#its just. Ew Whats That LMAO YK WHAT I MEAN i do. i know what i mean. mirrors are evil

[todayisafridaynight]

The bookmark tag was #holder until i think of a tag for these asks but To Be Real even I forgot what it was...

BUT YEAH thanks so much for reading and I'm glad it's :] Intelligible At Least :] obviously I would be up for reading anything that came to mind after putting you and your followers through All That but understandable... A lot of people I've shown the checklist items or pointed out specific behaviors to have actually said similar [i.e. I'm In This Picture And I Don't Like It], so I totally get what you mean, too!

I think a lot of my picks wound up being generalized trauma responses/aftereffects of abuse or neglect [hence I meandered off into just talking about Jo's father half the time], so I guess it's to be expected a lot of them don't read as being CSA-specific or are broadly relatable; it's not like he's supposed to be read that way, after all. I just wasn't able to zero in on many of the more specific ones because I've Never Seen Jo In This Situation Chief I Don't Know What He Thinks About His Name Or His Body Or Mirrors Or Sex Or Affection I Don't Know How Well Or Poorly He Sleeps [Presumably Poorly Though He Has The Second-Reddest Eyes In The Whole Game]

I don't really think I'll have anything to add though unless Infinite Wealth goes off the rails or I actually continue reading the book... so that will have to do... I originally was just riffing on RGGJo's attachment issues, self-destructiveness, and specific entwinement of sexuality/aggression/romance, and his portrayal in my fic lined up pretty closely, so I thought it'd be interesting to apply the same lens to Y7Jo...

But Yeah x2 thank you for the opportunity to talk about it and I'm Glad It's Intelligible At Least x2

THANK YOU i really should change that tag to something better... <- i will immediately forget to do so like a jackass

BUT YA OF COURSE OF COURSE i was truthful when i said it was a real good read (but once again. i have -5 speech skills so i can't properly word SHIT) and was a thorough examination of jo's trauma and how it manifests in him and how it's exhibited through his actions. ALWAYS a big fan of that :)

#snap chats #IN REGARDS TO Jo In Situations that is. VAGUELY my specialty #ive at least thought of jo's attitudes towards affection/relationships #and i Do Not Think he sleeps AS adequately as he should whether it's due to just. Overworking or #If I May Dare To Think he might be prone to night terrors #the Danger Zone of me thinking of Jo In Situations that dont have a lot of background is that i end up projecting a LOT of my issues LMAO #i dont know what it says about me when a lot of those issues seem to fit him #i do try my best NOT to over project of course i try to keep everyone relatively in the bounds of believability to their charas #which is why its funny when i do end up doin a lil projection it works out. Apparently #not sure i could do the same when it comes to jo's POV on his name and body tho. i hate those things bout myself for uh #VERY different reasons LMAOO tho i could imagine jo harboring some feelings of. hm. whats the word. #not Total Disgust But Some and Some Agitation whenever he has to acknowledge he exists outside of being a tool. To Put It Bluntly #cause we know he sees himself as a tool in some aspects- a bullet more specifically. so i can imagine instances where he has to Be A Human #its just. Ew Whats That LMAO YK WHAT I MEAN i do. i know what i mean. mirrors are evil #SORRY IM RAMBLING i shouldnt be.. i got gameritis <- i fucked up my wrists playing sonic riders somehow and it hurts to move #point is i very much enjoy thinking of jo and i enjoy looking at him through a multitude of lenses so AGAIN #thank you much for writing in :] im sorry i have three jewel beetles and a cicada shell for a brain #i am always interested in reading what you have to say tho... cant stress that enough.. #truly curious for how jo will be in infinite wealth now that he Doesnt have to be a bullet anymore. what are you like my guy.. lemme see.. #now pardon me while i fuck up my wrists more. i do not want to do my job today (i will soon im just delaying the inevitable. as a treat)

[kenlvry]

LISTEN TO ME RN HEAT ME TF OUT STANS GANG + CRAIG DOIGN THE LIPSTICK TREND FROM TICTOK WITH READER

the lipstick trend with stan and craigs team

an, I AM LISTENLING ANON DONT WORRY. no idea what you mean by heat out though 🤨 , 17-18 and gn reader but use of her in tolkiens

kenny

he was the one who suggested it, it came across his fyp one day and he sent it to you "lets do this come over rn." "you asked, why dont you come to my house? 🤨" "why don't i cum in your mom" "HUH 😧" "im here."

you both definitely argue on what lipstick you should wear "okay but i don't even use pink lipstick" "well you should" "its light colour its not gonna appear" "well fuck 😒"

the process of kissing his face is wild, he would suggest to do his lips as the first place "KENNY HOW ARE WE GONNA DO THIS TREND IF YOU KEEP TRYING TO MAKE OUT WITH ME" "ITS NOT MY FAULT"

after like2 hours you finally get the lipstick on his face. now the tiktok was even harder he wouldn't stop laughing. you'd give up and he apologises while laughing

thank god you guys were able to finish it under 1 hour it turned out really good, at the end of the video he kissed you and you wanted to cut that part but he said keep it for like and its true the comments were all about the kiss on the last clip

kyle

okay he too wanted to ask you first but he was kinda shy and waited for you to ask and you did!! woohoo for kyle

"kyle wanna do this" "OKAY" he insists on picking your lipstick and picks the ugliest colour like what 😐

to him there was no such thing as an ugly colour buy it didn't suit your face so no way.

the process of it was calm, he at first wanted to put on the lipstick for you but you looked like a clown has mans never put on lipstick??

he watches you as you kiss him and reapply lipstick and then kiss him again, he feels like a princess fr 🤭🤭

he hasn't seen his face yet so when you record and he saw his face he laughs out loud, "LMAO WHY DO I LIKE THAT??" "WDYM"

you would tell him to take off his hat which he refuses but you looked too cute, when it posted cartman was first to comment and you can already tell what he commented "ew gay" your followers defended you two though 🤭

stan

stan blushes internally when you ask him. "sure im down" DEEP DOWN HE WANTS KIDNAP YOY AND KEEP YOU TO HIMSELF

"what lipstick do you think matches me best, pink or red?" "id say my tip colour" "WHAT 😧"

he has to hold in the very urge to puke every time you kiss him because like you look so cute omg.

he looks in the mirror and is js like "damn, i did it". HE LOVES IT SOOOO MUCH YOU CAN TELL HE'S BLUSHING ONGG ‼️

he even directs you like "do here next, okay now here" its so cute 🤭🤭

when you record and the camera pans to him, he smiles and covers his face blushing bc he can't contain it. it was such a cute video and got iver 2 mil likes. cartman definitely commented "i bet you had to change your clothes 10 times"

cartman

"cartman lets do this" "what." "wdym? cmon its cute" "y/n no offense but that is the most gayest shit i've ever seen" " NO ITS NOT UTS CUTE" "my reputation is at stake if i do that be so for real" "okay I'm asking kyle then" "lets do it."

he actually been wanting to ask you for weeks now but doesn't know how so winwin. you take your absolute time picking your lipstick and he couldn't be more done with "hurry up this doesn't even effect anything" "shut up cartman if i use the right one people will ask what lipstick it is and i get views"

picking a lipstick was already a big deal just imagine the process "ew gay not on my lips" "cartman 😐" tbh he wish he could just make out with you rn but yk how mans is

now recording is even more a hassle "JUST SMILE IS IT SO HARD TO CRACK A SMILE" "NOT WHILE IM LOOKING LIKE THIS" the most he does is wipes your lipstick off and then he just gives a 🙄 look until the end of the video

the comments are just him getting teased at clydes commenting "NAHHH CAN'T BELIEVE HE AGREED TO THIS" kyles is "i can tell that this took a long time" and then wendys is "is that cartman or a clone of him". cartman is pissed af at the comment, he told you his reputation is at stake 😒.

he actually has it saved downloaded and also is his live wallpaper sooo.

butters

butters is the one who asked you this " um y/n can we do this? 😣" while twiddling his fingers, "OKAY"

he's all giddy and smily during the process, after every kiss his blushes intensifies and by the end of it he is just.. 🔴

even though it is the most simplest video ever he has to have a tutorial, he is asking questions for everything man, how do i wipe the lipstick, what do i do, do i smile when its on me , do i laugh??

you tell him what he thinks he should he and he starts kissing you bc rn the sexual tension between you two is intense (to him atleast, he thinks thinks hand holding is already intense)

everyone comments on how cute he is and yk how tiktok is so people comment "does he whimper" "submissive who?" and hes likw WHATTTTT 🧍

clyde

when you suggested this he nodded so hard his head probably was about to fall off. "clyde you wanna do this" "DO I???" ..... "well.. do you?" "i mean yeah it's like a way of- yes i wanna do it"

he loves any lipstick you wear so he lets you pick. after every kiss he looks in the mirror and kicks his feet giggling and you just stand there 🤨

he also tries to make it a makeout session like kenny, when you kissed on his lips he holds your neck and literally makes out with like cnon we have 9 more

when you first hit record and yk how the guy has to wipe your lipstick off, nah he grabbed you by the chin and slams his lips with yours "WHY DIS YOU DO THAT??" "its called content,you wouldn't know with your 9 likes and 70 views"

well you kept the clip and everyone in the comments were talking about it "need a boyfriend like you y/n" "why can't my boyfriend be like this" clyde is obviously gloating bc he had the idea.

tolkien

most romantic man you know, is the first to ask you. "y/n can we do this?" "OKAY BOO 😝"

"hmm which lipstick do you think babe?" "i think every lipstick makes you pretty, it doesn't matter if it doesn't suit you because in my eyes you look beautiful in anything ☺️" "what if i wore kim kardashians 2013 met gala dress" "might have to rethink what i said"

he smiles while you kiss him here and there, every once a while he kisses you back, it was such a cute moment for you two😝🤞🤞

when recording he looks at you while smiling during the whole video and it blew up fast because of that

"the way he looks at her" "wishing he was like this" "you got the bag that man is inlove", it blew in seconds fr

craig

"craig lets do-" "okay" "i didnt even ask you yet" "I'll do anything if its with you" "what if i asked you to have a threesome" ".....if its makes you happy idk.."

idk about you but i think he acts like he doesn't care but inside he is so happy you asked he's been wanting to ask you this but doesn't know how to start up the convo

he doesn't care what lipstick or where you kiss him, its just the way you press your lips on him and look at it then quickly reapply to do it again because it wasn't pigmented enough.

when recorded, he doesn't just wipe he makes you turn to face him by grabbing your chin, and he doesn't let go and just looks at you with those yk siren eyes.

people are simping over him ong "damn girlie share for us" "you mean OUR boyfriend" "tryna find someone as hot as him" and you are pissed fr he laughs at you cursing out the people, like bae dw my eyes only fo you 😝🤞

tweek

"tweek, wanna do this?" "but what if I can't remove the lipstick stain" "tweek what dw i have makeup remover" "WHAT IF THAT DOESN'T WORK 🤯🤯" "TWEEK"

okay so the lipstick may turn out ugly bc of how shaky he is but ITS OKAY BC ITS TWEEK DUH, "a-are you sure you dont want to redo this?" "tweek its fine"

he insists on redoing it the 2nd try turns our worse because he's even more twitchy because of how close you are☺️☺️☺️

his face is just red because he keeps wiping it off with his hands so you can redo it and its obvious too

recording it was so funny because you can't stop laughing at the smudge lipsticks

when posted the comments were so cute but... uh questionable some were "the way the smudges are so obvious 😭😭❤️" or "wishing my future relationship will be like this 🤭" and some were just "tip colour when?? 😜"

#south park #south park x y/n #south park x you #kenny mccormick #kenny mccormick x reader #south park x reader #kyle broflovski #kyle broflovski x reader #stan marsh x reader #stan marsh #eric cartman x reader #eric cartman #butters stotch #butters stotch x reader #clyde donovan x reader #clyde donovan #craig tucker x reader #craig tucker #tolkien black #tolkien x reader #tweek tweak #tweek x reader

[captainfern]

fern rant below lol

yk one thing i have noticed both on tiktok, here and the rest of the internet is the “pornification” of media

by that i mean the standards people are being held to in regards of sexual attraction or just “beauty standards in general” and how there is this sudden increase of ideals and values built on the foundation of toxic pornography

i mean there are several examples, but the most common ideals you see typically relate to someone’s body and someone’s body hair and i have a bit to say on the matter, especially as someone who creates “pornographic” content

let’s talk body first

you are beautiful. it does not matter whether the internet perceives you as anything more or less than that. you are beautiful exactly the way you are

the pornification of modern media will tell you that you have to look a certain way. you will be told you can’t be plus-size, or you can’t be too skinny, or you can’t be tall, or you can’t lack curves, or you can’t have hyperpigmentation, etc. don’t listen to that bullshit

you are beautiful and i luv you

i don’t want to see negative body image portrayed in fanfic: x reader’s can be plus-size, they can be tall, they can have no curves. they are x reader for a reason !!! the reader should be described as little as possible !!!

and in saying that, yeah, your favourite fictional characters would fuck a bigger person. they’d fuck a taller person. they’d love you for you and be completely and utterly obsessed with you. “but actually— 🤓☝️” shut up please <3

now body hair

its natural !!! it grows !!!

if you don’t wanna shave, don’t shave. if you wanna shave, shave. baby it’s your choice. do what YOU want. don’t let anybody else influence you and your body

the pornification of modern media has really fucked this kind of thinking up because people (a lot of men unfortunately) think they can dictate the way people / women present themselves ??? gtfo what lmao

“body hair is nasty, body hair is unnatural, body hair is unhygienic”— honey please don’t. it’s not any of these things. body hair is completely ok (and so is not wanting it on you ofc— as long as it’s your decision, not the persuasion of anyone else)

i saw a tiktok of these guys being like “oh i’d never have sex with someone who didn’t shave” and “ew i’d never eat hairy puss” brother you literally suck (it’s ok to have preference, but don’t make it out to be vile or weird or something other people have to agree with)

it’s natural. it’s normal. it’s perfectly hygienic if you keep it that way. if you meet someone like the guys i mentioned above, they ain’t worth your time

and yeah, john price and simon riley and johnny mactavish and kyle garrick would fuck you and eat you out if you didn’t shave cause they’re MEN

love yourself because you’re beautiful and i’m telling you so right now !!!

i felt the need to say this as i write pornography. i write x readers. i try to keep everything regarding body as neutral as possible (and if i ever fuck up, please let me know !!)

i often write about “fat” or “flesh” in my writing but that’s because i don’t see a lot of fics with it. if you want something different, specify in a request and i will write your request more to your liking <3 i want everyone to feel accepted and welcome here because it’s important !!!

on that note, you won’t catch me writing about “bare pussy” or “hairless legs” or whatever. i try to keep it all up to your imagination !!! (you will find hairy men tho !!! the lads i write for will always be hairy but that’s cause i’m a whore)

anyway i luv you and you are so so so beautiful and i hope you have an amazing day / night wherever you may be

this post is not an attack or anything of the sort. i’m just speaking my mind :)

lots of luv <3

#captainfern #fern talks about societal issues for some reason when she probably should be writing about john price or something

[mondaymelon]

MELONEMOENLONEMLONEMealon = meal on me = need to pee

12 24 42 44 50 FOR THE ASSK GAME‼️😨😋🤭

im just gonna casually ignore whatever you said in that first sentence and !! carry on !!!

silly ask game!!!!

12. what kind of day is it?

right now... honestly. not bad? its a friday which means i dont have to be silly wake up tomorrow and then immediately fall back asleep while my alarms are still blaring teehee <33 i did smth silly today and got extra credit in one of my classes for a "pRoblEm evEN SeNiorS woUlDnT bE AblE to SOlve."

literally just calculating bmr for a certain dude whos blabalbla without a calculator and my teacher said i was the most accurate answer of the day ( little does he know that those mere words have increased my self worth by a whopping two cookies )

24. if we were together on a rooftop, what would be doing?

i mean it dependsss... are we trespassing? is it like those highschools in shojo manga where there's like a open air little romantic space where the leads take a break from the world?? am i hanging over the railings trying to catch a pigeon so i can roast it and are you screaming or dead silent or dying ?? who knows lmao

42. an app you frequently use besides this godforsaken site?

...w-wattpad.... i swear ive drained every fandom dry of its good fanfic the amount of 10 and 11 year olds on the platform writing x readers is something else. although i mean i cant really complain on them because there are like... fanfic drafts from six years ago for characters from bhna just rotting in my school google drive... 😭😭 i actually get so much whiplash from the content on there because i swear the ff are either "ew what the fuck," "no thank you," "holy shit that is horrendous do you not know what punctuation is?" or "goddamn holy fucking shit for the love of everything that is good holy and true that was the most beautiful thing i have ever witnessed in my life and i will now proceed to read its thirty hours of content with all the will to live i have left in me" there is no inbetween. ( im getting so desperate for good ff too. like please does anyone have wattpad jjk recs... preferably m or gn reader.. ive literally taken the jjk wattpad fandom and wrung it dry of all content istg )

( jokes aside do i have the tism because both my best friend and my brother have commented on it and i am. trembling in my boots. 😨)

44. you get a free pass to kill anyone, who is it?

myself

hrrmmm now we got to t h i n k here we have to use this pass wisely we have to be sm ar t. about this. this is not an everyday opportunity. like it depends on the specifics yk, if i kill elon musk and loot his corpse of his riches will the government condemn me for it or can i just live like a king on the top floor of my mansion skyscraper at midnight tastefully sipping a fine glass of red wine ( legallly i cannot but as a rich person i can ) as the lights of the city sparkle below?

50. can i tag you in random stuff?

you better. ( threat. )

#★ ˎˊ˗ melonrambles! #★ ˎˊ˗ inbox. #⋆˙⟡♡ᝰ.ᐟ - lily (i am in your floorboards. if you hear knocking dont mind it i tend to gnaw on the wood when im hungry teehee)!!

[stillbreathing-aer]

im just gonna spam rq:

tasm and me freaking out about peter parker

yk normally notes would get this but since im here, tumblr will be subjected to my movie rants :)

this is literally just me commenting on the movie, like the whole movie, unless i stop randomly, unlikely, but could happen

the eyes. just LOOK AT HIS EYES YOU GUYS. SO PRECIOUS GKKDKCKKD

bye fangirling over another golden boy. golden retriever boy. kfkkdkdk

gone

this is a problem, how am i meant to function in society

BIEOKFK HES SO CUTE AND AWKWARD AND I JUST WANNA HUG HIM SO BAD

ckekd

save me

HE IS SUCH A SWEETHEART AND I AM DYING

ckdfkfdkkdkckdkskdk CUTIES

WHY DIDNT I WATCH THIS BEFORE

AWWWWWWWWWWW CKDKFKDKDK HES SKIPPING AWAY HOWICKEKKSKS

nah dude this is it for me, she says after saying that about the last three fictional golden boys

gone

THE HOLOS REMIND ME OF TONY man i miss that guy

goddammit pete- may :[

cksskdkk

oh shit- oh poor baby- no-

aw shit dude-

istfg ben better NOT fucking die trying to find peter

oop bad guy incoming

oh nvm

NO

ben

no

STOP

MF KILL THAT MAN

STFU

THAT BASTARD KILLED BEN

IM DONE FUCK THIS

YO WTF

NAH THATS NOT COOL NOT COOL AT ALL DUDE

WHAT THE BALLS MAN

i hope that man dies

AND THE LADT THING PETE SAID TO HIM, WAS WHEN THEY FOUGHT???? GONE DONE DEAD

YOU BETTER GET HIS ASS PETE

NO STOP THE VOICEMAIL-

i am so done w these GOOD FATHER FIGURES dying.

THIS I

oh my

pete lets uh

calm ourselves yeah?-

w no poor Akfkeifieekkwwkwkkwkwkwkekdkekekwkwk the h

THE HUG

GONE

IM GONNA CRY

TEARING UP CURRENTLY

that is so upsetting

EW GET YOUR GRUBBY ASS HANDS OFF OF Her

oh

uh

hm 🤭

oh shit

hes tonna drop him

oh

he got dropped nvm

HEHEHEHE THE MASK

thats so funny

hehehehehehe slay peter slay

SLAY GHE WEBS

oh shit he gonna jump

oh nvm hes just showing off his awesome handstand

like literally just one hand

🧍

what

PETER??

MASK???????

PETER??????????

look at him, little crime fighter

go white boy go

god

damn

how

hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehhehe SLAY PETER SLAY.

LOOK AT HIM GO

so proud

hehe

DAYUM PETE SLAY LOOK AT YOU LITTLE FASHION DESIGNER

YOU GO KING

LOL

a cop? in

yeah what he said

hes so funny

HA HES SO FUNNY

ive seen this behind the scenes its so funny w/o the webs there

LOL ITS PRETTY FUNNY BRO

aw how kind of him to give him breathing holes

oh no hes getting cocky 🧍

thats never good 🧍

wow nice going pete-

what a little weirdo /pos

may has to know

oh jeez pete your memory its failing you buddy

aw pete-

aw may- ;-;

peter- :/

lizard incoming 🫢🫢

yo are you stalking him?

rude

i love having trouble processing audio w/o captions

aw gwen :']

shes so sweet

i love her

AWWWWWW SHES ASKING HIM OUT BJDKKFFKDK

gone i love them

ayo lizard time?

PETER PARKER YOU FUCKING HEARTTHROB

GWEN STACY YOU ADORABLE SWEETHEART

AWWWWWWWWWWWWW THEYRE SO CUT EMCKDKVKKRKDKDK

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAH HER DAD IS THE CHIEF HAHSHAHSAHHSHAHSHAH

hi mr i dont know your name scientist man

why is your arm so slimy

🧍

oop

he do be transforming though

hehehehehehehehe cuties

wow what a large family you guys have

very cooool and probably insufferable

pete 🧍

oh lord pete

pete read the room??

peter??

peter????

peter??????

DONT YOU LIKE GWEN BUD???

MAYBE DONT MAKE BEEF WITH HER DAD???????

OR MAKE YOUR BIAS ON PETERMA- SPIDERPARKE- I MEAN UNNAMED SUPER DUDE

AW THEYRE CUTE

fkdkdkkddkdkdkdkdkk

KISS??????????????

kfdkkdkskkkdkfkk

they are so cute

im so gone

fkdkkfkdkvkvofkdksofkekkdkfkssksm

LMAO DONT JUMP THAT WOULD BE TRAUMATIC

AGO EMJFKDKFDKKFKDKCKDKDKSWKDKKFKDKEKEKFKDKKDKDKDKDK AYOOOOO PETER PRKER YOU SMOOTH MAN

cldkfkdkkvdkkf

gone

gone done

goen

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

UTIES

cuties

gone

pete dont jump 💀

oh jesus

ahh lizard man is on the loose 💃

wait did he even try the oher door????

MY MANS WAS JUST WEARING IT UNDER ALL THAT????

oh wow

he is gonna be forever traumatized by bridges from now in

NO THE POOR KID GIDKFK

AW PETE-

GONE GONNA CRY

AW PETER MAN I LOVE YOU

AW PETER

aw shit dude

FKDKFKEKDKEKEKEKEKWKE

AW SHIT

OKAY FUCKING GOOD BRO

IF THAT KID FELL I WOULDVE FUCKING BOUNCED BRO NO MORE FOR ME

thank god

HES SPIDERMAN.

HE IS SPIDERMAN.

poor lizard man (?)

this city stans spiderman

SHE KNOWS

MAY KNOWS

they are adorable

look at his goofy little smile

THEIR EYES. THEIR EYES VKSKGFSK

what a dumbass

sorry, dumbasses, plural

sorry, cutest dumbasses

damn scientist man you look like a mess

scientist man and peter man you both arent being very subtle about this

otto in the ps4 spiderman game gives lizard scientist man energy

dr curt connors?

now i know your name funky scientist man

lil lizard boys

oh funky lil lizard boys i see

damn connors youve become a crazy basement man

🧍

all that video for nothing

hehe the web is so cool

oh man thats so sick

the vibrations from the webs

thats awesome

oop youre being surrounded peter man

oh

how

WEIRD ASS TAIL OKAY

EW THE CLAWS EXTENDED FURTHER???? THAT WAS GROSS

man well i hated that

i

pete

you

really just left your name on the camera like that

damn pete-

aw gwen fkdk-

hehehehe so cute

i love you gwen stacy

wow those are really bad pete

TH EYES

the eyes

gone

ckdkfkdkdk

ckdkdkdkcdk

gkdkfkdkgkskkckdkd

they are

so fucking cute

im

gnna

spontaneously combust

as msuch as i think that you should sleep over bud may is gonna be pissed

oh but they are so cute :[

jfdjdjdjj

they are adorable

aw pete-

i love you gwen stacy and peter parker

god they are SO CUTE

im gonna stop living /j

youre losing it connors

welp

good luck peter man

THE BATHROOM?????

jesus connors

welp

i

did he really just mKe a bomb

WOOOOOOOOO I LOVE THAT SUIT

i feel like the peter in the ps4 game is a lot like andrews peter

and i am here for it

ew that regen on the tail was gross as

GWEN??????

GIRLY????

oh shit slay pete

god they are so cute it is almost insufferable

STAN LEEEESEEEEE I MISS YOU KING

pete buddy wheres your mask

oh

its in your hamd thats my bad

aw shit yeah those poor kids- theyre all traumatized

oh i hope this doesnt become one of those scenarios where the sweetheart becomes a cocky bastard :/

it better not ill be so sad

i doubt it will cause peter is the super boy so narratively that cannot be allowed to be permanent :D

so if he does, he'll redeem himself hopefully

i

connors is that a lab coat?

damn well theyre all dead now

unfortunate

oh

not dead

just

welp

thats unfortunate

.....

welp

lmao those people in the bg just staring at him on the call

gwen you cant die yet

i know you dont die yet

thats

yeah

that sucks

cmon peter get up

come on peter wake up???????

I DONT LIKE THIS PETER WAKE UP

oh

nah its fine

aw shit pete

so many people know his face by now and i love it

that one post where its like an unspoken rule that even if youve seen spidermans face you cant reveal it is amazing

oh 🧍

i thought he was gonna

ingeresting

peter how mang days has it been since youve seen may

AWWWWWWWWW PEOPLE HELPING HIM IS THE SWEETEST THING IVE EVER SEEN

STOP THATS SO NICE

AW NO POOR PETE GISKFKDKDK

BYE IM GONNA CRY THATS SO NICE

GKSGJDJVKSKKVKDKF STOP WHAT

SHUT UP IM GONNA CRY

anyways

FISKGKDJFJN SLAY

GONE IM SO HAPPY

NO IF HE DIES I WILL CRY.

yes slay pete saved the day BUT IF GWENS DAD DIES I WILL FIGHT SOMEONE

sorry lizard man connors

IM GONNA FIGHT SOMEONE

NAH BRO

GONE

what in the hell

damn welp

bring him back this isnt funny

i hate this place

thats fucked man

anyways i got distracted

ben i miss you

ayo spidercave??

STOP DID HE JUST SYA THAT PETERS HIS HERO

stop that was cute w flash

anyways, thanks for coming to my ted talk that is being posted on tumblr cause i cant copy/paste the whole thing :)

#woah aer talks? #and woah aer couldnt transfer this all to notes so thats their bad? #aer's movie rant #tasm #andrew garfield #emma stone #peter parker #gwen stacy #i dont even know why im putting the tags cause i dont want anyone to perceive this #k bye thanks love you

[justdaphne]

Reading rule of wolves was basically like:

- this is literally the first chapter wtf

- I feel so bad for Nina

- HELLO NIKOLAI

- are they seriously considering attempting that obisbaya again

- I have mixed feelings about ehri

- the prince of fjerda. Cool.

- TAMAR KNOWS WHATS UP

- thank the saints for you nina zenik

- more of that prince

- oh?

- he’s questionable

- oh yea I forgot he was back

- HANNE I LOVE YOU

- NINA NINA NINA NINA NINA

- PLS WTF- DUDE ALINA JUST HATES YOU ACCEPT THE FACT

- a wedding I see. But not with zoya? Aw :(

- ALINA STARKOV

- yea should’ve known.

- AWWW GENYA DAVID WEDDING✨✨✨

- SHIT

- SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT

- I don’t get it

- BYE I CANNOT TODAY I HATE THIS SM

- MY POOR GENYAAA

- THE NOTEBOOK. THE- BYE

- why does he even have a pov

- ooo is nikolai jealous

- AWWWWWWWWW

- “her son’s health is failing”

- ew.

- HIS FATHER?

- you and I are gonna change the world

- KETTERDAM? ARE THEY GONNA MEET THE CROWS

- zoya complaining about ketterdam is hilarious

- KAZ BREKKER KAZ BREKKER KAZ BREKKER KAZ BREKKER KAZ BREKKER

- no coz like they must be so confused. The boy is literally 18 lmaoo

- “INEJ? LOML? THE ONE I’D CRAWL TO? nope never heard of her” yes stfu kaz

- JESPER WYLAN JESPER WYLAN

- ITS FOR INEJJJJ

- *small heist-ish in session*

- OMG OMG OMG ZOYA. SULI.

- nikolai and Kaz -> falling for badass suli women

- ZOYA BACKSTORY

- HANNE X NINA

- SO IT WAS THAT LITTLE SHIT THAT KILLED MATTHIAS

- I’m about to get emotional

- ZOYALAI ZOYALAI ZOYALAI

- ISTG IS NIKOLAI BEING REJECTED, AGAIN? Understandable. But still hurts

- OMG PLS DO NOT GET CAUGHT

- OMG HER BROTHER.

- YES TAKE HER CROWN AWAY

- ew

- :( nikolai :(

- yo he has a sister?

- ZOYA NAZYALENSKY.

- lmao the fjerdans

- OMG ZOYA AND NINA

- OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD SHE TURNED INTO A DRAGON

- I AM THE MONSTER AND THE MONSTER IS ME.

- did the darkling literally call zoya sankta am I missing something here

- YES YES

- YES SANKTA

- SANKTA

- ZOYALAIII AT ITS FINEST

- THAT DID NOT JUST HAPPEN.

- LEIGH.

- NINA SUFFERED ENOUGH

- HE- HE

- IM SO HAPPY

- MOYA TSARITSA

- OMG. THEY FINALLY KISSED

- hah I knew it

- wait so that means- NINA HAS THE POTENTIAL TO BECOME QUEEN OF FJERDA

- yk all y’all darkling stans are now stanning a literal tree

- O M G

- ALL HAIL THE DRAGON QUEEN

- INEJ. GHAFA.

- you did not just leave it like that ms leigh Bardugo.

- I need six of crows 3 right now.

#grishaverse #leigh bardugo #rule of wolves #ketterdam #ravka #nikolai x zoya #nikolai lanstov #zoya the dragon queen of ravka #zoya x genya #zoya nazyanelsky #kaz brekker #inej ghafa #jesper fahey #wylan van eck #alina starkov #mal oretsev #the grisha series #shadow fold

[astrochemstry]

Sincerely three as best friends

Bcs i wished they became best friends and nothing bad in the musical happened :’)) also bcs DEH brain rot ghsahg im srry Connor seems so ooc here I don't know how to write him help

oK so they Evan and Connor met bcs of Jared since i said so jk but like

Lets just say Connor was a scout as a kid, his mom let him be a scout since she hoped it would- maybe, help control the anger issues and such

So ofc Jared is a scout too bcs its Jared

And they met and got grouped together

So uhh Jared and Connor didnt really like each other at first

I mean Jared was scared of him so he stayed away

Correction, tried to

But they always get grouped together

And bcs its Jared he can say some pretty hurtful things

“Oh come on those twigs arent even tied tight enough, did you even pay attention??”

“Thats big talk for a guy that’s just standing there”

I think Jared almost pissed himself bcs of how aggressive that sounded but lets not talk about that

For now

Anyways

Skip to whatever highschool or senior highschool i don't know how schools work im sorry

So Evan and Jared are walkin around the hall

Lets say theyre talkin abt whatever and then bAM

“Yeah this girl really likes me and- oh my fucking god”

Evan is confused bcs what ????

Then he looks at where hes looking and

coNNor mURPHy FOLKS CLAP YOUR HANDS

“Uhh i think i forgot to- uh forgot to go and get a hallway pass and uh and ill just go” Jared gets all nervous and now understands how Evan feels

“Holy shit Evan is this how you feel with Zoe? All sweaty and wet-” “just- just shut up. shut up.”

Theyre both cowards so they try to run away but then boom Connor Murphy is right in front of them

Jared almost pissing himself #2

“Evan Hansen, right?” “Oh-  ah, me? Oh yes thats right thats me, Evan. Hansen Evan, Evan Hansen.” *insert Jared taking off his glasses, cleaning it and putting it back on- proceeds to squint his eyes at Evan*

“Nobody signed your cast.” “No shit Sherlock.” *Insert Evan nudging Jared and glaring at him and Jared thinking he fucked up*

But Connor doesnt give a fuck and only glares at him bcs hes more interested in the blondes- i mean cough bcs its Jared

Then swoOP he signs his cast, “There, now we can both pretend we have friends”

Jared coughing, “Ahem???” Evan raising an eyebrow, “I thought we’re just family friends?”

hey Evan got some sass too guys

Anyways bcs idk how they became friends bcs idk Jared tells Evan about how he met him at the scout camp and then for some reason Evan has this sudden burst of confidence where he decided to talk to Connor but fails miserably but Connor notices and then he talks to them and then what Evan says in For Forever turns true and-

Anyways

THEY BECOME BESTIES YAY

JARED PRANKS EVERYDAY

ok maybe not everyday but yk

Jared puts alarms for 3am and it starts again after every 5 minutes and the only way they can turn it off is to say “Jared Kleinman, the insanely cool Jared Kleinman”

Jared eating a bathbomb infront of Evan and Connor

Both very concerned  about it but Connor says, “thats fake isnt it? Its not an actual bathbomb. right?”

But Jared tells them yes but thats the prank

It is a bathbomb

Evan constantly talking about trees and taking them to the park he became vice park ranger or whatever u call it idk

Jared: “You worked here??”

Evan: “yup”

Jared: “and thats the tree you fell from?”

LETS PRETEND HE ACTUALLY FELL BCS ITS AN ACCIDENT AND I COUGHGJHFGJH

Connor: “thats high.”

Jared: “not as high as you, bestie”

And he means Connor’s height… and bcs he was high at that time

Also Jared calls them bestie to annoy them but now its like a thing for them three

Theyre not really annoyed they jsut like how it sounds so they do it too

Connor does it sometimes tho, he always calls them by their Last name

Instead of first names being the factor of being close friends, Connor calling you by your last name is basically him saying “youre not so bad” or youre a close friend to him

Jared: “Evan, Bestie, is it photosynthesis if i combine a photo of me with the dirt in my backyard?” 

Evan: “not really”

Connor: “Trying to grow taller, Kleinman?”

Connor is basically their go to person if they need a drive since Evan cant bcs of the cast but still cant afterwards since he hasn't gotten his drivers license yet and Jared almost drived into a shop and isn't allowed to drive for them

Hes also really good at finding places to make forts

And bcs of Jared’s and His scout knowledge they made one place in an orchard

Yk that orchard the Murphys love

Its closed but they sneak in lmao

Jared acts like he aint scared but bro is scared of getting caught

Connor also got them into books

Evan read the little prince and he cries over it everytime

Jared was like “ew books” but then Connor introduced ready player one to him

“Why do i have to read this? theres the movie??” “just shut up and read it bestie” and Jared loved it

Also they found out Jared is a secret theatre kid and got into it too

THEY LOVE HAMILTON

JARED CAN RAP GUNS AND SHIPS AND OFC, “and Peggy!”

Connor is pretty impressed and he complimented Jared on how its cool

Jared doesnt believe it and is still trying to find if hes lying

But really Connor isnt

Overall

I wish they became besties :’)

#help girl this is me trying to cope with life #dear Evan hansen headcanons #DEH headcanons #dear evan hansen hcs #deh headcanons #Jared Kleinman headcanons #Evan Hansen headcanons #Jared Kleinman hcs #Evan Hansen hcs #deh hcs #Connor Murphy headcanons #hcs #headcanons #fanfiction #Connor Murphy hcs

[kazuhasbunny]

Just watched an hour and a half long video about the whole timeline of all the games (including SB it's very recent) and wow I thought people were exaggerating when they talked about William constantly coming back but wow he really does not die 😭 also Ballora is the mom according to the video but wow there's so much that you can't really figure out on your own bc of the order the games are in ... I didn't know the second bite incident (I believe the bite of 87) was caused by Mangle I feel really bad for all of them 😭 especially Charlotte (Henry's daughter) and Evan (crying child) and also the marionette part lowkey made me tear up ?? Like it was designed to protect Charlotte yet it failed bc of William and those kids ugh poor kids 😣 but the way the story just ... twists?? Like you have all the games consistent with the Henry/William partnership, William's kids dying and Henry wanting to set the kids free or whatever up until Help Wanted and Security Breach where it's just all about Vanessa all of a sudden 💀 tbh I feel like the games could've stopped before SB and it would've been fine lore-wise but I'm not complaining 🤡 I really love Chica's design in Security Breach and her voice is very cute too but yeah idk the glitchtrap thing threw me off for a bit lmao why does it look like that 💀 wow I rly used to just watch people play these games for entertainment without thinking about the plot 😭 I'm kinda glad I only got into the lore now tho since it's actually all put together but I could talk about it forever it's just so ??? Like it actually sounds like a horror story rather than just games with jumpscares and nothing else yk

OMG i watched like half of it .. still now finished yet though ITS 1 HOUR LONG I SNSHWJ i’ll watch it nexy week maybe 😆 and yes william really meant it when he said he always comes back.. like ok peepaw u do ur thing ig 🙄 yas ballora is their mom…. william made her based of her and that’s kind of …😥unsettling ngl. yeah the game released are apparently not in order so it really confuses everyone including me😞😞 AND YEA!! i didnt knew before that bite of 87 was caused by mangle but now that i think of it that must’ve been bad ☹️ i really sympathize over the dead children .. like. all of them. they died just to get stuffed??? like theyre children pls what😭 yea marionette’s story was sad 😢 (i will be honest i cried alot watching the storyline. of fnaf bye) yea i was kinda confused why suddenly help wanted is all about vanessa but its okay… ig??😨 i dont mind if the game stopped anywhere but can we stop having that peepaw pls!!!!! so tired of him ugh🙄 OMG chica liker????? i lovee her design its soo cute!!! she’s been my fave since the first game LNDKWMW help. GLITCHTRAP LOOKS SO????😭😭 ew. why it be looking like that………….. help😭 i never really got into the lore before until like. the 4th game cause of the bite of 83 and suddenly i just started binge watching the lore videos again… and i mean like almost all of them that i cant grasp which is which 😭 it’s fun though, i’m really glad that a horror game with jumpscares has like , insane lore.. enjoy it lots

#cherry pink writings #omg fnaf talk again #IM SORRY FOR THE CONSTANT BRAINROT TALK #i (dont promise) we’ll talk about thirsts.. soon #forgive me. i am in an intense brainrot

[miss-rotini-nini]

talk about me time

✨okay but why are you here✨

table of contents

1. about me

2. things to know that might be about me or maybe not since we really don’t know over here

3. fandom things

4. status

5. rules

6. mutuals/friends

7. hobbies, likes, dislikes, all that shit

8. to do list

9. quotes

10. special mentions

11. contact me

✨let’s go✨

1. about me

heyyy so i’m nini- female, minor, straight, she/they pronouns. people say I’m aesthetic, so thank you- I’m always listening to music and singing. also jsyk I’m an absolute queen. oh also a mess. I’m an organized mess. which is like proof no one knows anything anymore right-

✨queen vanilla of heaven and hell✨

2. things to know

-im going through a whole lot of shit

-therefore I have lots of mood swings

-and bad days

-lots of bad days

-I’m an only child

-also an absolute perfectionist

-leo alerttt

-I’m a fashionistaaa and apparently “hawt”

-rarely in a good mood but shopping does it

-my time zone is est

-I’m what you’d call “a sunshiny innocent bitch with a dark side”

-so she be queen of heaven and hell :)

3. fandom things

-hogwarts house: hufflepuff

-godly parent: aphrodite

-ability: talentless

-faction: amity

-caste: 1

✨kotlc wiki girl✨

4. status

-usually active [less active on weekends]

-asks [open]

-pms [open]

song requests [closed for now] jysk, song requests are basically requests for an original song/poem but I’m currently idealess so-

-pfp requests [open] please do tell me what you want it to be

-book recs [open ofc] specify genre

-rants/vents [open for now] ask first

-mood: 5/10

5. rules

don’t talk to me if you’re any of the following:

-r*cist

-s*xist

-h*m*ph*b*c

-p*do

-against any religion

-a b*got

-someone who cares too much/only talks about politics. i prefer not to talk about them, ty

-a creep

-questionable/looking for personal information

i will block you and/or report you. i hope I’ve made this clear- I am a minor do not gr**m or whatever that is just- not ok.

less serious rules:

-don’t spam ask box or pm’s

-literally idk why Im writing this but don’t make up things about me- don’t make up rumors or whatever other shit. just don’t.

-do not swear to oblivion. or swear aggressively. I mean, a few words here and there is fine, but dont swear swear swear yk?

-please add trigger warning specifying what the trigger is (I do have a few triggers myself so please be cautious about this)

-please don’t joke about serious things

-dont call me bro or bruh. it seriously bothers me. once or twice, that’s ok, but if it happens again and again then it’s not ok.

-don’t talk like you’re 4. or like you’re an adult who uses way too many abbreviations. its annoying-

-be kind. self explanatory.

-don’t be rude. also self explanatory-

-please don’t lie (sElF eXpLaNaToRy)

✨yeah I think that’s ittt✨

6. mutuals/friends

(the ones that ik are on tumblr, if I forgot you message me! im sorry bestieee-)

@theobliviouswhale aka fin

@okaylalisa aka mads

@pxstelxfairy aka lizzie

@absolute-white-crayon aka allyyy

@completekeefitztrash aka av

@fairyxsies aka lili

@bbybeth-chase-deactivated202107 (sob) aka sierra

@liliesandrosepetals aka lyn

@arendelles-anxiety-deactivated2 (sob) aka zar

@vintage-chaotic-lesbian aka cam

@rune-and-rising aka rune

@ploofyfun aka ploofy

@manyreasonstoworry aka lynnsie

@the-chaotic-hopeless-romantic aka kenni

✨love you guys <33✨

7. hobbies, likes, dislikes, all that shit

hobbies:

-singing/songwriting

-dancing/acting

-swimming

-riding horses

-drawing

-reading

likes:

-cute things

-music

-animals

-food

-rainbows

-organizing

-romance

-fashion/jewelry/accessories

dislikes:

-gross people (iykyk)

-fried chicken (pescatarian)

-the color orange on me (not my color)

-crabs (ew)

-old books

-chapped lips/dried skin

-bugs/spiders

-mango (im allergic I’m sorry)

-karens (no hate if your name is karen!!)

8. to do list

-message one of my wiki children

-find quotes for this post

-add more special mentions

-do my fandom profile when zaras done coding it

-change phone theme

9. quotes

tba

10. special mentions

@the-chaotic-hopeless-romantic : thank you for the idea credits lmao

@okaylalisa : blink bestieeee

more tba

11. contact me

-fandom: @Queen.of.vanilla.bean [very active]

-pinterest: @queeninixoxo [active]

-tumblr: @queen-panini-me [active]

-instagram: @queeniniofeverything [currently blocked on my device, not active]

-email: [email protected]

-discord: qvbnini#6634

✨wow you read through ALL of this✨

[bubblybeomgyu]

childhood friend!yeonjun

broooooo

imagine having him as even your friend

like no matter the childhood

damn u lucky

okay anyway

moving on

yk how youve probably seen so many

OMG Y/N IS NEW TO THE NEIGHBORHOOD AND H HE WANTS TO WELCOME HER BUT SHES 👉👈 SHY

sorry ily tumblr authors

but no

he threw sand at you

and you were like

wtf bitch??

not actually you were like,,,, five and had no idea what fuck or bitch meant but

yk?

aNyWaY

his parents went

hey 😡 apologize 😡

and he said

no 💢!!

but then ur parents started coming over with a crying you and five year old yeonjun almost pissed his pants

and so while trying to not tremble as much as he was he apologized to you

and you simply crossed your arms at him and huffed

but then you turned to your parents and went

!!! apology accepted haha

hahahaha

hahahahahaha

and then you never saw each other again

until school dont worry

you saw him and were like

shit he really do be the only person i recognize

‘ hey sand boy! ’

despite all the weird looks you got (including him) you had no regrets in calling him that

and then you realized

shit did he just blush?

but like he looked mad

maybe he was angry blushing

do five year olds do that?

yeah i think they do

anyway moving on

that school bus was pretty full

no you arent sitting next to him

ew you really thought i was gonna... yk..

youre sitting on the floor instead

you get in trouble?

you really dont care lmao

theres no way youre sitting next to sand boy

thats just weird

so apparently fate is on your side today

SIKE

you have to start elementary off by sitting next to him

you hate it

he hates it

its mutual!!

yall do be living a trope huh

anyway slowly

hey, only slowly, dont rush it!

slowly you start to get used to sand boy and his habits

and sand boy slowly starts to get used to everything about you

and so when yall become friends both of your guys’ parents are like

who are you and tf did you do with my kid

anyway even when yall are in high school you didnt split

even the school’s stupid dispatch like thing was like

lmao i think they’re dating

i mean you really act like it

so can you really blame them??

n e way

soobin aka class president aka yeonjun & you’s other best friend both knows how much you fawn over each other

he finds it amusing and all but like

he’s sick of this burning passion of can they stop being pussies

and so he goes up to you after school just like

‘ hEY yeonjun wants to ask you smth ’

yeonjun didnt have anything to say he wasnt even informed of this

youre just like??? lmao okay????

and so you go up to yeonjun just like

tf u want pretty boy

its okay you call him that all the time

anyway he went ‘ ??? ’

so you went ‘ ??? ’

and as stupid as it was

soobin’s plan worked

cuz since yeonjun didnt want shit to be awkward he went

‘ 😃 oh yeah i 😃 just wanted to say 😃 kinda like you yk??

hahaha its okay im a fool teehee 😎 ’

youre just like

‘ lmao ihy ’

but not really

more like ‘ lmao ily ’

and there now youre dating

soobin is thirdwheeling

much to his displeasure

but he caused it so he can fuck off

and yall soft and yeah you love each other

ugh im jealous

#yeonjun #yeonjun fluff #txt #txt fluff #yeonjun au #txt au #yeonjun x reader #txt x reader #tomorrow x together #tomorrow x together fluff #tomorrow x together au #tomorrow x together scenarios #yeonjun scenarios #txt scenarios

[jaanwangji]

Hello!!!! My day was fine till i started scrolling through louis' twitter to make an edit for 12dol and i became so emotional. it's just the way he talks to us, about us and how regularly he checks up on us and how constantly he thanks us tells us he's so grateful. I also cried a little when i saw the s*co tweet, ok that's a lie i cried alot!!!but hey they were happy tears so.....no regrets.

Sooo.... My life is just a series of embarrassing events to an extent i can't think of anything. So I'll tell you two things, one is slightly embarrassing (only slightly plzz don't think that's the most embarrassing moment it's just something at the top of my mind) and second a memory i think about and laugh(its cute i swear).

So when i was tenth and we just started trigonometry (it's hard whenyou start yk sm to remember) so i was sitting with two of my friends sitting on either side of me. Sir gave us a question we all started working. But both of my friends were being so annoying. One of them just kept asking me small questions and the other one was saying all the formulas out loud. In short annoying me I was having a hard time concentrating and i like maths so i get competitive. So i cery loudly told them to stfu!! And literally every one heard me. And sir looked at me laughed and said yeah you tell em. My tenth grade self foungld it really embarrassing believe me now I'm just shouting things in class all the time.

The second one was when i was really young. I was the youngest cousin and i was visiting my oldest cousin. So yk he treated me like really nicely. Always used to carry me around in his arms and stuff. So he had a dog a bitch might i say. She used to get soo jealous of the fact that I'm recieving more attention than her so she used to bark at me and stuff. But the funniest thing she used to do was sit really close to my parents. And my dad was some what scared of dogs so that used to be really funny. And little me had a hero syndrome. So i wanted to "save" my dad but i used to be scared of her too i mean i was like soo small she was bigger than me in size😂😂 I got over my fear of her when i was 11 😂😂

And I'm really curious about this poem stuff?!! What were you writing?? Like both of them😂😂 god this one got soo long maybe I'll add a fact later🙈~ ❄

DBDJDJDKKDKKDBDJDJJ who hasn't cried a river while thinking of louis? I sure have more times than I'm willing to admit jkkd its just he is everything lol can't even describe what exactly he means to me yk

bdkdkks i wish i had your teacher lol he sounds dopeee. i hate maths actually, that's the bane of my freaking existence like where tf would i need trigonometry in my future?! pls explain ew

omg i LOVE dogs i want one soooo bad but my mom hates pets and says they're too much work for my lazy ass djjdkd i plan on getting one when i move out for good but we'll see lmao EJKSKKKEKE i imagine that would seriously be very very hilarious oof dogs are amazing nfkddk

I can send u the poems later lol but the one i was writing was kindaaaaa abt sex fjdjkd well not really but it had that sexy undertone yk too many metaphors and what not but still very blatant if you know what to relate it too djdjdk idek why i was writing that i generally don't write about those kinda things but sometimes my mind just goes "boom you gotta write" and im like "but what" and it goes "you gotta" fbdjjbb (also I've no experience of sex lol djdjdk)

the one my teacher read was a sad one i think i wrote it when i was really down or something and it was frankly concerning just how much i wanted to end it all, i don't blame her for being worried about my health coz like that shit is concerning but i think it was more of me pouring out my feelings than yk writing about what i wanted to do but she didn't know obvio fjfjfk

ps: most of my poems are veryyy depressing lol i can't help it

okay do i need to share an embarrassing story now since you shared two? Xbdbndb

#secret santa #seriously don't think about being too embarrasing #i embarrass myself everyday 28 times #so we all good

[thethirdwheel404]

Med Rewatch Series (#1)

Right, monkey brain said no sleep no rest, only suffering at the hands of med.

I am going to start with the first episode of S2: Soul Care. Reasoning? I need to check if Latham references Ava in his first interaction with Connor.

If my memory serves me right, when Connor is passed over to Latham for his fellowship, Latham says that he was not his first choice. In fact, his first choice was a brilliant surgeon from South Africa. In the first episode of S2, a season where Ava Bekker is only introduced with one line at the end of the last episode.

If I remember correctly and Latham does actually say that in the first ep of s2, it will be huge for the continuity (and my theory that I came up with today, if you’re interested in following this you should really read that really long post that came a little before this where the basis of the theory is laid out). 

Also in rewatching this I see more of Sarah which, again, I have not seen in two years, and she was the reason I became invested in the show, and the reason I stopped watching after she left.

And all of this even before I start the episode.

There are so many emotions and thoughts running through my brain it literally hurts. I think i’m getting a headache. I’m already really regretting this, this cannot be healthy for me.

(btw, this will basically be a train of thought type thing, I’ll do my best to keep it coherent)

- omg its starting

- i completely forgot how s1 ended but its not importnat in anyway

- just, why are they in a helicopter

- how fast does the episode move ive forgotten and i need to know

-JESUS CHRIST SO DRAMATIC

- THE BEGINNING WITH WILL WHY

- it is at this point where I apologize to all those who made it this far bc we’re literally not even 30 seconds in yet

- i just have a lot of med thoughts

- oh god save me

- i am laughing hysterically

- JESUS CHRIST THE APRIL TB STORYLINE AND TATE WTF

- god that feels like a lifetime ago it was relevant holyshit

-remember when she was pregnant?

- literally what have I missed

- side note, i really like the cup april drinks out of.

-THERE SHE IS

-SARAH

-SHE’S HERE

-and she’s a barista

-literally wtf is this show

-and the dramatic music is still going literally chill man god

-THE WAY SARAH SMILES HOLY SHITTTT come on man there was literally no way i’d survive this but fuck not even a minute in...

- okay but i never understood charles’ family scenario but this is already too fucking long for a minute in so i hope we can just skip past that

-hahahah sharon’s fucking divorce? holy shit, this is too dramatic for the first ep literally save me (at least she acts well)

-yeah the one thing I will say about med (thats a lie ive already said a hundred but yk) is that for the crap storylines and all, the actors take what they’re given and give it their all and i appreciate it so much

-the helicopter’s number is N365UCC and just... succ

-ethans bird (!)

-also the fact that’s so big for ethan to be chief resident is so weird to me. like the last medical drama I watched was greys and they are all like grizzled veterans and have been doing that stuff for actual decades and i tend to put med and greys on like the same level bc they are the only medical dramas ive watched but.. holy crap the people on med are so young?? half their main cast is med students and residents. when nearly every main character on greys is a department head. its wild.

-proud of ethan. proud of my boy (did you know that adam jacobs who played aladdin on broadway was in a s3 episode? fun facts) (fun fact: did you know that ava is the only main character on the show who’s status is now deceased? I’ll shut up now.)

-oh my god i say roland buck III’s name and GOD noah jesus

- i find noah incredibly annoying, especially bc he tries to overshadow reese (my fav) but also just bc hes spoiled [that thing that said that one of the biggest mistakes med made was not having sarah get the emergency med residency at the end of s1 comes to mine, and the fact that noah got his residency easy peasy] - but, i will say that the moment at the end of this season where noah and reese dance together at the party is very adorable. (pre reesker brain showing lmao I really did love sarah with my whole heart) (moreover my snapchat memories were filled with just recordings of reese scenes lmaooooo)

-okay at this point I need to stop once i get to the potential ava thing bc what is happening we’re not even two minutes in why is this so long. (so many thoughts)

- i find will annoying but,,, he is kind of nice to look at. and what i mean is like facial acting (i am a lesbian). like. just. don’t speak. and when he’s being a good character he’s fine. it’s very few and very far between ig

-natalie annoys me so much and shes only had one line, and it wasn’t even a character line, it was mainly exposition.

-EW

-FUCKING EW

-ITS CONNOR HE’S HERE. god i forgot what he looked like in red scrubs and his poofy hair. child compared to s3 and s4. hopefully we see latham soon so we all don’t have to suffer through this. and he looks so angsty. he definetly glowed up in the later seasons.

- i have no clue how to spell definetly. I am guessing literally everytime.

-latham please come and end this all.

-oh haha there’s downey hes dead.

-okay so i actually watched s1 after i watched s2 which is so weird to think about. like that means that i liked s2 so much that i BOUGHT THE DVD FOR S1. yeah. I liked it that much (it really only means I was that much of a simp for sarah). but it also means that technically i watched s1 after i met ava?? like i honestly had NO CLUE what was in my future. did young me ever think she was going to stay up late at night, avoiding history hw while analyzing a defunct character from this show on a whim? a character i was super annoyed with at the beginning? who has no become a huge part of my personality? honestly? no. no she did not.

-and the story with downey was so jarring. and the story with zanetti. like i think i first started watching with the first ep of s2 (the one im talking about rn) and i was a bit lost. so going back and watch s1 to like connect the dots. but i never expected the dots to look like that. its like each season of this show is a completely different show from all the other seasons. like i’ve said before, this show is a headache. but literally latham please come and end this for now.

-GOD CONNOR LOOKS SO YOUNG WHAT THE HELL thats so weird lmaooooo

- like i had absolutely no clue who downey was going into this. and they they started talking like ‘oh yeah he killed his attending’ and i was just like ‘damn bro ill cheers to that’

- that’s literally ava’s first line actually. “i heard your girlfriend went insane and you murdered your attending.” - which was why she was hated at first. that was literally her first line to connor which is like, so hilariously rude that it was instantly iconic.

-also HAHAHAHAH CUE FUCKING ANGST ABOUT CONNOR HURTING EVERYONE AROUND HIM WTF BRO THE EFFECT YOU HAVE ON PEOPLE

- but i’m also sad now. --- “I heard your girlfriend went insane.” Oh. Oh, sweetie. Ava... No. --- but why does s2 ava (all two lines) foreshadow s4 ava in so many ways. like literally what were the writers on.

-baghdad.

-ah yes. the return of baghdad. been a long time since i heard that one, but it is easily one of my favorite running things about med. its just a little detail but the nick name is like perfect. (when i read fanfic where the chars are actually doing doctor stuff in the hospital it makes me light up) the WORLD BUILDINGGGGG. but whatever

-this is the girl who has the fake baby right? that was a really good ep (bc sarah content. can you see my favorites? for the same reason the one where the girl has split personalities easily ranks high with me.) oh wait this is the one where the dad like dies but then comes back for a split second to see his grand child. there’s not really a lot I can say about that, but the fact that i remember it vividly is... weird.

-okay but I actually love the ED in this show. I love how the show is centered around the ED and not the OR like greys. its fast paced, you see a lot about the characters really quickly (one of the reason’s connor’s intro to the hospital in the pilot is certified iconic in my mind [his interactions with will are gold]). the team works well together (usually, when things are good. - which is another reason I hated the show more as time went on. The personal lives interfered more and more and more with their work as time went on. it got so annoying). but like right here will just calls maggies name and maggie is just On It. I love it. I love the fast pace. it’s why this show got me to come back. so many things happen, it overloads my brain, like the way a video game works y occupying all of your attention.

-when is the dad gonna pass out i’m just waiting

-AHAHAHAHAHA JEFF NOOOOO. what even was the deal with jeff that storyline annoyed me so much I never got it. he was friends with nat’s husband (who died) and they were both named Jeff? and she actually ended up getting with Jeff a few times?

- the more you watch med and see how the characters get with each other, the more jaded you become

-omg they’re transferring the girl to the bed i love it when they count

-maggie was great but from what i heard/read they ruined her character too??? just not the same

-lmao only real g’s remember the chicago fire backdoor med pilot (if you want an explanation ask me lmao it was a ride)

- i was a real med simp bc I bought that episode on apple video.

-ahahaha this is so stupid. Jeff tries to do things and Will (being a fucking asshole and jealous, doesnt’ let him). he’s a med student let him fucking learn. also i remember why i hated will

-okay but if you look at greys vs. med, greys literally gives their med students no rights. scratch that. they give they’re interns little to no rights. (i only watched the last three seasons bc lesbian, but in those seasons they introduce the bottom of the totem pole, the sub I’s, who are a step ahead of med students, yet they are jokes on the show.) its just a weird juxtaposition is all.

-”lungs are wet.” dramatic music intensifies.

-OKAY BUT I LITERALLY FORGOT NATALIE SPECIALIZED IN PEDS. LIKE I COMPLETELY 100% FORGOT. HOLY SHIT THATS SO FUNNY i can’t believe in my mass hyperfixation i forgot, just more proof that she doesn’t deserve anything.

-why did will make nat do that call? also idk why but is it weird to anyone else when the characters call each other but just.. their names.

-ahahahah i laugh literally everytime i remember that will is supposed to be in charge like he is threatened by anything that MOVES. (also more juxtapositon to greys bc here the attendings are treated as a joke!)

- hly shit i just remember monday mourning and god damn the angst literally never takes a day off but whatever.

- i dont usually get like this but the dad’s acting here is actually making me sad lol. Usually i get annoyed when family members get emotional (im weird uhhhh)

-why did we have to watch the tube being put in for so long - med is so dramatic this fucking show whyyyy

- i bet u the dad is gonna pass out

-oh ig not oops

-OKAY FUCK ME THAT LITERALLY ONLY TOOK US TO THE TITLES HOW DO I HAVE THESE MANY FUCKING THOUGHTS.

-wait latham introduction we may just be able to call it here.

-haha i fucking hate him (connor). he just... comes off so fake-charming its annoying. i cant get over it lmao

-okay but literally every gives connor shit and I am here for it. Latham: “did you kill him?”

- it is literally so funny but annoy how connor throws hands with literally everyone in his path (like dude just chill come onnn)

-okay. okay. okay. finally the part i was waiting for.

- Latham: I preferred a young woman from Groote Schuur, but I was outvoted.

That’s an actual quote, from Latham. For those who are wondering, Groote Schuur is a famous hospital in, you guessed it, South Africa. This is where I’m calling the episode. This is all I needed.

I just want to restate. This is the first episode of season 2. Ava Bekker is introduced to the show in the last episode of season 2. What does this mean, my friends? It means everything.

For those of you who stuck through to the end, I am very thankful. Here we have probably the first piece of evidence to my theory, at least chronologically.

I, personally, think it’s absurd I remembered this point, but I did. That point, that line, presently, watching this episode with no idea of what the future holds, is only there to tell us that Latham and Connor are not going to agree. But this is the single greatest piece of foreshadowing med has ever done.

Med has never planned anything. I feel confident when I say that. Look at their storylines. They are literally on fire, and every decision the characters make reads like the writers going ‘we have no idea how we made it this far, we thought we would get stopped like ten steps ago.’

When has med ever planned things more than a few episodes in advanced, honestly? Almost never, and going a full season sitting on a plot point, that’s major. This was the first time med has ever planned something miles in advance.

In all honestly, yes I am probably giving the med writers a lot more credit than they deserve. It’s quite possible that as the season progressed they just decided connor needed a new love interest or at least a new dynamic, so they could have just easily looked back and thought ‘oh, hey, here’s a fun little thing we said earlier in the season, wouldn’t it be fun if it paid off?’ That could be true.

Here’s why it probably isn’t. The med writers have no respect for their own continuity. you really think that, in order to come up with a whole new character, they went back to the first episode of the season and paid off a line that is said in less than 2 seconds? no way. Bull. Shit.

honestly, it is probably equally unlikely that either of these things happened. The med writers don’t look back at their story. It’s true, but they also don’t plan things in advance either.

here’s the thing, the more i write, the more absurd it starts to sound. Yeah. Sure. the med writers sat on a character for an entire season, that’s totally a thing that happened and not sarcasm. When pigs fly. everyone knows med is impulsive and messy. But what I am saying is that they planned one thing. One thing.

Ava has an accent. That was a commitment. A pretty uncommon one too. South Africa is such an out of the box choice that god its barely on the map. It asks a lot of someone to act hard while also doing an uncommon accent. If the med writers just decided they needed to give connor a new dynamic, they could have made it a n y o n e. Yeah, sure it would have been nice to have the latham dynamic with the new character, but it would have been so much easier to just create a new character that doesn’t have such a commitment. We all know people who play opposite of Connor Rhodes do not stay around that long.

There is absolutely no reason Connor’s s3 love interest had to be the girl from South Africa. It could have literally been anyone. They could have kept Robin on. They could have made the new character not have so many specific requirements.

At this point, I’m pushing this really hard. Yeah, obviously Ava was planned from the beginning of s2. She had to be. It’s way too specific to be anything else.

What I’m pointing out here is med has never done that before. (at least to my knowledge, if i’m wrong please tell me i don’t want to be a fool) They have never had such a concrete plan for a character, so much as to tease them a full season before they were introduced.

I’m saying, that Ava was special. She was the only character who was teased ahead of her arrival. The one who they knew they wanted, other than the originals, and honestly saying the ‘knew what they wanted to do with the originals’ is being generous. But Ava was different. They had big plans for Ava.

It’s undeniable. Ava was the only character who was planned and teased ahead of her arrival. Ava has such a different style and character than anyone else on the show. She was always planned to be, even when she was just being teased, a rival to connor, meaning she could stand her own against him (or without him).

Now of course, the med writers forgot this when writing s4 and s5. But for the purposes of the important things, all that really matters are the two mentions in s2, and what happens in s3. (for the theory at least).

In conclusion: think about how odd it is that Ava was the only character that was planned over the course of the show. Like sure the characters are planned, but never this far in advance. Med writers don’t really plan anything. I would be shocked if they did anything but through a dart at a spinning wheel. But they had plans for Ava, and they had plans for s3, when she was good.

Think about how odd it is that the med writers had a character planned from the start of s2, that they sat on for a whole season. They never, ever did something so slow and deliberate. Never. It goes against their formula. Like a fucking shark, they have to be moving or they die, at least in their heads. But Ava was always a change to the formula. They had a plan for s3.

that’s it for now. we will see what happens when i watch the last episode of s2.

read the next parts:

Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4 / Part 5 / Part 6 / Part 7 / Part 8 / Part 9 / Part 10 / Part 11 / Part 12 / Extra

#chicago med #med rewatch series #mine #soul care #ava bekker

[ofmara]

*record scratch* *freeze frame* yep, that’s me. BVCNJ hey lads ~ i’m ally, i’m twenty2, my timezone is est, i use she/her pronouns & full disclaimer: i don’t know what the fuck i’m doing! just keep that in mind when you read this.. trash lmao. anyways! if u wanna plot, feel free to hmu on d*scord at HE IS SO BIIIIG 😩👌🏼🧡#2581 or yk use the lil chat thing on tumblr if u wanna start small or w/e FDCNK no pressure. moving on..

mara’s pinterest: here!

content warning: ..none?? who am i???

( ariana grande & cis female. ) oh my god look, it’s mara de luca! she is a 24 year old singer/songwriter from queens, new york. they were first associated with the met cartel 3 years ago, and the tabloids are always saying she is so impulsive & irreverent, but their stans on twitter say that she is actually really magnetic & passionate.

first thing’s first.. i haven’t written a coherent intro in a fucking Minute, so i’m offering premature apologies for the shitshow that’s about to follow, especially since i really waited til the last second to type this out even if this blog’s been Done for a week smh ANYWAYS!

ok so! mara is what i like to call ‘a textbook new yorker’ in that she’s Loud, she Loves Her Family and she’s Unapologetically Herself. my character inspirations for her are joey from netflix’s the circle, fran fine from the nanny, molly gunn from uptown girls and a little bit of cher from clueless sprinkled in there ( mainly bcos of this gifset lmao ). since i came up with her a few weeks ago, i really had so many different personalities for her but like.. let’s keep reading to see that literally all of them were apparently Not True ~

she was born into a very tightly-knit family & grew up constantly surrounded by them. she’s got three older brothers, meaning she’s the Baby of the family, so she’s been uhhhhhh doted on all her life! we stan! that said, she’s never known what its like to be on her own, especially considering that her family was right by her side every step of the way as she slowly grew her career from childhood. she got her start singing the national anthem at a knicks game when she was 8 and slowly built from there. her parents were always suuuper supportive and did all they could to help her achieve her dreams, even though they were struggling to make ends meet.

her parents own a small bakery in queens that they started when her oldest brother was little and have been a staple in the city ever since. though they’re a somewhat popular spot for tourists and locals alike, ny real estate isn’t cheap, so paying rent both for the store and their apartment above it has always been a struggle, especially once they started dedicating a good portion of their money to plane tickets and agents and all sorts of necessities mara needed in order for her dreams to come true. the extra expense was difficult on her brothers as well, though they made a point never to complain when they had to get a second or third job to help pay the bills.

ANYWAYS she grew up veryyyy close to her family and the sacrifices they made on her behalf didn’t go unnoticed, so the first thing she did when she finally Made It was buy them a bigger space for their bakery ( since her parents Love working it even if its rough sometimes, buddy ) and a new house so ;) we love a Family First mentality!

HOWEVER!! when mara first moved to LA in like?? 2015 or something?? idk timelines.. but anyways when she first moved to LA she was.. how u say.... Depressed cos like even though she was Living Her Dream as the artist she’s always wanted to be ( she lived in queens w/ her family up until after her first Big Break cos she’s a big time daddy’s girl ) .. she was essentially on her own since her family stayed in nyc :/ yk, where they live? yeah. so she was on her own for the first time... Ever & it was scary and stressful and essentially, she wasn’t doing great mentally or emotionally, even if she put on that *ari vc* fake smile.

that was untiiiiiiil she got her first ~ hollywood boyfriend ~ aka someone famous who helped both with her career and as a salve to the constant loneliness the bitch always feelin. long story short, he didn’t last long, but she Needed to feel Wanted so she got Another ~ hollywood boyfriend ~ until it became, like, Her Thing to Always be attached to someone in the tabloids and the press and on Entertainment Tonight. we love a codependent bitch! that’s also kinda how she got to be part of the met cartel cos she immediately attaches herself fully and completely to everyone she meets & falls a little bit in love with every person who has ever said hello to her, so.. Yeah! most of her friendships were likely formed because she just would not leave them alone ( she’s clingy and needy As Fuck, but she knows she is, so she’s constantly worrying about it aka she’s always wondering if people really like her cos she’s been said to be “too much” and “annoying” by some people who.. weren’t interested in being her friend ) anyways.. feel free to lmk if u want ur chara to hate her cos she will fully have her feelings hurt but still want them to like her cos shes a, say it with me kids, people pleaser ~

its v clear why i thought of joey & fran for inspo ( espeeeeecially fran, now that i think about it: i.e. constantly searching for love, lovingly obnoxious ) but as for why she’s like molly gunn... bitch is uhhh naive as fuck and will trust anyone who is even a little bit nice to her so peep her constantly seeing everyone through rose colored glasses and immediately feeling like her heart is broken when they turn out to be someone completely different lmao! also yk in the little mermaid when ariel was like “but daddy, i love him!” ??? YEAH, that’s mara to a fucking T, m8!

i could quite literally go on and on for hours, but to keep it short and sexy, here’s her stats page & i’ll follow up with a list of some little tidbits of info.. some Quirks, if u will..

she hiccups when she cries & BOY does she cry often BVJNCDKM

cannot cook a single mf thing to save her life? yeah.. her parents wanted to let her work in the bakery but .. she burned everything so she was cashier ;)

can quote the entirety of bring it on: all or nothing & as a segue from that, she is very chatty during movies if she’s with even one other person but Silent when she’s alone

will challenge anyone and everyone to mario kart wii as long as she gets to play yoshi ( she has a vendetta against baby peach )

is Constantly Freezing, so she’s always in thick socks and turns the heat up high when she’s at home

has a cavalier king charles spaniel named piper ( yes, i'm using a fc for her dog )

i’m gonna b p selective with which ari songs she’s released both bc i dont like All of ari’s songs & for character purposes ( rip in peace, sweetener )

is classically trained on the piano and sometimes just plays classical music for fun, making up silly lyrics at parties and whatnot lol she’s just Fun & Quirky like that

owns every season of the o.c. on dvd

she has a car but i havent decided if she ever drives it ( or what kind it is, tho i assure u my virgo ass will be researching it at some point ) since she really just barely passed her driver’s test

is constantly in the tabloids for one dumbass thing after the other mostly as an excuse for me to make tabloid edits but like... i love that for her & will 100% be down to include any and all of u if u lmk u wanna be in one

and many more, but i’m really just sitting here rambling UGH EW so lms for plots cos i’m unprepared & i don’t have any wc’s! very on brand for me, i must say

#met:start #♡ — ❛ out of character. ❜ #when u use recycled tags and cant remember what the fuck they are? yeah #anyways!

[xllxxrbxg]

hmmm gold digger prank yaya call my aliens from mars and tell them to get the gold

hmmmm idkkkk. update ko lang sa life rn may bebe na me. karlo is his name. he's a nice guy. takes me out (not as a hitman) occasionally. I like how he treats me; he gives me freedom. And it only means he trusts me very well. I dont have any idea where he gets the energy to trust me, but that's how it goes. Kinda shocking ba na may bebe na me hihi kakasabi ko lang sa las entry ko na ayoko maging taken GAGI tapos here i am parang clown. Pero anyways, masarap lang din sa feeling na may nakakaappreciate sayo nang ganun. Tho we just met palang and since day 1 of that meeting him personally, magkalandian na kami agad AHSDHAHDHA kasi sa chat di naman kami nag flirt in any way usap lang lagi. And di ko rin sya feel non sa chat kasi parang ang kulit na ewan, pero LOOK AT ME. So ayon naglaplapan kami the other other week pa. Make out game strongk naman kahit papano pero man his hands ... they long asffff. Anyway ayon I asked for a hickey, gave me one, and the next morning I was scolded by mom lmfao WAS FUNNY TBH BECAUSE i didnt even try to hide it. And my tito also saw it he was like "ano yang nasa neck mo? bat may pasa" and i was like "ah hehe yung ano kasi yung necklace" AHASDHHADHASH AND MOM WAS THERE SHE WAS LIKE "yung necklace nya nagtala sa pagtulog nya *sips coffee bites bread* HAHAHAHHAHAHA OMFG but later on when we went to camalig she noticed it was a real hickey and yeah I got scolded because Im so pasaway daa. Anyways LOVE YOU MOM UWU! HEHE. So ayon nga ayoko na magpromis na maglolog in ako dito daily kasi di naman natutupad. Pero kahapon kwento ko lang mars nagsakay ako sa big bike GARA PAREH as in lahat nakatingin sa tormots nung kasama ko. Nameet ko lang din sa bumble tho tig vibe check ko man sya for several weeks. And sya rin kausap ko nung time na suicidal ako so goods naman. Ok naman sya may dead air lang kaso sometimes baka nagkakahiyaan and stuff. nilibre nya ako ng milk tea, AND HAHA KASI ang weirdt tho nagtanggal ako mask. Di ako usually natanggal mask, heck si jeff na bff q never pa ako nakita personally na walang mask HAHAHAHA Anw ayon was fun tho napa Holy Mary ako habang nakasakay sa likod niya. Kasi first of all the ride was bumpy, second of all the seat was small ASS!!! and walang hawakan sa likod. Anyway people were staing hihi I DO LOVE ATTENTION! I was wearing a tank top, cargo pants, combat boots, and on top of it all I had a tatt on my arm. DAMN SHAWDDIE @ ME. LOL. Loved the temporary feeling of royalty. Gara ba naman ng motor. It was green and black in color and it was a cool ass expensive motor !! it was worth 300k+ if irc. ANW ayun had fun naman. Tho I mostly did it so that I would stray from depression but I am still depressed. I have to do something about it INTERNALLY and deal with it with myself. And stop going out with people as a shortcut to heal the depression. But anw ayun I am glad there are people that go out with me because I am sad. Plus I am grateful Karlo allows me to go out with my other friends despite that they are guys. Man that guy trusts me so much, I will not break it. Anyways he's a nice guy, but at the same time you cant have it all yk. I dont like it when he walks ahead of me just cause he has longer legs and bikes, but we can work on that. Anyways, people underestimate people on bumble. Some guys don't look like it but theyre actually rich. First example i have is AJ. he aint lookin rich man. If anything, he looks like he smokes 8 packs a day. But I was wrong he actually smokes 9. CHAROT. Mans was like teasing me most of the time and I GOT PISSED SO I FIRED BACK. but days passed he sent me 1.3k--- LIKE WHAT FOR WHAT????? I was mean yet he knew I needed something to cheer me up and HE SENT MONEY?? WHO THE FUCK SENDS 1.3K AHAHAHHAHAH SHET GANDALANGTALAGAMINSANMARS Then the other one I met just yesterday was dustin. He goes to school at UST manila and he treated me outside too. He owns the 300k motor BUT TELL YOU WHAT HE AINT LOOKIN RICH ON HIS PROFILE. If anything, I wouldnt swipe right tbh but apprarently, I did. So lesson here is dont judge people by their looks,

actually try to have a conversation with them, and treat them fairly and not be mean just because its online. Also, mostly the goodlooking ones on these dating apps are the asshole ones lmfao. Tho there are guys who look like literal shit and are assholes too. Lol anyway the third one is Karlo which I started seeing a month ago. I met up with him because I was visiting Naga temporarily and then I got bored. Supposedly I would meet up with miki because we were talking for sometime already but he was not making things happen so I just grabbed whoever was available that time and it was Karlo. Was hesitant at first, because I didnt match the vibe he had online and was too makulit for me. But to my surprise on our very first meeting, he picked me up with a fortuner. I thought he'd bring a clanky ass car or somn when he said he'd borrow from his father. Anw, was nervous when I entered the car because I was unfamiliar with the person and it was sinking into me that it could be my last day on earth. So I was like yeah he might have a car yada yada yada didnt pay much attention just yet. So we went to this field apparently people call it naga view. not much too see just overlooking the city. IT WAS A DAMN FIELD!!!!!! IDK WTD BUT HE TOOK ME THERE I WAS READY TO FIGHT FOR MY LIFE I HAD A CUTTER WITH MEEE anways.... was fun date. we had to return the car by 3 we were kinda late. so we went to his house was a nice house it had an office. was then again surprised to see a signange with their surname on it and it entailed they had a realty firm. And also turns out they own a damn resort. bro. both of his parents are engineers and are real estate brokers. and it ain even show on the pfffppp man people on bumble really be keeping it lowkey. Pero yeah he isnt rich, his parents are. that makes him a rich kid. But anw di ko naman habol money ew im not like that. I may like free stuf, but I dont chase people for money unless theyre my client or if i lent money lmfao. Just surprises me how people be rich. like damn his bike is like 130k...... man what in the wealth.... also theres zef. another good friend of mine. his dads a lawyer. idk but they seem rich plus his bike costs 65k...... thats cheper than karlos but like........... yall underestimate bikers too. man they RICH. tho you can get budget bikes but idk how youll keep up with guys that has feather weight expensive ass bikes that they hoist up single handedly LMAO. eat the rich. anyways i guess this is what this entry is all about. Me making kwento about people that are rich. I will get rich soon too. I know God will help us get what we deserve after all that losing, it is time to win. <3333