#im breaking down he was not okay

[diosanoturix]

The lack of zayn-centric ot5 poly fics is an absolute fucking crime

#where are they #yall #im breaking down he was not okay #inspired by that four promo where hes the only one without a line #and they put him on the edge #fuck fuck fuck #guys please #zayn malik #justice for zayn #one direction #modest management #directioners #ao3 #harry styles #louis tomlinson #liam payne #niall horan #louies #harries

[radiantmists]

reading animorphs sequentially instead of in whatever random order you can get your hands on them is such a trip because you can see these kids getting progressively better at war and worse at being happy, you can see how traumatic events from one book echo into the next ones but never quite get dealt with because these kids have no real way to take care of their mental health, you can see their relationships deepening but simultaneously gaining friction and faultlines as they learn just how far they'd go for each other but also how far they'd go in general...

obviously this series was meant to be episodic in nature, and i actually think that might be the better way to first encounter it, but the arc of the series in publication order is extremely well-crafted

#though im having to take a break #i just read 16 and like. In the context of Jake's endgame it has me so fucked up #i mean it's a lot in itself especially since he doesnt really deal with any of what happened #but also like. him genuinely not knowing if he thinks fenestre killing hosts to get their yeerks is okay ot not? #its a bad turning point for him but also still so much better than where he ends up and im too sad #animorphs #tbh im very [miles studying beter meme] about this #its so good at establishing character and themes #and laying down plot hooks for later #in a format i really dont think about much #Semi-episodic book series arent really a thing anymore are they?

[gearbroth]

[concept-dump] Space-au - (main(?) Antagonist) Skal, enemy of sun and mentor to iron

#spaceau #tf2 space au #gordon freeman #ironstar gordon #skal the chimera #my ocs #myart #yes theres homoerotic tension yes youre reading that right #skal was initially a one-off antagonist to 100years ago/pre-team sol and boone #but i decided to keep him alive and he somehow got involved with gordon and now theres so much stuff between them aksdjhad #skal helps indirectly shape gordon into his own person while gordon breaks skal down from his skyhigh ego #human helps alien accept he's not human and thats okay while alien helps human accept he's only human and thats okay #you dunno what they do to my brain was possessed by them the whole ass move #he also changes the most throughout the whole story like visually i mean x'D this is all the same guy i swear #he's just veeeeeeeeeery old and goes through a lotta ego death jkhfdsfd #he's originally an outcast astronomer from the 1500s #turns into a deranged alchemist who figures out how to eat celestial cores in order to make himself into a star #yknow how it is khsjdffsd #anyway i told my friend about skal and they said he reminded them of an owlhouse character #and now ive watched the show and im lookin back on this guy and im sdjfkhfsgd yeah yeah he does have that vibe #also he's dutch and his voiceclaim his sigma(overwatch) bc that guy was squandered and i love his voice still #a lot of these pics are panels from a lil voiceline compilation thing i didnt finish kjhdsfsk #maybe ill post it if i can finish editting it

[sluckythewizard]

adventures from a rly fun magma i got to relaxe in today

#jrwi fanart #this gets ONE (one) proper tag bc im actually rly proud o these. thats IT!!!! #anyway AAA okay so. some1 in the magma reccomended i draw edynXkira. n im like OH MY GOD. thats GENIUS #they both work at the same job or watever. coworkers. they meet only bc edyn happens to break down infront of kira #i mean she IS under alot o stress. w knowing her brother is out there in harms way. aching not only from the decades of abuse but also #from her blatant absence and silence. she KNOWS her brother cares for her bc she feels the same way. and worries just as much. #anyway kira feels bad for whatever shes got going on w this brother of hers. whoever that is. and gets her icecream. #thats what happens in MY beautiful heart. i looove kira i loooove her shes so cuuuute and so sweeeet #IN OTHER NEWS. i also love vex n viv their canon outfits are SOOO FUN. evojelly u legend #no one knows how long i fought w those hands. oh my god. drwaing hands and tools and holding and things is so ANNOOYYIINNGG #yknow what ISnt annoying tho. drawing william wisp. he comes so naturaly to my hand now. i love him so much... #ouuuhhh prime defenders oouuuhhh i miisss youuuu hope ur doing well prime defenderrrsss #aauubabbab i think thats all i got in the ol brain. here. eat my scribbles and arts. hauve fun

[vani-ash]

I support Nons wrongs

#dff #dead friend forever #non #dff ep 8 spoiler #dff ep 8 #dff spoilers #kinda disappointed he didn't do more damage #hes getting revenge in the future its okay its fine #barcode stop breaking my heart every episode #if dff ends with anything but non finally happy and safe i'll riot #im so excited to see phee and tan infiltrate the friend group #also we saw perth this ep :) #def think hes prob gonna play some part in taking down the mafia #and now im leaning towards white could be nons brother and playing up the scared act #honestly no clue who tan would be if hes not nons brother tho #i think its tan at the end of the episode #im sure someones gonna clip it and slow it down to get a better look but im too lazy to do that rn

[quietwingsinthesky]

no wonder missy is insane about him. she just mindmeld trauma bonded with him and got confirmation through him that she was right the whole time about the thing that happened to her, AND then they traded life-saving moments. of course she wants her friend back. she needs him to see her again, as clearly as he did in that moment. she needs him to be like her, because among time lords, she is alone, but with the doctor, she isn’t.

#and also he looks like peter capaldi now and she wants to fuck that old man so bad #missy is very. masterlike in her affections. of course she is. but she’s also so so sincere about them too? #its jarring compared to simm!master because you have similar moments right u have like. ‘oh davros is your archenemy now? ill scratch his #eyes out.’ and yeah i could see simm!master saying that same thing same tone. because they are both freaks about the doctor #but this is the same scene where she tells the doctor he’s walking into a deathtrap and when he doesn’t back down. she walks into it with #him. it’s like she made a decision at some point that Of Course They’re On The Same Side Now. #that’s why she offers him the cybermen. that’s why she gives him clara. this is their side and it’s going to be the side that. if the #hybrid shit had come together as expected. would have destroyed gallifrey. and then there would be no time lords. just them. and they would #not be alone because of this. #and the thing is that. again havent started s10 im getting to it. but the thing is that missy decided this was true. #the doctor is not on the same page as her at all. #and that’s why its soooo! okay <3 break my heart forever then <3 #the doctor thinks missy has to earn. has to work at. being on his side. and missy thinks she already is and that it’s so so obvious. #u understand? #missy dw #the master #doctor who

[invertedspoon]

just found a picture of Saul Goodman but Redd White?????

im not a Saul or a Redd enthusiast but what? why are they so similar?? was there some ace attorney superfan on the Saul Goodman costume department???

#hope this isnt some big connection that went down years ago and im just dumb #the pink suits #the polka-dot tie #the pink jacket and yellow shirt #the general misdemeanor #i tried looking online for like 10 mins but couldnt find anything about why he has a pink suit #all i found was what the colors mean #im so confused #okay time for actual tags #saul goodman #breaking bad #redd white #ace attorney #better call redd (dont dont please god dont call him)

[katasstrophy]

okay but what if the only reason rin and sae are (forced against their will) to be (somewhat) civil with each other in their adult years is because their gfs are ride or die besties that would rather leave their (petty) asses than compromise their friendship

#i’m genuinely losing my shit over this rn LMFAO LIKE. i know their character are more complex than that okay i know it hurts me let me cope #with the rin light novel snippets with self indulgent humor okay let me make myself giggle bc NAUR listen. THE POTENTIAL ZKSJBDBDJX #theyre like ‘baby pls u can have any other best friend in the world it shouldn’t be hard to find a new one right’ and ur on the floor #(i lied this is mostly rin PLLSSS he’s so dramatic i will die) #you threaten to break up with him like semi seriously to knock him off his bullshit and he shits his pants has nightmares about it for weeks #TRIES TO BREAK UP SAE AND UR BESTIE PPLLSSSS then he gets text from sae like ‘two can play that game’ i cant #theyre so down bad horrendously for you both it makes them ill they’ll endure your stupid double dates that threaten to end in violence #at any second sjshsndkd they totally shit talk each other once back home im crying okay ted talk over but yeah comedy GOLD #sae >:( #rin loml <3 #—bllk.thoughts! #blue lock x reader #itoshi sae x reader #itoshi rin x reader

[skitskatdacat63]

And so what if I teared up over a radio from 14 years, so what??? And if I had to hold my head in my hands???? And if I actually had to sob???

#HE SOUNDS LIKE HES CRYING IM GONNA FUCKING LOSE IT #very similar vibes to seb malaysia 2015 tbh #just that fucking palpable relief i feel sickkkkkk #girls will know the results of a rave and yet still get over emotional abt it #the voice cracks im gonna sob im gonna lose it i cant do this #no bcs i watched it and was like okay 🥹 i am very normal abt this. #and then had to keep rewatching it over and over and every time theres more tears in my eyes #just that yes yes yes yes where he sounds like hes gonna break down #i feel it in my soul #f1 #formula 1 #mark webber #2009 german gp #we do a little bit of f1

[ughgoaway]

im team baby. only because i am pro simp matty doting on his pregnant wife.

okay this is very true

like matty obsessively looking after you, not letting you life anything heavier than a box of cereal or do anything remotely strenuous.

you want a cup of tea? he's up. you think you might have a bath? he's running it. your neck hurts? massaging you already actually.

I especially love the idea of him doting over the bump, getting special creams and stuff to help your skin. it's also an excuse for him to touch his baby everyday and talk to them.

he fucking loves talking to the bump and playing the baby music, he'll lay down on the sofa and just narrate the TV show you're watching to the bump.

remember that vid of him singing to gabriella as she sleeps from ages ago? he's doing that to you, except it's not really to you. he's signing to the bump. sometimes it's 75 songs, sometimes it's nursery rhymes but his favourite thing to play is songs him and his dad used to sing.

and have any of you seen that thing on tiktok where someone's partner holds up their pregnancy bump from behind for a few seconds and it's like instant relief? matty is doing that whenever he can.

one, it gives you a break from the heavy weight of the baby and relaxes you. Two, because it means he's holding his baby before they're even born, and he thinks that's the best thing ever.

#simp matty lovers unite #eventually you have to break it to him and say “matty im not gonna break” #and he sags “okay... but what if you do??? best not risk it- sit down!!!” #anon! #teacher au!

[soldier-poet-king]

Okay so a strange and stubborn endurance is maybe not the best book I've ever read peak high literature or whatever, but I'm only 1/3 of the way through and I've cried multiple times and been beset with that distinctive grief of a book really getting /me/. The title intrigued me and oh oh is it very much the heart of the book. A broken creature of odd endurance despite it all.

And I think it's because it manages to combine a serious emotional plot of assault/mental illness/homophobia/recovery with a fantasy intrigue setting. Most books do one or the other. You've got teen contemporary YA dealing with heavy issues but with teens in highschool, but I am 27 and tired of teen protags, or you've got intricately plotted fantasy masterpieces. This is neither. But it puts that recovery front and center within a larger fantasy setting and I cannot stress how much I need and crave that and how hard it is to find done even semi-decently.

Velasin makes me want to throw up from crying. His fears and shames, his desperation, and love, and nonexistent self esteem. His humour. His loyalty to his only friend. His Whole Deal with his father. Every chapter just brings a new. Huh. Recognition of the self through the other. Gut punch.

Idek what I'm saying. It's not the most insanely perfect book in the world. But it's doing something For Me that objectively better books don't. Idk. Idk. All I know is that I'm sick with weeping from it.

Like absolutely mind the author's note warning at the beginning, because it can be heavy, but it's never graphic or gratuitous. And it IS focused on recovery, just again, against a fantasy plot.

I really dk I'm rambling now but it's just. Oh. Oh. Maybe I needed this. Everything lately has felt either too lighthearted to be genuine or too desperately dark for me to handle. And I can only reread the cemeteries of amalo so many times. I eventually need other things that are both hopeful and dark, gutwrenching and reflective of the self, without grimdark. (Not that this is on the same level but who can compare to thara celehar To Me)

#franposting #i am not eloquent this is so badly explained and im so emotional #but yeah. everytime vel is breaking down. all the horrible guilt he carries.its like. well maybe so. #and the fact that the tithenai just accept him and love him #like YES obvs the author isnt going for subtle #but maybe sometimes i just need to see a sad broken man be loved and cared for by strangers #and have his homophobic fathers exile be the instrument of his grace and love and new life #and markel! i love a loyal best friend right hand man character. that stays platonic! #anyway vel is like. i need to kms and im afraid all the time and im useless #abd its likeyeah me too my dude. me too #his literally only driving factor is duty #he calls himself a dutiful creature made of falsehood in the FIRST chapter #and im like. OKAY THEN. #shout out to fantssy book tournament account for having this in their latest polls #its how i heard of it #anyway. im unwell but yknow. trying. got too sad to finish arcane bc viktor #havent watched snk in Months bc im avoiding erwins death #STILL dragging out the finale of cr2. i have 5 hrs left. ikithon just showed up. i cant handle it being over #im. hm. a mess.

[bangcakes]

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#personal #was gonna message today but then i DIDNT. IDK. IT DIDNT FEEL RIGHT. AND I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO SAY. #I KNEE THE TOPIC BUT LIKE. WORDING ?????? WORDS???? IT WOULDNT COME #its okay tho. its okay. i literally have a fuckin note on my phone where i put shid i can talk to him about in the future NDNNDNDJXJDJDJDMD #GOD LMAO. IVE NEVER PUT THIS MUCH EFFORT IN. IM SO...... #hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh its mostly been me messaging first but like he keeps it going....... GOD LMAO #it was like that in person too tho. like we would just stand/walk n not say anything JDJDJFJKFKFJXMXMX GOD #i wasnt made for this oml. i dont even talk to ppl that much. like idk. iDK. #i just... 1. i dont want him to forget about me 2. i dont want him to think i forgot about him #3. i dont want him to think im not interested in talking to him anymore #ok 2 and 3 are basically the same but JDJDJDJDJDJDJDJD #IM SO BAD AT KEEPING IN TOUCH. LIKE THIS IS SUCH A CONSCIOUS EFFORT ON MY PART. LIKE. I HOPE HE REALIZES???? #also like. id love if hed message me first. hes done it before. but there was more to talk about while the sem was still going. now its #like... ok we can talk about exams n grades but now its christmas so like ?????? #and like. GOD. is it like... is it TOO MUCH??? to say merry xmas to him?????? or would it be normal????? #im just ??????? #GOD. i want him to know i like him but i also uh.... DONT??????? IDK IDK #i also kinda wanna see if we can even be friends outside school. but like HHHHHHHHHH i cant take it. I WANNA SEE HIM XJFIRKRIRFDIODDKHDJZJZ #hhhhhh god pls dont let me be the only one feeling this way istg #im just !!!!!@@@ i never expected this to happen to me ok. but if its Reciprocated. like TRULY. i think i'll actually like. break down #crying JDJDJDJKDKDKDKDKDKX #like Happy tears. like.... Disbelieving tears. hhhhhhhh #but..... n e way. i got this far. and when ppl dont like you they avoid you or come up with excuses. but rather hes moving like Toward me. #like i couldnt have gotten this far without him like.... Participatjng #god its all so new and weird. i just #if youve never felt this way. you probably will one day and wont know what the fuck to do. its all just too weird #literally went from like screamin about sj to like. a guy in my class JDJZKDKKZZMZMZ its fjne. its ok #know hes Cute tho. #thats another thing. i never imagined i could like have someone so Cute.... god. i'll die if he likes me back. hes so so Cute. not my usual #type. like. physically i mean. personality wise hes typical of me NFNFJFJFMFDMDM n e way. hit the tag limit 😳

[dennisboobs]

sitting back after writing 3k words of a fic and thinking. what the hell is this

#ada speaks #if i say what ive written #this entire scenario is insane but. i guess im committed #it has been a very very long time since ive written mac and its like. allll coming out in a way i didn't really expect #i *almost* feel worse for what im putting him through than dennis. ....almost. #this shit is honestly so heavy i think i need a break but none of my other fics are light either lmfao #whats worse: hostage situation turned incredibly fucked up conversion therapy #or the most relentless barrage of awful truths realizing that your existence is nothing more than a burden on the people you love and #no matter how much you sacrifice and how hard you're beaten down you will never have anyone to lean on because even though youve finally #reached a point where you realize you have to open up to them they will never see you for who you truly are because of the years of lies #you've fed them #*wheeze* #okay i answered my own question actually this is the lighter fic comparatively #dennis is suffering in both but at least he has mac with him in the former for better or worse #north dakota dennis suffers and then season 13 on is the bleakest most hellish time like has dennis actually been close with the gang since

[vcrnons]

Some favs of mine 🫶🏼

feeling feelings. thank you for this attempt on my life, i’m calling in sick the rest of this week and it’s your fault <3

#💌 - mailbox. #nonniesnovio #HOW COULD YOU #SO MANY OF THESE ARE MY FAVOURITE VERNONS TOO 😭 #let’s break this down because i? am having a breakdown over it. #aka how quickly can j embarrass herself all the way to 0 followers lmao<3 #starting with racer fit vern was an actual act of violence. the vein on his shoulder and those eyes GOODNIGHT TO ME ????? #im a basic british girlie ok. if u put a pretty man in an overshirt and a backwards hat i WILL start screaming. #it’s a reflex action I don’t know why but my neighbours dogs are going feral because i am reaching impossible frequencies rn #THE JEEEEEEEEEANS #this vern was an instant wallpaper u don’t understand no one understands what this picture means to me #if ur new around here. i am a nonnie thigh enthusiast. and for that reason i will be passing away #dark hair follow tour vernon does things to me. kenzo vernon with a fuckin EARRING? he DOES THINGS to me. im not okay. #the last one specifically you don’t understand what happened to me the day that dropped okay #I speed ran every stage of grief and almost threw myself headfirst into the shallow end of a swimming pool #the soft hair / checked tie / DAD TRAINERS !!!!!!!!!! THE DAD!!!!!!! TRAINERS!!!!!!!!!! #anyway to sum up i have some normal feelings about vernon yeah. im all good 🩵 #thank you for your invaluable contribution 🩵

[milksnake-tea]

i can't believe sunday fans r shitting on jade bc they wanted sunday drip marketing ☹️ be glad you have more time to save let the jade fans have their time

#thinking out loud 🏵️ #NOT TO START DISCOURSE BUT 😭😭😭 #me when another one of my favorite characters gets a bad rep bc of their fans #GUYS THINK ABT IT THIS WAY EVERY DRIP MARKET IS A WIN OKAY #calm down sunday will come when he comes #also my savings need a break so im happy abt this BYE

[thetimelordbatgirl]

Generally fucking love how today so far has been testing my will of not losing it completely, given my mom has been nothing but bitchy to me all day over the money to the point of blaming me somehow for her choosing to sell her Switch that she got for christmas that she literally hasn't touched since then and now my dad is starting on me because he's either tired or drunk.

#like the way my mom would be all lovely to dad #but when i speak she fucking hates me #i literally told dad i watched mad max fury road last night and mom sarcastically went 'thats nice for you' #and the way she went 'go and tell your brother then hes right about me turning out to be a bitch of a mother' #fucking dont tempt me is all im saying #thats all im saying #and just one of the kittens knocked something down...so dad in pissed off mode throws our airer and breaks it more then it already is #oh and i keep saying dont let the kittens out they not netured or chipped yet #but what does my dad do when im in bed? lets them out #insisting they need the window open #yeah okay enjoy me never forgiving you if anything happens to them #its just...im so tired #i just am