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oekaki-chan · 1 year

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hey c! can i ask how do we get over the feeling of embarassment when drawing self-indulgent shippy fanart? i've seen most of your amazing art and i've noticed that you don't seem to hold back when drawing fanarts, it's really beautiful with the way you portray characters' intimate relationships.. be it thru manga, illustrations, sketches. I have quite a lot of ideas on my mind that I want to draw similar to what you've drawn in terms of shipping characters, but I can't help but feel embarassed most of the time when I attempt to draw, thinking that it's "cringe" or I should draw something else with more deeper meaning into it, not just shippy stuff.. so I get very hesitant posting said art online or even starting the sketch (i haven't drawn 95% of my written ideas for nearly a year ;_; pain lol) since a few of my friends might see and question it lmao but deep down i really want to draw them ofc! i'm just very scared with what others think, but I do want to show myself more through my art and what I really like to draw.. Have you had a similar feeling of embarassment too c? I'm sorry if this got too long, I don't rly have any artist friends to talk to this about :')) I'm just so amazed at how you're able to fight the fear and just draw what you want in the end ^-^ I hope I can be like that too with myself and art, there are rare times where I just say f*ck it and post it anyway but 99% of the time is just me overthinking on whether it's cringe or not but I want to be cringe so bad so I can just be free and draw whatever the heck I want! ahh so many conflicting feelings ;_; i hope you get what I mean, thank you again for responding to my previous asks with the colors and numerous questions! I'm sorry for being so curious lol i just want to draw my favorite characters to kiss and cuddle so bad but im too scared to even draw them so intimately like that so i dont even draw majority of my ideas for fear of being judged :'D :') :(( hope u had a nice day c!

I might never show it but actually I relate to you so hard, it's not once or twice that I keep overthinking if my art is too self-indulgent and cringe, everytime I'm about to post my art I'm one click away to post it but I always have this nagging worry of people judging my art (even tho there's nothing wrong with it, for god's sake!!!) so I just spend another 30 minutes worrying about it until I close my eyes, flick my finger quickly, and close the tab.

And oh god in heaven put a curse on meme culture for this because there was this one instance when someone made a corny meme out of my art (that's not even a funny drawing) and dared to send it to me, I know it's only one person but it's enough to crush my confidence in drawing and posting shippy/emotional art.

Whenever I draw my favorite characters looking all seductive and cool I always worry people would think it's cringe, whenever I draw characters kissing I always worry people would think I'm weird, but then I remember about the other artists I like who post (their own) self-indulgent stuff and they make me joyous, I want people to feel the same way about my art when I post my own self-indulgent art too, so I guess that's what keeps me doing what I do today 😂

My 2023 resolution is just to stop giving a single damn about what people think of my art, if they think it's cringe then so be it, I can't control the mind of people, at least the cringe art gives me the happy brain chemicals and that's what truly matters 😊

#ask

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cheapsweets · 2 months

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The nocuous Shonweak

My response to this week’s BestiaryPosting challenge from @maniculum

Jinhao shark fountain pen with fine, hooded nib, with Monteverde Raven Noir ink, over initial pencil sketch. I'd considered adding some colour, but didn't have time this week; imagine it's got telltale orange/yellow and black warning colouration :)

It's been interesting trying to relearn pen shading techniques from scientific illustration again (as ever, suspect going a bit bigger would make this easier, I'm also going to have another rummage through my pens to see if I can find an even finer nib, since the one's I've been using don't come close to using a dip pen).

Reasoning under the cut;

The Shonweak is so called because it is proof against fire.

Okay, first things first, we get no indication about what type of creature this is. My default assumption when the bestiary authors don't give us any more detail is that is must be a Beast, but I've been wanting to mix it up a bit. But what to go for...?

Of all poisonous creatures, it has the strongest poison. Other poisonous creatures kill one at a time; it can kill several things at the same time. For if it has crawled into a tree, it poisons all the apples and kills those who eat them. In addition, if it falls into a well, the strength of its poison kills those who drink the water.

Okay, a poisonous critter, and not just poisonous, the most poisonous...! Okay, this narrows it down a bit. We get some creatures that are occasionally poisonous due to their diet (including certain birds, and snakes!), but mostly we're looking at amphibians, insects, echinoderms, fish, flatworms, and some others too.

This also made me think about the line between poisonous and venomous. We've all been on tumblr a while, so we've probably seen the memes, but technically the main difference is that poisonous animals deliver their toxin passively (in this context, being eaten is passive...)

We also know that this thing can crawl into a tree, so must be able to climb (that eliminates most fish, for starters).

I've gone for a beetle, since drawing an arthropod is pretty different from anything I've done thus far. Main influences are;

The diabolical ironclad beetle, a tiny awesome critter that is nigh on indestructable. It has a flattened body, fused elytra, and a cool, knobbly surface to its armour; I gave the elytra a bit of an overlap, so it could consider clamping its body down if it gets into a sticky situation (like a fire).

Bombadier beetles; in case you're not aware of them, their defence mechanism is spraying near-boiling noxious chemicals at attackers (you'll also be familiar with them if you've ever read the Spider World books by Colin Wilson!). The most famous ones are yellow and black, and you can see the nozzle on the end of its abdomen.

While the bombadier beetle does actively spray toxins, keeping them in its body also makes it poisonous - best of both worlds!

Also can't deny the influence of the blue death feigning beetle, a very aestheic insect indeed, and if I'm honest, the tanker bug from Starship Troopers...!

I did look at large beetles like the goliath beetle for some inspiration, especially around the legs (I imagine the Shonweak to be pretty big as beetles go), but decided against it since they're a lot fancier, and I figured a tough, fire-braving critter like this to be a little plainer and unadorned.

It resists fire and alone among creatures can put fires out. For it can exist in the midst of flames without pain and without being consumed by them, not only because it does not burn but because it puts the fire out.

Okay, if this is the creature I strongly suspect it is, this is an interesting wrinkle to the mythology around it; it's proof against fire because it puts the fire out (not something I've heard before). I'll have more to say if it does turn out to be what I suspect...

Okay, hear me out... The bombadier beetle combines exothermic chemicals in its body to produce its boiling, caustic spray... What if a creature could do something similar for a seriously endothermic reaction; it would be almost like a tiny, living fire extinguisher... I imagine the Shonweak as a bomadier beetle relative, spraying freezing toxins at enemies (or just generally if stuck in a fire, or if it falls down a well, or if those apples are looking particularly hostile...)

#maniculum bestiaryposting #bestiaryposting #shonweak #my art #🪲

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azumasoroshi · 1 year

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minidura chapter 1 react

hey guys started reading minidura i think im in love

just imagining izaya going like "yahoo!! X3" man. i know mikado is the real protagonist and not being able to see through izaya's eyes adds to his charm and intrigue but like mannn itd be so fun to just watch him fuck shit up like in that one episode. he must be hilarious to people watch with

god they're so fucking cute i love this chibi style

IT'S HIMMM IT'S MY BABYGIRL

"he's the one who most fails to live up to his name"? is that like a kanji name joke goddammit

i really shouldnt just like. post the entire pages but it's such a pain to keep taking screenshots :sob: you guys have no idea the pain my wrists were in after that drr ten react

haha dramatic irony but i just realized i have no idea what exactly izaya takes responsibility for and what stuff he blames on human nature/self-interest/naïvite and now i have to find out ugh

durarara illustrators draw simon normally challenge :sob: im so sorry they do this to you king if i ever get around to drawing you ill do you justice

also tiny shizuo <3333

obsessed with walker's cat face he and erika are so platonic(?) soulmates besties cringefail weeb team rocket ass duo

i was 100% ready for erika to start grilling mikado on his supposed raging homosexual unrequited love(?) 300k slow burn romance but oh well. it happened in my head so it must be canon

i dont care enough about the raira trio to ship mikakida or whatever their ship name is (isnt the celty head girl named mika too. oops) but i do think it's funny that their ship name could be kidado because that sounds like cuidado. watch out

ok i know they're trying to make him look cool but he does not look cool in the chibi art style lmfAOo

itd be really funny if they switched the styles to the normal manga style during serious moments like i think the bsd wan manga/anime did lmfao

LMFAO??? i like how we only see the top of izaya's head pff-

celty my bbygirl i love your shadow puppets dont listen to them

yk what it's actually a crime this didnt happen in canon

AND HERE HE ISSS!!!!! cringefail pathetic loser my beloved

god i hope he narrates the entire minidura (he probably wont)

ok he's really cute though....catboy irl fr

CAUGHT MID MONOLOGUE

cant believe they're both on a rooftop together whoa prime spot for confessions amirite (<- delusional)

im posting the tiny floored izaya on his own later because that's adorable. he's so cute when he's half dead

itd be really funny if all the events from minidura were all in izaya's concussed ass head from this moment as explanation for being noncanon

the "doctors hate him" meme but it's convenience store workers and shizuo heiwajima

actually construction workers probably hate shizuo too. and urban planners and anything that has to do with city work and also doctors because shizuo evades their healthcare insurance because he doesnt need it (i looked up japan's healthcare costs for this joke and concluded that i dont have enough time to pit the sources that say it's expensive and the sources that say it's reasonable against each other) and also vending machine companies

the "doctors hate him" meme but it's all of ikebukuro and shizuo (and also izaya)

i love how izaya just. stops bleeding. his platelets working mad crazy

(it's pretty easy to find translations online but here's the site im reading on anyway)

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yukipri · 2 years

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YukiPri - Star Wars 2021~, General Art Masterpost - Part I

This is my general standalone Star Wars fanart compilation for content created 2021~onwards, Part 1!

I created a separate post for this content due to hitting the maximum link limit on my Main Star Wars Masterpost.

To see my various AU content (including links to my Star Wars comics and fics!), as well as other crucial general links, please check out the link!

This Masterpost is marked is marked Part 1, because as of making this Masterpost, I am already close to the maximum link limit again. When I reach it, this section will be replaced with a link to Part 2.

Click here for the latest version of this post!

Thank you!

MASTERPOST KEY:

[COM] - Comic

[ILL] - Illustration

[FIC] - Written fiction

[TXT] - Text headcanons

All shippy/pseudo-shippy things will be marked with a ＊

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Links to Art:

[ILL] Commander Cody

[ILL] May 4th 2021 with Grogu + Din + Boba + Jango + Cody + Rex

[ILL] Cody & his General doing reports, ＊Cody x Obi-Wan

[ILL] The 212th Attack Battalion

[ILL/COM] Jango Fett is alive and is a pain in the ass ＊Cody x Obi x Jango

[ILL] Echo’s cyborg spine thing

[ILL] Rex

[COM] Bad Batch Ep 7 comic

[ILL] Obi-Wan & Tea

[ILL/COM] The Anakin & Padmé Meme in Four Parts

[ILL] Cody, Wooley, & Longshot in training gear

[ILL] Captain Howzer

[ILL] The 212th and their General ＊212th x Obi-Wan

[ILL] Captain Gregor

[ILL] Jangobi vs Codywan＊

[ILL] Cody - Inside helmet

[ILL] Casual Autumn Vibes with the 212th (Wooley & Waxer)

[ILL] Undercover Cody & Obi-Wan (＊Long Hair!Cody x Beardless!Obi-Wan)

[ILL] Halloween Grogu

[ILL] Alpha-17

[ILL] Alpha-77 | Fordo

[ILL] Echo & Fives

[ILL] Happy Boba Day!

[ILL] The Book of Boba Fett Ep 2 art

[ILL] Tusken Warrior, version 1 (WIP)

[ILL] Tusken Warrior, verstion 2 (Final)

[ILL] Fennec Shand

[ILL] TBOBF Ep 5 Sketch

[COM] TBOBF Ep 5 mini comic

[ILL] TBOBF Boba Sketch

[ILL] Young adult Boba

[ILL] Boba through the ages, Version 1 (WIP)

[ILL] Boba through the ages, Version 2 (Final)

[ILL] Valentine's Day~White Day Project 2022 #1 Cody x Obi-Wan＊

[ILL] "Cute Kid." Boba, Din, Grogu, Rancor

[ILL] TBOBF mini comic: in which Luke hears something shocking

[ILL] Paz Vizsla doodles

[ILL] Jaster Mereel sketch

[ILL] Cad Bane mentoring young 1313 Boba

[COM] An upgraded bag for Grogu! (or not)

[ILL] Fennec with red chrysanthemums

[ILL] Cody & Obi-Wan (Kenobi Trailer Day)

[ILL] Beskar or Mithril? Grogu & Frodo, SW x LOTR Crossover

[ILL] Young Adult Boba - Remembrance

[ILL] Boba & Tooka

[ILL] Jaster & Young Jango

[ILL] Glitch, the Force-sensitive (?) clone

[ILL] Thor Padmé vs Vader, SW x Marvel Crossover

[ILL] May 4th 2022 with 30 characters

[ILL/TXT] May 4th 2022 Bonus Version with commentary!

[ILL] 20th Anniversary of AOTC - Phase I shiny clone trooper

[ILL] Vanity Fair photoshoot - Obi-Wan & Din

[ILL] Plo Koon & Bros

[ILL] Adult!Boba & Jango - Lego Star Wars-inspired

[ILL] Obi-Wan - Sad Man in the Sand Week

[ILL] Obi-Wan & Watto - Bad Disguise

[ILL] Kenobi premiere

[ILL] Cody from the Bad Batch Season 2 Trailer

[ILL] Clone Merman for MerMay

[ILL] Obi-Wan Kenobi Ep 3 - Ghost Anakin

[ILL] Obi-Wan & Quinlan Vos

[ILL] Obi-Wan & Alpha-17: the Last Stand on Jabiim

[ILL] Obi-Wan Finale

[ILL] Obi-Wan & Cody: the Clone Wars

[ILL] Cody princess-carrying Obi-Wan ＊mild Codywan

[ILL] Reva & Grogu

[ILL] Cody holding a knife to Obi-Wan's throat - Scrapped Kenobi movie script

[COM] Desert Husbands - Domestic Cody & Obi-Wan on Tatooine

[ILL] Cody Caf Break

[ILL] Alpha-ØØ | “Boba Fett”

[ILL] Face Your Art meme - Clones Faces Compilation

[ILL] 212th Attack Battalion - Wooley

[ILL] 212th Attack Battalion - Waxer

[ILL] Ahsoka

[ILL] PREVIEW - Durge x Obi-Wan N/S/F/W Patreon Preview＊

[ILL] Clonetober 2022 Challenge Completed! Compilation of 31 Portraits

All individual portrait links HERE!

[ILL] Grogu and Dust Bunnies, Incorrect Prediction

[ILL] Grogu and Totoros - An Imposter

[ILL] Rex Winter Fashion - Inspired by the Columbia TCW Collection

[ILL] Fordo Sketch

[ILL] Yaddle

[ILL] Happy Holidays 2022 - Inspired by the 2022 Lucasfilm Holiday Card (Codywan＊)

[ILL] Happy Holidays 2022 - Codywan only variation＊

[ILL] Echo & AZI: a projection of Fives

[ILL] Captain Wilco

[ILL] Cody - Glory Gold, fades to Gray...

[ILL] Fordo showing you General Kenobi

[ILL] Wyler & Nova

[ILL] Omega, TBB S2

[ILL] Echo, TBB S2

[ILL] Cody sketch

[ILL] Slip & Cade

[ILL] Long-haired Rex

[ILL] Valentine’s Day 2023 (＊Jangobi, Codywan?)

[Tutorial] How to draw Obi-Wan’s beard

[ILL] Paz Vizsla Big Tiddies Meme

[ILL/Merch] Filigree Clone + Fett Helmets Laptop Case

[ILL] Sad Super Battle Droid

[ILL] Ahsoka

[ILL] “Tiny” - Smol Paz + Din

[ILL] More Smol Paz + Din

[ILL] Mayday

#YukiPri art #Star Wars #Masterpost #Commander Cody #Boba Fett #Codywan #Obi-Wan Kenobi #212th Attack Battalion

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zekeyspaceylizard · 2 years

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Grief is a hell of a drug.

There was a time when I was younger that I didn’t think internet friends were as important as real life ones. Then I met Oliver. Oliver was a fan of mine from the old Newgrounds and AlbinoBlackSheep days. We met on steam and got along well. Very well, in fact. We had similar senses of humor, and many of my favorite jokes and memes and gags came from him. He lived in the UK and I lived in the US and we talked via Steam for years and later, when it was available, Discord.

Oliver was like a brother to me. We talked about frustrations and pain in our lives we didn’t share with anybody else. We’d theorycraft about updates to DOTA2 and other games we liked to play. Discuss stupid crap in pop culture and shoot the shit for hours. Oliver always believed in me and, like many of my other online friends, never quite understood why I’ve become such an unlucky massive disappointment as an adult, potential all squandered. He always told me he wished our lives were better. So we could both be happy.

He’d send me music sometimes for bands I’d never heard of, introducing me to things I’d never experienced. Through him I started to realize that he was just as important to me as any real life friends I’d had. Even more so in many cases as many of them got older and found success and moved on with careers of their own, while I continued to struggle here and make something of myself.

He was there to console me when I had my nervous breakdown in 2009 that lead me into a deep depression. He was there to cheer me up when I turned 30 years old and was depressed again. He never got a chance to turn 30.

A bit over a year ago he was feeling poorly and saw a doctor and learned he had lymphoma. The prognosis was good and he felt confident he’d beat it. He’s show me photos of the giant ghastly lumps on his skin where his lymph nodes used to be. And I hoped and prayed to whatever I could that it would all go well and he’d recover and have a normal life. But I wouldn’t be writing all this if that were the case.

A couple weeks ago he had lost the ability to walk properly due to developing anasarca as well. It made him unable to visit family in Germany which broke him as he wanted to see them one last time. His last couple of big outings was meeting his boyfriend in the US and later attending a Newgrounds meetup where he got to hang out with Luis, another Newgrounds animator he was friends with. He was in bad shape at that point, a bag of fluid around his heart mutating into a giant growth that protruded from his chest. But even that he took lightly and would crack jokes about. He was just that kinda guy.

Over the years I had drawn stuff for him, usually involving his beloved orange tabby cat, whom he had raised from a kitten. The week he had learned he had lymphoma, that cat was hit by a car and killed. He grieved for it a lot. He loved that cat and would send me pics of it all the time. I even painted that cat as a kaiju once, lording over a city. That illustration is lost to time. I wish I’d kept it.

The one bright spot was months later he found an abandoned black kitten and adopted it. It was one of the few positive things in his life anymore.

As his condition grew worse, I asked him a handful of times if he wanted me to draw or paint him anything to cheer him up. As an artist it was all I could really do for the guy. I’d have donated my own lymph nodes or heart to him if I could have, but such things arent possible. About a week ago he finally had a request. He wanted me to paint something from the game Jet Set Radio and Jet Set Radio Future, which were two of his favorites as a kid. He was eager to try out Bomb Rush Cyberfunk since it looked like a spiritual revival of that series.

So I painted like a madman. Painted as hard as I could, sleeping little, hoping to make something he would love. His birthday would have been last Thursday, just a couple days ago. At around 1 am, the night prior, I sent him the painting. He was offline, which struck me as odd. He was one of those guys who was always connected to the web, usually playing Runescape. It was ominous.

Then 24 hours passed, with him neither online on Discord or Steam. I had a bad feeling that he was already gone. And learned hours later, from his other friend Luis, this was indeed the case.

My beloved friend Ollie died the night I finished his birthday gift. He never got a chance to see it. He never got to celebrate one last birthday. I wish I’d sent the unfinished version when I had the chance. I wish I could have made him happy, even for a little bit, in the multitude of ways he often brightened my days.

But it won’t happen now. It’s a very strangling feeling. Like someone has wrapped razor wire around my throat and is winding it tighter and tighter. All we needed was one more day. Not a lot to ask for, in the grand scheme of things.

There’s not much more else to say so I’ll end this with a link to a video he and I used to reference all the time. A cartoon we often chuckled at, and one of his favorites. We Get The Night.

Rest in Peace, Ollie. You absolute lad. You beautiful bastard. I hope if there’s a heaven that you save me a seat, man.

#oliver #jet set radio #gum #graffiti #art

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tiianwens · 2 months

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29. Reaction to sudden interpersonal disaster (eg close family member suddenly dies) --- for the excessively detailed hc meme !

the excessively detailed hc meme.

putting his heart under a thousand locks and doing what needs to be done, and then processing it much, much later. too many people died on him, and he's been hurt in other ways too many times (in both lifetimes), but any sort of disaster is usually a call to action. his skills are needed, so he has to stay level-headed and cool to make sure no one else gets hurt, and of course, the first instinct that kicks in is to protect his disciples. the aftermath will leave him shattered where no one can witness it, but on the outside he would usually appear so calm and unperturbed that it would be only natural to assume he doesn't care at all.

the same applies to conflict/interpersonal painful situations. if it's possible to leave and avoid, he'd leave and avoid. if it's not (e.g. in 0.5 verse where the discomfort is constant and escaping the situation physically isn't an option), he'll try to distance his mind and heart from it as much as possible, usually involving going nonverbal and avoiding any form of communication. the man is too proud to let his true feelings be known. he's not really used to anyone giving a damn either, so it's easier to just keep everything bottled up and slowly pull the thorns out one by one and assess the damage while no one watches.

but when i think of the worst case scenarios for him (big story spoilers ahead for those who are reading the book and don't want plot twists to be ruined!!), there are two amazing illustrations:

— the realization that he fucked up in 0.5 if he managed to a) allow his disciple to be affected by a horrible, irreversible curse that slowly but surely eroded and erased his entire personality and b) watch the man he loved turn into a monster and deem it the result of his own hatred rather than a curse. because when conflict occurred, CWN was the one to distance himself where he could've apologized (he wanted to apologize, yet he chose to do it by proxy who followed his instructions and didn't mention that he was the one who made the goddamn wontons).

and it left him with the horrible knowledge that he couldn't share with anyone, as he knew that whoever was behind it would be watching closely and things could become worse. it left him defenceless on so many levels because he couldn't do anything to help (as it was too late and he didn't have a golden core anymore) and he couldn't even hide behind the facade of resentment anymore — it's easy to hate a self-made monster, but not so easy to hate someone you loved and failed. when i say that sex scenes in 2ha aren't skippable because they contain essential character development, chapters 247-250 or around that are the ones on my mind. the realization left CWN in such an intense emotional disarray that he threw the remains of his dignity out of the window and for the first time showed that he wanted this too. and for him, in that verse, it's huge. and yet he collected himself and managed to come up with a plan to do something, even though he had nothing to counter with and the damage was irreversible.

— and secondly, having to deal with a massive calamity after losing many people he held dear and most importantly, Mo Ran. i can't think of anything worse than what he's gone through at that point. he watched the man he loved get destroyed by an angry mob, knowing that he wasn't guilty. he slaughtered his way through to at least give him some peace, while being very much aware that saving him was no longer an option. and after all that he knew he had to go on, he had to face the living corpse with the same face and the same memories, the twisted and distorted projection of his beloved.

but he managed to put that grief on hold and he almost single-handedly thwarted the big evil plan in action. he made sure that whoever wanted to be saved was saved, and only then did he ask to 'let him be selfish for once'. and that selfish want, to him, was to die with Taxian-jun (the wording still sends me, it's such an insane detail). so he locked that pain away, did what had to be done, and then allowed it to finally consume him.

#hc.#an excessively detailed answer ig #these two scenes haunt me daily. but they just prove the point here. the man is resilient af when he wants to be

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compressednerve · 4 months

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25 and 27 for the fic meme please 🙏

Thanks for the ask!!! :D Big rambling ahead <3

"25. What did you use to write? (e.g. writing programs, paper & pen, etc.)"

Most of my writing skill is fleeting based off how functional my brain is working that day, so I tend to go back and forth between hastily typed notes in Discord and attempts to flesh things out in google docs-- both of which I don't really love, but they're online and I can link the files easily to @parasitefun who's my creative partner and helps with my processes. I loathe the spellcheck/grammar function on docs! I used to write exclusively in notepad or OpenOffice back on my old computer but I find OpenOffice in general... lacking.

I wasn't taught to read or write in the uh... traditional way, so I usually have an exorbitantly difficult time with actually formulating sentences. So I guess using Clip Studio Paint is another program I use for writing, because I need to storyboard, assemble timelines of events, sketches of emotions... what have you. It helps me in "assembling" the information required for a plot, but usually I just end up scrapping the fic entirely and condensing it down to a comic or a few paragraphs attached to an illustration... for example, here's some sketches from a few weeks ago while I chip away at my millionth attempt at a chaptered longfic, this time now featuring Yung Northmoor!

Whether I complete this as an actualized comic or intermittent illustrations, or keep them as sketches for referencing certain vibes of the scene, is mostly up to luck if I even can keep the momentum up to carry the work to the finish line 😔 I am also extremely shy and precious about my WIPs most of the time, I feel like my sketches are very vulnerable... which is unfortunate because I finish maybe 15% of the pieces I start!!! This is due to CTE though, and thus for the most part cannot be helped at the moment. I think for 2024 a resolution I have is to try to hold myself to finishing at least one Large Project a month, cuz then at least I'll have 12! :D

Recently I ..........acquired.......... Scrivener which I hope will help with a lot of the messy notes and outlines become more organized. It's an old version of the program though, and I can't figure out how to make the text of the UI any larger which makes navigating the program itself a pain. It's also very informational dense. Which is. Difficult and maze-like for me to comprehend sometimes. Multiple times in the past few years I've bought corkboards, pushpins, notecards, and other utensils to try to help make physical note taking easier, but my arthritis makes my handwriting dogshit to a point where I can hardly read it myself... and we don't have the physical space for my pepe silva act XD Maybe some day, though!

"27. Did you do anything special to celebrate finishing a fic?"

I wish! I never really thought of doing anything special for finishing fics- most of the time if it's not painstakingly planned out like above process described, the only time I get anything finished is if I do it all in one single sprint... hence so many abandoned WIPs... It's hard to take something to the end when so much of my ability to even start it is based off random whims! I think I get the genuine ability to write, coherently and cohesively, maybe every few months. I'm inspired and writing fic in my head pretty much all the time as a part of my psychotic processing as filtering my distorted reality through the lens of characters and scenarios has been one of my main perceptions of the world from a young age due to childhood schizophrenia, but capturing it in actual words and sentences that other people can actually read is a whole other basket!

...So, I guess nothing really, other than a large sigh of relief and a feeling of release in having finally achieved what I was hoping to achieve, or at least, an approximation that's close enough to it that I'm satisfied. Maybe this is my sign to try to incentivize finishing things by setting up a reward if I can manage! :D

#ask game #thanks for the ask -w- i feel so special <3

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angieloveshua · 5 months

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I’m quite lazy to make individual posts about everything that impacted me while reading “Old Injury” by the genius Hui Nan Que, so I’m making this post (it may be huge, and it will contain spoilers) rambling about it:

If I were to illustrate my experience reading this novel, this Jungkook meme will be the best choice to summarise it:

I read more than fifty chapters in a day, so you can imagine how SHOCKED I was when I read revelation after revelation.

The best parent in this story is Ning Yu, of course. Ning Shi, the protagonist’s mother, coerced him into marrying Song Bolao, saying that his child was alive, and she will bring Ning Yu to him after six months into the marriage if Ning Yu was ‘obedient.’

Surprise: THERE WAS NO CHILD. Ning Shi had paid a family to make their child act like he was Ning Yu’s son when, in realiy, Ning Yu’s baby didn’t survive because of his AB blood.

Are you wondering about my reaction to Song Bolao destroying their son’s flower?

That was the only time where I cursed at Song Bolao, like, I get him —he’s really traumatised, but HE CROSSED THE LINE. Although he didn’t know, I was like la carta de Matías Galetto.

Back to Song Bolao, can people just leave him the fuck alone??? That disgusting Xia family apparently didn’t have enough after forcing him to have a son with HIS STEPBROTHER, they wanted him to go through that pain FOR A THIRD TIME.

I have a weak heart. My bottom line was when Song Bolao got a tatto on his back saying how much he repented his actions to Ning Yu.

And Ning Yu? Man existed and everyone wanted to ruin him. Poor guy. No wonder he had such a low-self esteem on the first chapters. Not only did he have to put up with Song Bolao’s temper (I ended up loving this alpha, but dear God), Yuyu was set up multiple times, almost stabbed to death, and got infected with C-20.

To summarise, you will see this novel on the next “My 5 ☆ danmei novels.” This book made me cry at 3:00 p.m., on a Sunday, while trying to drink away my saddness with strawberry yogurt. Old Injury provoked a new injury on me, but it was a wonderful experience.

#old injury #hui nan que #陈伤 #回南雀 #Angie rambles about novels #my head hurts #i do not recommend reading more than 50 chapters in a day #especially if you have to wake up at 8 am the next day

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saiyanandproud · 6 months

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[MELTDOWN] - Cyto because I can only assume any bad injury against her would send him into an uncontrollable fury.

Injury memes

[ MELTDOWN ] for sender to witness receiver being hurt which causes them to go into a murderous rage.

Mariko liked horses; when she was a kid, she always thought they seemed beautiful from books and illustrations, and her secret dream had always been to ride one. Sadly, of all the disciplines inflicted to her by her parents, horse-riding was never one of them -- too little green spaces left in her era, and her mother would have never approved of something that came with lots of dirt and a strong smell.

When she had confessed Cyto her frustrated dream, he hadn't said anything. Instead, he had stood up and left, only to return after some minutes leading a young horse by its reins. Mariko gasped, and Cyto smiled.

"You can try to ride him if you want," he said. "It's mine."

"Seriously?!"

Mariko was elated. Nothing in her fantasies could come close to the amazement of seeing a horse with her own eyes. When Cyto handed her the horse's reins -- his name was Rocket, he explained, a young male sorrel, with bright amber eyes and a shiny coat -- Mariko could swear she had fallen in love with how slender, fast and majestic it looked.

She climbed on it, legs shaking from the excitement, and, under Cyto's instructions, gently kicked Rocket's sides with a gentle kick. When he started to trot, she barely held a squeal of surprise, and spurred him even faster with another kick. Rocket speeded up.

"Be careful," Cyto warned her with a smile. But Mariko could barely listen.

She thought flying was amazing, but sharing speed with another creature and feeling the close contact of their bodies as adrenaline rushed through her veins was a unique experience. At some point, her heart galloped at the same rhythm of Rocket's hooves, and she found herself howling aloud, inebriated with joy, stretching her arms towards the sky.

But Rocket didn't like it. The horse halted abruptly and reared up with a shrilling neight, making her fall to the ground. The grass buffered her landing, but she felt a piercing pain when Rocket skittishly landed with a hoof on her chest; she could feel something crack near her sternum, and let out a scream of pain that sent Rocket to run around the clearing. Cyto was by her side a second after.

"Are you hurt?!" He exclaimed, hands quivering from the restrained need to touch her.

"My chest," Mariko groaned. "I think I broke a rib."

Cyto said nothing. He turned at Rocket, who was still rearing and neighing, unnerved. His eyes flashed and he stretched an arm in front of him; a straight, lethal beam shot from his palm, stabbing Rocket in the neck. With Mariko's horror, the horse collapsed to the ground in a cloud of dust.

She bit her lips, trying to witheld her tears. Cyto turned back at her, voice calm, as if nothing had happened.

"Come. I'll take you home," he said. "Maybe mom can call a doctor."

Mariko nodded, but said nothing. When Cyto lifted her in his arms, tears started to roll down from her eyes. She lowered her head, trying not to look at Rocket's lifeless body as Cyto took up to the sky, and promised herself to never go horse-riding ever again.

#injury memes #(tw: animal death)#(welp that was sudden)

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talesofarcadiaforever · 2 years

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Au where Merlin shows up earlier/gets more development for the potential au ask game?

YES!!!!!

I can’t believe I got both of my blorbos!

I’m so happy right now.

Anyways:

I’m not really doing the former, but I might write a fic in the future. For now, here’s a post about it that I think is gold.

For the latter part, he’s definitely getting more screentime in Emerald Embers considering he’s. The y’know, protagonist.

But besides his redesign, he gets a lot more development as a character and backstory 👀, so here’s five facts about that!

1. DR!Merlin’s personality is similar and different to Canon!Merlin’s.

What he is compared to Canon!Merlin: He’s abrasive, brutally honest, sarcastic, etc. His appearance, however, makes him seem a lot rougher in comparison to canon!Merljn, where he seems like just a grumpy old man.

He also is smart and perceptive as hell. No one, in-universe or out talks about it, but he was able to tell that Angor Rot was a slave within a few seconds of just seeing him. “Leave them alone, Morgana.”

What he isn’t: he’s not impulsive.

A millennia year old warrior should have patience, and he does. He absolutely refuses to fight children.

He’s more openly soft, especially with children.

He is tired.

He will keep fighting. He will keep fighting if he has to scream, claw, and bite his way to victory. He is hope, who spits out blood and gets up for another round. Again and again and again.

He will not let others go through the same pain he has. He won’t. He can’t.

2. HE GETS TO BE BADASS LIKE HE SHOULD HAVE BEEN!!!

I’ll go on a rant about this in the future, but to say the least, canon did not do him justice.

How am I going to fix this, you ask?

Well, some changes include:

He's actually badass like canon described him before he showed up.

illustrated with some memes I made because look at him!!! He actually looks cool!!! He looks intimidating!!!

him being able to shift his staff into different weapons like he does in the concept art.

3. He’s a cambion like he is in the Arthurian Legends.

powers like

He actually has visions, foresight, precognition, whatever you want to to call it, instead of only the time map (or in the comics, the Omniscienstone) like canon.

He still has the time map; he mainly uses it when he needs to quickly see the future.

4. He’s a bit of a rebel when it comes to authority.

5. He tends to gravitate towards his magical side.

With humans, he has to barely use his magic so he won’t frighten them. With humans, he has to hide his love of magic, and his excitement of learning new things about it.

With magical creatures,

But they believe him.

They don’t care about that. They aren’t racist towards him because he’s magic and they believe him about being aroace.

Because they’re different! They’re nice!

Thanks for the ask!

#mine #talesofarcadiaforever answers #the-arson-author-gamer #tales of arcadia #trollhunters #wizards #toa fanfiction #Daylight’s Redemption #Emerald Embers #Journey by Daylight #DR worldbuilding #Merlin Ambrosius #DR!Merlin

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excalisbury · 2 years

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okay I'm curious 📚 and 💌 for the fic rec meme :)

Ooooohohoho these are good ones! (from this post)

📚 A fic you wish you could display on your bookshelf

This one is so hard because if I had the time and energy I would either ask my friend-who-is-a-professional-bookbinder for book-binding advice to bind like all 420 (nice) of my bookmarks or pay her to do some of them. Alas... I will just have to dream of my fic bookshelf.

Anyway. I will narrow down the list slightly for now. And keep it to one fandom.

So for bookshelf fic, I feel like you have to go for things that you would recommend to almost anyone. And I do have a relatively long list for that, honestly... but we do not have time for the whole thing here. So here is my top 5 bookshelf fics, a tragically short list, with reasons for each:

The Space in Between by @whatevertheweather - As I noted in my ao3 bookmark, this fic absolutely destroyed me but in the way a really painful loose tooth hurts so good. Also it's the perfect chunky 100k length for a good looking novel. And I would rec this to pretty much anyone. Like... can be read outside the fandom. Plus I cannot help but imagine it with the fanart @cutestkilla drew of it for the cover 👀 and that would be some hot shit.

Local Hero by BasicBathsheba and breadofgod - this is a masterpiece of the ban and bread partnership. It was coming out at the start of the pandemic and so can bring up some painful memories, but also some really good ones. I just started making fandom friends around then and it was a bright spot to read this fic. Also I'm a jock at heart and love a good sports fic. Being stupidly into EPL for Americans is an endearing family trait of mine and I love it when my loves mix well. Also same as The Space in Between, this fic can be enjoyed regardless of fandom, imo, so huge props for that.

All this soulmate shit by half_witch - It's the loveliest tropiest thing in the best way. I can't get enough of this fic. It's made of nearly everything that makes fanfic fanfic, so why am I binding it into a real book (in our imagination, at least)? Well it's because it's all executed so well it's practically textbook. I must admit, I may not recommend this to Everyone, but I would love to show it off on my bookshelf and have it to reference.

Some Kind of Path by @im-gettingby - This fic fits in perfectly in my scifi bookshelf. It's just a perfect little taste of everything good about spec fic in one fantastical go. I imagine it bound with some illustrations I would add to it. Make it into a little poetic short story pamphlet thingy? Give it out at parties? perhaps.

When the Tides Held the Moon by @vkelleyart - I mean. Eventually I have got to have the real book when it comes out, but for now, the fic version is absolutely worth keeping like a precious pearl on the bookshelf! Reading through this as it came out was such an experience. And marveling at all of Venessa's amazing art with each chapter to boot? I live for those kind of fanish experiences. I'd love to have a reminder of this one.

Aaand I do most certainly have bookshelf fics for aftg, check please! and HP next gen as well, but I have already written a freaking essay. (Low key anyone who wants those recs can send a follow-up ask tho. I'll do another essay.)

💌 A fic that inspired you to create something for it

This one has an immediate and easy answer: rebel rebel.

I literally joined active fandom because of this fic. Even in my many years in the harry potter fandom, I was only a lurker. It took about seven chapters of rebel rebel for me to dive fully into fic art. I made my first two fanart pieces for this fandom for rebel rebel. And that was back when I just drew with pencil irl, took a picture of it with my phone, and colored that picture in photoshop with a mouse. So I have come a long way. (I had to troll thru my archives for those links. yikes.)

But yeah, reading rebel rebel as ban wrote it was an unparalleled fandom experience for me. This fic is obviously an invaluable staple in our fandom now, but I'm stuck in the nostalgia of that first read-through as each 10k+ chapter came out and we all devoured it together.

I have done fanart for a few other fics... notably,, literally all of my own fics 😅, but I'd love to give a special shout-out to Pour Some (Maple) Sugar On Me, which was a labor of love that I wrote with my friend, Liz, for @bazzybelle (my beloved). I drew at least one illustration for every chapter of this fic and they're all pretty great ngl.

#fic rec #carry on fic rec #my fic rec #ask game #abbysurdities

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scribbledquillz · 1 year

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As promised, a little life update on me for - well mostly me, but also anyone who'd like to know where in the hell I've been.

Around when I was last here winter of 2021, the hip pain I'd had since I was pregnant with my little one - which until then had mostly just been annoying - started to become more of a problem. It became far more prominent and persistent, as well as moving up into my pelvis and lower back. Spasms, achiness, stabbing pains, lots of fun. It made basic necessities difficult, and continuing exercises other than using the treadmill (which a friend of mine graciously gave to me for free, bless her) impossible.

Fast forward through physical therapy, x rays, mris, steroid injections and a last ditch effort with acupuncture and I'm finally in a place health wise that is, while not ideal at least generally manageable. There's something going on in my SI joint compounded with 30+ years of random factors that probably made it worse that causes just. Boatloads of inflammation. Massage, acupuncture and walking keep it in check, but sadly I don't know when or if I'll be able to get back into weight lifting the way I used to. But hey I can function and I can grocery shop without spending the rest of the day in agony on the couch, so I'll gladly take it!

In that same time in a more positive lane, I did a lot of work on myself and my mental health. I took the time to try new hobbies, dabbled in a lot of creative outlets I never thought to try, and started keeping houseplants. Most of which - save a few casualties to my learning process and one poor rubber tree plant that just can't seem to catch a break - are doing great and making my house feel so much more cozy!

I also got the kick in the ass from a friend (the same one who gave me the treadmill, girl is amazing) to start an original project that I'm really excited about. I'm writing a graphic novel style comic. 😁

It's a long, LONG way from ready to share. But my prologue script is done, and I've connected with a comic artist who I've been working with to illustrate the pages. Once those are done and I've got enough of the main script drafted up, I'll be looking into getting the prologue posted / hosted, as well as a Patreon running to help finance the development of the main story. I don't want to give anything away about the plot just yet, but I will say I want to get this right. Hence the possibility of a Patreon to help fund hiring on several sensitivity readers as well as hopefully bumping up the hours I can afford to pay my illustrator to work.

So yeah - that story is my main priority and focus right now. I want to see this done and completed, because I genuinely think people will like the story I have floating around in my head and the idea of finally being able to turn writing - something I've been passionate about for as long as I remember - into more than a hobby would be AMAZING.

But that being said, I will always have love for Revka and Zevran. Their ship is what pushed me back into writing after a years long dry spell, and I want to give them their due. Not to mention I miss the idiots. ♥️

So that's it! I'll be poking away at their fics as I have time, but want to make it clear their stories will have to stay as something I do as I have spare time and energy. I most likely won't be able to do a lot of meme style writing or prompts - at least for the time being. But I'm excited and happy to be here to gush about my favorite fictional husband and share my love for whatever random fancies pop into my life with you all, and to continue seeing your lovely digital faces on my dash.

I can't wait to share my writing with you all again, and to eventually let you be some of the first folks who can check out my comic!

#personal stuff #real life shenanigans

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iztopher · 1 year

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hi. at this point it may be evident what i'm about to say. but for that ask meme: ALL OF THE QUESTIONS

JHFDASK YESSSS okay here we go!!!

1. Art programs you have but don't use: Clip Studio Paint!! I pretty much ONLY use it for the grid and text feature, otherwise I don't like the workflow haha

2. Is it easier to draw someone facing left or right (or forward even): Drawing in profile is the same to me from either direction, but for 3/4 view, I naturally gravitate towards / find it easier to draw people facing left

3. What ideas come from when you were little: Since I've been into Aveyond for so long, and that's what I mostly draw, I have a lot of ideas that pretty much originated as "I wanted to draw this as a kid and didn't have the skill to"!

4. Fav character/subject that's a bitch to draw: Te'ijal and also Galahad. it's the hair.

5. Estimate of how much of your art you post online vs. the art you keep for yourself: Finished art I'd say I share a good 90% of it! Once we get into sketches... hoo boy, maybe 40%?

6. Anything that might inspire you subconsciously (i.e. this horse wasn't supposed to look like the Last Unicorn but I see it): Whatever this is, it's either too specific to the piece or too subconscious for me to think of it

7. A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate: traditional illustration, painting, watercolor...

8. What's an old project idea that you've lost interest in: A heads up that my answer to this is sad but I'm trying to talk about this type of stuff relatively openly, so: spring 2021, I watched Willy's Wonderland for the first time w/ Ishti + Moonie; we kept talking about a Galahad & Mel AU for it. I had two pictures for it planned, and I drew one of them, and... the timing worked out where Moonie never got to see it, and I've lost the motivation to do the second one. But I like the first one and I'm glad I drew it and I take some comfort/peace in the fact that I was working on something I was excited to share with her at the time.

9. What are your file name conventions: I have a folder for all my art, a subfolder for every year, and then a subfolder for every month, which means there isn't that much overlap! so unless I have a funny title idea my file name conventions are generally pretty straightforward: "mella1.sai", "teijalahad.sai", "teijalstudy.sai" etc etc

10. Favorite piece of clothing to draw: Does armor count? If not, gambesons.

11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what: Yes!!! Pretty much always music, occasionally video essays. Usually I'll pick a song and play it on loop, or if I'm in the mood for more variety I'll pick a playlist or an artist and listen through that. I also really like drawing while on call with people.

12. Easiest part of body to draw: I'm so sorry for my answer. Boobs.

13. A creator who you admire but whose work isn't your thing: I'm not sure I have an answer for this one, actually - there's a lot of artists I like the work of who I wouldn't want to emulate, but that feels different to me?

14. Any favorite motifs: Not really, in theory I really love flowers but I almost never draw them

15. *Where* do you draw (don't drop your ip address this just means do you doodle at a park or smth): I used to draw pretty much everywhere, but post chronic pain it's my desk only because using a tablet hurts wayyy less than a sketchbook!

16. Something you are good at but don't really have fun doing: Landscapes / natural areas from photographs lol

17. Do you eat/drink when drawing? if so, what: Water ALL the time, coffee if it lines up properly

18. An estimate of how much art supplies you've broken: Very few!! Probably less than 10. I mostly draw digitally

19. Favorite inanimate objects to draw (food, nature, etc.): ARMOR AND WEAPONS

20. Something everyone else finds hard to draw but you enjoy: Hands and armor!

21. Art styles nothing like your own but you like anyways: Honestly the art styles unlike mine that I like tend to be ones... I wish I had... I'm really drawn to realistic, somber, softer stuff

22. What physical exercises do you do before drawing, if any: Tendon gliding exercises! Tbh I should start doing more, it might help

23. Do you use different layer modes: VERY rarely, mostly not

24. Do your references include stock images: Yessss

25. Something your art has been compared to that you were NOT inspired by: I KNOW this has happened but I'm totally blanking on it

26. What's a piece that got a wildly different interpretation from what you intended: I'm not sure if this counts but pretty much any time I get a "cute!" response on a te'ijalahad picture I'm like oh no please do not say that,

27. Do you warm up before getting to the good stuff? If so, what is it you draw to warm up with: I tend to warm up by drawing a headshot of the character I'm going to be drawing, but lately I've been trying to shift to warm ups that are more focused on like, the action of drawing and loosening up

28. Any art events you have participated in the past (like zines): I participated in a zine that ended up not happening, and I've done several fandom exchanges!! Mostly the Aveyond Winter Exchange, but also the Oneshot Podcast Network exchange on AO3 (yeah it was AO3 but I did art for it)

29. Media you love, but doesn't inspire you artistically: Infinity Train!!! absolutely adore it, the art style doesn't really inspire me at all & because I got into it in the thick of my hand pain I never got used to drawing it

30. What piece of yours do you think is underrated: None! I mostly draw Aveyond so pretty much all of my art is in the 1-10 response zone so it all feels pretty consistent gdjkgklsdf

#dear mel #THANK UUU <3333

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memwazz · 11 months

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SEVEN - Ezra Marshall

- ROLE

Ezra is Aloïs Marshall's twin brother and right-hand man, as well as the founder of the 7th Division. He's a superhero-ine who does drag and goes under the name of Queen Elizabeth.

He will act like a mentor towards Erwan and teach him how to fight/control his powers.

- APPEARANCE

Species : surhuman

Age : 37

Height : 180 cm

+40 years old Ezra (right) during his corruption arc with Ginger (left).

COSTUME

Mermay!Ezra (right) in Elizabeth's costume with Mermay!Roxanne (left).

Killer Queen's costume during Ezra's corruption arc.

- ILLUSTRATIONS, COMICS, SHITPOST

- Illustrations :

Finish Line - Mermay 2023 - Pockets - Marshall Cats - Teenagers - Bodies - Lingerie - Pink Doodles - The Purge - Grass - EzThur - BOOM - Stay Hydrated ! -

- Comics :

At first - I'm Gay - Somebody to Love - Cigarette -

- Shitpost :

Disney Princess Meme - I Needed Attention - Trauma Dump - Bi Disaster - Puta Madre - Each Other's... - Bigots - Spoon - Cliff - Mistake - Spectrum - Communist -

- ABILITIES

Ezra's sensitivity to gravity is variable and he can control it. It allows him to levitate, weigh heavier or lighter and move some heavy objects quite easily. His strength may be terrible when he uses gravity to hit harder.

He's not the best fighter but learnt some basics and is able to defend himself in the field.

- PERSONALITY

Ezra's most notable trait is his messy mental health. He has depression and suicidal thoughts since the age of 13 and it affected his personality. He will often look and be depressed and will vent a lot about it. He regularly slits his wrists, failed multiple suicide attempts and had to stay in a mental hospital a few times. He also has a C/PTSD and an invasive chronic anxiety.

However, he remains someone with a great sense of humor and could be considered the funniest member of the team. A lot of his jokes are self-depreciative or revolve around his mental health he seems to take carelessely, but not only.

Ezra can be quite cynical and sarcastic too. He has quite a sassy mouth, especially on the battlefield where his persona Queen Elizabeth always provokes enemies.

Ezra's self-esteem is very low but he manages to hide it behind this clown-like behavior. He has a lot of body issues because he was bullied for his weight as a child : he now suffers from anorexia and other disorders such as pica, but tries to hide it so his relatives won't prevent him from putting his life at risk.

Indeed, Ezra has the bad habit of endangering himself a lot. Whether during missions or in his personal life, he doesn't care about living so he won't always think before acting a dangerous way.

Due to being abused as a teenager, he developed a taste for violence he evacuates fighting criminals. The way he acts in missions is quite savage and his morals are questionable.

If Ezra is a clever person who can get away from perilous situations with a good sense of strategy, he willingly acts immature and silly. Carelessness is his coping mechanism and he makes a game of every obstacle paving his way. He sometimes defies law, authority and order just for fun; he's an effective superhero and a good person but can't be considered as reliable or responsible.

His depression may impact his energy and there are some days Ezra is just unable to get out of bed. He's treated with antidepressants which don't seem to work much. One of the causes of his mental issues is his homosexuality he desperately tries to hide. Being told he would go to hell if he was gay as a child, Ezra is afraid his loved ones could reject him if he came out. Keeping his sexuality for himself is painful and worsens his self-esteem problems. Moreover, hiding it prevents him from talking about his biggest trauma.

Indeed, Ezra was groomed aged 13 by a 25 years old and went through domestic and sexual abuse for 4 years. He's convincted it was his fault for being gay and can't cope with it because he refuses to tell anyone he "dated" a man.

After living those violences, Ezra developed a deep fear of physical contact. He can't be touched by anyone (except by his brother under certains circumstances) without having a panick attack or a violent defense reflex.

During missions, Ezra incarnates Elizabeth who's his drag queen persona and a character by herself. Her sassiness is close to real life Ezra's but she's more cheerful and extravaggant. Elizabeth is a colorful character who likes to be seen and make spectacular entrances. She has an obsession on guns and explosions and makes a lot of noise. Her expressions are often very exaggerated and she seems to be extremely confident and arrogant.

The famous gimmick she always shouts at the crowd after an intervention is Stay Hydrated, Bitches !

- BACKSTORY

Ezra is the son of two NASA engineers and grew up with his twin brother Aloïs. His father died from a heart attack when they were about 7 : his mother was pregnant and struggled to raise the kids so she asked for her brother's help.

The uncle accepted to take care of the twins just to live rent free at Lola's house, but he actually hated and mistreated them when his sister was not around. He verbally assaulted Ezra a lot, repeatedly calling him fat and ugly when he started gaining a bit of weight. At some point he would even poison Ezra's food for him to slim, which caused him to develop several eating disorders. His uncle crushed his dreams of becoming a model telling him he would never fit the standards and also told him he would go to hell because he looked gay.

His mother didn't notice the abuse for over 5 years : it left Ezra with deep psychological wounds including depression, anxiety, daddy and body issues and a lack of self-esteem.

When Ezra was 13, his uncle was sent to jail for child abuse and didn't cause him harm anymore. Meanwhile, Aloïs decided to withdrawn from school and left the house for a military camp. Since their relationship was fusional and they couldn't live without each other, Aloïs' departure broke Ezra's heart.

Feeling alone and desperately needing a male role model, Ezra engaged in a toxic romantic relationship with a 25 years old. His "boyfriend" quickly started beating and raping him, which caused Ezra even more traumas, a terrible fear of contact and violence issues.

Back then, he used to fight violently with bullies and was evicted a few times from both public and private schools, which never stopped him. He even earned some money secretly participating in street fights. Ezra calmed down a bit when he integrated a new school again : he didn't want to be evicted anymore after meeting his best friend Leanor.

In the meantime, Ezra had decided to use violence for the good cause and was fighting criminals wearing a cheerleader costume. Since Leanor had superpowers on her own, Ezra finally revealed her he was acting as a superhero and from then on, they formed a duo named "The Rising Freaks".

When he was 17, Ezra found her mother dead in the living-room after she had shot herself in the head. Aloïs came back from the camp after this tragic event : he quickly discovered about his abusive relationship with his older boyfriend.

Aloïs tried to confront the man but they had an argument and he accidentally killed him. Ezra didn't want his brother to go to prison and despite his protest, asked Leanor's help to get rid of the corpse.

Aged 20, Aloïs also joined The Rising Freaks and Ezra who was attending a fashion school started sewing fancier costumes. The team (whose Ezra was the leader) gradually got bigger, including Connor and Arthur.

During a mission 10 years before the story, the heroes had to dismantle a branch of the mafia and met a teenager named Roxanne whose power was exploited to kill people. She was forced to fight them but they won and the twins decided to take the girl home to raise her like a sister. She was very aggressive at first but finally softened thanks to their love and care. Their relationship is now strong and loving.

Two years later, they were investigating on a child trafficking case and the acts of pedophilia it involved triggered Ezra a lot. He refused to ask for his teammates' help and overdosed on Xanax instead, then lead the mission while being completely high. The intervention failed and resulted in Connor's death : Leanor left the team and disappeared out of resentment and hate for Ezra.

After this incident, Ezra stopped being a superhero for months and when he started fighting again, he found himself unable to direct the interventions again. He gave his brother the leadership and became his right-hand man.

He's still in the team (now renamed the 7th Division) aged 37 and his role has remained the same as before.

- PRIVATE LIFE

Ezra graduated fashion school and now works as a stylist : he runs his own business and brand and manages to do the job despite his catastrophic mental health. He lives at the Division's headquarters with his twin brother and his adoptive sister Roxanne.

Most of his friends are from the 7th Division and he's single but has a crush on Arthur.

Nicknames :

Queen Elizabeth

Elizabeth

Mr. Marshall (Charlie)

RELATIONSHIPS

ALOÏS

Ezra is Aloïs' twin and couldn't live a single day without him. They're extremely close and still live together even as adults.

Due to his mental illnesses, Ezra relies on his brother a lot and Aloïs knows how to take care of him when he's at his lowest. However, they sometimes argue because Aloïs is too controlling or Ezra too irresponsible. Their relationship is flawed but fusional and loving : they do almost everything together, including taking decisions for the team.

Ezra himself has a positive influence on Aloïs : their support is mutual and indispensable to each other. Ezra is the only person who's able to calm Aloïs' autistic meltdowns/shutdowns and sometimes sleeps next to him when they don't feel well.

Despite their personalities being polar opposites, the Marshall twins share a lot of common interests such as superheroes stuff (including comics as well as real life missions), fighting or chess.

They couldn't stand being separated and need each other a lot. However, they don't show much signs of affection : Aloïs likes hugs but Ezra is contact phobic and both have difficulties telling each other "I love you".

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ARTHUR

Ezra has been crushing on Arthur since the day they met (aged 13-17), even if he was still with his abuser back then. He's still in love with him but does everything to hide it because he fears Arthur could reject him or find his homosexuality disgusting.

When it comes to anything else, Ezra has a total trust in Arthur and his soft personality makes him feel safe. They're very good friends at the beginning of the story and could spend days and nights talking, having a drink or playing chess (with or without Aloïs joining).

A few years after the main timeline, Ezra finally confesses to Arthur and they start dating. From then on, Ezra gets triggered again by the idea of a new relationship and his trust in Arthur collapses. He fears he could abuse him too now they're a couple : however, this fear will disappear as the relationship evolves and Ezra understands Arthur respects him.

Even if they're dating, they rarely have physical contact nor have sex due to Ezra's traumas. They're raising Arthur's biological daughter Ruby together.

ROXANNE

Just like Aloïs, Ezra considers Roxanne as his little sister. He's not able to hug her because of his fear of contact, but he would like to and shows her affection other ways. He would die and kill to protect her.

Ezra is the person who taught Roxanne how to behave in society after she was taken away from an abusive environment and had received a very limited education. He's always ready to listen to her problems and help her dealing with her emotions. Roxanne sometimes comes up to him when she needs advices.

RUBY

Ruby is Arthur's biological daughter and therefore will become Ezra's step-daughter later in the story.

From the moment she arrives to the headquarters to ask for the Division's help, the two of them start bonding and Ezra acts like a dad towards her way before he dates Arthur. When she doesn't feel well because of her visions and the other members of the team don't know what to do, he manages to calm her anxiety engaging in activities such as visual art or showing her how to make up. Ruby quickly gets as attached to Ezra as to Arthur.

When Ezra becomes her second Dad, he's the "cool one" giving the most chaotic education. He sometimes allows her daughter to eat things Arthur forbid for dinner, teaches her that violence is a solution when kids bully her, etc. The opposite education the couple gives to Ruby sometimes results in conflict.

Because of her death-related superpower, Ruby is able to feel Ezra's distress and his history with suicide attempts and suicidal thoughts. It worries her a lot but she does her best to help.

LEANOR

Leanor used to be Ezra's best friend : they met at school when they were 13 and 14. They founded what became the 7th Division together and fought alongside for over 15 years. Unfortunately, a tragic lead by Ezra took Leanor's boyfriend's life 8 years before the story.

Leanor never forgave and has been hating Ezra since, wishing him dead or emotionally destroyed. She even became a criminal and arms trafficker in order to fight the 7th Division.

Ezra on the other hand, tries to reason Leanor when they meet again during her arc, in vain. He still sees her as a friend and feels guilty and heartbroken after what happened. He wants Leanor to forgive him and become his friend again but knows deep inside things will never be the same.

From time to time, the mention of Connor and Leanor triggers Ezra and causes him a panick attack.

GRACE

Grace is one of Ezra's closest friends and someone he trusts in a lot. He feels safe and relaxed around her thanks to her reassuring aura and her delicacy. Grace being a lesbian, he's less afraid of physical contact when it comes to her because he doesn't fear she could sexually assault him.

She's also from the rare people to be able to calm his panick attacks and depressive episodes : her powers are quite effective on Ezra. However, she never managed to really improve his daily mental health.

MYKO

Myko is Ezra's good friend and they're having a lot of fun together. He likes their careless personality and the two of them share the coping mechanism of acting goofy to hide from their problems. He can't help laughing when Myko willingly acts stupid or causes chaos during missions.

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The Most Fun Way To Read Dracula

So now that I’ve finished reading Dracula Daily, I’ve been thinking about all the different ways that I have enjoyed this story;

1. The first time I read it I did so through Serial Reader; an app that sends you small chunks of the story daily. It was great, but I didn’t always find the time to sit and read it so I ended up falling waaaay behind. Good way to read classics though

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2. Disney Dracula, Starring Mickey Mouse; yup, it’s exactly what you think it is, Dracula retold in comic form with Mickey and Friends. It’s not bad. It glosses over the scary parts, but sticks to the story pretty well. Fun for all ages

3/5

3. I got the free Audiobook last year from Audible last year and was excited that Tim Curry did the voice for Van Helsing. Forgot that Van Helsing only has a few entries to his name. The lack of Tim Curry made me sad. It was still very fun though and I enjoy listening to it.

4/5

4. Dracula Daily quickly started to gain speed with my tumblr mutuals and I managed to pick it up before Johnathan made it to the castle. Reading it over the time it took place gave me a better idea of the story’s pacing and time. I looked forward to getting my daily emails and kept pace the entire time. I missed it on days when there were no entries. I loved exploring the #draculadaily tag and enjoyed all the hot takes on what was going on. Who was shipping who; which was the current blorbo or poor little meowmeow. I laughed with everyone about Count De Ville in his straw hat and Mina being a train fiend. I felt like I was a part of this weird community more than I ever have and I’m so thankful for that.

10/5

Let’s do it again next year

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