#is making my skin crawl rn

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

me waiting for my writer’s block to fuck off and leave me alone so i can finish this chapter:

#my creativity is just so dead rn and it makes me want to crawl out of my own skin #i’ve been waiting MONTHS to finally have a little bit of free time to breathe and catch up on writing stuff #and naturally now that i have i am so mentally and emotionally drained i can barely string a sentence together #i feel so distant and detached from my characters #and yes i know it’ll pass #but i just feel so caught in this headspace rn and needed to vent #i’m SO close to finishing this chapter for good but i have well and truly fallen at the final hurdle #the perfectionism has got me #ugh #also if anyone reading this is worried about four walls being updated #please don’t #i literally circle through this headspace every single chapter #and it hasn’t stopped me yet #(and it never will either. i couldn’t give up on this fic if i tried) #but it’s just hitting me particularly hard this last week #why is writing such an agonising process sometimes #anyway #enough rambling from me for one night #i’ll drag myself back to my laptop and see if i can work some magic #wish me luck #writing stuff #lulu posts

[hyperfixated-maybe]

Regression+AFAB=Trauma

#i wanna cry #but then id be alone and crying #I want someone to hug me #but not me as in this body #because touching makes me all the more aware #this is torture #I feel like im crawling out of my own skin #I'm not good rn #sorry for vent but I don't have anyone else #noo no no no no no no no no #hhhnnng #no matter what way I hold my arms it doesn't make it better

[here-for-a-good-time-hopefully]

Narcissa (crying): Andromeda you have to believe me

Andromeda: How can I believe you?

Narcissa: Because I’m your sister!

Andromeda: After what you did to Alice?

Narcissa:

#the black sisters as fleabag characters makes my skin crawl but I can’t stop #andromeda finds out about what happened to the Longbottoms #people need to start appreciating Narcissa and andromeda and their dynamic rn #marauders #harry potter #marauders era #hp marauders #andromeda tonks #narcissa malfoy #the black sisters #nobleflower #alice longbottom #alice fortescue #marauders headcanon #source: fleabag

[smilesrobotlover]

I need to get Hawaiian shirts asap

#or at least the style #rn they’re the only clothes not making me want to crawl out of my own skin #for some reason I really struggle fashion-wise #I cant find a look I like or a look that suits me #it’s… actually kind of distressing #but the shirt I’m wearing rn vibes so hard #smiles rambles

[ask-artsy-oncie]

Person, specifically cis person with pronouns that match their gender, giving their name and pronouns and then looking at you expectedly: intimidating, terrifying, a demand to out yourself if you dare not pass, and an unspoken demand to ensure that your pronouns are binary and/or single-set, as in, the same format they gave you theirs in.

"What are your pronouns?": inviting, sincere, direct with no hidden meanings, spoken with clear intent to respect you, no ulterior demand for said pronouns to fit into a specific format, and an automatic acceptance of the fact that your pronouns might not match your appearance.

#Stupid shit #Sorry no reblogs on this one #Vent #This is PERSONAL LET ME EMPHASIZE THAT THIS IS SO PERSONAL!!!! #I get it. The normalization of people introducing themselves with their pronouns is a good thing #Doesn't stop the former version of it from making my fucking skin crawl for the reasons I stated #It's a horrible mix of my confusing gender and my autism #I hate it I hate it I hate it #Needed to vent #Also it's 1 AM rn

[fireofjudgement]

Okay, Aguni is the ONLY.. beefy character in aib

BUT

I will never say Chishiya is beefy, I will die on this hill

#why am i being attacked on my own blog tonight 😭😭😭 #screaming crying throwing up rn #because y'all make me use the word beefy #it's in the same category as moist #makes my skin crawl #alice in borderland

[dirgeforworms]

KINK DISCOURSE IN THE WAR CRIMES FANDOM.

#fandom #call of duty #call of duty tumblr fandom u are fucking insane please realize by nature being a CoD fan makes you problematic(TM) (she is also a CoD fan) #like hello how many of you have actually PLAYED CoD I am playing MW 2019 rn and it's SO MUCH oh god it makes my skin crawl #and is simultaneously super fun. haha my blorbos! #here. for you. does a scene when you shoot what you think is an unarmed woman in the back as she runs from you- #-only for the game to go. literally. via a character. “nah dude it's ok she was going for a detonater” #sit well with you? does it? #have you thought critically about this? I have!! I am being psychologically tormented by propaganda during my gaming downtime!! #like please analyze what CoD is saying about the west's relationship to terrorism as a whole (it's progaganda) #especially when real war crimes are happening very much literally right now #your house is made of glass!!!!!! leave the perverts alone!!! #as a kinkster I have analyzed this and am fully prepared to look at pics of hot soldiers for smut #military #discourse

[cassandralexxx]

if wearing skirts didn’t make me want to kms I would have so many more options for what to wear to Christmas mass :/

but here we are

#mylife #Wearing skirts makes my skin crawl and it infuriates and upsets me #And I want to punch something #And yes intellectually I know I look cute wearing it but emotionally I feel bad and sad #And I know if I wore them enough I would give in and be fine #Like that’s what I had to do as a child to wear dresses #Get like trained into liking thwm #Through tears and frustration #But I’m an adult who does like skirts and I don’t want to deal with the emotional turmoil of something that doesn’t match the view of mysel #But rn I don’t know what to wear to mass and Ik I’ll see girls and people from my childhood at mass looking gorgeous and cute and pretty an #I don’t want to look shitty like i need to be on there level and their level is a cute skirt #But I hate them sm #Idk if it’s a gender thing or what but I don’t fuck with them

[kelin-is-writing]

(completely) blank blogs make me feel anxious...

#kelin talks #no offense but y'all are literally a nightmare istg... #PUT SOMETHING ON THAT DESCRIPTION AT LEAST 😭 #if any of the blank blogs following me (and that i'm too lazy to block rn) is a minor— #y'all better gtfo of here on your own before i call the police for babies on you guys #thinking about minors reading what i write makes my skin CRAWL 💀

[intertexts-moving]

i FUCKING HATE BUGS.

#yeah yeah yeah they're good whatever on an ideological level im fine with them #but holy fucking shit i hate bugs so so bad especially when they're IN MY ROOM (BAD.) and MAKING AUDIBLE BUZZING NOISES (SKINCRAWLINGLY BAD #just took some big ass buzzy thing outside & now there's fucking ladybugs everywhere too cos it's autumn i HATE ladybugs. and im #going to have to redo my hair because it feels like my skins crawling. #..... u know what. i am extremely tired and overwhelmed and on the verge of tears rn. going to sleepy fr now that that bastards gone. #txt

[swagyna]

you guys im out here. and i wish i wasn't. i wish i could rewind to 15 minutes ago before remembering this shit.

it's all coming back to me. why, WHY am i talking to her still.

#am i a masochist?! #wtaf is wrong w me #no ik exactly why i still talk to her but i can't be arsed to hash that out rn #i am HAUNTED and PLAGUED by these memories #its so surreal bc it feels like im having a flashback. like im actually experiencing that awful interaction again #it's making my skin crawl and it's not even like that bad compared to other shit I've been thru but this is really getting me #gonna kms #this is true mental anguish #it's like. fucking cringe #that's what this is #pure. unadulterated. cringe.

[mango-mya]

Girl spills coffee on her pants and it looks like she has a sweaty ass 14 dead 37 injured

#its so uncomfortable bro #it's drying but ohggg my GOD its on my shirt too and it's making me feel sweaty i hate feeling sweaty #skin crawling rn

[nerice]

i was social for (1) day (evening) and now i need to be as far away from people as humanly possible again

#how do i crawl out of my skin!!!!! how do i go back to winter 2010.... #(very specific /redactrd/ here) #elia txts #it's so so so bad i need this to end #also on a stupid tangent but. i miss instagram time felt real then i was more aware of being alive #nothing can get me back onto that facebook infested platform but also i WAS happier then #still wanna get into artfol as replacement but part of what i miss is posting nonsense story updates #not strictly art..... #anyway all this is connected i am going to kms now goodnight /j #also since im alrdy venting. don't wanna go to japan don't force me don't make me :( im so bad rn haha <3

[dip-the-stick]

*thru gritted teeth* i am grateful to spend time with family and grateful that people want to spend time with me 👍👍👍😁😁😁😁😁

#im actually rlly not is the thing #anyways my sister (bad) is taking me out for ramen and boba rn #which would be dope except she sucks and i hate her and she's the worst person ive ever met in my life #anyways i hate complainibn abt like. things that are not bad but i cannot stand being around her #as in like makes my fucking skin crawl makes me sick to my stomach #but hey. free ride #dipshitposts #sorry for complaining everyone it'll never happen again (lie)

[deepwoundsandfadedscars]

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#you ever just need SOMEONE to call you by your name or your gonna scream #i feel like im dissociating or something #i told my sister about how having my legal name on the computer of my vehicle at work was making my skin crawl #so I changed it to be like Oceans 8 since the identifying number on the side is #number 8 #and she has gone out of her way to not use my legal name on the radio when talking to/about me #she'll just call me 8 or Oceans 8 since my dad has been so against my identity #but since there's been no other context to use my actual name I've just been essentially nameless all week and it sucks #it doesnt help I'm fucking exhausted and I'm so achy today #plus we had another like mini funeral today for grandpa's burial #so I'm just like quadruple whammied and really feeling it #I'm supposed to be heading to work rn at 6:30 on Saturday night even after the funeral thingy and I just want to lay here and cry #im tired and achy and dissiciated for what feels like the stupidest reason ever #kee speaks

[susiron]

Rantrantrant

#paralyzed by fear of going to the doctor while my body is like actively going to shit #I’ve been having weird nerve shit for awhile now that I’ve been neglecting to get looked at #shit that should have had me running to a doc ages ago #but I keep making up shit in my head like oh pinched nerves pinched nerves #and maybe that is what it is but why haven’t I gone to the doctor yet #I’m fucking miserable I like can’t get comfortable #my nerves are twitching and I’m scared to know why #and not doing anything about it is actively making it worse #and even before the nerve fuckery I’ve got going on rn I had other things I’ve been ignoring or putting off #I never did get that fucking MRI #how much anxiety would I have saved myself had I done that years ago #paralyzed by my own fear and making myself so much fearful for it the longer I wait #I’m just so scared at this point I’ll get that MRI and be told the worst news #been living with that dread for years and it gets worse the more I wait and push this off #and I’ve said so many times I’d finally go get it done #I even got referrals for it last year #and then I didn’t and now I’m back to being scared shitless and things are getting worse #my left arm won’t stop twitching I’ve just got skin crawling sensations like crazy #it could just be a pinched nerve in my neck I’ve fucked up my neck so bad this last month #but why am I not looking into it faster why am I like this #I’ve just reached a point of being afraid I go to the doctor and get those tests done and get told that #putting everything off has doomed myself in some way #and I’m putting it off and making it worse to avoid that and it’s a self defeating cycle #just years spent waiting for the bad news to drop and running from it #I know this isn’t sustainable and I need to do something #I’m just so fucking tired and scared just always scared scared of myself and what’s in my body making me feel like shit #and of knowing what it is #I gotta force myself to go to the doc before the end of august #this thing with my arm and the nerve twitches in. general it’s the straw breaking the camels back #and the back should’ve broken a long time ago