#if you wanna hold that against me

[roostertuftart]

Look I dont think youre wrong about people not listening to jewish voices but I am uncomfortable with you advocating so strongly for some groups while being shitty with others like when you liked a post by a racist justifying their use of the nword in the past and never talked about it. Jewish people need to be spoken for but how you pick and choose is suspicious and you cant expect other people to admit their biases when you cant admit your own.

??? Are you seriously trying to say that my concern for someone who was clearly in the midst of a mental breakdown makes it so that I can't support another person trying to speak about how depictions of a character are somewhat problematic???? This is. pathetic but thanks for trying to word it in the most uncharitable way possible lol.

edit: god i definitely worded these tags aggressively so I'm probably gonna make a real apology though I'm not even certain I did what anon is accusing me of??? either way my aggression is more towards them for trying to twist this situation so grossly and not towards anyone genuinely affected by whatever I apparently did (And I am not denying I did... I genuinely don't remember but like... Yeah it was definitely not great on my part if I did what they're saying even if my intentions were different, and the fact that I'm unsure is evidence enough to me that I might have)

Moreover, i have a hunch this anon has sent me bait before and I think it's nasty they're trying to twist an issue about antisemitism into whatever stupid beef they have with me. like... nasty.

Final edit: Any more asks from this anon are being deleted. I wouldn't have even published this one but I feel like that would be sort of hiding any wrongdoing i may have done at any point, but I genuinely do not believe this person means anything they're saying and are only doing this because for whatever reason they do not like me. and I. do not care lol

#if anyone wants to know context... There was a user who i will not name who had been going downhill for months #and this person had never been like... nasty or bigoted or anything in the past #but had began posting about being extremely suicidal and planning such. and a lot of other really dark hopeless shit #and suddenly started to post really bigoted but kind of deranged shit that like... clearly not of their actual beliefs but just. god idek #i've been around a ton of people who have had nervous break downs and the likes. and i was positive they were going through that #i still think it must have been. idk for sure but like. damn it was so sudden a shift #and with all of the suicidal stuff they posted i was gen really worried and I DMed them trying to support them multiple times` #because like! i'm sorry you've never dealt with anyone who isn't well but sometimes extremely mentally ill people do random fucked up #shit that may not be okay and they may need to be held accountable for but goddamn i was legitimately worried they were gonna off #themselves? idr liking their posts. i'm not gonna deny i did. I might've just to show them that i wasn't ignoring whatever shit they were #going through to make them suddenly act so erratic and irrational #if you wanna hold that against me #fine. i really don't care #looking back i probably should've kept my concern for them within dms and i can definitely recognize how my public support might come off #as support for what they said or posted and i do genuinely apologize for that... tbh if people really think it's necessary I will turn #these tags into a cleaned up apology like... i'm not saying that i handled that great #but to act like it's as simple as i supported a racist saying the n word? uhh??? no?? and you know that's not what happened #but please try to paint me as bad as possible lmao. just throw out accusations or assumptions of my intentions. #i'm apologizing rn to anyone genuinely affected by that stuff but you didn't ask this out of concern anon #ask #anon

[aueua]

love these guys. the musical chairs

#[art #.png] #[2023.zip] #deltarune #dr sweet cap'n cakes #have been meaning to do something with my verse of guys. this is close enough and now.. i am . uh. free #gif #oh. you're reading this? well. #DON'T TELL ME YOU HAVEN'T HEARD OF THE SWEET CAP'N CAKES. SWEET CAP'N CAKES CYBER FIELDS' BEST MUSICAL TRIO AND THE LAST RESISTANCE AGAINST #THE BIG BAD QUEEN AND ALL HER CREW AND THAT STARTS WITH RESISTING YOU NUH UH UH C #WHAT WANNA SEE WHAT WE GOT YO YO CAN YOU HANDLE THIS hold ONTO your ANTENNAS !! how was THAT did you get ROCKED

[inkyquince]

I love that dark urge is officially THE red flags character. Harr harr lazael and shadowheart and astarion red flags yada yada NO

The conversation players have about those three ? Those three have that conversation about the dark urge.

"I've always loved the colour red..." Astarion says dreamily after gale mentions some of your red flags, while you're beating the shit outta someone in the back

You say something incredibly off putting about the violence in your head? Lae'zel's breath quickens and the faster she gets her thighs clamped around your head, the better.

Shadowheart? Fuckin forget it. You threaten a man within an inch of his life and she just thinks, *till the room smells, till everyone in camp knows your name, till- wait, not till, we're not stopping-*

EVEN THE SENSIBLE ONES??

I can't talk about halsin cuz I'm WRITING that rn, but Gale getting flustered as you wash the blood from your hands? Wyll practising sword play (ehe) with you and needs to dunk himself in cold water afterwards because you're so aggressive and FORWARD. Karlach just gets going watching you tend to your weapons, wiping down the blood from the blades and the quarterstaff and from your boots, with slow precision.

I just think it's neat to be able to officially play THE red flags character that no other red flag character could even attempt to defeat

Edit: EVEN THE FUCKING EMPEROR?? RED FLAGS GALORE??? MASTER MANIPULATOR AND NASTY? hold his hand again, please, he likes it.

#bg3 #i love the dark urge too much #ngl ID ROMANCE THE DARK URGE #*oooo you wanna kill me but the raw love you hold makes you fight against your basic urges? fuck me raw* #astarion #gale of waterdeep #baldurs gate 3 #lae'zel #shadowheart #karlach #wyll ravengard #the dark urge #the emperor

[sea-buns]

Holy fuck, man. What a trip Fearne has been on, huh?

You tell her how grateful you are to have her in your life, you flatter her, you tell her you need her, that you have to do this together. You have her make a promise that has this woman, born of chaos and fey, agreeing through shaking hands and a trembling voice.

You make her deceive your friends; you make her follow where they cannot know; you make her help you into this contraption; you make her feed this thing into you despite the fact that you both have been warned extensively of the risks. You make her watch you crumble and splinter and shatter and fracture and burst and implode. You make her watch you die, over and over and over and over, for a minute in agonizing bullet time.

You make her do all these things, because when she tries to back out, when she tries to not be the one who let you do this—how could you do this—

you tell her, "YOU PROMISED."

Because if there's one thing you know, it's that the fey do not break a promise.

#cant wait for her to fucking pissed for a very long time. shes really packing the entire human experience in a very short period of time. #critical role #cr spoilers #c3e77 #fearne calloway #ashton greymoore #bells hells #just gonna get ahead of the um actually mfs and state that i am aware that its not confirmed that thats why ash brought up the promise #but boy howdy would it make for some great drama down the line huh? #edit: apparently i did not get ahead enough cuz ive had to turn off replies #since ppl were somehow interpreting this mini introspection piece as me infantilizing fearne?? #anyway the first line is now changed to something a bit more neutral. after sleeping on it i do see how it was a bit aggressive at the top #other than that im not sure how else to reword without completely disregarding the core of the post #i might make more posts addressing this but im not sure yet. i wanna try to approach it in the best way possible. #but if it helps any the point of the post was not to say fearne had no agency. she had plenty of moments where she tilted one way or the #other. the POINT was to just shine some light on the emotional pressure she had been put under. #hasnt your friend ever asked you to keep a secret or promise that felt wrong or unsafe or made you anxious? #it has nothing to do with the amount of agency she had. ash wasnt holding a knife to her throat and forcing her to follow against her will #all i was trying to do was take this detail about his reminder of the promise that i thought was interesting and have some fun writing an #overview of the kinda stress she was under BEFORE theyd reached that scene. this entire ep was everyone discussing how grateful they were #for this family theyd made. and while im not saying ash was PURPOSELY emotionally manipulating fearne.. #there is a level of unintentional manipulation when you pair the severity of his request with the convo theyd had 2 seconds prior #as well as the desperate need they all have to save each other NO MATTER WHAT. #ash was giving incredibly strong energy of a friend who peer pressures you into helping them do something that you know in your gut WILL #cause problems. hes a fucked up guy. theyre all fucked up guys. even if he didnt mean to “force” her into anything the pressure was THERE. #<- i feel like all of this overall gets my message across. i think maybe ill clean it up later into its own post. #im gonna try not to rush myself to get it done tho. #im under no obligation to explain myself. especially when ppl approach the misunderstanding by being rude af. but i do think it CAN #be clarified so id at least like to try to some degree

[moeblob]

for my fake mmo plot here take my beloved two grown men and their online daughter who doesnt have tact (they try to teach her how to be nice online and unfortunately it's not going super well)

Mister Delta - a mage in game who really enjoys PvP and is a high ranker. He's a teacher irl and his last name is Change so he made a stupid chemistry joke for a username.

Lord Kappa - wanted to be King Kappa but it was taken so he's just vibing with a different honorific. Is a chef irl. Has a very big crush on Delta.

Little Lambda - the actual teenager (like baby teen, 13/14 or something) who doesn't really have friends in school. Mostly interacts with her dad irl who calls her "little lamb" and when she realized it was taken online, she googled "words that start with lamb" and went with lambda with no further research. Has zero online etiquette but she's working on it..... kinda.

(her apology was "I'm sorry that you're gay and didn't want people to know" and so Kappa was like "great thank you for this apology." and now he's like WELP my crush knows I'm gay now but we're online so it's fine and nothing will come from this and it's fine)

#my characters #mmofail #delta is such a funny character to me cause hes getting dunked on constantly by the others in the guild that are adults #and hes like dude trust me high schoolers dunking on you is way worse #then he and kappa find out lambda is an actual child and both are like we have to look after her #the online world is a scary place lets protect her #and then lambda doesnt MEAN TO but is constantly insulting and picking on kappa #but really kappa doesnt hold it against her bc she does actually sound a bit guilty when apologizing #so its not like shes being forced to and doesnt wanna! its just she doesnt know how #and hes willing to be the one that gets slammed by a kid online if shes willing to learn and she is! just slowly

[gibbearish]

ive seen ppl saying smth in the wider plagiarism discussion to the tune of "don't worry anxious people, it's impossible to accidentally plagiarize!" and i feel like that lacks a lot of nuance that anxious brains like mine latch on to to just dismiss the possibility outright, as well as a lack of life experiences fueling it.

it is possible to "accidentally plagiarize" in that you can read something, forget about it, then a while later have your brain spit the ideas back out without telling where it got them. so of course you just assume they're yours and share them as such, because That's Where Most Of The Thoughts In Your Head Come From! and it both is and isn't plagiarism, you weren't /intending/ to pass someone's else's work off as your own, i'd even say in a way you were just as much a victim of misinformation as your audience. but you very much so did still resuse the work of someone else, even if you don't remember it.

but in my experience, this kind of thing also happens to a lot of people. you tell a friend a joke then wake up in a cold sweat two days later realizing the reason they didnt laugh was because they'd told you that joke a month ago. you reply to a friend's text and after sending you realized you ended it with the same exact phrase as theirs. you're writing edgy poetry and write a line you really like only to see it in a text post two days later saying youve already liked the post. like, it happens. so if it DOES happens and you're just honest and explain, people will understand. something like "oh shit im sorry, i totally have read that, i mustve forgotten and only remembered bits and pieces and just thought they were mine. thank you for letting me know and for the source" works wonders.

people know you can forget things. people won't automatically doubt your apology just because all true plagiarists say it was accidental. HOPEFULLY people can understand the nuance between a genuine remorseful explanation, and a thief who hoped no one would find out scrambling for excuses for why they did it. and those who can't, that's a them problem, not a you problem, you've taken responsibility for your actions as much as you can. they think the answer is simple, that the only thing stopping you from saying "yes i did it on purpose, i knew the whole time and deliberately copied them" is shame/inability to admit to your actions. but sometimes things AREN'T that simple, so imo ppl who are shitty to you for not following the script they made up for you in their head should be ignored

#youre allowed to make up scripts for people in fact good luck stopping yourself since thats kinda just part of how conversation works #is you try to predict how your audience will react to a certain statement #and my therapist actually encouraged me to practice run stuff i wanna talk about in sessions because That Makes It Easier To Talk About #like who cares if it's rehearsed‚ it's still the truth‚ yknow? #however that only applies to the things /you/ want to say. you are the only one aware of this script and the only one who agreed to it in #the first place which is why you plan contingencies into the script #is because you only have control over one character and can only take guesses at what the others might say #if you guess wrong and they do something different that doesnt mean /theyre/ not following the script #it means /your/ copy was a misprint and you filled in the blanks wrong. so do what good actors do and improvise. you'll get back on script #eventually. or not‚ if your guesses devolved into wildly speculative fanfiction‚ but frankly you knew going into it that #most of your script was guesswork so you should be prepared to have to make some things up on the fly #or see again: prepare contingencies #if your guesswork on your copy of the script turns out to be wrong‚ wouldnt it be sooo handy to have a second copy which follows this #version of events much better? #and if not that one‚ maybe this third? how about this fourth? etc etc etc #but really just. when guessing at what others will say. know that you are guessing and dont hold it against /them/ if youre wrong #sorry ik that wasnt super related to the post itself im just also passionate abt that #plagiarism #james somerton

[opikiquu]

im going to be so annoying all week

#agghagahah HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH HYYESAAHHHH #★ arin rambles #BRO BRO PLEASLE #PELASE #my apology for everyone. I have to make it now . Sorry. If youre following me destroy that notif button you dont wanna hear how worse i will #get #actually no just Unfollow entirely #ITS THE ADHD #PLEASE. HE IS SO . COOL. his trailer is so awesome IVE REWATECHED IT 3 TIME SNOW. #I LOVE HIMMMMMMM SO MUCHHHHH #I LOVE HIM SO BAD I JUST ADORE HIM PLEASE #HES SO PRETTY. JAW DROPPING. ICONIC. LIFE CHANGING. THE TEARS IN MY EYES. GENUINELY SOBBING RITHT NOW IT S SO OVER #aventurine likers hold me. Nobody understands. Everyone is scared of me im too crazy #actually its everything wrong with me . Hes ruining my life #i dont struggle as an aventurine liker i actually excel at this its my full rime job now #‘9 to 5’ no i work 9 to 9. Every hour is dedicated to him #im glad uguys agree with me thannk uou i was starting to think i was a freak #Well i am but im glad someone else agrees hes cool #Hes so pretty im so happy #I CAMT WAIT RILL WENDENSDAY PLEASE IM GONNA FREAKIFN BLOW UP #I LOVE AVENTURINE. I LOVE AVETURINE. #i get so happy when i see him i get a little violent its unsettling . #like im like shaking my hands and jumping around my room and then u blink and im bashing my head against the floor #its carpet. Im ok. But like not but i am #DUDE. I LOVE. THIS GUY. EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM #i needto. Just. Okay brb gonna watch ir like 20 more times ill see u guys next year im going into a Aventurine induced coma #this makes me realize people read my tags. Oh dear. Sorry everypony #i apologize for my behavior. I will get so much scarier. #HES SO COOL. HES ACTYALLU SO COOL. LIKE HOW CAN SOMEBODY BE SO COOL. #oh god OH LORERDRDRDDDDDDD WHEN I GET YOU BOY WHEN I FIND YOU. WATCH OUT. WATCH OUT I WILL GET YOU.

[ghoulhusband]

i’m obviously incredibly biased but i do think it’s kinda more interesting if the courier isn’t mad that benny shot them. for whatever reason! but especially if they come from similar backgrounds where it’s like “well it was respectful. he clearly didn’t want to kill me specifically it was business. and he basically threw me a funeral while i was still alive” and then their bigger issue is figuring out what to do now that they’re not dead. do they get revenge out of principle, do they try to solve the mystery of it all, do they hunt him down just to ask him to apologize, do they get roped into it by victor, or just general events? idk i obviously understand the revenge angle is very motivating, i just think a courier who doesn’t hate benny is really interesting and fun to play with. and not just because he’s my favorite guy and i could never hold it against him

#like i’ve really changed kitty’s whole thing to be more of a ‘i don’t hold a grudge because this is the fist person i’ve met in a decade who #operates within the societal framework i grew up in and getting shot twice execution style is the best way i was gonna go out. why did you #bring me back to life though because now i don’t remember who i am and i’m simply forced to become a detective and a small time con woman. #*six months later* oh hey it’s the guy who shot me! hey do you have my diary. btw. also do you wanna fuck because i feel a really weird #kinship with you and if we fuck i’ll either get over it or it’ll be your problem’ #but i’ve made other couriers who don’t hold it against him for other reasons (not always romantic. sometimes just ‘yknow i should be mad but #i’m anti violence’ or ‘well i’m fine now so really why would i kill to when i can be a pain in your ass forever which is a way funnier #punishment for attempted murder’ #benny gecko #kitty grave #that’s just for my tagging system lol #courier six #too i suppose

[frodo-with-glasses]

Y’all ready for this??

#beregond #denethor #peregrin took #pippin #faramir #gandalf #lord of the rings #lotr #my art #fig tree au #hey look i made a draw the squad!! #anyway this chapter is Grim but i’ve been staring at it for so long that i think it’s become funny to me so #brace yourselves for that #anybody else wanna get apprehended by beregond so that he can hold you against himself like that?? no? just me? okay 😳 #gandalf in the corner like ‘become a wizard!’ they said… ‘it’ll be fun!’ they said… #‘you won’t have to clean up after idiot mortals every TWELVE SECONDS’ they said!!

[hauntingblue]

making a collection

making another collection with a threatening aura

#davy back fightbpart 3 letsgo #HOW do the three big guns get wasted on the eating contest... horrible plan.... luffy is fine bc well... but not sanji and zoro like damn. #luffy DOESNT WANNA EAT??? CALL THE NAVY!!!! #what was i saying.... bad idea putting the three beasts there #FRANKY FRANKY FRANKY!!!! they captured the two princesses :( #one sided beef squashed between luffy and foxy. friendship ended with random ex marine guy. now luffy is my best friend #usopp and franky bonding time hell yeah. throw usopp by the head once more pelase #nami with zoros swords just like holding them looks so cool like she should get a few swords too... nami three sword style oda drawing pls #i think this man underestimates nami and luffys power together he doesnt know about shiki #luffy saying he knows its a trap and sorry for being late.... lets go on an adventure all nine of us.... usopp yes anding his lie..... omg #cant believe nami isnt there yet. she could take this guy. oh there she is!!!!! she does look cool with the swords and jumping to get luffy #zoro screaming in agony from luffy getting shot omg THIS FUCKING GUY OF COURSE!!! this looks like its so over #zoro and sanji must feel so useless rn. they didnt even get the chance to fight like damn #komei-kakka??? more like come caca. boom #luffy face down dead on the floor akdjkaa chopper have you tried looking at the wound to see if it harmed him idk #it hit the face akdjskn usopp that was coom also #was robin flirting with the other guy and zoro caught her and she told hum to shut up??? #'your friends got the best of me but you are still in my arms an-' 'HEAT EGG!! ALSO YOU'RE ON FIRE!' #flare maneauver that was so slay also luffy and nami in the same frame so twins of them. my children. birthed them one right after the othe #zoro and sanji fighting back to back. back to back to back to you i dont wanna fall right back to us maybe you should run right back to her #that is such a bop song. also post wano zosan. and post wci. see the recurrent theme #fighting in water.... being on top of the sword that was a slay... red hawk ace i will never forget you it seems #foxy liking his jolly roger omg nami fooled him ahdhsjs i think they should have pirate game event every year they yearn for contests #now since this experience foxy should make monthly multitudinary pirate games olympics hoping the strawhats join them a la gatsby #the faces at the mushroom akdhaksjs #talking tag #watching one piece #watching one piece movies #kinda loved how robin betted on franky against usopp.... i will take the crumbs

[andi-o-geyser]

Doctor Anna Ripley: *appears*

Me: I should put on some music to celebrate the occasion. What would be an appropriate song for the return of this absolute fucking psychopath?

Also me: Ah yes of course

#the bitch is back (derogatory) #shes my literal worst fucking enemy #i have never hated a character as much as i hate her #its been like this since i was first introduced to her down in the whietstone dungeons all those years ago #i want :) to fucking shank her :)) #wanna beat her to death with a chair #grrrr the things i would do to you ms ripley (torture) #literally lost my shit seeing her on screen #can you tell that she’s my most hated? somebody hold me back cause i may commit war crimes against her #tlovm spoilers #vox machina #cr1 #the legend of vox machina #legend of vox machina #lovm spoilers #lovm #tlovm s2 #critical role #anna ripley #andis thought geyser

[selfindulgentfandomstuff]

Me when. Me when I’m So Scared.

#I only just realized I have two moots who share a succession f/o and I don’t want to upset either of them #i neeeed to figure out a way to keep the versions of the self insert lineup with their respective s/is separate from each other #thoughts anyone??/genq #any advice is appreciated #also to those two mutuals you probably know who you are and I Will absolutely NOT hold it against you if you choose to unfollow me bc of thi #this #I just don’t wanna make anyone uncomfortable or upset!/gen

[sucrose-soymilk]

hadn’t really regressed in a While and i didn’t realize how much i missed/dareisay needed it until i had the free time and ability to do so over the last few days and i have to say. i’m feeling a bit better

#imagine that! the coping mechanism… helps!!! wow #Seven’s Small Thoughts #not tagging this as anything else bc this blog is really just a not-so-secret public diary #and im not really trying to gain any sort of following or participate in the community very much #i just wanna talk to the void abt regression every once in a blue moon y’know #i also feel like i don’t really belong in the community much/am not a Good Example of sfw agere since i’m very n/ s/ f/ w everywhere else #which is a double standard that i don’t hold others to but i feel like others will hold it against me??? and i’m just shy anyways #and not looking to interact. just wanna keep all this stuff tucked away in a side-blog #i also feel like a lot of the community likes to blog while actively regressed and i don’t wanna step in there as someone who isn’t #nothing wrong with it! at all! i just don’t have the capacity to since i go nonverbal when i regress. no thoughts head blissfully empty #anyways this wasn’t supposed to be a vent post let’s change the topic! #anywhooo what else did i come on here to say. oh yeah #i lowkey forgot how much regressing has helped me in the past until i was able to really indulge myself in it again recently #it’s so nice to just be small and hand someone else the reins and forget abt everything other than doing something you enjoy #maybe one day i’ll be at a point in my life where i can fully regress more freely and more often but for now i’ll take what i can get #i’m also excited because i’ve been thinking abt ordering a paci from this one specific seller #and yesterday saw that they’re dropping a new batch of fall/halloween themed ones today!!! #so now i’ve gotta make myself stay awake until 6pm so i can jump on it when they’re available #which is a small struggle considering my nocturnal sleep schedule but i will do it nonetheless #that crescent moon patterned one Will Be Mine #trying to decide between buttercup yellow and schoolbus yellow for the clip #i think i’m more drawn to the vibrancy of the schoolbus yellow honestly #eeeeeee i’m excited i’ve been wanting to treat myself to ordering from this shop for a g e s and im finally gonna do it

[dreamcast-official]

huh.

#eli.txt #idk i think ive been slowly forgiving my sister for how deeply hurt i felt when she moved out bc now I Get It. like I Get It #when she moved out i was. 9. and in my head i thought she had left because of me. because i wasnt the easiest kid in the world and i know- #-she had a hard time dealing with me when we were alone. we're so far apart in age we couldnt connect for most of my life. and in my head #that was the reason she left home. bc of me. bc she was tired of *me.* #i know now thats not true. and i understand now why she had to leave because if she felt the way im feeling then goddamn im glad she got ou #this feeling SUCKS. nd like #yeah this probably has to do with my father's daughter and the fact that she refused to even meet me until our dad died. #it took my dad dying for my sister to even be in the same room as me. that really messed with me as a kid. like it REALLY did. #so when my sister left home i just kinda went. oh okay neither of my sisters want anything to do with me! i will be alone forever! got it! #AND I KNOW NOW THATS NOT TRUE ON EITHER OF THEIR ENDS. I DONT HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP W MY DADS DAUGHTER AND I PROBABLY NEVER WILL #BUT I DONT HOLD ANYTHING AGAINST HER ANYMORE BC GOD HER MOTHER WAS AWFUL AND I GET WHY SHE DIDNT WANT TO MEET ME BC OF EVERYTHING #BUT LIKE. THAT MESSED ME UP AND I JUST STRAIGHT UP ASSUMED BOTH MY SISTERS HATED ME FOR SO LONG. #AND NOW THAT I ALSO FEEL LIKE I NEED TO LEAVE I CAN SEE SO CLEARLY. MY SISTER NEVER HATED ME I WAS NEVER THE REASON SHE LEFT. #I CAN LET GO OF HOW HURT I FELT BECAUSE I ALSO NEED TO LEAVE #god i dont wanna hurt my mom though. #dont think i could leave her completely alone in this apartment. i dont think i can do that. #anyway. hi tumblr did you like todays oversharing episode

[dollsuguru]

omfg i need to write for someone other than geto but i fear that man has me in his clutches & won’t let go……….

#and i do NOT wanna get out! he’s holding me ransom but that’s okay bc he’s holding me ransom against his CHEST! 💯 #toji when will you do the same for me writing-wise… dilf you are so sexy but make me nervous to write for you idk why #i should start on writing ‘kintsugi’ soon… toji my beloved i will get to you soon… papabear wait for me okie…….. Wait For Me…………… #will write for my dilf no matter what… my husband #personal

[rin-enjoyer]

i go back and forth on rin's elemental nature. i really think fire suits her for thematic parallels to sasuke reasons and also i just think fire is cool and suits her whole. perception of her self and being weird about purpose deal. but water is also cool because i think rin deserves to bloodbend. elaine kind of beat symbolism where she controls other people to try and come to terms with how she can't control herself. the way to resolve this is to take the path of "nature can warp under stress or whatever" and let rin's og nature be fire, so she has that in the entire og timeline and also the team 7 sensei au (good because those are the ones where the sasuke parallels are the Strongest) and then in the akatsuki!rin au the whole almost dying thing somehow leads to her nature changing to water. which works well because that's the au where she is the weirdest about control and also masks. 👍

#i am going to write up the timeline for the rin team 7 sensei au at some point i just need. to work out a few kinks #(the kinks are kakashi. in case you were wondering) #i know EXACTLY how rin would work in that situation lmao it's actually really fun because somehow she gets. better ? mental health? #also sasuke FINALLY gets to be a medic. and rin gets to address her complex feelings towards being pushed into a medic role by the system #its soooo good and also i kill off minato <3 man gets drawn and quartered by iwa and he DESERVES it!!! i lvoe him #anyways kakashi does do the whole tsukuyomi gig but i have no idea why. lmao. im figuring it out #it's not that i can't picture him doing harm. it's that i can't picture him dropping the singleminded loyalty #maaaybe i could get him in on a misguided itatchi type beat? but even that doesn't make sense #because like. hold on stick with me. he's danzo. #yaknow the kind of guy who devotes his soul to the village and will go against pollicy if he thinks its necessary but is still 100% loyal #i will have to write the sakumo danzo kakashi essay sometime. because oh baby. #anyways if you've read this far and don't wanna burn me at the stake for weird danzo opinions feel free to chat me up about kakashi #i am. open to aid on my understanding of him. not dead set on much.