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guinevereslancelot · 8 months
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my supervisor felt the psychic vibes of me searching for other jobs on my lunch break so he pulled me aside for a meeting about how i'm not good enough at my job <3
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smth smth about 'the thing that the character did that you thought was rly rly funny in the moment is actually linked to a terrible trauma that lies within said character.' or wahtever.
#jrwi show#jrwi fanart#jrwi riptide#gillion tidestrider#made this within a short span of wahtever bc i gotta go up to the mountains for my stupid gay job tonight n im trying#nnot to frrRREAAAK THE FUCK OUUTTTTTTi dont wanna work but. get that bread we fuckin shall i guess#ONWARDS TO THE FISH TORMENT!! sometimes flowers feel pain when you trim them before their blossoming. atleast i imagine so#i used to draw gillion with loooong hair tied into a big ol braid. and then it was confirmed that he had short hair when he was little.#AT FIRST I WAS SAD. but then i realized the duality of. when they were little. gill had short hair. edyn had long hair.#AND NOW THEYRE OLDER. and gillion has long hair. and edyn has short hair#both mirroring eachother. looking up to eachother. subconsciously or not. they most certainly care. and most certainly miss eachother.#GILLION ALWAYS LOVED HOW LONG HAIR LOOKs. atleast i imagine so. he hasnt cut it since he left the undersea. sure he wanted to go back home#but even at the very start. he knew he was free in some way now. free to grow out his hair. an adventure would await him before he returns.#he knew it would be a while. so he cant let this go. he cant let this sought-after hair-length get cut away from him again#not yet. not yet. i like to think he loved music too. I SAW SOMETHING INTERESTING A BIT AGO#i see alot of ppl commenting on my baby gill comics like;'i wouldFIGHT this teacher i wanna KILL EM i want them DESTROYED#all very good and nice sentiments! i LOVE the energy here! and it would be nice. to have that catharsis#but the story of young tidestrider is not a story of catharsis. it is a story of agony and being so so small and so special and also so dum#and sucking so bad. and just being a kid and doing the things that a little kid does and so many tired tired people reacting badly to it#youre supposed to be the hero that will save us. our world hangs in the balance and you are the one who tips the scales.#YOU are supposed to SAVE US!! you NEED to SAVE US! CAN YOU PLEASE STOP SQUIRMING IN YOUR STUPID CHAIR!!#you'd think that young tidestrider ought to prevail. and be tucked someplace all safe and sound.#elders gone missing and rotting in a jail. their cultists nowhere around. but theres no happy endings. not here not now.#this tale is all sorrows n woes. you may dream that justice n peace win the day. but thats not how this story goes#BIG ideas for this lil baby gillion series. if anything i make ever gets disproven im killing myself in a well as to poison a water supply
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tendebill · 1 year
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i have been working on this ezioleo request for so longgggg,, im about halfway through coloring and then i can do some MINOR shading
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newtness532 · 1 year
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im going to have to start studying tomorrow
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southislandwren · 2 years
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my little cousin tested positive for covid this morning and also this morning i woke up completely ill. hehe... lets just say if i have covid and have to miss my work event with my internship boss this weekend..... i will no longer be "attending" my "school" :p
#this is a joke of course but i will burn it all to the ground if i miss this fucking event#considering skipping most of school tomorrow. at least my 8am#i have to go to plant management since i have to ask to take the exam on thursday.... argh im not ready#maybe ill ask if i can take it on tuesday.#and then tomorrow i have to take a food safety quiz i missed today#and i havent studied for anything. because im fucking sick.#oh well its rawdoggin season#no in all reality ill sob hysterically the entire weekend and withdraw into myself#the depression will come back tenfold and i'll miss a ton of school trying to recover#i've hyped this event up since june like i need to go i have to go i have to see my boss#i have to see my boss and hug her and shes got to tell me everything will be okay and im at school and everything is fine#haha im fine. defintiely dont have a ton of work to do and no energy to do it. because im sick.#i guess i'll stay up late tonight and make quizlets and do homework. i'll skip my 8am and go to 11am class and quiz at 12 and lab at 1.#then i can go home#'what an incredibly effective move. gible can barely stand up' MOOD#you shouldve fucking seen me walking to my car after work it was like i was coming back from a night out on the town#(im watching pokemon if that wasnt obvious. this is my source of seratonin)#oh my GOD fucking work today!!! I asked if i could go home early bc im sick and feel like garbage.#and my boss was like. no. bc the next hour is you and two new workers and we have to make ice cream mix.#and i was like isnt [coworker] supposed to come? and he was like shes out sick today too#which gives me hope that this isnt covid since like 3 other people are down bad today too#so boss tells me to set up the silo for CIP and i have 3 fucking new people in tow and im barely upright.#he came into the receiving room after a while and was like youre still not finished? oh my god suck my dick. im fucking SICK#turns out i cannot set up silo 1 and go get hc10 and change the elbows and clean the floor with 3 NEW PEOPLE and me. SICK#i never want to hear anything from him abt my work ethic because i couldve just left today. and i didnt#but yesterday the plant manager said he needed more people like me. so. <3#(i stayed 30 minutes late to finish a task. hows that for a fucking work ethic)#okay to do list for tonight: make a quizlet for food safety. do assignment 3 if it fucking kills me. finish that accounting hw.#then i can go to sleep#also unrelated but i lost 2 followers from the queen spam so i hope everyone appreciates how little ive been posting these past few days
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indycar-series · 2 years
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vent in the tags
#tw depression#i cant keep living in the vent channel in slub crub so im gonna vent in the tags#honestly been pingponging between feeling emotionally numb and feeling like a complete waste of space too much lately#i know this latest round was partially triggered by the monthly blood but i need to stop lying to myself about being ok#part of me wants to get help because in my current state i am doing a piss poor job of taking care of myself#but another part of me just wants to drop out of school move back home and waste away#i barely eat 1 meal a day anymore and dont have the energy to do basic household tasks#and when i do have energy the paralyzing fear of being perceived by other people keeps me from doing what i need to do#my lawn is starting to get overgrown because im terrified that my neighbors will see me mowing#and my roommate has mowed the last 3 times and its my turn to do it#i dont feel a real drive or sense of purpose and dont know what i wamt to do with my life#and honestly i wake up dreading every day#therapy doesnt help because ive figured out how to lie to therapists and medication sort of helps but doesnt stop the thoughts#im terrified of being honest with people because they'll see how much of a mess i am#honestly should have ended up in a psych ward months ago but im still out in the wild#i want to keep working toward a motorsport career but im lost and no leads are turning up results#part of me just wants to give up#i dont know what im supposed to do from here#i know i should talk to someone but i dont trust anyone irl with any of this#because if i tell one parent they'll just gossip to the whole family#if i tell my psychiatrist he'll just up my meds and tell my parents#and i only have 1 or 2 real irl friends neither of who i will admit any of this to#i just want to stop feeling empty inside all the time and actually move forward towards a life that will satisfy me#what that is i have no idea#anyways that was a lot sorry if anyone read all that
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could you write headcanons for father figure tim and brian with child ticci toby? i’m starved for content with them that isn’t a ship or with them all hating each other
ANON THIS IS SO PRECIOUS WAAAA😭😭💕
Im gonna create a bit of a backstory for this AU happening too, im invested in the concept.
(The same events in Toby's backstory happened with his sister dying had his father becoming abusive happen in this AU except, Toby is around 6 when all this happens, I tried making this into a bit of a scenario followed by headcanons so I hope you dont mind.)
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◇Tim and Brian with Adoptive Child Toby◇
• If they didn't hate The Operator before they certainly did now. Recruiting a child was absolute bullshit.
• He appeared near their hideout in the woods, passed out with the mark of The Operator on his arm.
• At first Brian suggested trying to find Toby's parents, only to find the house going up in flames.
• "Brian we've got to keep him...who's gonna take him?
• He looked over to the boy now sleeping in Tim's arms. It had been hell to calm him down once he woke up, he was crying and thrashing so bad his tics were starting to hurt him.
• Brian knew their way of life was way too dangerous for a child, but with Toby's evident disabilities, trauma and him being marked now...foster care wasn't looking like an option either. The system would eat him alive.
• "Okay...okay yeah we're keeping him."
• They both divided their time taking care of him so they could not fall behind on The Operator's tasks, Tim took the mornings and afternoons while Brian took evening and nights.
• Toby himself never spoke unless it was his tics always choosing to gesture with his hands instead, but eventually he had slowly opened up to them, eating with them hugging them both goodnight. He even started climbing on Tim's Back and staying there while the man did tasks. It was rather cute, Brian had to admit.
• He''d gained back some energy since the incident, thankfully. He often listened to Tim's CDs and Brian's ramblings about Film-making intently. At some point they even started having movie nights together.
• On some level, they had become a little family.
• Until one day where Tim was late to come home. Brian paced the living room, it was 8am he was supposed to be back by now, hed left voicemail after voicemail and no response.
• Maybe the cops caught him, maybe The Operator grew tired of him, all manner of thoughts started swimming in his mind and he went over to Toby's room.
• The walls were lined with shelves of children's books which all stolen from here and there, Toby looked to be asleep in bed.
���Both Brian and Tim wanted to give Toby some semblance of a normal childhood. Games and Books were like escapism, except much better than the drugs and alcohol they both dabbled with in their past.
• Brian leaned down so that he was eye level with the mound under the blanket. "Hey buddy, Tim's not back yet so im gonna need you to stay in your room and lock the doors while I go look for him okay?"
• No response, Brian removed the blanket.
• Shit.
• He'd never run faster in his life, even qhen hia lunga threatened to give out stopping wasn't an option, thorned branches grazed his flesh as he searched wildly for his boys.
• Until he saw them.
• Tim was leaning against a tree as he held what looked like Toby's jacket to his bleeding head, Toby himself was hugging him tight.
• Brian let out a sigh of relief and ran up to them, leaning down to inspect Tim's injuries.
• "Christ Toby, don't ever do that again-" he cut off when Tim put a hand on his shoulder. He looked down to see a gauze wrapped around Tim's leg and the emergancy kit they usually kept back at the cabin.
• Toby was just as worried if not more, and for good reason too. He looked up at Brian, eyes filled with fear, as if exoecting to be punished but Brian's gaze only softened, he reached out an arm to ruffle Toby's hair.
• Tim beamed at them, then winced trying to get up. Noticing, Brian helped him to his feet. He rested his weight on Brian while his free hand held Toby's.
• "What do you say after you guys get me on the couch we have movie night ey kid?"
• "Y-Yeah, can...can we watch Star wars?"
• Of course, Star wars then became a new family favourite.
Headcanons:
• Brian's the usual cook of the house while Tim just buys food whenever he can. Toby really likes Brian's cooking but likes Tim sneaking him Mcdonalds nuggets a little more.
• Brian usually reads to Toby to help him sleep after a nightmare, sometimes ends up falling asleep near the bed because hes so exhausted.
• Tim and Brian have been confused for being a married couple in public like 7 times by now just because of Toby.
• Brian got Toby a small camera as a gift and he juat kinda..snaps pictures of anything and everything, the camera roll ranges from Tim sleeping to some random cat he saw outside.
• They started homeschooling him since getting the cash for Toby's schooling was proving too difficult, its going great except when Toby asks Brian for help with Math qhile Tim's gone and Brian sucks ASS at Math.
• Tim sometimes carries Toby on his hips because his back gets sore from carrying Toby or other work, Which has led to Brian joking about Tim being a mom (he lowkey is)
• Overall they're both amazing dads despite having to murder and steal for a living now.
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hi!! id like to make an urgent request please :)
tw !! mention of self harm / new sh wounds , mention of a blade
if you’re alright with it, id like to request a (romantic) hawks x gn!reader where hawks walks in on reader relapsing.
ive recently grown more and more stressed and tired lately, like my energy is constantly being drained and no matter how hard i try im not enough to stop it. and i wanna reach out for help cause i know i have friends who care about me but i just cant for some reason—i dont feel the need to ask for help cause i just dont think i deserve it. no matter how many times ill comfort others i was never strong enough to ask for the same comfort, and instead of going to someone and talking about it i turn to my blade.
hawks is a big comfort character of mine and my current hyperfix, and as embarassing as it is—reading comfort fanfics of him is a way of coping with it all. so id gladly appreciate if you could write this for me :) ++ if possible, id love if youd be able to include hawks cleaning reader’s cuts, cleaning them bringd me a sense of comfort and id love to see that in the fic.
but if you’re uncomfy about anything at all, no worries ! you dont have to write this if you dont wanna :) have a lovely day<3
Hawks Comforting Reader After They Self-Harm
please do not read if any kind of mentions of self-harm will do you more harm than good!
Pairing: Hawks x Gn!reader
Warnings: mentions of self harm, blade, blood, scars
Genre: Comfort
Post-Type: Drabble
Word Count: 750
Summary: In which your BF Hawks catches you self harming and cleans up your fresh cuts
[A/N: Hey hey, so sorry for taking so long to write this, I know it was urgent. I just happened to get sick randomly and couldn't focus to write. But I finally got this done for you! I hope you're still around to read it </3. Hopefully it provides you with some comfort. Always go to others for help before taking matters into your own hands. Even if you feel like you can't, I'm sure the people in your life would love to help you out <3 I'm here too if you ever need anything! Enjoy!]
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You look back and forth between the bloody mess in front of you to the panicked face of Keigo who had walked in on you. 
He was supposed to be gone for the whole day, patrolling his designated area until later that evening. Who knew he’d stop by to check in on you, hoping to have lunch together before continuing his patrol duties. Yet, coming home to you hovering over the bathroom sink with blood dripping from your delicate skin was not what he expected at all.
Of course he knew about your history with self-harm and could very clearly see all your past scars on your body, but he never expected to see you actively harm yourself in front of him. 
“Y/N…” He starts cautiously, eyeing the blade in your hands as you shake with regret.
“I’m sorry,” you cry, dropping the blade in the sink and moving your bleeding wrists away from his view, but he quickly closes the space between you.
Gentle hands grab your own and inspect the damage done. He rolls up the sleeves of his hero suit and gets to work on cleaning you up. With a clean towel he dabs the blood away, applying slight pressure to help stop the bleeding a little, whispering an apology whenever you flinch from the pain. 
He’s silent; contemplating how he let it get this far. He was a hero for crying out loud and the one person he wanted to keep safe the most out of everyone else in the world, managed to get harmed while he was away. He was angry and frustrated at himself that he couldn’t prevent the fresh cuts on your arms. All those nights he kissed your scars and whispered sweet promises of love and protection were all for nothing. Why couldn’t he be more useful to you?
“Keigo, I didn’t mea-” you start, but he quickly cuts you off as he finishes applying the bandage wrap to your wrist.
“I’m sorry. This isn’t your fault, it’s mine. I should have known something was off, I should have paid more attention and been around to help instead of being out. I’m sorry.”
He presses kisses to your bandaged wrist, just wishing that he could have the magical healing power that Recovery Girl’s kisses had. He wished he could kiss all your pain away and face it all himself in your stead. 
“No, no, this is all on me. You’re always there for me, telling me how much you love me and trying your best to encourage me and lift me up, but I always hold back,” you confess, snatching your arms away from him in guilt, “You’re so busy as it is saving everyone. I don’t want to add to your burdens with my own problems as well. I thought I could deal with it all alone, but I failed. I turned back to my blade because it was too much to bear on my own.”
He sighs, and this time brings you into his arms in an embrace, “That’s because we’re not meant to go through these things alone, babe. Even as a hero I don’t do things on my own either. I have a whole agency backing me up along with my other fellow heroes. No one can accomplish anything on their own without hurting themselves. So please let me be there for you to help you as much as you’ve helped me.”
Silent sobs escape your lips as he continues to hold you and speak.
“All those days when you held me after I failed to save someone. All those nights you patched me up after a mission and I stubbornly refused to go to a hospital; let me be there for you for all your tough times as well. Let me be the one to gather you up again and listen to all your worries, don’t fight your battles alone anymore. I promise you’re not a bother to me at all. I want to be there for you. It’s my job,” he reassures you. 
“All right,” you sniffle, finally wrapping your own arms around him, accepting his comfort.
He calls the agency afterwards, letting them know that he can’t come in for the rest of the day and instead spends his time with you. Listening intently to everything that’s been bubbling up in your heart, right by your side, wiping your tears away and giving you his unconditional support and love. He’s definitely making sure you don’t deal with things on your own anymore :)
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Posted 3/5/2023
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tmnt-obsessed-ace · 4 months
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We know about how Ghost would react to your SSDF au but what about your original iteration tmnt: solar flare?
Idk if I should answer this since I have barely even TALKED about tmnt: solar glare on this blog. Let alone actually get the turtles ref sheets made. But on the other hand making Ghost suffer is very fun...
So Im doing it anyways
@bluepeachstudios Im borrowing the sad old man again (he's too much fun not too)
Putting it all under a read more because spoilers for a lot of major plot points in solar flare. If you dont wanna be spoiled dont look
You have been warned :)
The first thing Ghost would think is "How the shell are these kids not dead?" Because the turtles are absolute DANGER MAGNETS
These absolute idiots, on their first night being on the surface:
FOUGHT THE GODDAMN SHREDDER
NEARLY GOT KILLED BY THE SHREDDER
Got sent to the Spirit Realm
Got attacked by angry spirits
Accidentally CURSED themselves by messing with something they were absolutely not supposed to mess with
Barely escaped the Spirit Realm, now fully cursed
Accidently UNLEASHED dozens of angry spirits into New York
And to make matters worse they got discovered followed back home by a HUMAN (April)
That was NIGHT ONE
Ghost and his brothers were lucky, they only fought Mousers and the Purple Dragons on their first night
And it only gets worse
That curse I mentioned, it has pros and cons. The pros being that it can turn the boys into literal shadows, enhance their strength and speed, make them near completely invulnerable to attack, actually let them attack the previously untouchable spirits, (let then turn into giant shadow monsters), etc. The CONS on the other hand is that the curse is slowly KILLING THEM. Draining more and more of their energy, breaking their bodies a little more each time. And the more that the cool shadow abilities are used the faster the effects are, the worse they'll get and the longer they'll last. Yeah. Ghost would absolutely not have a good time with that. (And would most definitely devote as much time as he could to trying to create a cure or at least find a way to lessen the side effects)
Anyways then theres the matter of the Spirits running loose, very strong, very angry vengeful spirits. That cant be knocked out or killed, they have to be banished back to the Spirit Realm. Which is not at all an easy task. (And considering that the boys will at one point spend an entire WEEK fighting those ghostly fucks practically nonstop to the point that they dont even go back to the lair until they are literally about to pass out from sheer exhaustion...yeah not fun. Ghost might have to carry them all back home) And there's also the Shredder and his growing army of goons causing trouble. Point is Ghost is gonna have a REALLY hard time keeping the kids from constantly fighting for their lives against incredibly strong enemies instead of actually being kids. Poor Ghost
The constant stress and fear along is definitely straining the boys' relationships with each other.
Especially between Leo and Raph. The two closest siblings of the family. The ones that said they were twins and stood by that for their entire lives.
And now they're arguing practically all the time. Cant even go one mission without at least one argument. Leo making reckless plans thinking they'll work perfectly fine then panicking when things inevitably go south and Raph getting angry at him for "screwing up" only because Raph is absolutely TERRIFIED. And Ghost trying to be the mediator, but its hard when you have two incredibly stubborn sixteen year old boys at each other's throats. (Ghost is reminded of the many many Raph-Leo fights that his own Raphael and Leonardo used to have. Only somehow, these are worse.) It just escalates and escalates further and further until one night.
When Raph and Leo actually FIGHT each other.
And it ends when Raph full on quits the team and leaves. Leaves Leo alone on that rooftop, in the pouring rain. (Ghost will never forget that shocked, borderline horrified look on Leo's face as the reality and the guilt over what just happened sets in)
Raph doesnt come home.
Ghost thought he just needed time to cool off but he still doesnt come home. It gets to the point that he tracks the red clad turtle down.
Only to find him in the Footclan headquarters.
Raph had joined the Footclan because he was so tired of the fighting, the arguing.
(Obviously Ghost would go over there to try and break Raph out by any means necessary, even when Raph refuses to leave. He didnt want to join his family's biggest enemies but he was angry when he said yes and now he thinks he's in too deep to leave, even despite Ghost's attempts to reason with him)
Which leads to Leo to do something really, really, really stupid. Not saying what because major spoilers but it ends with him willingly offering himself up to be taken to another dimension in exchange for his family being spared the same fate.
What would happen to him there? Ghost doesnt know.
But that swirling white portal, his child being handcuffed and pushed through despite how hard everyone, Ghost included, is begging for this not to happen, no matter how hard he fights against his own restraints he cant free himself, it breaks something inside him.
All he can do is watch helplessly as Leo disappears into a portal, just like he did when he was sixteen himself, presumably to never be seen again.
Leo is gone for an entire month.
An entire of Ghost obsessively working on the portal with Donnie, trying so so hard to get it to work so they can find him. A month of trying to keep the family together and comfort his poor children who are falling apart at the seams. (Donnie doesnt sleep much anymore, trying so incredibly hard to get the portal working, even moreso than Ghost. Mikey teetering on the verge of a breakdown, going out with April and Casey to search for any signs of Leo every single night. Raph is consumed with guilt, it had been HIS fault that this whole mess happened, and now the poor boy is trying desperately to help his family while also trying to defect from the Footclan, which isnt easy.) A month of searching for the people that took Leo away, a month of hoping and praying that Leo was alright.
And then Leo comes home, with a white samurai rabbit in tow (Despite everything, Ghost finds it a little amusing that some things never change, even across dimensions)
He's different now. Quieter, not nearly as excited as he used to be. His arms and legs are completely wrapped up in black wrappings, up to the shoulder and upper thighs respectively. And he refuses to take the wrappings off. (He now has a slight limp on his right side, his brothers dont notice it but Ghost absolutely does.) And most importantly he refuses to talk about what happened when they were separated. Always saying "Its nothing." "I dont wanna talk about it." "There's nothing to talk about." "I'm fine."
Ghost is worried about him, obviously something happened. Something bad enough to turn the silly, dorky, hero-wannabe kid into this quiet, reclusive, guarded boy. Usagi knows as well but just says its not his story to tell.
Ghost tries to talk to him but every time he gets brushed off. (He did manage to figure out it somehow involved the Battle Nexus, from the tiny bits of information Leo shared. Though he highly doubts it was the same Battle Nexus he used to know) All he can do is provide comfort whenever Leo seeks him out, usually late at night and usually the result of a nightmare. (Which have become much much more frequent, only adding to Ghost's worry)
And unfortunately Leo is not the only one going through hell.
Because not long after Leo's return and Raph finally leaving the Footclan, Mikey gets captured. It would be bad enough if it was Shredder or the Krang. But it is so much worse and makes Ghost's blood run cold.
Mikey was captured by the EPF.
Ghost vividly remembers how a similar situation happened to him and his own Michelangelo. (How Mikey was almost dissected in front of him, how his own mid was torn apart for all the world to see. Bishop...)
The family hurriedly breaking into the EPF lab, hoping that they'll find Mikey in time.
They didnt.
Mikey wasnt as lucky as Ghost's Michelangelo.
Bishop, that sick twisted bitch, actually cut Mikey open.
Ghost's worst fear had been realized.
(Ghost never wants to see Mikey's bloody plastron and exposed ribcage ever again for as long as he lives. Watching his frantic heart gradually slow the more blood gushed out.)
And it only gets worse
Because Mikey, in a desperate last ditch effort to try and escape, he somehow activated a part of the curse that no one knew they had.
The ability to transform.
He had turned into a massive DRAGON made entirely of shadows (the only reason they knew it was him was because of the bright orange markings on the shadow dragon's body.)
And the dragon went on a rampage, obliterating the EPF lab including majority of the staff. (Unfortunately Bishop survived, which was a shame) and once the lab was destroyed it attacked New York, trying to tear everything apart in blind fear and panic. (Those terrified screeches will haunt Ghost for the rest of his life.)
It nearly killed them all trying to calm Mikey back down enough to get him home and stitched up. (And then clinging to Ghost like a scared koala for a very long time, not like Ghost can blame him.) And the worst part of this whole Dragon affair? Mikey cant CONTROL IT.
So that means the second his emotions get out of control, here comes the terrified dragon that will lash out at anyone perceived as a threat. (Which is anything that moves.)
And each time Mikey is beating himself up with immense guilt and fear that he will hurt the people he loves.
This is only the tip of the Solar Flare trauma train.
There will be more. (Raph and Donnie are gonna get their's too. So will April, Casey, and Splinter)
Other traumatic/weird events include:
Donnie getting kidnapped by Karai, which leads to April and their parents getting kidnapped. Which leads to April getting thrown off a building and Karai losing her entire arm. April is only 13 in this au btw so oh boy Karai better fucking run because once GHOST hears about that she might lose more than an arm.
Leo gets turned into a cat
Raph and Mikey get kidnapped by clowns
The boys get captured by an alien bounty hunter and taken to a completely different galaxy. Poor Ghost is gonna have an absolute heart attack.
The boys bring home a giant sea monster and keep it as a pet in the sewers. (They name it Jeffrey. Ghost left them alone for five minutes HOW DID THEY DO THIS?!?!)
Both RAPH AND LEO get thrown through the window in the Krang invasion. And Raph ends up in a coma (Leo already had his turn in a coma) Ghost having an absolute heart attack reliving this awful moment TWICE.
April's parents find out about the turtles (and later their paternal grandparents find out when the fam go to stay at their farmhouse)
The turtles are gonna be stuck in a timeloop for an entire month. (The entire month leading up to the Krang Invasion. They went from having a month to prevent it to only having a day and a half. Which is why the invasion happens.) Ghost will never forget that look of pure dread on his kids's faces when they looked up at the blood red sky filled with krangships. This is exactly what he didnt want to happen, his kids having to grow up too fast and get into problems far too big for them.
Also bonus: the turtles first meet Casey by literally RUNNING HIM OVER. The kids call Ghost frantically saying that they "accidently murdered someone what do we do?"
Poor Ghost, poor traumatized turtles
Lol
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some super incomprehensible rant under the cut lmfao
generally speaking my home life caused me to grow up too fast
i see everything- every decision- only in how it will impact my adult life. i’ve never “relished” in being a kid.
there’s so many other factors like neurodivergency, figuring out sexuality yadda yadda that affect how i think
i was talking with my friend late last night about how it’s hard to determine what a relationship is supposed to be and i was mostly speaking on the difference between romantic and sexual attraction from the view of an asexual person. how in all medias romantic attraction is tied to wanting sex with someone and i grew up thinking that’s was love was
and now i’m like- what even is romantic attraction? i need to come to terms with the fact that i will never experience attraction the way “normal” people do. i so badly want a relationship but it’s hard when i don’t even know what that means, and when i think about it i just get stressed and any feelings i thought i had just disappear
maybe they weren’t real in the first place then
on top of that, i can’t get crushes for so many other reasons
no one really knows me as charlie except for my few friends who i don’t go to school with anymore. that means no one at my school knows me- so if i even think i have a crush on anyone i realize there’s no way it would work and i just get sad
and on the topic that started this- growing up too fast. i can’t acknowledge that i have feelings for someone unless i can envision my future with them. because what’s the point? wasting time and energy if it won’t impact my life forever?
and no one else my age things like that- so no one else would even care about the relationship as much as i do. i learned that the hard way.
it just feels really lonely. i have friends who understand- i mean ive met the friends who im going to have for the rest of my life so i dont have to worry about dying along obviously. but its hard feeling and knowing i want something that’s going to be impossible for me until i become an adult, lean into who i am, and find a person who feels the same way i do.
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morphogenetic · 7 months
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i recognize this might be a bat to a hornets nest but curious about more in-depth ndvr3 opinions
hi anon im sorry this took one million years to answer properly (bc i never got an answer back about how long you wanted this to be) but im answering it now. spoilers for v3 and very concentrated dislike of dr as a series (and especially v3 lol) below the cut
as a whole, dr does a very poor job at making its characters feel fleshed out. this is, i know, kind of the point - they're all supposed to essentially be very exaggerated versions of some specific tropes common in jp media, i.e gundham being an extreme chuuni. after the first game though, which feels like more of a proof of concept than an actually well-designed game, the extreme flatness (ironically shown very well by the pop-up-book art style lol) just gets worse and worse and the characters in v3 in particular are even less fleshed out than before. i realize that for v3 this is somewhat a consequence of them trying to drive home the 'these are characters written by someone else' point, but like.......even if you're trying to make the point that someone wrote the characters to be like that, you can still write the characters well if you're trying to pull off genuinely emotional moments w them. e.g. every time they tried to make kaito's illness sad i could not give LESS of a shit about it because he just has the one-note personality.
dr has always had the problem where characters - outside of komaeda and hinata in sdr2, who are IMO the best developed characters in the whole series, especially komaeda - are only as well developed as the amount of time you spend doing their social links (or occasionally the particular trial that focuses on them, if that applies). of course, it's literally impossible to complete everyone's social events during the main mode of the game - unlike, for example, p4 or p5, where you can at least get close if you dont finish the whole social link. as such, it is extremely difficult to form an attachment to more than 1 or 2 characters before they kill/are killed. this is especially true when it's immediately obvious who has less of a personality than everyone else - or has more of a trope of a personality - and it's intensely predictable who is going to die early. for example, in v3, it was almost immediately obvious to me that tennis guy, maid girl, and angie and tenko were not going to make it to the end of the game, and were all early deaths, because of how paper-thin their personalities are. of course, this meant that i didn't bother doing their social events at all, so i had no attachment to them when they did inevitably die. this is a problem w every single dr game but its especially bad with this one.
(don't even get me started on how ive been able to figure out the majority of the solution to each case before the trial even starts or gets farther than like 30 minutes in. or how the issues that the students raise are often incredibly stupid and take WAY too much time and energy to shoot down when its so obvious that they're completely wrong. it's just. filler for in so many of the trials and it is incredibly annoying. the amount of filler before seesaw effect made me insane.)
now for my main v3 specific complaint: the fucking ending.
i actually like meta endings, you must understand that about me before reading the rest of this. meta in video games in general is something i love as long as it's well executed. i adore how uchikoshi handles it in [GAME REDACTED TO AVOID SPOILERS], for example, even though a lot of people seemed to have missed the point with it entirely.
the key word there is "well-exectued." v3 is not.
first of all: if you're trying to make this a meta case where v3 is part of the ongoing DR series....why are you trying to say that the video game you're playing is part of a TV show???? it feels as natural to say that a TV show you're watching is secretly a book someone else is reading. it's not a natural jump between mediums in the slightest, and what makes it even more annoying is that dr as a series is a primarily-video-game series!!!!!!!!! what on EARTH are you doing trying to be meta about your video game secretly being a TV show. it makes no fucking sense. if they tried to say that it was a mixed-medium franchise, that I would accept, because DR IS a mixed-media franchise. but it feels incredibly stupid to retroactively say that 'these two video games we wrote in the past are actually tv shows.' what? no. that's not how mediums work.
secondly: the meta does not work effectively in a series like dr to begin with when it already is constantly breaking the 4th wall for comedy - which i don't actually have any significant problems with. i personally think it's a lazy way of trying to be funny when it's the primary way you try to make your game funny, but i can accept that it works with the general character trope adherence of the series as a whole. however, because of how meta is often used as a joke in the series, when they suddenly try to make the meta serious, while also still keeping elements of the meta comedy at the same exact time that you're revealing that the meta Is Dead Serious Stuff, the complete tonal dissonance really works against you.
lastly: it does not really feel like the writers wrote v3 as a whole to be meta, if that makes sense. [redacted uchi game] feels like it was always meant to be that way, and so it feels completely natural that it leans into fourth-wall breaking all the time. however, the way that the meta ending comes across in v3 is just that they didn't have any other better ideas on how to end the game/were running against a time deadline and just threw in the 'ehhhhhhhhh we're already meta all the time for comedy let's do that for the ending but serious this time' towel. as i said earlier, i like meta in games when it's well-exectued, but poorly executed/written metanarrative always sticks out, and in the case of v3 it is especially bad because it doesn't even seem like they wrote the first case AFTER the last case....which you need to do in order to successfully pull off the meta in a case like v3. and is also wild considering the very beginning of the game makes it clear that they did actually go back and try to drop foreshadowing earlier without editing much of the rest of the game to accommodate for that.
tldr the writing around the metanarrative ending is just so intensely bad that it's kind of unbelievable to me that people think it's a good ending.
sorry if you like dr but tldr its a mediocre series and its baffling to me how it got popular, but also people saying v3 is better at being meta than [redacted uchikoshi game] is an opinion ive seen more than once that just makes me fucking laugh.
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Miraculous: Origins of The Supreme + Miraculous Paris Aftermath Fanfic
Master Fu: Tikki, Plagg, reveal yourselves...Gimmi Reveal yourself
Gimmi: Hello tiny human, how are you today
Master Fu: I want to make a wish
Gimmi: Here we are again...another human who loves to complai...
Master Fu: I wish to have full control over all the kwamis in existance
Gimmi: What...you do know that by doing that...there is a heavy price to pay....if you were to have control over all the kwami then your world will suffer in return...
Master Fu: I do not care! I will shape this world in my liking....
Gimmi: You do have to know, the only Kwami that you cannot have control over is me for I am the Kwami of Reality and I granted you the wish
Master Fu: It does not matter....as long as I am in control of the Ladybug and the Black Cat miraculous, no one will be able to summon you and undo my wishes...
Gimmi: Fine human! so be it
WHOOOOOOOOOSH
Events of Miraculous Paris happens*
After Miraculous paris...
Betterfly along with redeemed Shadybug and Claw noir have returned to their universe
Betterfly: Ahh its good to be back
Claw: I love your positive cat-itude good sir
Shady: But it doesnt change the fact that our world is still broken
Betterfly: Dont worry, with the help of you two, we will save our world...we helped save one remember
Betterfly: Thank you...Alya Cesaire for your assistance
Alya: W..wait what....what are they doing here
Shady: Dont worry Alya, were on your side now
Betterfly: Its a long story Alya....but believe me, they are good now
Claw: So M'lady, what are we gonna do now
Shady: We better recharge our kwamis first to regain some of our energy back
Betterfly: Agreed...
Shadybug, Claw Noir and Betterfly returned to their houses to feed their kwami
Betterfly returns to the Agreste Mansion as Gabriel Agreste and he noticed his son came there almost the same time as him
Gabe: S..son...where have you been
Adrien: Father, your not gonna believe but I just had a crazy adventure
Gabe: Thats great son...Tell me about it
*Silence*
Adrien: Father...I know I havent been a very good son to you....ever since I lost mother...
Gabe: Son...I know....and im sorry too for not being able to be there for you....I have duties to fulfill...duties to make this world a better place....for you....
Adrien: Um father....I have to tell you something....
Gabe: Son...you can tell me anything
Adrien: Something happened today....the adventure I was saying....it changed me...chaned me for the better
Gabe: What is it son?
Adrien: Father....Im...Im Claw Noir
Gabe *SHOCKED*
Adrien: Im Claw Noir father...well, I used to be....but now, I changed Father...I changed...
Gabe: *Hugs Adrien tightly*
Adrien: *shocked as well*
Gabe: I love you son
Adrien: I love you too father
Gabe: call me dad
*Back at the Dupain Cheng Bakery*
Marinette: M..mom
Sabine: Marinette? MARINETTE, oh sweetie I am worried sick about you....you havent come home for days now
Marinette: It..its okay mom....Im okay now...
Sabine: Oh sweety you know its dangerous outside...
Marinette: Mom....Im sorry *in tears* ....Im so so sorry for all of this
Sabine: Whats wrong Marinette?
Marinette: All this time....I have always ignored you.....all you did was to protect me....ever since dad died, you tried to be there for me.....but I pushed you out of my life....I have always told myself that you do not love me anymore to the point that I myself have believed it foolishly...Im sorry mom
Sabine: Everything will be okay now sweety....now why dont you try this gallete I made? should cheer you up!
Marinette: Thanks mom
*Back at Betterfly Secret HQ*
Nooroo: Master, why didnt you tell Adrien that you are betterfly?
Gabe: Its too dangerous Nooroo, I cant tell him my secret Identity, the supreme still has control over the black cat miraculous and if we are not careful, he might know who am I
Gabe: Remember when I freed you from his control? I suppose if I am able to do the same for my son, then I would be able to tell him...its just....not time yet
Nooroo: I understand master
Gabe: Thank you Nooroo....for always being there....
*Nino and Alya comes back to the HQ*
Nino: Sir....Alya told me everything and....I cant believe you are able to recruit those two menaces....Awesome dude
Gabe: heh thank you Nino...glad you werent hurt from all the chaos that happened...
*The next day...Betterfly had a meeting at the secret HQ along with Shadybug, Claw Noir, Alya and Nino
Betterfly: Glad you two could make it
Claw Noir: Our pleasure mister fly
Shadybug: We wont miss out an opportunity to take down the supreme and free ourselves
Betterfly: Good good, were on the same page
Alya: Forgive my mistrust but...Betterfly, you never told us what happened to your other universe trip and...how can me and Nino know that we can trust these two?
Betterfly: Alya, I...
Shadybug: I understand what you are feeling Alya....I know that when im previously my evil version....Im the reason why your big sister was taken by the supreme.....I understand your....
Alya: No No you dont get to understand.....the pain I have felt.....Betterfly may trust you now but you have yet to earn MY trust...
Shadybug: I know Alya....thats why....for starters....Im gonna reveal my secret Identity so you know the other half of me....
Betterfly: Ladybug, I dont think thats a wise....
Shadybug: Blots off....
Alya *shocked*.....M...Marinette....
Betterfly and Nino *shocked too*
Claw Noir *pretends to be shocked*
Claw Noir: Jokes on you...I already know hehe
Marinette: I know we arent always so close Alya....the first time we met...you offered to be my friend but...I was broken at the time....and I pushed you away.....I pushed everyone away......I guess I can only blame myself for having no one to defend me against Chloe....Im...sorry for everything Alya....
Alya: Marinette...I I dont know if i can forgive you for the pain you have caused me and my family as Shadybug but...maybe I will try
Marinette: Thats good enough for me
Claw Noir: well that could have been worse....Wait....Since she did it...I will too...
Betterfly: No wait
Claw Noir: Daggers in
Adrien: Its me....the famous Adrien Agreste
Nino *shocked*
Marinette and Alya: ughh
Betterfly: well....I trust you all anyway so I guess its a good thing you all know each other now...
Nino: Dudeee...Betterfly hes Adrien...
Betterfly: I know..I know
Nino: Like...I know hes kinda self centered at school but its still coool dude
Adrien: Really? after all the things I did to you?
Nino: No worries dude....I dont mind the pranks at all
Adrien: Wow....my other self is right about how understanding you are after all
Nino: Other what
Betterfly: Okay everyone...lets skip the introductions and proceed on this meeting shall we?
*Meeting*
Betterfly: Okay so to keep it simple...The only way we can defeat the supreme is to free the kwamis of you two....the Ladybug and the Black Cat
Shadybug: and to free them, we must
Claw Noir: go into the supreme fortress and kick some ass
Shadybug: You mean sneak in....your funny fleabag
Claw Noir: oh right right...hehe
Alya: but you must be forgetting something...the supreme fortress is guarded with miraculous holders....
Betterfly: Lucky for us, I know their Identities, their weaknesses and how to avoid their powers
Nino: You do?
Betterfly: Yes...they are influencial people...to say the least
Claw Noir: influencial? oh no....I think I made a mistake
Betterfly: what is it Adrien
Claw Noir: My father...I told him my identity...god I hope hes not one of the miraculous holders that the supreme has control over...
Betterfly: I can assure you Adrien...Gabriel Agreste is a good man....
Claw Noir: well I trust you and I trust my father as well so Im gonna hold on with those words
Betterfly: Okay...here are the Miraculous holders that we should be expecting.....
The Golden Stinger....Also known as Audrey Bourgeois.....the holder of the bee miraculous,
she have unlimited stings so you all need to avoid her venom...otherwise, its game over
Shelter King....also known as Andre Bourgeois....the holder of the turtle miraculous.....he and Golden Stinger are partners and while she is the sword...he is the shield.....we need your cataclysm to destroy his protection
Claw Noir: copy
Betterfly: alright...to the next holders
Dragona....also known as Tomoe Tsurugi....the holder of the dragon miraculous....she has control over certain elements which would be tricky...tricky but straightforward
Rockback...also known as Jagged Stone....the holder of the tiger miraculous....his clout rivals the cataclysm but the lucky charm should be able to conjure something to protect us from his powerful blows
Betterfly: this one....breaks my heart
Amaya...also known as Amelie Graham de Vanily...the holder of the peacock miraculous....so far, she is the biggest threat of them all....
Claw Noir: Wait...you know my aunt Amelie?
Betterfly: lets just say....I know someone close to her.....
Shadybug: But I thought the holder of the peacock miraculous was your partner
Betterfly: Amelie is the new holder....My old partner was the old holder....and she was amazing....
*Flashback*
Betterfly: We share the same goal.....to take down the supreme and end his reign once and for all....everytime paris is attacked, we are there to save the day.....but one day....the supreme decided to deal with us himself.....we did not expect the amount of power he has......he was able to overpower us.....and for that....she had to stay behind to help me escape.....I was wounded...I..I couldnt do anything....I came back to try and save her but it was too late....she died in my arms.......the supreme decided to let me live because he wanted a challenge....someone to oppose him....thats why he did not take my miraculous.....but he took hers....and her identity....she is your mother Adrien.....It was Emilie......that is how she died....The supreme was able to trick Amelie into thinking that I was the one who killed her sister using the miraculous of the fox....Amelie is very powerful now as her desire for revenge against me have grown further....
Claw Noir: *Tearing up*....Now I understand....my mother gave her life for the greater good....just like what my dad wanted for the world....they really are for each other
*After a few hours of the meeting*
Betterfly: Okay....we are ready now....we attack once and for all and free tikki and plagg to undo the madness the supreme did....only Gimmi can save us
Shadybug: to do that, we need to reach the supreme's chamber and break the relic that binds both of the kwami with the supreme...after that...I will make the wish as quick as possible before the supreme is able to stop us
Claw Noir: We will be there Mlady
Nino: Alright my dudes....lets do this
Alya: you sure this will work Betterfly
Betterfly: I have faith Alya....faith
PART 2: THE FINALE COMING SOON
(Note that Shadybug is already redeemed and known as Ladybug here and Claw Noir is already Cat Noir...I just named them Shady and Claw to avoid confusion) Anyway this is my first fanfic and I hope yall enjoy.....PART 2 soon
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safetycar-restart · 1 year
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fuck. ur killing me. pierre in lingerie. speechless…
ok im done being speechless i love to talk.
sooo. i had this thought. the boys have a formal event together. like at the end of the season. and pierre, being the cheeky shit he is, wants to make bunny shut down. so he wears red lingerie (maybe the same from the first time if they weren’t ripped to shreds). and he has a few buttons undone and wears the cologne he knows charles takes with him everywhere to spray on pillows if needed. however u catch on. and know what he’s doing. so u decide to surprise pierre equally. and dress charles urself. in MATCHING panties (maybe in black or pink instead cause hes cute) and prep him with a pretty, large plug that has a big gem on the end and sits so nicely. and it also hits bunny’s prostate exactly so hes almost dead within five minutes. and poor bunny is just so so so braincell-less. cause he’s so desperate and so needy. he doesn’t want to go. like at the event he sees a glimpse of red when pierre bends over and, he may be an (adorable) idiot but he’s also got enough brain left in him to put two and two together so bunny dies. he just like spills his drink everywhere and his mouth hangs open until you close it for him. because he is now just ‘HORNY HORNY HORNY’ in his head. and thats when he forces u to go home. and pierre is so smug cause he still has no idea abt bunny’s plug. until he notices charles trying to grind down on it in the car ride home. thats when he gets suspicious. and at home he sees charles and just moans. just. moans. hes thankful that u did it but also needs to plot to be more subtle next time. and he fucks bunny into oblivion, and bunny just hold ur hand. cause thats what he needs. thats it.
my god im not good at keeping it short. merci for ur amazing brain.
🍁
Oh god this entire concept is absolutely amazing. Also I cackled at 'ok I'm done being speechless'. This is the exact type of energy I want to see on this blog it's incredible.
Firstly, I think the original red panties would absolutely ruined by this point. I don't think Charles ripped them the first time, because he's too shy and in awe the first time, not even sure if he's allowed to touch until you encourage him.
After the third or fourth time though... they get absolutely ruined because bunny gets too horny and impatient. To be honest, Pierre expected them to torn way earlier.
However, Pierre does decide to buy the exact same red panties as the ones he wore the first time Charles saw him in panties.
He tells you all of this of course, and he's SO pleased with himself because he has one goal and one goal only: to make bunny so horny that he cant even think and has to be taken home before the after party even starts.
So you decide to help out, and make bunny even more horny while also doing something that will ruin Pierre when he finds out.
It's shockingly easy to get Charles to agree to wear a plug during the event. You dont even finish asking the question before he agrees because he would love that so much.
Maybe Charles isnt even supposed to be at the same table as you and Pierre for the event, but Charles gets Ferrari to pull some strings and change where he's supposed to sit because there's no way he can handle a plug all evening if he cant sit with you and Pierre.
The first half of the evening goes relatively well, with Charles sitting next to Pierre and trying to act like he doesnt desperately want to grind down on the plug.
Until Pierre drops his fork (you're convinced he did it on purpose), and has to bend over to get it and Charles sees a flash of red.
Charles leans forward to look past Pierre and at you. You simply smirk at him and then he knows. Yes he's already a horny mess, but Bunny always realises something like this because he's your horny little bunny.
"Pierre?" Charles pretty much squeaks, "Are you..."
"Ferrari red," is all Pierre says, getting up to go see if the three of you can leave yet.
In the end, you have to keep shuffle into Pierre's seat and put your hand on Bunny's thigh to calm him down and stop him from running after Pierre, because there's no way he's coherent enough to excuse himself.
Pierre manages to arrange it, saying that you and him are sharing a taxi with Charles and so the three of you are leaving together. There are some pretty unhappy Ferrari execs who wanted Charles to be at the afterparty, but he's out the door before they even realise he's left.
And yeah by this point, Charles just HORNY HORNY HORNY not a single thought in his head besides Pierre in panties and how the plug feels against his prostate. He cant stop himself from grinding down on the plug, you're in the car now and he's far too horny to think critically anymore.
You spot the exact moment Pierre realises that Charles has a plug in him. His eyes widen, breathing deep and instantly looking out the window to try and control himself.
The moment you're back at the apartment, Pierre is half heartedly glaring at you and mumbling "You little shit..." under his breath.
You just laugh at him, because you know he loves it.
Pierre really does fuck him into oblivion, not holding back at all because he's all stretched out from the plug. Maybe he... puts the panties in Charles's mouth to keep him quiet and bunny is just fucking wrecked.
It's the best end to the season possible.
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bigmammallama5 · 1 year
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You bake too?! Did you get into baking at the same time as pottery? What similarities/differences do you find in baking and pottery? (I'm just in awe in your skills in both!)
you've caught me right as my adhd meds have worn off so prepare for a ramble
lksjghsf i do bake (as does my mother but she hates working with yeast and does cookies and cakes and pies), though it's hard to muster the energy these days now that things are "back to normal" in my neck of the woods. And... I think I started pottery just a little before seriously baking but i had done some stuff growing up. I can't remember if I've mentioned it on tumblr specifically, but I started pottery the fall after I graduated college bc i'd go to work and go home and have nothing to do. After being in art school full tilt for 4 years that was a big difference, so i started potting in an attempt to fill an evening (and now it's literally what i would rather be doing full time and i've started teaching workshops 10 years later).
i do distinctly remember making my first loaf of bread in my first apartment and it was driven by the memory of some really delicious bread i had eaten in italy on a study abroad my junior year in college. that poor loaf was over kneaded, over proofed, and basically a flat frisbee, but it had a crust that reminded me of it. and since then it's been an on-off journey of trying to recreate that bread i definitely can't remember anymore LOL
i suppose i find more similarities with both skills. both get better the more you do them, both have a sort of technical science AND "the right feel", both evoke this excited feeling of is it gonna turn out or did i just ruin a bunch of materials, both have similar physical motions (wedging up clay/kneading dough-though I tend to let the mixer do the work these days), both have An Actual Science behind them that is both infuriatingly delicate, and like... you can eat bread you made off of a plate you made which is just really cool to me. its sort of... i dont want to get all like Mystical Magic Crystal Lady on you because i'm absolutely not that person, but it just feeds this part of my soul that wants to be connected to other people. there are so many others out there baking and eating bread, so many eating off of dishes that they made. in the grand scheme of things we're all so small and so isolated, but in the end the simple things like baking bread and making crockery are what make us truly human.
and yes i have severely neglected my sourdough starters but they're still alive and im workin on refreshing them.
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wioaase · 9 months
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guess who drank again?
its me. i thought altered states of consciousness were supposed to unlock more creativity but i got nothing lmao. anyways i wanted to write something? not proofread cuz i cant think rn <3
i wanna write something kinda hard but i feel like all im capable of is soft? yn tired of being mistreated and gives up on relationships all together and the boys try to make them feel better / take them out to prove that relationships (specifically with them) would be worth something?
chan
hates seeing you upset like this
completely understands
doesnt want you to give up completely
takes you out to dinner as just friends
you go back to your place for a movie afterwards
he tells you that you deserve better
that the nice dinner you had together is what you should expect from a partner
what he'd do for you
you think his confession / admittance to this is kinda silly until you see hes serious
"please yn. let me show you"
how could you say no to your best friend?
acts like a bf for the rest of the night
ends with yall either falling asleep together or "falling asleep" together
miniho
makes fun of you until he realizes youre actually upset
then feels kinda bad about it
agrees that relationships are kinda dogshit
because both of you have come to the same conclusion you spend more time together
during this time he realizes he may have been wrong
doesnt know how to bring up that hes changed his mind about relationships / is scared of ruining the bond youve made so far
stays quiet for a while until you make a comment about wishing dating could be as easy as it was hanging out with him
mindlessly states that you could just date him and itd be easier for both of you
doesnt register as a serious statement until you see him kinda flustered
you give it a rest for a day before asking him about it
doesnt want to pressure you into anything, tells you youll still be best friends regardless of his comment
shut him up by kissing him
surely you can try relationships one more time
changbin
absolute princess
would do the most after you get rejected / decide that other people arent worth your energy
easily buys you ice cream / is always able to clear his schedule whenever youre having a bad day and really need him
would never admit to crushing on you
lets you hang out at the studio when you dont want to be alone but have no where else to be
admires your company
doesnt realize his feelings until you continuously complain about none of your dates working out and all the people you see being shitty
jealous binnie
during one of your visits to the studio its just him and theres a bouquet of flowers in a vase you dont think too much of
he cant take you not saying anything / asking about it anymore
shyly begs you not to go on any more bad dates with people you meet through apps and to let him take you out just once
you take him up on his offer thinking hes just being a good friend
isnt until the end of the night you realize that he means more than friendship
butterflies butterflies butterflies for both of you
maybe ends in hand holding walking you home and maybe maybe maybe a kiss on the cheek as he drops you off
thinks about this night while laying in bed and kicking his feet / blushing
hyunjin
doesnt understand how you could give up on love?
love is everywhere
how dont you see it?
makes an effort to point out the nonromantic examples of love whenever youre together
you more or less roll your eyes because he knows what you really meant
he knows too but doesnt know how to show you without directly asking you to give him a chance
during one of your hangouts you make another joke about being alone forever
he hates seeing you hurting and cant do it anymore
cups your face in his hands
"please"
he almost looks like crying
you dont understand why but you make an effort to try and be more positive about relationships in your life
seeing you smile at an older couple as they go about their daily routine has him thinking about what life would look like if you two were together
thinks its a phase and tries to get over it but starts to paint you (oops)
eventually you find some paintings and ask him about it and he has to confess
youre scared of change but he promises you wont lose him even if things dont work out
puts a ton of effort into your first official date and is such a gentlemen it gives you butterflies
maybe you were wrong about relationships being hopeless
han
i love this man sm
would wholeheartedly agree when you rant to him about your most recent shitty date and tell you that all men are trash
your declaration that youve officially given up on relationships gives him the idea that he can freely flirt with you now
it started as a joke but the more he said it the more he genuinely believed it
didnt realize that he had caught feelings until you brought up maybe trying dating again
makes him sick to his stomach
after you go out on another date you want to meet up and talk about it but he makes up an excuse not to see you so you have to share the evening over text
hes terrified that youre going to replace him and hates himself for feeling that way but at the same time wants to be the only person that you need to depend on
you think his excuse is weird but text him regardless rather than telling him everything in person
hes secretly relieved when you say that you dont intend to see them agian
even more relieved that you told him over text cuz hes grinning like an idiot rn
decides to do something before you want to go on another date with someone thatll just leave you broken
does something omega cheesy like invite you over for your usual movie night
rose petals and candles and a card inside a bouquet
card defo has some shitty pickup line in it but it makes you laugh
baby boy is nervous but you just hug him and say sure
he thinks hes dreaming at this point and looks at you with heart eyes for the rest of the night
felix
would encourage you not to give up
offer to look through peoples dating profiles with you in an attempt to vet the shitty ones
the more he was helping you build your profile and look at potential candidates the more he wanted to say no to every potential match you had
makes a joke about dating you instead of going through the hassle of trying to find someone to date
what begins as a joke ends up weighing heavily on his mind and keeps him up at night
what if you two went out?
what would you say if he asked? would he be rejected? laughed at? ruin the friendship completely?
after this would be relatively quiet when you asked for help with dating
just tells you to trust your gut
youd have to physically go over to his place and confront him about it before hed tell you anything about it
would still be hella nervous
you find it cute though and tell him yes
he starts planning the next cafe date asap
seungmin
tells you youre unlovable
youre used to his tough love and accept it
delete any dating apps you had and officially give up on trying to meet other people
youre content for a while until it finally gets under your skin that everyone around you keeps nagging about finding you a relationship
you ask him to pretend to be your boyfriend to try and get everyone to stop asking questions about your personal life
he spends the entire night flirting with you and genuinely acting like boyfriend material
it fills the void in your heart momentarily
he considered it just helping out a friend but since that night hes seen you differently
have you always been that pretty?
eases off the harsh teasing and tries to compliment you more often
you notice eventually and make a comment
he brushes it off as nothing
youd have to instigate anything if you want things to go any further but some of that playful flirting has carried over since you asked him to pretend
jeongin
doesnt really understand why you care so much about being in a relationship in the first place?
like it genuinely doesnt make sense to him
if you have friends that treat you well why would you need anything more?
starts to worry that maybe he isnt doing enough as a friend
ups the game while unknowingly fulfilling boyfriend criteria
spends all his free time with you. texts you on breaks. finds himself thinking about you whenever hes not allowed to contact you for extended periods of time
performs better when hes able to hear your voice / see your face the day before a big event
would need someone else to point out that his feelings are growing past platonic
probably freaks out a little bit and ignores you for a day or two
plays it off as being sick even though you knew he was busy with other schedules
eventually confront him on it
isnt able to tell you exactly what hes feeling but does tell you that he doesnt like being apart from you
you think hes over exaggerating until you go out on another date with someone you dont know and one of the other boys texts you saying that jeongin is sad and youre the only one who can make him better
you try and joke with him to lift his mood but nothing helps
you fall asleep on video call with one another and when he thinks youre asleep he confesses
"sleeping angel.. i love you.."
you have to pretend to still be asleep despite hearing him or else hed never acknowledge it
when youre ready you can approach him and ask about it
until then though you can expect him to keep protecting you from a distance
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the team
augh it just hit me!! i never mentioned all the pokemon in my home at the moment! or my team aside from passing remarks oh no!!! augh that must be remedied right away ok ok. this should be a long post. ill put a cutoff right here but read on if you wanna hear a bit about my crew, especially if you plan to ask about them! ill probably put in sketches of them too, im known for having some. artistic tendencies.
Okay okay so first of all we’ve got Squiggle or Squiggles, the Spinda 
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he’s a little bit goofy, being a spinda, but otherwise actually quite talented and pretty smart, has a few well developed psychic type moves, is my partner, a lovely little creature honestly.
second we have sundae, the girafarig!  
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she’s part of the main team too, lovely for my outings where i need quick reactions and coordination (no offence squigs, dont look at me like that.) to find rare pokemon!! she’s a rescue and a friend :) 
next up we’ve got sugar, the main team birdie, a doduo with only one head!!
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 real strange one, this bird. she tends to get lonely, like she knows shes supposed to have a companion in that little fluffy bird body. raised her from an early age, she’s adopted and beloved. those are the main team members though all the others are just the current residents.
to get the other bird out of the way as well, here’s deeby the natu!!
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little guy stuck around because he’s vain and enjoys the snacks, i think. likes to pose for photos and sketches, and likes to take MY CHIPS when im not looking. often seen riding his little scooter.
next is a much more recent addition to the house, this is Shredder the buneary
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has some anger issues like most buneary do, i might have to take them out battling to get some of that energy out. has a strange fur texture and is a dark color, im trying to find the origin of that difference as well as trying to locate more buneary of the same variation. my best guess is theres some other pokemon species that came into the environment and cross-bred with them to produce some sort of variant but. eh who knows it could just be an adaptation to the environment too. 
im gonna end this on a lovely little regular visitor, dandelion the jumpluff.
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this one likes to come around every once in a while, im not entirely sure why, i think it just likes to play with the rest of the pokemon around here?? lovely presence though.
theres a few more pokemon around, like the mareep herd in the distance but these are the ones i interact with the most! feel free to ask about them :)
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