#im so proud of it you don't even know

[umblrspectrum]

you'll never guess which movie i finally watched after 2 years of being lazy

#dont you just love it when your artstyle changes like 5 times in the span of a day #i saw emmachen1003 give them the glove type thingys and went “that looks cool. im stealing it” #so uhm. props to them for being awesome and making cool art #anyways that was a fun movie #not gonna say the title here cause i think it messes with searching and i dont wanna do that #that n frame is like the first time i have ever done a decent angle/perspective thing #im so proud of it you don't even know #murder drones #murder drones uzi #murder drones n #serial designation n #murder drones nori #absolute solver #i guess #or is it absolutesolver #whatever #oh yeah uhmm #murder drones episode 7 #murder drones episode 7 spoilers #murder drones spoilers #its been 2 weeks but im gonna give it another day just to be safe #just realized i fucked up the quote and its pissing me off so edited. go fuck yourself

[ywpd-translations]

(Heads up, Yowapeda is going on a bit of a hiatus for the next three weeks! So there will be no new chapter until 8/3!)

Ride 737: New pedals

Pag 1

3: New... “pedals”

4: Yeah

Pag 2

1: Try using them

You'll probably be able to use them!!

Pag 3

2: Huh

3: …..!! Be able to use them!?

4: The.... pedals!?

5: Rokudai-kun

Ye-yessir, teh

The senpai of my senpai, the “super senpai”!!

6: Sorry but could you please bring here Onoda's bike?

Pag 4

1: Yessir!! Right away!!

3: So fast

3: Here!!

Thank you

Thanks

He's really so fast!! As expected of his hardcore manager spirit!!

Pag 5

1: Waaaa.... I officially touched Back-ga-.... Onoda-san's bike....!!

Why are you being all bashful by yourself now, Rokudai....

2: I'll install them right away

3: Ah-uhm

4: Uhm.... actually

I can't accept them

7: Teh!?

Onoda-san refused them..!!

Pag 6

1: You purposely cam here to encourage us, you even offered me a drink – I can't accept the “pedals” too, in addition to that!!

2: You even greeted the first years

That's plenty, thank you so much!

Onoda-san....

4: Is that so?

Yes!!

5: I thought they would suit you, Onoda, but..

Pag 7

1: I- I wanted to see the new pedals, teh...

He said “he'll be able to use them”, I wonder what that meant

2: Maybe the shape is different?

Maybe they're difficult to use? Like there are two on both sides

How would you even step on them, teh

3: I actually got these for myself....

4: With my style of pedaling I tend to lose torque near the limit, so I tried using these

5: But it didn't suit me

So I went back to use the old pedals

7: And while doing so I suddenly thought

8: That you, Onoda... your pedals

Pag 8

1: How long has it been since you last changed them...?

2: Huh

6: The pedals used for bicycles racing are consumable

Pag 9

1: When you fall, they're the first thing that hit the ground, and they're shaved by the impact

2: The structure is simple but surprisingly useful, but still metal isn't perfect

3: They receive the torque and the force from the legs, so you can say the pedals are one of the most important part of a bike

And there's no guarantee they'll never break right during an important race

4: A race...!!

5: Of course you usually bring your bike to Touji-san, and I don't think he'd fail to notice something like this

6: But, has it ever happened before that your feet unfastened during an important moment and you had troubles because of it?

Pag 10

2: …. during the Inter High's third day... at the end...

Yes, it happened....

3: You fought in the Inter High twice

4: You ran in the prefectural qualifiers, every day you use your bike for practice

5: And you're overusing it now during training camp

6: When they'll break it won't be surprising

Onoda, sometimes.... caring... isn't just about the club members....

Pag 11

1: It's about your own bike, too!!

2: The pedals I received from Teshima-san on that rainy day during training camp onmy first year

3: I asked Touji-san to fix them on my new bike, since they were important to me

5: Looking closely, they're all ruined

Pag 12

1: The bike that connects me to everyone

And what connects me to this bike

2: The pedals

3: You went to the Inter High with the pedals I gave you, and you delievered our jersey to the final gate in the end

4: Twice

And I, who gave you those pedals, also am happy and want to thank you

5: But, it's enough

They carried out their role perfectly

Pag 13

1: Let them rest

3: Waaa it's already this late!? That's bad, I got a lecture tomorrow next period

4: I have to go back!

Th- that's bad!

5: …. ah, but you refused these new pedals. I can't give them to you... you said

Ah- wa-

Ahh, what should I do

Ah-

6: Well it can't be helped

Pag 14

1: I'll forget them in the lobby and leave

4: Do your best during this training camp!

Yes- thank you so much for coming here!!

5: Say hi to the others for me, too

6: Share those with everyone and eat them

Pag 15

1: Thank you so much...!!

If you speak so loudly you'll wake everyone...

He....

He's such a nice senpai...

2: I could see ans feel the Sohoku bond, teh!!

Righ!! It's so strong!!

3: I'll change them now

4: The pedals!!

6: I wonder what kind are they, teh, these new pedals!

He said “you'll be able to use them”!?

7: Huh!?

These are the pedals!?

It's the first time I see them in this shape, the... the tip...

Pag 16

1: is round!!

Pag 17

1: The part where I put my feet is a round pedal...!!

2: Amazing, since this pedal is round

3: I can move my heel left and right

4: With incredibly wide movements!!

5: My ankles... and my knees are incredibly free to move!!

And also, these pedals...

Pag 18

1: They feel so close to the sole of my feet

2: I feel like I can turn my pedals so much more like this!!

3: Thank you so much, Teshima-san!!

Pag 19

1: Have you noticed, Hotshot?

Onoda-kun's....

Yeah, his pedals are new

2: “Speed play”

3: It's the only kind of pedal in the world that has the cleat and fastening mechanism on the side

4: Your legs' range of motion left and right becomes wider, so when you're swinging the bike you can still under all circumstances pedal at an high cadence and apply torque

It's perfect for Onoda's pedaling style

5: Was it Touj-san?

Who knows... I sense some kind of intention behind the guess of giving him those pedals

6: And from those donuts lineup choice, maybe

Pag 20

1: It was Teshima-san!!

2: Onoda....!! Pedal, until your limit

3: I told you before...!! I want to see

4: How strong you can become!!

#yowamushi pedal #yowapeda #yowamushi pedal manga #yowapeda manga #yowamushi pedal spoilers #yowamushi pedal translations #ride 737 #no you don't get it i love junta so so much hes so important to me its not even funny anymore ;A; #i loved how imaizumi at the end of the chapter goes 'mhh this suspiciously sounds like something teshima-san would do must have been him' #lmao he knows him so weel #onoda refusing the pedals at first bc junta already did so much for them ;;i just love how much he's growing... #makes me feel like a proud mum- and i bet junta felt the same lmao #and junta going 'ah damn you didnt want these pedals :( well i guess ill just forget them here :D' #he's SO NICE AND WITTY I LOVE HIM #and you know who else loves him? rokudai and kinaka 'oh my god hes such a nice person *O*' #yeah babies i understand you im in love with him too #(nad many other ppl in this manga lmao) #gonna miss this manga for the next three weeks :') #but also thank you watanabe bc you took a break just when im most busy and then i go on vacation #you did it for me ily #gonna use this time to maybe finally catch up with reading spare bike or rereading ywpd from the mtb arc mhhh

[spookythesillyfella]

man writes a fanfiction . makes art for said fanfiction .

hi yes this is tony lore . and digitaltime . rolled up into one .

#yess i wrote and uploaded a fanfiction #i made this little art thingy thing for it cuz like 1) people don't typically interact with my posts if i dont and 2) i really wanted to – #– have fanart done for this . cuz im super proud of it . but i know no one would make it . so i just did it myself !!! #frankly . i am proud of this . both the drawing and the little fic #but #how much do you want to bet that . even if i proof read this like 3 times . there are still a bunch of spelling mistakes ? #heh #i digress #this was a lot of fun to make !!! so y'know :3 #dhmis #dhmis art #dhmis fanfic #dhmis au #high voltage au #dhmis ship #dhmis tony #tony the talking clock #dhmis hv tony #dhmis colin #colin the computer #dhmis hv colin #yeah sorry buddy boy but you don't get to appear in the art for this . vampire cock boy is my favourite character . #dhmis digital time #digitaltime #ao3 #ao3 fanfic #silly :3 #oh yeah also i named all the chapters by The Caretaker songs #just so y'all knew

[bonetrousledbones]

getting a sudden resurgence of art motivation is such a blessing and a curse tbh. bc on one hand im drawing a lot and having a lotta fun doing so but on the other hand i wanted to make Even More secret stuff for atbb that requires drawing so i told myself i would make a few very sketchy things that would have to be quick and don't have to be Insane Awesome Quality since they'll be blurry as hell in the final product anyway and i have like less than a week / a couple days at most to get it all ready in time

so anyways now it's 3am and i just finished the first of what i still want to do after 3 days

#trousled dumb #WHAT THE HELL IS IT WITH ME AND OVERDOING SHIT THAT'S JUST GONNA BE BLURRED!!!!!!!!!!!!! #there are THERE characters in this fucking thing btw. and a background. whats wrong with me who have i become #i was sooo close to just leaving it with minimal shading & detail and finishing it like So Many Hours Ago I Don't Even Know #but i had that thought. you know the one. the one that says Wait I Can Push This More. and well i fucking pushed it #i think im gonna have to do an art dump when this event is done. because where this is gonna be seen beforehand it's gonna be 400px wide. #its original width is 1694px for the record. can you imagine the compression #motion blur + scanlines filter + several gaussian blurs + ungodly compression.......................why did i . do this #sigh. at least i am extremely proud of it and at least i lost track of time solely because of how much fun i was having #but also fellas i do not think i will be drawing everything i want to be prepared by the time of the reveal lmaooo #head in hands. i have drawn a really really good pair of boots. and also a lesbian. and also fully rendered drinks with ice cubes in them #ice cubes that you cannot see. because they are already so small that they had to be drawn with a 2px brush. and now they are blurred #and also obscured by the glass details in general. but by god do they change color under the liquid and everything #goodnight . i would put a cute little emoji here but there isnt anything that represents a smile akin to baring my teeth like a wild animal

[finexbright]

cannot believe this is even a topic of discourse when it really, really shouldn't be. not everything is twisted and plotted. the simple honest truth is that louis acknowledged publicly how only the brave has taken over a completely different meaning by fans and is now a queer anthem played everywhere and THAT is something we should be proud of, for us and for him. that means that he sees the seas of rainbows, the colourful lights and fans adorned in rainbow colours and knows, and relates, and empathises with that feeling of belongingness and community and we should all be proud of what we, him and us, created together ✨🌈

#sorry but yes i get making memes or whatever but if any single person comes and utters the words ''it's not big deal'' #then you clearly haven't been here long enough and don't know exactly how much this means #and also for fuck's sake real life people don't queerbait jesus fucking christ. like that's just not something people do. #it must've taken an incredible amount of courage and freedom for him and i'm so proud of him #and from now on otb will have an even more queer vibe and im so here for it

[punkshitposts]

something I think is actually hilarious is that if you go left enough you start having more stances in common with (individual) conservatives, and if you go right enough you start agreeing with (individual) leftists. like i have a pretty close friend who's self described as "just far enough right that I hate politicians" , whom I hard disagree with his overarching political stances. but the finer details of it... yeah we agree with each other. gun control/gun rights opinions taxation opinions pro-small government opinions slight separatist opinions anti two party opinions anti-corporation opinion ect ect ect.

we stand on opposite sides of a standard political compass but I genuinely think if I were to count stats, I'd agree with as many of his stances as I would a liberals/democrats stances. my hs gov teacher described the difference in right vs left to us as "everyone's goal here is the betterment of mankind, they just think the best ways to do it are different" and that's literally the best way, to me, to describe what the difference in right vs left is regarding anarchism specifically. we got ESSENTIALLY the same opinion but the ways we think are the best ways to go about enacting said opinion are what makes us different. and something abt that is really painfully funny to me. envisioning a world where an-something is the major world thing, not capitalism.... and there's STILL right vs left... but The Anarchist Versions. christ.

sorry for the book i wrote in the tags. ignore typos I am NOT retyping any of that to fix them xoxo

#this is a controversial post to post here ik. however i think can we all agree that echo chambers and bubbles aren't... good. #and i think something that gets forgotten a lot by leftists is that there ARE anarchists on the right #yes we are EXTREMELY different but its important to like. remember that should The revolution come in our lifetimes their still gonna exist #and political disagreement on an individual scale CAN and SHOULD be civil so long as neither party is coming from a bigoted stance. #as in.. no i dont agree with a good chuck of what his stances but by disagree i just think hes wrong abt economics bros not like. a bigot. #in this same vain i also think (myself included) people shouldn't conflate conservativism with racists and homophobes. t #theres proud gay conservatives and conservatives who are poc... erasing those people means we cannot know of how the other side works. #i genuinely believe that if i were to go read every political theory book on right leaning politics id fine something uniquely republican #/right/whatever that i would agree with and then adapt into my own politics. im sure at least one of the unique-to-the-right stances has #actually standing and isn't a load of shit (again probably something economic rather than social). #and thats not a bad thing and if you think it is a actually don't know how to explain it to you! we MUST critically but civilly interact #with political opinions mirroring our own to 1 understand other people 2 fully understand and develope our own stances and why we have em #i genuinely find political conversations with that friend extremely enlightening even if we both walk away still set in unchanged opinions. #because it means i understand WHY others drift to those options but more importantly why /i/ drifted to my own

[miku-saws]

Original art by Becky Cloonan

#miku-saws things! (its embroidery actually) #its not perfect but i am honestly very proud of that so #dracula daily #re: dracula #the voyage of the demeter #embroidery #im so proud to finish it before october 3rd you guys don't even know

[taegularities]

being here has never felt this suffocating.. it feels impossible sometimes to continue

#i wish you'd talked to me about it instead of making a post with screenshots #because that was nothing i did intentionally... i didn't wake up thinking 'i will be racists today' it was a mistake i'm not proud of #i meant my apology and i said i understand when people are offended and that i'm sorry #i know it was wrong and i'm ready to learn from it to not hurt people anymore and idk why it warrants calling me a full racist #and i don't know how you saw that ask bc it was days (or yesterday? idk anymore) ago and you blocked me weeks (months?) ago #you'd have to actively seek that ask out or look through my posts if im blocked for you #and if it wasn't you but someone else who pointed it out for you idk how you guys got to the point of scanning my blog #if i ever hurt anyone im ALWAYS open to talking about it. i remember once using a word wrong and someone pointed it out on anon #and I've never used that word ever since #i would've immediately apologised and deleted that bit too if you'd texted me just one sentence a la 'hey that's so not okay' #and you did the same thing when i went alway last time... never communicating but going against me while so many others reached out to me #if i didn't see anything wrong about this thing now i wouldn't have made that post. im not scared of disagreeing with ppl #and i don't know what you want me to do? i didn't even know M when their thing happened and still felt bad for them.. me or those who are #defending me didn't go against M... how would you think it's the same people? idk man #idk.. i can apologise a 100 times and it won't be okay. and if i don't say anything im dodging the topic it'll never be enough no matter #what i do #reach out to me jords tell me what i can do bc i did NOT mean to ever hurt anyone and im so freaking sorry that i did #<— this msg especially to those who were directly hurt #idk what to do so you stop posting so many screenshots #if you want ppl to stop supporting me then...yeah idk guys stop supporting me — unfollow me it's absolutely okay bc i know that was #uneducated af of me #to all sweet ppl who reached out thank you i see your messages #i'll see all those that'll come too.. i just wont answer so no one drags y'all #thank you that's it #go ahead and screenshot this too. i can't do anything else anymore #also.. the only parts i edited in my apology were 'i didn't mention japanese' and 'i dont feel superior' which i did after waking up cos #my post was made at 5am after randomly waking up during the night #edit: stop sending my friends asks saying i deserved this. i never told anyone to defend me.. they CHOSE it and they're allowed to #that's it... thank you guys and ily #ill brb. not too long just a bit

[watch-out-it-bites]

I believe I deserve a sweet little treat [He has done nothing important for the past week]

#i am so fucked #don't let them see this! #i could always go to the kitchen - Above the fridge ;-) #siiigh to have things i enjoy. the worst. ever. #i really dont wanna be god im so fucked but im so tired. and i dont want to be yelled at but i dont want to do anything #i feel like just. lying down and not getting back up. nap time. oreverrrr #i really wish i could live carefree doing whatever #guh. is it even worth it to try? #im just going to end up all. eugh. #sure. it was great last year. but uhghfhfhg so quiet and so hard and so. bluh. #i really dont wanna wake up on monday #so stressful all the time #im either stressed but enjoying and spending time with friends or stressed and alone but people are proud of me #maybe we should cut off interests for a while - it could fix hims stuff. #i wish i could focus #i dont know why so hard recently #uhhhghĥhhhhhhh #i dont think i deserve to sleep but im so tired but i need to work on things #god i want to kill myself - you can't!! youve taken too many vows to die now

[transmechanicus]

It is sunday night. I remain exhausted.

#my stuff #i tried everything this weekend and nothing is healing my Existential Ambivalence #like i know i cooked and i saw friends and i did my hobbies and normally i'd be proud of myself for all that but i just...don't care #i wanna call out sick or something tomorrow. I'm worried about my finances and i genuinely think im gonna have to move somewhere cheaper #like i was expecting my tax return to offset the slow bleed of money from my savings each month and that Is Not Happening #And its not like i have any way to Make More Money #bc im a grad student and we're contractually prevented from doing so #So that means i'll need to move when my lease is up this summer and i really don't fucking want to #i like where i live i just wish it wasn't so goddamn expensive on rent #even like $200 cheaper would be world changing for me #but no instead i gotta look at my bills after power and car insurance and food and be like oops guess i lost $100 this month #and god forbid i get coffee or eat out in the cheapest way possible bc somehow that adds up to like $100 the second i look away #im sick of being anxious about this!! im not eating enough as it is!! #i also don't wanna get a fucking roommate bc i don't want someone in a space i've come to consider my own #like sorry but im transgender do not fucking look at me stranger #so the only real solution is to move and that's such a fucking hassle and it doesn't solve the problem now and i just want this to get bettr #i wish all students a very $2000 raise forever #and all landlords a very Scrooge Moment that makes you cut my rent in half #ave omnissiah

[siminiecricketart]

i am so proud of myself for going to my first ever therapy session, it wasn't as scary as i thought it would be

#it was super hard to do #if you've been following me awhile you know my anxiety and depression is something ive been struggling with for so long nnow #and even tho i cried a lot #im proud of myself #they said it sounds like general anxiety but i don't think it is #but we will have to wait and see #generalized**

[undermostcorgi]

the media which consumes your entire soul at age 12 will forever be a part of you. this is an unavoidable consequence of living and you have to accept this fact. no matter how old you get, no matter how long it has been since you last saw its smug face peeking out from the bushes as it follows you, no matter if you think you have outrun it for good and that you're finally finally safe and you hardly even remember it exists anymore and your brain knows a few brief moments of true peace, it WILL catch up to you in your moment of weakness. and listen you don't want to hear this but sometimes this is necessary for your mental health. you will on instinct want to reject it and run away again but sometimes. sometimes you just need to watch that old show or listen to that silly song or read that weird book again as an adult and it will hurt you a little bit in various little ways but it will also heal you a little bit. you can call it nostalgia you can call it connecting with your inner child or whatever you want but just listen to me it WILL HAPPEN TO YOU TOO AT SOME POINT AND YOU HAVE TO BE PREPARED FOR THIS (i am forcibly dragged off the stage by security)

#heed my warning boy #it seems i am not well today #recently made the reluctant decision to revisit what was probably my VERY FIRST real hyperfixation #something that i don't necessarily want to mention by name right now because. well #its pretty objectively bad LOL like i dont think i know of ANYONE still posting about it or really proud of having liked it back in the day #i dont think it is as well known to the general public so it wont get me hunted down for sport even if i did name it probably hopefully #but for those who know its. probably not the best thing to be revisiting lmao (even though i think it might still be being made?? wtf) #but i felt i had to because i was about to start my period and was going crazy insane like you do you know how it is #and i randomly remembered a fanfic i loved and then remembered my fav character and how much i loved him #my actual first ever blorbo oh my GOD he was everything to me #so i reluctantly decided to rewatch “just the first few episodes” just to see how much i remembered and also to prove to myself it sucks #but surprise surprise: nostalgia and hormones are making me actually kind of enjoy it #and now i am suffering from fucking Catholic-like Guilt for not hating it which i think is pretty silly lmao #so im kind of posting this in an attempt to convince myself that its like. FINE and cringe is dead and all that #and that sometimes i gotta be nice to my little mentally ill brain and give it the junk food (bad media) it craves #ESPECIALLY when im on my period LMAO #anyway completely unrelated: why the FUCK do i still remember almost every single fucking word to the delicious tomato song SDHJFKSAJF #i hope no one actually reads this far in the tags bc i know that reveal will probably deal psychological damage to some of you LMAO SORRYYY #ok yeah posting this and then immediately going to bed so that the Haters cant reach me LOL SEE YA

[blacklynx14]

Hey anyone/everyone who sees this,

Sending warm fuzzy feelings, cranberry juice/ hot coco/ whatever you prefer and 70% dark chocolate bar cause I learned just how bitter it can taste. It was like a punch to the face, that I think I got whiplash. It's an experience and it really knocks you down to earth cause I almost landed back on my arse.

Just a reminder everyone can have their dips and doubts. Your artwork/ writing/posts are always appreciated, but so is your time. I'm a new follower for some and a long time silent viewer for others. Some of you've probably had repeated ask/ like/rebloggers. But sometimes the likes/reblogs dwindle, and it's 98% likely not on you, so please take a breather. (I think the other 2% are the troll creators who eventually/likely irk the audience to leave just to avoid toxic environments).

Think of your followers as your OG who more feel elated seeing you post ANYTHING. It means you're alive, it means you're still around, and it's a platonic love that I think people cherish even if they ever left this site. Even if I see a post I don't interact with/ reblog. I can always get a smile, maybe even a bit teary eyed if the person posting was silent on their blog for a long time.

I become relieved, grateful with the thought "This human/friend is still around. Thank the stars, I'd be crushed if I ever found out I lost them due to exterior/inner struggles they were facing.." Seeing someone I follow post when it's been weeks/months, it's like a warm hug or them giving a wave like saying "I'm here! I'm likely going through stuff because I have doubts about what I create/like, or life sure is keeping me busy! Or I'm kinda floating along and waiting for this numbness to settle... But I'm here! This little star is still shining, even if I feel dirty or dim, your night sky is just as bright still! I'm around, the light of my life is still burning bright, even if I forget how brightly I shine to others!"

..... Just, if you've read all this. Please know I'm grateful you're alive. You don't have to post, you don't have to say anything. Even I fall silent. Just know, I'm grateful you're alive and your light is still keeping my night sky adorned with your light. Trust me, there are others like me who treasure you and are grateful, that in your own unique ways, we get to see you shine.

#perfect #its been a while #feeling a little sentimental #these silly humans... how they struggle #trying to find their way in this world cause others say its what they should be doing from the get-go #love yourself a little at a time #that is and can be a struggle for so many people #but it can be the most rewarding task #to look at yourself even when you dont feel #to stare long and hard then smile and think #I'm not perfect or where I expected I would be.. but that's okay. Im proud of myself anyways. #smiling at yourself and taking a breath... #Some people forget and have lost their light forgetting just how small and precious they are.. #I don't want that for anyone else/anyone here. #silly little humans.. precious little lights.. #Breathe in.. slowly fill your lungs and just feel.. alive. #And know I'm grateful every time you take a breath.

[shayberri789]

Thinking back on it and... even though I didnt have the words or vocab to adequately explain my fears or how I felt, I'm really really proud of younger me for identifying those experiences and fears and trying to voice them anyway, and I'm proud of younger me for not changing in face of those differences

#ive always been aroace just didnt have the knowledge to say it #so i kept with my stupid promise theory #but im proud of myself to identifying wjay i did or didnt want. that i didnt feel that way #and rather than trying to force myself to appear allo or hating myself for not beint like anyone else #i found a reason that made sense and rolled with it #and stood true to myself #i was thinking of a trip when i was like 12 to the beach #and we were walking back to our hotel and i said to my mom i was afraid that my promise to never get a crush #had closed my heart to love. i was afraid i couldnt love ever #and i don't remember if i meant i wanted romantic love or if i was aftaid this meant i couldnt love my friends and family #or life and the things in it #(it was probably the latter) #but im proud of myself for voicing those fears and even when my mom gave the wrong response #('oh maybe you did. thats not good maybe you should open your heart to love and crushes') #(mom didnt know any better and what she actually said wasnt bad or even unwise. but it did hurt me. i remember the hurt) #im proud that i took that pain and wrong answer and rather than betraying myself i just basically went 'so be it' and accepted who i was #im looking back and i was a really wise child #idk im just feeling self love right now. i dont always feel this easy love and acknowledgement to myself #shay posts #aroace #aromantic #asexual #aroace positivity #aromantic positivity #aromantic experience #aroace experience #asexual positivity #asexual experience

[mattypattypinky]

VECTOR'S PSYCHOPATHIC TENDENCIES

I'M GONNA CRY

This is so funny 😭

#The lack of attention by the parent could help support Vector's psychopathic tendencies. #🦈🌙 #mattypattypinkyposts #this is so wrong #his dad was just mad because he lost the shrink ray? #his dad is not cold to him- #LACK OF SUPPORT? #where are you pulling this from #we don't even have enough seens of them to KNOW if he's a neglectful father...? #and every scene with them his father is obviously proud of him- #im gonna lose my shit #HUH 😭😭😭 #i cant stop laughing guys #His father praises him everytime he talks about him and talks about him fondly to other people??? #his father only yells at him bc he made a mistake warranted being scolded for? he didn't protect the weapon😭 #also vector is a young adult #maybe theres lack of attention because he lives alone in his fortress #you know #like an adult #who lives in their own house #doing adult things in their own home #the only trace i could think of is the storyboards #bc he said he'd kill the girls in them #but thats the storyboard

[girlscience]

i hate that my brain is like this. i hate that it does this to me. i see so many people for whom their sexuality is a source of pride and community and finding their sexuality opens a whole new world to them and they become open and confident people who are more themselves than ever before. and that's amazing! i am so happy for those people!! but it has never been that for me and i despise myself for that.

#i want so badly to say 'I AM [insert sexuality here]' 'IM OUT AND IM PROUD!' #i want to find local community and go to the gay bars #and meet people and make friends and kiss girls and all these things i see online or in fanfic #(listen i have been reading a huge amount of griddlehark and there is a lot of modern aus that i desperately desire) #but my brain thinks i am lying about all of it and whenever i say no i'm not lying it sets about convincing me i am #i think about women and it instantly goes okay but men though. what if you thought about them instead #and then it's all i can think of even though i don't want to #i think about dating a woman and it says actually. think about dating a man #i say i don't want men and it says that's rude and mean and you never know what could happen #and you don't believe there is some magical difference between men and women they are all just people so you are a hypocrite #if you leave men out and honestly you don't find men repulsive and there have been men you thought were attractive even if you can't figure #out of it was attractive like sex or attractive like marble statues #and you say you like body hair on women but it weirds you out on men but it's the exact same thing so you have to like it on both #and you read so much mlm fic and so little wlw so you think men are hot cause you've thought some of the mlm stuff was hot #so obviously you want to have sex with men #even if all the men who have actually hit on you irl made you uncomfortable #you didn't actually stop it from happening and honestly you really wanted it to happen and you just wanted them to force it on you #cause you are a evil gross freak who fetishizes #nevermind. this is spiraling. #and is just turning into a way for me to hurt myself more with this