#ion ykwim

[skunkes]

#JOB SEARCHING ON INDEED IS HELL I CANT EVEN GET PAST STEP 1. #how do i even pick what to apply for idek what 99% of these listings are talking about. #and 99.9% of them are scams im sureand im too stupit to sniff them out #talkys #the issue is i dont even Need a remote job as a whole #but i do need one while i live here bc taking comms pays more than any of the physical location jobs in my area #ykwim. #i need a remote job in order to save more to move out and maybe get a better one that is or isnt remote. and its #hard to find. augh #doesnt help that my home also sucks for remote job what with constant noise #like what else can i do. im not taking an $8/hr job here. #maybe i jst need to keep saving with comms... #figure smthng out. idk. but then ill just stay here forever bc i dont think i could find a job thatd help me move out to work at a new loca #ion ykwim #I WILL KEEP LOOKING o7

[craycraybluejay]

ok but orientation play is kinda hot im just starting to realize. like acebreaking/lesbreaking (<- is there a diff word for that second one? ion wanna use the slur so) and stuff. or even straightbreaking like a lesbian turning a straight girl gay or a gay dude turning a straight guy gay. yk? ykwim?

#orientation play #im just getting into it does anyone know some good orientation play accs without detrans stuff?

[chichis-interlude]

Yooooo omgg my fellow Nigerian queen ayeeee, this finna be my new fav blog. Okay so i have a couple of questions regarding the void and shit. Im new to the void stuff, and ive been trying to enter the void for the last couple of days. I affirmed for all the stuff on my void list, i snapped out of the somewhat trance I was in but I didnt wake up with my desires. Is it suppose to be insant or... did i do something wrong. Or like i would do these guided meditations and i wouldnt feel the symptoms of the void even after affirming. Im new to all this void stuff .... do you have any tips ?

OMDS hey babess, basically ion rly think u did enter d void ykwim? Bc the void is more than a trance like state yk? It's like ur purest consciousness where ur completely detached from the reality ur used to but like yk ur there bc u js feel peaceful and u don't feel or here NOTHING like it's acc so flipping quiet man.

But yh also u don't rly need to feel symptoms to get into the void, I mean I do feel symptoms but there are lots of ppl who say they don't and still enter the void.

There's a whole bunch of ways to get there the most effective for me is @luckykiwiii101 distraction method or the FILD method which is basically jerking ur finger a bit like ur playing the piano but not big movements just tiny ones to activate d muscles n that, you can also do them together asw bc that's what got me into the void before I woke my ass up.

Bro I acc can't wait for ur success story sissss.

Mwah!! 💋

#law of assumption #affirmyourlife #desired reality #dream life #how to manifest #manifestation #subliminals #the void state #void #void success

[generalsmemories]

Omg i saw this art of jingy calling yanqing xiao niao (little bird), and thought how I wanted to learn chinese ever since my mother told me she wanted to send me and my siblings to Chinese school (we’re Chinese)

BUT NOW IM IMAGINING THIS AND imqgine being in a relationship with Jing Yuan and you complain about it and basically ‘😭😭i shouldve been more eager to studyyyy’ (Literally me) and because hes Chinese too he should know the language so IBFKSNF YKWIM HE COULD TEACH USSSSS ah id love that

I truly regret throwing away my academic life, but it did really fuck me up mentally at the same time (everyone in high school fr)—I think it’s mainly regret because I know I could’ve finished it all and ugh blablah SORRY.

Anyways love ya (i say it a lot but hope it doesn’t make you uncomfortable 😭) sorry for the slight dump (again) AND STAY HYDRATED!!

Jing yuan would probs fall asleep while you were revising the xianzhou basics tbh- HAHA

There's a reason he ran away from having to be a part of the realm keeping commission ion think he would be a great teacher literature wise unless you find a way to make him teach you interesting 😔✊

The academic way isn't for everyone so don't feel too bad! You'll find a way that suits you eventually uwu

Sorry it took this long to reply, but I love ya too buddy (don't worry I don't feel uncomfortable being told that)

#narus' message corner #jingsnuggler

[miguel-owhora]

I find it cute to see little fanarts of Miguel and Mayday they're so cute together and I love Mayday so much she's actually my favorite babey EVER 😭😭 and Miguel being fatherly just feels so nice to see, he's lost Gabi so seeing with with Mayday. A possible second chance he tries his best ykwim? Maybe I'm going crazy ion know ✌️

☆ 🤯

miguel is such a girl dad it's crazy. like he's such a dad in general, but he just skyrockets whenever he's around his daughters, or just around girls. like !!!! the atsv transcript, with that one scene w gwen n her dad ??? it literally said he felt a small fatherly instinct when he saw george pointing a gun at gwen 😭😭😭 he's such a dad it makes me want to cry. i hope there's a scene w miguel n some like, young child or even gwen or mayday where his fatherly instincts just take over :(((((

#mr. o'whora — lyla's messages. #mr. o'whora — 🤯 anon.

[lovesick-yanderes]

yo, nice ocs you got there🧍🏾‍♀️ i was wondering tho: would your werewolf oc treat male s/o any different? if he were taller than him? maybe stronger restraints?even if he were his ideal “submissive” type? bc…who’s to say he can trust his s/o so “soon” after kidna- moving him in?

NSFW(ish):

and also…ion gon lie “hed beg to start a family with you” and him wanting family in general got me intrigued….like….in case of a male darling are we talking……omegaverse and all a/b/o dynamics entail? scenting, heat cycles, kno— imma stop right here before i get too carried away

ik adoption would be the boring realistic option but…..ykwim👩🏾‍💻

Warren Character Bio | 152 words

TWs: NSFW (small amount but tagging just in case)

Hmm… I don’t think he would intentionally treat a male s/o differently. Warren might beef up the restraints if he was fighting back too hard, but he’d do the same with anyone he’d move in with! If he has any sort of reason to believe that his partner would be able to get the upper hand on him and leave him, he’ll use multiple, unique restraints to assure you can’t break free. He can’t be too careful! You’re his entire future!

Also, I'm gonna be real with you bestie, when I wrote that I was thinking adoption and not omegaverse! 🫠 I know it's kinda weird to see werewolves without a/b/o dynamics but I've never really been that into it, which means I don't know much about it, so I don't think I can give you a sound answer. Sorry to disappoint 😔

But yes Warren does have the ability to knot

#yandere #yandere oc #yandere oc x reader #werewolf #werewolf oc #yandere werewolf #lsy: warren #ask #stupid fucking tumblr app posted this before i was ready for it to go but whatever

[knownoshamc]

ion think the duffers are that proud of the monologue cuz finn said they did it in a few takes and then noah said they spent like all day on the car scene sooooo

I honestly don't get why they didn't spend more time in the monologue. It could have sealed Mlvn for good. Like imagine Mike telling El things he loves about her, not just that he loves her or what she can do as a superhero. Imagine El hearing how Mike loves her resilience despite what she has been through, how much she cares for people, how she saved his best friend without even knowing him, how she can be funny and fierce and how she doesn't or shouldn't take shit from people, how she stands up for people that can't do it for themselves, how she is forgiving and caring even to people that had not been kind to her...and so on. Imagine Mike telling her that he doesn't know what romantic love was, so it took him some time to say he loves her, but now he knows.

Instead Mike told her he loved her before he even knew her because...she was wearing a large t-shirt? like even if El was a completely different person, Mike would still love her so he doesn't love her for who she is, ykwim? AND he said what he said....because of what Will told him. He basically recycled when Will said and told it to El. Nothing original...or that was about El.

SO YEAH, I don't think a confession means anything if it has no substance. it makes sense that they didn't work so much for it

#byler asks #anti mlvn

[extenler]

(kira-kira) anna sama dan beda brpa age gap nya 🤔

hmmm berapa ya ion think dan kehadirannya direncanakan sih HA HA YKWIM 😁 jadi kayaknya gak begitu jauh maybe 2-4 years? 3 aja deh gmn? ketok palu gak HAHAHAHAHAHA

[kaevch]

Hi how do u feel abt s4 black butler coming out tmrw?

IM GOING INSANEEEE LIEK I HAVENT BEEN UP TO DATE W IT BUT I SAW THE TEASER WHEN IT CAME OUT AND I FUCKING SCREAMED BRO IM ACTUALLY SO EXCITED ABTIT EEHGDVSHSBDYHSHH one thing ill say tho is that ion like how they babified Sebastian, like i love the new artstyle but it js doesn't feel like him ykwim 😢

#[ 📬 ] asks!! #ion know man.. #jumping in my boots fr rn tho

[valerielavascats]

am i in the wrong guys:

ok guys one of my friends started liking my ex, and id said that her LIKING HIM was okay. and then one day she texted me saying that she had started like texting him and stuff, and he was like texting her back and obv i was kinda upset cuz like hes my ex?? and then that's like the only thing she's talking to me about, and im still kinda mad at her but like idk, I cant stop them from talking cuz like ion wanna talk to him and I dont wanna stop her from talking to him ykwim? she kinda pissed me off too cuz ik id said it was okay for her to like him but like the fact that she's talking to him until like one in the morning now it's kinda annoying. she shouldn't have to ask me permission for that stuff cuz she's her own person but like hes my ex sooooo it just makes me feel weird about her and him even more. i just feel like a good friend wouldn't try to make flipping moves on a guy that im obv not on good terms with yk? am i crazy??

[mcondance]

is it weird to feel guilty abt having a white man as my avatar like he's not problematic or nun i just like him ykwim

my race is literally stated on my blog but at the same time it's like... ion wanna b perceived as white but i just like the icon like damn

hmmm not rlly but if you have your race stated on your blog i don't think you'll b perceived as white

#₊˚. ☆ yours truly 💌: #anon

[karteinss]

New post Abt Mad cafe will be uploaded tmrw, I was mid way into writing it and was rly into it ykwim but then suddenly I drank water and I literally thought "wtf am I doing"☠️ Ion have the motivation to continue now, I'm struggling to write it..like wtf am I actually doing with my life 😭😭

[dreamersparacosm]

Ion think her and Ashley would have anything in common Ashely’s GROWN & MARRIED and in her 30’s with a child ykwim.. but yes there’s probably no bad blood between them but i just don’t see them being close like her and vanessa were

very true and i don’t think they’re close, i just think that ashley is def friendly and is okay with austin bringing her around

#answered #anon

[deuxac]

05/17/22 - tuesday, 7:37 pm

listening to: worldstar money (interlude) - joji

cw: rant, no specific tw

sometime between friday and monday i went out in the evening on a walk to a park not too far from where i live. the rain has finally left for a long enough time for the sun to warm up the atmosphere with humid air, making everything feel sticky and wet. despite the early hours of the day being spent indoors in the newly-installed A/C units, the walk in the late evening hours was nice; i missed being able to see the sun late into the early night hours, though now my sleep has cut shorter and shorter until i only get on average five hours a night with no nap in between resting states.

earlier today, however, when i went on an early afternoon walk to a park down the street from my apartment a man in all-black clothing started following a couple meters behind me, so... i don’t think i’ll be going out without my keys again.

i feel as though the more settled i get into a routine, the more restless and anxious i end up feeling. i already don’t like being cooped up in my apartment for most hours of the day, but between different schools and majors and jobs, scheduling and house curfews, i don’t really get the opportunity to see my friends very often, and without a real break from my job to relax, i’m all wound up and stressed out. i don’t like monotony, or things being too predictable. i get too... understimulated. not that i like a lot of big, sudden changes happening at once, but i need something that isn’t a constant variable to keep me excited; “enriched”, like an animal in a zoo, as my sister would say.

part of it is related to M, though it’s not... it’s less... how do you say... it’s not so much that they make me feel under stimulated, but more that because our relationship to one other has fallen into a routine, i feel restless. does that make sense? i feel like it’s easier to put it like this: when the honeymoon phase fades out, and a couple learn all the unknown and there's no significant newness to the relationship anymore, it’s easy for one or both people in the relationship to feel as though it has gotten stagnant, and look for excuses to leave because they don’t want to be bored. 

well it’s like that, essentially. um, but it’s not... i’m not looking for a reason to seek someone else out, i’m pretty sure i’m committed to seeing... whatever we are through. it’s more like i feel stuck fulfilling a very specific role now that we’ve been talking for over a year now. we have certain expectations and needs and wants that we fulfill for each other; they do such and so, and i’m their.... cheerleader girlfriend, without actually saying so. which causes some? tension? at least on my end. i feel really conflicted about not having a label on what we are - NOT THAT WE NEED a label, but it would be nice to define what we are, ykwim? i want to know how they see me, and how they feel for me; more than anything, i want to know if my feelings are reciprocated.

um, but i get why they don’t want to label whatever it is that we are to each other; i think the most obvious that people on the outside will point out is our age difference. i’m only 2 years older than they are, which isn’t, like, a huge difference, but considering that i’m 20 and they’re 18, some people would be like “😬😬😬 ion no abt this one”. um, it doesn’t particularly bother me too much, but if i saw from an outside perspective the same thing happening i would also be very weary; ultimately, i don’t speak out on tt couples who have an age gap between a year or two, since it’s still close enough in age that it isn’t particularly problematic, though i do pay attention to be careful in how i direct myself so i don’t get misconstrued for being a pervert or something; if anything i’m just an emotional vampire (joking).

what i suspect it might be is that i don't... contribute much more than mediocre words of encouragement. i’m not particularly talented at anything, and i’m very clingy and obsessive and awkward with people i genuinely like, while also being very direct and honest, which can come off as mean to some people, and because i don’t know how to express love in any other way outside of material gifts - which is difficult to do since they live in the east coast and i live in the midwest... reflecting on my contributions into this relationship, i take whatever their artistic endeavor is - art, writing, the likes - and only offer words of encouragement and adoration. AND I GET, that for some people words of affirmation is their love language or whatever, but i don’t know if it’s enough for them to think that i like them without me outright saying, which is always nerve-wracking for everyone. im too in my head about how, “oh they don’t want to say we’re dating, so what are we?”; “they haven’t answered my texts, i annoyed them and they don’t want anything to do with me (is upset until they answer, wherein i ignore how upset i got in the first place)”; “i sent them a picture of myself and they didn’t compliment me, they think i’m ugly and isn’t attracted to me anymore” (this thought in particular i ignore the most, since i know physical attractiveness isn’t everything and i shouldn’t worry about how i look like to others, or how they perceive me, but i can’t help but worry that maybe they don’t like putting a face to all the stupid shit i end up saying half the time...)

i get too into my own ass and get upset when i don’t receive their undivided attention and validation at all hours of the day, and then act indignant when im inconvenienced by their messages while at work or sleeping (a reflex response; when it registers that its a text from M, my mood gets better and i’m no longer annoyed; i just don’t like it when others text me when i’m busy lol.) ummm, newayz idk if this is a self-reflection or self-deprecation, but the point is, is that until i get over myself, and do it soon, we won’t move forward with where we are and what we are to each other. i know that they love me (to an extent xP), and they must reciprocate my feelings in their own way, but... i don’t know, i’m just acting butthurt over nothing i can’t really feel upset over, but i can’t really talk myself out of being upset, now, can i?

idk in... in all of the nothing i said, i think i’m just tired of spending my days waiting to fall back asleep. my face looks puffy all the time, and my skin looks awful - i’m not prone to breakouts, but i do get little random whiteheads here and there, and the wrinkles i have look more pronounced - i look how i feel, to put it bluntly. i know that i’m... unconventionally attractive, in a way (i’m not ugly, is what i mean, if i’m being honest), but it’s been rough. i look rough. i hate it here. i’m not supposed to be ugly, i’m supposed to be pretty, dumb, ditsy, and have people eat out of my hand, not the other way around. maybe that’s why i’ve been so thrown off on how i feel about M - i adore them, cherish them, feel nothing but pure, puppy love for them; where before i would feel nothing but contempt and lust at someone i would be dating, i want nothing more from them than to be able to hold them in my arms and fall asleep in the same bed, unbothered and unworried about the morning after.

i do want to bite them, but its less in a sexy way and more in an animalistic way, how cats bite their owners to show that they love them. and go to the movies, the mall, shopping for clothes and groceries and trinkets, learn all of their favorite dishes so i can make it for them, learn how to say “i love you” in their mother tongue so i can say it all the time, follow them wherever it is that they want to go, as long as they’ll let me, as far as they take me. i want to be their muse, sometimes, too, not in vanity but because i want to be useful to them; if i can offer nothing else, i want them to use my mind and body however they want in their works, interpret my words and take everything of mine to make it theirs, see my features and romanticize them in the characters they write and draw.

waaaaah, i just want to be their housewife ;^;

time to save up and get my documents in order to see them one day soon

(hopefully)

#quiet bpd #random rant #dear diary #online diary #diary #personal diary #journal #my journal #rant under 'keep reading' #no cw #no tw #non graphic #long post #mostly about yearning #while having bpd #it's not explicitly mentioned #but boy oh boy #flowery prose #purple prose #poetic #? #maybe idk #love isn't cohesive #i want to be loved #and a housewife #that's the whole post #started: 7:37pm #ended: 8:59pm

[cherrysnax]

I’m more tired of the “boring, Everyman main character who has nary a reaction/impact on the plot” than I am of the “uwu everyone loves me and the world literally revolves around me and I have 28 powers xDDD” characters at this point

#like both have their uh problems #but I’d rather bad entertaining characters than bad boring characters #i also hate it when characters stay the same #like going in the story one way and changing it #even if that character dies in the chapter they’re introduced I think the plot having some sort of impact on them #and I’m mostly exaggerating #in SYS I don’t think ppl leave the first two arcs the same ppl that they were #for better or for worse #and like. there’s a time for character regression #but a character has to go forward to recess ykwim #but yeah exaggeration aside #unless characters r mad tied together i think it’s better when they develop at differnt rates #ion remember what I was talking abt #i wish ppl would stop playing it safe #and that includes me #i keep debating over some of my characters designs and abilities for others ppl consumption #but fuck that #like of course this is a comic so ppls opinions do matter esp on how the characters like actually show up #or if I’m representing ppl correctly uknow #melatony is a kicking in ghngng #*goonight

[kazuluvs]

do i turn this into a fic or cut it off here

#it's one of the horror concept prompts >:) #i have more written but they're like. snapshots over time ykwim #they progress #i wanna get this out tn but if i continue ion think ill be able to </3 #aether rambles