#i'm not even upset i'm just tired :(

[razzek]

One thing that's starting to really get to me with the James Somerton stuff is a real strong undercurrent of disdain toward his fans. And yeah, I was one of them. A good scam artist isn't as easy to spot as y'all seem to think. You forget that you have all the information right now. Two days ago most of you had never heard of him and it would have kept going. Anyone can fall for a scam, nobody is immune. I would love to have had whatever resources you guys think we all should magically know about so I could have kept my sad $5 a month I really needed but thought was going to something worthwhile. Some of us can only devote so much energy into things and when you have no idea whatsoever that something is amiss of course you're not going to go digging for sources, why would you when everything is fine as far as you know? I really wish I could have seen the dissenting opinions on him but for many, many reasons that aren't just that the dissenting voices weren't widely circulating at the time all I had was the thought every now and again that "huh that doesn't seem right" and then go on with my day. And I think that happened to a lot of us. So yeah. Say what you gotta say about Somerton, he has more than earned it with the damage he's caused, but maybe don't shit so hard on his former fans because that is going to be you someday with something, it happens to everyone sooner or later.

#james somerton #hbomberguy #todd in the shadows #I really am greatful for Harris and Todd's hard work in exposing all of this #and I am glad I get to see the real voices I did like that james was stealing #I'm just tired of all these people jumping on the drama train taking a dump on folks who are also victims of these crimes #razz rambles #this whole situation is upsetting me in the weirdest ways #I'm distraught but I'm not at the same time #and yet it's 6am and I can't stop reading through the tags and seeing the takes I missed #vaspider's essay and remarks from an AIDS pandemic survivor are especially good #I lived through that shit too but had no idea I was living through it #cuz that's what being blind and impoverished in rural community was like #queer wasn't even something I knew I could be until like 2010 #so it's nice to see my own history #it's not just the young queers who have little to no knowledge of our history

[flyingcakeee]

Can't even be on TikTok..

Again, let's look at the full picture of how it was a chain reaction that was bound to happen when everyone bunches up like that when you should've taken the corner as you previously did under the safety car so Lance has some fault but it's literally not entirely his and yeah..

Also, Lance locked up because he desperately tried to brake so he did use his brake ^^ His tyres weren't allowing him to brake because of the lockup ^^

#I'm so tired guys. #you can literally see on Lance's onboard that someone ahead locked up (Fernando) and that before that they started to accelerate a little #they could've taken the corner at that speed and they speed they slowed to was extremely slow even for that hairpin #oh yeah did you also know that Lance was mad at whoever caused the chain reaction and not Daniel? and that's why he was upset over the pen? #also reportedly Laurent Mekies told Daniel that Lance was blaming him when Lance never mentioned his name #and it is super fucking easy to imply that Lance was upset over who caused the mass brake check #and Daniel almost couldn't stop himself and rear ended Piastri #please I fucking beg that you all pay attention to the entire picture and not just the big incident because you get so much more info 🤗 #lance stroll #f1 #formula 1

[dollypopup]

the more I think about it and rewatch his scenes, the more I cannot help but realize that Colin is coded as a neurodivergent character. At least, I can very clearly see how Luke Newton, a neurodivergent actor, is playing Colin as a neurodivergent character

a special interest in Greek mythology? in traveling? neurodivergent

taking people's word at face value without 'reading between the lines'? neurodivergent

not being able to read Penelope's feelings regardless of how 'obvious' they are? neurodivergent

brain constantly bouncing around from one idea to the next (as in the books)? neurodivergent

not saying the 'right thing' and admitting to having to rehearse important conversations? neurodivergent

all that rejection sensitivity and regret he had well over a year after his engagement blew up? neurodivergent

masking in public? the whole 'charming facade'? neurodivergent

the man straight up STIMS, I mean how often do we see him fidgeting or playing with something? he has an oral fixation like no one's business, always eating, rubbing his mouth, licking his lips

I just can't unsee it

and, one day, i hope our fandom is going to be ready to recognize how many of the things we've unjustly called him an 'idiot' or 'stupid' for is actually just him existing with a neurodivergent brain and how hurtful that can come across to us neurodivergent peeps who identify with him

#colin bridgerton #polin #bridgerton #luke newton himself has ADHD like i'd eat my HAT if he's not playing colin as ND #sure maybe colin doesn't have the words for that in the time period he's in. . .but nd folks have always existed #even when the language for us doesn't #hell. . .even his reaction in S2 when no one is interested in hearing about his travels #TELL ME THAT'S NOT AN ND RESPONSE??? how many of us have infodumped about our special interest #and had no one listen to us? it really does hurt!!! it discourages!!! and we get upset about it just like he did!!! #we stop talking about it *just like he did* #we dismiss it- JUST! LIKE! HE DID!!!! #anyway 'colin bridgerton is an idiot' is my villain origin story #we're leaving that shit in 2023 #colin bridgerton is a chaotic little gremlin is SO much better of a trope #also also cause it's just on my (neurodivergent) brain. #a lot of the polin shippers who have been made to feel unwelcome in polin tend to be colin fans. . .and a lot of us are nd #inch resting #colin is a neurodivergent character #he is my baby boy #and i'm tired of the ableism #and even if he ISN'T explicitly ND- a lot of the behaviors we call him stupid for. . .are relatable to many ND people #and seeing the reaction be a blind 'he's so dumb' is really sad #we're not stupid- our brains just work and process differently #that's all

[canisalbus]

What do you think would have happened if (somehow, idk how but somehow) Machete rose to the rank of pope?

To be perfectly honest? I think most realistically he would've ruled maybe six months at best and then keeled over from stress and exhaustion.

#seriously he wouldn't want to be the pope papacy is for chumps but if he had to #he would've kicked out so many cardinals #his former colleagues riddled with corruption nepotism incompetence and moral decay #it would've upsetted so many elite families but what are they gonna do #pope's power is absolute he could totally do that #just excommunicate the whole lot #do something to get Holy See's finances in order he's been crunching numbers they aren't looking good #build sturdier foreign relations probably he's a diplomat I think he'd likely be extremely done with superfluous wars and useless bickering #maybe commission some extravagant artworks art is nice he knows to appreciate beauty when he sees it #become the senselessly rich patron to a handful of top notch artists although I think he already does that in canon timeline #I'm not sure how he'd handle the ongoing counter-reformation I guess it depends whether this was before or after the inquisition times #minimal public appearances because lord that's way too many people too many eyes being a figurehead is not his strongest suit #develop stomach ulcers get sepsis #historically it's actually not very uncommon for popes to expire relatively quickly after they're elected #they don't even have to be particularly old stuff's just tiring they get frazzled out #answered #anonymous #Machete

[antianakin]

I'll never understand how some fans are so incredibly willing to just be okay with "it happened in a timeskip" to excuse bad writing lol. Like "oh yeah these two characters who have been enemies for like four seasons of a TV show had their entire reconciliation OFF SCREEN in the time skip between episodes right at the end so it works" or "oh yeah this character who was left basically broken had their entire growth and development where they came to terms with the thing that broke them in the time skip so it works" kind of stuff. Like that's literally the ENTIRE emotional climax of a story that's been building for a while and you're FINE with not getting to actually SEE IT???

Can't relate.

#fandom wank #i'm so so tired of people telling me 'well it happened in the timeskip' when i get annoyed about something #like a character doing a personality 180 #or a character suddenly changing their mind about something that was really important to them #or literal wholeass character development that's integral to this character's story #there are some things that can happen in a timeskip and some shit that CANNOT #like imagine if luke had NEVER confronted yoda or obi-wan about keeping the truth of his parentage from him #like we come into rotj and they're just fine and it's never addressed #like luke's just never mad and they never even have a convo about it #imagine how unsatisfying it would feel to have had that massive bombshell dropped without any real payoff to it #imagine never actually getting to see luke work through that particular revelation or how it impacts these relationships #and they were just like 'well it happened in-between movies' #it would SUCK #you NEED those convos in order to actually understand how luke fully comes to accept the truth about anakin #because even if he's calmer by rotj he's still upset by it a bit #only by TALKING to yoda and obi-wan does he actually get to the point where he has total faith in anakin's goodness #we HAVE to see that he's still frustrated about this and still working thru it #we cannot fucking skip it #i'm willing to accept that he's calmer about it due to the timeskip but not that he's already worked thru it all #there's a fucking difference

[wwheeljack]

I genuinely remain confounded by the two sides to the Tech debate in this fandom. I've seen so many people on the Tech Lives side proclaim that they will be attacked, or insulted or made fun of for their ideas, all while they argue that those who see Tech as dead do so only because they want him dead since he's "autistic".

I've seen people on the Tech is Dead side go out of their way to comment unnecessarily on people who want him back with their beliefs on his death. This is unnecessary, just as it is unnecessary for those who believe or want Tech alive to make assumptions about those who believe the opposite.

That multiple people believe that is why someone may believe he's dead is confounding. The idea that Tech may be dead is not predicated on a hatred for autistic people, or autistic like characters. It isn't malicious for people to either want him alive, or to have accepted his death.

Frankly, it is tiring how the main focus of Tech's entire being since season two is that he died, and he's potentially autistic (The Crossing included, he never has been outright confirmed as such). He is so much more than that, and deserves to have people focus on him aside from just his death.

Curate your fandom experience by muting words or tags that may upset you.

#As a fan of Tech (which should be clear if anyone's read my fics) I'm so tired of this being the sole topic for Tech #It wasn't malicious intent to have him die just because he could be autistic #People aren't out here yearning for his death just because he's potentially autistic #Be polite to people on either side #Do not interact with one side if it upsets you into believing ideas about that side without actual communication with that side #Tech stans have become very tiring #I miss him of course but the way his fans have reacted and treated people within the fandom since season two has made it tiring to engage #Then that does not even include all the drama from both sides of the ship he's potentially part of #It's all turned very exhausting even when I've muted all terms related to this entire discussion #If the fans could think of more than just his death so often that would be nice

[romanticatheartt]

I just want to say, bringing down another character/ship to praise your favorite one, doesn't make me agreeing with you, it makes me hate the favorite character/ship of yours and despise your childish personality... just saying :)

#Like you're so upset that the other character/ship is so popular and well loved (for a reason btw) #And you can't even bear to see it #So you bring that character/ship down to bold another one? #And expect me nodding my head and agree with you? #and it's literally a lie... #just want you to know real people sympathies with these characters and it's written from irl people so your shaming them #but your brain is so tiny you can even understand #I'm literally talking about all the characters/ships in this fkn fandom #And it doesn't help the fact that more than half of this fandom is +30 years old #shame on all of you #rhysand #lucien vanserra #nesta archeron #These three supposed “fans” are tiring me #Specially Nesta and Lucien #You're not helping me to like these character #You're making me hate them #And Rhysand's tag is all full of hating Nesta #Just stop #Before joining the fandom I loved all the characters #But now... #This fandom is so fkn rotten #It's disgusting #fandom fuckery #fandom bs #anti acotar fandom #And idk why tumblr thinks I enjoy these kind of posts #Like I don't want to filter Lucien's tag!!

[angel-of-sweet-revenge]

When your friend needs you to be there to comfort them, but you have no energy for serious conversations and so you're stuck wondering if youre being a selfish asshole or if youre justified in not wanting to be the one to sort their problems out

#vent #its not like they didnt offer to hear my problems. but i just dont want to talk about. or anything #i dont want serious conversations. i dont want to have to worry about other people. i just cant. #im just so fucking exhausted and i dont know if its talking to them and feeling drained by the fact that theyre going through something- #-and that i need to be the therapist or if im just sick. again. #plus yesterday i slept late. my mum made me cry (i think she was just tired out by that point in the day so i doubt it was personal) #and just #im fucking tired ok #and I'm sorry im a bad friend #i just dont have energy. i want to have good energy around me to try give me some. #but when theyre upset it gets into me and drains me and I've been there as much as i can but i just cant right now. im too tired #i know im a shitty person but literally everyone got to be a shitty person at my expense so isnt it my fucking turn? #and then assuming i was acting like that to hurt them. I DO NOT WANT TO HURT ANYONE. IF WE HAVE A FIGHT I WANT TO MOVE ON. #I'm not gonna be caught up in it if we resolved it #but yeah. long story short they're going through shit and i feel like shit #and i think them going through shit is what makes me feel like shit. because i worry about them #and they can lash out on me #i just dont know anymore. i dont know if im an awful person or not #last year i broke up with a friend and my mum said I'll do the same with the next friend #it wasnt my fault #that friend ghosted me #im trying not to be her rn too and im scared that ive been in the wrong im scared im a shitty person too #but at the same time im too done to even really care #i just wanna stop fucking feeling all this and just get on with my day

[babygirltangerine]

Tangerine is one of the two deuteragonists (along with Lemon) of the 2022 action comedy film Bullet Train, based on Kōtarō Isaka's 2010 dark comedic thriller novel Maria Beetle.

He and his brother Lemon are a famous assassin duo called The Twins. By the time of the film, Tangerine and Lemon are hired by the White Death to escort his son and his briefcase to him on a bullet train.

He was portrayed by Aaron Taylor-Johnson, who also played William Rollins in Chatroom, Quicksilver in Avengers: Age of Ultron and Ray Marcus in Nocturnal Animals. As a child, he was portrayed by Miles Marz.

History

In the past, Tangerine and his brother Lemon completed a job in Bolivia and kill an entire camp of guerillas. Unbeknownst to them, the guerillas were men of the White Death, causing him to travel to Bolivia and leave his wife's side. After the wife is murdered in an assassination attempt, the White Death hires Lemon and Tangerine for a mission on a bullet train in the hopes that they are killed by other assassins he hired.

Lemon and Tangerine are first seen on board of the bullet train in a compartment with the White Death's son. They banter for a short while until getting a call from one of the White Death's goons telling them to make sure the briefcase is still in their possession. Lemon tells Tangerine that he safely stashed the briefcase but upon checking the place where it should be, they realise it has been stolen. When they return to their seats the White Death's son has been poisoned and killed by an assassin named The Hornet.

Soon after they arrive at a train station, where goons sent by the White Death are waiting. Tangerine tells them that everything is under control outside, while Lemon puppeteers the son's corpse inside the train. The goons believe them and Tangerine returns inside.

After that the pair comes up with a plan to retrieve the briefcase from the thief. Tangerine finds another assassin called Ladybug on the train. He realizes that Ladybug stole the briefcase and chases him down the train. The chase ends, however, when Ladybug pays another passenger to wear his hat and glasses and uses firecrackers in a train car to distract Tangerine. Upon returning to his original seat, Tangerine finds an unconscious Lemon, who has been knocked out by Ladybug and wakes him up. They both come up with a new plan to catch Ladybug and head off into different directions.

After tracking Lemon's phone that Ladybug stole Tangerine finds his thief hiding inside a toilet. They both get into a fight across the train that ends with Tangerine being about stab Ladybug in the eyes with chopsticks. Their fight is interrupted by another call from one of the White Death's goons. He demands that both Tangerine and Lemon are present in the meeting at the next train station. Ladybug offers to step in for Lemon as they don't know what he looks like and Tangerine accepts. Ladybug wants to get the briefcase for the meeting but realizes it has been stolen by the Prince and Kimura.

They decide to take a fake briefcase and the meeting goes well until Ladybug accidentally opens it and reveals the clothes inside. They escape back to the train and try to come up with back-up plan until Ladybug pushes Tangerine out the train at the next station just as the doors are about to close. Tangerine jumps back onto the train and breaks through a window to get back inside.

Not long after Tangerine finds the unconscious body of Lemon, who he assumes is dead due to the shots in his chest, inflicted by The Prince. He gets a call from the White Death, who announces that he's going to kill everyone on the train to which a depressed Tangerine expressses indifference. He searches the train for the alleged killer and runs into Prince, who attempts to convince him that Ladybug killed Lemon. Tangerine sees through her deception due to finding train stickers that Lemon stuck on her. Before Tangerine can shoot the Prince, Ladybug enters and the Prince pretends that she is an innocent girl that Tangerine is attacking, and Ladybug fights Tangerine to defend her. In their fight, Tangerine accidentally shoots himself in the throat and bleeds to death on the floor. His corpse likely remained in the wagons and was presumably damaged when the bullet train gets wrecked at the end.

Trivia

Unintentionally, Aaron-Taylor Johnson's performance as Tangerine was decisive in his casting as Kraven the Hunter in his upcoming eponymous film, as the Sony Pictures executives quickly cast him in that role due to being "blown away" by early Bullet Train footage of him as Tangerine.

Aaron-Taylor Johnson was cast as Tangerine due to David Leitch's desire to work with him. Leitch had previously offered Johnson a role in Deadpool 2, but he declined the unknown role.

The fruit truck Lemon uses towards the end of the film to run over the Prince is one filled of tangerines. This was evidently done as a reference to Tangerine, symbolizing that even from beyond the grave, he still assisted his brother in carrying out a pivotal assassination.

Tangerine's actor: Aaron Taylor Johnson had starred in the Monsterverse along with Lemon's actor: Brian Tyree Henry.

#negativity in the tag? spam with tangerine villains wiki text #seriously seriously seriously. being upset at a microfandom for a lack of diversity is insane especially when this nitpicking is coming from #people who dont even participate #the hypocrisy stinks. but keep making demands while you do nothing to make this a better environment for yourself #it just makes me want to post about tangerine more. sorry you hate fun for real #i'm going to start blocking #as i recommend everyone else who's tired of a certain type of content should do as well #bullet train #tangerine

[marimogf-archived]

i need some of you to log off and go outside if you think that calling people slurs is an appropriate response to your fave (who has a history of speaking over black people and dismissing their experiences) being called out.

please look really hard into the mirror because you're proving the fucking point. you're not defending anyone by calling other people slurs and insulting them, you're just fucking racist. your fave won't give you a cookie just because you're sucking their dick online.

it's fucking tumblr. get a grip.

#i'm so tired of seeing my mutuals being called the nword constantly #they're right when they see y'all don't deserve black writers #and it's so upsetting because you're just exposing YOURSELF as being racist just bc someone 'attacked' your fave #and then you don't even have the guts to show your url like #if you wanna be racist say it with your chest #and honestly if you don't like a person on your dash? just block and move on there's never a need for all this #idc if i get hate anons atp this blog is a wasteland as it is #˚₊‧꒰ into the void ꒱ ‧₊˚

[arsonist-chicken]

Can I get a neurotypical brain? Can I PLEASE get a neurotypical brain?

#i have. three papers. two due monday and one tuesday. #i have only just now started on the most urgent one #i originally planned to take the 2h train ride to uni and deliver it there but. i think i'll just take it to the post office tomorrow for #express delivery and call it a day and have it be there a day late. she's nice anyway. #and ask a colleague there to print out and deliver the other one on tuesday and buy her a bunch of chocolate #but i want to cry. i've had weeks and months to do this shit so naturally. i didn't do shit. #the paper now is about my future as a translator/job future and it makes me want to cry #and i need so much and it's past midnight and i'm so tired but it needs to be at the post office before noon #okay i'll not start rambling now about my shite job perspectives and depression and non-functioning brain #but i am going to put in a lil paragraph about how i'd like to be self-employed maybe but never will actually do that cause yk. #untreated adhd. i'd be bankrupt before I'd even start #okay I'll get something for my headache and then I'll get back to it #okay bye good night whatever bye bye #mine #upset vent noises #don't mind me sometimes you just need to vent a lil because you're tired and overwhelmed and depressed #and for the paper due tuesday idek wtf that shit is about #i someone has tips or advice please lmk

[running-in-the-dark]

just now realising that it's kinda weird that every damn thing I did as a kid, even accidentally, still gets dragged out all the time as proof of how mean and bossy I was.

meanwhile one of my brothers stabbed my other brother with a screwdriver and it's just so funny. one of them jumped on my back when we were fighting and hurt me so bad that I couldn't get up for an hour (and I got yelled at). one of them broke someone else's property on purpose and it's just a funny anecdote about how he and his friend had to pay for the damage. they stole cash and very expensive alcohol, so funny and cute. they got drunk all the time and started smoking at 12.

which is all fine. people do stupid things as kids. but it sucks that I'm always the difficult one, the one that causes trouble, the mean one. the worst thing I ever did was drop out of school because I was too terrified and depressed to keep going. this is somehow proof that I was such a difficult child to raise, so hard to be around. not that my parents completely failed me in every way, or anything like that.

my brother attacked me this year. but that's totally excusable because surely he had his reasons (yeah, I disagreed with him and wouldn't back down. great.) and I probably just misunderstood (how?!) and anyway it wasn't really that bad. he yelled at me for daring to disagree with him, insulted me and then grabbed me when I told him to get out. but he's just having a hard time and can't express his feelings well and can't I just forgive him?

but I'm bad for things I did when I was 15 or 10 or 5 or literally a baby. I'm bad for things that never happened. I'm bad for things that other people did. I'm just bad.

#yes I am still bitter about this stuff #I wouldn't be. but they keep bringing it up #I'm so tired of not being able to do anything right #I've been so nice and patient and always friendly for literally. 10 years. a third of my life. I try so hard to not upset them or do #anything wrong #but my mother still says my brothers are scared of me #and uses things against me that I did in primary school #ugh #anyway #I'm having a hard time and keep thinking about this today #I'm just so tired of it #I can't even defend myself #because that gets turned into you can't take a joke and we're just joking around and why are you so angry #I raise my voice slightly to be fucking HEARD and I'm hysterical #my brother screams at me and he's just not good at talking about his feelings #it all feels so unfair #it doesn't matter what I do or who I am. I've been the bad one since my brother was born and I'm so tired #personal

[advisorsage]

I honestly can't remember the last time I wasn't nauseous. Was it five days ago? Seven? Who knows. Certainly not me.

#this is about the persistant stomach bug I've had since i got food poisoning on the 17th #I'm just. so damn tired of feeling like my stomach is going to crawl out my throat #I've thrown up more times in the past week than i have in the past ten years and I'm really upset about it #not to mention the pain that's happening #and I'm just supposed to carry on with my life! #I've had to talk to my work because i can't do the shifts i usually do and ask i seem capable of is fucking sleeping #OR #doing classwork #the only reason my class is going well is that it's in the morning and i can do the work for it with a ton of breaks to use the bathroom #and it doesn't seem to matter what i eat #I'm nauseous but not throwing up in the morning and then in the afternoon i start throwing up and by the time i take my evening pills... #i can't keep anything down #i can't even keep water down #i fucking love water #but nooooooo #my body wants to reject even that #i don't know what to do #hopefully this goes away or the CT shows what's going on so i can live my fucking life again #anyway #rant over #drink water you heathens

[thebirdandhersong]

Lol

#now i KNOW im burned out like im usually pretty on top of schoolwork ive always been on top of things #or mostly anyhow. i do go to pieces a bit during exam or midterm season but it always works out in the end #first time ive missed assignments without realising i had any to do at all last week 😂😂😂 this is so sad #the cherry on top of that mud pie is that i cant even muster the strength to be panicked or upset #i'm just tired! #anyway i know what i need to do to catch up im just surprised at the level of exhaustion i feel just thinking about studying again

[arodrwho]

that pathologizing/humanizing post and all the discourse surrounding it is driving me batty if i never see it again it'll be too soon. post block time

#like listen. there is value in translating your symptoms for people who don't have your disorders #there is value in saying 'hey i'm feeling overwhelmed right now' vs 'hey i'm having a sensory overload' #most people understand 'overwhelmed' even if they have never heard of sensory issues #there is value in saying 'i had a knee jerk reaction and felt attacked and overwhelmed and thats why i snapped at you' vs 'i have rsd' #most people understand feeling attacked and angry and upset even if they have never heard of rsd #however i do not think 'humanizing' is the correct word for the act of making that translation #and i dont think its necessarily pathologizing to say 'i had sensory overload' or 'that was emotional dysregulation' #thats just using precise words for things. sort of nd jargon u know #which isnt the simplest way to explain to like. a layperson #and as for the idea that we should apologize rather than explaining our symptoms...like. yeah dude. it is possible to do both #you can take responsibility for snapping at someone and explain why you did in the same breath. it's just easier again if u translate #anyway. fuck that post and its rebuttals. im tired

[softshuji]

Sometimes it feels like my mom punishes me for things I can't control and it's actually kinda really upsetting.

#i fell asleep yesterday after work as i mentioned before and that means i wasn't able to wash up after dinner #she said to me today that if i fell asleeo again before dinner she'd be pissed off at me #and usually a comment like that wouldn't bother me #but I'm the only one working full time/ with two jobs in my house #especially when my brothers don't do anything around the house #even though they don't have jobs/ do anything full time. and yet the responsibility of housekeeping is always left to me #even if I'm tired. The reason i can't fo to sleep early ia because cleaning the downstairs before i go takes a while #ofc it would when you have a family of 9 and you're the only person doing it #she never asks them either #and then she gets upset at me if like yesterday i don't do these things #and it's like #everyone keeps telling me fo stop treating myself as a machine #but it's kinda hard when everyone else does the same #today/ this week when work has been really tough and im struggling already because im having a hard time #it's the last thing you wanna hear that someone's upset at you for doing something that could have been shared between others #i don't know it just feels like a sledgehammer fo the chest every time #i just feel I'm constantly disappointing someone because im not able to do what they say #ans no matter how much i say it's unfair nothing ever changes.