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laundrybiscuits · 8 months

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(soulmates AU: Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3)

“You never told me your folks were soulmates," he says out of the blue. He'd meant to wait until it came up naturally or something, but they're just standing in awkward silence outside what the kids insist on calling the M&M house, waiting for the stupid dragon game to wrap up on the Munson side. He doesn't even know he's going to say it until it's already out there, sitting between them.

Nancy says "Fuck," very quietly. Steve can't remember if she used to swear so much. He thinks not, but also, she was sixteen the last time he really felt like he knew her.

Steve’s tenth grade geometry teacher once told them: think about railroad tracks. That’s what parallel means, that there are two lines that never get closer together or farther away. No matter how long the railroad tracks get, there’s always exactly the same amount of space between them.

Now Steve thinks maybe that’s bullshit, that you can’t keep going separate from someone else and stay the same distance apart. If you’re not together, if you don’t cling as hard as you can, then the distance between you is going to grow faster and faster until you can’t even see the other person.

He thinks maybe he doesn’t know Nancy at all anymore.

Nancy smooths down her skirt in a nervous gesture he doesn’t recognize. “You’ve met my parents, Steve. Did you really think that’s what I want?”

It’s the kind of question where he knows the right answer from the way she’s saying it, but he doesn’t know why. Yeah, he’s met Ted and Karen. He always thought they seemed happy enough. They’ve got three kids, so they have to be happy, right?

But he’s starting to think that Nancy—the new Nancy, how she is now—might not want to be happy. Or at least that it might not be the most important thing to her, compared to everything else she always talked about. Now that he’s thinking about it for real, he can’t really see her stepping into her mom’s shoes, never really doing anything but chasing after kids and power-walking around the mall.

Shit, is he the Ted Wheeler in this scenario? Not that there’s anything wrong with Ted, but—wow, okay, he’s starting to understand Nancy’s reaction.

He hasn’t said anything for a little while, and Nancy sighs. “Steve, I’m sorry, I can’t…”

“It’s fine, Nance,” he says. He even thinks he means it, this time.

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“Do you think she’s going to get a cover-up, like Eddie?”

Robin squints at him. “I think she’s the only one who can answer that.”

“Sure, okay, but I can’t ask her because I’ve decided I’m not gonna bring this shit up around her anymore. It’s called tact, Robin.”

“Fuck off, I’m a million times more tactful than you could ever be.” She chucks a roll of NEW RELEASE stickers at him, which he dodges with a little spin, just to show off.

“Are you kidding me? Who was it that got out of a parking ticket last week just by talking to the cop?”

“Uh, who was it that expertly finessed us both jobs at Family Video just by talking to Keith?”

“You gotta stop bringing that up,” Steve groans. “That was like a whole year ago. Get some new material, Buckley.”

“Get us a new job, Harrington! One that pays more than this shit!”

“Nah, I’m gonna be a trophy husband to some rich old lady. That’s my new plan, now that I’m totally unattached.” It comes out pretty steady, he thinks.

She sidles up to him, awkward in the way she gets sometimes, and bumps their shoulders together. “Hey, you know you could totally find someone else, right? It doesn’t have to be…” She trails off, gesturing helplessly.

He tips his head back and stares at the ceiling. The fluorescent lights leave blurry ghosts on his eyelids when he blinks.

Robin Buckley is the best friend he’ll ever have and does sometimes actually know what tact is, so she just tips her head against his shoulder and stares at the ceiling with him in silence until the next customer comes in.

———

“You can never, ever tell Steve this.” Nancy’s voice is just barely audible from the front step, and Steve freezes. He snatches his hand back from where he’d been reaching for the doorbell.

“Cross my heart, et cetera, Wheeler.” Eddie sounds lazy, like he doesn’t even care.

“It’s crazy, but I used to feel really—happy. About the soulmark. I mean, it’s every girl’s dream, right? The cutest guy in school with her name on his wrist.”

“Can’t say I relate.”

Nancy lets out a strangled laugh and Steve silently shuffles as close as he dares, shutting his eyes like that’ll help him hear better or something.

“I know, Eddie, that’s why I’m…I don’t know what changed. I don’t know why that stopped being enough for me. I second-guess myself all the freaking time now, and I hate that! I remember the way it felt when it turned out Steve was actually really sweet, and sometimes I just want to—to crawl back inside that feeling, except it’s not real. I know it’s not real.”

“You sure about that? Doth the lady not protest too much?”

“I’m sure.”

She hadn’t even hesitated. Steve’s nails are cutting into his palms. He feels dizzy with how quick she’d answered; how calm she’d sounded.

It hits him, then, that it’s actually over, like for real. Maybe he really is an idiot, because it’s been years, and he thought he’d already known that. Turns out there’d been a stupid little corner of hope in him after all.

He tunes back in to hear Eddie say, “Okay, okay, you don’t gotta convince me, Wheeler. If you end up deciding to, y’know, take the plunge…yeah, I can hook you up. But no rush, okay?”

Steve turns around and walks down the drive, all the way around the corner to where he’s parked. Dustin’s stretched all the way across the seats, head poking out of the driver’s side window, squinting in the afternoon sun.

“Is Eddie coming to the arcade with us?” Dustin yells.

“He’s busy, leave him alone,” says Steve.

#not!soulmates AU #the unmarketable ridiculousness continues #I know the Doylist reason Eddie offers so much unsolicited advice in canon is his role as clunky plot mouthpiece #but I choose to interpret it as the extremely gay hobby of overflowing with advice on acquaintances’ personal lives #despite the highly dubious state of one's own #anyway. if/when this goes up on AO3 I'm gonna need to re-edit for Nancy's voice bc I do NOT have it rn

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kaladinkholins · 3 months

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i know I've mentioned my interpretation of mizu's gender a million times on here but i don't think i ever fully elaborated on it.

so on that note i just wanna ramble about that for a bit. basically, it's my reading of the show that mizu is nonbinary, so let me dig into that.

putting the rest under the cut because it ended being pretty long lol. also here have a cute mizu pic of her being happy and most at ease with herself, symbolised by her letting her hair down. <3 ok let's proceed.

okay note that nonbinary is an umbrella term, and applies to a vast range of gender identities, but it's my personal preference to use it as is, simply because i'm not a fan of microlabels. more power to you if you are though, but anyway.

essentially when i refer to mizu as nonbinary it means that i interpret mizu as a woman, but not ONLY a woman. not strictly a woman. she is also a man. she is also neither of these things, she is something in between, while at the same time she is none of these at all. i've said as much many times, but i just don't want people to think that by nonbinary it inherently means a "third androgynous gender" that essentially turns the gender binary into a gender trinary. not only is that going against what the term nonbinary was crafted for (to go against rigid boxes and categorisation of gender identities), but also, not all nonbinary people fall under that category or definition, and that's definitely not the way i interpret mizu.

also, before anyone fights me on this, let me clarify further that gender means something different to everyone. it's not your biological sex or physical characteristics. but at the same time, gender is not mere presentation. you can be a trans woman and still present masculine—either because you're closeted and forced to, or because you just want to—and either way, that doesn't take away from your identity as a woman. same goes for trans men. if you're a trans man but you wear skirts and don't bind or don't get top surgery, that doesn't make you any less of a man. because gender non-conformity exists, and does not only apply to cis people! some lesbians are nonbinary and prefer using he/him pronouns while dressing masculinely, but that doesn't mean they're a man, or that they're any less of a lesbian. neither does this mean that they're a cis woman.

the thing about queer identities in general is that, like i said, they mean something different to everyone, because how you identify—regardless of your biological attributes and fashion or pronouns—is an extremely personal experience. so a nonbinary person and a gnc cis woman's experiences might have plenty of overlap, but what distinguishes between the two is up to the individual. there's no set requirements to distinguish you as one or the other, but it's up to you to decide what you identify as, based on what you feel. either way, by simply identifying yourself as anything under the LGBTQ+ umbrella, you are already communicating to the world that you are not what a conservative, cisheteronormative society wants you to be.

which is why i find all this queer infighting on labels to be so ridiculous. because we're all fighting the same fight; the common enemy is a societal structure that divides us into set roles and expectations purely based on our biological parts. that's why biological essentialism in the queer community is a fucking disease. because by arguing that women are inherently weak and fragile and soft and gentle and must be protected from evil ugly men, while men are inherently strong and angry and violent and exploitative of women, these people are advocating for the same fucked up system that marginalises and abuses women as well as effeminate and/or gay men.

anyway. i'm going on a tangent. this was meant to be a blue eye samurai post. so yeah back to that— the point i'm trying to make is that there's no one way to identify as anything, and everyone views gender in a specific way.

so with that being said, yes you can definitely interpret mizu as a gnc cis woman and that's a totally valid reading. however, interpreting her as nonbinary or transmasc also doesn't take away from her experiences with misogyny and female oppression, because nonbinary and transmasc folks also experience these things.

me, personally, i view her as nonbinary but not necessarily or always transmasc because i still believe femininity and womanhood is an inherent part of who mizu is. for example, from what we've seen, she does not like binding. it does not give her gender euphoria, but is instead very uncomfortable for her both physically and mentally, and represents her suppressing her true self. which is why when she "invites the whole" of herself, she stands completely bare in front of the fire, breasts unbound and hair untied. when she is on the ship heading to a new land in the ending scene, she is no longer hiding her neck and the lack of an adam's apple. we can thus infer that mizu does not have body dysmorphia. she is, in fact, comfortable in her body, and relies on it extremely, because her body is a weapon. instead, what mizu hates about herself is her face—her blue eyes. she hates herself for her hybridised identity, hates herself for being a racial Other. hates that she has no home in her homeland. these are not queer or feminist themes, but postcolonial ones.*

* and as a tiny aside on this subject, i really do wish more of the fandom discussion would talk about this more. it's just such an essential part to reading her character. like someone who's read homi k bhabha's location of culture and has watched this show, PLEASE talk to me so we can ramble all about how the show is all about home and alienation from community. please. okay anyway—

nevertheless, queer and feminist themes (which are not mutually exclusive by the way!) are still prevalent in her story, though they are not the main issue that she is struggling with. but she does struggle with it to some extent, and we see this especially during her marriage with mikio, where we see her struggle in women's domestic spaces.

on the other hand, though, she finds no trouble or discomfort in being a man or being around other men—even naked ones—and does not seem stifled by living as one, does not seem all that bothered or uncomfortable navigating through men's spaces. contrast this to something like disney's mulan (1998), where we do see mulan struggle in navigating through men's spaces, as she feels uncomfortable being around so many men, always feeling like she doesn't belong and that she's inherently different from them. mizu has no such experiences like this, as her very personality and approach to life is what can be categorised as typically "masculine". she is straightforward and blunt. her first meeting with mikio, she tells him straight to his face that he's old while frowning and raising a brow at him. she approaches problems with her muscles and fists (or swords), rather than with her words or mind. compare this with mulan, who, while well-trained by the end of the movie, still uses her sharp wits rather than brute strength. this is a typically "feminine" approach. it's also the approach akemi relies on throughout the show—through her intelligence and persuasive tongue, she navigates the brothel with ease. mizu, in contrast to someone like mulan and akemi, struggles with womanhood and femininity, and feels detached from it.

thus, in my opinion, mizu is not simply a man, nor is she simply a woman. she is both. man and woman. masculine and feminine. she has to accept both, rather than suppress one or the other. her name means water. fluid.

as a side note, while i do believe mizu is nonbinary, i also primarily use she/her pronouns but this is a personal preference. i find it's easier, plus it's what the creators use, and because, in general, being nonbinary simply doesn't necessitate the use of they/them pronouns. nonbinary is not just a third gender. it's about breaking the binary, in any which way, and that's exactly what mizu does.

also, i'd also like to mention that one of show's head of story even referred to her with the term "nonbinary", rather than simply "androgynous" (see pic below). and it's possible this could be a slip up on his part, in which he believes the terms are interchangeable (they're not btw), but regardless i find it a very interesting word choice, and one that supports my stance.

so anyway yeah that's my incredibly long rambling post.

TL;DR nonbinary mizu rights 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻 congrats if you reached the end of this btw. also ily. unless you're a TERF in which case fuck off. ok i'm done.

#mizu blue eye samurai #mizu bes #blue eye samurai #blue eye samurai meta #sorry if this is redundant btw i just cant stop thinking thoughts :3 #btw i am a mixed* southeast asian who is also nonbinary. just in case that's important context #by mixed* i mean i'm asian+asian but diff ethnicities lol. i dont have a white bone in my body god bless<3 #my whiteness is purely learned thru cultural osmosis + bcs my parents taught me english as a first language (boooo 🍅🍅🍅)#also i live in the global south so i think EYE know a thing or two about being gnc in a society of rigid awful gender roles‼️#so likeee i think its ridiculous that its an either-or thing #mizu can be nonbinary while still being a woman of colour ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#also ummm as much as i love queer themes and gay people i wish people would talk more about the racial otherness / community aspect #as mentioned in the post above #you don't need to read bhabha's whole book btw but just take a look at some of his ideas and you'll get what im talking about #like the fact that the fandom mostly ignores those themes in the story makes me feel like :( :/#cuz to me THATS the thing that spoke to me most and its a shame that its just not talked about enough #i mean i know why thats likely the case. but still.#whoops im rambling again 🤪#fandom.rtf #shut up haydar #meta dissertations.pdf

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supernaturalsuperhero · 1 month

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The things writers will do to characters and expect you to not think they're gay is ridiculous

#currently talking about #supernatural #and #house md #destiel #hilson #I'M NOT BLIND OK?!#THOSE MEN ARE SO RIDICULOUSLY GAY FOR EACH OTHER

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wanyinchen-narts · 2 years

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SUNFLOWER (CANON DIVERGENCE AU)

the absolute *chef's kiss*, depth, angst, and clownery of the kakagai dynamic this fic has is beyond insane and amazing and I am not ashamed to say that I have binged it at least 7 times

Now, my lovelies, please read "Sunflower" by cloudynebula and lapifors once more and bask in its utter perfection. But make sure you're in the right headspace for it because it's really heavy and dark tho! Please take care of yourself first <3

*more incoherent babbling in the tags lmaooo*

#kakagai #maito gai #hatake kakashi #might guy #naruto #sha's nart art #fanart of a fanfic #the sunflower fic deserves a tag as far as i'm concerned #go. read. sunflower!!!!#i swear it is the best Gai character study fic!!!#you have no idea on how rare Gai character study fics that actually don't underestimate him are #or something along those lines #its so rare to find gai-centered fics that have his voice down to a tee #and not overdoing the dramatic capitalization to a fucking ridiculous amount; and not having the words YOUTH!!! and SPRINGTIME!!! be used #--in every other sentence LIKE THANK YOU! Its one of my pet peeves i think i just dont like the implication that Gai is an dumb idiot #we need more gai-centered fics!!! he's fucking hilarious as a narrator #like THANK YOU!!!! I imagine Gai to be sweet emotional genuine overwhelming overdramatic over-the-top stubborn and wise #not a fool who only has YOUTH!! and PASSION!! in his dictionary LIKE EXCUSE YOU! Gai's very flowery and poetic; he knows many words :D #and the actual depth of Gai in this fic makes me cry and wail happy tears #and the depicted relationship between Gai and Kakashi is so perfect it makes me cry and wail happy tears even more!!!#like its so perfect and genuine and real and true *more wailing*#LIKE THANK YOU FOR HAVING GAI ACTUALLY OPPOSE AND DISAPPROVE KAKASHI'S ACTIONS IN ANBU #gai walks beside kakashi NOT BEHIND #he aint Kakashi's simp or Kakashi's enabler #he's Kakashi's best friend and eternal rival goddammit!!!#and thats all lmao #whoopsies i went on a tangent

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ifellinlovewithpersona · 10 months

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Me @ my brain: Okay, you ship two ridiculous protagship no one ships besides you. Don't ship another. Please. For your own mental stability. It's time to stop.

My brain: Okay but check this out: V-kun x Akiren coffeshop AU where they both are working in Leblanc?

Me: I hate you 😭

#WHY I SUDDENLY HAVE 5 X V THOUGHTS?#ESPECIALLY NOW WHEN AO3 IS DOWN? 😭#(but lowkey want akiren and v-kun to be gay for each other haha)#WHY THIS ALWAYS HAVE TO BE PROTAGSHIP? 😭#okay but real talk does someone actually ship persona and smt protags together?#cause i couldn't find anything and idk if i'm that bad at searching or it's just the idea so ridiculous it's nonexistent #persona 5 #smt v #ren amamiya #akira kurusu #v kun #nahobino #smt tag #5 x V #OKAY BUT ONE SHOT GOD IN THE FACE THE OTHER ONE IS GOD IT'S PERFECT 😭#renbino

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steakout-05 · 4 months

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ahhh fucked up little six-nippled snake-handed spiritual dude covered in buffalo fur with heterochromia and a bird beak nose my beloved

oh YEAH? you only got ONE PEENEYE????

#xavier renegade angel #he's so fucked up and weird i love him #i have the entire argument he has with himself in shakashuri blowdown memorised word for word #you slumber a cucumber! you catch up on some zzz'eds you get outta my heads!#you snost you lost #that one isn't in the episode but it's so funny to say in his voice #a lot of things are funny to say in his voice #one time me and a friend were reading the entire ''does bruno mars is gay?'' website's pages in Xavier's voice #like it has multiple pages and all of the ones written by the ''does bruno mars is gay'' guy are all hilariously written #there's like 2 people running that website it's really funny #anyway...... xra funny you should go watch it if you like really surreal 3d animated shows that look like they come from a low budget-#-ps2 game with wordplay and a story that is simultaneously the dumbest and ridiculous and most clever thing you've ever heard #it has an episode where xavier's in a pickup truck getting chased by a sentient living explosion that used to be some kid's dad #and at the end of it he says ''they say when you die you shit your pants. not me. i'm gonna shit my heart out.'' and it's really funny #in the words of julius caesar: it's like lsd on acid!#sketch

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bellamyblcke · 1 year

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the thing is bobbie draper and camina drummer are both lesbians and you cannot convince me otherwise i can be obstinate the same way people are for their fave headcanoned white gay men literally nothing will dissuade me

#no spoilers bc i'm still in s3 #but i know the truth #the expanse #naomi is also clearly bi but that's not even worth argueing for #bc it's simply the truth #i know! i know they want to put bobbie with alex #but that's ridiculous bc she is so gay #bobbie draper and camina drummer if you're free tonight #if camina is not canon a lesbian by the end of the show i will kill somebody #every woman on this show is gay except for chrisjen and i will stand by that #they don't have time to be gay bc they are in space but that's not my fault

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topsyturvy-turtely · 1 year

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Fluffbruary with turtely

Day 14

[day 13] [day 15]

prompts: idea | teach | fruit by @fluffbruary <3

fandom: BBC Sherlock

will be uploaded to "That Stuff Called Fluff" on Ao3!

A/N: please excuse my lateness! yesterday was AWFUL. i literally could. not. but here is day 14 now and it's pretty darn fluffy imho. a bit of a different format: it is not over after the second row of hearts!

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"... and it was always like you were right there in front of me, so close but always out of reach. You are like- the forbidden fruit! And god forbid me to eat it. But damnit! I want it. You understand what I am saying? You're the apple and I am Adam."

"Eve."

"Sorry, what?"

"Eve eats the apple. Not Adam."

"I DON'T CARE! I'm your Eve, then! What I'm trying to say is that not even god himself will keep me from loving and wanting you!"

"Well, for fuck's sake, John! HAVE ME THEN. I don't see a god around to stop you?"

"Unless, you're gonna stop me."

"Did- did you seriously just-"

"Yeah. I did."

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"Teach me"

"Teach you what?"

"I wanna love you. In all the right ways. but I don't know how to. I don't know what you want to hear, what kind of gift you'd want, how to touch you, what you want me to do."

"You're overthinking this."

"Am I? Am I really? I wanna do this right. I'm not doing this half-heartedly. It's all or nothing - preferably everything by the way - but I just don't know how. I need you to teach me."

"Oh, You dumbass."

"Wha- why would you-"

"I don't need to teach you."

"What do you mea-"

"I don't need to, because your heart already taught you how to love me."

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"Do you have any idea?"

"A bit more context please?"

"Do you have any idea how much I love you? How much I cherish, adore, worship and desire you? How badly I want to put you on a throne and fall to your knees, granting you every wish?"

"Never knew you could be this metaphorical."

"Irrelevant. Answer my question. Do you have any idea?"

"Yeah. Yes, of course."

"How? How could you possibly know?"

"Because I feel the exact same way, Sherlock."

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A/N: *happily eats self-made fluff (it looks like cotton candy in my mind)* feedback is amazing! thanks for reading you sweet turtles! 🐢💚

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mika-moof · 3 months

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I know it's your tag, but by god Mika, how often are you gonna say "not to be a lesbian" when it's very obviously to be a big ol lebiab

It's a curse, every time i see a cute girl i lose all thoughts and forget i ever used that tag, creating a never ending cycle of being shocked that girls are so cute

I am sorry and it will happen again 😔

#mika answers #I'm so fucking gay it's so ridiculous #it's about 20 years of Catholic cult suppression followed by 10 years of other kinds of repression #and about 28 years of not realizing i was a lesbian I GOTTA CATCH UP ON LOST TIMES

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alltimefail-sims · 7 months

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The anon who sent me 13 messages about how annoying it is that nearly all my Strangerville characters are some variation of queer is not gonna be happy when they find out that like half of my featured Chestnut Ridge characters in Lea's gameplay are also some variation of queer.

Oopsie 🤷‍♀️

#listen I'm just going to keep writing the kind of queer representation I need/wanted/sought out as a child #It is what it is #And I know I never responded to them publicly because honestly it was a lot #But also it was pretty ridiculous and highkey pathetic full offense to sender #So if you see this 13 message anon - you know who you are - and more gays are a comin. Be warned #Also I meant to type 'needed' not 'need' in that first tag. Can't edit it on mobile though and I'm not retyping all that lol #personal #just shitposting

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autisticbillpotts · 11 hours

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I'm losing my mind why am I so obsessed with this guy

#he puts herbal tea in a flask so he can drink it at parties and not get hassled about drinking!!!!#he beat a guy half to death!!!!!!!!!!#and he's a little sappy guy who loves his little boyfriend soooooo much and they are unbearable together #and he's presumably like 6ft tall and built like a brick shit house #and he's sooooo funny he's SUCH a teenage boy and I'm! obsessed with him!#personal #tbs blogging #I started making a pinterest board for him and at first pass it has like 60 pins help me #I need to crush him to death #if he was a cat he would look like my cat. also. is a thought in my head #'it sounds kinda gay when you put it like that' to 'my BOYFRIEND is the smartest boyfriend there ever was!'#that's my little guuuuyyyyy #I need to eat him.#podcasts terrible actually because I can't have an endless supply of pictures of ym litttle guy he's my little guy #also the thing about coming to a show like this so late and w no previous exposure to it-#is that I have my own take on how characters look and thoughts I want to TALK ABOUT and it feels ridiculous cause Im sure its all already-#been said a thousand times but! not where I can see it!#so Im just sat here w like even dumb shit like 'I think calebs hair grew out over the seasons' and its so ghfnggjdjcvk electrocutes myself #genuinely pacing in circles making noises at myself level of obsessed #he is spinning round my brain like a rat in a centrifuge

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wigglebox · 2 years

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the shittiest thing is that there isn’t anything wrong with 15x18′s scene [the one thing i wish is that dean could have talked back and answered but i think we know why he didn’t]

bad things can happen to queer characters. the empty deal was set up since season 14 and it’s been dangling over our heads until 15x18 and the longer we went we either thought they forgot about it or we were clowning that destiel would be the thing that made him happy and indeed it was.

bad things can happen to queer characters if you allow the story to take flight from there. 15x18 wasn’t bury your gays [imo], indeed, technically, cas was taken alive to the empty. he wasn’t killed he was just kidnapped lol.

the issue wasn’t that the empty deal was fulfilled because again, it happened. it happens.

this show can have very sad moments. the show killed him in the season 12 finale too but we knew he was coming back so it was okay.

the problem was never 15x18. that scene was beautiful, the immediate aftermath is haunting, and its impact on the fandom and pop culture was felt deeply. sp8, bobo, jackles, misha, they all did a very good job. i can play that scene in my head like it’s on screen in front of me beat for beat.

the problem was the fact that 1519 and 1520 did literally no follow up.

****I’m going to state for the record right now, I don’t believe that cas is in heaven so that’s going to take up the bulk of the second half of this so if that spec really upsets you pls don’t continue ;_;

15x18 ended and dean’s ignoring a phone call from sam, who he knows could very much well be in trouble. it was quiet, he was crying, it was sad, we all cried, we were all so happy but also so sad, it was a beautiful tornado of emotions that any writer and actor and director should feel proud of telling.

the issues came first with 15x19 when you had little emotional follow up. idk who inserted the scenes where it appeared dean was really struggling with what happened but he never explained really what happened to anyone. he didn’t say aaaaanything. he didn’t explain. nothing.

there was that report from a set watcher that said in their first scene where they try to give themselves up to chuck and he’s talking about bringing cas back that he was really really emotionial, whereas in 1519 it didn’t seem as emotional as we know he can get, and has already gotten before. but that’s more up for debate because we don’t know that person’s parameters for ‘emotional’

but regardless, dean’s emotional state in 1519 didn’t linger too much on 1518. i feel like you can feel jackles struggling to try and demonstrate that where he could but what also sucks is that he’s not in charge of what takes they use.

the last time we hear dean say cas’ name is when he gets that phone call and it’s lucifer — some more queer coding and the last bit of it we see for the rest of the show.

and after that, literally, i’m serious — like go back and watch the episodes if you don’t believe me — dean never says cas’ name again after that.

so already out of the gate, a man who, through our own past witnessing of his emotional state after cas has gone, should be really just completely frozen. maybe not completely, only bc you’d imagine he’d draw on that inner emotionality and help use it as a tool, and we do get ‘that’s not who i am’ or whatever but there’s still no....impact.

1519 muffled the emotional impact of 1518.

1520 shoved it in the ground and covered it with 8 feet of cement.

1520 has a whole host of issues which like — conspiracy after conspiracy as to what happened exists but the fact remains is i do believe them when they say the final script post-covid wasn’t all too far from the original pre-covid. i know there were reports from 2020 vegas con that one of the actors, i think kim or bri, said they were still working on fine tuning the script — but regardless — i don’t think it was ever going to be too far off.

my complicated emotions on 1520 range from genius episode to oh my god what the fuck episode — but the fact of the matter is we were likely never going to see cas again.

sam mentions him in a group with others, bobby mentions him as an after thought etc etc. the worst thing is that we were likely never going to see cas on screen again because if you did you’d have to put him on the same screen with dean and if that happened the people would want an answer to 1518 straight up

so we replace him with jimmy instead and what likely would have been our last glimpse at a good queercoding, the last strong punch to dean’s 15 mile deep glass ceiling they have on top of him. jimmy was supposed to be dressed like cas, and they were supposed to talk. dean’s reaction to seeing him was supposed to initially be emotional before he realized it wasn’t cas.

but even that wouldn’t have helped 1518 because we still wouldn’t have seen cas.

they never explain how cas ‘helped’ rebuild heaven, how he got out of the empty only two episodes after he got in there, why he doesn’t show his face [which i feel like would have been even more ‘wtf??’ when we saw jimmy but not cas], etc etc. since we didn’t see him on screen, and never was going to see him on screen, i did not believe he was in heaven at all.

all this unspoken dialogue and scenes explaining to us literally, — as dean and sam hunt monsters who literally rip the tongues out of people and dean gets first pied in the face [with a laughing robert singer behind him] and is stabbed in the back and killed — that the lack of emotional response and feedback and story post 1518 was a deeper issue behind the scenes with the creatives.

the problem wasn’t 1518, cas being taken by the empty as part of his deal, etc etc.

the problem was there was no emotional follow up, no contemplating, no empty rescue, no more dean and cas on screen together, etc etc etc.

[which, as part of the meta conspiracy — 1502 cas tells dean ‘we are (real)’ and now they’re not on the screen anymore by the end together soooooo was....any of that real?]

but regardless, spec, meta, and whatever aside

the problem was never 1518. 1518 is at the good kids table. the problem was, and forever will be, the episodes that came right after and didn’t do anything with that incredibly emotional and impactful scene.

#so it's not bury your gays #gays can die gays can get hell deals made and bad things can happen to gay charactres #the problem is what do you do with that?#and buckleming and singer and tobe fair i have to say dabb #dropped the ball on that one #and it's not misha's fault and it's ridiculous 1) producers would make him 'defend cas' death' and 2)#stupid that the fandom would blame him for it too and be up in his mentions being pissy #i'm sorry #long post #salt #1518 #mc #spn cast

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in finland our biggest pride event canceled their partnership with our biggest political party because the party hadn't voted in agreement about our new trans law (to allow self-ID and remove requirement of being sterile (yeah really)) (the party had ruled it a “matter of conscience” and abt 1/3 voted against), and now our news are full of the members of that party being pissed abt it and our likely next prime minister commenting how this is “sad and offends many people”, and ppl are flocking to lament and mock how pride is so intolerable and how u have to have 100% correct opinions in order to participate and i'm

#rat.pov #i KNOW cis ppl who don't care really don't care and can't even pretend to care but somehow it still shocks me how unbelievable this shit is #they're literally like #''OH SO WE AS A PARTY HAD TO BE unanimously against forced sterilisation to be welcomed to your lil gay festival?? you ungrateful shits''#NBSFBEJFBEHJBHRNJETNJRMGNRGRGNERM #THEY DON'T EVEN GET THE ABSURDITY OF WHAT THEY'RE SAYING #some MPs of the party have literally said they won't now attend pride because of this #ok that's cool really don't care except that #yes we know you really Really REALLY don't care abt human rights but could you at least think of a less ridiculous way to announce it #can you imagine your members voting against our human rights might also have offended some people CAN YOU IMAGINE H BHBHRH #(they can't bc ppls brain are full of ''this is not an issue that touches normal real life people'' and ''your everyday person doesn't #even understand trans issues''. if only trans people were real everyday people :/)#also the future prime minister just said ''this is very sad and it does feel like a political move instead of an appropriate one''#??????????????????? i'm at a loss #what the fuck do you even mean.#how. HOW do you expect politics to not be political what the. fUCK is wrong with you grow a GODDAMN BRAIN?#and ppl in general like ''oh so pride is full on political now''#I'M BEGGING YOU.WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN WHAT HAS IT EVER BEEN EXCEPT POLITICAL #i know people think it's a funny gay carnival just to piss off straights and conservative christians but I WISH I COULD LAUGH.#it would be funny if it was #.#sorry to rant on side but i had to scream into a void somewhere

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remember that post you made back when the valentines comic got released about what you think DC might do with Ed's implicit canon bisexuality? On a scale of 1-10 how out of left field is the Clock King thing in that context?

I love that you asked me this because I was JUST frantically discussing that with @badnewbie. I would never in a million years have guessed that DC's first acknowledgement of Riddler being bisexual since Valentine's Day would be five months later in The Harley Quinn Show trailer, but in retrospect it makes so much sense that I don't think it could have been anything else. Honestly, as a named reoccurring supervillain character, Clock King is a million times better than I ever thought Edward would get for a male love interest (I assumed he'd be getting one-off unnamed civilians at best for the next quarter century). Disclaimer, however, that this IS the show that hatecrimed me by forcing me to watch Poison Ivy date Kite Man, so I'm sure however they handle it will be physically painful to watch.

#riddler #edward nygma #clock king #william tockman #temple fugate #morris tetch #i have no idea which clock king this is supposed to be #truly could be any of them #there's definitely not a pre-existing pairing name for clock king/riddler #god what would that even be #riddleclock?#that sounds terrible. i'm going to use it #riddleclock #anyway badnewbie points out that they could very well have them not actually be dating. which is completely fair #however this feels like such a naturally ridiculous evolution that i believe it #like yeah he had that unconfirmed as requited thing with penguin on the gotham tv show -->#he was confirmed as bisexual in a part of a valentine's day comic anthology after decades of jokes about his sexuality -->#he dates gayccent clock king in the harley quinn show #so many people on this website are invested in gay riddler but NONE of them were wanting him to date clock king #as my brother would say: it's a real monkey's paw of a situation

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