#im really fucking sleep deprived

[merwynsartblog]

sometimes things dont go your way but hey at least they are making the most of it

yeah this is my valentines piece since i wont be here alot tmr- im gonna try to make a few more

#eddsworld #ew matt #art #oc x canon #marxin the sleep deprived #eddsworld fanart #i had this cute idea where they supposed to be at a party but they got lost and it started to get late and started to rain and- #-marxin for once in his life actually really wanted to go to this party and dance but yk he couldnt sooooo matt decided “fuck this-” #-and they had fun in da rain- idk im just having gay thoughts #eddswolrd

[hecksupremechips]

Listening to Jhariah is like being Walter White in one of those breaking bad edits where he’s in a mario kart level fighting for his life but he hits a big rock and crashes his car and starts ascending into a higher plane as the consequences of his actions start reaching to him to drag him down but he simply rises above

#the klock keeps ticking #jhariah #anyway yeah im liking this new album quite a lot im prepared to be abnormal now #i havent gotten to really properly listen to them yet and form a deep analysis but the last few songs really made me feel things #i was absolutely shaking with excitement when i saw a song called sasuke and i was not disappointed lol #it goes so fucking hard #i also really liked re: concerns and control baby and russian doll and maybe later dance and trust ceremony #and of course pin eye the song that makes me feral #but naur ive glanced the lyrics for control baby and its like. oh god this one is gonna fuck me up forever isnt it #its all very good i am having a good time but im also sleep deprived so everything feels weird lol

[lunejump]

I swear to god I had an explanation for this. I don't have it anymore

#mha #oshi no ko #bnha #bakugou katsuki #midoriya izuku #todoroki shouto #ok so. I am sleep deprived let it be known. #but here's a ramble. #I just really like oshi no ko. no I'm not up to date on the anime. no I didn't read the manga. no Im not hyperfixated #or well. on ai hoshino perhaps. because she. #and I really like yoasobi idol qnd I really love rachie's cover of idol. so uh. yeah #FUCK I DIDNT COLOR TODR{DOROKIS SCAR IN #ok yknow what I'll deal w/'this later. I'm dying #anyways it's mostly covered by his hair #but yeah. boys in dresses and skirts and bloomers. here we go #I made Izuku moon and Katsuki sun bc im a dirty bk///dk obsessed dickhead #so I forgot about todoroki #logically todoroki would be moon Izuku can be star and Katsuki can be sun #I refuse to let Izuku be sun katsuki is sun #I hope everyone is appreciating my sleep deprived rant.s. anyways. I'm going to make them magical girls now me think s #whne my mom is gone to work (soon) I think I might open my graphic tablet? but I dont have ibis paint on computer so prolly not #bc yeah this is on phone my eyes are dead my neck is decaying my fingers are falling off many such cases #lunart

[stupid-sloot-headcanons]

Honestly I think my style of writing (which I'd boil down to smut that's more about overwhelming emotions and sexual desires that stem from a yandere) just doesn't gel with how I view Johan which is why I always feel so shitty and "off" when I write smut with him. I just feel like I'm jamming a very complex and multilayered peg into a Horny Obsession Hole and I wish I could give him and his potential relationship with someone Like That the depth it deserves

Anyway if you want that depth from someone who imo has a pitch-perfect interpretation of Johan and Johan/Darling, @ddarker-dreams has written the best fics I've ever seen with him

#like with johan i think sex is a factor ONLY in the specific way it allows two people to connect and become one emotionally (and literally) #i think he wouldnt feel a need to fulfill that desire to connect with and understand a Darling in a carnal/sexual way #he may develop an interest but unlike a lot of yanderes i write for sex is like. not really a factor in why or how he has such a disturbing #interest in Darling. it could grow to have that be part of it but its surprising to him and a bit of an afterthought imo #any tldr johan is 'you wake up to him holding you and even tho youre both clothed you feel too naked and vulnerable' #as opposed to 'you wake up and hes kissing and rubbing you' #the abyss doesnt need to be naked and erect for you to be terrified and consumed by it yk? #fuck im too sleep deprived and drunk to articulate properly #recs #.johan liebert #yandere johan liebert #.johan #yandere johan

[alligaytorswamp]

Im kind of feeling like i can't take it anymore

#vent #bad sad sleep-deprived and mentally ill #i am currently crying myself to sleep just fucking sobbing because everything hurts #my brain is failing me my body us failing me #i dont know what to do with myself #so many things are happening so many things hurt and i have no body to talk to #i have never felt so utterly alone #i hate myself for even writing this because i feel so pathetic and as if im just whining for attention #because i probably am #some lame ass cry for help because i really don't know how to function at this point #truly i am just so fucking alone #and there is just so much that is happening and i cant share it with anyone so it just all stays in my stupid brain and #probably makes me more mentally ill or smth #and for however long all i do is keep myself from crying during the day bc i cant let my family catch me having mental breakdowns #yet i have all of these painful thoughts that are plaguing my mind all the fucking time #i am just so so tired #and i keep thinking about death and it's so fucking scary #i just wish i wasn't myself and i had a different brain i could be better than this because maybe then i would be fine #at home im in toxic hell #in online spaces i have no one actually close to me #in my brain i have horrible thoughts and hardcore daydreaming distactions that dont fix anything #in my course i think im not doing well enough and im scare dthat my the end of it im still going to be a useless unemployed moron #on my silly blog i think if i dont make content i have no value and ehatever i make is not even that good or interesting #so i better cover it up with quantity but i dont have time or ability to do so #which again makes me into a fucking Nothing #god my head hurts so much #that's what u get for wailing at 4 am #anyways i am doing horrible and i can't take it anymore truly reaching my fucking limit #all my fault tho so ☺ #delete later and if someone actually reads it Um sorry for this i am hashtag unwell 😋💫

[bugsoda]

someone take this device away from me i am much too tired to be dignified. pay this buffoon no mind.

#is that that word #much too #those are words #when i am sleep deprived i get rambly so thats what this is #please tune me out i will tired post and comment and tag and it is humiliating bc its not my true potential #i am better than this! #go to sleep! #nay #i shall keep on for some reason #old speech posting i guess. what era is this #shakespearean? early modern english? what era was that #anyway the Some Reason is boredom and need of sleep #i will continue to ramble stop laughing at me #bloop #ren faires are so fun even though they have like. nothing to do with the renaissance. im in the process of making a cape. sewing machine is #a bitch. why do i keep adding tags #fuck off stop looking at me #dont reply to this please spare me some pride #why did i even make this post #anyway i shoudl really be more educated on history #fuck what was i thinking about. bees? #no ren faires right #who wants to come with me that would be so fun. actually i have only been here for like 3 months and ive only dm’d a couple of you #and even then not a lot. but in my defense how tf do uou keep a conversation. how does that work i cant even do it in person #ive decided to cut myself off #bye

[databent]

[pained wailing emoji]

#.pdf #rd #THE REST OF THIS IS JSUT ME WHINING. FEEL FREE TO IGNORE #i dont wanna go to work ‼️‼️‼️ i feel like i am nearing a breaking point i am sofucking burnt out #every time i go to work. my brain gets Scary at me. stresses me out. dont like it ☹️ #im supposedto be going in tonigjt but im dreading it sososo much #my work hour options have changed from “fully flexible” to “7am-9pm only” whcih yeah i know that doesnt sound that bad. but i have non-24 #(circadian rhythm disorder that makes me sleep progressively later every day circling fully around the clock over ~3 weeks or so) #and bcos of it often i have to force myself out of bed in what my body thinks may as well be the middle of the night just to get to work #and then i dont ever get enough time to recover from that to actually let my sleep fall back into its natural schedule wjich is the only #time i feel properly rested. so essentially im chronically sleep deprived which is making me chronically stressed and way less productive #i just reslly really want to fucking save up a little money and just Not work for a week or two. bjt. with my sleep bullshit i cant really #work enough to be able to put anything aside. at all #so. kind of an unrealistic desire i guess. lol #ive been feeling like this ever since like early january when i was told i ahve to stick to a more normal schedule. & its only getting worse #idont know i just wishthere was something i could do that was fully flexible on timing but also doesnt havw the kind of workload that would- #-stress me out like basically anything with longer-term projects so ykmow Most flexible schedule jobs. #i do have one thing in mind i could do on my own but its dumb and probably wouldnt make much money and has startup costs i cant afford rn..

[volatilechemicalz]

IS THERE ARCANE DONNIE LORE THEY'RE THE SCRUNKLE EVER I LOVE THEM

There is actually winky face

I typed this earlier on discord so it's messy but big and there's a bit more now so it'll all go under the cut :]

We just came up with them like today so there isn't a whole lot but I'll add to the thread as we come up with more anyways they worked with silco for a decent amount of time not really knowing what the fuck they were doing because they just wanted to do something and didn't really care how it impacted anyone so they didn't pay attention a whole lot and treated it kind of like busywork but at one point they were like . shit . and decided that they had to not do this but the problem was that they didn't really know how to leave and not face consequences so they stayed around for another month or so before there was a lab explosion while they were working on smth and it was just them there so they realized that this would be the perfect (and probably only) opportunity to dip so (like a dumbass) they left without taking care of any of their injuries and their somewhat deluded self decided that it was a good idea to leave the undercity entirely and they passed out a few minutes after they got there (obviously) and woke up in the hospital (obviously) because funny thing is it just so happened that there was an explosion at a mansion or whatever the fuck it was from ep 1 nearby so everyone assumed that this was just some random guy caught in the crossfire so anyway fast forward a bit and they find out about Hextech beginning to become a thing and is like holy shit I need to do THAT and sneak in using totally legal methods and is just like "hi !! I'm doing this with you now!! how does it work how did it start" and the only reason that they aren't immediately kicked out and arrested or smth is that they're actually really good at this shit because they're donnie and they're recognized as that random guy from the news who got exploded a little bit (also the stuff on their mask is just paint I liked how it looks so I kinda went with it) and I think that's it for now

They're so unhinged and just get themself into situations™️

The government is p stupid so I think this could work out somehow

-their goggles aren't actually goggles !! The top parts are detachable and prety easily break in order to release the liquid inside which gives it the color and is highly corrosive so if they ever get into a bad spot they can just fuck someone up

-They're aware of the fact that their clothing is way too fucking big but they refuse to get things that actually fit them . Even in the lab they wear their regular attire (yes it is a hazard . They've been told . They do not care)

-the most normal person who is definitely from topside no lies 100% real and true (they're from the undercity)

-this is technically a separated au because they're not aware of the fact that they have siblings for a while (like after they leave the undercity) although the others know that they exist somewhere but they don't know where oh and splinter is dead btw fjs

-Theyre not really used to fighting with weapons, most of the fights they're in/have been in are hand to hand but when they do use weapons they usually go for shit that you can throw and that hurts a lot because it's the most affective and that's all they really care about

-because of this their fighting style is really chaotic they are entirely unpredictable to people who haven't seen them before but there's a method to their madness although as soon as they start carrying corrosive liquid on their person people leave them alone for the most part fhks

-they barely ever sleep and the amount of times they they've passed out in front of research and whatnot is countless

-they did stay with silco for a bit after they realized that this is fucked up actually not only because they couldn't leave without basically faking their death if they didn't want consequences but also because the little shreds of validation that they got were literally everything without someone present to give them that they're even worse than regular rise donnie

-They're thirteen about to turn fourteen when they start working with silco and they're fifteen when they "die" and leave to topside . they itty bitty

-also YES they do have a techbo and YES it is equipped with many explosives and whatnot and there's even more after they leave silco because they're paranoid a little bit

#noodle talks #not art #rottmnt #rottmnt donnie #rottmnt x arcane #arcane #rottmnt au #ill talk about how the brothers meet eventually maybe #i hope you see why im so insane over them now #wow this was longer than i thought #anyway #their decision to go to topside was really fucking stupid but they were sleep deprived and losing blood so they werent thinking but hey

[shokupanda]

WOOHOOO THE STUPID ASS UNI STUFF IS OVER (FOR NOW)

i can finally open tumblr and draw and whatnot again aaaaaaaa orz

actually on second thought my first order of business is going snork mimimi. im so eepy. i havent opened twitter or tumblr in a while jsjsjdj ill do that after sleeping

#well technically speaking #i gotta clean up my art project stuff first since. my floor has been a mess ever since i started that dnndkdmd #and i gotta get groceries #and cook dinner #and ive got other uni stuff to think abt too #argh theres actually a lot to do huh #fuck it we ball though im gonna draw a wolfguy or something later #sho.scramblin #unrelated but i really wanted to make a krill oc. as in 🦐 #for the express purpose of drawing them over the ''I CAN FINALLY KRILL MYSELF'' meme lmao dnbdmdnd #but thats a bit too much effort for me rn #maybe ill get around to it kdndkdk #how does an anthro krill look like anyways lmao #anywho! yeah. what was i goin off about again. hope youre havin a nice day whoever's reading this sleep deprived ramble ✌

[besnouted]

i dont want to be too optimistic that the antibiotics are actually working but this is the first time my gums havent felt like they were being repeatedly hit with a sledgehammer at 10pm sharp and i even took my ibuprofen an hour earlier so it’s closer to wearing off at this point

#please please please please #my biggest pain today was the migraine triggered by sleep deprivation #so im really hoping. i can catch a fucking break

[m4ndysk4nkovich]

god im so fucking busy ughhhhhh

#and of course instead of getting shit done i’m posting on tumblr #but i have a lot to do and im really fucking stressed and sleep deprived and all that jazz #i might have to stop posting as much so that i can like not have all of this shit to do #but i also love tumblr so #personal #text #gifted kid burnout hits hard

[fruitsofhell]

doodle i did in a small fit of hysteria

#shut the heck up #midnight rambles #kirby lore rambles #no one gets it. #not even kumazaki #he sees halcandra as any b-tier fantasy sees their Ancients(tm) #but he fucked up by designing Halcandra to be such a visually striking wasteland juxtaposing the metallic urban and fiery rural hellscape- #-with the majesty imagined by the lor #he fucked up cause now ive been obsessed with it for the past 4 years of my lifeshdgfj #ive read history books for this shit #ICAREabout the original implication of magolor being from halcandra cause it both gives him a unique envirornment to inform his- #-shitty behaviors #and that it then alludes to the types of people who once lived on the planet and possibly even what their downfall was!! #and hwo far theyve fallen and the types of vices that keep them from truly rebuilding!! #AND I CARE ABOUT HALCANDRA BEING POPULATED BECAUSE IT MEANS ITS PEOPLE CAN HEAL #i fucking care about the ancients and their descendants and their being a dynamic cultural group and not a source of random mcguffins!!! #I CARED ABOUT HALCANDRA WHEN NO ONE ELSE DId. #(im really sleep deprived rn) #(i should get back to those rtdl streams) #tag talking #also thats my sona hi. #(edit: this is completely undirected i dont even have actual beef with kumazaki as a director i actually love him to bits (measuredly))

[mainfaggot]

didnt go to class today because i didnt want to leave the house and be around people and be on the bus and be on the train and be on campus. i just couldnt bear the thought of being looked at or observed or maybe even seen in a way that makes my skin crawl (i.e. to be seen when i am an open book with a grief stricken expression—over virtually nothing but also everything that's ever happened to me— although it's only 9 am or 5 pm and the world is still spinning). worst of all i couldnt decide what to wear and what am i if not a carefully constructed performance!!!! i couldnt wrap my head around getting on stage today. god forbid someone see right through it all

#im fine i was just too sleep deprived and too anxious to show up. #I'll do my readings and note taking from my bedroom today because i can #i feel so irreparably stupid for skipping for really no real reason #like what do you mean 'you dont want to be seen today' like oh 'youre anxious' okay 'youre tired' #oh 'the dread gets to you in your first waking hour and in the hours between night and early morning' like what is that. get a fucking grip #school is not a hobby! #but also idk man i am clinically mentally unwell so. #z.post

[fxggotclown]

so i think i am gathering that tumblrs response to everyone getting porn bots on their dashboards bc they follow tags and the bots have started liking the other bots posts leading tumblrs algorithm to think that they are popular and putting them on dashes they have made it so that instead of recent posts from the tags you follow showing up its just ones with lots of notes . for me personally this makes me want to just stop using the followed tags feature bc everything is posts ive already seen. i dont know why tumblr is seemingly consistently unable to do anything meaningful to reduce the amount of bots. im just a random guy and after seeing like three of those spam posts show up on my dash i was able to figure out what was happening.

#teamcasper #the bots arent even ones that follow or otherwise interact w regular blogs #its just a really big ring of them all interacting w each other but its so many that i cant reasonably block them all #which is why its so frustrating to me because they CAN reasonably do something abt it #i am just upset bc they have made a feature i enjoyed not what i enjoy #it was already pretty annoying having the same post come up a million times even though i fucking reblogged it but now its that except #its a post taht i saw reblogged a million times six months ago #like ??????? #also i havent seen anyone talk abt this and it makes me feel annoying and also like im going insane bc why is no one else bothered by this #guy who doesnt follow that many blogs voice #theres probably other ppl but im just me teehee ^_^ #i am sleep deprived and anxious bc of stuff in my life please bear w me

[valkaryah]

wELL I'VE NEVER BEEN TO HEAVEN!!! BUT I'VE BEEN TO OKLAHOMA well they tell me I was born theeere but I really don't remember IN OKLAHOMA OR ARIZONA yeaaaa WHAT DOES IT MATTER (what does it matter) WELL I'VE NEVER BEEN TO SPAIN BUT I KINDA LIKE THE MUSIC <3 SAY THE LADIES ARE INSANE THERE AND THEY SURE KNOW HOW TO USE IT <3

#what a goddamn BANGER this song is ALWAYS ON REPEAT also fuck spain (jk) HAVE U EVER HEARD OF PORTUGAL ELVIS? it's right next door! #you couldnt set foot here (dictatorship wasnt really friendly) BUT *BUT* HAD I BEEN FUCKING ALIVE BACK THEN ID #HAVE GONE TO YOUUUU #anyways this song doesnt leave my head WELL IVE NEVER BEEN TO HEAVEN BUT IVE BEEN OKLAHOMA!!!!!!! THEY TELL ME I WAS BORN THEREEEE #fiz tanta troça dos cabroes liberais americanizados so pra cantar esta com todo o feeling e ter crescido a ver TREMORS e TWISTER (american #classic cinema) aiaiai #WELL IVE NEVER BEEN TO HEAVEN BUT IVE BEEN TO OKLAHOMAAAAA #banger #(im very sleep deprived rn hence the crazyness) #valkaryah talks

[hole-in-the-bottom-of-my-brain]

oooooh you guys wanna read my shitty almondfort fic soooooo bad

things you should note before clicking! -this was not proof read -this was not beta read -this was just my pure unfiltered thoughts for 4 hours straight -it is an inaccurate depiction of my writing skill

enjoy !

#like. im not joking. i wrote this for 4 hours straight without stopping/srs #i started this at 3am thinking id be finished in an hour but NOPE #ITS 7AM. #I AM FUCKING SPENT #this isnt even good #like. this isnt an accurate representation of my writing. i think. #im too sleep deprived to really know tbh #almondfort #not tagging it as anything else because yeah