#its such a good ugly cry

[ghouljams]

Ghoul if you don’t write Ghost absolutely falling apart ugly crying when he discovers what Gooses scar is about and how he possibly could have never met the love of his life Elmo is gonna SUE

Make. That. Man. Cry!!!

He doesn’t even bother knocking when he opens your door. You clutch your shirt to your chest, glaring over your shoulder at Simon. Rude. He just raises a brow and shuts the door tight behind him.

“Got a minute?” He asks, moving close, and you know you’re not going to tell him no. Not when his hand cups your face and he lets you tug his mask down to kiss him, your shirt forgotten on the floor.

He must’ve just come in. His skin is still warm from the sun where you touch him, and there’s the last taste of tobacco on his tongue. His hand slides over your chest as he kisses you, giving your breast an appreciative squeeze before dragging towards your fly. You make a quiet noise against his lips when it slips over your scar, his touch stilling against the slightly raised edges of it.

Simon's fingers feel over the scar, rough calloused pads dragging along the sensitive delicate skin. The ugly line of it where it cuts across your stomach. He drags his fingers along the whole thing, from your waist to where it stops just below your belly button. You wish you knew what he was thinking. You've had years to grow out of being self conscious, but that didn't mean it didn't still rear its ugly head. Especially when it was a man you- 

Simon probably doesn't even care, his torso is littered with scars. You're sure he doesn't even remember how he got half of them. 

"How'd you get this beauty?" He asks, so quiet you almost don't hear him.

"Sort of a blur," you tell him. He nods like he understands, you think he does.

"Tell me." Simon hums, dropping to his knees and pressing his lips to the top of the scar on your waist. You do your best not to wince, remembering the way the bull's horn had torn into you.

"Was helping the Lucas'," You start, "their bull is tipped now but back then they were all about-" Simon kisses you again, lower down the scar, your breath hitches, "-natural, uh, natural horns. I must've spooked it or something because it-" you let out a pained hum when he presses his lips lower still, tracing the line of the scar with his mouth, "-it caught me with its horn and ripped me clean open." You finish in a rush, Simon freezes.

"It what?" You hate when his voice goes even like that. When you can't hear his breathing anymore.

"Gutted, tore, nearly eviscerated," you give him the words the doctors used, that your dad used when he was upset. Your stomach jumps when Simon kisses it again, clean flesh this time, and presses his forehead against your diaphragm. "If Soap hadn't been there I probably wouldn't have made it," that's what the doctors had told him at least, "you know how long it takes EMS to get anywhere out here," Simon's fingers tighten on your hips, "he kept pressure the whole time, made sure all my guts stayed put." 

You thread your fingers through Simon's hair, scratching and pulling affectionately, "It's funny I don't even remember what we'd gone over to help with, but I remember how blue the sky was while I was laying in the grass waiting."

Simon has gone very quiet. He's completely still, save for his thumbs rubbing small circles against your hips. You're not sure who he's soothing. It happens quickly, his arms wrap around your hips and lift you so fast you have to duck to avoid hitting the ceiling fan. Curling over his head before he drops you on your bed. 

You let out a noise of surprise, opening your arms for him as Simon climbs on top of you and lays down. His head settled against your chest, his arms wrapped tight around your waist, he doesn't say a word and you- you don't either. You let him have his silence. You let him lay on you, listen to the beat of your heart, the way your lungs fill when you take a breath, the rush of blood, the sounds of life. A life he almost missed. 

He's never been more thankful for one Sergeant MacTavish in his life. Never been more thankful for you, and all the little ways life had to go just right for him to meet you. Your fingers scratch the base of his skull, and you’re humming some quiet lilting tune he doesn’t know, but he wants to. He wants to know every thought that goes through your head, every kindness you’ll ever afford him. Every way he could show you he loves you. 

“You cryin’ baby?” You ask him gently, there’s no judgement in your voice, just the question.

“No.” He lies, feeling you hum your acceptance.

“S’okay,” You tell him, “I don’t mind.”

And you don’t. So he does.

Big heaving silent sobs that shake his whole body, fat tears that you brush away with every gentleness. You don’t think Ghost has ever cried, but you think Simon has needed to for a while. And he’s crying for you, over a loss that didn’t happen, over the pain you went through. Over the lonely days waiting for your body to be whole again, and the fact that neither of you will ever be lonely again. Maybe you’ll be hurt, but never lonely. You’ll make sure of it. He’ll make sure of it.

"Johnny burn down the Lucas' house?" Simon asks, looking up from where he'd buried his face in your chest with watery eyes.

"Just their barn," you cup his cheek, wiping away a stray tear with your thumb. Simon gives you a little hiccuping sob around his frown and angry eyebrows.

"Should've killed 'em." It's a little hard to take him seriously when his voice wobbles like that. When his lip trembles and tears start falling again. You shush him, and let him press his face against you again.

#simon ghost riley #simon ghost riley x reader #ghost x reader #simon riley x reader #oc: Goose #cowboy!Ghost #I don't think Simon ugly cries #I think he's very quiet about it #he doesn't want to burden others(or himself) with his emotions #good thing Goose wants him to be a burden on her #they lay together for a long time after this just being together #I think Simon falls asleep on her after he cries himself out #and then Goose is just stuck there #i feel like we get a little ooc with the crying but its part of his healing journey

[sleepanonymous]

I just wanna say that watching Mr. Vessel Sleep Token the First lay down in the middle of The Summoning tonight at Red Rocks was the most relatable thing I’ve ever seen him do. The Vessel/Mother Token fued may be over. I haven't decided yet, gonna sleep on it 🫡

#sleep token #vessel sleep token #vessel #sleepanon rant #teeth of god tour #side note #euclid is ruined for me #but I mean that in the best way possible #I don't think I can ever listen to that song again with out ugly crying #And if I force myself to its gonna lose its magic #(yes I ugly cried once again) #(but this time I was caught off guard because I felt good the whole time) #(the waterworks came out of nowhere fr) #side side note #vessel screaming “do you remember me” is the most inhumane thing he's ever done to me #and maybe I shouldn't forgive him 🤔 #I’m still gonna sleep on it

[superbellsubways]

are you guys seeing this. rn hello can angone help me hey.helo uuuuuwhw wbwjalwnwbwk ahwbwj hello Tumblr

#im actually so sick #bro 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #I hate this guy so much im glad hes not real 🙄 #lie #😭 #if we dont get concept art i will kill myself #JOKEJOEKJOEL joey. #his design is so good but its also so ugly im crying LMAOOOO perfect for lil ol me 😊 #i literally paced around thinking about this pilot im so fucking mad #ok ill shut up now #Hi guys

[bisexualnamjoonie]

cyphernet's 12 days of Namjoon

favourite lyrics

cr. videos: 0613data, JK cr. lyrics and lyrics translations: doolsetbangtan (english translation in alt. description)

#kim namjoon #rm #namjoonedit #btsedit #dailybts #bts #bangtan sonyeondan #cyphernet #userbangtan #annietrack #heyryen #usersky #useremmeline #tuserandi #12nj23 #mygifs #am i obsessed with giffing namjoon giving the finger? maybe #honestly i don't like this gifset but if i don't post it i don't think i'll ever get back into giffing again 🙃 #i tried something... im sorry its so ugly lol. i feel so insecure about it aaaaaah. idk. im posting it anyways so i don't cry. #at first i just wanted half of it to be the gif half of it to be the lyrics but it didn't turn out good #cuz i had to erase too much of the gif to fit all the lyrics #so there ended up being too much boring background #so i went for a kinda artsy thingy in the background but idk it's not really good is it #also some of the gifs are really bad quality sorry but GOD the quality of hybe's videos are shit and finding the in the soop eps was hell #honestly the one with the best quality was jeongguk's gcf... thank u jeongguk <3 #anyways ill stop my rambling now lol #happy namjoonie day 2023 <3

[sidsinning]

Methinks there are a surprisingly high amount of women who love horror bc its the only genre that really lets women be raw, real, and nasty in all their glory

#yeah i dont just mean a good oscar ugly cry #horror dives head first into the deepest darkest trenches of a womens life #identity #sexuality #roles in society #female rage #etc #many things to say but #its 7 am #lol #sidrabbles

[ypipie]

based on a conversation with my friend

(this is the conversation)

#doodles #(thankyou avi for being hilarious) #idk what else to tag this since its silly #fiddauthor #i guess #not really since its based on a journal 3 entry #but it can be read that way #gravity falls #pretend ford doesnt look weird here its supposed to be ugly crying hes not supposed to look good #.hbvcb

[bleue-flora]

You ever just not respond or mark comments as read so you can continue to go - oh I have something in my inbox and you smile all over again?… No? Just me?… :)

Well, shoutout to AO3 commenters. Truly, thank you for your support and love. Sorry, I sometimes respond late. Just know every time I go to respond and forget, I get to reread it and it makes my day again. <3 <3

#yall its been a rough week and a really rough day so thank for your kind words and interactions #it ​feels good not to be alone and to be appreciated #after having a long ugly crying meltdown in the car today where a woman came up to me and gave be a bouquet of flowers #because she saw me #I just wanted to say thank you #thank you from the bottom of my heart for for brightening my day <3 <3 #🌺🌸🌷🌼 have bouquet from me #I hope you are doing well and having a better week than I :) <3 #anyways….. love yall <3 #<3 <3 <3 <3

[lucyvaleheart]

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#supposed to log good things #most of day was negative feelings and sadness #then. i remember feeling good #and then. tthe good went away #rreplaxed with the usual self doubt and loathing #the feelings of undesirability #the wish that i was. attractive in any way to anyone close to me that anyone wanted to. touch me #that i wasn't horrifically gross and disgusting #do the people who hold me do it out of pity? am i really so awful #pictures get a lot of praise #sometimes #less so lately #maybe the novelty of my personality has worn off #maybe seeing how broken i am #such a shambling wailing mess of a girl #....has made people realize how ugly i am #i don't know. its hard to care most nights #I'm supposed to feel better in the mornings #i don't usually #I used to #now i just feel..... dead inside #like a walking corpse #some part of me wants to make that reality #sigh. #anyway. #im sorry you had to read this whoever you are that's made it this far #it's a cry for help but my discord status says don't message me so it's. probably not gonna get much lol #.....i guess uh. if you've read this far and do want to say something you can take this tag in particular as a one time pass to do so #....i make no guarentees I'll respond but i will guarentee that i won't kill myself. at least not tonight or even any time this week

[art--harridan]

[Image description: A digital drawing based on the film Hereditary. It has the glowing treehouse window in the middle, and the four family members surrounding it on each corner. You can only see each of them from the shoulders up. Annie has a piano wire wrapped around her neck, blood seeping from it profusely. Her eyes are wide but her mouth is set still. Peter has large eye bags, a cast around his nose, and a crown on his head. There's a thin trail of blood on his shirt. Charlie's head is detached from her body, and everything beneath the nose is a gory mess. Ants crawl over her. Steve is not visible, as the flames engulf his corner. The colour palette is very cool toned and blue, except for the window.]

Inktober Day 9: Nest

Film: Hereditary

#corpse #inktober #hereditary #inktober 2022 #hereditary fanart #peter graham #charlie graham #annie graham #steve graham #digital art #blood #gore #death #had a massive hyperfix on this film for some months (comes back every once in a while and i still care about peter so so much) #all the family are such good actors but i especially loved alex wolffs #idk i just love ugly crying and raw portrayals of trauma aaaaaaaaah i could rant about his scenes sm #um this if youve seen midsommar and not this yet its literally the same director so would recommend it that way #tho content warning which u probs wont find as easily as other ones if u look it up #ari aster portrays people with disabilities questionably at best #keep that in mind #also i feel like if u wanna reas about that more milly shapiro (charlie) has spoken about her experience with the film and shit #probs seek that out #um anyway #really happy with todays :) got a shit ton of homework to do tho so should defo hop on that <3

[starlightcataclysm]

girl who only just watched adventure time in 2024 voice: hey just watched adventure time pretty good stuff

#ok. to shed the irony. i finally watched this w fern #and finished it tonight #and fuuuuuuuuck man fuck maan its so good its SOOO good i understand why everyone was obsessed with this shit #god. that finale. blew me away. ugly crying. longing and grief and joy all at once. it was so beautiful. #its about the love man!!!!!!!!!! #its always about the love!!!!!!! fucker!!!!!!!! #jourmal #adventure time

[spllwys]

might have to elaborate one day on why spillways means so much to me as an autistic person because it truly has been the catalyst of real change in terms of understanding and self regulation in a way nothing else has managed

#its now 5:30am and im still awake which is why i think its a good idea to post this rip #sounds a bit sad but something did click the first time i heard it #i wish i could hear it again for the first time and relive that #its the spillways of ur soul. u know #really beautiful way to express something that feels so ugly #and its freeing to hear #also it's after a lifetime of 'i won't listen to you unless you're calm' #and i will never again berate myself or the little child in me for that #it's the number one 'it's ok to cry' song and that means quite a lot #when you've never in your life considered that it could be ok

[seokmatthewz]

besties he is SO fine

#its sick...... #he was right in front of me too like what a slutty moment 😔😔😔😔 #seonghwa rlly did this and then made me ugly cry like an hour later what is good king #this fancam is also for kaz by law as they r my fave hwa stan <3 #seonghwa #ateez #iri.txt

[ohitslen]

Hey guys why are my hurt comfort fics hurting a whole fucking lot and not comforting me in the least huh what’s up with that

#ugly sobs because MAN. #kinder gentler is really making me loose all my marbles I love it so much #please read kinder gentler #by skittydyne on ao3 it’s so good crying #it has its fun moments. it’s sad moments. it’s soft moments. reincarnation prompt. ranch owner Nai. what else do you want #it’s hurting like a bitch rn but that’s what makes it good #I went to another one for comfort and we also reached the hurt part on that one too LMAOOO HELP ME #lenssi rambles

[cross-armageddon]

just finished reading Our Happy Ending

#i cant physically cry anymore but my heart was torn apart #i straight up said “ugly crying” out loud #why have they done this to them #it's a good end but why did they make it so fucking sad #my blorbos why #baby emu is so fucking tiny #actually just so small #it really felt like an arc ender #fitting since its right before anni #project sekai #wonderlands x showtime #wondershow #emu otori #tsukasa tenma #rui kamishiro #nene kusanagi

[widevibratobitch]

omw to play emotional support for my mom disguised as ✨fun family bonding time✨ for the rest of the week <3333 there's something so deeply wrong with me uwu teehee

#and i still havent texted my friend back even tho she texted me a week ago and i told her ill text her back this week when i have the time #and i DO have the time. im just fucked in the head and the prospect of having a conversation with another person where i again #have to pretend im not at the very brink of a serious mental and emotional breakdown. is making me lose my fucking mind #ik she's having a bad time rn and she needs the reassurance and jesus fucking christ i tried i had two long conversations with her #that were allllll about her. only her. not a single word about me. that's fine. this is what people need in such moments right #to just get patted on the head and hugged and told their suffering is real and what happened to them is unfair and just made to feel #that for a moment they're the centre of attention and it is all about them. this is normal. this is why therapy exists. #so i try to give this to her but it is fucking draining. and i NEVER get the same treatment back. like she caught me crying at uni last week #and like yes she'll say some nice things but she'll always find a way to turn the conversation back on the topic of ✨her✨ #like we started talking about my therapy and i finally got to actually say a word or two about what im dealing with. but then she goes #'yeah im just trying to figure out what's wrong with me when i listen to you haha like i could never cut myself cause it looks ugly. #ofc it doesnt look ugly on you haha but i could never lol' #like thanks haha good to know ill just shut up then and steer the conversation back onto you why dont i. i mean its not like #i spent over an hour a few days back sitting with you and listening to your talk about your childhood and validating you and not saying #a word a single fucking word about myself even tho i was also going through it myself but who cares right. and now im the bad guy again #because im not texting back. #i feel like im finally fucking snapping cause at this point im properly fucking angry. IM having a bad time too. IM going through it too. #I have bad coping skills and had a fucked up childhood and traumas in my life TOO and im allowed to just not be able to handle it #i really wanna break something lol maybe therapy's working after all lmao #oh also this is why i dont eat breakfast. i do it once and then feel guilty and suicidal lol normal behaviour #pojebie mnie zaraz przysięgam na boga mam dość kurwa BASTA

[dearjulien]

High School Musical has me giggling, twirling my hair, and kicking my feet like one of those girls from a 2000s movie. 😭

#high school musical #ryan has always been my favorite #its literally consuming my mind rn #my friend hasnt even started watching it and is inlove w/chad #all the songs are so good #high school musical 2 #high school musical 3 #hsm2 #hsm 2 was my fav. just the feeling was amazing #looks like summer should feel #hsm 3 #was a little slow but it made me ugly cry at the end #im gay btw #LMFAO why did i add that #ok theres enough tags bybye