#idk idk idk! i don't think that will be the case but who knows. im usually wrong

[sunsetzer]

On one hand, I want a final fantasy 6 remake, because the game is criminally underrated and the amount of fan content (which is all absolutely fantastic btw) is Not Enough for my neurodivergent, hyperfixating brain.

On the other hand, that would inevitably encourage more people to join the fandom, which would be great, except it seems these days the bigger a fandom gets the more toxic it becomes, and I really like what we have going on over here in our little corner. We all just love the game and its characters and nobody fights about who should and shouldn't date who or who you shouldn't like because they're ~problematique~. Nobody's trying to make one ship morally better than another, nobody's calling anyone names or threatening to doxx people who don't agree with their opinions. It's so peaceful and I love that for us. We're just vibing. Moisturized. Unbothered. In our lane. Flourishing.

#as someone who was in an extremely toxic and chaotic fandom and lowkey still traumatized #to the point where I'm afraid to mention which fandom it was/what my ship was #i have to say #i genuinely love it here #i was nervous at first sharing my ships and headcanons but everyone is so chill i was worried for nothing #thank you to everyone I've interacted with who has made this fandom a healing experience for me #i shudder to think about what some of the people i interacted with in a previous fandom would do with ff6 #probably would take edgar's flirting at face value and call him problematic for objectifying women #instead of considering the narrative and what we know about him and the way he actually treats women #my man drinks loving and respecting women juice he's not a creep #or that weird moment with relm that admittedly made me double take before i realized what he meant #theyd have a whole campaign against him lmfao #bc those people boil characters alive until they're just a formless pile of tropes and stereotypes #and seem to disregard all positive aspects of a character they don't like which is fine #but then they go and try to force other people to think like they do and ugh #theres a lot of silly moments in the game and aspects of these characters that make them well rounded and realistically flawed at times #and i fear that would get lost in the chaos if the floodgates opened after a remake #maybe im just jaded lmao #im jaded and i have anxiety so im always thinking about The Worst Case Scenario #the collective positive spirit of the dwellers in this fandom might actually foster a positive space if more people were to come in #ff6 #my post #i was gonna say maybe this is bc we're mostly adults #but that falls flat when i remember how some of the most toxic and immature people in some fandoms are grown ass adults #who bully each other and younger fans #and some of the most mature and cool people were actually younger #maybe ff6 fans are just built different lmao #also idk how old anyone else actually is there might be teenagers here i just don't think about it a lot

[angry-roomba-army]

what if the journals ranging from jealousy to near worship weren't that bad what if it was just william's gay ass theater kid poetry about his crush that looked really bad to a divorced police officer without context. i don't actually think that's what happened its just fun to think about. like what if

#angry roomba whirrs #five nights at freddys #fnaf #william afton #william afton fnaf #fnaf william afton #do you think hes a cannibalism as a metaphor for love kinda guy or does he go for a more catholic guilty ohh my love is corruption angle #like i dont really know much about catholic gulit or catholicism in general cause im not a catholic but like ive seen the tumblr posts #and the gay religious fanart #oh shoot i forgot to tag willry #willry #willry fnaf #fnaf willry #ok done PHEW #so anyway like what would a divorced police officer know about romance? firstly hes a cop secondly hes divorced so clearly not much #and we all know william hes theatrical hes a romantic or at least he seems like the romantic type im kinda jumping to conclusions here #so he would write gay ass theater kid poetry about his crush! he would! #and then when some normie ass unpoetic cop reads his DIARY of course hes not gonna understand the poetic passages dedicated to his love #like HELLO????? thats not ““““raving”””” its a SOLILOQUY come on man #and! he read his DIARY. like idc that he was investigating a murder you! dont! read! peoples! diaries! #if i were will and someone read my diary i would be so horrified like im surprised that HE wasnt the one who built a suicide bot after that #also! if you picked a random ass average target goer probably likes golf or something and showed them cannibalism as a metaphor for love #poetry they probably wouldn't see the poetic devotion part of it i think that they might think that you're crazy #or maybe. im just severely underestimating the poetic literacy of the average golf playing target goer that could be true #but anyways maybe thats what happened between clay and will like clay saw his poetry and was like yeah this is weird #oh shit i just realized a lot of the contents of williams diary are just public knowledge now like at least a mention of the raving passage #has to be somewhere in the case file just for anyone to access. oh god they live in a small town too word travels fast ohhh crap #well he kind of brought it upon himself like idk maybe don't kill children and your diary won't be read #by poetically illiterate and romantically stunted divorced cops #sorry im yapping. im yap deprived i needed to yap cough cough yeah that's me coughing from how yap deprived i am cough cough cough

[soldier-poet-king]

Saw a possum in the wild* for the first time ever in my life today so like, whatever happens, at least there's that

*outside of travelling in the US, I mean in the wild where I live

#franposting #objectively i knew possums could exist here #theyre just not at all common #because racoons are a dime a dozen here #urban creachures and much better suited to canada winter #so like. the geographic spread of possums was like. well i GUESS we could have them #but i had never SEEN ONE JUST. CHILLIN IN THE STREET #i almost wept. theyre my scrunkly lil guys #why the day after a snowstorm is the first time i see one idk #i refuse to think it a bad thing #if its bad for the possum dont tell me. i don't want to know #im the person who cries if i accidentally kill a snail. i cant handle this #i mean. if the possum dies its not my fault like the snail #but STILL #im a put the bug outside person. dont kill it #Unless its a mfing spider or centipede in which case this is no mercy percy

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

see sometimes I try and think about it all more logically. what if it was all happening to a friend. my friend!! you completely forgot to feed your kitten his wet food for five days? you haven't drunk water for a couple of days? you didn't shower or change your clothes for four days? you've only eaten two actual meals in the last two days? your average sleep in the last week is around five hours? my friend, you need help.

since it's me, I don't need help.

#most of it has been genuine forgetfulness/zoning out and 'oh it's 2am' #but like. last night i was lying awake hungry as anything bc all I had was dinner and not a great deal of that. if id been in a house on my #own i would've hopped up and got smth but i couldn't in case of disturbing grandma #(I have since purchased things that I will store near my bed that I can either take out of there #or leave them there for any such emergencies. if you call them emergencies. sometimes if i can't handle eating normally if i can't see what #im eating i can manage that - makes it less real somehow.) #honestly tho i am shocked by how immediately all my carefully created routines have fallen apart tbh #should i talk to my lecturer at uni who does the 12-2 class? to check she's ok with me eating in class? bc otherwise i will likely not eat #anything before dinnertime. probably skip breakfast #i don't know. i don't know anything. i love my course i love it so much and i don't know how i'll handle it #but i don't think i'd handle not doing it #idk im just so tired man #depression does a number on you frfr #okay that's it im turning on the heater finding some music and doing a lil dance. see if i feel better. maybe try a bit of hot water with #ginger or smth livening in it. i do want to try that. something to wake you up. ive been in a dead depressed limbo for five hours straight #and done nothing of use #tw ed #good news tho i find my anxiousness overall reduces the more depressed i am xD idk why lol #personal #puddleglum hours

[dreamiara]

what do you think are the chances that dnf announce they are dating this june from 1 (no way) to 10 (they will do it while singing heatwaves)?

oh sorry anogie i completely missed that it's definitely a strong 9 though

#anon #nah im kidding i think that in reality they won't officially announce it for at least a few years #i don't think it would be the safeat option to do it now because idk..people love the idea of gay people but actual gay people.. #you know how it is #i think we'll get something dan and phil style at best and until then it's a case of the girls who get it get it #sorry maybe it's the pole in me

[angelthanatology]

i think maybe it's either kendall and he "wins" and it's a horror story, a cautionary tale. or it's kendall and he "wins" but he purposefully ruins it and it's a bittersweet letter to hope in a cruel world

#succession #idk idk this is what makes most sense to me but maybe it'll be something entirely different #i guess he could also be ruined by someone else like the accident finally biting him in the ass but idk idk how that would play out #i guess shiv could use it and out him. but they will never let her get the top job as a pregnant woman #maybe she gets an abortion or something but i doubt that's something that can happen in a finale idk #maybe roman does but he's already out of the circle #idk idk idk! i don't think that will be the case but who knows. im usually wrong

[grandwretch]

redemptive death is the laziest trope in western literature i think. redemption should take work. to have it undone with one act where they don’t even have to confront their own ills is a disservice. both the character and the other characters they’ve harmed deserve better. more zukos, less kylos. please. 

#stranger things has a huge problem with this #in the case of both billy and eddie btw #like i know theres some debate about whether or not eddie's death was even meant to be redemptive or if it was suicide #but idk like in the case of billy specifically like let me be clear i do not like billy and im not invested in his redemption #but if he was to be redeemed #i want to see him work for it and i want to see him admit what he did #and i want to see the other characters work through their own feelings about it #having them die for others and then the characters have to accept it is like #so manipulative of the audience? #like manipulation isn't the right word right #but like. okay they made the 'ultimate sacrifice' or whatever so you have to accept that as a cathartic apology #or you're an asshole #and it also puts the CHARACTERS in that position which is a whole other kettle of fish #like i genuinely think we should get more characters who are pissed their enemies died rather than apologise #because now they don't even get a choice whether to forgive them or not #anyway #killing characters can be fun but also sometimes people use it as a way to be lazy #[gestures to the entire action genre and all the dead wives]

[sugaroto]

I did it :D

I changed seats

During the 1st hour I was sjnzjdjsjd-ing again and couldn't focus and the 2nd hour the teacher was late and so I said fuck it, grabbed my bag and sat on the back

My deskmate was a lil confused and I didn't have time to explain to her why I left, sorry🥲 but I seriously cannot sit in there, especially since I sat on the back yesterday (some people were missing so it didn't seem weird that I moved) but like, in the back I could breathe, in the front it's very crowded

Also I don't think my deskmate minds at all cause the guy who sits on the front moved back with her a few times and they were playing hangman so🤷‍♀️she's doing fine

And only one teacher comment on it :)

-What are you doing in the back? Will you be sitting in there from now on?

-I focus better on the back

-you noticed a difference?

-yeah, I'd rather sit here

At first she thought I couldn't see, which is weird cause I'm wearing glasses, and the problem is that I actually can see better on the front but I focus better on the back, but we don't write that much cause most of the time the teachers are just talking (history doesn't need the board, ancient greek and Latin use it like once a month, so my problem is seeing in math, but I can see so far)

And like a friend noticed I was on the back during the last hour and she was like "Sugar what are you doing in the back?" All sad and she said it was sad or something cause I was so far away and sitting alone and my friend who was sitting in front of me (and knew how much I wanted to change seats) was like "no she likes it better here" and I was like yeah I get stressed on the front and can't focus and some girl was like really?

Yes really, I'm finally breathing again 🥲💘

Now the only teacher who didn't saw I moved was the history teacher and when I moved yesterday she gasped so I'm worried she'll say something

Also, there are two boys in my class who were originally on the back but now both sit on the front and one was kinda forced cause he's sleeping on the back so the history teacher made him move and I think the only reason the Latin teacher didn't continue the subject is bc she understands I'm not trying to sleep on the back bc I'm actually giving Panhellenic exams unlike the guy

And bc the teachers had made both boys move I thought they wouldn't agree with me sitting back but it's fine :)

The math teacher probably doesn't care cause she knows none of us actually cares about math, and also I participate to her class so🤷‍♀️ and the ancient greek teacher was also my teacher last year and I was sitting on the back and I don't think he gives a shit about where someone is sitting cause he knows how to do his job

3 teachers let me be 1 to go

#like... teachers dont really understand it #but ive neen sitting on the back for like at least 6 years (probably more honestly) #and even though there were times in which i wasnt paying attention #when i need to pay attention i do so #in the back i feel like i have more control #i cann see everyone and who raises their hand so if the teacher asks something i can see that other people are participating and decide to #join them #in the front i cant see so when the teacher is picking a student to say the answer idk if its because they raised their hand or bc she just #chose them and if shes choosing at random i don't need to raise my hand and if no-one else is participating i don't consider myself smart #enough to say the answer #also i feel people behind me and that whatever movement i do annoys them even though i know thats not the case i just cant #i focus too much on the people behind me existing that i cant focus on the class #but in the back i can just exist :D in peace and actually pay attention and sometimes i may sketch not like draw something just random #lines or some shit. its kinda calming but if i do it in the front they'll think im not paying attention #which is not true cause even at home i have a paper next to me when i study just to draw lines #most of this might not even make sense but :) it makes sense to me :D #this was long... but ... im also using this blog as a diary and its on my bio so anyone who follows me knew what they were signing up for #:D #sugarenia talks #should i make a diary tag? #sugarenia diary #lol #sugarenia thoughts #sugarenia school stuff #sugarenia teachers #sugarenia has friends #sugaroto

[daeluin]

i don't like sp patrick on my dash. i don't enjoy watching that man. he should be on suicide watch

#ok before someone comes for me: 1) this is mostly a joke. idc what others post #but also not bc 2) a lot of my discomfort around sp/2011-2 patrick stems from my decade held belief that he was suicidal #maybe not consciously/actively or w/e idk im not his therapist. but also idc what he said afterwards. i read that post when it was posted & #my fear and discomfort and reactions are real and yeah i dont think that now but looking back at those years brings them back so 🤷🏾‍♂️ #anyways #suicide tw #<- in case someone has it blocked #but also sry for venting but this is why u will never see me interacting with content from that era??? #im always like :| i shouldn't be seeing this i should be locking up the alcohol cabinet and checking all the sharp blades on the house #which is a RIDICULOUS thought to have in regards to a grown ass man who i don't know but w/e it's how it works on my mind 🤷🏾‍♂️ #anyways this post is dumb idk why im venting im just been really all over the place since yesterday

[somethingaboutvampires]

To the assholes in my office: I'm not 12, can't relate.

#de work #community seating no assigned desks right? been legit bullied out of 4 seats in 5 months #im the youngest person in here i think and most of these out of pocket ppl are in their 60s. i knew i hated gen x for a reason #so i took the largest desk in the area. in the back away from them. if it gets worse or a mirror of yesterday then im thinking of reporting #damn get a life we're not even in the same reporting tree. I got heated then i reminded myself some ppl don't grow out of middle school #not 12. can't relate #and in case you were like 'de how tf you get bullied out of a seat?' lmty. Seats 1&2: ppl assign themselves seats & you can't do #Shit ab it. Seat3: the b next to me loudly declared to her team that she didn't know who i was and wasn't comf sitting next to me #Instead of being a decent human and idk introducing herself to me she's just been weird af since. I left at lunch that day #To wrk from home. seat 4: I've been there a few months. there's a dude who uses this desk sometimes. i left a hello note in the cube #telling him he could use my tissues and whatever and introduced myself. he never wrote back. yest he tried to sit in the cube but #I was there. He didn't introduce himself or talk to me just made a deal ab having to sit behind that cube. then he & this other #dude who literally refuses to say hello or good morning back to me came in my cube and started talking ab what was on my screen #which was a meeting. rude af. not okay. at fucking all #I've complained to my mgr 3 times ab this shit but my team's in another state and they dgaf. Im in my 5th seat rn and just trying not #to care. My boss did say she's heard my office is clique-y. I've been told there's theft here. I'm just trying to get my check #i don't play these games

[clitology]

i think i might be an awful person (cw // rant in tags)

#lately ive been thinking a lot about myself & who i am as a person & how i treat other people #idk if it's intrusive thoughts but i am afraid i will cheat on someone. really hurt someone #i had reached the conclusion that im 'not fit to date yet' many months earlier & honestly i just accepted it #but i went out w old friends today & the relationship questions kept coming up so much #i just. didn't know how to explain myself #not that i have to. not to my old school friends in any case #but just to myself. i don't even think it's that i think im unloveable #in fact im all the more scared of someone falling in love w me & me not being able to love them back & hurting them #& it's just. so much more random stuff. like i feel like i don't love my parents or family enough #that i would probably not even feel bad if a loved one were to fall ill #idk idk im sick thinking of it #but even just the fact that i can't convince myself otherwise either. like i can't defend myself against myself? #only thing that i have evidence for is that i did really love my last partner so yes i am capable of love #& not completely cold inside #but then i think of all my friendships. & i have never kept up w any of them. i am one of those people who just let go of their friends #as soon as whatever situation we were in (school work or college) is over. our friendship is over from my side #& it's not even something that struck me as bad until i fell into this self-incriminating rabbit hole #on some level i do think i only really really care about myself #i just don't know how awful i can be for other people #because rn im in a state where im convinced im awful enough in romantic relationships that i should just not put anyone through dating me #the conclusion is that i am probably an awful person who is going to probably end up alone in life #but that will probably be for the better of all people #on one level i can make peace w that #but on another i see no point in living if im living solely for myself & not for the love & joy of humanity #personal <3

[jayskai]

I'm not disagreeing I'm not trying to start anything and I too think ztd junepei is insane (positive) but I just want to know if you remember Junpei hits Akane like twice in that game because NO ONE EVER DOES IT DRIVES ME INSANE WHY IS THAT THERE THEY'D HAVE PROBLEMS BUT THAT'S NOT ONE

yes i remember it happened but also I just finished the game so tbh im thinking more about the ending than about the other stuff rn 😭 but yeah i think they have enough issues already and those scenes weren't necessary, but i kinda think it was a bit ooc so i don't overthink it tbh,,

#also idk if you just sent this because you were genuinely curious to know if i remember/acknowledge it #but just in case. i dont feel the need to add disclaimers to my posts about media #if i like a ship with some questionable dialogue or scene chances are im aware of it but it doesnt make me dislike it #so i wont mention it that often because i dont think its necessary to say it #also idk if theres ppl who don't like him bc of this?? but when i said i find ztd junpei criticism annoying it wasn't about That either #i mean it was just a silly post saying how much i like a ship that almost everyone in the fandom likes #i wasnt going to write an analysis about the ship or anything 😭 #(also im not trying to be rude either so sorry if it sounds like that lol!) #asks #ztd spoilers #<- jic

[wasabikitcat]

Tumblr positivity posts will be like

"I love you people who put their shoes on one at a time after putting each sock on. I love you people who's favorite color is yellow. I love you people who chew on their pens. You do not deserve to be seen as horrible evil monsters that everyone secretly hates, the people who think that are wrong. Don't ever feel insecure about those things even though people may hate you for them. You are not broken <3"

#dont take this post too seriously im just being cynical #sometimes i just take positivity posts as kind of back handed. they're like 'that symptom you have isnt annoying and unlovable' and its like #i didn't think it was?? i wasn't aware that people think that thing i do is annoying but now i know i guess... #thank you for alerting me to the knowledge that people dislike me for things i cannot control. #this isn't always the case obviously and you can never predict who is and isn't going to see your post so im not the target audience i guess #but i feel a little patronized by ADHD positivity posts that are like 'you are not a broken person for having bad time management uwu' #it's the phrasing. idk don't listen to me im just a hater right now.

[catfishofoldin99colours]

I know I'm not the best at managing my emotions and I've bitched about people plenty in my time but it still always catches me off guard when my coworkers talk incredibly nastily about someone else in the office with what seems like reckless abandon, like.

Oh, you. You don't? Try and keep this to yourself? You don't consider this frustration a private thought? You just. Let these thoughts out, in the open, often to me specifically???

Can't quite tell if it's the eldest daughter thing that makes people vent to me or if I just have the Vibe that calls people who want to complain

Very odd. And not pleasant.

#catfish speaks #idk if this is something other people experience a lot #its not like oh everyone vents to me all the time #cos its not that #my actual friendships are based on open communication and if we vent its met with a degree of compassion and consent #like yeah sometimes we forget to ask but most of the time its a 'sorry i forgot to ask' 'no its ok it sounds like it sucks' thing #the important thing is that i care about these peoples frustrations and want to listen and help #with my coworkers its like. i dont know you that well. i didnt even know this was a frustration #and idk did i miss a cue they gave me that signalled they consider me safe to vent to? #cos if that was the case - i feel like im being dumped on but they probably see me as a safe person #and that mismatch isnt anyones fault but i think im the only one realising its a mismatch at all #cos when people do this it makes me uncomfortable #i personally dont want to bitch about the other people in the office #i like them. yeah they can get annoying. so does everyone. so do i. #it feels cruel to speak nastily about them while they're not there with whay feels to me like unjustified anger #but then the people venting may be seeing me as a safe person who they just want to listen to their troubles #and i understand that and empathise with that - everyone wants that! #i jusy dont understand that that is the transaction we're entering until it's actually happening #at which point i am unprepared and unresponsive #i don't want to agree with the bitching i am hearing. but i don't want to deny them their voice. #im also the worst at standing up and disagreeing with someonr especially if theyre upset #so i just noncomittally agree and dont really offer much until they stop talking to me #which. obviously doesnt solve the problem and potentially leaves a broken trust between us #WHICH WAS UNSPOKEN AND ASSUMED THE ENTIRE FRICKIN TIME #its. god. #i dont understand othr people i really don't #anyway. if this resonates pls let me know I'm so curious

[oscill4te]

I think drugs lose their appeal when you are clinically dissociated all the time (different from drug induced disso but still) and feel disoriented and detached at any given time anyway. weed gives u some giggles about it but thats pretty much it

#any drugs that attach you to reality? dont say shrooms ive made my worst life decisions on shrooms #jk not actually looking for recommendations. i dont think any drugs whether psychiatric or recreational can “ground” and bring you back #altho i could be wrong who knows #im 3 months drug free but still so sad beans. so empty beans. and I don't think any sub will ever feel good again #after the holidays im gonna let myself experiment again if i want bc then the hard part of the year is over #but who knows. i may not even want too. as each month passes i realize i was not happy on subs anyway #they just made my hamster-cage life more interesting thats all #txt #ive seen some ppl w dissociative disorders report that it helps them stay grounded so idk. different effects on diff ppl ig idkk #def not the case for me

[bellflower-goat]

<:]

#man. im feeling lucky to live in such a specifically and randomly safe place rn but I won be here for long so that worries me #cause rn I live in a small as fuck town where (at least in the spaces I am closer to) noone gives a flying fuck abt yr gend.er/sexu.ality #like. It's all respectful with maybe some ignorant ppl who ya gotta explain some stuff to bu in terms of being in danger #well not too much yk? like it's safe enough for me n ma brother to be what we wanna and not get questioned abt it #And I feel that the difference is that in the US bitches are too goddamn nosy #Cause like. insert that ''se.xual dimorphism in humans really ant that noticeable'' cause it really is true #Like you can believe whatever you want abt what a wom.an should look like but wom.en in the mercado don't care abt it #Like literally it's hard to believe that ''oh women look like x n men look like y always :)'' when ppl just existing close to me prove #otherwise cause I'll see someone that has more masculine lookin stuff n ppl will call her doña n now I know she's a doña yk? #Or I'll see a very thin girly lookin person n someone will just tell me oh yeah that's Raúl hey there dude :) n that's it! #Like you can't really '' clock'' or guess someone's gender at any given time w strangers #And it's not that hard to ask either ya just gotta be polite #So yeha seeing all this bullshit going on in the US reminds me that yeha I've got it ''good'' n stuffs gonna get harder when I get there #So yeah idk why I was saying this or where I was going with it #guess I was just thinking of some cultural differences between mexico n the us. n like I know that's this isnt the case w the whole #country n that I just got very lucky in terms of where I lice and how safe I am in regards to other places #but yeha. wanted to say something abt for a while