#it’s just not a good time rn bc I can’t do anything but there’s so much and so I feel bad but I have no emotional energy

[callixton]

oh i am on the Brink of a mental breakdown. and like a real one. i am going to feel so so fucking terrible and guilty if i don’t go to the first week of mac rehearsal bc i need to recover but i am also getting the sense that i Need to recover. i have never been this burnt out or genuinely terrified of starting a new semester in my life.

#we go back to campus a week early for mac. to be clear #and god they’ll be long days and they’ll be physically emotionally and mentally draining and i genuinely dont know if i can take that #but i am also going to be missing SO much time. and i won’t be there to support the people who i need to #i have also. been thinking a lot about how i’m scared that i think so much abt death bc i’m gonna be one of those people #who seem even more than everyone else like they have a finite time and then they die young #and then my mom compared me to jonathan larson tonight #so maybe that’s some sort of sign that i need to slow the fuck down #i am crying rn. for myself. which happens about three times a year #and yeah one is usually during winter break so we’re on schedule #i don’t know. idk!! i don’t know what to do here #and i still have to do my fucking scene prep for tomorrow #bc i was talking my mom about it and i really needed support which she was giving and then she has to leave for five seconds #and when she came back the entire conversation was just about her own problems again which we’ve already talked about every fucking night bc #- you can’t leave conversations with her and i hate when she fucking drunks i hate it i hate it #i am Not Well. i’ve sort of been avoiding admitting to myself just how badly #but man. i can push through anything until i drop but when i start wishing that i’ll drop so i have an excuse for a break….. not good #ted talks #the west wing

[carpisuns]

theOrEticalLy . if I opened commissions at some point. would there be. a smackerel of interest . ??

#i have never opened them bc it’s intimidating and I don’t know how to price things!! #but mostly bc i work full time w a good salary so I don’t really need side things to make money #like it feels selfish to suggest that people should pay me to make fanart?? When #a) I already do that for free bc i enjoy it lol #and b) there are so many creators out there who are struggling to make ends meet #and I am privileged enough to generally not have to worry about that #this would be just like extra spending money to fund my scented candle habit DHDJDN #and the clothes I just bought while trying to Discover My Vibe and Finally Be Myself (at age 28 lol) #also tbh it would likely be reinvested in other commissions bc I buy commissions fairly often lol #anyway. idk the idea of commissions always sounded cool but also guilt inducing and scary #it feels weird and silly bc it would make me have to take my art seriously if that makes sense?? #like me saying ‘I think I’m good enough at art that people would buy it from me.’ that feels so bold and like. arrogant or something dhjsjd #coming from me I mean. just a silly little guy who still struggles to draw human limbs properly #ok I’m thinking about how I’d have to make a commission sheet and put a dollar sign on my art and I’m aaaaaaa #and I’d have to execute exactly what people want and what if I can’t!!! #omg ok maybe noT help lol #well im not committing to anything rn im simply. asking a question while the dash is asleep and then running off to bed seeya #i think part of me always wanted to try commissions to see if I could be a Real Artist about it ?? #and potentially end up with like. Portfolio pieces ?? #why I would need an art portfolio I don’t know. I am an editor. What do I think I will be doing here #ppl left comments on my animatic that have been giving me crazy what if thoughts. sit down #don’t look at me #ohhh swirly brain thoughts I need to sleep

[sickgraymeat]

It’s funny that I can only read/write AT fanfic that’s both (a) canon compliant and (b) not too sad by my (very sensitive baby) standards, bc ofc those things contradict each other a lot

#OH and throw in there no smut #my library is so small 😭 #some of my fics are definitely too sad but I wrote them so its different? #blah I did a lot of writing abt how I can’t write today abdbsbndnsb it’s making me mad #mostly just that I like to write until I realize that what I’m writing is horrible terrible disgusting shit trash #jus talkin #adventure time #I just love canon and especially post canon!!!!! it’s so good there’s so much there #I do have a draft of a regular world modern day au and it’s fun to think abt but .. canon is more fun #also I think things feel less sad in the canon universe bc they by nature can’t be 100% exactly like our universe #plus I love my girls being immortal (ish?)…. bubbline ♾️ #sorry I’m so sleepy today I’m just sayin stuff how is it like almost early evening rn what’s hallenjng #I hate that I can’t write anything that has like. grit or whatever. like I feel like no one wants to read this elmo baby shit but me #(& i don’t like the way I execute it) #like I wish I could write stuff that’s idk. cool. #that’s it ahdbbdndn

[pepprs]

mutuals i got myself into a situation so sticky i don’t even know how to describe it (edit: *describes it* lol). please send thoughts of successful escape my way lol

#purrs #delete later #i SONT understand anything about retirement or insurance whatever and basically imightve signed a contract for smth i didn’t understand #fully and im so scared lol. and i feel so bad bc im stupid and i don’t understand anything and no matter how much peopel #xolain it to me i don’t understand it. i feel like a stupid silly naive little girl rn LOLLLLL i feel so sick #it’s probably fine and not that bad and i didn’t do the wrong step but im freaking out. not just bc of the money situation but also bc they #have to do a. medical exam on me to see how much i would have to pay or whatever 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃 wtf #im making it sound like a big bad scary freak thing isigned up for when really it’s not i don’t thin&. it’s just dividend lige insirance but #i don’t understand what any of it means and apparently other stuff is better. idk anything about retirement i only got into this stupid #situation because i had a mandatory retirement selection for work and ididnt understand anything so i scheduled a meeting with a retirement #counselor person to help me figure out which option would be the best for me and he was really nice and helped me a lot but then he started #saying he could help me w additional retirement stuff if i wanted to see what the options were and i was like sure and then he told me abt t #this thing and had me fill out / sign the application in that same meeting to ‘get the process started bc it takes. a long time’ even if i d #decided to pull out later it would be a good thing to get the ball rolling asap if i did end up wanting to do it. but i didn’t understand an #anythi ng and i went along with it anyway and now i might’ve fucked myself over so bad. except i probably didn’t but i feel so bad. bc he wa #was so nice and genuine but maybe he was just trying to sell me a product bc he gets a commission from the insurance company which i he told #me wheni asked him if im getting his help for free. i feel so stupid and guilty omg #and also i signed up for my first credit card but the interest rates are really high which i didn’t realize. and i can’t log into the bank a #account for some reason liek it says my acc doesn’t work. and hr fucked up my pay so i haven’t gotten a time sheet for like 2 pay periods an #and im getting retroactively paid in august but it’s just one more fucking thing and i haven’t gotten the chance to pick new benefits yet #and idk if i can / will bc of my stupid pay situation like i literaly don’t exist in the system rn apparently. i fucking hate all of this i #hate adulting i hate it i hate it i want to explode and hide forever and cry a lot. and my bank account isn’t even my own rn and i don’t und #understand anything about mony or insurance or benefits or credit cards or anything. im so overwhelmed FUCK

[iulianfawcett]

You don't post/reblog about Louis anymore :'( I always loved your tags

#OKAY LOOK #i know i don’t post abt him anymore i just #i do love him a lot still of course #but his fandom……..absolutely miserable #being In the louie fandom was so stressful and toxic and just horrible bc of all the discourse and general negativity from. everyone at all #times. so much fucking infighting and so much like #idk. people are never just happy about anything and that’s it. it’s always ‘this is good but i can already hear x saying y’ #things like that. it’s just very a toxic and horrible environment to be in so i left 🫶 #also. six idiots make autism brain go brrrrr. i can’t control the hyperfixation the hyperfixation controls me #also just like. the whole mindset of Real People fandoms is so weird. the idea that you have to dedicate your life to following them is so #weird. like. a friend literally blocked me bc i didn’t buy those bonus songs and wasn’t being a fan correctly or smthn #i like being a lot more active with the six idiots fandom rn bc it’s like. tv and movies and such #OH and an actual level of respect for their personal lives. like. as far as i’m aware at least. no one is theorizing abt bens family life #like he’s a fucking fictional character and not a whole ass real person. like honestly #(<- just using that as an example btw it can apply to any aspect of any of the idiots personal lives) #ask

[cherubemojie]

started the yr signed off from work due to having a meltdown from everything that’s been going on and with my boyfriend doing a total disappearing act out of nowhere so this is fun 🫠

#this was kinda a long time coming but holy fuck it hit me hard #like rn i’m spending most days just getting high and making good lives for my sims bc i can’t rlly cope with real life rn #i’ve been rlly unhappy in my job for a long time and my relationship was. not great and there were family things #and i’ve just been slowly burning out for a couple months but it finally happened and now it’s like fuck #like i didn’t do anything bad but i’m just so scared about going back but also scared about going for interviews to get a replacement job #ain’t that a b

[lesbianlenas]

love how i sedate myself to sleep & that’s when i’m like wow i should apply for an internship it’s bc i can’t get anxiety bc my blood pressure is low 🤩

#michelle speaks #the thing is. i am going to have to push back going to law school until next yr most likely #so i want 2 get an internship i can do remotely in the meantime bc i can’t afford 2 not be at home while i wait 2 go to school again #and there is nothing i can do here that would look good on my resume #but luckily a lot of places have remote options now so hoping i can get a good internship at least to build my resume + keep me busy lol #as much as i hate being at home ive actually come 2 accept that this is actually probably good for me bc i was so mentally exhausted in may #just from being overwhelmed by school/internship/law school apps that i was so burnt out #which i think has contributed 2 me having such a depressive downslope since i graduated bc once i didn’t have anything 2 keep me going 24/7 #my brain just like totally collapsed in on itself & i just felt completely empty etc #so honestly i think taking a gap yr and doing work and then starting law school next yr will b really good for me #& this time i can apply immediately once apps open in sept so i should easily get in to one of my target schools hopefully #like it sucks 2 b at home 4 a yr but like. i don’t think i could take law school in my current state :/ #although i do think if i had gotten in i would be feeling a lot more motivated rn. at the same time i don’t think i would have had #enough time to decompress from just how hard my senior yr was for me & i probably would have had #a breakdown by october lmfao. & that is not good in law school bc if ur in the bottom 25% they literally kick u out. so like. #i think it’s better 4 me to start when i have strengthened myself mentally & am ready 2 do it. which i will b by next fall #i think next fall i will be EXTREMELY ready to go for it 100%. i have honestly been going 24/7 w constant stress since #my freshman yr of high school when i mapped out my master plan to go to college & i have not stopped since #when i say i was so exhausted like. i did not even want to move in may. i was just so mentally burned out. #& i have felt sick abt the idea of not going to school this fall bc like my nonna has been putting a lot of pressure on me to go #& i understand why bc she doesn’t want me to get stuck at home & like neither do i. but there is no WAY i am not applying & going next yr #i have never let myself take a break since i just wanted to get out of my house so badly but goddd. i cannot do it anymore. i need a break. #and honestly i really appreciate how much she cares bc my parents don’t & that’s really hard #& i think once she knows that i have applied again & get accepted somewhere she will be fine too lol. #esp if i get a good internship in the meantime i think she will be happy 4 me #anyway i found an internship that i would loooooove to get that i could do remotely doubt i will get it bc i think the deadline passed #bc it said july 31st on handshake but the website says july 24th i can still apply though #but anyway it’s exactly my type of work & i can do it remotely so if i get it depression hrs over 🤩 #if u read all of that…..hope it was entertaining i guess #stan taylor from bb24 she’s my queen & i would do anything for her 🤩❤️

[heirloommtomatoes]

i haven’t been in a new relationship since! genuinely 2019 bc i took a break for individual personal growth reasons (not that u can’t grow in a relationship obv! i just needed a break from relationships specifically) and i like. forgot how this is supposed to go. we text and call a lot bc we’re long distance rn & i’m like! what’s too much! what’s too little! i’m not anxious it’s not like that i’m just like. what is normal what is healthy???? i forgot how to do this

#just in a regular way tho! i feel v good #but i wanna do this. healthily and right #and part of that i’m finding is accepting that it’s a learning process #for everyone! #and communication is the key there #we’ve known each other for a month and started dating like. 9-10 days ago ish #which is fast!!!!!!! #I mean it’s like. chill but i would be lying if i said i wasn’t Aware that it’s fast #so i’m keeping an eye out for myself not bc of him as a person at all #he’s great! #but just. the dynamic in general ig i just want to be healthy!! #u know <3 #i wanna talk to my brother about it but he’s busy rn w a friend visiting him #and every time i call my dad he’s with other people and i can’t say anything 🙄🤚 LMAO #and my friends back home are lovely ppl but no help LMFAOOO #i say that affectionately lmfaaoo #ellie yodels #anyways <3 I’m going to journal and meditate and then go to bed <3

[thursdayg1rl]

i swear Muslim tiktok has turned me away from Islam for good

#truly the worst community I have seen #like shaming women for being fully covered like completely #and even stuff like wearing bright colours .. #then like . idk denying evolution no but it kind of makes me a little sick #none of those people are seeing heaven if it exists anyway bc they are all like bad people at their core I think #what the fuck is the point of being ‘good’ in the sense you pray 5 times a day and fast and stuff #but you are awful to people on a daily basis and are only doing that stuff to get into heaven #like you’re just a bad person at that point #and ! I hate that you can’t question anything ever … how can you believe in it if the slightest doubt makes you lose your mind #so idk what I am rn like ig you’d say I’m Muslim bc I don’t drink or eat pork and do all the stuff but I don’t really think I am tbh

[nothingweirdhere]

my mum has decided to wake me up in the morning and basically force feed me my meds in the 30 seconds before i fall back asleep 😭 i hate that it worked

#i mean this is good bc otherwise i have to take my adhd meds when i ACTUALLY wake up #which rn is never before noon #which probably isn’t helping me fall asleep any earlier #(i often get home from work past midnight & it takes several hours for me to wind down enough to sleep) #god having a delayed sleep schedule SUCKS #like i’ve always been a night person but when its like this its just miserable #cuz like. i’m up for a bit then i go to work. and by the time i’m home i can’t do anything bc it’s the middle of the night #& it’d be a bit different at least if i lived alone but i don’t. so i need to be quiet so i don’t wake anyone up #so yeah. can’t do anything after work. which is why i need to wake up earlier so i can do stuff BEFORE work #jx.txt

[muddi-gutz]

:/

#regretting having a roommate #i love her to death but i said she could use my makeup when she asked one day and like yeah i really don’t care but she’s not really aware #of like her surroundings n shit #if that makes sense #so like she doesn’t even put any of it back. and i just found one of my eyeliner pigment stick thingies with the lid shoved on it so hard it #it cracked and the product smushed into the lid #so a bunch of product was wasted + the lid is now broken #and i told her not to use the lipstick/gloss when she does use my makeup and it’s pretty obvious she uses it anyways #and also when she eats she spills everywhere and doesn’t clean it so now my pillows and blankets on the couch have stains from pizza rolls #on them #ughhh like it’s more beneficial to have a roommate bc i do need help with bills and also keeping the apartment clean #but she also lies about shit and she defo tries to manipulate me whether she knows it or now #not* #we agreed on her paying me $400 for the rent when she first moved in bc that’s half of everything (which she volunteered to pay for. i was #originally just going to have her pay half the rent.) and when i brought up that i paid the rent for the month she was like oh i should pay #you before i forget. ‘it was $350 we agreed on right? right? yeah. yeah it was.’ like really fast before i could even say anything #and i was like uhh no lol it was 400 #and ughhh like i love her so much but i’m just not having a good time rn and can’t hold it in any longer #muddi thoughts #and don’t get me wrong i love having her around but. :| #so tomorrow when i go to walmart i’m getting a makeup bag so i can keep my shit in my room #i hate having to bring stuff up bc we both hate confrontation and i also have rsd so when she’s uncomfortable w the confrontation i feel #really really fucking bad #so i just silently fix things. and i’m ok with that #and obvi i’m not gonna say this to my stupid fucking parents cuz they’ll be like oH i ToLd YoU sO because they’re narcissist pricks who #want to isolate me from fucking everyone #vent / #wishing the people in my phone were real rn even tho i never talk to them #i say this as if they’re not real lol #i just mean irl real yk

[pepprs]

just asked my profs for an extension on my capstone because im depressed CRIIIIIIINGE

#purrs #my advisor who i literally met with on monday and i hid how awful i was feeling as best i could and he didn’t seem to notice: wtf she was fi #fine why is she doing this LOL. i told them (honestly) i was having issues w like eating sleeping basic hygiene etc which is like maybe tmi #but im scared that they think im faking it and so im gonna be candid bc i have been in hell. i feel better today in part bc my counseling se #session was helpful but like lol. i always get increasingly depressed at the end of the semester and ofc this semester there’s like the #whole fight w my parents plus certain other ongoing issues that are making me VERY mentally ill but that i can’t talk abt on here plus im #graduating. so it’s just like horrible and i literally cannot get work done in these conditions ive been halfassing work work and school wor #work and i just feel like im falling apart but i have to keep pushing on and i have to get this done. and im scared my profs are gonna think #im a fucking freak for being so depressed i can’t take care of myself but that’s just the depression talking LOLLLLLLL #i hope to god i will never be this sick in the head again ever in my life. i hope it will get better after i just finish my finals and stop #being a student and then if i ever become a student again i’ll be able to handle it and it won’t be this hard on me anyway. but my brain is #BATTERED and my spirit is BATTERED. i have never been able to handle this and everyone thinks i can but i can’t. it’s so stupid lol bc i get #As and im very very good at pretending like nothings wrong (either that or ppl are too scared to say they notice / do anything abt it) but l #like it always surprises ppl when i tell them im sad or upset or anxious or whatever and it’s like i have these giant gaping ragged wounds i #in my head and heart at all times and no one sees which only makes it worse. criiiiinge. but yeah no i am this 🤏🏻 close to dropping out rn i #cannae take it there’s only like 3 weeks left but i cannae take it 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😇😇 #delete later #ask to tag

[voguesriot]

NOBODY’S BUSINESS ✹ luke castellan

part one

( summary ) social media au where luke’s sudden spike in confidence turns a few heads, including the head of your ex who just loves to jump in other people’s business

( pairing ) luke castellan x fem aphrodite counsellor!reader , mentions of ex bf! hephaestus camper x reader

( notes ) this feels a bit rushed bcs i’m sick rn but i hope you guys enjoy anyway!!

♫ American Teenager by Ethel Cain

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yourusername proof that percy doesn’t actually hate luke

seaweedbrain hey girlie!!! can you take this down like immediately?? not to sound to mean or anything but i can and will find you 😇

yourusername you’re such a cutie perce

seaweedbrain kys

sarahdawson totally wasn’t held at gunpoint for that last pic guys no need to worry

connorstroll we weren’t worrying but thanks anyway ig

sarahdawson sleep with one eye open.

lukecastellan 2/10 post

yourusername sorry for messing with your tough guy image 😔

lukecastellan actually it only loses points bcs there’s no pics of you

chrisrodriguez WOAHHHHHHH

sarahdawson HIS BALLS FINALLY DROPPED

clarisselarue bit sad to know they weren’t completely crushed after the red team kicked their ass icl

yourusername oh trust they were all whining about it the second i put away the camera

clarisselarue good.

GROUPCHAT — chb’s finest

clarisselarue: y/n what is max doing in your likes…

sarahdawson: HES WHAT

sarahdawson: oh he’s brave

yourusername: IDK HE JUST APPEARED

yourusername: like a bug

seaweedbrain: or a rat

yourusername: that too

lukecastellan: he’s on his way for training with me rn so i’ll go extra hard on him

silenabeauregard: homoerotic subtext goes crazy

yourusername: thanks luke but really you don’t need to do that

yourusername: like i’m over him now and i just want to forget about him altogether

lukecastellan: he deserves a hard time for what he did to you anyway

lukecastellan: you deserve way better than that

lukecastellan: i mean anyone would

seaweedbrain: great save bro

lukecastellan removed seaweedbrain.

sarahdawson: oh you took that one personally

DIRECT MESSAGES

clarisselarue: ok when did you get game

lukecastellan: idk what you’re talking about

clarisselarue: oh please spare me i’ve had to watch you make googoo eyes for the past two years you can’t lie you’re way out of this one

lukecastellan: seriously idk what you’re talking about clarisse

clairsselarue: ok fine whatever but HYPOTHETICALLY if you were to try anything with my girl i want you to know that i approve but trust if you go a toe out of line then you will be dealt with

read.

♫ My Love Mine All Mine by Mitski

♡ liked by drewtanaka, hazellevesque , and others

[ tagged: sarahdawson ]

yourusername you’re the only thing i’ll ever thank a man for

yourusername thanks max

this comment was deleted.

sarahdawson I SAW THAT COMMENT GIRL THAT WAS BRAVE

drewtanaka surprised sar isn’t screaming for photo creds for the second slide

sarahdawson bcs i didn’t take it……..

silenabeauregard WOAH WHAT

pipermclean yourusername hey sis can we have a chat please

yourusername nope i’m doing cabin checks rn #counsellorissues

wisegirll i’m doing cabin checks rn though???

silenabeauregard the plot thickens

lukecastellan glad to see you listened to my advice

yourusername felt bad keeping my beauty from everyone

lukecastellan it was a rough time without it

groverunderwood chrisrodriguez now THESE are moves

chrisrodriguez LOOK AT MY BOY GO gods is this what normal parents feel when their kids go to college

maxwalsh nice earrings

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seaweedbrain we all saw that comment right…

clarisselarue yes.

DIRECT MESSAGES

maxwalsh: hey can we please talk

yourusername: no

maxwalsh: please babe cmon you didn’t even hear me out

yourusername: because you tried to kiss sarah you fucking asshole

maxwalsh: no it wasn’t like that you don’t get it

maxwalsh: look can you just meet me by our old spot and i can explain everything

yourusername: no

maxwalsh: babe you’re not acting like yourself

yourusername: bcs it’s not her, she’s asleep rn and she’s not your “babe”

maxwalsh: who tf is this???

yourusername: doesn’t matter

yourusername blocked maxwalsh.

lukecastellan posted to their story!

SARAHDAWSON replied to your story

sarahdawson: WOAHWOAHWOAHWOAH SLOW YOUR ROLL WHAT

CLAIRSSELARUE replied to your story

clairsselarue: “idk what you’re talking abt clarisse” oh i hate you so bad

SILENABEAUREGARD replied to your story

silenabeauregard: i’d know that silhouette anywhere…

CHRISRODRIGUEZ replied to your story

chrisrodriguez: i’m a bit hurt i wasn’t told in depth about this before but i’m too proud to pay attention to it GOOD FOR YOU MAN

MAXWALSH replied to your story

maxwalsh: so it was you who had her phone the other day

maxwalsh: wtf man

lukecastellan: womp womp

lukecastellan: you snooze you lose and you lost big time

♫ Nobody’s Business by Rihanna, Chris Brown

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[ tagged: yourusername ]

lukecastellan and it ain’t what??

yourusername AND IT AIN’T NOBODY’S BUSINESS

clarisselarue ok edward cullen why are you eating her neck like that

silenabeauregard everyone i took the hammock pic thank me please 🙏😇

yourusername thank you beautiful angel

seaweedbrain cute i guess…….

chrisrodriguez I ALWAYS HAD FAITH IN YOU BRO EVEN WHEN EVERYONE ELSE THOUGHT YOU WERE A LOSER WITH NO GAME, I STAYED ROOTING FOR YOU

lukecastellan appreciate you bro

lukecastellan wait people said that about me???

wisegirll my favs 😭🫶

yourusername AWE ILY ANNIE

seaweedbrain oh i’m just dirt to you then? chill.

wisegirll you’re so dramatic percy

seaweedbrain oh so mental health matters until I’M the one hurt? cool.

lukecastellan and y’all were saying i had no game

seaweedbrain okay luke see that’s just not funny because your dad literally dances on a revolving stage for a living

lukecastellan had to bring out the dad jokes because you know i’m right?

seaweedbrain why is your old age pension ass beefing with me instead of talking to ur girlfriend… weird behaviour

sarahdawson too cute i fear

sarahdawson but you i must remind you mr castellan, i made it onto her feed first. you will ALWAYS be second to me. always.

drewtanaka anyone else hear weeping from the hephaestus cabin…

leovaldez it’s really depressing

leovaldez i think he just punched a hole in the wall

cbeckendorf he did

pipermclean LMAO WHAT A FUCKING LOSER 😭😭☠️☠️

( taglist ) @perseus-jackass @harrysnovia

#charlie bushnell x reader #luke castellan x aphrodite!reader #luke castellan x you #luke castellan x reader #luke castellan #percy jackson and the olympians x reader #percy jackson x reader #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo x reader

[inf3ct3dd]

ellie headcanons pt 4.!

warnings: literally nothing

content: loser!ellie x reader

authors note: brewing a full length fic in my mind rn… this might be the last hc post 😓!!!

pt.3. taglist!

- loves matching with you. keychains, shoes, outfits, literally anything. if you have dyed hair, she’d dye a piece of hers to match you.

- makes up elaborate plots to kiss you bc she’s too cool and nonchalant to ask for a kiss 😕😕

“ugh, my lips are just sooooo dry…”

“didnt you literally just put chapstick on 5 minutes ago?”

“yknow chapstick these days…so…low quality.”

“is this your weird way of asking me to kiss you?”

“noooo what!!! thats craaaaazy i have nooo idea what you’re talking about!!!”

smooch

“you’re so stupid.”

“i feel sooooo moisturized right now”

- always fidgeting with something. probably has a rubix cube keychain 😕🔥🔥

- speaking of, she has an excessive amount of keychains. like so many.

- covers her eyes and peaks through her fingers every time you change infront of her

- definitely audibly said “woah” when she saw ur boobs for the first time

- has so many dumb socks. dinosaurs, minecraft, pickles, literally anything she likes she has a pair of socks for

- scarily good at roblox obbies. you literally can’t play with her because she’ll be done in like 5 minutes 😞

- loves those papas cooking games. her faves are the taco mia one and the sushi-ria

- arizona green tea 🗣️🗣️

- will put on awful accents for hours on end just for fun 😞 esp the italian accent. it’s ridiculous 💔💔 or that frat dude accent

“suhhh dude”

- definitely built her own pc. put a picture of you in it too ☹️☹️

- calls you “dude” or “bro” on accident sometimes

- absolutely constantly argues w ppl on the internet. if she gets bored she just tells them to kts and blocks them 😕

- MAKES THE BEST PASTA EVER!!! it’s literally her favorite food and she’s constantly cooking it. even makes her own sauce 🔥🔥

- tries to do tricks while she’s smoking and just ends up a coughing mess

- her default pose in every picture is just her doing a thumbs up and looking at the camera like this 😐 but whenever she takes a picture with you she is absolutely CHEESING

- randomly takes 0.5 pictures of you constantly. has a whole album in her phone of all the pictures

- barely ever uses instagram, and all her posts are just pictures of you.

- “i could take a bear in a fight.”

- loves balancing things on your head when you fall asleep around her. one time you woke up to like 20 cheerios falling on your lap

- whenever she’s home alone she puts on insanely random outfits and then forgets she’s wearing them. one time you came home to her sleeping on the couch in a full suit

- lets you stand on the cart in the grocery store so she can stand behind you and push it around

- has had the same backpack since the 5th grade. she’s had to sow it back together 20 times and she refuses to throw it away because its “special”

- stalks all your reposts on tiktok when she’s bored

“was this about me???”

- absolutely disgusted by like…any type of canned food. she will not go near it. ESPECIALLY SARDINES

- makes a million typos every time she texts you. her messages are like ancient scrolls you have to decipher to read

“sre tou comungw over todqy ??”

- every time she wears a hat she wears it backwards

- hates sharing her food, but will constantly eat yours

“just a little bite!!!” and she eats like half of it 😒

- has the julien baker rainbow guitar strap

- literally loves apples. so much. apple juice, apple pie, apple cider, literally ANYTHING that has apples in it/ is apple flavored she will DEVOUR IT

- whenever she cooks for herself, she just eats it straight out of the pot/pan.

“whats the point?? ‘s just more dishes to wash 😒”

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protective clarisse save me ANWAYSSSS enjoy

*mentions of clarisse picking reader up and carrying her around

PLEASE ignore the fact i forgot ambrosia existed thanks 🙏🙏 yk i just be saying stuff

it starts out like any capture the flag game

except for the fact you’re on different teams

like in so it goes when clar tells y/n “don’t do anything i wouldn’t do”

everyone once in a while the teams switch up

and clarisse has a really hard time when you’re not on the same team, but she can usually function

she’s worried out of her mind obvi

we all know you’re her achilles heel

but for some reason this time clarisse just has a really bad feeling

she’ll probably threaten everyone on her team- if they so much as LOOK at you in the wrong way she’s going to make their lives a literal hell

and everyone is like ok scary lady 🫡

they all know clarisse don’t play about you

so the game is going pretty normal

you’re just doing your thing and clarisse is hunting around you

it’s really funny because you and a few of your siblings are just fighting whoever makes their way to you

and you win every time

bc clarisse is still letting you win 😭😭😭😭

the good members of her team get told to turn around

and then she lets the weaker ones, the stragglers she doesn’t care about, pass through and then smiles when you cheer after winning even tho she can’t see you

you feel her eyes on you tho sometimes it’s kinda creepy

but basically annabeth and the blue team had set up these trenches in random parts of the wood

they were lined with like a bunch of leaves and spare linens so they were soft at the bottom

but someone 🙄🙄🙄 ugh

forgot to soften up one of them and that’s the one you fall into

she hears you scream and she’s like WOAH HOLY FUCK

running through the woods you’re crying at the bottom of this 6 ft deep hole your siblings are screaming

like she literally throws herself to the ground and drags you out of the pit pure adrenaline

and like she could tell just by your screams and the look on your face that you were HURT HURT

but she knows you need her rn so she pulls you into her lap and asks what hurts

and you can’t even speak you’re in so much pain but you gesture to your leg and maybe clarisse just didn’t want to notice it before but like that bitch is BROKEN

she’s literally shaking

“it’s okay it’s okay baby it’s okay someone is gonna go get a healer right? SOMEONE IS GOING TO GO GET A HEALER, RIGHT?”

*cue like 10 random campers all running off*

and you’re screaming and crying and your siblings are freaking out so the game kinda stops bc everyone is like what happened 😭

then they just walk into this clearing and see you pale and crying and leg obviously broken, sitting in a shaking clarisse’s lap

one of her siblings definitely has to come over and subtly say that she’s like doing a good job LMAO

bc she is STRUGGLING

like she’s never been so scared in her life

her heart is pounding her hands are shaking

but for the first time in her life she’s not really angry right now

she’s just fucking terrified

and she HATES it

she’s stroking your hair and has her arm wrapped around your waist so tight

she tells you “just dig your nails into my arm”

and you can’t even comprehend what’s going on so she grabs your hands and let’s you squeeze so hard she swears her fingers come out a little crooked

FINALLY some apollo kids come over with a stretcher

so then she starts yelling at them “BE GENTLER SHES HURT DUMBFUCKS”

then finally after clarisse’s incessant screaming she holds your hand as they take you back to the healers

then 20 minutes later they reset your leg and put it in a little cast and give you some AMAZING painkillers

so you’re like omg

clarisse is like pale and sweaty and her heartbeat is so erratic one of the healers actually has to come over and be like “maybe you should sit down and get checked out..?”

she starts screaming at them

then you’re like “omg no my saviors are fighting ☹️☹️☹️☹️”

“no no i’m sorry i didn’t mean to make you sad it’s fine it’s fine we’re not fighting”

“yay!!!!!!!”

she has to lay down in your bed and take some really deep breaths in order to calm down

and you’re just happy bc you are floating and you have your gf with you

you’re babbling on about something and clarisse is like wtf is happening to me

but also she’s acting like you just died

holding your head to her chest and staring off into the distance like that one painting of ivan the terrible holding his dead son y’all know

and you’re just happy

she’s kissing all over your face and head and telling you about how she’s gonna help you

“i’ll carry you whenever you don’t feel like using your crutches, i’ll make sure you take all your medicine, i’ll find and kill whoever did this to you, i’ll sleep with you every night just in case, and i won’t let you out of my sight ever again, and i’ll make chiron switch the teams back”

she ends up doing all of those things obvi

she annoys chiron so much he makes a permanent rule that the ares and your cabin always have to be on the same team

clarisse becomes 10x worse in terms of protectiveness

like she’s watching you like a HAWK

she just felt so totally helpless in that moment so unprepared and she never wants to feel like that again

she doesn’t think her heart can take it actually 😭

she does find the person and loses dessert privileges for 5 months for what she did!!!!!

she sleeps with you ever night bc the meds make you sleep restlessly and she’s always there to whisper in your ear and lull you back to sleep

even if you’re like oh i can just use my crutches she’s always staring at the ground like it’s a monster that’s gonna hurt you so she’s like

“hm well i don’t think so actually haha just let me carry you”

“I WANT TO WALK CLARISSE”

*picking you up* “no it’s fine this is safest”

“LET ME DOWN”

basically you’re just the love of her life and she can’t imagine something else happening to you

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