#if you feel uncomfortable im sorry

[spaceshuba]

She's everything

He's just pathetic ididot

#my art #wip #if you feel uncomfortable im sorry #gwen is 20+ don't worry #i love their dynamic it has strong potential #my wips are horrible disaster with many many lines #but i love their emotions #matt is just pathetic and he's obsessed with gwen #and gwen really knows it #she's his goddes okay #beautiful powerful strong goddes #and he's just a matt #earth 65 #matt murdock earth 65 #gwen stacy #spider gwen #i love his void eye btw

[inkskinned]

it is hard to explain without sounding vain or stupid - but the more attractive others find you, the more you're allowed to do. the easier your life is.

i have been on both sides of this. i am queer and cuban. i grew up poor. for a long time i didn't know "how" to dress - and i still don't. i make my sister pick out any important outfits. i have adhd in spades: i was never "cool and quiet", i was the weird kid who didn't understand how "normal" people behave. i was bullied so hard that the "social outcasts" wouldn't even talk to me.

i got my teeth straightened. i cut my hair and learned how to style it. i got into makeup. it didn't matter, at first, if i actually liked what i was doing - it mattered how people responded to it. like a magic trick; the right dress and winged eyeliner and suddenly i was no longer too weird for all of it. i could wear the ugly pokemon shirt and it was just "ironic" or a "cute interest."

when i am seen as pretty, people listen. they laugh at my jokes. they allow me to be weird and a little spacey. i can trust that if i need something, people will generally help me. privilege suddenly rushes in: pretty does buy things. pretty people get treated more gently.

i am the same ugly little girl, is the thing. still odd. still not-quite-fitting-in. still scrambling. still angry and afraid and full of bad things. of course it became my obsession. of course i stopped eating. i had seen, in real time, the exact way it could change my life - simply always be perfect, and things can be easy. people will "overlook" all the other things. i used to have panic attacks at the idea others would see me without makeup - what would they think? even for a simple friend hangout, i'd spend a few hours getting ready. after all, it seemed so obvious to me: these people liked me because i was pretty.

i worry about how much i'm being a bad activist: i understand that "pretty" is determined by white, het, cis, able-bodied hegemonies. if i was really an ally, wouldn't i rally against all of this? recently there's been a "clean girl" trend which copies latinx aesthetics: dark slicked-back hair, hoop earrings. i almost never wear my hair like that; i can hear the middle school guidance counsellor advising me that i might fare better if i toned it down on the culture.

the problem is that i can take pretty on and off. that i have seen how different my life is on a day where i try and a day where i don't. i told my therapist i want to believe the difference is confidence, but it's not. and when you have seen it, you can't unsee it. it lives inside your brain. it rots there; taunting. i get rewarded for following the rules. i am punished for breaking them. end of story.

pretty people can get what they want. pretty people can feel confident without others asking where they got their nerve from. pretty people can be weird and different. pretty people get to have emotions; it's different when they get aggressive, it's pretty when they cry with frustration.

of course people care about this. of course it has crawled into you. of course you want to be seen as attractive. it's not vanity: it's self-preservation.

#pretty in this post is a stand in for . literally all forms of normativity #warm up #tbd maybe idk #ps! hi!! i'm queer!!!!!!!!! it is how i identify! if you tag this 'q slur' i will fight you!!! #i am using it here in the EXACT way it is NOT a slur !! i am identifying as a queer person! #this is EXACTLY how people reclaim it !!! #it's like practically ACADEMIC in this usage!! #please do any reading into what the fuck the history of the word ''queer'' is before telling me #as someone identifying as queer #that i'm a slur. that the place i find comfort in is a slur #''well it makes me uncomfortable if people use it for me'' #im sorry to hear that dude. that sucks. i hope things get easier for you soon #but you don't get to take it from ME #in case you can't tell by the REST of this piece #i DID hear queer used as slur against me. i DID get bullied with it. i DID hear a lot of shit said #i also heard it about lesbians #about ''being gay'' #about pretty much any fucking term that could describe me. #i like queer. i like how it feels. and it's mine. #you don't get to undo the work i've done personally because it makes u uncomfortable #it's ahistoric to pretend like there are ''safe'' ways to identitfy if ur queer. #none exist. it has never been safe to be like this.

[hindahoney]

Jews are allowed to hate Christianity 🤷🏻‍♀️ You know how many Jews have been killed by Christians? How many thousands of years they have persecuted us? How they're still, in many ways, persecuting us because they're angry they didn't supercede us? Christianity has done a lot of harm to us, and so have individual Christians who try to convert Jews on a daily basis.

#im not sorry #im allowed to hate Christianity #and so are any other religious minorities #'but you shouldnt hate a group of people then youre doing the same thing they did to you!' #but do you realize how its not the same because jews are a minority #im allowed to not forgive them for what theyve done to my people #and i dont feel bad about it #the amount of times a Christian has made me uncomfortable because they were trying to convert me #fuck off #judaism #jumblr #jewish #frumblr #antisemitism #jewish history

[spoopy-nevermore-dump]

Hey pssst hey. Have you ever considered: Montada?

I hate it, and it nearly killed my hyperfixation

But I understand my opinion on this may affect others, and many may be hurting from this episode soooooooooo

Art requests open

#nevermore webtoon #i debated on posting this response when you sent it because 1) spoilers but 2) i swear i neededa fucking warning for this shit #“jessie and james vibes” my ass #monty has been giving off major r@pist vibes since his introduction #and while this makes sense as a good angsty plot point for ada. i dint think it should be endgame for a plethora of reasons #the past month ive known about this ive been waiting for the community divide that will probably occur ocer this #and i dont want people to fight #nevermore has been there for me for well over a year. helping me through the days since 11th grade. when i was 16. and im graduated now. 18 #the community has been an absolute blast. even if im not as active on maincord anymore. with life getting busy and just too much to backrea #and im scared of losing that #but hey i got some art coming up in the next few days and I'm about to go to a wedding and you bet your ass im bringing my sketchbook #pls give me requests ive been in idea art block #and i dont think you guys want me making a bunch or horror movie aus cause that may end up in me drawing slight gore eventually #sorry to the other patrons for lying how i felt about this ship #i did truly feel neutral when i first saw it but now it just leaves a bad taste in my mouth #it makes me feel sick #a good part of my feelings towards it is due to how it got talked about in the Patreon streams and how uncomfortable it made me and others

[pickled-flowers]

Also just because you get annoyed by something someone is doing doesn't mean they are evil you can leave us alone

#this is about autistic people. #that guy in you class that is always asking questions? he always raises his hand theres nothing wrong with it #it takes time in the class but that's how he makes sure he understands the subject #and meanwhile every other student decides hes an asshole #that girl who doesnt blink and who cant seem to have a linear conversation is not doing anything wrong #you dont like interacting with her but that doesnt say anything about her you can leave her alone you dont have to bitch behind her back #that person cant read social cues? why are you getting mad? can you shut the fuck up? #it is insane how often some of my friends talk about people who are clearly autistic and are mad at them #no its not because theyre autistic theyre just always interupting! #its not because theyre autistic they just make me uncomfortable! PLEASE LISTEN TO YOURSELF #i swear youre all asshole to us #no respect fr #its so annoying to see you run in a circle trying to justify calling someone an ass for doing literally nothing wrong #youre allowed to feel how you want about other people but you always jump to bullying #and whenever i try to make them realize they get so deffensive #just because you grew up with an autistic brother does not make you a fucking expert youre not even close to him!! #ok sorry im gonna go hit my bong im getting too angry lol

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[crushedsweets]

WHY EVERYONE SUDDENLY STARTED TO HATE NINAKATE?????

I THOUGHT WE ALL LOVED OUR FELLOW LESBIANS, WHY DO YOU FEEL CRINGE NOW?????

I don’t think it’s everyone!! I think the ship just isn’t that popular to begin with, but me my friends and my anons like it! But it is REALLY random. Totally get why people might be thrown off unless they’re in the same bubbles as me LOL

I just love it cuz 1. Fits perfectly in my AU 2. I love butch/femme couples 3. My fave songs work perfectly for Ninakate 4. They fit tropes I like 5. THEYRE ME AND MY GF!!!

I think it’s okay if people don’t ship it and even if people hate it HAHA it’s not everyone’s cup of tea and that’s cool! If people are making you feel uncomfortable over a fictional ship come to my inbox I will do a mspaint Ninakate doodle. Trust. I got u.

#asks #it only makes me uncomfortable when the dislike is clearly about me/my work HAHA just stings bit cuz it feels more personal BUUUT #i always just block/filter stuff! its never that deep #always cater your internet experience to yourself! im really sorry you felt frustrated!

[dishsaop]

if you can read this, im not vagueposting abt you. but its real fuckin weird how some people think their pet photos are healing to other people. your kitty and your puppy are lovely but sending me pictures of them are not magically making me feel better and its actually kind of weird that you think it would

#i like animals a lot! animals deserve nothing but care and respect! #fuck my allergies; if im at a party and there is a pet i am ditching every person to go hang out with the animal #but if i tell u i am sad and u go ah. here. this will cure you. 12 pictures of my dog. dont you feel better now? #no. its weird. thats weird #that is a photograph of someone elses animal and i have depression #'demeaning' isnt the right word and idk the word im looking for exactly but its like- #-idk theres something not quite insulting abt the like... assumption that this will make me better #this is SUCH a negative post im sorry lol i genuinely love seeing photos of my friends pets and hearing the stories and all #i love animals #its just. uncomfortable and. um. belittling? (still not the exact right word) to assume my struggles are healed by. some pixels of an anima #that i dont even have a relationship with #ALL OF THIS IS TO SAY i told an irl friend im having a bad time and they... spammed me with dog photos and went ah are u better now #no. im worse actually.

[termagax]

i hate to make the cr thing sound like a dumb ship war but they canonically had beauregard confess to being in love with her best friend, the party member she was objectively closest to and had the best chemistry with, to whom she was the turning point for her entire major character arc, and then immediately walked it back to pair them up with the characters they flirted with in episode 1 and had no chemistry with. and then spent the rest of the series making arguably lesbiphobic jokes about it.

#NO CHEMISTRY AND IN JESTERS CASE SHE HAS AN ENTIRE ARC ABOUT HOW SHE DIDNT ACTUALLY WANT TO BE WITH #THE GUY THEY PAIRED HER WITH. LIKE SHE HAD A WHOLE ARC LIKE WOW IM PROJECTING ONTO FJORD BECAUSE I WANT A STORYBOOK #ROMANCE BECAUSE ITS WHAT I BELIEVED I NEEDED TO BE A REAL ADULT WITH A FUFILLING LIFE NOT BECAUSE OF ANYTHING ABOUT HIM #AND WHEN HE RETURNED MY ADVANCES I WAS UNCOMFORTABLE BECAUSE I DONT ACTUALLY WANT TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM #I WONDER WHAT THIS COULD POSSIBLY INDICATE ABOUT MYSELF AND HOW I SEE RELATIONSHIPS. HOW DO I FIND WHAT I REALLY WANT. BEAU YOUR MUSCLES #LOOK REALLY GOOD TODAY. BEAU IM SORRY EVERYONE SAYS YOURE MEAN I DONT THINK YOURE MEAN. BEAU YOURE THE ONLY PERSON I FEEL LIKE IM ALLOWED #TO BE MYSELF AROUND BEAU YOU MAKE ME FEEL FREE TO EXPRESS MESSY EMOTIONS THAT SCARE ME BEAU LETS GET MATCHING TATTOOS #and then. wimp.womp shes back with fjord because for some reason weve decided beaujester isnt a viable endgame option :T

[13eyond13]

.

#Sorry but since I am on year 6 of running this blog I have little patience for people being weird at me here now #and im too tired for it and going to block you if i feel like you continuously make my blogging experience uncomfortable #I like reblogging the art and memes and seeing what's going on but not fielding the weird stuff so I'm turning asks off and also #I don't want to answer ask-like questions in private messages either but I can't turn them off completely #or else I would turn them off too... so not trying to be mean but please don't send me any more #if I didn't answer you there the last time. I'm saying this bc I like interacting w most of yall but at this moment I want it to be #not as an ask blog... but just chilling next to you as some guy looking at memes if that makes sense #I might turn asks on again sometime later on if I actually have new stuff to talk about #like when duff note finally comes out #This is not directed at most people here but just a couple btw thx! #p

[diabollicallyangelic]

Wow.

#shes always fucking like this #shes akways mad at us #and talking like this to us #and shes like “i guess im the villain even though im just trying to help ” #NO THE FUCK YOU AREN'T #you FAIL to recognize when we're feeling uncomfortable scared or distressed. #i do understand I'M the problem sometimes. i fail to do things #but you make me feel like i want to fucking drown myself every time i do mess up #i never feel good enough #and you hsve said thst you've never wanted kids in the first place TO MY FACE #I'm sorry you're going through things #i understand and see that you are struggling as well #and i know it's hard to help others when you yourself need help #but you not recognizing what the limit is and what your words and actions say #has made me feel like i dont deserve to live #and i dont deserve love #i feel broken #and i feel inhuman #and its your fault #im acting more adult than you and that speaks volumes

[enden-k]

im sorry to hear people are stomping all over your boundaries, big props to you for sticking up for yourself and putting your foot down. I hope you're doing ok (/gen)

on another, hopefully happier note, i noticed your info post mentions that you self ship! I'd love to hear about your favourite self ships if you're comfortable talking about them some time?

i actually never did or had interest in this but then haitham waltzed in so hes the first and only one (this whole thing flusters me so its smth i indulge in for myself in private by reading or daydreaming or sometimes i babble and ramble about him very in depth)

(most hkvthm things i draw is just me going 'wish that was me' and drawing it LMFAO)

ohh also same w kaveh but in a slightly different way than haitham (theyre both the only ones) i want them to hold hands. i want them to hold my hands. there

#i dont feel attraction to ppl irl mostly bc im just not comfortable around ppl #and the ones i am are my friends and theres obv no romantic attraction #so when i saw haitham and learned more and mroe of him and how he and i share so many traits and ideas and things it was #instant comfort and the feeling of being understood #that its like #if he was real i would seek out his warmth and presence instead of getting away frm it like with my ex partners when it was too much for me #knowing that he would understand me therefore knowing how to handle me without making me uncomfortable or upset #uhh so basically. he made me realize all i want is just someone who perfetly understands me and knows how to treat me #when to come close and when to give me space #perfectly knowing me and reading me #i cant speak and in the rare moments i am able to im often struggling to form my thoughts into sentences that make sense #so he would still understand and put together that garbled mess and know exactly what i mean #not misunderstanding and acusing me of things or tones i never said or used #ppl and things messed me up quite a bit in the past that im having trouble w lots of things unless im alone #only when im alone i feel truly comfortable and safe bc nothing can hurt or upset me but even then you kinda realize in some moments that #you actually want someone with you but it has to be smn you trust and who knows you inside out and all that #i dont have anyone like that and idk if i ever will but rn this character is jsut rotating in my head giving me these things i crave and #thats enough #sorry that was a lot of gay rambling there but yea idk if it sounds stupid or nah but my #mental health issues got way better and balanced ever since haitham so he really #grounds me and gives me strength and comfort to deal with things i would have be unable to do in the past year #bc even if i dont have smn who truly knows and understands me #inside me there is someone #reply #tags tbd #in case i get embarrassed LMFAO

[steelycunt]

system where when i talk to men i start a countdown from ten million and stop at the point they ask me ‘what’s your ethnicity??’ and that’s the amount of money they have to pay me

#to be clear im not claiming there’s something inherently wrong about ever asking anyone that question in any situation. what i am saying is #that considering how often i am asked it by men and only men usually within very little time of meeting me #it has never not made me feel weird or uncomfortable. because it is only ever men who consistently and immediately ask me this question. #and i know why they’re asking. thinking of this one time at the club where this blokes female friend introduced us at his request and after #exchanging names his very first question was and i quote ‘what are you mixed with’. like im sorry am i mad here or is that a really #fucking weird thing to do. like why do they consistently ask that in the first conversation you have with them #it always gives the impression they haven’t really been listening to anything you’ve said they’ve just been waiting to ask that question. #lol. anyway boy i met today lasted a few hours and seemed nice and then he simply had to know because he was ‘so curious’ 👍🏽 #(ridi's) bigmouth strikes again

[mcybree]

Random limlife Scott rant, GO!

I got this ask and decided that I’d give it my best shot but got so mad on my skim through some of the moments I remembered that I gave up.

#Okay im half joking #I got angry enough for me to decide that writing a post without careful consideration would probably lead to an inaccurate little ramble #I need to like. actually sit down and watch limlife and do a full overall analysis #because the context for how scott acts each season is so important. a skim just wont do #The reason I dont have notes on him to share with the class already is because when it was coming out I was pretending that— #Scott grew as a person after 3l and I wanted to believe that so badly I started making stuff up about memory erasure and limlife being— #dubiously real so that I could look the other way when scott started being weird about jimmy again #I was like yeah they barely remember it thats why scotts being uncomfortably weird about jimmy this season #not because scott doesnt think about jimmy like a person and just wants to hear him say words that make him feel better about his— #rough relationship history #not because the idea of jimmy gaining independence from him makes him feel insecure or anything #sighs. sorry im just saying things. again its been a while since ive watched it so I need to actually. Yknow. Watch it before making posts #Its just crazy how he treats it like proving a point more than actually caring #“I mightve given you the 30 minutes last week if youd said love you” he wouldnt have. he was already leaving when he said it #he’s literally just trying to get him to feel bad about not saying it #pretty sure he kills jimmy in the same episode he lets jimmy kill him. Like. He doesnt really care like that #He just likes to pretend that he does. He is going through the motions of caring #Its like he needs to believe jimmy still needs him. in like a possessive way. Its really weird man #I will say though since I see this a lot: I dont think him singling out tango in the 30 seconds scene was intentional #because if im being honest. I dont think he sees the ranchers as anything serious #He assumes tango was just putting up with jimmy bc he had to. He doesnt think tango actually cares about jimmy #in his mind no one actually cares about jimmy. because if scott struggled to care about jimmy and Scott is known for being an amazing ally #that must mean everyone else struggles to care about jimmy. If that makes sense #rant over I think. tldr limlife scott analysis postponed until I get my life together enough to be able to sit down and watch forthree hour #bree barks so fucking loud #asks