#idk how tumblr really works yet

[thechuppster]

old art dump

#breath of fire 2 #dungeon meshi #amphibia #golden kamuy #houseki no kuni #kimestu no yaiba #act-age #spy x family #sound euphonium #idk how tumblr really works yet #some of these are pretty old but i still kinda like these #my art #fanart #illustration

[fiendishartist2]

redraw of this post from bunnyfarm's release

kofi|instagram

#my last piece kinda disappointed me just bc i feel like i can do better #idk i think my style is taking a turn and im not sure how to work w it yet. i like messy art that looks kind of childish?- #-if that makes sense #but that kind of clashes w my way of drawing and i also have like no energy or creativity left bc of school </3 so its hard to draw #at least stuff that i really like that are like fully rendered and not just doodles or character standing w white background lol #so i took inspo from an old piece of mine to make this and sort of update it and i really like it!! i think my colours are way better #in the original they were kinda washed out i think and this is a lot more striking #me when primary colours #my art #digital art #artists on tumblr #the walten files #twf #bunnyfarm #sophie walten #jack walten #felix kranken #twf spoilers #tw eyestrain

[heffrondriving]

soooo. that new big time rush album huh

#how we feeling today rushers (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧ #also yes i've come back from the dead just to post abt this like. i owe this blog *this much* at least ykyk #anyway its like 3 in the morning here and ive just woken up after a vv long and exhausting day yesterday so this was a pleasant surprise :> #i haven't really listened to it in full yet bc idk adhd things but when the mood hits right y'all know i'll be VIBING #i never talked abt it but waves and can't get enough were great earworms so i'm excited to see how the rest of the songs will turn out #also hope everyone's doing well here on the btr side of tumblr hehe y'all been absolutely fed this year <3 #is this gonna be allen's 2k23 tumblr comeback??? nah prob not i'm too in love with the fooo conspiracy atm but hey maybe also who knows 👀 #(*heckler from the back of the audience* NO ONE CARES ABOUT U AND UR TRASH CONTENT IDIOT STFU FOREVER ACTUALLY!!!!!) #but yep. life has been fuck work has been a headache and so many unwanted tragic plot twists this year. but at least we got new btr lezzgo! #also happy pride month y'all!!! just saying this for absolutely no rhyme or reason related to this post at all wdym lmao ¯\_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)_/¯ #okay thats all promise i'll shush now and it's time for old grampa to disappear into the darkest recesses of the internet yet again hejdååå #btr #big time rush #another life #album #stop it forever #lmao i hardly remember my dumbass blog tags;;; it's for the best hdbfkgk

[crunchworldsupreme]

Hello, please send me the forums and online resources you've used. I want to make a big list.

Criteria: You've found it helpful at some point. It's relatively specialized. Any category. "Online resource" is purposely vague. Magazines, wikis, blogs, etc. They don't have to be obscure.

#thank you #this will hopefully be helpful to other people #but it will also be helpful to me >:) #this is what we have to do. this is how this works #if we want to find things that are not on ''the front page'' we have to share these things #it'll be a lot easier if people get used to the word of mouth thing #I'm not sure how I'll do it yet. a tumblr post with a billion links would be really unwieldy. maybe a spreadsheet idk #but I've got adhd and this is the thing my brain wants right now so send me those links bb #reddit blackout #reddit boycott #forums

[essektheylyss]

Okay, I am going to try SO SO HARD to actually keep up with One (1) podcast even without a commute so I'm listening to all of the newly-released Worlds Beyond Number things including the short preview, and I am quietly cackling over, underneath all the crosstalk of, "Games are fun and we're really fun!, Aabria just, "I'm not fun."

#I know this is a lie aabria I have seen it first hand. #also the follow up of introducing the concept of 'these characters might die!' and aabria like 'that makes it become less fun' #brennan in a fucking monster voice: I think it becomes *more fun* #me: relatable @ both #also today in: things that reminded me I only got a chapter into the infinite playground #but yeah I must be debuffed by driving in order to listen to podcasts so I am going to try so hard. #no other task works cuz I know the task manager assigning me things and she's a fucking pushover. (I inevitably get distracted.) #I did have to listen to this back to make sure I heard correctly cuz I was laughing so hard #do I need to listen to this 8 minute intro that is explaining to me what a ttrpg is? no. am I going to anyway for this exact reason? yes #this is not really a spoiler cuz it's in the 8 minute intro but. is there an accepted spoiler tag yet. #idk man idk what the Kids On Tumblr are up to I just nap here sometimes #(this is as they say also a lie but fr how are we tagging spoilers folks.) #are we writing out the whole name. are we abbreviating to wbn. are we specifying the campaign name. what's the plan.

[widevibratobitch]

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#coming to tumblr for the first time in three days just to bitch because i feel like shit <333 #sorry if i havent responded to your message i will as soon as i get a grip but rn im just too busy #both with uni and with crying because a friend said a mean thing to me lol #and because im tired of this new friendship already and tired of hearing this girl talking how great she is lol #am i jealous? fuck yeah i am. #and it's not like she's mean like straight up. cause like. #when i say im really considering quitting and dropping out she tries to encourage me ig #but then she follows it up with 'ofc *I* never had a problem with this and that because it always just came naturally to me teehee #but yknow. dont give up uwu' #and she keeps sending me recordings of her singing to tell her how good she is and always tells me how her teacher praises her #and like. its cool. like i get it that its a nice feeling when you do something well and wanna share that joy with a friend #but idk. i just think its kinda. well not mean but a litt #*a little tone deaf? when ive just been telling her that im in a Bad Place rn and my voice isnt working as it should #and my pianist is bullying me and i end up crying on almost every lesson #and she hits me with a 'damn that sucks fuck that pianist dont give up tho <3 #now do you wanna listen to me sing bel raggio lusinghier like a pro and my professor telling me i am sublime?' #also when i tell her that im sorry that im not very social and i just cannot stay and chat cause im having a horrible day today #and really dont feel well and she's like 'yeah i havent noticed anything you're always like that... *side eye*' in a way that suggests #im a horrible friend cause im not talking with her enough and yet again im disappointing her (aint that familiar lol) #i just. idk. the last two-three weeks have been absolutely horrible to me. i cant get out of bed i havent done a single colorful make up #in so long ive basically forgotten how to do that. and i loved doing fun make up looks that make people tell me i look like a clown. #but i just dont have the energy to do anything more than put on a random tshirt and spray dry shampoo on my unwashed hair #i dont even wear my rings anymore. ive stopped caring about being the pinkest slayest queerest looking bitch in the room cause i just. cant #and even some casual friend of mine asked me yesterday if im okay cause they can see something is Not Right. but SHE not only doesnt notice #anything. i have a feeling she feels like im disappoing and neglecting her because i cant be bothered to text with her 24/7 #like idk. maybe its just my imagination but i barely even feel like an actual person. more like just a homunculus made to trail after her #and listen to her bragging about how pretty/talented/unbothered she is #oh and also for her to keep dissing m/ozart lol like idk why it hurts me so bad but then ig its not that unusual to feel shitty #when someone keeps talking shit about something you really love and are passionate about and making you feel like an idiot #because you like it. because its stupid and boring and you're a simpleton for enjoying it instead of liking sth more 'ambitious'

[lucysweatslove]

Oh, btw, if anybody is curious.

A few weeks ago I did an assessment which was supposed to be for ADHD but the guy specializes in diagnostics of all forms of neurodivergence and wanted to be thorough. Anyway, he said he is “at least 95% certain” (lmao I love how he uses confidence intervals) that not only do I have ADHD, I am also autistic!

Show of hands for everybody surprised! Nobody? Yeah I wasn’t either.

Anyway I will now officially claim neurodivergence. Anybody who disagrees doesn’t know me.

#idk how much I want to officially claim the title #not because I don’t want to be autistic because it’s just a descriptor for how a brain works and if I AM autistic I will happily claim it #but because he isn’t a neuropsych and the psych group at my local hospital don’t trust his assessments yet #he’s only been in practice here for about a year and he doesn’t do the ADOS 2 module 4 #so idk because I do FEEL like his assessment was thorough and accurate #but I also don’t want to use tags like actuallyautistic and claim it like it’s MY group and culture and end up not really being autistic? #like I don’t want to take away from truly actually autistic voices #idk if that makes sense #but yeah been pretty calm on tumblr lately because I’m growing into my new diagnoses and life situation #with med school too actually #I got my rural community assignment and preceptor names and one of them went to Harvard for undergrad #but that’s not what this post is about

[yo0hankim]

omg hiiii~ i'm not gonna lie i freaked out a little when i saw u followed me back bc you're literally one of my favorite orv artists, you're so talented i LOVE your art and the way you draw hsy in particular is so delicious 🤲💖

hello!!!! thank you so much omg reading this makes me happy! 😭 and im glad you especially like how i draw hsy!! idk if you can tell but shes my fav orv chara.... drawing her makes me happy.. i love her so much 🥺💖

and! with twitter behaving like That i figured it's probably high time i become more active here so i checked out a few accounts and when i saw yours i immediately knew i had to follow back ahah i really love your gifs btw!! so i hope you wont mind if you suddenly find me reblogging lots of your posts! ;;

#and i hope u dont mind that this gets . published? #im sorry idk how tumblr etiquette works yet #T___T #as you can see i dont really have a lot of experience in this site ;;;;

[zannolin]

Mia Winters 🤝 Ashley Graham

Being too amazing for people to comprehend.

:)

maybe some people...but the real ones get it.

genuinely it's so wild to me as someone who got into resident evil without ever really being exposed to the fandom beforehand and watched playthroughs/learned stuff while very isolated from it and am Just Now getting into the fandom and fan-content to see how like. widely hated they are? because, what, they don't like ashley's game mechanic and a bunch of people can't seem to comprehend the way the ethan is molded and mia knew reveal is supposed to totally recontextualize what we see of her behavior in village? um....okay lol.

and here is where i started typing out an entire rant about why it makes zero sense to me that people hate on mia so much despite the fact that she is pointedly not written as the villain of the games and ethan clearly loves her a lot and she clearly loves him a lot, but then backspaced it all because actually if i go down that road i will never stop. one day i'll do an art stream again where i just sit and rant for 2 hours about it. just know: i think about this so much and it makes absolutely Zero sense to me why people hate mia when she's such an easy to understand and CLEARLY sympathetically written character. RRRRR.

and then ppl who hate ashley bc she's "whiny" and "helpless" ok well what would YOU be doing if you had been kidnapped, infected with a parasite in an incredibly violating way, were essentially a ticking time bomb, and had no training in weapons or defense to deal with this shit MUCH LESS while in a totally different country. um. i think you would be begging for help too. and half the battle is just her game mechanic it's not like it's her fault jfc.

#answered asks #precambrian-sea-pancake #ONCE AGAIN i say hm isnt it funny how people seem to love ada but hate mia when they share MANY similar characteristics #(questionable backgrounds of working for mercenary groups; have hurt people; betrayed the trust of those close to them; committed #(lite) atrocities etc etc) #and yet mia is the one who has shown consistent regret for her actions and worked to change and she isnt perfect FUCKING DUHHHH no one is. #esp no one in resident evil YOU KNOW IM RIGHT ABOUT THIS! #but adas just fine going on exactly the way she is but mia has shown remorse and worked to change and leave that life behind #so really who is a 'better' character here #<- trick question i love them both ada is fun being morally bankrupt and mia is fun being a character who grows #you thought i was pitting women against each other didnt you! you thought i would make two bad bitches fight! #okay sorry i got away from myseslf here ive been watching too many snap cube streams #my point being. mia and ashley are literally fine. i cant speak to ashleys character writing esp with the remake not out yet #but mia despite the disaster that was villages writing at times. is a GREAT and SYMPATHETIC character who is clearly not the villain #u guys just hate women idk #sorry tumblr user precambrian-sea-pancake i have just gone on such a tangent which is just directed at the empty pews of a church #i will get off my soapbox now

[crazysodomite]

no honestly with twitter now in shambles what the fuck are artists supposed to do

#im not claiming twitter as dead just yet #but we also dont know what elon is gonna do #so #i mostly get commissions off twitter #dA is just unpleasant to be on and i think its only worth if you do closed species stuff #which i mean. i enjoy doing that. #but i just feel like #idk #i feel very irrelevant and invisible on dA its more of a all my art in good quality gallery website #im going to look into toyhouse but #i dont really make designs? like i enjoy doing designs but my main focus is paintings #I PAINT. THATS WHAT I DO. #i have nothing to depend on and no revenue stream #i dont think this whole art thing is going to work out! #my art isnt really relevant on tumblr unless i make fanart #but then how the fuck do you convert that into commissions or anything #tumblr is more of a having fun website for me #its a bit late for an art only blog ngl #idk man i just #i dont even have the mental capacity to network or anything right now #obviously money isnt gonna fall into my hands from just existing #but idk #logging onto twitter is borderline torturous for me even tho i have a lot of supportive mutuals there (shoutout) #but. every time i go on twitter i literally just do harm o myself lmao #wtf are we supposed to do?

[pepprs]

cringe btw. fail a little bit as well

#purrs #not really happy with how i showed up and navigated situations and circumstances today. i think i was not as kind or respectful as i could h #have been. and there’s nothing i can do but live with it and try to do better tomorrow. but this shit is so fucking hard and horrible. this #is not what i thought i was signing up for. this is not how i thought this month would go. and i know it’s normal and natural and whatever f #for like. every aspect of this process to be happening (and yet also cringe and stupid etc) but i just wish it wasn’t happening. i don’t #want to be responsible for planing your fucking goodbye gift i want you to stay. i don’t want to fucking go on a walk with you (i mean i #quite literally do LOL but) i want to keep yearning for i and working towards asking for it naturally and not in wretched circumstances. i #don’t want to have responsibility for all the tasks and people coming into the office and giving me knowing and pitying looks and asking how #this is going and meaning both me starting something and you leaving i want the whole you leaving part to just not even be a thing. i know I #it could be worse i know it’s fucking stupid to be addressing my literal actual supervisor as ‘you’ in the tags of a tumblr post she will #never read but it’s like fucking hell. i care about you so much. this has been a nightmare and i want it to be over but it won’t be ever. an #and i have to live with this somehow and i know it will feel better but for now im just fumbling through it and hurting and suffering and it #like doesn’t even matter. idk. the timing just hurts. it really does. as does the whole thing. idk when i’ll stop being hurt but i am hurt #delete later #i think i said this but i literally have to get assigned a fucking ‘cultural contact’ bc she’s leaving and can’t guide me thru this like i #always dreamed she would. the literal actual slap in the face of it.my heart hurts lol #it’s not just work also. like i know i am a freak about work on the dash but it really is not just work. or it is but it’s like. idk. ugh i #feel so trapped in this i fucking hate it and everyone is gonna tell her / me / us / whatever that this is good and normal and expected and #we’ll be okay etc but it’s NOT. it WON’T. we’re family or something like that and she’s leaving it and me and * are sobbing and * is like ha #having to be strong for us bc both of us are mentally ill wrecks over it and i know he is too and it’s killing me and meanwhile * just fucks #off across the country and we only see her TWO more times???? are you kidding me? LOL! like you just leave? lolllllll. after everythinggggg! #which she’s entitled to do. but it’s like. i thought we all understood… but apparently we weren’t on the same page. and now we’re here. LOL #anyway i am not being any less cringe or fail by continuing to post about this to redacted number of ppl but idk how else to cope. gn lawl #one more thing my heart hurts sooooooo bad. like physically. that is just sick in the head. wtf

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#dear diary. im sad again wah #agh not sad exactly. just brain fog. i can't focus and im so tired but i haven't even done anything #like ive done not that much this weekend. which sucks bc ive got so much to do. #i didnt even draw too much today bc i was so out of focus. i dont even kno what i did today #i think ive just kinda been laying here since like 4 or 5 and its almost 9 now #so idk. i wish i could control my attention and make it do things #ugh ill try to work on campus tomorrow. at least until 1 when i have to meet a guy abt a phd position #but i feel like im gonna die on campus bc there r ppl there :-( but i cant focus here either #everything's just foggy. i dont kno it might help if i met with my boss so we could talk abt things that need to get done #but idk i dont really have to. im afraid shes gonna tell me she never got the data i sent her at 3am bc she never sent it back #and then im gonna cry. but whatever #next week were going out to the field again. for a week. gathering more samples thst will kill me later #so i might freak out again. but its not as far a drive this time. and the other person were going with knows me fairly well #im not sure if thats a good thing or a bad thing. ugh. #maybe i should banish myself from tumblr until i actually get things done. thst will increase my suffering but might shorten the duration #blah. i wish i could read. or focus. that would make reading papers less terrible #idk what im even gonna do tomorrow. program a thing. write some stuff. continue to be sad and out of focus #too much thinking abt the future and stressing out abt picking a program to join when i haven't even been accepted yet #i mean. to b fair i got accepted to all the schools i applied to for my masters and i didnt kno shit back then #so i feel like if u have a masters the grad school is like: ok u kno how to do grad school ur in #bc grad school is fucking weird #but im like do i wanna do 3.5yrs in the uk on a riskier program or up to 5yrs in the us where the vibe feels more stable #but idk i havent even started writing for the scholarships and i feel like im too late to apply for one of them anyway bc its like jumping #thru 90 thousand hoops. so idk. idk. i have to create a project proposal 1st and idk what to do. #i mean i sorta kno but like i dont wanna sound dumb so agh. im tired #i want the perfect idea to come sweep me off my feet but i instantly start talking myself out of everything #ugh. actually i kno what happened. i got all excited on Thursday. like properly excited. which i dont like to do bc my mood bottoms out #afterwards. like this. that's why i dont get excited abt things. i keep myself at a stable neutral. a light misery if u will #hhhhhh so im rambling and procrastinating and sad. but tomorrow will b better bc Tomorrow i. will. focus. #unrelated

[thepixelelf]

you can't seriously equate pressing a button on a website you are already using in order to support artists who make content for free, to going out of your way to listen to one song over and over again whether you like the song or not in order to generate a tiny fraction of a company's revenue

#i didnt really want to get into much about the whole twt migration thats going on #bc i dont think its affecting my blog that much since i don't make visual content #like no one was on twt for fics so theyre not gonna move here and be like: ooh a writer who never updates. follow! #anyway i wasnt going to say much but i did make one post (hypocritical ursa im dumb dont mind me) #except the one post was mostly towards the tumblr users giving tips bc i didnt think saying #'no spam likes' was the best advice to give #but that post pretty much was rbed by my mutuals and maybe reached 3 people outside of my circle #and yet this comment...? where did i even mention streaming or voting or whatever energy theyre talkung about #okay to be fair i think this person commented on someone's reblog of the post and didnt know itd look like #it went straight to me because tumblr comments are an interesting weird system #but still #you cant seriously think it takes the same amount of energy to reblog as it does to stream/vote #idk it seems obvious to me that rbing doesnt take much effort #ik commenting is hard sometimes... ill often feel like a broken record in the tags but i try not to let that stop me #and yknow sometimes im tired. brain cant make words. sometimes ill rb visual content with no comment #but im rbing it!! because thats how tumblr works!! #i want to support creators by showing my followers and friends their work so i reblog!! #tumblr doesnt have a trending tag system the way twt did.. its there but it doesnt run that well #the tags are a great way to find cc's but not everyone will show up in the top 50 posts people will scroll through #until they exit the tag and go back to the dashboard #other social media sites use stats like likes; rts; comments; views; and time just LOOKING at a post into account #and those things go into the algorithm but im almost certain tumblr doesnt do that #your dashboard is just who you follow and the only way you get posts on your dashboard #is blogs making original content and reblogging #idk why im trying to explain this to the void #anyone who's read this far probably knows all this #listen im just here #chillin. reblogging #tbh im tired of seeing all the posts about the migration i just want to look at pics of kpop boys and shitposts 😭 #stickynotes.tpe

[hellohoihey]

I forget the insane feelings I have about dteam. So I usually avoid dwelling on posts I see but if I think

#oh I thinm. #*think #sayingthing #I forgot how tumblr search works so idk if this is going to show up for anyone #But also don't really care either way #<-why announce it then I do not know #Needed to get this out there #Anyways let me talk about my hair again #Nah I won't. Yet.

[magnoliamyrrh]

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#i really fucking hate how hard i was dissociating in class #and it happened before too when i wasnt on these meds yet #i wasn't even high. #i rly hate having to acknowledge that im like this. over and over again. that this is a reality #. and i hate having to acknowledge that im disabled in public #like im in pain in public. or occasionally limping. or needing to sit down. or looking half dead. or god worst of all being visibility #mentally ill that one makes me wanna dig myself into the dirt and never come out #i hate that im not all there. that i cant be no matter how hard i try. and then im in the middle of fucking class like #who am i? #im so used to it but its still so much to put up with all the goddd damn time and all the time having to pretend that im ok or sane or #remotely funcitoning and not lowkey having a flashback in the middle of fucking class for unknown reasons. while this brain works overtime #to mask it take it to the inner and shove someone else in the front #......... god this is why ive actually kinda enjoyed my self imposed period of solitude #and even so when my parents are sround i still have to do thst almost 24/7 #like i just wanna be insane in peace fjkdd left in my own soup as we say in romanian.... it takes too much effort to mask with strangers #... idk it makes it hard too when i meet people in person sometimes? because the moment the conversation gets past casual its like... #i want to answer your questions. i do not want to lie. but i also dont particularly want to tell the truth... tho i am not fond of telling #half truths either #... this is why over the years ive prefered 2 places to meet people 1)tumblr 2)psych ward lmaoo but fr. its the same vibe #because in a ward people are at their realest. no bullshit. all vulnerability. some of the realest most genuine impactful connections ive #made w ppl have been in wards.... and. tumblr is the one place outside or wards lmao. or my own brain. where im..... where i dont mask #where i dont put an effort to mask #... so when ppl start talking to me on here (even tho im at times bad at replying sorry idk why its so hard for me i need to work on it) #its like. well. you already have likely known for months or years that im fucking insane so 🤷‍♀️ #.......... i didnt used to be this anxious. and to be honest im not quite sure i seem anxious either because i have been told too often i #seem confident? charasmatic? self assured? bitch fucking where i feel like slippery cold noodles inside from anxiety #.... its partially that im not used to being around so many ppl anymore. its partially the more severe trust issues ive developed again as #of late... but at the same time probability my general fedupness thsts been brewing for 12 years with a lotta the culture here isnt helping #either... but... I also think ive just.... ive become incredibly incredibly frustrated with my mental and physical illnesses lately.. very #and their(my) limitations which i hate acknowledging. and all this fucking shame i got too over it. when i accepted it myself i did no care

[piningprecussionist]

(ooc)

I want you all to know that if I had the energy for it. There are so many posts stored in my drafts I long to queue... but neglected to preemptively tag, despite knowing I am Like This....

Anyway, there is a slight chance the queue might run out tomorrow unless I can get more responses in there-- I am,, tired,,

#(<- accidentally took a 3 hour nap instead of continuing to work on art and edits for answers today) #((well. yesterday. semantics.)) #there are like. 3 or 4 posts I REALLY want to queue SO SO BADLY from when i was going through older blogs before. but. the source links... #they're all broken... or in the case of one gif- the poster noted that they had no idea who made the gif #and i like to give credit where credit is due. yknow? #((one of them is this little scott and kim interaction and I am like Gripping My Head in Anguish with how I so long to queue it....)) #((i need more scott and kim content. not even talking ship stuff you guys please just give me them bickering i will love you forever)) #(i mean i do have little things w them i can draw myself. but then I have to do it... so i like it less... /hj) #((i need money in a transferable format. so I can. commission more of them hanging out. this is the solution realistically...)) #((*sighs*)) #anyway. idk this is probably a false alarm again.. I think the last 3 times I've been like ''oh the queue is gonna run out!'' I've managed + #+to find more posts to cram in there. so watch me eat my fucking words i guess shdjdhdbfnddn #i guess if i wanted I could queue more of my screenshots from SPTO E1.... hm... #(we'll see what happens. although i suppose now is your chance to sound off if you want me to do that) #ooc #txt #actually. additional note. some people have before- but if you ever see a post and you're like ''oh! i haven't seen this here yet'' you are+ #+super welcome to send me the post and I'll queue it up. i try to see as much as i can but. we can probably assume which tags i camp out in+ #+more. #(also. sometimes stuff just. doesn't show up in the tags/for me. bc this is a hellsite. 😔) #((love this site though. please never die- tumblr-- maybe just. actually get better for once.... *grimacing at Recent/Ongoing Events*))