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eggbagelz · 5 months

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gale voice here feel the pulse of the magic in my heart that will eventually be the end of me. im on my knees before you like an animal showing its belly. im in excrutiating pain bc of the contact with the magic in my heart but please dont take your hand away please dont stop touching me

#gale of waterdeep #paydja plays baldur's gate #the relationship a lot of the companions have with their bodies is fucking fascinating #but gale and karlach's relation to their heart and to human contact is particularly compelling #i cant say who has it worse bc thats a stupid comparison to make when they both have hearts that could literally detonate at any moment #[ik that karlach cant do human contact at all and gale cant but im talking abt emotionally significant contact which is smth they share]#but rn im focusing on gale ill talk abt karlach later #hes so interesting like hes initially played as arrogant but i think that whole thing with mystra #really fucked him up bc he talks abt himself like hes. not a means to an end per se but u get the gist #you can see the way he talks abt sense and sensuality and emotional connection but as soon as you actually offer it via flirting or just #genuine compliments hes always surprised and always changes the subject #partially out of like. emotiona damage and partially bc he doesnt want to go boom #ANYWAY WHAT IM SAYING IS hes in pain bc of the contact being made with the magic that makes up his heart but #by god please dont take your hand away. please dont stop touching him. please #i hate this fucking game i hate it so much #chattering #sorry for the analysis it WILL happen again #im talking abt gale rn bc hes my favourite and currently the character i know the most about via gameplay #but there is PLENTY i can say abt everyone #god i keep saying this but its like why are you so good sometimes and also so bad. fucking Larian.

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theygender · 7 months

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The more I think about it the more I really feel like the recently coined term mesosex might fit me and it's been shared by several intersex education/advocacy blogs I follow now so I know there's support for the term but I'm still like. Scared I would be Intruding™ on intersex issues if I started using it. Like I mean. I'm an afab & (afaik) perisex person with a reproductive disorder that's likely caused by a (non-intersex) hormone imbalance which I'm now essentially having to take feminizing HRT to fix, and as a result I'm now growing tits and undergoing female-pattern fat redistribution at the age of 25 after years of having little to no secondary sex characteristics. I've always identified with intersex issues but now that I'm essentially having to undergo HRT to make my body match my asab that connection to intersex issues feels even stronger. And like that's what the term is for. But my anxiety is still like "but what if you're intruding tho" lol 🙃

#rambling #for the curious the specific disorder is endometriosis and recent research has shown that endo is most likely linked to #estrogen dominance which is where either your body makes too much estrogen OR not enough other hormones (progesterone & testosterone)#and given that the only thing that has helped me at all has been going on full progestin-only treatments #and the fact that everything ive researched about estrogen dominance and low progesterone matches up with my symptoms #it definitely seems like low/no progesterone is the issue for me #(although the docs didnt test my levels beforehand and now i cant get them tested unless i want to go off treatments 🥲)#and like. this progestin treatment has changed my fucking life. legitimately #like it didnt just stop my (pretty severe) endo it also fixed like. all of my physical health issues. stuff i didnt even know was related #dont wanna get off topic talking about my other health issues but. going on progestin has easily been the best health thing to happen to me #but it also feels so fucking weird to be going through the same type of changes that like transfems go through on hrt essentially #as an afab perisex person. its not a bad weird but like its just a strange phenomenon and it would be nice to put words to it i guess?#like im a person who has lived the last 10+ years disabled by a reproductive disorder that prevented my body from developing 'normally'#and now im going through feminizing hrt at the age of 25 to fix my reproductive disorder #thats not exactly like. the normal perisex afab experience lol. but at the same time my specific reproductive disorder and hormone imbalance #dont classify me as intersex (no hyperandrogenism just some mix of too much estrogen/not enough progesterone or testosterone #typical anatomy (afaik) aside from the uterine abnormalities resulting from endometriosis)#and its just. such a weird position to be in. i share a lot of common ground with intersex issues but im not intersex myself #and the whole purpose of mesosex was to create a word for people who arent quite either. 'people who identify with but not as intersex'#and i think that describes me. but also like.... do i count?? 😭#tmi #request to tag

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wolfywolfy · 2 months

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Genuinely I love Julian's route in The Arcana so much. The potential of it, this inherent pull towards someone and you don't understand why -- he's admitted guilt to murder yet you can't help but feel this strange insistence that he's innocent. You don't know how, but your body, mind, & soul are screaming at you that this man that you have never met before is good, he's not what others say he is, he's not what he himself says he is; and then you learn that he doesn't even remember what happened, he just assumes he's the guilty party because he wouldn't be able to live with himself if he was. Why else would he forget unless it was an unbearable guilt he couldn't bear the weight of?

And, on top of it all, he has this same strange familiarity with you. How does he feel when he sees you in the shop and his heart stutters? When suddenly his aimless searching for something feels resolved, when he looks at you and everything feels right? He doesn't know you and yet his body remembers.

The mutual amnesia of people who used to be extremely close. He sees you for what he thinks is the first time ever, but his body is telling him no, we know them, we miss their touch. And you, the apprentice, slowly realizing you're feeling the same things? You immediately trust him because, before you forgot, he was your partner. Your mentor. Somebody you were so incredibly, incredibly close to, but you died and he blamed himself and everything crumpled and he made himself forget so it could never happen again and then --

There you are. And neither of you remember, but at the same time, some part of you does. The muscle memory never left. He touches you so casually, pats your arms and grabs your hand and leads you around the alleys as if it's second nature because it is. He dreams of your face and his torment and of losing you, and doesn't realize that it was real, and that his body itches to hold you because that part of him can't bear to lose you again.

I am obsessed with it. How many little tells are there, really, that the two of you share and hint at it being an old habit from times forgotten? How many little touches used to be daily routines? How many flutters of visions aren't just passing thoughts and wishes, but memories?

You think of how hard it would be to kiss Julian with a plague mask on, and his response is "Imagine trying with two of them," because he wanted to kiss you when you were his apprentice, when you were both desperate and tired and aching and tortured by the plague with only each other's company as a comfort. Maybe that's why you had the thought of kissing him in the first place, too -- but neither of you know why the subject was brought up, neither remember, yet some parts of you do.

Ugh. I love it. And when Julian finally does regain his memories? And he realizes you're real and you're here and you've been here, and he has been able to touch you and hold you this whole time, but now he can truly appreciate it, but he's also horrified with the weight of losing you all over again. Oh my God. It's so good. The potential underlying thoughts and emotions are so good.

#im rambling #im just obsessed with past lovers who have mutual amnesia #but they both feel this weird sense of /rightness/ when they find each other again #and everything starts moving so quickly and its too quick to be comfortable yet it is more than comfortable #its natural its instinctual because you both fit #youve always fit you just dont remember #the tragedy the beauty the intimacy #the love shared inherently between people who cant remember why #but their bodies know they miss each other #and touching one another comes as easy as breathing even when everything around them is telling them no this is dangerous this is not sane #he is a murderer he is a terrible person he will hurt you #but your body says /no/#because its whispering /i know him/#grabs my heart and sobs into the pavement #im so sorry im rambling so much i just. its so good. i wish we had more books like this #not the one sided amnesia trope but the TWO sided amnesia #you dont remember what happened you dont remember who you used to be but your body is screaming /its them its them its them/#sigh #julian #julian devorak #the arcana #the apprentice #arcana #arcana apprentice #spoilers #julian spoilers #Julian route spoilers #ilya #ilya devorak #Wolfy speaks

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loud-whistling-yes · 1 year

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I saw you going insane in the tags and figure I'd give you this idea to work off from:

In double life, having had her loyalty scorned by Scott, she doesn't actually try to win it back at any point. She just tries her hardest to take everything from him (she uses his slip to take ownership of his house but beyond quoting that exact line always refers to it exclusively as *her house* not their house as well as making many attempts to get Cleo to stay with her, even when rabid she never attacked Cleo first,) attempted to make him suffer as much as possible (mostly through the powdered snow but also often in other ways,) and when they had seemingly made up she told him to his face that she planned to betray him and join the other side, so she is unflinching loyal but also incredibly vengeful if that loyalty is tossed away and discarded.

LITERALLY. SHE DRIVES ME SO FUCKING CRAZY I CANT WITH THIS. its almost like she embodies the parts of scott and cleo people associate them with and went absolutely batshit hogwild with it. scott's unwavering loyalty + cleo's bloodthirsty vengeance + pearl's own tendency to fixate ALL that shit towards one and a half of a person and be fucking unhinged while doing it = whatever the fuck dl!pearl was on. she forgives scott at the very last minute when she thinks scott gave up the victory for her BUT by the time limlife comes around you can tell shes not completely over it. like i fucking cant with these two. i CANNOT. the way the two of them work how when together they're unstoppable and loyal to the bitter end but simply by the nature of how they are once betrayed their relationship can NEVER go back to the way it once was. they're two sides of the same coin. pearl is devoted the way scott is loyal and scott is petty the way pearl is vengeful.

like seriously just typing this out i just realised??? the traits many people associate with scott???? how petty he is and how loyal he is???? pearl has it too. the thing with her is that with her she takes it to the extreme and always to one person only. just take a look at her and impulse in limlife. impulse kills her once(1) and she DOES NOT let go of that grudge for the rest of the entire fucking series. im not joking rewatch the whole fucking thing again and count the number of times she declares wanting to kill impulse after the boogie kill. scott might do it more frequently but when pearl hates someone shes never letting that shit go

and the fact that she dies this season, underwater, stabbed by scott, trashing around and yelling "this isnt fair"? i wonder if that's another grudge she'll be keeping for a lifetime

#limited life smp #pearlescentmoon #scott smajor #yknow what i feel like it deserves the tag #galaxy duo #mcyt #god im so fucking insane about these two #they'll never be on friendly terms ever again probably given everything that happened in dl but GOD DO I FUCKING WISH THEY WILL 😭😭😭#DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT DRIVES ME NUTS WHEN THE HC X ESMP THING HAPPENED AND PEARL GOT TELEPORTED TO CHROMIA #AMD THEY DIDNT EVEN KNOW EACH OTHER 😭😭😭😭#they are probably never gonna be able to share a room without dreaming of enacting violence on the other ever again jfc i CANNOT #I CANNOT WITH THEM #something something forgiveness cant mend that wound in your heart forgiveness cant make that pain you felt never exist forgiveness #forgiveness cant fix what happened between the two of you #the wound may heal but the scar will still ache and you cant just pretend the hurt didnt happen and AAAAAAUUUUUUUUUGGGGGHHHH THESE TWO #asks #joey's asks

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dulcesiabits · 7 months

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So.... I am percolating over an idea.... and I wanted to know people's thoughts!! :0 I want to write a bllk fic and have the charas + reader use honorifics, something I've avoided doing before, but I figured it'd help convey character/rls nuances! Rather than writing things to reflect American/western (nick)naming conventions and honorifics, I think it might make more sense to use Japanese ones, instead.

I avoided Japanese honorifics before because I didn't want to misuse cultural terms, and because I didn't want to be cringe LOL. But as Chinese diaspora, I do enjoy reading Chinese charas using Chinese naming conventions and honorifics!! So, I thought I'd open it up and ask other people their thoughts ^^

(Comfortable is used here as in. Would you find the usage disrespectful? Would this actively disengage you from reading the fic? and so on!)

#liya chats #RESPECTFUL DISCUSSION ONLY!!!#also. my fellow asians (esp japanese :peace sign:) pls share with me how u feel if u want LMAO #or i might make two vers of the fic using japanese honorifics and one without and see how that makes me feel lol #bc. like. thinking about the tension between how reader addresses nagi in their thoughts vs out loud vs how they refer to reo #and then like. what happens if that form of address shifts? do they use honorifics to put distance or add closeness?#cant do this with reo and nagi so much bc i never. add things like y/n or (name). so how do they address u LOL #I NEED TO RESEARCH HOW REO AND NAGI ADDRESS OTHER PEOPLE....... do they use honorifics. i have no clue. LOL #ANYWAYS. this is just an idea im playing with ultimately and wanted a 2nd opinon on

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ganondoodle · 1 year

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so for all that dont know the newest news about twitter, mr.manbaby mc dumbo is shutting down any "microservice" of twitter that he deems irrelevant with his oh so superior way of thinking which has lead to ..

.. 2FA not working properly anymore, meaning alot of people are getting locked out of their accounts completely.

#ganondoodles talks #twitter #i literally cant decide if i want to dare and attempt to download my twitter data and risk losing access altogether #or stay and cling to the spiders thread of hope that twitter is not going down fully soon #all of this is stressing me out so much i have barely been able to work on destiny #knowing that tumblr has been losing money for so long is making me rly afraid of losing it too #if that happens i might just die #literally whats gotten me through the worst phases of my depression has been the nice people on twitter and tumblr #i am not exaggerating #its like a life line getting cut in front of your eyes and you cant do anything again it #and yes i know that may sound unhealthy or whatever #but it is the way it is #i have no friends IRL #i have a few online friends that i met .. through twitter mainly #there is no one that supports my work IRL #its all online #my art is my life #without it reaching anyone theres nothing left #-draw for yourself- doesnt apply here #if i couldnt share my art with anyone if wouldnt draw #my core motivation is to share it

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silentalltheseyearsnomore · 7 months

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Every single year in October we go silent, stop being able to talk to anyone no matter what happens, stop eating and lose weight dramatically fast, and every fucking year I'm like ??????

Until someone (multiple people now lol) in my life is like oh hey we just had the 13th and a huge eclipse and halloween is coming and um is that maybe affecting you

Or drops in to conversation that we did xyz exactly the same this time last year and don't we remember this and this and this and

Just. Can we not? I'd rather not.

#mid crisis we read some more of becoming yourself #and it was like an anchor to anything making sense #and i am proud of that #of being able to open the book #and do it carefully #and stay in the middle and not trigger anyone on either side too much #also did i mention that my partner of an entire decade just decided to.... not come home right at halloween?#because im sure that helped #like she just didnt come home #let me tell you living with someone for 9 years and seeing them every day and then just living with their stuff everywhere but theyre gone #it messes you up #and if you already dissociate it is WILD #and so much more happened we cant share here anonymously #i just can not with this time of year

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toestalucia · 6 months

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got a friend request whos profile comment was just "belial..."

#stardust speaking !#i am sharing this precious knowledge cuz i saw it and started laughing i hope they keep with the game #(person with a million blogs) would u still love me if i made a billion blogs #me horrified looking at how little ive posted here the past months vs how much bs i talk on the other ones #sevilbarras event made me cry btw. im nvr super on board with plot points like what happened but. i sure did cry #the lines about 'now you get to see me in my wedding dress' and 'this is my husband' ruined me. like. i was a wreck #ch6 ended me #also gbf using more povs and stuff like that #like with how it started leaning into a conversation rather a monologue was rly good #cant believe sevilbarra became an uncle just like that #GALANTHALUS IS SO....may we get more lore right now i think its superfascinating #honestly rly good event series highly reccommend both events tbh

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universestreasures · 3 months

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@tophatz Sent:

“ it’s okay, you know. if you need to vent. " (( Anzu @ Yugi! ))

Of course, she'd notice he'd be acting off. Anzu had been Yugi's oldest friend. She had been with him since the beginning, seeing him throughout this journey he's had with the Millennium Puzzle and the spirit within it. If there was anyone he could talk to about how he was feeling, it be her.

Yugi takes a deep breath, preparing himself to speak. He wanted to make sure not only what he wanted to say, but also that the other spirit inside of his body wasn't going to listen in on this. Usually, his parnter was rather quiet during school unless something came up, and from what he can sense, it appeared his soul was currently drawn back into the puzzle for the time being, the very puzzle Yugi's hands were now clasping as he looked at Anzu.

"I'm just...worried about the Spirit of the Puzzle." His voice is soft, laced with concern and worry. "He...He said he didn't care if he got his memories back or not to me the other day. While I...I don't want him to leave, I...I can't help but worry that he'll stop wanting to try and find out his past...for my sake."

The spirit sharing his body was selfless and protective. Yugi knows that much from his actions. While he certainly never wants the other to leave, for he's become like family to Yugi, he can't help but feel selfish even saying things like 'I want you to stay with me forever' to his face when deep down he can just sense that shouldn't be the case.

"He...He doesn't even know his own name, Anzu! His name! He doesn't know anything at all about himself! He should know who he is and where he came from, but...he knows how much I care about him and like having him around. I just..." He looks down at the puzzle again before moving it close to his chest as if to hug it. "I just don't want to hold him back...back from figuring that out."

#tophatz (Anzu)#💎 Game Answers (Yugi Asks)#💎 Game Treasure (Yugi Muto)#💎 Game's Treasured Homeland (Yugi Main Verse)#(Well Anzu you got a vent all right #(this probably happens early S2 so before anzu and atem go out on that outing #(this aspect right here is something I wish any version explored more because i cant help but feel yugi felt guilty #(having atem essentially forced to share his identity with him #(and atem cares so much about yugi that he wouldn't mind staying with him #(which is why yugi fights so hard i think at the end to let atem go back to the afterlife where he belongs #(cause getting sealed in the puzzle was a tragic fate of atem #(thats just my pov anyway

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alligaytorswamp · 7 months

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Im kind of feeling like i can't take it anymore

#vent #bad sad sleep-deprived and mentally ill #i am currently crying myself to sleep just fucking sobbing because everything hurts #my brain is failing me my body us failing me #i dont know what to do with myself #so many things are happening so many things hurt and i have no body to talk to #i have never felt so utterly alone #i hate myself for even writing this because i feel so pathetic and as if im just whining for attention #because i probably am #some lame ass cry for help because i really don't know how to function at this point #truly i am just so fucking alone #and there is just so much that is happening and i cant share it with anyone so it just all stays in my stupid brain and #probably makes me more mentally ill or smth #and for however long all i do is keep myself from crying during the day bc i cant let my family catch me having mental breakdowns #yet i have all of these painful thoughts that are plaguing my mind all the fucking time #i am just so so tired #and i keep thinking about death and it's so fucking scary #i just wish i wasn't myself and i had a different brain i could be better than this because maybe then i would be fine #at home im in toxic hell #in online spaces i have no one actually close to me #in my brain i have horrible thoughts and hardcore daydreaming distactions that dont fix anything #in my course i think im not doing well enough and im scare dthat my the end of it im still going to be a useless unemployed moron #on my silly blog i think if i dont make content i have no value and ehatever i make is not even that good or interesting #so i better cover it up with quantity but i dont have time or ability to do so #which again makes me into a fucking Nothing #god my head hurts so much #that's what u get for wailing at 4 am #anyways i am doing horrible and i can't take it anymore truly reaching my fucking limit #all my fault tho so ☺#delete later and if someone actually reads it Um sorry for this i am hashtag unwell 😋💫

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skitskatdacat63 · 1 year

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I just saw a tiktok that was like "can somebody explain to me the 'absolute batshit' formula one lore there must be to incite 21k fanfictions of the sport" uhhhhhhhhhh yeah lemme pull out my powerpoint with 1k+ slides

#im not coming at this person obv bcs i do think theres like a huge learning curve w f1 #BUT that being said there is an absolutely insane amnt of lore in f1 one cant even begin to explain easily #(ik this firsthand bcs im trying to make a guide for some friends and its impossible to condense)#first you must realize the baffling amnt of shared history they all have #then you realize there's prob fics posted for every single race wknd #and then also theres fics abt the past 30+ seasons(i say that bcs the amnt of fic lessens the further back it is)#not to mention all the different media(news articles videos compilations etc)#but like yeah...theres a lot of lore #i think i prob learn at least one new thing a day #but even if youre learning abt one specifc driver or pairing theres still like an endless amnt of info #i just thought it was funny bcs they were like 'what amnt of lore does f1 even have'#and its like god you cant even begin to imagine the depths #(me whos constantly stuck in motorsport and gettyimages hell LMAO)#im just thinking abt the amnt of lore that happens at even just one race wknd #(i mean thru watching full races ive learned so much info that I never even wouldve though to research into)#whoops sorry that was a lot of rambling #(as i said not going after that person but when people say things like this it kinda annoys me 😒)#(like its someone elses passion why does there need to be a reason for it you get me?)#(but that being said f1 does in fact have a crazy amnt of history and lore behind it that people underestimate)#(but yeah idk how to feel abt the phrasing 'absolute batshit' like bro its a yr long sport w 70+ seasons one would wonder)#(i think this person made a vid abt everything changes as well? so i feel a lil defensive like hey dont talk abt things you dont get :/)#catie.rambling.txt #f1 #formula 1

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dirt-str1der · 10 months

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Yaoi has poisoned all of your fucking brains !!

#Yakuza HATEblog #i dont want to hear about the new yakuza trailer where kiryu proposed to soemone he wouldnnever do that thats so scary #also they refered to sayama as the cop lady like please show some respect to her she didnt be annoying for you to forget her #ive become homophobic now because i hated seeing a particular post so much like that will never happen you are crazy #like no this isnt how kzmj can win they have never even once considered a future together because kiryus foreplanning ended when he lost #his brother and majima has spent half her life waiting for saejima to come back like they have more important things to worry about #and kiryu is not able to share his kids with anybody he cant simultaneously raise haruka with someone he has to either be a single dad or an #absent dad no in between and sometimes haruka is left parentless in the middle of that mess but its not kiryus problem hes driving cars amd #beating people up .... well he does care sorry for insinuating he doesnt ... he thinks about his kids every day #but i guarantee you he does not think about majima every day i swear it to you he does not care about her that much !!! i have to forever #stress this doesnt mean that he hates majima but it simply means that shes not his priority AND SHE WILL NEVER BE !!! kiryu will never #risk it all just for a suckle on that majiwilly like he doesnt like her that much ... if kiryu didnt even give majima so much as a phonecall #when he was ignoring her the entirety of y3 AFTER tossing her back to the wolves just so he can play house at okinawa.. hes not going to #suddenly realise that he wants to spend the rest of his life with majima hes going to be pondering how miserable he is while beating the #fuck out of people because sorry i didnt actually pay attention to the gaiden stuff is kiryu a hitman now or some sort of mercenary either #way its so hot that hes paralleled by y0 majima because hes so depressed and wants to kill himself and forced to wear a nice suit and do #things he doesnt want to while being kept on a tight leash like hohooho ... have sex with me ...!!!#im going to kill him myself to put him out of his misery if i have to ... just let kiryu run off to america and join the cia im kidding but #wait i just thought of him actually running off and sayama pulling some strings in the force to keep people from looking for him because #shes like a bigshot cop now ... i think she should be able to cradle him gently and keep him like a show cat #a shivering wet penis in the rain and she takes him in and gives him a loving home ... i feel a little embarrassed talking about hetships #but the concept of kiryu just being in her house and living with her is making me laugh like wow ... hes straight now.... like obviously hes #still not going to be like lets get married 🥰 but sayama would want to... i believe that she could forge their documents so kiryu isnt an #illegal immigrant anymore and she gives him an american name so john yakuza can become real ... its like a fake dating au but they really #arent dating theyre just having sex and acting out scenes from a kdrama but eventually kiryu will have to go back because hes so sad #without his kids and he needs to see them one last time to pass away peacefully. sorry i just remembered how much older kiryu was than #sayama like thats a bit funny ... like i still think kiryu should be into older guys or girls but like we cant always have that happen #like how majimas options for getting fucked by creepy old guys are getting lesser year by year because those old geezers keep dying and hes #old now too ... like theyre so old thats fucked. i know ive been saying how kzmj can never win but i do think majima should breastfeed kiryu

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dizzybevvie · 8 months

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Listen I fully follow wkm lore but like how the FUCK did he come up with any of that

#Markiplier woke up one day and said What if i was a man tortured by himself and his sentient house.#What if you cant die in the house #What if the house lets you fast travel #What if the detective is only a cliche and nothing more; so when he is pressed on the details of the case hes been following for YEARS #hes devastated by the fact that he cant remember a thing?#What if the Damien looked like Darkiplier so that there was a sense of mistrust around him for the whole show #even as he is consistently the only one to help you? What if Damien was nice all along? What if Damien turned out to be Dark anyway?#What if The Actor deliberately made it so that Damien came across as the villain just as he wanted in “DAMIEN”? What if we fell for it?#What if Celine cared so much about her brother that she fucked you over in an attwmpt to help him?#What if she kept him in a winter pocket dimension while you reach out for the cane?#What if he didnt remember everything that happened in the house and is always tired?#What if hes constantly being told “get some sleep damien” and “its time to wake up damien” to show the duality of sharing a body?#What if at the end its all pointless because the ice breaks anyway? What if Damien “life is ours to choose” Mayor makes his first choice #to let his sister sleep while he pilots the body?#What if by the time you arrive back in the present the body Damien and Celine stole from you is looking in the mirror #and just like the ice broke in the pocket dimension; the mirror cracks and you are forever stuck behind the mirror/your device's screen?#What if the detective believes you were killed as he says in WWM? What if The colonel (now Wilford Motherloving Warfstache)#can fast travel; time travel; teleport; and fuck knows what else because he realised he was part of a story?#What if that was the reason the detective was a conglomerate of different noir detective cliches?#What if theres masks on everyone but the detective at the end and I said “what masks?” when asked abt it and you still dk what it means?#What if the gardener didnt have lightning strike after saying “murder” because he hasnt been in the house for years?#what if the house seeded things in the actors head after Celine left him saying about how nothing was his fault and it was all someone else?#What if the house did this for years untik the actor was well and truly manipulated by a force he didnt even know was there?#what if he wanted Damien to be the villain in his “story” which implies that when he figured out how to cheat death in the house-#he also figured out he was a part of a story just like Wilford and eventually Abe did?#What if no one had a happy ending what if everyone was tragic what if people were only what you wrote for them as characters?#And what if the house was my head? What if the house was a metaphor for my brain all along?#and also what if they were all gay?#wkm #who killed markiplier

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natsmagi · 8 months

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hi again

#thinking abt deleting the prev rambling i did in the tags #bc i think i got a lil heated and i also feel my point may get misconstrued #the point i was making is i feel like people are coming at the current state of switch from very biased perspectives #and lacking in nuance of said characters aswell as the current state of all other units #a Lot of the !!-era stories have sucked and rehashed old conflicts between charas that had been resolved in !-era #and all in all its just been. Weird. for everyone #but i didnt like seeing people ignore the progress switch have made #which can even be evident in current stories #the charas have also changed since !-era and that shift should be acknowledged when discussing them in current day which i felt it wasnt #in a sense all of them are outcasts. the current state of switch is a very complicated one #i dont wanna talk about this too much #ive just been sad about the way the switch community has formed i guess #i remember when there werent many eng speaking switchPs #its the reason i even started posting about them so much to begin with #i wanted to share my love for them with people who loved them too #but whenever i check twitter its just so much needless discourse........ esp at the expense of tsumugi ??#or just ntmg in general. its a weird shift that has happened and i know its to be expected but i cant help but feel a little sad #seeing these perceptions of the characters i love deeply be created and skewed in real time #i know i should just ignore it #and i have been for a while #but when nearly every single switch account is talking about the same stuff? i get tired #i dont know #this is very rambly #i was struggling to fall asleep which is why im typing this #this is very venty and i apologize #but yea. i dont know #nat rambles

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cicadaemon · 1 year

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I touched on it last night, but I gotta share my thots cause I haven't stopped thinking about her at all. But I'm sure everyone has heard about how Hitoshi (Kuze's actor) got head from a trans girl that was so good it made him into a trans ally. IDK how true that is, but he did direct a film about a trans woman with an actual trans lead in it. Which led me down the idea that Kuze's also a trans ally which then led me to the idea of him actually having a wife who is trans.

So the idea was that his wife use to be his kyodai and they definitely had some homoerotic shit going on, with Kuze having his gay crisis over it while the other was going through a gender crisis. The conclusion in @thomasjopsons words

Anyways they get together and it's all fun and games. Kuze helps her come up with a name which is Hiromi (kanji being 優美 meaning superior beauty) and they live happily ever after. Till he gets thrown into prison for 11 years but that's okay! He gets out and they retire.

There's also other stuff, like her interacting with other gokudo wives and Kuze beating the shit out of anyone who says anything. They got two dogs.

#yakuza #daisaku kuze #original character #I have so many thots and I wanna share them but I feel like I am just barfing them out onto this post already and its a mess #but all you need to know is I love em #also cant speak too much since I'm not mtf but I can see her like somewhat medically transitioning #but not the full way #that might just be me with my own wants if I ever medically transition #I can see her leaning pretty hard into femme hobbies at first to try and validate her own gender #but like by the time 0 happens shes just chill #definitely enjoys gardening though

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