#im so fucking tired and i hate it here

[ftmwarewolves]

So what's up with the hatred for binary trans men within the queer community? Even within the trans masculine community as a whole, what is with the cruelty?

Why is it that when a trans femme spoke to me about other trans men in her life, she turned around and used "thats so binary" as an insult towards them, as if she wasn't talking to a binary trans person. Not that it's the worst thing in the world, but it raises questions. At least to me.

What is with that? Why is it wrong for binary trans men to be men? It's not wrong for trans mascs to be masc, so what is the deal with being a man? Does it still really just boil down to simply being a man?

Do you internally think we are "gender traitors" still?

Bc that's what it seems like to me. You can be whatever you are, as long as it isn't a binary trans man.

#transandrophobia #of course this extends to a lot a lot of trans mascs too but my focus is trans men rn #just want to know i guess if any other binary trans men feel this way too #and no this is not a post for you to harbor hate or tmed shit fuck outta here im gonna bite ur throat out #im very very tired so this might sound weird

[ra-vio]

the minish cap turned 19 years old on Nov 4

#loz #legend of zelda #minish cap #toon link #link #I was busy that day. trying not to succumb to the thoughts #it was also my friend's birthday. he lives in japan so I celebrated on the 4th #im trying really hard to not fail my math course. i always take the worse math course on earth in fall #ironically the class im taking is the culmination of the other two worse math classes on earth before calc3. im not taking calc 3 #i will actually kermit. im so fucking tired. daylight savings ending is kicking my ass and its only day 3 #i've been trying to draw because i didnt draw all of october and im kinda losing my mind #and when im losing my mind i usually have some sort of buffer. its not re4 anymore cause i finished so it has to be drawing #im trying to practice the self care of doing my homework days in advance so i can get the weekends off. i hate it here. genuinely #i miss re4 so bad. i miss my wife. i miss my malewife. i miss luis #i forgot to say something about the art. i love the minish cap. its what my username is based on #my other username. not ra-vio. we know what that's based off #wow the colors look weird on pc

[fortheloveofexy]

stepping away for a while. fics are on indefinite hiatus until i come back. queue will run for a while til it's out.

bye.

#sorry yall #im just too worn thin and too burnt out to be here rn #this week has been Hard and im really struggling #and frankly im sick of fandom bullshit #sick of feeling like i cant say or post anything without being eaten alive #sick of getting random hate from people #sick of being mocked behind my back #sick of rude comments and messages and assholes arguing under my posts #I am so fucking Tired #and i just dont have it in me to keep posting and working on things when its like this #its just not fucking worth it

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

https://www.tumblr.com/an-elegant-void/743516328073265152/here-are-the-instructions-from-the-help?source=share

Important info!

immediate indignation and rage aside, for some reason i dont have the option yet... it's probably due to the usuall "roll 'features' out to chunks of users at a time" but Still. nervous

#i hate ai i fucking hate ai #it should be used for shit like medical detection and logging and shit #Not Art. In Any Form. #not for writing not for illustration not for painting NONE OF IT. KEEP THAT SHIT OUT OF HERE #each month something comes out that makes shit worse and im sooooo tired of it lmao #like i am Continuously losing hope in the future no matter how much i try not to #where's that post thats like 'why should i read something that no one bothered to write' #AUGH. I HATE IT. i hate it. its so discouraging and depressing #rambles from the bog #yk this is the first time ive started to feel genuine Dread that tumblr might finally be kicking the bucket #all of the other 'apocalypses' were infuriating but also the Tumblr Is Dying!!! reaction made me roll my eyes #but now...? man. where would i even go if this is is. #i cant stand instagram or twitter. the other platforms just dont hold a candle to this site. i just #man.... man.

[sciderman]

Sometimes i remember a comics moment i randomly came across somewhere, where Sam Wilson mentiones a musical and Steve Rodgers says he doesn't like musicals, to whitch Sam goes "Guess that means you really are straight" and even tho i don't care about Cap America or the Avengers, the moment stuck in me for that quote by Sam. And like....Sci, any ideas if straight men actually don't like musicals or is that bullshit?

actually i think i know more gay men who hate musicals than i know straight men who hate musicals. i've had a drag queen stop me point blank when i was about to sing a barbra streisand song, and i know so many gays who pointedly hate abba. so based on my experience i think the inverse is true. most of the straight men i know are kind of impartial about musicals, but gay men? hate.

my theory is that a lot of gay men don't want to fall into stereotypes, maybe. but thaaaaat's just a theory! a gay theory.

#sci speaks #i'm trying to understand the gays. they are a mystery to me. #i've seen a lot more toxic masculinity coming from gay men than i have from straight men. #i think it makes sense. they have less women in their lives. so they reckon with a lot more masculinity. more dick measuring. #also gay men have some of THE most unhealthy romantic relationships i've ever seen in my life. #this isn't a blanket statement on everyone but just from what i've seen. it's such a strange pattern i've observed. #lesbians? healthy. straights? usually healthy. gay men? universally a tire fire that makes me say “if you hate each other so much ??” #“why are you together??????????” #i have never met a cis gay mlm couple in real life that was healthy. every single one of them made my eyes widen in horror. #i want them to be healthy. please treat each other better. #the number of bitchy bitchy fights i've seen between mlm couples in public that make me so terrified #but i know mlm relationships in general are usually less... affectionate than wlw relationships. even and especially friendships. #just an observation. #i hate to say that there is a definite difference between amab vs afab experiences when it comes to relationship dynamics but. #of course there is. there is. as much as i want to say gender and sex do not matter. it really does. #it makes a difference. it does. #which is kind of why i'm glad i was born in the body i was. when people say “trans means you feel you were born in the wrong body” #im like.. i don't think that's true. i don't think that's true for me. #i wouldn't be me if i wasn't born the way i was. and i want to be me. but i'm a boy. i'm a boy but in the body that i have. #my body is still a boy's body. because i live in here. #sorry this went off on a tangent. #but yeah i know my brain would be different if i was amab. and i don't want all those other issues. #i think the only reason i'm so peaceful and serene is because i'm afab. and afabulous. #i see cis guys and im like.. yeah i don't want what you got. #once again! lucky to be me! i'm lucky. im lucky i have a vargooba. thank fuck for that! #couldve been so much worse off. could've been born with a dick and would be fighting for my life right now.

[paint-it-dead]

-"Fourth of July", by Sufjan Stevens

#berserk #griffith #guts #griffguts #griffith×guts #guts×griffith #berserk manga #berserk edit #griffith berserk #guts berserk #i hate this #but my brainworms wouldnt leave me the fuck alone #so here yall go #its late #im tired #goodbye #my posts #my little versailles? get it?? cus of the rose of versa- ok ill shut up sorry...

[blueskittlesart]

this country needs to bring back political assassinations im not kidding

#im tired i’m tired i’m SO TIRED. HOLY SHIT #‘march!! vote!!’ THEY ARE THERE FOR LIFE. THEY DO NOT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT PUBLIC OPINION #IM TIRED. IF THEY WONT BE COMPASSIONATE I WANT THEM SCARED SHITLESS. #I WANT THEM TERRIFIED TO TAKE AWAY HUMAN FUCKING RIGHTS. I WANT THEM TO KNOW THAT THEY WILL DIE IF THEY DONT PROTECT THE PEOPLE THEY SERVE. #I FUCKING HATE IT HERE. HOOOOLY SHIT #personal #if the fbi is reading this put me on a fucking watchlist because i’m about to attempt to kill a supreme court justice.

[puppyeared]

adhd comix

#man i dont even have the energy to be mad. im just tired #like. dont u love it when your parents exhibit symptoms of ADHD and your sibling is diagnosed with a learning disability #and instead of thinking oh shit what if the other one has smth too. they subject you to The Horrors #i cant bring myself to hate my parents. but im tired of feeling obligated to defend them when the thing they think is working #isnt actually working and ive just found other ways to cope to avoid any sort of conflict. like lying and stealing. lol #if someone took me aside and said 'hey so your brain doesnt make as much dopamine as usual and its not a bad thing it just means you #need external stimulation and reward system to function and youre not actually secretly fucked up or lazy' as a kid #im pretty sure i wouldnt be here rn with half the problems i already have. unfortunately getting diagnosed late means u dont have a teacher #to back you up at a parent teacher conference that forces your parents to take this shit seriously instead of ignoring it hoping itll #go away on its own. but hey what do i know i have squirrel ipad baby disease. what do i know about my own symptoms #AND. AND i think im allowd to be mad bc ive been doing my own research on this for years before and after diagnosis #theyve been putting me thru the WORST parenting techniques on earth. which they could have corrected at anytime but they were #comfortable thinking they were doing it right and didnt bother to check if they were or werent fucking up their kid in the long run #and refusing to acknowledge it. i just!! they just decided one day hey lets make babies!! and just looked at books on how to make #a human being survive as long as possible!!! what the fuck!!!! #im sorry for putting this on ppls dashes but i am. so tired. of bottling this up. and im not looking for sympathy or anything i just need #to scream and clench my fists to SOMEONE about it because theyre not gonna take this well up the ass. sigh #yapping #vent

[blooming-cecilia]

sweetest dreams | venti x reader

venti wakes up in the middle of the night. he's still half awake, very much sleepy, and he doesn't know what woke him up. but as always, the first thing he does when he opens his eyes is to look at his windblume—only to find them already looking at him.

"huh...? windblume...? it's still dark out, why are you awake?"

they don't respond. in fact, it doesn't seem like they've heard him at all. they look dazed, in a trance, just looking at him. it's kind of creepy actually...but i'm not one to talk when i like to watch them sleep.

worried, venti lifts his upper body up to get a better look at them, squinting in the dark and gently placing a hand on their arm.

"my love? what's wrong, you okay...?nightmare...?"

they still don't use their words, but they do shake their head and scoot closer to him for a cuddle. his body moves to hold them close. their head on his chest, arms wrapping around them, his hands gently caressing their hair then leaning down for a kiss on the forehead as he always does.

he's still confused on what's gotten into his beloved at this hour, but it's nothing unusual. they're not a very talkative person, especially when they're all curled up in bed, so he does not push, and instead just lets himself relax at the warmth from their hug and their soft gentle breathing.

he's close to falling back to sleep when he feels them shift to look up at him again. curious, he looks back down and almost coos at the sight: his windblume is sleepy—droopy eyes peering up at him, the same fond look in their eyes that makes his heart flutter and their hand holding him by his waist, gently pulling him even closer to them.

"'love you..."

barely a whisper, but he hears it loud and clear. he hopes you too, hear his heart start to race as your words sink into him, his own fond look appearing on his face, and he quietly giggles, pulling you close and kissing your forehead again.

"oh windblume... is that it? is that what kept you awake? heh, so silly...but i love you too."

his hands go back to carding your hair, and you shift again to get comfy—finally resting now that your little mission is complete.

"go to sleep now, dearest. i'll make you breakfast when the sun rises in the morning. sweet dreams."

#tulip writes #venti #venti x reader #venti imagines #venti the bard #genshin impact venti #i shit u not its 4 fucking am and i just. got so overwhelmed by how much i love this stupid green bard #that i had to write about it in half an hour to get any fucking peace #im so tired you guys #how and why is he able to do this to me #making me so damn emotional at ass o clock because of a fanart w a soft fond look on his face #THATS IT AND IM GONE #i truly hate it here #shit title but whatveerr i hate naming things and i really should be sleeping #goodnight venti likers #squeeze the life out of him for me thanks 🫶

[spaciebabie]

weather here is so fucking stupid. earlier this week it was freezing out and now its 60 degrees and i hafta dig thru my shit and pull out my sleeping shorts b/c its so fucking HOT IN MY HOUSE RIGHT NOW. WHY IS IT 60 DEGREES IN JANUARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#THEY HAVE THE HEAT ON #WHY #OH MY GOD YOU PEOPLE SUCK #spacie spoinks #''oh haha its the south its like this here lol'' BITCH NO THE FUCK IT ISNT??? YOU'VE LIVED HERE LONGER THAN ME?????? #ITS NEVER THIS FUCKING HOT IN JANUARY FFSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS #YOU'RE LYING AND DELUDING YOURSELF #IT USED 2 BE 30 DEGREES AND UNDER IN WINTER HERE #PEOPLE THINK ITS NORMAL?? EVEN THE 70 YEAR OLDS WHO LIVE IN THIS STUPID STATE #WE USED 2 HAVE SNOW DURING THE WINTER #SCREAMS #ohhh my goddd im so tired when the weather changes like this we get hurricanes and tornados i dont wanna deal with bad weather so often #IT USUALLY ONLY HAPPENS IN THE SPRING AND FALL BUT NOW. ITS HAPPENING MORE FREQUENTLY. #oh my goddd. i fucking hate our government i hate rich people who fucking contribute 2 this im so angry im so fucking mad

[squuote]

saying I ship them is not enough, I need to carefully and intricately explain exactly how their dynamic works and what they mean to each other and how they rely on the other in a detailed fashion that encapsulates exactly how their relationship effects me as a person. I need to put their relationship in a way that is more than just ‘I think they should kiss’ because kissing is gross and I think they should fight each other and fight for each other instead as an act of love. And because there’s so many ways to love, defining it through only a small selection of actions does it no justice. I need to explain the ways they care for the other, especially the parts that are never spoken. The intricacies of love as a concept that aren’t bound to a simple romance will be spilled once I get my damn hands on it

#crow thoughts #this can be applied to like. three different things ships of mine lmao #man you’d think as a loveless aro with no intention of getting into a relationship of any kind #you think I’d probably be hating this but no. sorry I am obsessed with pushing the bounds of what love is #love is such an intricate concept that is expressed in so many ways and has so many different views #I will forever hate the people that simplified and dumbed it down to a specific platonic or romantic man fuck that for real #it’s exactly how I feel with the concept of gender; a wide concept with an array of options simplified down to control a medium #I don’t get love and I never will and I fully accept that #but dammit I will not sit here and let others define what it means to me. im too tired for that and too stubborn to comply anymore #romance is dead and I will be it’s killer

[delusionalmaniac]

beginner ana tips

one) don’t let anyone get suspicious. make sure to eat in front of your family and friends. it’s tempting to skip school lunch but don’t, because you don’t want your stomach growling in class or your friends asking you why you skipped. instead pack something you can pick at, like a cucumber salad (chopped up cucumbers). you can hide this behind your lunchbox and sit at the corner of the table so they know that your eating but not what your eating.

two) don’t snack. it leads to binging. only eat when you absolutely have to (someone’s watching you). for me it’s breakfast, lunch, and dinner.

three) drink water and tea. a lot of it. when you pee your stomach gets flatter. when you drink your stomach gets fuller.

four) always eat less than 1000 calories. always always always. i don’t care what your limit is but it should be less than 1000.

five) don’t tell anyone your weight. they may catch on or try to get to your weight (you want to be the skinniest friend).

six) always pretend your eating more than you are. if your having tea at home send a picture of it to your friends (of the mug not the tea) and say your having cocoa. if you pretend to eat more other people will feel more comfortable eating more and you will be the skinniest.

stay safe babies 🫶

#ana trigger #tw ana shit #anagirl #tw ana diary #ana meal #ana rant #ana tricks #starv1ng #i wanna be skinnier #i want to be skinnier #depressing shit #i hate it here #im so tired #whats wrong with me #i hate me so much #whats the point #what the fuck #i hate me too

[sunnibits]

I hate you chronic fatigue I hate you chronic fatigue I hate you chronic fatigue I hate you chronic fatigue I hate you chronic fatigue I hate you chronic fatigue I hate you chronic fatigue I hate you chronic fatigue I hate you chronic fatigue I hate you chronic fatigue

#UGHHGHHGHHHVHHHHH #I feel like in the past the fatigue has always been there but it hasn’t been thaaaaat life intrusive #but lately it’s just been so fucking bad and for whaaaat #I’m so tired I’m so fucking bored IM SO TIRED #all I want to do is nap #and yet I just took a nap and it didn’t help one bit #I hate it here!!!!!!

[lleclercism]

every race weekend ferrari is like "yeah we use this race as a learning experience so we don't make the same mistake again" and then next week happens and they have 9 new and different learning experiences

#i am so tired i am genuinely exhausted i cannot even imagine having to sit on their fucking garage #listening to these people who do not make any sense next time i need charles to blow it up idgaf #its just so tiring reading the same interviews over and over again from different people on the garage #and they all say the exact same thing and the months go by and the script doesn't change and you have to wonder if he really is wasting /it/ #doing the hate at 8 am on a monday like im getting paid to sit here LMFAO k i gtg to class see u guys later or not idk #scuderia ferrari

[caramelmochacrow]

yukaeso harumichi cosplay yayyy <333

#crow's scribbles #d4dj #d4dj groovy mix #yuka jennifer sasago #esora shimizu #yukaeso #kyoko and shinobu are here but..... well. theyre at the back so im not tagging them #the moment i noticed a few things i drew this haha (well i noticed earlier but i didnt have time to draw this until now) #i promise i draw yuka w more energy it's just that i was very tired while i was drawing yuka haha (esora was a few weeks(?) later) #ive drawn them cosplaying a lot of people lol this is just one pair. i got. like. so much more. #ive drawn kyoko and shinobu cosplaying people as well but the outfits are too complex so im leaving them another time heheh #sorry for all the yuka posting ive been doing this was backlogged for a bit #i drew this in the same layer/canvas as the wish you luck redraw btw (you can see the corner of it in one of the drawings) #yuka w short hair is fucking terrifying for my heart. i both love and hate it. esora's reactions are based on a little bit of mine. #anyway. sorry for the ramble. take these dummies

[twilightarcade]

oc-tober day 27 - monster!

#notwordswordstag #anyways we're so fucking back. Sorry for missing literally a third of the month goodlord #bweirdOCtober #oc-tober #ok idk what i want as a caption all significant thoughts are going into tags today #we missed friends week because of That. Luckily every week is friends week when I'm around #doing that.. hopefully this week? That said it /is/ halloween so it might leak over #anyways monster au.so funny 2 me like what if everything was the exact same except they we freaky little creatures #wouldn't that be fun. The answer is yes. I am having fun #maaaan i was supposed 2 draw something else I think. Here we are anywyas #didn't think about it too much #erm.. in terms of life news? may pick up the saxophone. For like 2 seconds. #or i'll teach myself piano that would be fun (and relatively easy given. Piano) #who knows. Maybe we'll do nothing. #but what if i'm REALLY good at sax. What if it's actually my true calling. Clearly not a flute player. #Man I hate the flute #ok im tired besties bye 4ever 🫶🫶🫶🫶