#i'm dead and dying sorry

[quillium]

Two kinds of comments and replies on ao3:

1.

commentor: nice fic

author replying: Hello you have done me the greatest of services. The kindest of compassions hast been received from thine good hand. May you be blessed into the coming days, for you have blessed me and mine.

2.

commentor: This tore into my ribcage and you hold my still-beating heart in your hands. I loved the thematic strength of this story--the persistent symbolism within is everything, actually. Your characterization was so on point, I adored the specific choices you made to cement not only the dynamics and show the effect on others but also the further the plot in a logical manner--

author replying: lol thx <3

#JUST ME??? JUST ME??? #ao3 #fanfic comments #I'M SO SORRY ACTUALLY. REPLYING TO COMMENTS AND TRYING TO EXPRESS HOW GRATEFUL I AM FOR THE LOVE #like there is no way to properly express it actually because the love given to us will always feel greater than that received sometimes #i'm dead and dying sorry #trying my utmost to express that i know i've been given a lot and wish to give at least a little love or thanks back but it's. not happening #esp bc school is kicking my butt and i cannot reply to all these comments fr hbfjwiogsdjlk

[arthursfuckinghat]

Accidentally fell down a cliff and made him cry :(

#I'm sorry arthur :( #I saw a rock carving and wanted to investigate :( #the fact that you survived falling down the cliff is probably worse than just dying and respawning :( #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #arthur morgan #liveblogging

[natelia-aldelliz]

Guys imagine, Roach died, before the creation of 141, but Soap is able to see his ghost. He was originally following Ghost around, really annoyed that he was using his death as an excuse to not get close to anyone, but when he found out Soap could see him and talk to him he started following him around instead.

And they get really close, like two peas in a pod, except they have to be discreet about it because no one else can see or hear Roach, and they'd think Soap was crazy if they saw him talking to no one.

They use that for shenanigans too: Roach will go follow someone else and report back to Soap, Gaz is genuinely starting to believe Soap has superpowers or something. It's really useful on missions as well, and Soap managed to successfully rescue team members thanks to Roach being able to move through walls and everything.

(Roach is not the only ghost Soap is able to see btw, just the only one he's talking to.)

And then Roach is witnessing his past lover trying really hard to not fall in love with Soap, and Soap trying really hard to not do anything about the love he already feels, and he has to try and convince Soap that he is dead. During that conversation he finds out that something else that keeps Soap from doing something is that he feels very confused about everything because he also has feeling for Roach.

So now Roach has to try and convince him that even if he was still alive he wouldn't have a problem with that. He's known for a while that he was polyamorous, but he hadn't really dared talking to Ghost about that because he thinks he's jealous and possessive.

And Soap is like "oh yeah, you want me to go say to Ghost 'don't worry about your dead lover that I'm not supposed to know, he's actually polyamorous and also in love with me, I know because his ghost told me!' ??? I'm sure he's gonna take that well!"

But Roach is nothing if not resourceful and he manages to put Soap in situations where he's forced to interact with Ghost, and eventually they kiss and their relationship is beginning to be something. They're not really sure what.

And Roach is sad, because he has to watch the two men he loves being in love without him, yes, but at least they're both happy, and it makes him feel a bit better. And then during a mission Ghost almost dies.

Because he was alone and Soap and Gaz were together, Roach was following Ghost this time, ready to fly to Soap in an instant if there was any problems. But there was and he didn't have time, so he instinctively grabbed the gun being pointed towards Ghost's head and moved it as the person was shooting, saving Ghost's life, giving him enough time to shoot the enemy himself.

But even as the threat is eliminated, Ghost is still looking up from where he's on the ground, staring right through him, looking shocked. No, not right through him, he realises when he moves to the side and Ghost's eyes follow him. He also realises that he grabbed the gun. He's never grabbed anything before, in all his years of being a ghost.

Then suddenly Ghost's eyes move wildly around, and he figures he disappeared from his view. He can still go through the walls, but he's kept the ability to grab stuff when he wants. It gives him a ton of new possibilities, to fuck with people and, of course, to touch Soap.

"I wish you were actually alive," Soap whispers to him, holding his hands against his face as he's falling asleep.

"What the fuck," comes Ghost's voice the next morning, waking both of them up - wait, since when could Roach sleep?

Soap doesn't understand immediately, because he's always been able to see Roach. But Ghost is standing in the door, looking straight at dead past lover.

Turns out Soap is a necromancer and he had no idea, though the whole 'I can see dead people' should probably have told him sooner that he wasn't normal... The more he wishes Roach is alive, the more he actually is. And they all end up happy and together. And Gaz is very happy to have won the bet that Soap indeed has superpowers.

The day Roach says, in a wondering voice, "I... I think I'm hungry" is the day they understand that something is really happening and he's actually coming back to life.

(Also, Soap has no control at all on his abilities, he has no idea what does what and why, he knows nothing. No one knows.)

#cod mw2 #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #gary roach sanderson #soapghost #ghostsoap #roachsoap #ghostroach #ghostsoaproach #accidental necromancer soap and ghost roach au #this is not organised at all bc my head has been hurting for days and i feel like i'm dying (i'm being overly dramatic don't worry) #this came to me when i was watching megamind don't ask me why #anyway i can't even read that again bc the words make no sense to me when my head hurts so sorry if it actually makes no sense for real lol #omg imagine ghost being interrogated bc someone reported him for sleeping with soap and he goes 'do i sleep with my sergeant? #yes i do but i don't only sleep with one of my sergeants i actually sleep with two of them; one having been dead for 4 years' #and they go 'dead as in... pronounced dead but actually alive?' 'no no dead as in actually dead as in buried; dead dead' #'so you *were* sleeping with him in the past?' 'no i am currently sleeping with him. with both of them.' #and then price has to gaslight sooo hard to make it all right they're literally taking years off his lifespan #and when he complains they giggle at him saying that it's alright bc soap will bring him back anyway if he dies for their sins

[phatcatphergus]

I still can't get over the fact that Tubbo was completely alone aside from two Fed workers at the funeral of the only person he felt returned his love and then spent the days after being berated and insulted over his feelings all while keeping a smile on his face

#phil didnt even think he was serious when he said fred was dead #its not even lighthearted teasing it was to purposefully hurt him #im literally sick thinking aout it #the first time anyone even cared to say I'm sorry was days after when fit found out tubbo wasn't joking about free dying #qsmp tubbo #tubbo #qsmp #qsmp fred #frubbo

[thronealigned]

iomedae girl i think you're inheriting the wrong things. girl i think there's a cycle

#also something about how iomedae was originally a paladin of arazni and galfrey was originally a paladin of aroden #and the hand of the inheritor was originally a servant of ragathiel #i've gotta get my hands on the original wotr adventure path books at some point #because the wiki does Not elaborate much on the circumstances of ttrpg-galfrey becoming iomedae's new herald #it just says she does it #nor does it elaborate on what happened to inheribro either #inheribro is a nickname i picked up from reddit. sorry #i'm assuming though it's the same as in the crpg- he's a miniboss and then either dies or is healed but doesnt return to his station #(unless youre on the angel path in which you Do convince him to keep being iomedae's herald) #well i mean it's in past tense i guess that's clear enough #anyway idk where i'm going with this. just a thought i had.. endless stream of servants replacing each other #my bet's on iomedae dying in the godsrain stuff btw this is mostly why. if i were writing it i couldnt resist #especially with arazni being the new addition to the core 20!!!! not that she'll be directly replacing the dead god like iomedae did aroden #but still. you understand you see the vision. i'll be sad though not getting to see what arazni & iomedae's dynamic as both full gods would #be.... not especially attached to any guess though i'm not suuuuper invested in pf2e #or pf1e/the actual ttrpg in general. on account of not being a ttrpg player (as much as i would like to be) #i just read the wiki & archives of nethys & the paizoblog stories #anyway goodnight for real #sorry the image formatting sucks btw

[moon9931]

i am so weird

ya see- I have this really weird voice HC for Pepperman, and it makes no sense and I'm so so so so so so so so sorry

in my head Pepperman sounds like the voices of these two combined

I CAN'T EXPLAIN IT. 😭💀

#HHHHHHHHOW DO I EXPLAIN IT #I'M DYING #I'M DYINGGGGG #I'M DEAD #⚰ #pepperman #i am so sorry #pizza tower #smth wrong with me #but you probably already knew that.

[captainsparklefingers]

I really hope at some point down the road in The Legend of Vox Machina, the whole story of the Matron is touched upon a little bit more. How she was mortal, how she ascended and took down the previous god of death and erased her old name and his from history.

I mean if we're gonna get to the Whispered One it'll need to happen anyway, but...

But I just want that scene. Her and Vax, in her domain, the threads of fate, everything tinted red...and she takes off the mask to reveal the sad, lonely, powerful woman underneath. I just really want to see that.

It's Vax, seeing what his future is going to be. The lonely Champion of Ravens, god of the dead and the passage of souls, once mortal, forever changed and detached from the life they knew and the ones they loved.

#the matron of ravens #vax'ildan #the champion of ravens #critical role #the legend of vox machina #tlovm spoilers #you can pry death god vax from my cold dead hands I'm not sorry #tal'dorei reborn basically confirmed his demigod status and I am rolling with that #the raven queen #the raven queen is the god of death in that she's the moment of dying #Vax is the passage of souls from one realm to the next #(and back if your resurrection spell is compelling enough) #he's the ferryman #the champion who fights the undead #and he's arguably a god of thieves (for the obvious reasons but also when he guides you to the beyond he 'steals' you from the living) #(and his life was stolen) #god I need to see that scene so bad #I need the validation for my thoughts and feelings

[marielle-heller]

Ash vs Evil Dead: 3x01 // 3x07

#ash vs evil dead #ash williams #bruce campbell #brandy barr #arielle carver-o'neill #pablo simon bolivar #ray santiago #my gifs #my edit #blood tw #ya know i've had to remake gifs from previous sets like a billion times to serve a new set concept #but i've never just reused cause that feels like cheating #i am cheating today i'm so sorry </3 #anyway candace dying because of something aimed at brandy #vs brandy dying because of something aimed at ash #it's poetic she simply can't lose another parent i love her <3

[awildtrashcan]

Everyone thinks ED1 Ash is just a wimp, but consider the following

#blood tw #evil dead #ash williams #my art #I really like him ok #don't ask why I gravitate toward the first movie so much #I just think he's neat #the other movies Ash kills demons and cracks one liners #my guy here kills demons while basically dissociating #relatable #saw a while back someone say that ED1 Ash didn't react to his friends dying and in my head I was like ??? #what do you expect he's actively being attacked by demons he's kinda busy #part of it's also his reaction here is to freeze up in terror instead of straight up screaming like in ED2 #and even then he's still screaming in the first movie #and if you really want to get into it there's a deleted scene where he starts crying in frustration #after Scotty ditches him and deadite Cheryl taunts him for being useless to save them #so the intent was there #sorry for going off in the tags over something inconsequential again but I have thoughts and I've already written this much I'm not deleting

[seaofashes]

When the run is going a little too beautifully and then almost everyone dies the last two chapters

#there was no recovering this run after Dylan and Kaitlyn died and then i got distracted when i needed to shoot Silas #Jacob and Nick are the only two alive (Caleb is as well. but playables Jacob and Nick made it) #Dylan I'm so sorry 😔 I tried so hard but I knew as soon as Kaitlyn went down i made the wrong choice #I'm playing the quarry btw #first run was not bad i lost two people #but THIS run!? i discovered i could save Dylan's hand entirely but at what cost #like a lot of good that did him when he's freaking DEAD NOW I'm sobbing in the corner #Ryan i cannot apologize any harder to you 😔 bro should have been chilling listening to his podcast #not dying in the middle of the woods bc I was distracted and didn't shoot Silas #tragic actually #I'm surprised Jacob made it though he died my first run #okay silly little game rambles done #for now #nyx talks #nyx talks : games #the quarry

[pangolin-404]

I wonder how v1 will die

I wonder how it will be framed. Will it kill the last thing, watch Gabriel's life leave him, and will we go through a level empty of blood? Will it starve? Controls slowed, until it goes unresponsive, having finally exhausted hell's fuel?

Will it freeze to death? I've seen a couple others explore this, it freezing alone or after battle in the ninth layer of hell. Will it never slaughter all, left walking across a frozen lake, frost creeping along its frame? Will it die cold and alone or will Gabriel witness it? Will we see Gabriel die or will he, too, go unseen and unmourned?

#thoughts #ultrakill #ultrakill posting #v1 #ok hold on . holdon I'm thinking #godd I can't wait to see the rest of the layers #because. it's going to die I think #even if there are souls left. like the ones in the ocean styx. I think it will die at the end. and gabriel is DEFINITELY dying #the real question is in what fashion and setting #Given how V2 was turned into a fine red mist with no theatrics I wonder who else might go out without any fanfare #they're there and then they're dead #the kind of irony you read in bible stories <- sorry. soryr. that's for future me

[comforting-home]

coming back from my hiatus (mental health break) and preparing my new rp blog

hey bitches guess who got back in school and is now coming back to tumblr

that's right it's me bitches

@gorefieldsworld @hoshi-neko-hikari @the-plushie-friendships and others who follow me ACK

#I might start writing on my tumblr blog too it' sbeen dead I'm so sorry HAHAHA- #SORRY FOR DYING FRFR

[cassmouse]

Getting an absolutely perfect two minutes of playing a piano piece on a recording and then fucking it up so royally that you have to scrap the whole recording

#fucking hate piano sometimes #all this work and what did it get me... #CLASSICAL TOO because I now have to formally apologise to chopin #(sorry chopin my dude) #(not my fault your style is so weird) #I mean how do you get the piece to MEAN SOMETHING when you keep fucking it uppp #and don't even get me started on emotional playing how the fuck do people manage that properly throughout #I cannot #am I just really emotionally immature or what #playing with emotion is hard as hell #and worse because that's not something someone can teach you yk?? #I got to a point in piano lessons where my teacher stopped giving me specific notes and just started like #telling me to play it with specific technique?? #or with more emotion?? #HOW?? #I'm kinda getting there lmao #considering I'm playing the piece chopin literally composed for his dead/dying wife it shouldn't be hard but it is lmao #cass thinks ab stuff

[boxwinebaddie]

bebe is sooo super graphic ultra modern girl by chappell roan

Anonymous asked: YOU GIVE ME SUPER GRAPHIC ULTRA MODERN GIRL VIBES TOO LOWKEYJFKDKD

me x bebe x being super graphic ultra modern girls!!!!

PLEASE!!!!!!! this is the Highest compliment!!!! i love when people tell me what music they think i sound like/what songs -- i literally died and went to heaven when that one anon told me they think i sound like a mazzy star/cure mashup & i think abt it Every! Damn! Day! <333

and, to be hooonest: i feel like a lot of people want to be like bebe stevens...but i do actually think i'm /extremely/ Bebe Stevens Coded. like she is me, i am her. we swap goss in the juicy tracksuits, drink cute pink whitney lemonades, trash talk our exs and on weird nights, kiss.

but most specifically i think i am a bebe stevens sun bc i present like an extremely extroverted 2cool4u slay olay girl boss whos constantly doing hot girl shit ( i feel like i can also be read as kenny in a main five context tbh bc i'm freak nasty fuccboi gutter trash ) a true blue stan moon bc i'm actually a pathetic sad girl failure w/ bad punk rock self destructive tendencies who uses the bisexual finger guns as a coping mechanism waaay too often and a kyle rising, tbh, bc i am fucking neurotic, introverted, kind of a haunted narrator and what’s more?

A Hater...through and through, darling. <3 :*

-uncle nina, super graphic ultra modern girl ;)

#AAAAAAAAAAAA #I SCREAMED WHEN I TELL YOU I SCREAMED #i feel like i am a top 100 pop song that sounds cute and flashy #but the lyrics are actually sad and the singing is unhinged #and im main5 kenny bc bebe and kenny are rlly the same ppl in my personal opinion bebe is just more girly pop like me #i am definitely a kenny girl that causes a lot of problems dies every day but cant stay dead and enjoys watching chaos unfold #also loves hot moms bad bitches marjaritas living fast dying young going crazy stupid and being a secret eldritch horror tbh #but for the most part i am a bebe/kenny sun #a stan moon like...very heavily #and am a kyle rising bc i'm introspective and pissed and rlly do have all the makings to be moderately evil and unhinged #i'm also a little pretentious and v *mar-nina and the diamonds vc* feel like i'm the worst so i always act like i'm the best #does this make sense #it makes sense to me #a y2k princess chaotic bi disaster slay olay v sad writer girl #a haunted final girl narrator and an cute but insane anti hero #with several mental illnesses that i call my hot girl accessories #it does depend on the day tho bc sometimes i am serving girly girly pop <3 & sometimes i'm a backwards snapback frat boy ;) #the duality of woman #i am a secret fuccboi i am afriad #so sorry to every body #kenny nation khslkahd #also fun fact i took my most recent id pictures in the gigantic false lashes hoop earrings and the pink juicy tracksuit <3

[drschnauzer]

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#I'm sorry #I'm so sorry #I'm sorry I can't save all of you right now #it will be years before I have the qualifications to actually save anyone #I'll try my best to get through it as soon as possible but it breaks my heart how many kids are dying or dead #because of sins commited by adults #that are supposed to be protecting them #I promise I will be there one day #and I'm sorry that it's not gonna be today #it makes me tremble and teary to think that we brought these children to a world and they cannot survive in #let alone live

[nightwhight]

Sam wants to order.

(I'm late to this meme but idc anymore lmao)

#my doodles #MGRR #Metal Gear Rising Revengeance #mgr raiden #jetstream sam #samuraiden #blade wolf #he wants to order #meme #I'm sorry this picture is so small first time I've done art remotely digital #wish I could fix it but took over a week to do #the meme is probably dying or dead by now lol