𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑎 𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑙𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑟.
PAIRING: baxter radic x fem!reader
WARNINGS: 'unrequited' love
GENRE: angst to fluff
SONG INSPIRATION: treasure by bruno mars
WORD COUNT: 1.1k
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it was like she had superpowers. very annoying ‘superpowers’ at that.
summer had only known you for two weeks and had found out your long term crush on your best friend.
at first it was only little things like the way you’d lean a little too close to him as his arm loosely wrapped around your shoulders as he talked to his friends. tightening his hold if you moved even an inch away from his touch, doing so without breaking conversation.
the smile on your face just proved how much of an effect it had on you, knowing that even in his subconscious he was thinking about you, even if it was only slightly.
the way you’d find him what you thought were the prettiest seashells and even though you’d also surf and make sure you had enough food and water for the two of you since you had a feeling he’d steal yours. definitely not because you know how much he loved your cooking.
there was an endless list of things that summer could have listed off to you and she did but even with her trying to give you the kick up the ass that you needed to confess how you felt, it just made you even more anxious. if she found out that you liked him that easily then how obvious was it to him?
so you distanced yourself from him, slowly but you did.
starting with taking longer to reply to his messages or sometimes not even answering them at all.
making your morning surfs more spread out throughout the week, carefully keeping yourself out of arm's reach quite literally.
with stopping everything that was your norm you felt like you almost lost a part of yourself in the process.
being away from bax took a toll on your mental health even if it had been a couple of weeks, the realisation that the scent of his cologne on your pillow was fading made you sob loudly into your other pillow.
his touch was something that you missed the most. you didn't realise how much he used to before he wasn't able to at all. missing how his body practically wrapped around yours as he hugged you. god you missed his hugs the most.
staying out with the girls definitely eased your pain, even though they didn’t agree with the way you were dealing with this they were still there for you.
it had been just a little over a month of going no contact and even though it had been hard to do with being in the same friend group and all. you still did it.
whenever you'd look over to look at him, he'd already be looking at you. the act made your breath hitch, making you turn away and rejoin the conversation again.
everytime you looked into his big puppy dog eyes you would nearly cave, it was like they were begging for you to come back.
but you didn't!
. . .you may have just stayed in for the night whilst your friends partied or you genuinely would have.
eating your feelings in the middle of the night always helped, well that was before baxter decided to fall through your window nearly making you choke.
“bax? what are you–?” you uttered.
“no you’ve gone this long without talking to me you can wait a little longer, darlin’,” he coaxed as he walked over to your bed, towering over you in the process.
he's not normally one to do this so you just nodded as he sat in front of you, your knees knocking against each other as he did so.
baxter being this close to you after so long made you nervous, there was nowhere for you to run. it was time to face the music. “why have you been avoiding me? i've been trying to give you your space, but…”
“i couldn't go any longer without you, without knowing if it was something that i did wrong.” his eyes were glossy as he looked down at you.
and there it was. the last thing you wanted was for him to think he did something. hed only ever helped you and comforted you. all the guilt and regret came rushing back, the very thing that you had been trying to protect him from with his sisters is what you also made him feel.
leaning over wrapping your arms around his neck, pulling him into the biggest hug. “i'm so sorry, b. it's not you i promise.” his arms engulfed your waist bringing you even closer to him.
you stayed like that for a while, the two of you not even noticing since you had always been this close.
“god i've missed the way you smell.” he joked as he nuzzled his face into your neck and deeply sniffed, tickling you and making you laugh in the process.
pulling away to go back to sit down again when he pulled you into his lap.
“baxter!”
“i love it when you say my name.” his voice lower now, all signs of joking were long gone. his eyes flickering from your eyes to your lips.
he pushes a strand of your hair behind your ear, leaving his hand to sit on your cheek. his thumb draws circles on your heated skin.
“so. why have you been avoiding me?”
your eyes drift away from him, body tensing with anxiety. “hey! it's just me, you can trust me.”
timidly glancing back at him. “i can't pretend anymore.”
he gives you a reassuring smile for you to continue.
“i'm in love with. . .you.”
“oh. my. god. the reason why you haven't talked to me in a month is because you love me?” he questioned, his grip loosened on you making your heart drop.
“yes.”
before you could say anything else he tackles you onto your back and begins to tickle you.
you laugh so hard that you’re out of breath as he continues to relentlessly tickle you.
he eventually stops, chuckling at your breathless state, “you- you little shit! ive been in love with you forever! ever since i met you at that surf shop to be exact.”
he was now hovering over you, arms either side of you trapping you in.
“you have?”
“yes!”
“why didn't you say something?”
he deadpans as if the answer was obvious.
“okay, okay fair.”
silence takes over the two of you. “so what now–?”
he leans down, closing the space between you, his lips brushing yours. the initial shock dissolves as you melt into the kiss, your hands running up his torso to rest on his chest. he pulled away only to not get too far as you tugged him closer to leave long pecks on his lips, making him smile into them.
“damn you can't get enough of me already?” he playfully wiggles his eyebrows at you making you laugh.
you felt stupid for doing what you did, but extremely happy with the outcome.
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𝟗/𝟐𝟓/𝟐𝟑 | 🪐🍂🍷🌠 | 𝖥𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝖠𝗉𝖺𝗋𝗍 ( Part One )
The autumn brown leaves fell from the twigs that hung three feet above us as our feet planted firm upon the damp green grass. We were ready to face our truths head on and see if we're actually invincible.
"Ready?" I ask scarcely.
" We'll see." Landon nods hesitantly.
The moonlight appears at a sickening moment as the time strikes ten pm. We both kept taking sip after sip, gulp after gulp until one of us dropped to the floor. I could've predicted that Landon was going to collapse first but I felt the real poison pulling me under. It coursed through my veins faster than a shooting star. I was dying.
" Landon…Landon…help!" My voice weak. I felt helpless in the middle of it all. The feeling of my insides caving in and my organs becoming so empty to a point where I finally realized this is end of my long seventeen year journey of living a life full of regrets and uncertainty.
" No! Stay with me, mate." Landon voice unsteady. " Hold on. I'm calling 911." His lip quivering uncontrollably. I can feel the frightening hurt in his voice. The feeling of losing me and himself. All I wanted to do was climb into my casket already so he didn't have to see me like this.
" They can't do anythi─"
" Don't say that! You don't know that. You can fight this." I hand him my gold chain that was wrapped around my neck. I gave it to him to make him feel safe inside. I won't be the hand that he holds on the street or tell him it'll be okay anymore. He needs to do that on his own. He needs to, he has to even if it hurts like hell.
" It's time. The poison in me is going to hit my heart any second. You need to go." I demand, practically whispering. " Promise me three things you're going to be okay. You'll attend Berkeley. and most importantly you'll stay sober. Prom─"
" I can't." Landon was shell shocked. He didn't want to leave me. " Please you have to stay ali─"
" Remember when you had your first vape pen. Mr. Radcliff came storming into the locker room and asked is that cotton candy I'm smelling?"
" Yeah. Sophomore me lived for danger." He chuckles softly, sniffling. " He really fell for it."
We never ratted each other out. That means he needs to understand that he's not leaving me because of guilt. I'm always going to be with him even when he doesn't see me. It was our decision and we are paying for our mistakes.
" I lo─" Suddenly everything goes pitch black and I knew that in this moment it's the end of the road for me. I know Landon loves me even though he never said it. Even more so, I know him more than he knows himself. Meaning, he doesn't give up, he never fails. More importantly he'll do anything in his power to find Alvafyre.
" I'm sorry Conor but I'm carving my own path for you…yeah I guess that's what I'll fucking do." Landon wiped his tears, shattering the glass bottle that sat beside him. He's taking his grandfather advice to heart and carving it into a whole different organ. But he might need to lean to Satan for how to get there because it won't be easy. " Mate we're going to Brawling Cliffside."
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