill be 18 in january so adult tingz at last HAHAHA

#⋆-🎮

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karaslluthor · 5 years

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supercorp fanfic masterpost pt.2

this has been in my drafts for over a year so here ya go and hasn't been updated since then but if u haven't read these then ur welcome. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

its literally a big ass list jsyk and i did all the tumblr tags back then so idk if they are still the same users but hopefully lmao.

original part 1 is here boysss

MULTI FICS

somewhere i have never travelled (http://archiveofourown.org/works/9268886/chapters/21008012)

kara and lena visit all different places lenas lived and then they find a home together and its super cute and fluffy I cry

Paranoia Incarnated - @justmickeyfornow

mickey is my fucking supercorp spiritual guider with the best fucking fic and ive read it about 322934 times and still is sooo good. Also the whole heartbeat thing KILLS me. SO MUCH ANGST but literally its worth the death u go through trust me

Transcendent Interactions

Kara and lena share this bond thing from birth and can feel each others emotions and they finally meet and its so great like im actually fucking in love with this fic and kara gets herself off all the time thinking lena doesn’t know idk just read it u wont regret I stg

Closer and Closer (Until We Collide) - @hallow777

Im a slut for bed sharing tropes and this is so CUTE like lenas all freaking out because she keeps waking up cuddling kara and alex is oblivious to everything and its just soooo good

So, This Happened?

Drunk kara leaves drunk alex for a more suitable cuddle buddy aka lena lesbian luthor and lena sleeps in a supergirl t shirt bc of course

Sojourn

Holy mother of fuck as if this fic didn’t absolutely ruin my fucking life??? Lena has to go to London for a month so she invites kara to come with her and lena has a gay awakening and realises shes in love with kara and its SO FUCKING GOOD

just one wrong move (baby, baby)

lena is having karas baby from this alien tech accidentally! And lena is so loved and its so cute like honestly and obviously they fall in love bc duh

hold me, my dear (and don't let go)

kara is a professional cuddler and lena hires her services bc shes a sad touch starved young lady and deserves to have some hugs in her life hello fluff my old friend discovering the moon

alex and lena brotp and holy fuck does it deliver!!!! Alex is like a wingwoman we all need and kara and lena just need to communicate tbh but AMAZING

Focus on Something You Love, and Breathe

Lex is a little shit as always and wants to kill lena bc he thinks shes in love with supergirl (which she is) so kara says she can stay with her and obviously the angst is juicy and ruined my life. So. Good. Read. It.

Offstage

College theatre au but like literally one of the best college aus ive ever read!!!! Lenas just a big lesbian and karas confused and they bang secretly and its glorious

it's a boy!

lena takes in a super powered alien baby that falls from the sky and gets a weird neighbor in the form of kara danvers and theres not many chapters yet so im not sure whats happening with kara yet but im super excited for this!!!

Break My Fall

Kara dates monel but kisses lena as supergirl and its angsty and smutty and all round a good fucking time

carefulness can be damned

Post 3x7, literally smut with some plot need I say more??

A Foolish Wit - @seabiscuits-us

if you haven’t read seabiscuits fics are you even a supercorp fan?? Lena needs a husband and Clark Danvers is positively charming and also actually disguised as a man, I mean.. quality content

In My Veins

im soooo excited for this fic because the lena/alex brotp is written so well!!! Basically lena and alex become really good friends bc they both deal with their issues by drinking obvs and kara thinks they are secretly dating and gets upset and im SO READY FOR THIS ANGST

Would You Catch Me If I Fall For You ('Cause I'm falling)

This is absolutely amazing and so captivating and I was honestly on edge the whole time kudos to the author!!!!! Kara goes back in time to warn lena about her dying on the venture and lena falls in love with her but she disappears and then when real kara and lena meet, kara doesn’t remember knowing lena and ughsalkdhsla its so good.

We Need a New Song

Oh my good golly gosh this fic ruined my life. Ballet au that has barely any ballet and an abundance of GAY and I had to take a moment after reading this to collect myself tbh

and stick it into someone else's heart

Rhea infected lenas boobs in a cage dress with some weird alien stuff and her and kara have to bang or THEY’LL DIE pretty much but they love each other

The Laws of Fate

soulmate au where everyone has a red string and lenas points to the sky and shes confused af but it’s a gay slow burn and the angst is good for ur soul

My Sun

Lena gets into a car accident and kara thinks she died but lex is a maniac and wants lenas help and fdjsaklfs it’s a rollercoaster let me tell you

Mercy on Me

lena falls under black mercy and in order to bring her back karas has to break her poor little gay heart bc lena thinks her and kara are in looooove AWWW heart shatters

Be your own Hero

Collection of supercorp one shots!!!!!! Quality content lemme tell yaaaa

pick a blossom and hold it to your breast (honey, you know that’s my love bursting loud from inside)

kara and lena rely on their late night phone calls with each other and get the feels and go on a date and they are just cute adorable dorks that are nervous

your voice is pretty, baby (but i’d rather have your pretty skin instead)

part 2 of pick a blossom ^^^ still adorably cute and a smut chapter I mean come on, treat yoself

Firsts

kara and lenas first told in the cutest wayyyyyyyy

Whispers

lena works with lillian to save supergirl and its oh so angsty and kara always believes her girl bc that’s canon

My personal Santa in heels

Kara loves Christmas almost as much as she loves lena, almost

Timer

Soulmate AU where everyone can have a device installed to tell them the time until they meet their soulmate, kara and lena love each other but kara cant have a timer installed obvs kryptonian skin and its so cute and soft and angsty

The Fatal Flaw

Super cool and different fic and keen to see more chapters from this!! Kara doesn’t have her powers (yet) and she meets lena at a party at college and then clark tells her shes actually an alien ooooo im keen

Stay the night

Lena inherits the national city womens basketball team and star player kara danvers is a muscly babe and they try not to fall in love BUT ITS JUST TOO HARD BECAUSE THEY ARE SOULMATES also I love jack in this such a wingman

1865

MATTTTTTTTEEEE lena is the daughter of the governor and shes a little rebel. She falls in love with kara but her family has arranged her marriage to monel BUT LIKE THEY JUST LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH btw they are aliens but like in 1865 so cool. Pls update I love this so much

All Our Bodies in the Grass - @seabiscuits-us

fuckkkkk this fic honestly, amish au and lena knows nothing but kara is down to help her out while also sharing lovely girl mags ;)

B.F.F.W.E.B

Kara and lena are friends with benefits but feels get involveddddd, lenas a useless lesbian

All the little lies

Kara comes to earth and falls in love with lena but she has to go back to krypton and breaks lenas heart in the process, but she comes back and its only been like 7 months but its been like 3 years for lena!!! (I cant remember exact dates don’t judge me)

half melted m&m's

lena needs a fake wife to stay in the country so kara is ever so helpful and agrees to be her wife, oh I do love a fake wife trope and this delivers!!!!

The Wrong Superhero

Lena gets saved by batwoman and supergirl thinks she is super jealous because of superhero-related reasons but shes just in love with lena

We'll Take on the World

College au, just useless fools in love that need to communicate and make out more

And they call me from beyond the stars

Omg I LOVE THIS FIC SO MUCH ok so kara is a ghost (still from krypton and stuff) but no one can see her except lena so lena works on trying to get her back into the physical plane of existence so she can find alex but they FIND LOVE WITH ONE ANOTHER oh my god so angsty let me tell ya be warned

Wait for me to come home

https://lostariels.tumblr.com/

idk where to even start on this fic honestly, im pretty sure most people have read this bc it’s a rite of passage but fuck it gets me everytime!!!! Army au and there is so much angst and I love it

An Unexpected Surprise

supercorp baby au!!! Kara and lena bang and kara ends up preggers. Iconic

Days in a Lifetime

Kara and lena grow up together, massive slowburn but worth the wait!!!!! ACTUALLY GO AND READ ALL OF STENS BECAUSE I JUST REALISED HOW MANY I PUT IN HERE AND THEY ARE ALL FUCKING GREAT

Do you wanna (like you know I do) - @seabiscuits-us

another seabiscuit, I couldn’t not put this in!!! CAPE COD and sharing of bunk beds!!! Pls update this my soul is withering away

Purple and Black are my Favorite Colours

Kara gets in contact with kryptonite that makes her gp! And her and lena b a n g

ONE SHOTS

danishes and other sweet treats

oh my fuck this is so cute and its like a long one shot so I mean get on it because kara and lena go to a conference and share a hotel room need I say more

Sun Kissed

Kara takes lena on a roadtrip to the science museum for her birthday and my good golly gosh its so cute I could ascend to heaven

Only Human

A one shot with two chapters in different POV but lenas jealous of monel and then supercorp bang and its all angsty and lena protects kara and tbh they need to communicate but happy endings and love all round

The Right Thing

Lena freaks out because lex knows her and supergirl are dating and does the most dramatic thing (of course) by distancing herself from kara and did I say angst???/ also I cried multiple times in this

funny how the stars crossed right

Kara and lena keep meeting at parties and have super dorky costumes and fall in love (literally love anything written by you btw, im going to go ahead and say I would have all yours bookmarked so everyone just check them ALL out)

Accidental Text

kara accidentally sends a love confession to lena and its short and cute!

Unspoken Promises

supergirl and reign battle and lena finds out about kara being supergirl and supercorp are just obliviously in love

Green (Kara loves it and hates it in equal measure)

Im a sucker for a jealous trope and boy does this deliverrrr. Karas hella jealous of lena having other friends but realises its because shes super in love with her

Crush

Karas jealous because lena is flirting with supergirl but lena knows kara is supergirl so shes actually flirting with kara, nice!

My Donuts

Karas really jealous of sam and lena spending heaps of time together and then kara walks in on them having donuts and she fucking loses it because its their thing duh.

when we get there

Lena invites kara to her beach house to chill and they obvs fall in love because they are cute af

Have a Break

Lena is determined to work out how to use a vending machine to get kara her candy and kara and winn are watching it all unfold via cameras in catco, basically lena vs. the machine (himym singing voice)

Self doubt and comforting talks

Drunk kara, comforting lena fluff and adorableness

Shopping carts and a beautiful girl

Kara crashes into lenas car in a shopping cart and they go on a date and its SO CUTE

Distractions

lenas oblivious to kara being supergirl even though kara slips up all the time!!! #nicehalloweencostumekara

Lip Bites & Long Gazes

lenas a big gay flirt and kara gets frustrated and flustered and calls her out and they make out

Off the Record

kara spots lena at a gay club and they dance and make out *lizzie mcguire voice this is what dreams are made of*

Not so secret

the superfriends take a weekend away and kara and lena bang pretty much smut but its cute

come be my lover, be my getaway car

How many amazing tropes can you fit into one fic (aka the fic that made me lose my fucking mind oh my god its so good, had it include)

A one time thing

Kara and lena end up banging in a motel and kara has an internal meltdown its great

This is Home

Listen here, this is the most adorable thing my two eyes have ever witnessed. Lena doesn’t really have a home kara the sweet soul she assists her in finding a home with her (aka its kara, kara is her home get it)

Her Biggest Fan

lena is apart of the supergirl fandom, aka shes me

Drunk Puppy

kara being a drunk gay mess wanting to hunt seashells with lena

Act Natural

kara and lena have hickies and try to hide them on a beach trip with the gang

Like a date, date

kara asks lena on a date and lena has a gay panic attack pretty much

Datable

everyone thinks kara and lena are dating so they just start dating? Amazing

Stop following me, creep

Please clarify

Lena tries to tell kara she loves her and wants to date but karas an alien and just doesn’t get it, so cuteeeee

Fate is Written in the Ink (part 1)

Fate is Written in the Ink (part 2)

Soulmate au!!!! Any ink on your skin appears on your soulmates and omg its so cute like kara draws all this art on herself and lena gets to see it too!!!!!

Muddle my heart (then add a dash of lime)

Kara keeps going to the bar because punk/bartender Lena is a babe and she has a big lesbian crush on her

be hopeful, don't get broken (stay caught up in the moment)

angsty dog au and I mean PUPPIEs and SUPERCORP need I say more?

The makings of a family

Clark is the one who arrives after being stuck in the phantom zone and kara has to look after him and lena helps her out and wow new baby for supercorp

Let Your Guard Down

Lena in a DEO uniform sparring with kara and its so angsty because lenas mad at kara for not telling her the supergirl secret and then they bang and did I already mention lena in a DEO uniform???

Do you not like the service here?

Thirsty kara and waitress lena, lenas jealous of alex l o l

here is where time is on our side (part 1)

our corner of the universe (part 2)

long oneshot but fuck me its so good. Post daxamite invasion/mon-el coming back and both are healing from everything and go on a roadtrip just wherever the map takes them and oh my fuck its so cute and everything u want in a fic. Part two is the follow up

The Uncanny Valley

cadmus replaces real lena with a robot version and kara didn’t know but then kara finds lena and its cute

put these battered bones to rest

soulmate au (you should know by now im a sucker for a good soulmate au), lena has a foreign name on her hip (its kara btw)

pain

another soulmate au hhehehe soulmates feel each others pain obvs both these babies have a lot of paiiiiiin in their lives

Love is Garbage

Literally a garbage truck au, im not even going to say more

i know you're out there somewhere waiting (i know the stars can hear us praying)

Whats this??? Another soulmate au!!! Classic lover one arm, enemy on the other, honestly lena deserves more and just waits for kara to love her and I love this fic, also they help sam!!

Monster in the Mirror

Supercorp reveal in the middle of the lena/edge poisoning children episode oooooooh so angsty but happy love ending

Safety

Supercorp first ever sleepover!!! This is so cute stop

Please Clarify

Lena tries to ask kara out in every single way possible and kara is an oblivious alien

love is a flower, you gotta let it grow

Unrequited love makes u grow flower petals in your lungs but when ur love is returned it clears up, this was dope and I love ur work

where our hands hurt from healing - @seabiscuits-us

its seabiscuit do I need to say more?????? I will tho. Alex and lena match on tinder and become besties and I live for alex/lena brotp so….

blessed be (the mystery of love) - @seabiscuits-us

*dj Khaled voice* ANOTHER ONE, look I love every single fic this one does not disappoint and nothing like a good light hearted first date fisting hahahahahaha

The Luthor and the Super That Saved the World

Fit it fic for the season three finale where there is more supercorp and less shit writing, LOVE STENS WORK

Kara Danvers and the Brown Belt of Lesbianism

Karas gay brown belt that she always wears that makes her look like a big ol lesbian drives lena mental bc she so gay

SIN

ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING BY JAZZFORDSHIRE IM NOT FUCKING JOKING LET YOURSELF FALL INTO THIS SMUTFEST AND LIVE UR BEST FUCKING LIFE AND IF YOU HAVENT READ THE CAMPING AU UR NOT EVEN A SUPERCORP STAN

Pleasure

like sweat dripping down our dirty laundry

What Happens in the K Room Doesn't Stay in the K Room

green-eyed monster

Kara shows Lena what makes her Super

Supergirl, Kara, and a Luthor walk into a bar...

Late Night Heroics

Good Vibrations

Two Lena Luthors and a blonde walk into a bedroom...

Her perfect match

Girls' Night

Happy Halloween, Supergirl

What She Wants

make the rules then break them

an animal within an animal

THE WILDEST THING IVE EVER READ, STRAP THE FUCK IN (youll understand my pun when you’ve read it)

#supercorp #supercorp masterlist #fic rec #kara danvers #lena luthor #supergirl #supercorp fanfic

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So there was an anxiety post I saw today that really resonated with me, and it got me thinking about one of the - I don’t want to say one of my worst moments in life so far, but a pretty shitty one? idk.

so basically I was first “diagnosed” with anxiety when I was 14 (and depression at 15). every report card I'd ever had from the ages of 4 to 14 all said the same things; she’s quiet, she’s shy, she needs to engage with her peers and class discussions, etc. all things that get plopped under the “shy kid” umbrella. it took a new student councillor to say “no she has anxiety” before anybody actually started to pay attention.

so I'm so fucking relieved to realise I'm not on my own. that its an actual thing that other people experience. I get admitted to a CAMHS facility, go to weekly appointments for almost 3 years and then get chucked out on my ass at 18. do I think they helped? well they got me out of school for half a day, which was really where my anxiety was worst, so yeah, kinda.

at 19 my mental health is fucking shit. I'm in a dark place and eventually my mum drags me to my gp to try and get me some new medication, or a therapist, or just something that might help.

so I sit in, on my own, with this guy. he’s going over my previous notes about anxiety and depression and self harm and the CAMHS facility. and he asks me what I'm hoping to get from him.

so I say, hopefully a higher dosage of medication, or something different?

(usually if I can get my anxiety under control, the depression kind of falls in line. its a cycle of depressed because I'm anxious and anxious because I'm depressed. )

he asks if theres anybody Im close to, that I can talk to when things are bad.

I say yeah kinda, my sister. but she’s also going through the same thing I am.

he asks how she deals with.

I say usually she just goes out with her friends and gets drunk.

you wanna know what this mf says to me?

“You should go out and get drunk with her.”

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Now, my family has a history of alcohol addiction. pretty much every member relies heavily on alcohol to drown out their depression and anxiety and paranoia. me? I don't drink, I don’t smoke, I don’t take drugs. I've never even taken a sip of alcohol, because I've been in some fucking horrible positions because of intoxicated people. it’s something I'll never do, because I KNOW I’ll end up like the rest of them and just fall back on alcohol when I'm feeling like shit.

so I've dragged myself out into the world, into this GP’s office despite the fact I'm a bundle of anxiety, I've had two panic attacks on the way over, another one in the waiting room, and I'm wearing dark jeans so the blood won’t show up if a cut opens. I've just told him I’m struggling immensely with my depression, that my anxiety has stolen all my friends and my very ability to step outside my door. and he’s basically just told me; you’re overreacting and it doesn’t matter.

I stg I left in tears. I fucking ran out of that office and I refused to go back to a doctors office for years. I stopped taking any medication because I needed to go in for a check-up or speak to someone over the phone to get it renewed, and I now had such bad anxiety over doctors and gp’s that I just fucking couldn’t. before, my mum could go in and get my prescription renewed, but they won’t fucking let her because it’s been six months and they need to speak to me directly. but I've been throwing up with the thought of a phonemail, and I haven’t even gone past my driveway in months.

it took fucking years, years of anxiety and depression and self-harm, fucking YEARS before it finally got to a point where my mum physically dragged me to a new gp and got me back on the medication.

to this day, I still feel like crying when I remember what he said to me. I felt so fucking shit after it, I spent days fucking crying and hurting myself because I thought - I don't even know, that he thought I was lying? I started to think, maybe I'm not actually that bad. maybe this is a normal way to feel. or maybe I'm so fucking far gone that theres no point in even trying to help.

those years off the medication, I lost so fucking much. I lost all my friends, I lost my job (which was really the only thing I could get out of bed for because I loved it), I lost a lot of family because I just became so distant and fucking angry at the world, it was the end of last year before I could even think about going into a supermarket - and even then, I could only go in with my mum and my sister and I spent so long panicking and completely out of my depth I couldn’t even get anything I went in for.

I'm almost 24 and yes I have a new job, and I enjoy it, but I'm completely trapped because of the years beforehand. so much of my life went unplanned because I didn’t think I'd make it to the end of the month. everyday I'm stuck in the same cycle, everyday I'm fucking fighting against my own head.

idk, I guess I just needed a rant. I don’t know if that doctor is still working, but I fucking hope he isn’t. if he can look a young girl in the eye after she’s told him she’s suicidal and fighting to breath through anxiety every day, and tell her all she needs is a night on the town with some people she doesn’t know, to get wasted to overcome a bone-deep stomach-churning fear, well... I don’t even know what I can fucking say to that.

I don’t know him, but I hate him with every broken part of me. his voice, his words, are still a fucking merry-go-round in my head every.damn.day. they’re there to fucking shout through any moment I feel happy or content, to fucking bite and slice me in my lowest times.

and I hope to god nobody else had to hear such demeaning words from him in their lowest points.

#about me #idk #ignore me #anxiety #I just needed a rant #god but I fucking hate him #tw/self harm #selfharm #depression #trigger warning #personal

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