#it's still valentine's day where i am so i guess you can consider this my valentine's day post if you want lol

[saline-coelacanth]

I wanted to make a little post about the shipping in the Mirage Memory Au just cause I like thinking about them. Because with the fake memories going on, they don't remember each other so things are a little off between them.

So yeah, Zane and Kai have this sort of "soul mates" thing going on meanwhile Cole and Jay despise each other, so that's fun for them :3

Also as a side note, I thinks it's just safe to say that all of my aus have Bruise and/or Oppo unless stated otherwise. I can't help it, I'm obsessed with these ships lol.

#ninjago #lego ninjago #my art #mirage memory au #oppositeshipping #bruiseshipping #zane julien #kai smith #kai jiang #cole brookstone #jay walker #it's still valentine's day where i am so i guess you can consider this my valentine's day post if you want lol #anyway gonna go think about toxic yaoi bruise now /hj #i don't actually know if they count as toxic yaoi since their relationship DOES get better #but it's funny to call it toxic yaoi so yeah #also i kinda rushed these so if the drawing look messy that's why

[azriels-shadowsinger]

No. 13 for Azriel please ❤️❤️🤌✨

“Everything reminds me of you, it's driving me insane”

Azriel x Reader

wc: 1.4K

a/n: kinda inspired by cardan’s letters. if yall read the cruel prince series then u know. get ready for some angst yall.

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“This is the last straw Azriel. I can’t handle not being a priority in your life! You always choose Rhys, Cassian, Elain, work, or literally anything else over me. I have only seen you once in the past week, and we live together for Cauldron’s sake! I feel like I live with a ghost. You’re gone before I wake up and you return after I fall asleep!” You yell between tears. “I can’t do this anymore. I love you, but it is too painful to keep living like this.” Azriel realizes where this is headed.

“Y/n, please. I’ll be better. I promise!” He begs, desperation in his eyes.

“I’m sorry, Azriel. You had your chance, multiple actually. It’s too late.” You turn away, unable to look at his heartbroken face without potentially giving in. You can feel his shadows attempting to reach for you as you walk out the door.

———

January 7th

Dear y/n,

Rhys won’t tell me where exactly you left to, but promised he would deliver this. I understand that you are angry with me and that you need some time to calm down. I hope that you will return soon so we can work this out. I love you and I’m sorry.

Sincerely,

Azriel

���——

January 29th

Dear y/n,

Point taken, dear. I know I messed up, but it’s been weeks and I miss you.

I know you are getting these letters. Rhys said he ensured they would be delivered. I guess that doesn't guarantee that you will read them. Nevertheless, I am sorry for my actions and I am taking steps to create boundaries in my life so that I can have more time for you. I can prove it, if only you would just come home.

With deepest apologies,

Azriel

———

February 14th

My love,

I had hoped you would return before Valentine's Day. You always loved celebrating this holiday. I know you won’t see them, but I still got you flowers. They're on your nightstand.

It's been over a month. I miss your voice. Please come home.

Azriel

———

March 7th

Y/n,

If this is your way of punishing me, then consider it a success. I’m a wreck without you. Please come home.

-Azriel

———

March 30th,

My heart,

I am begging you to come home. Come home and yell at me, come home and fight with me, just please come home. I love you and I’m so sorry.

Always with love,

Azriel

———

May, 15th,

Y/n,

I understand what you meant about feeling like you were living with a ghost. Everything reminds me of you, and it’s driving me insane. I am haunted by these traces of you around our home. Please end this torment and come back to me.

-Azriel

———

June 7th

I’m sorry.

I love you.

Why are you doing this to me?

I hate myself for causing this and pushing you away.

Do you still love me? Do you even miss me?

Please come home I can’t take it anymore.

I love you I love you I love you I love you

I miss you.

———

Y/n,

This is my last letter. I won’t bother you anymore after this. I hope that wherever you are, you are happy. I will always regret taking your love for granted.

Eternally yours,

Azriel

———

It was another sleepless night for Azriel. He was plagued with the memories of every single time he chose something or someone else over you. He’s past the point of beating himself up over it, but rather, he considers this the worst punishment of all. Being forced to relive each memory over and over, unable to change it. Hating himself and drowning his sorrows in whiskey.

He hears a knock at the door. It’s probably Cass or Rhys, doing their weekly check on him, since he rarely leaves the house anymore. Azriel chooses to ignore them.

They knock again.

“Fuck off, I’m not in the mood tonight guys.” He barks in the direction of the door, taking another sip of his whiskey.

Another knock.

Cauldron boil him, his brothers were relentless. He was going to open the door, but only to yell at them to leave. He grumbles angrily to himself all the way to the door.

“I said I wasn’t-“ It's not Rhys or Cassian on his doorstep. Instead, he sees you, holding a stack of letters. His letters.

This is another dream, he thinks. He must have fallen asleep on the couch. When he wakes you will be gone again, having torn the rip in his heart even wider. But until then, he lets himself indulge in the dream. Azriel doesn’t hesitate for another moment before pulling you into a tight hug.

“My dreams must be especially cruel tonight because somehow I am able to smell your perfume. I can feel your heartbeat.” He mumbles, face buried in your hair. His shadows encompass you two, whispering in Azriel’s ear y/n, y/n, y/n

“This isn’t a dream, Azriel.” You say softly, pulling away to look at him and placing a gentle hand on his cheek. It takes him a moment to realize what’s happening, but as soon as he does, he pulls you back into a hug, even tighter than before. You feel hot tears fall onto your shoulder as his shadows surge around you.

“My love, my heart, my star. You came back to me.” He sobs. Your heart breaks at the pain in his voice. You had known he was probably upset about the breakup, but in an attempt to heal and move on, you never opened his letters… until last night.

After several long minutes of intense bear hugs, he finally manages to let go. Well kind of, he can’t seem to let your hand go yet.

“We should talk, Az.” You say nervously.

“I will do anything you want if it means you will stay.”

Gods, you were the worst person in the world. This poor male, who you still love desperately despite your best efforts, is so broken over you leaving.

“I’m not going anywhere, Az.” You reassure him. He finally loses a small bit of tension in his shoulders a the words, but his hands seem to hold tighter. You take a deep breath, trying to prepare for what you have to say.

“I didn’t read your letters until last night. I was trying to get over you, and so I avoided reading them. In an attempt to move on, I had convinced myself you were happy without me. But I couldn’t move on. I couldn't stop loving you. When I finally read your letters, I realized you truly had changed. I should’ve read them months ago. I should've never left. I’m so sorry Azriel. I understand if you need time or if you can’t forgive me but-“ He cuts you off.

“I forgive you. I don’t need time. I only need you here.” He’s so quick to dismiss every mistake you made, it breaks your heart. It will take a long while to reassure him that you aren’t ever leaving again, maybe a lifetime, but that’s okay.

You take notice of his dark circles and how skinny he has gotten. Gods, has he eaten at all since you left, you wonder.

“Let me make us some dinner, then we can talk more, okay?” Azriel nods and reluctantly lets go of your hand, following you to the kitchen like a lost puppy.

———

After several long hours of tears and brutal honesty, you and Azriel lay in your bed, embracing each other.

You spent the next week holed up in the house, reconnecting and reigniting your love for each other. You even took extra time to apologize to his shadows. They were very happy that you were back and made sure to show you so.

True to his word, Azriel never took your love for granted for as long as you both lived. And true to yours, you never left again.

I think I may do this prompt again later with someone else in more of a rivals to lovers type scenario, but I kinda just felt like this was fun for this one and wanted to try it idk

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taglist: @fxckmiup

#acotar #a court of thorns and roses #azriel #acotar fic #acotar fanfic #azriel acotar #acotar x reader #azriel x reader #my writing

[argentiswifee]

Thoughts about Valentine's Day Specials...

Characters included :

Blade, Argenti, Stelle, Jing Yuan

warnings:

swearing

love... eugh..

half-assed bcs I wanna get this out before Feb ends :c

Summary :

you give them a Valentine's Day gift! how do they react to it :O

Blade :

As a crush :

He's very surprised when you come up to him holding a large heart-shaped box filled with chocolates and roses, even more so when you admit your crush on him. But he hides it all behind his signature cold, intimidating face, but really he's just panicking on what to say to you since he's never had someone come up to him, give him a gift and admit their crush on him on Valentine's Day, even more so since he's a intergalactically wanted criminal! If he returns your feelings, let's just say you'll have a clingy but silent Blade who scares away anyone who comes up to you, gift in hand.

your gift? it was an earring to match with his!

As his lover :

He's surprised when you suddenly jump out behind him, hugging him with a large heart-shaped box filled with chocolates and a bouquet of roses in your hands! Not that much since you are his lover but still, surprised! Gives you a peck on the cheek, placing your gift (a bouquet of Red Spider Lilies) aside, taking a singular flower and onto your hair. Safe to say, you're guaranteed to be dragged into bed and cuddled up with him for the rest of the day without a word. Just quality time.

huh, what do you mean Kafka and Silverwolf are calling for him? he doesn't hear shit.

Argenti :

As a crush :

HOO BOY, WHERE DO I BEGIN....

Let's just not consider how he would probably turn down your confession for Idrila, The Aeon Of Beauty and focus on if he returns your feelings!

Very surprised, much like Blade, because be honest. Who wouldn't be if someone came up to them with roses and a heart shaped box of chocolates and admitted to having a crush on them? Anywaysss... After crush admitting (idefk if that's a word) he would go down on one knee like he's proposing or some shit, take your hand in his and kiss your knuckles before saying something corny like...

"I am most delighted that you reciprocate my romantic feelings for you, even if I did want to give you a gift first."

Yeah that bitch wanted to give you a gift beforehand, but he wanted to make sure it was worthy of being gifted to you and he couldn't really decide so he just thought he could come back to that store later that day and make a decision but looks like you confessed first!

the gift was between 50 fucking roses or 20 packets of heart shaped chocolate...

As his lover :

He knew you were going to give him a gift sooner or later when he saw you making chocolates not so discreetly in the kitchen, so wanna take a guess at what this guy did..?

I am so sorry but you cannot tell me that after he witnessed you making chocolates for him (HE LOVES HOMEMADE GIFTS THERE'S NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO CHANGE MY MIND) that he wouldn't try and one-up your gift by getting a giant ass teddy bear holding a heart that says 'Happy Valentines!'

Has a somehow smug yet, still charming smile when you come up to him and present him the heart shaped box of chocolates along with the bouquet of roses. Poor ol' you doesn't know what you're getting into when he just suddenly POPS THAT SHIT OUTTA THIN FUCKING AIR AND PROPS IT ON THE FLOOR, FACING IT TO YOU.

"Truth be told, my love. I saw you making chocolates in the kitchen for me and I just had to give you something that, at the very least, was equal to a tiny part of my love for you. Though the chocolates are handmade and a product of your own hard work, thus more priceless than any other gift you could've gotten me."

Stelle :

As a crush :

With how straightforward she is? She would probably confess first with a miniature golden trash bag inside a travel-sized crimson red trash can that says 'Happy Valentine's' on the front. What the trash bag is filled with, may you ask? Trash can shaped chocolates mixed in with heart shaped chocolates. nyehehehe, I love making Stelle obsessed with trash related things :3

But if you somehow beat her to giving gifts earlier than the other? Congrats, you're having Stelle follow you around wherever you go like a lost puppy while she noms on the homemade goodness that you call chocolates. No matter if you go Jarilo-IV, The Xianzhou Luofu, Penacony. Yeah, no, she is following you everywhere.

"Hmm? Try the chocolate in the middle? It's caramel flavoured? Okay, don't mind if I do.."

As her lover :

Stelle immediately perks up like a little puppy that misses it's owner when you return home from your errands, she is rushing to give you a big bear hug and help you with your stuff when she notices the bouquet of roses sticking out the brown paper bag and she fucking rushes over there like Usain Bolt(does he even count since he doesn't exist in HSR... 🧍‍♀️)

You notice her and give her a loving smile, setting down your stuff, spreading your arms out since you know she is going to tackle you down if you don't steady yourself first (you've experienced that first-hand a lot of times...)

"Hey, how's my little dustball?" You coo as you caress her hair like you would with a dog's.

Jing Yuan :

As a crush :

Now, we all know this man is RICH rich, being the General of the Xianzhou Luofu an all that. He's also old, so he's definitely an old-fashioned romantic! But he doesn't want to overwhelm you with so much things so he makes his gift at least portable.

Oh, and he would definitely not confess sooner than you, he wants to see you squirm and struggle just to get out those 3 words, just because! So when you go up to him, chocolates and roses in hand, he has a teasing, knowing and sly smirk on his face. So when you struggle to get out your words? He sees an opportunity and he makes his move, brushing your hair away from your forehead and plants a soft kiss on said place.

you overheat shortly after that and steam comes out your head

As his lover :

As he is the General of the Luofu. Naturally, he is very busy with paperwork and such, he doesn't have much time to tend to his lover, sadly. But he snuck out of his work! He can see you, now!

You're just at a flower shop, thinking which bouquet of roses look better, fresher and which one would last for longer for Jing Yuan when the door suddenly swings open with a jingle and you feel someone's arms wrap around your waist as the familiar scent of Jing Yuan's cologne fills the air.

"My little Finch.. Looking for flowers for me, I see?"

He purrs in your ear, you feel him chuckling as he presses his face into your shoulder, finding comfort.

A/N : oh my god this was shorter than anticipated I'm sosososo sorry, I ditched writing for two characters just because I didn't have the energy to write anymore, so sorry. I was supposed to write for March and Ruan Mei but I didn't because I didn't know how to write Ruan Mei and I was fresh out of motivation for March... this was so rushed I need to write better next time and I feel like I kinda mischaracterised them a bit... ｡：ﾟ(｡ﾉω＼｡)ﾟ･｡

#hsr argenti #hsr x reader #hsr #hsr stelle #hsr jing yuan #hsr blade #honkai star rail #hoyoverse #honkai star rail argenti #honkai stelle #honkai star rail blade #honkai star rail jing yuan #jing yuan #stelle #argenti #blade #valentines day special #happy valentine's day #valentines day

[zvmz]

Writing down my thoughts while watching monster high for the first time Pt. 2

alright y’all now we’re watching why do ghouls fall in love let’s go

oh oh new and improved intro

the one long shot as the intro is so cool

ohh shoot we 3D now

actually might like it better than the 2D

wait r they saying Valentine’s Day was literally made for Draculara?

im confused 😁

can I get a sugar daddy like clawd

CAN I GET DRACULARAS DAD?????

oh

um this is awkward

so guys it was all in our heads apparently 😊

clawdeen is kinda slaying this new animation style

oh this song goes so hard

the bats flying out of clawds wallet is so real

come again how old is draculara

why is she still in school

was she held back a few hundred years

and I thought my grades were bad

the cat people make me uncomfortable. stranger danger

damn these cats are menaces

arent they always

not the driving lessons book

just pass it the first time fr 🙄

GUYS

GUYS

GUYS

CUPID

SHES HERE

LOLL NOT THE STOOL CLAWD 😭😭

vampire daring charming???

“misunderstanding with the locals”?? 😭 what did girlie do??? 😭😭

is ghoulias back okay like fr

the collection of broken hearts is so extra

kinda metal idk I almost cant be mad

imagine eah characters trying to navigate the catacombs

girls would not last a minute

actually can someone make a fic I would totally read that

why am I just now realizing ghoulia can’t talk

like idk I just thought she was a bit quirky this whole time

WHY DOES DRACULARA HAVE KNIVES ON THE CEILING OF HER CAR

oh my god Draculara HIT HIM

FLOOR IT DRACULARA

she missed her chance :( vampire Elvis lives

The shot of them running towards each in slow motion just to maintain a 3 feet distance was so unnecessary

WAIT A MINUTE DRACULARA YOURE BETTER THAN THIS. YOU ALREADY HAVE A BOYFRIEND

why is dueces animation specifically so rough

he kind of reminds me of sparrow

i kinda like him

yes Draculara break it off

oh- um

THE ANIMATION ON THEIR PHONES OF DRACULARA DUMPING CLAWD?? WHO MADE THAT?? WHERE DID IT COME FROM?? 😭😭😭

wait a minute I recognize Frankie’s voice. Is that Barbie?

why does some random cow go to their school

CUPIDDDD

LOL NOT CLEO BREAKING THE CLASS

yeah Cupid shoot her

pow pow pow 💥🔫💥🔫💥🔫

okay now what the hell

get it together cupid

why does Cupid keep accidentally getting love enchanted? First clawd then Dexter lolll

the dog whistle?? 😭

clawds like. I guess you can say I got… W rizz...

”what u want” ABBY 😭😭 BEST CHARACTER ONG

this party looks kinda fire ngl

not sure how I feel about the food being served next to the body odor pit

okayyy frankieee kinda slaying her party look

cleo barely changing after being love enchanted to herself

Could this be considered a school shooting? like legally

um anyway Kitty Cheshire supremacy

rizz lord clawd

hell yea body odor pit for the win ✊🏻

why was the kiss sound so um squishy

abby is such an icon

okay it’s over

I liked this one a lot better than the last movie. I hope we see Cupid again or else I’ll rage

the pacing was like SO much better than the last movie.

my only complaints are that toralai and vampire Elvis's motivations either weren’t really explained or made no sense to me. Also the animation still isn’t great but what do you expect lol

oh wait one more complaint. where is Frankie’s personality. I do not see it

hopefully we get a good frankie episode to get to know her a bit more

also it keeps telling us clawdeen and draculara are best friends but not really showing it??

In conclusion clawd is the rizzard and Abby solos

#monster high #ever after high #eah #draculaura #abby bominable #clawdeen wolf #frankie stein #c.a. cupid #daring charming #kitty cheshire

[mermaidsirennikita]

almost done with Darling Beast, the Maiden Lane I remembered least and considered the most mid of the series (there's not a BAD ML, but this was the weakest imo, having... not read the very first book yet oops I'm sorry I should but it's one of like two full length Hoyts I have left!!!).

and it's so good????? Like we have:

--a giant ugly hero (I love an ugly hero, especially when he's Big) who can't speak for the first half

--a kid who actually works mostly because he's there to be like "THIS GIANT MAN I FOUND IN THE WOODS IS MY BEST FRIEND" while the hero is like "well I guess"

--SEKRETS

--some legit rockin' sex scenes, and I did remember that this book had great sex scenes, but I forgot that it included like, him launching onto her puss with one leg thrown over his shoulder, him fucking this girl on like a table while being like "ONE DAY I'LL FUCK YOU IN A PLACE WHERE PEOPLE CAN HEAR YOU SCREAM", this whole thing where she's like bent over in yet another inopportune location, "presenting herself like a mare"

--because, and I should add this, one of the best things about the way Elizabeth Hoyt writes sex scenes is that she tiptoes riiiight up to the point where her descriptions might seem a little gross? but she has the balance you need, so instead it's very EARTHY, and even though you're like "oh, like a horse?" (and it's not that she writes the most insane sex scenes EVER, but I do think they kind of get closer to a Grace Callaway-type scene than most trad historical authors, and they are...... pretty hot) it's like................... I don't know how to say this other than like, her writing evokes the way real sex IS, while maintaining a degree of romance novelocity; like, real sex is kind gross but also fun and most of all very physical even when you're emotionally connecting with someone, and I think a lot of romance authors do miss that mark and she never does

--my point being that the sex scenes in this book are very good

--there's a whole murder plot but there's also the fact that Asa Makepeace is still desperately trying to make his THEATER ENTERPRISE work because otherwise his holier than thou family will LAUGH AT HIM FOR SURE, and then you have random Valentine Napier cameos where he like, cackles evilly but also helps the leads like a horrible fairy godmother

--she's setting up the next book by having James Trevillion, the Maiden Lane Jim Gordon, desperately try to be an effective officer of the law even though he got like medically retired, and at the same time he's like "NOBODY TOUCH THIS GIRL CHILD I'M PROTECTING" because he has to think of her as a girl child and not the grown woman she is because otherwise he'd have to admit that he wants to throw down

--towards the end my boy, Maximus, Duke of The Home Gym, BatDuke He Is The Night TM, shows up to be like "everyone leave my wife's stupid twin brother and whoever this bitch he's with is alone, or there will be consequences", and basically they tell Trevillion that they called Maximus rather than THE MAIDEN LANE POLICE because he'd be "more effective"

--and I'm like AT WHAT???? like normal ducal intimidation???? or were they like "worst case scenario Maximus kills this man because he's, you know, CRAZY, and because he's a duke nobody will arrest him"????

anyway great book would recommend am going to raise my rating on GR and StoryGraph for sure and idk maybe listen to a billion more of these books all over again

#romance novel blogging #might finally knock out those novellas too tbh

[kiealer]

Valentine’s Day Application

Name: Black 🌹

Age: ???

Do you like to cuddle?: Hardly. Not with the likes of Mortals. But you might be that exception.

Can we make-out?: Never without my permission.

A night in or dinner out?: Perhaps, if you are worthy of my time, Ninazu.

Whip cream or chocolate syrup?: ...Cream

Chocolates and roses?: Roses are the most divine symbol of beauty.

What makes you a good Valentine?: I am a God, well above you and your kind. I am the very best there is.

Would you cook for me?: Do you deserve the fruits of my labor?

Would you let me cook for you?: I doubt your skills are any match to my own.

Where would you take me on a date?: Anywhere that is far from mortal dwellings.

Who’s paying?: You are.

What did you get me for Valentine’s Day?: My mere presence alone is enough. I am interested in you, despite your... Heritage.

Valentine's Application / accepting

The faintest of citrus hues soon spreads like wildfire, intensifying the further she considers the package as a whole. He is, of course, condescending, curt, and rudely straightforward. Surely, this would skew her consideration in some capacity, make her think twice about his offer. Who would accept something this crass, after all?

Yet, certain answers pique her curiosity. Even in his gruffness, he knew how to make her squirm. Ignoring the various scenes that play behind her eyes (and for good reason; he can tell when she's riled), his application brings with it even more intrigue. Why he bothered to send one in in the first place, she didn't quite know, though he answers that question rather concisely in his response. I am interested in you, he said. Why does that make her heart flutter? Damn him. In truth, he doesn't have to do a damn thing to convince or impress her -- she's already within his grasp.

Half-lidded eyes fall to the floor, brows creased and pensive while her fair skin still burns a sun-like heat. She pretends to contemplate, but she knows her answer -- they both do.

❝You're willing to set aside time in your busy schedule to spend with me?❞ She sounds more hopeful, more grateful, than she expected to. So much for keeping a biting, sarcastic tongue as a ways of showing indifference; she couldn't seem to help herself. Not when it comes to him. Her arms hold one another, keeping close as though guarded, or strained.

❝Alright,❞ she takes a breath, steadying the fierce rattling in her chest. Why the idea of being in his company on such a romantic day is appealing to her, she could hardly deign to guess -- but it is. ❝I accept. I'll… see you then,❞ her eyes lift to meet his, trepidation glimmering within them but beneath that lies a glint of excitement. Before she can think to bite her tongue, she adds, ❝I'm looking forward to it.❞

And now she wishes she'd never opened her mouth, her lips forming a tight line and her cheeks becoming just that much hotter. God damn him.

#sleepytv #anemcia #║ ✰〳ic. #║ ✰〳asks. #[ YOU SURE DO LIKE TO SPOIL ME DON'T YOU #I COULDN'T RESIST REPLYING TO THIS IMMEDIATELY AND NINA JUST. WENT OFF #the entire time i was staring at this like WHY DOES SHE LIKE YOU. #i mean i know WHY she likes him but. WHY DOES SHE LIKE HIM. ]

[geekgemsspooksandtoons]

I just posted this on Twitter, and I just had to delete it and remake it because I spelt regret wrong. This is an essay I wanted to make after this poll. https://twitter.com/Geekgem1/status/1622753923470880770  

My essay of why I love Johanna from Hilda so much as a character. Hoping I don't regret this.

I have thought about posting this on Valentine’s Day, and it’s that day. I know I don’t need to make this, but I made a poll, and it would be cheap to go back on it. Before this, I was wondering how to write this, I don’t want to make it too gushy, but not too simple. Yet, I’m just going to write down what I’ve thought.

We all have a character we love, one that means a lot to us. Maybe because we can relate with them, we know what it’s like to be in their shoes. Maybe because we admire them or want to be like them. Whether we like them for simple or complex reasons. It’s an interesting discussion and it could tell us about the person who’s talking about that same character. I have a lot of favorites, some for understandable reasons. One I think could be considered “Controversial” to me personally. Whether for complex or simple reasons. And that brings us to this here...why do I love the character of Johanna from Hilda?

Why is that this woman has been on my icons for quite a long time, even when sharing it with other characters? A character that I have made jokes with friends that if someone were to ever insult her, I’d would rain Hell upon that person (Yet don’t worry, I won’t) for doing such a thing. A character that I guess you can call me a “Fanboy” of. Why this character from a show I’ve been a fan of since the Thanksgiving break of 2018? Why her?

A heads up, this is my opinion. This is something I really want to write and make sure I get right. And it explains why I like her despite the answer is very simple.

What makes Johanna really stand out as a character to me is that she’s basically the “Everywoman” in the show when you think about it. She is written realistically as a parent and a person. She isn’t a perfect person or a perfect parent, and honestly, that’s pretty great. While there are characters that you can consider the “Every person” in a sense. But I think I am saying that about Johanna is likely because she’s the one who still gets really surprised by the amount of fantastical crap despite trying to get used to it. Even if I sometimes make it a funny joke or I point out in my list of favorite female characters, she’s likely the most “Normal” of them all. And she’s surrounded by women who aren’t really...normal.

The point being she would be like someone that would exist in reality. And while she isn’t perfect, she is a fantastic mother. I think her relationship with Hilda is honestly the “Heart” of the series. While there are other characters that still get included in that. Yet ever since the start of the show, again, it’s about them along with some others.

And honestly, I think I should just admit it, even if it’s likely very boring. But it’s the fact she’s so kind and understanding. She is supportive and protective for her own daughter, even when she’s very worried about her. Including during the course of the series where their relationship is tested. While I have seen some criticism concerning her in season 2, but I still love her. She’s again, not perfect, and legit wants the best for her daughter. The fact she questions her own parenting, if she’s doing the right thing. She is trying to make sure her daughter is safe because she doesn’t want to lose her.

Then you have the movie that really showcases that whole intensity of trying to get her daughter back. The emotional toll of that story and everything else going around it. Along with well, learning to trust her daughter’s best instincts. In a nutshell, she really develops over the course of the series. Whether it be some parts or insane situations.

Johanna is a literal trooper when you take into account some of the crap she goes through. She is as brave as her daughter, while being genuinely terrified. And usually at the end of the day, she’s just a legitimately good person. Now when I think about that, it’s strangely inspiring.

I think I’ve said enough but I really wanted to write down a very good explanation why this character means the world to me. From a show that also means a lot to me. A show that has made me happy for years, that I just love with I guess all my heart. A show that needs a DVD/Blu Ray release because I fear the day the show gets taken off of Netflix, but that’s a whole other discussion.

So, yeah, that’s my big essay talking about Johanna. Why does this character mean a lot to me. Or why I really like her. I guess I’ll say she shows qualities I like in a woman. But that’s nothing against other characters. And she’s one of those characters you legitimately root for, even if you side with her daughter too. Other folks have talked about her. But it was time I give my own thoughts on her.

Again, I think I’ve said enough, and I’ve made it a very clear essay of why I love this character very much. I hope to all who read this to have a happy and safe Valentine’s Day. :)

#GeekGem Rambles #hilda the series #johanna

[accio-victuuri]

520 and 521 : A Boxiao History 🤍

CPN and all that good stuff related to this celebration for the past few years. If you are not familiar with it, 520 means I love you and it’s considered their Valentines day. 521 on the other hand means “I am willing”. Individuals celebrating 520 and 521 have been known to take the opportunity to express their feelings for their partners or crushes through social media. It’s also prime time for brands to market and release their own 520 promos and limited edition merchandise. This post will cover 2016-2021. Please note that this post is very CPN biased and it’s okay if you don’t believe any of it. Lol.

• 2016

During this time, GG was still filming Superstar Academy in Hangzhou and almost daily you can see fansites posting photos onset. However on 5/18 there were less photos and it seems like GG got off work earlier than usual ( as per resource blogs who posted that day ). DD on the other hand was in Sanya filming the TTXS episode where he was a pilot.

5/19, DD jumps on a flight back to Changsha wearing a pink cap ( and we know what color he associates with love ). GG then surfaces back in Hangzhou to resume filming @ 10:20.

CPN: GG went to Sanya. This is like probably not real at all cause this is 2016! Lol. Unless you believe in Devil Timeline.

Now we arrive at 520. GG posts a series of selfies from filming SA but as you can see there are two that are out of place. He is in a car and then he blurred something at the back. Lol. Of course our CPN brains will think there is someone there, that’s why he blurred it. Who? We don’t know.

DD on 520 was working and had an event with UNIQ ( Changsha ) ; a coincidence, he does a gesture that portrays a rabbit. Interesting.

The next day he left Changsha to go to Seoul, all photos from fansites had him with a pink cap and a completely different outfit from the Weibo selfie he shared. Why are these two sharing photos that are not from the same day? Stock photos? 👀

caption : haven't posted on Weibo for a long time, so please come and find the difference after posting two photos.

• 2017

5/19 GG went to Duyun ( Guizhou ) for filming of Fights Break Sphere and he was wearing a pink top. Do you see a pattern here? Lol. They like Pink. Around this time DD was filming Private Shunshan Academy and there were a lot of on set videos posted.

Now on 520, GG posted a weekly vlog showing his big hotel room with a very nice bathtub. Just watch it. my god he was so wholesome. He even said here that 520 is important and I agree! 🤍🌸

How about DD. He shared a short clip of an Action scene from PSA Drama. That’s all.

• 2018

5/18, they both left CQL filming to go to Beijing for their own work engagements. One flew from Hangzhou ( DD ) and the other from Yiwu ( GG ). DD was wearing the off-white top we are all familiar with ( black for him and white for GG ).

5/19 GG was filming a video for his cooperation with KFC and he said this line :

"Suddenly I regret that you are not by my side, because your figure has been deeply engraved in my mind and cannot be erased."

I mean it’s most likely fanservice thing but considering that he’s been working with DD for the past weeks already and they had to part? Hmmmm. Maybe this means something more to him that time cause he can relate. 👀

Web was @ KFC Live event the same day and then in the evening he flew back to CQL shooting.

5/20, This is the reason why I made this whole post cause I remembered the whole posting about KFC on 520. HAHAHAHAHAHA! It’s so iconic. KFC Couple. 🤍

GG had an event with XNINE for their album in Beijing and he went back to CQL shooting early 5/21.

Look at their respective 520 and 521 posts. It’s the same format of 4 photos. Did GG copy DD this time? Also if you look at the time GG posted, it’s so early. I guess he wanted to post at 520 but then decided to just make it a 521 post as an answer. 🌹

• 2019

This is a popular one, because GG’s 520 post he was wearing a similar top as DD’s. Tho you can argue that this was a popular print at the time and pretty common— but no. It’s the same one from off-white. Same exact style. What we don’t know tho if what GG was wearing was his or not. DD posted with the kadian 23:28 ( love zhan, love bo. ) CQL has not aired yet and most BXGs have not been all FBI on them so there were probably other things going on that we didn’t pick up on. ✌🏼

• 2020

As we all know, GG was not in the public eye during that time so it was DD who was so extra this whole time. DD posted this Douyin where he sent a Love Gun. Which is their thing. 🤍

Now the star of this year was undoubtedly DD’s 521 Ben and Jerry x Nike post. I will just direct you to other people’s post about it and it’s truly a fandom favorite. Yibo had no chill that time.

@ohnobjyx answered this and explained it in one of their asks over here.

@untamedconnotations post on it and more of what was happening and all the speculations. and why BXGs like us should try and keep things in our circle and continue to speak in codes.

@potteresque-ire dives deeper on this date and talks about how this is more than an endorsement and why certain people panicked. This one is very interesting and a must read because I don’t think anyone talked about this.

There were also talk of them being together this day, GG allegedly driving over to where DD was. DD was supposed to have an optional rehearsal but he didn’t go. He also booked two hotels and didn’t who up in either one. So where was he? Probably on Ninja mode with GG. Around this time they already had the resources to hide when they want to. Personally, what stayed with me from that chaotic day was the glimpse of “Have some faith” printed on the clothes. It was such a nice message considering what was going on that time. I felt like it was intentional, it was a message to stay strong. Yes, I have faith and 2 years later I still do. I still have faith that these two will make it through. 🤍

• 2021

@tracer85s explanation of YBO’s 520 post.

and then 5/21 GG posted on Douyin saying have a good weekend. 🎆

This is discussed in detail via the video below.

There were also talks of them hiding posts on 5/19 and then on 5/20 Bazaar posted douyins of them minutes apart. Lol.

AND THAT IS ALL FOR OUR 520/521 CPN Timeline I hope you all enjoyed. Let’s see what happens this 2022. I just hope they are together and get some quality time. Bless Beijing. 🤍

#yizhan #bjyx #timeline #all of this is cpn #there is no science here folks im just clowning like i always do #this is me clowning pls ignore #Youtube

[timeoverload]

I had an episode at work earlier suddenly and I was so angry that I was in tears. Nothing triggered me other than my own thoughts and I thought I was going to snap. I wanted to scream and go crazy but I didn't. I got lost in my head and I was making assumptions about things that I'm not sure are even true. I typed up a long explanation about why I'm upset but I'm not going to post it. I don't want to make anyone mad because that's not my intention. It's not going to make anything better if I do say anything about it so I should be quiet. If you really want to know what I'm thinking, you can ask me yourself directly. I don't to involve anyone else in that conversation.

You also reminded me earlier that some of the best times in my life haven't happened yet.. when will that be..? It has been over 2 and a half years now. You told me santa claus was coming to town but I think he must have gotten lost. You are the only gift I wanted for Christmas so I was sad but I didn't want to make a big deal out of it and ruin your weekend. I'm not trying to blame you for how I feel. I also still want to give you the gift I got you for valentine's day. It's nothing that exciting but I hope you will like it whenever I'm allowed to give it to you.

Thanks for posting stuff on instagram because I appreciate it and it's very sweet. I wish it could substitute actual human interaction but I should be grateful you send me anything at all. Sometimes I feel like I am getting the silent treatment when you don't post on your tumblr for a while. I guess sometimes it seems like you are totally fine without me around but maybe you are good at hiding it. I know you are very busy all the time so you don't have time to sit at the computer like I do.

I hope that someday things will get better between us. I want to clarify that I am not angry with you. I am just having a horrible time trying to deal with this situation. There's so much uncertainty. I also miss you a lot.

Anyway I haven't had the best day. I'm sorry, I don't want to be a pessimist. I've been quiet for most of it and I still don't feel very talkative at the moment.

My eye is bothering me but it's not as bad as yesterday. My glasses still haven't arrived. I probably won't be able to get out of work to go pick them up so I'm not sure when I will get them.

I also can't drive anywhere until the snow melts. I'm stressed about Friday because I won't be able to go to my appointment if the roads still have ice or snow on them. I don't want to have to reschedule but my dad has to work so he won't be able to take me. I'm hoping it won't snow any more so I don't even have to consider that. I need to stop worrying about things I have no control over but it's so hard.

I wish I felt hungry because I really need to eat but I will try to force feed myself in a little bit. I want to be able to enjoy my food instead of feeling like I'm choking. I have been trying to avoid buying food at work to save money. I found out recently that the hospital bought the restaurant that caters our food every day and I'm tired of paying for it. I don't want to give back the money that I earned. It seems like they own everything in this town now and they are very greedy. Profits are more important to them than anything else. I don't want to support them. I will spend $2 on breakfast but that's it. Luckily breakfast has been better. There was a period of time where they would keep reheating the scrambled eggs several days in a row and they smelled and tasted horrible. I only ate them because I was starving at the time and they didn't have anything else. If I buy lunch, it is usually over $8 and it's rarely good anymore. Other people have complained about it so I know it's not just me being a picky eater. I think they send us all of the old leftovers from the restaurant so they can save money. I know I should take my own lunch but I can barely make myself dinner at night as it is. It's cheaper to just skip lunch. I have been drinking boost a lot with my dinner to try to compensate for not eating lunch. I know that's not something I can do forever.

I've given up soda for now but that's because I made myself sick last week. I don't want it anymore. I have switched to sugar free energy drinks and they don't make me feel quite as bad. They have a ton of sodium though so I have been drinking so much water. I can't remember the last time I went an entire day without caffeine and that's sad. I have withdrawals if I don't have any.

I'm sorry for being so grumpy. I am having a bad mental health day but otherwise everything else was ok I guess. I am grateful that I had a peaceful morning where nothing bad happened and there was no one around to throw tantrums. I went in early because the eye coordinator texted me late on Friday night to tell me my ultrasonic washer was broken. I got there and I had no problems using it so I'm not sure what happened but I was relieved I didn't have to scramble to find a temporary replacement. They have one in the basement I could use but I didn't want to haul it upstairs because it's a pain when I have to do that. I also didn't have eye cases this afternoon and there aren't any scheduled for tomorrow afternoon either. I was able to dispatch earlier without too many issues and I wrapped 5 sets of total pans so I got a lot done. I think I lifted too much though because my back hurts and my leg is tingly. I got to leave on time and the department didn't look like a disaster zone so that made me feel good.

I am going to try really hard to be positive. I know I will make it because I always do somehow. I will do my best to put a smile on my face tomorrow even if sucks. I have been rambling for a long time so I'm sorry about that. I still have shit I need to do tonight unfortunately. I need to make some soup soon I think. I'm going to get ready for bed after that. I need to try to sleep more than 4 hours tonight.

Thank you all for listening to me even when I'm a moody mess. Hope you have a wonderful day tomorrow. 💖💖💖

#personal

[emilyrox]

Uhhhh idk pick your favorite Markaplier series.

Gotchu homie :)

In honor of it being Valentine's Day tomorrow, I'm gonna choose A Date With Markiplier!

Favorite Male: Date!Mark. I am making the distinction between him and Actor Mark, as Date!Mark is a different character that Actor plays according to the Meta ending. Date!Mark, while he can sometimes be ignorant or an idiot, does have a lot of funny moments (like taking 50 years to dig a hole with a spoon). He also is my date in this so...bias?

Favorite Female: Kathryn. She appears for 5 seconds during the Meta ending but she's always a delight. Her sassing Actor (or anyone when they're being a dumbass) is always glorious.

Favorite Pairing: If I can include non-canon ships then Darkstache 100%. Unfortunately they aren't (which is a mistake on Mark's part), so assuming I can only include canon ships (ones that appear in the actual show) then Dark x Y/N. Not me specifically. The character Y/N in themselves. Although Dark is threatening in this, they do treat Y/N better than Mark, or at least claims they will. I also recall a post someone made pointing out the difference in the Vanilla and Chocolate endings. In the Vanilla ending (where you shoot Dark), Mark is basically like "Oh man that sucks. Anyway :D." In the Chocolate ending (where you shoot Mark), Dark, disguised as Mark, asks if you're okay, tells you everything will be fine, and is more comforting towards you. That could just be Dark being manipulative, but it's still interesting.

Least Favorite Character: Actor Mark. He shows who he truly is in the Meta ending, and he is nothing but an asshole. Not even an entertaining asshole. Just a big jerk. Some of his lines are funny, but other than that I don't like him. I may also be taking the other series into account but he's just a bad dude.

Who's Most Like Me: Considering Y/N is meant to be whoever the viewer is, and can have whatever personality the viewer has...Y/N I guess lol. Honorary mention to Mad Mike because I too love Ice Cream and would advise parents to not bring their kids as the Ice Cream shop is actually a drug front.

Most Attractive: Dark. There's no contest. Just Dark.

Three More Characters That I Like:

Chef Rexx. He's kinda creepy and tried to kill us at one point but ngl he kinda had a right to. Mark claims he doesn't have his wallet (on our first date?!?!) and can't pay Rexx, and listen retail/restaurant workers barely make enough as it is so I think he had a right to go after Mark. Just wish he didn't go after Y/N too. But later on Mark finds his wallet and I'm like "dude are you serious."

Ethan and Tyler. Including them and all the characters they play throughout this. Their constant running joke of "bonjour" to them getting married in a crappy play to Tyler rooting for Mark during his proposal (that we rejected) to Mad Mike (Ethan) and his totally drug-free ice cream.

Chica. Everyone is legally required to like Chica. She is the goodest girl. The floofiest girl. The most cutest precious girl (that Y/N has apparently been this whole time according to Warfstache?). And she's a doggo. Automatically likeable.

#a date with markiplier #adwm #date mark #kathryn knutsen #darkiplier #y/n adwm #actor mark #mad mike #chef rexx #ethan nestor #tyler scheid #chicaplier #wilford warfstache #asks #ask game #ask away my dudes

[taegularities]

Hello, Rid 💕💕

You dropped so many bombs that there's no way for me not to come and ramble in your inbox again.

First of all, it's honestly a big turn off for me when I see unhealthy jealousy and possessiveness in a story too. I understand that jealousy is a human emotion that you can't help but feel sometimes, but when characters (or real life people for that matter) use that as an excuse to either be unhealthily possessive or a downright asshole, that's when it really becomes too much for me. And this goes for over the top protectivenese as well. I just think there's a right time and place for that and not every problem has to be solved with violence.

That's actually one of the many things I think you do so well in cmi. Like for example in that scene at the club where Seokjin's friend is bothering OC and instead of letting his anger get the best of him, Jungkook considers what would be best for OC 🥺🥺🥺 I think that's so much more admirable than lashing out with no thought. And the way they protect each other by looking out for each other and caring in subtle ways as well. Every time OC defends Jungkook in front of her parents and stands by him too 🥺🥺🥺 That being said, people do need their ass beat sometimes and that's probably when JK's muscles and OC's fierceness come in handy lmao.

Also a Valentines day drabble for my favourite couple??? That sounds so lovely I'm literally 🥺🥺🥺 irl at the thought of that. I have no ideas about what they would get for each other though, I am very much not creative and romantic when it comes to these kinds of things. As you can tell, I share my love through slightly incoherent rants lmao. All I know is that I would love to see them before the angst. And you say cmi7 next week??? I'm even happier that I have free time now. I'll be ready with tissues whenever you're ready to post it, Rid.

And lastly, I don't even know what to say about you mentioning that you're writing another cocky Jungkook. Your Jungkook stories will one day be the death of me, I swear. Looking forward to screaming about that one too one day.

I usually don't really ramble this much irl, but you make me so comfortable and there's so much to say about your stories that I can't help it. Thank you for always listening 💞💞💞

ivi !! lmfao yes, i apologise for the 💣💣💣 they were super random today 🤣

i agreeee. in all honesty, i used to like the drama around jealousy, too, and smut based on it is something i still enjoy if done right hahaha but i've learned, through fics and personal experience, that it's genuinely a nasty feeling. i think it's lovelier when person A comforts person B rather than provoking them (unless they're being playful or have a reason, which we'll see in c&f i guess :')). so i get where you're coming from.

and AHHH yes! that's something i really love about the cmi couple, too... like, jk isn't a very jealous person in general; he prioritises other emotions. and as for oc, we already know how she deals with all that (e.g. through nara), so... ugh yeah i miss them so much <3 (and yes... yes, one day, they will need their muscles/fierceness hehehe)

omg yeeeee, i'm gonna try and write this drabble! it's gonna be a smol thing, but yesh, just another potential day in their lives 💕 and hopefully a sweet treat before the angst.. :') i'm super excited.. happy you are, too 🥺 the cocky jk.... no comment 🤣

ahhh omg ofc !! i'm glad you think of this blog as a safe space to ramble, i always enjoy your messages 💕 thank you for always talking to me as well, ivi 🤍

#notes for rid 🌹 #ivi <3 #fic: colour me in

[lunaxriax]

Evens for Jaehwan.

distract me pls

2: Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them?

No, I don't. And I probably never will.

4: What’s something you really want right now?

A drink.

6: Do you like the beach?

Yes, I do. Go there frequently for walks.

8: What’s the background on your cell?

A sunset.

10: Do you like your phone?

It's decent enough for its purpose, so yeah.

12: Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts?

It was yours, buddy!

14: Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?

Emotional pain.

16: Are you tired?

Always am. I think I was born tired.

18: Are they a relative?

It's in relation to the previous question, but yes that person is a relative.

20: When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with?

That was a while back.

22: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Not entirely sure about that one.

24: Is there a certain quote you live by?

"Whatever the mind of man can conceive and believe, it can achieve."

26: Do you have any tattoos?

Nope.

28: Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?

I don't know?

30: Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch?

I think so. Well it was either a couch or a bed, same thing.

32: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?

Friend is a big word, but I'd say yes.

34: Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?

Yes, although I still don't know why.

36: Were you single on Valentines Day?

Yes.

38: What do your friends call you?

Jaehwan, Jae, Jae Jae and a bunch of other insults

40: Have you ever cried over a text?

Not really. I don't cry easily.

42: What is it from?

I don't really get bruises... perks of being dead, I guess.

44: Who was the last person you were on the phone with?

A friend.

46: Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day?

No, I don't care about bad hair day. Somehow my hair still looks fine on those days.

48: Do you make supper for your family?

Considering I don't live with my family... nope.

50: Top 3 web-pages?

YouTube, Google, Instagram

52: Does anything on your body hurt?

My head.

54: What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?

Coffee.

56: What do you usually do first in the morning?

Go to the gym.

58: Think back to January 2007, were you single?

I'm pretty sure I was since I was... 10 xD

60: When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug?

Oh I don't know about that... I'm not exactly the biggest fan of those things.

62: When will be the next time you text someone?

How about I text you, Drake? xD

64: What were you doing at 8 this morning.

Sobering up.

66: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?

Does my cat count?

68: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?

I haven't slept yet but I had many wild thoughts. Mostly ridiculous drunk thoughts that made no sense at all.

70: How many windows are open on your computer?

One. This one xD

72: What is your ringtone?

Random standard one.

74: Where is your Mum right now?

She's dead.

76: Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?

No.

78: Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7?

Probably on no one. I didn't start having crushes on people until I was well over 20.

80: Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms?

When I was a kid, plenty of times.

82: Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days?

Me, I did. That counts, right?

84: You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with?

Ok first of all, that's not something I would do because it's caveman behavior and I dislike that and if one of my friends would do that I would so smack the shit out of them.

86: What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie?

I... don't go see movies... Too many people. I watch them at home.

88: If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you?

No.

90: Have you ever trusted someone too much?

A few times, unfortunately.

92: Do you get along with girls?

I think so? I mean, I don't really get along with people in general, so...

94: Does sex mean love?

Nope.

96: Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring?

Not that I can recall.

98: Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you?

You shouldn't let your happiness depend on someone else. If you do, your happiness can be taken away in an instant.

100: Who was the last person that you pinky promise?

Probably someone from my childhood, I think.

#officerconners #( jaehwan; replies ) #// Thank you bb! ♡

[jankslide]

My First Date?

Okay so I was talking with Matt, my roommate for those of you who forgot, about when his anniversary was with his girlfriend. And he was saying it was like four days after valentine's day. And I was joking cuz we went to a basketball game together on Valentine's day, so obviously he couldn't do anything with her cuz he committed to hang out with me. I would understand if he was tryna do something else, but it wouldn't been really lame if he bailed. so yeah. I like to think that since they started seeing each other at the end of January this helped to prevent what could have been a precarious valentine's day (too early?) situation. But they're both pretty chill so I doubt that this plan had any effect or bearing on their relationship. Anyways, I'm getting a little side tracked here. So he was telling me about how their anniversary was a little after valentine's day, and I was referring to it as like the first date after valentine's day is when it was. And I guess we got caught up on the miscommunication about the date.

But the point I was trying to get at was like what event like triggered the anniversary to be on a specific day. It's not like a birth where it just happens at a time. There's probably points of fluctuation so it's should be grounded in like an event or whatever. I've never been in a relationship so I have no idea how this would be determined. In my own head, I always imagine it being like the first date you went on probably. Like you retroactively decide the date rather than it being in an event in the present. So you would consider you first date the anniversary, but you don't decide this until like 2-3 months when you feel established as in a relationship or something, again I didn't know. Matt said that was the day he asked Veronica to be his girlfriend. So like that anniversary is grounded in that specific day of asking to be like official I guess. Exclusive one could say. Then that started to make me think about my cousin Jalen. Because I remember when he was telling us a story about when he asked his girlfriend to be his girlfriend. Like that was a thing, an event. So that could probably be when their anniversary is, but I don't know. never have asked.

Here's a quick tangent I need to go on before continuing. In terms of gift giving, unless the person is incredibly materialistic, it really is the thought that counts. Like a gift where they've really put some thought into the gift and come to something that you can really appreciate (whether in actuality or just for the sentiment), that's just really nice to receive. To some degree it's about the gift, but for most people, the sentiment is what matters.

So when I was in eighth grade I had this friend, Maya. We were like in a little friend group, our parents at the least were in somewhat in a friend group. I don't really feel the need to get into relationship dynamics between me, families, and my K-8 in general; this is all to say the point is this. We were like good friends. And I guess Maya liked me because one time she sent me this risky ass text, which in hindsight was basically like a confession of having a crush on me or whatever. I definitely didn't understand what exactly this long text meant at the time or I could have had some sort of willful ignorance to it. Anyways, I was into a different girl at the time and would remain hung up on her and do nothing about it until I graduated. I also never responded to the text, which must have been a fucking awful ass move on my part. I am not going to get self-loathing reminiscing about this whole situation but yeah it was bad. We had a school dance, in which the last song I was dancing with Maya, and I was like shit this the last dance I gotta bounce and try and dance with the girl I was into at the time. That was definitely a dick move to her; I think I was still being oblivious to it, but that was probably a hit to her self-esteem. I also didn't dance with who I had a crush on so doubly stupid.

Okay so at this point I am in high school. I take the train home on my way back from high school. I pass by Maya high school to get there. In hindsight there was a better location to stop for us to meet, but being a stupid kid I didn't really think of this and so she would have to get dropped off to meet at the mall. I really had no sense of distance as a kid. So since we were like better friends in K-8, we still have contact and I guess I kinda bring up the risky text she sent. And yeah so if I think back on this now. My point in this was to fall back on her because I wasn't able to have any relationship. I didn't "talk to girls" in high school; sidenote: here's how autistic I am about that phrase being taken literal. It's not can you like talk to girls just in general; it's talking to girls with a romantic motive. So yeah, I can't talk to girls. So in high school I couldn't talk to girls. So I also struck out when I got peer pressured at a graduation party to ask out my crush. The way I did it was also just horrendous all around: execution, timing, dynamic. So basically I have brought back to my brain girl + old text = Maya? This was kinda lame on my part I can admit. It's like using her as a rebound without the being in a relationship at first myself thing. I'm not saying she was still interested, because looking back it's hard to recall if this was ever established as a date.

So we hung out at the mall together after school. It was around her birthday, but I didn't get her a present prior to meeting up. I'm honestly glad I got to a point where I let texts auto-delete because it's not healthy to have spent the time reliving the past for accuracy. I don't read back on texts for fun; at least, not in a long long while. Time is so finite and I like to try and use it. We ate panda express together at the food court first. I insisted on paying for her food. She was tryna to pay for herself, but I was pretty insistent on me paying. Then we sat down and ate and I was trying to convince her to download a one piece mobile game, also possibly in hopes of her picking up the anime. I don't watch and indulge in anime like I used to. It's more like spurts of binging. Netflix got me fucked introducing this sort of culture. Anyways, she didn't want the app but downloaded it just to amuse me I'm sure. We went looking around at the different shops and I asked her what she wanted for her birthday from hot topic. No thought into my gift because I straight up just had her pick out her own present. Then I don't know. We hung out, when I had to leave we hugged outside and I was running off to try and catch my train.

That night I was texting her and I asked, which present was better her best friend's or her boyfriend's? Yo she put a Full Stop to that. I wonder where I got this idea, but the truth is the lack of experience of ever talking with other people really made me have no idea. I naively thought that from first date to break up is when people are in a relationship (significant others, s/o, bf/gf, gf/gf, bf/bf, whatever). How my understanding has expanding since this moment ninth grade. This is to say I should have known his anniversary was probably just when he asked to be bf/gf. I'm honestly sorry for all the stupid grief I gave to Maya. We didn't talk for a bit after that, but I would see her when our parents would have a get together and stuff. We're cool now. We even live in the same city, thought we've not once hung out. But that's not something I care to much about. We're cool

[trainsinanime]

For the valentines ask meme: 6, 8, 11

From this list

6 What is your most angsty ship?

I'm a bit of an oddball because I almost always prefer fluff over angst. But I love, love, love all the angst and drama between Harrowhark Nonagesimus and Gideon Nav in the The Locked Tomb books. They're full of angst, they keep sacrificing themselves for each other and the other never appreciates it, it's great.

The only thing I don't love about that series is that it starts with "The", so if I'm talking about the series I always have this big question whether I put two "the"s right after each other.

8 Your oldest ship; the one you’ve shipped for the longest time?

I think probably Natsu/Lucy from Fairy Tail, because that's when I was really getting into fandom. Although, to be fair, it's been a couple of years or decades since I last thought about it. I also remember having some strong opinions about Harry Potter ships back in the day, but, you know, stuff happened.

Other than that, my main fandoms growing up used to be Star Trek and to a less extent Star Wars (not as good, but there's more of it), and I never saw these as things where I spent any time thinking about shipping. Yes, these days I am aware that Kirk/Spock and such are things (or Reylo), but back in the days before Tumblr I never really considered them.

So, yes, NaLu, followed closely by Oga/Hildegarde from the sadly forgotten Beelzebub anime and manga. One day I am going to finish that multi-chapter story with them! The tenth anniversary of the last update is coming up, which would be a great date to conclude it, but I'll probably stay true to form and miss it.

11 What is a character you can only imagine in one particular ship?

I think I answered this in the previous ask, and I'm afraid I still don't really have a good answer. I could list a lot of great characters who I don't ship at all, but that's not really helpful. (I keep answering all of these questions in the negative, sorry about that. It's just because I'm boring!)

I guess I'll go with Wednesday/Enid from the Wednesday show this time (both of them), mostly because that's what my queue keeps putting out. Both of them have other love interests in canon, and I don't even necessarily think their relationship would be improved by making it romantic. But their other options are just so uninspired and boring, and the two of them together are a lot of fun. I can see them kissing other people in season 2 (again), but I can't imagine myself caring a lot about that.

[windermeare]

Ciao! 저는 밀라노에 도착했습니다

My story in Milan, part one.

Hello again, everyone. Back with your favorite Valentine guy; me. This time I'll tell you about my little journey in Milan a while ago.

I was there for a business trip, it was obvious. To have a vacation during the busiest months of the year? Couldn't be me. Anyways, I arrived in Milan around a day before PradaSS23 took place, it was the event that I was invited to.

I visited this one restaurant, I actually went there twice because man, Italian food is no joke and that place served the best. I had a great culinary experience during my time there. Plus, that restaurant also offer a very picturesque view of Milan Cathedral. It was so mesmerizing, I couldn't stop taking pictures and I can still remember the details of the view vividly.

Some people might have already known how much I enjoy whiskey and wine. I ordered a white wine at this very same restaurant, and oh boy I didn't expect it to be THAT strong. I read the comments online that some Italian wine could probably stronger than what is usually served in Korea and yeah, I can vouch for that. But still, it was a really, really good wine.

Drinking Italian white wine in a blushing light, I think I did my job well as a tourist.

On the day of PradaSS23 show, I was wearing a jumpsuit and a casual jacket. The original look was rather simple, so I suggested my team that they could probably add a bit more jewelry and they came up with a necklace. Surprise, surprise, the necklace hung around my neck was actually a belt. Yes, a belt! It turned out to be one of my most favorite looks of all time, I owe my team for that (and for everything else).

When they gave me the sunglasses, I tried to put it on my head like a bandana instead of wearing it. I asked my team how did I look like that, and they cheered—their approval meant a lot, maybe I should consider a career in styling later.

Later on, I went to the show with my stylist which also was my most faithful companion during my Milan trip, Mr. Kim! He rode in the car with me. As we were approaching the building where the show took place, I saw a large crowd of people were there in the streets. It was… normal, I guess? Considering the names lining up to sit front row at the show and I am beyond honored to be one.

It was my first fashion show ever, and I felt the loneliness soon as Mr. Kim departed from me. Thank god, I spotted a familiar face—Song Kang-ssi was there! I immediately greeted him and everything. Both of us met Win Metawin soon after and then I was reunited with my team right before the show began; they had to discuss some things with me, and I truly did appreciate the gesture since it was my very first time attending such event.

The show was great, turned out I had enjoyed it more than I imagined I would be. If you asked me which part of it all was my favorite, I wouldn't be able to answer but if you asked me which one is the most memorable… I think it was the moment when I went backstage and met Miuccia Prada herself. Raf Simons was also there, they greeted everyone warmly. I had a good time talking with them, and I also gave them the gifts I have prepared before. I also met some other new people such as Louis Partridge and the Goldblums, they were very kind and I'm glad to made them an acquaintance. Hopefully, we all will see each other again.

The moment I got into the car on the way back to the hotel, I really needed a minute to just sit… and think. Wow, did it all really happen? Everything was so surreal! As I have said before, I was feeling kind of lonely because I usually do things like that with my bandmates but now that I was doing it all alone, I was overwhelmed at first. I miss my bandmates, and I almost didn't know what to do but when I saw my fans in the crowd and it might sound way too cheesy but they washed away my worry and my anxiety. I saw them and I suddenly didn't feel alone at all anymore.

Grazie, Czennies and Valentines.

Anyways, I had a schedule to shoot some video for Prada back at the hotel. It was very fun.

The next day, I visited Prada's boutique in Milan and was greeted by their manager, Signorina Laura whom was very kind to accompany me through and through.

The show, the new friends, and the wine—overall, it was all memorable to me. I think I will remember my adventure for a long time.

My little Milan journey hasn't ended here yet, stay tuned for part #2!

PS: click here to know more about my experince at PradaSS23 show.

#재현 #PradaSS23

[kayliemusing]

50

What name do you go by most often? - Kaylie

Is that your real name or a nickname? - Real name

Has your birthday come yet this year? - Yes, it was back in March

Where is your mom right now? - Upstairs watching Under The Banner of Heaven

What were you doing at 4pm? - I was watching Leon Lush YouTube videos

Are you a good speller? - Yes

Who was the last person to give you a ‘high-five’? - I have no idea. It's been so long. I feel like it was probably someone at work.

Would you consider yourself a shy person? - Yes.

Can you play the guitar? - No, but I wish I could so badly.

Three things you ate today? - Apple pie, hot dog, and liquorice. Very healthy choices.

What did you do last Sunday? - I can't remember that much. I think I went out with my mom maybe to the mall??

How many orange shirts do you own? - I don't think any?? I think I have one that has orange in it but not a true orange shirt.

Are you currently taking any prescription medications? - Just cipralex

Do you like skim milk? - No. I used to drink Almond milk, but now I just kind of avoid milk. If I drink it, it's regular 2% (but I'm lactose-intolerant so I try to avoid it as much as I can lmao)

How did you bring in the New Year? - I don't remember. I think I just went to bed lol

Are you missing anyone right now? - Not overly. I was missing my dad yesterday, but it's not so bad today.

If you could relive one moment in the past week what would it be? - I was super inspired and motivated last night and would definitely love to relive that short lived moment.

If you could spend 30 minutes with someone who is gone, who would you pick? - My dad

Biggest mistake to date? - Letting my cat outside at night back in June a month ago because she got hit by a car so we had to put her down :( Literally will never forgive myself.

Where did you go to grade school at? - Mattie McCullough

Have you ever lived in Tennessee? - No

Idaho? - No

Nebraska? - No

Maryland? - No

Texas? - I'm not American.

Does anyone in your family smoke? - A couple people. Some of my cousins do and my aunt does. I think she quit for a time but I also think she took up the habit again.

How many of the people you live with are over 21? - All 3 of us.

Who do you wish you could talk to right this moment? - I guess my dad? I always wish I could talk to him one more time.

How many clocks are in the room you are in? - Zero, except for the one in my phone.

Do you use MSN messenger? - I used to in middle school.

What time will it be in 6 hours? - It'll be almost 5 am I think.

Have you kissed anyone in the last week? - No

Do you enjoy classic rock? - Depends on the song. Generally not my go-to.

Have you ever been told you looked like someone famous? - In passing, but not as a true comment or compliment. When I was in middle school, sometimes I got people that told me I looked like the lead singer from The Band Perry but that was only because I had blonde hair and my hair was slightly curly/wavy from a fading perm lol. (Truly I don't look anything like her)

Are you anemic? - I was in high school. I think I still am, but I'd have to get tested to see.

At Christmas, do you have a fake or a real tree? - Fake, because my mom always said that real trees are too messy and they get sap and needles everywhere lol. I also think fake trees are prettier because they have less gaps between the branches.

Do you usually go watch fireworks on the 4th of July? - Again, I'm not American. (I also don't usually go on Canada Day because I don't have anyone to go with and I kind of don't care)

Do you remember when the game Oregon Trail was really popular? - No

Does anyone have your heart? - A bunch of random fictional men

What did you do last Valentine’s Day? - I think I worked, but even if I didn't, I was probably at home not doing anything.

Can you count to 20 in any other language? - No. I could at one point but definitely not anymore

How old were you in 2001? - 3

In 1973, how many years was it until you were born - or were you born? - 25 I think?

Have you ever had a crush on someone, and found out they liked your friend? - No

Have you ever been liked by someone you didn’t expect would like you? - I'm not sure? There was a guy in high school that I think liked me but that was never confirmed so I only suspected, but I could've been totally wrong. If he did like me, then yes, and only because we were in separate crowds.

Who ended your last relationship? - I've never been in a relationship

How do you feel about that? - I'll answer according to MY last answer lol. It's low-key embarrassing never having dated or even kissed anyone because it makes me feel like there's something wrong with me OR it makes me feel like OTHERS think there's something wrong with me.

Do Mondays get you down? - Not really. I work in retail so Mondays just mean a slower day which means less crazy or rude people.

How long have you been at your current job? - Almost four years which is INSANE. I don't know how I've lasted this long. I've been saying I want to leave for two and half years but it's not the worst job so I've stuck it out until I have a sense of direction of where I actually want to go. Tbh, just as a vent moment, my job wouldn't be so bad if corporate wasn't so strict and then in turn, we didn't have such high-expecting and can't-be-impressed managers.

Have you ever been fired? - No

How many times have you been pulled over by the cops? - Never! I'm so scared of this so I always drive the speed limit even if my mom is riding shot gun and telling me to stop driving like a grandma.

What is your mood like right now? - I feel really upbeat and content for a change.

Where did you go today? - I went out for a quick grocery stop at Co-Op and then about an hour ago I went out for a small walk with my mom around our neighborhood.

Do you know anyone who is pregnant right now? - Not personally, but what a weird/great question

Do you cut the crusts off your sandwiches? - No

Do you prefer sweet or unsweetened tea? - I don't really drink tea but I love sweet things so probably sweet?

Who did you last embarrass yourself in front of? - Oh my god. I don't even want to relive this but I will for the sake of this survey. I had a zoom interview for an editing mentorship and she sent me the wrong email (which is kind of her fault) so I was worried that I had the time wrong so I joined and she was in the middle of another interview and I was so embarrassed and felt so bad. She was cool about it and took fault, but I'm also very blessed to have social anxiety so I, of course, replayed the moment over and over again in my mind and tortured myself with it for nine or ten hours. Maybe to anyone else it wasn't embarrassing, but I was humiliated and so flustered for my actual interview.

Would you rather meet the president or win $500 dollars from the lottery? - Money please.

What was the reason you last smiled? - Joking around with my mom and sister.

A Little About Your Friends List 8 Good Friends: - My guy, I can tell you right now that I don't have eight friends.

Mom

Jen (Sister)

Megan

Mikaela

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1. Mom

Are you related to this person? - Yes

What did you do the last time you hung out? - We just talked, laughed, the usual.

Would you trust this person to keep a secret? - Yes and no. Yes because she's trustworthy, but I'd also expect her to most likely tell my grandma unless I explicitly asked her not to.

Who is this person dating? - Nobody.

Do you live in the same town? - Yes, and household.

2 Jen

Are you dating this person? - No but she's a catch

Would you consider this person attractive? - Yes

What is this person’s full name? - N/A

Is this person taller than you? - No

Do you go to the same school? - Yes until we graduated.

3 Megan

Is this person engaged? - No.

What color is this person’s hair? - It's like a light brown

Where does this person work? - She's a manager at a movie theatre

When did you last call this person? - We never call each other actually, but we text and for some reason we only text through snapchat???

Have you ever been drunk together? - No

4 Mikaela

What is this person likely doing right now? - Probably going to sleep. It's a tad late.

Does this person have any children? - No

How did you meet this person? - We met at work!

Have you ever had a crush on this person? - No

Where was the last place you went together? - We went out for coffee last week at Dose.

5

What is this person’s middle name?

Does this person like rap music? Has this person ever been arrested? Is this person older than you? When did you last see this person?

6

Have you ever met this person’s parents?. When is this person’s birthday? Is this person still in high school? What color are this person’s eyes? Do you work with this person?

7

Do you and this person share an ex?

Where was the last place you went to eat with this person?

What color is this person’s car? Can this person play the piano? Does this person like scary movies?

8

How long have you known this person?

Does this person have hair past their shoulders? Does this person have any tattoos? Have you ever kissed? Did you go to grade school with this person?

Finish the Sentence

My hair is: Blonde, but a bit greasy lol

I wish I was: already successful in my writing career, and content and happy.

The only thing I can’t stand: - Arrogant people. Literally would yeet them off the planet if I could. There is no way: - That Taylor Alison Swift released "evermore" her ninth studio album and then never spoke of it again. (Seriously never even sang one song live, not even on instagram or a clip on TikTok. Nothing.) Literally cannot believe the audacity.

Someday I am going to: - Sell many, many books that do really well and I go many, many unbelievable places in my career. (I'm manifesting)

I couldn’t live without: My mom (and Taylor Swift)

I hate when: - My job calls me on my day off

I love it when: - I have a day off.

Sometimes I can be: - Fatalistic oops.

I am not interested: - in politics.

#survey