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closetednobody · 2 years

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So is Carina supposed to keep her feelings? She is hurt too. Maya was crappy to her for the last 6 months and kept her in the dark. People need to stop blaming Carina and taking sides!

Hi OP! 😊

Well...

1. I'm not taking sides and definitely not blaming Carina.

2. And i agree, she is NOT supposed to keep her feelings, which she has been doing for the last 6 months. And tbh, she still was keeping it to herself during their argument on the rooftop.

But you are right, it's only fair if i write about Carina too... so, let's see, what might be the reasons why Carina reacted the way she did, shall we? (Note : the lack of Carina's backstory made it significantly harder for me to analyze it, but let's try)

Carina grew up surrounded by alpha, chaotic men that care about proving themselves more than anything else - more than they cared about her. Kind-hearted Carina thought that, we will get what we give, hence developing a habit of caring for broken people.

Carina has always been the caretaker of her family. Both Maya and Carina were taught that love is earned, not given - Maya earned it through obedience and gold medals, Carina earned it through submission and acts of service.

As a child parent, she probably thought that caring more, caring better, if she loves more, people will change, and her love and care will be reciprocated. HOWEVER similar (but not the same) to Maya, her love and care would almost always be neglected or even ridiculed by the people she loves.

Vincenzo laughed in her face when she offered to help with his research. Andrew accused her of stalking him when she didn't, "Is that what you think of me?", she asked him. Her mum left and never came back for her but the final moments that she had with her were, most probably, centered around how to manage Andrew and her dad. Not herself.

And then, her baby brother died.

Before his death, he gave Carina an ultimatum whether to follow him on the train or leave. She, of course, supported him. She knew what Maya would say, but maybe, maybe, she could be a better sister for Andrew if she followed him.

When Andrew died, she was quick to take the blame AND instead of thinking about her feelings, her main concern was about the errands and her father.

But her dad already knew about the news.

Her dad moved on. Her mom passed. Andrew passed. And her love couldn't change what she meant to them, no matter how much she gave.

Even with Arizona, she tried to convince her to love her more than once. But at the end, she gave up and dropped an advice to Helm, "Love is too precious to be wasted on someone who can't love you back."

And then comes the blonde firefighter in the bar.

Maya freaking Bishop.

Maya is broken and nobody cares about her. Perfect.

But Maya was different. Maya proved to her that she was different.

When she had nothing to offer but grief, Maya stood by her side and cared for her. "Nobody ever does that for me," she said.

Maya wanted her. Maya even changed her mind about wanting a baby for her, eventhough she probably still didn't want it, she thought.

When she wanted to tell Maya that she wanted to carry, she arranged a special day for them and offered care to Maya, in hope that Maya would consider her option.

When Maya prompted "you want to be the one who carries...", she was quick to justify that she had considered what Maya might've wanted. But then Maya surprised her again; "No. It should be you."

But Carina DeLuca was quick to offer something to 'compensate' the favor, suggesting that they should use Maya's egg - laying all the options.

But, Maya surprised her again, "Nope. It should be yours."

"I want to hold a little you."

For the first time in her life, someone wants her and counts her as a blessing for herself, instead of her service.

For the first time, she didn't have to check what does she have to give or do to earn love. Maya didn't demand for anything else, she just wants all of her.

But at the back of her mind, she was still not convinced that anyone could do that for her - to love her selflessly. It's impossible for her to just be happy.

Maya must be happy for another delay. Her job is her baby. Maya doesn't care about the donor. "Are we going back to square one?"

Just like when she said "i know you would freak out on me!" when Maya wanted to marry her.

There must be chaos following happiness and Carina is always subconciously predicting the next one.

Because our mind is conditioned to find patterns. And predict the next outcome based on what we have seen. Calculate probabilities. Presume reasons.

A self-fulfilling prophecy.

She was getting everything she wanted. She was happy.

And her mind started to search for signs.

Signs of the impending chaos.

Of course. Instead of being just like her dad - the goal-driven surgeon, or her brother - the reckless hero, Maya has to be a combination of both.

And it drives her crazy.

Her prophecy is slowly coming true.

They were happy and Maya created chaos.

They had happiness and Maya needed to wreck it.

See, Carina? This is how it will always be.

It's either they die or they move on, one way or another, they will leave. And nothing you do would be enough to make them stay.

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To conclude,

Our brain are prone to negativity bias to defend ourselves. It's a psychological survival mechanism. It generates simulations of outcomes, which produce affective reactions, which are then used as a basis for predictions about the future event's emotional consequences.

And Carina has been looking for signs for chaos to happen, waiting for something to go wrong - and when she found it, her response was emotional because she was anxious, and hurt.

And she was more anxious and hurt when she realized it is Maya and her own dream family that she might be losing now.

She is not wrong, eventhough her reactions might be.

She is just in love.

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mrsseverussnape · 3 years

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Love Is You - chapter 2

a/n: I made some new additions to the chapter while reading it. Wattpad, AO3 and Tumblr versions will be all different than each other😅 Whenever i read it before posting it on somewhere, i cannot stop myself and add new stuffs…

Ps: Severus is making an appearance in this chapter and we will see him more and more with each chapter😏

Also i am linking Sirius x Scar relationship post here, you can learn about their backstory😌

Scarlett has spent the night at her own house, of course she didn’t want to go back to their family house and even how much she needed a company tonight, she couldn’t go to her parents either since she didn’t know how to tell them what happened tonight.. Scarlett couldn't sleep even for a second; the moment she closed her eyes the bedroom scene appeared in her mind non-stop. So she decided to go to work early, there was no point in trying to sleep. She fixed herself as much as possible and headed to the Ministry of Magic. She went to the Minister of Magic's room directly, as the deputy minister she had to acquaint him about the conferences in Paris.

"Good morning sir."

"Good morning Scarlett. I wasn't expecting you that early. Have a seat please."

The Minister Dorian Blackwood poured some tea for themselves and opened a biscuit jar while she was sitting. They talked about Paris conferences for almost half an hour. The Minister has noticed that something was off with Scarlett since he knew her since she was little. But he decided to stay silent, if she wanted to talk she would.

"Before i leave, i need to tell you one more thing Dorian."

"Sure, i am listening."

Scarlett was scratching her hands and biting down on her lip. She was having second thoughts but she believed she had to do that. "I…I want to resign..."

Dorian raised his eyebrows in surprise, that was something he wasn’t expecting at all. "May i ask why? Because i see you as the next minister and i know you want that too, Scarlett. That was our plan."

"I do, i still do want that but i just can't work here anymore." She took a deep breathe, she continued to talk but her voice was shaking. "I don't know how to explain this at all but yesterday i found out something including a third party and i and Sirius are no longer in good terms. I don't want to come across with someone here and that someone is not Sirius..." Couple of tears escaped and ran down on her cheeks.

"Oh my dear girl...” Dorian walked up to her and rubbed her back to ease her pain a bit. Scarlett was like a daughter to him and he cared about her dearly. “I guess i understand the situation... but i don't want you to resign. Maybe we can do something else."

"What is that?" Scarlett looked at him questioningly.

"I am guessing that someone is not as important as you here so...I can do it right now."

She shook her head. "No not fire her, that won't be fair. It is my personal problem, Dorian."

"Okay whatever you want but just let me know if you change your mind, i can do anything for my lovely deputy minister. But i really want you to stay Scarlett, i don’t think you thought about that decision very clearly."

"I thank you for your kindness and for everything Dory but i don't think i will be in a good state of mind for a while. I don't even want to stay in London. Please accept my resign." Scarlett was almost begging at this point. The minister thought for a while then nodded slowly.

"I can't force you Scarlett, it is your decision in the end. But i am really upset about it, i will miss my partner in crime” Dorian gave her a sad smile. “Give me a week to arrange some stuff then you can fully resign. And you don’t have to come here this week, i will take care of it myself and promise me you will take care of yourself."

She nodded. "Thank you for your understanding, i am not happy about it either but that will be the best for everyone i guess... I cannot promise but i will try..."

Then she left the room before crying her eyes out, this was way harder than she thought. Then she went to the law department to arrange the divorce papers, this was even harder than the resign talk for her. It was hell of a day and she just wanted it to finish already. After the work, she went to their house to get some of her stuff since she didn’t have much in her house because it hasn’t been used for over 20 years. Unfortunately for Scarlett, Sirius has left the work early and he was at home. When he heard the door, he rushed to the doorway it had to be Scarlett.

"I knew you will be back Scarlett!" Sirius cheered with happiness, though he was looking rough. Apparently he didn’t have good night either.

"I didn't come here to stay, i will take some clothes then leave. I will be moving out as soon as possible." Scarlett said sternly without looking at him.

Before he could say anything else, she started to go upstairs where their bedroom was. Sirius followed her immediately like a puppy. She didn't want to enter the room after what she has seen yesterday but she had to, so she took a deep breath and started to pack a bag, avoiding looking at their bed.

"Scar, baby, we can talk and solve this, please."

She let out a laugh angrily. "We can solve it huh? You cheated on me right here, in OUR bed and now you are waiting for me to forget everything!? You have no idea how hard it is for me to be in this room right now. We are done, understand!? You will get the divorce papers in couple of days."

She took her suitcase and got out of the room as fast as possible. "I will take the rest of my stuff later."

"Scarlett..." he called out her name and held her hand before she could walk out the outside door.

She stood there for a second then turned to look at him for the first time today. The tears were collected in his moon coloured eyes, ah how much she loved his eyes. She has never seen him looking so sad, he was always the cheerful one with a grin on his lips. Seeing him like this gave her pain, she was very angry with him but the love she had for him wouldn’t disappear in a day. Then without a second thought she pressed her lips against his softly. It was a quick kiss, but it was full of mixed emotions. Then she pulled away and mumbled a "Goodbye." before she apparated and left Sirius there crying silently.

2 days have passed since Scarlett moved out and still she haven't talked to her kids or her parents about what's going on between her and Sirius. The twins were 21 years old so they could understand the situation, but she still didn't know how to tell them about it at all like their marriage was going great and in one night everything went upside down. Leonidas was working in New York and she didn't want to tell him through a letter, this would leave him with so many questions. He would probably come to London for Christmas, so Scarlett decided to wait till then. But Carina was working at Hogwarts and Scarlett got ready to go there, she didn’t want to lie to Carina through letters acting all was well. 2 hours later Scarlett was wandering around the castle, she hasn’t been there since she graduated. She didn't know where Carina's room was exactly, so she decided to go to the potions classroom since Carina was Professor Snape's assistant. She wasn’t ready to enter that class at all and that was why she avoided coming to Hogwarts for years but right now this was such a small problem beside the other things. Scarlett knocked on the class's door and heard the deep voice she knew very well saying "Come in." Severus Snape was ready to scold the person who interrupted their study but when he saw who it was, he stood there in shock, he couldn’t say a single word.

"Mum!?" Carina asked in surprise, she wasn’t expecting her at all.

"May i talk to my daughter privately, it is important." Scarlett requested but she was not looking at him directly.

Severus didn’t talk for couple of seconds then nodded lightly. "Yes. i will finish rest of the potion by myself Carina, you can leave."

Carina nodded and rushed to her mum. "Is everything okay mum?" She asked while they were leaving the class. Carina noticed she wasn’t looking any good, she wasn’t even wearing her signature red lipstick that she always do and that was concerning.

Carina escorted her to her chambers but she has started to panic, her mum’s silence wasn’t helping the situation at all.

"Mum could you please tell me what happened? Are my grandparents okay?"

"They are fine." Scarlett sat on the bed and motioned Carina to sit next to her. Scarlett's eyes have already filled with tears.

"Mummy? Are you alright?" Carina held her hand softy.

Scarlett shook her head as no, she was squeezing Carina’s hand to gain some power. "Carina, i and your dad... are having a divorce..." end of the sentence she was crying her eyes out.

"W-WHAT!? What happened mum!? I saw you two like 10 days ago and you were totally fine. What's that now?" She was in pure shock and couldn’t know how to act.

"We were... we were good at least that's what i thought... But apparently, we weren't because when i turned back from Paris, i found him..." she started to sob uncontrollably at this point, saying it out loud made it worse for her. "cheating..."

"Did you say cheating!? Daddy was cheating!?" This sentence was something that Carina has never imagined hearing in her life.

Scarlett just nodded; she was unable to talk.

Carina hugged her mum tightly "Shhh mummy, everything will be fine, we will get through it..."

She was trying to calm her mum down, but she was devastated herself too. Carina has always wanted a relationship like her parents had. They were the most in love couple she has ever seen in her life. But she just heard that her dad has cheated on her mum after all those years even they weren’t having any problems. Carina had no idea what to expect for the near future right now but she knew that she will be her mum’s side no matter what.

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davidcarner · 5 years

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Wanting It All Ch 10, A Different Type of Family

A/N: Since this is already posted somewhere else I will be putting up a few other fics today because, my life is insane, and they're sitting on my hard drive and I have no idea when I can post. Thanks to my super ninja beta michaelfmx for his help on this one. This one, well, start playing Etta. Welcome to Wanting It All Ch 10, A Different Kind of Family

Disclaimer: I don't own Chuck, and I love this one...even though I write on it rarely...

"What is he doing?" Zondra asked Carina.

Carina glanced out the window and saw Chuck sitting in front of the pool. Sarah had left with Jordan over two hours ago. Bob the assassin now had the security system Chuck had built, and left without incident. Chuck was pretty sure that Casey being on one side of him and Shaw on the other when he handed over the program had something to do with it. The CIA and NSA were already having a field day with the information the program was feeding them. As much as Daniel was mad, he didn't get to put a bullet in Gaez's head, he had to admit that Chuck was right. This way was better, and this way included a future with his son.

Carina and Zondra had left Chuck alone since the two Walkers departed earlier in the evening, but they were beginning to think they might have to do something soon. That was when Morgan opened the front door. As he entered, he stopped in his tracks, the same way he had ever since he first saw Carina.

"How is she so beautiful?" he muttered. He meant to say it to himself, but Morgan had never really mastered that technique.

Carina grinned at Morgan and studied him. "The beard." She paused and he stood there waiting gleefully for her words. "I like it."

He looked like he'd won the lottery. There was an awkward silence and Morgan realized it was his turn to talk in the conversation. "Jordan is having a hard time going to sleep because he misses Chuck."

Carina thought for a second. "Why are you here?" Morgan looked like the kid caught with his hand in the cookie jar. "While I assume you're glad to see me, I have to believe I wasn't the reason you came over here."

"It's not, but I'll spend every day going forward coming to see you if you let me." Carina and Zondra shared a glance.

Casey looked ill. "Christ, Grimes, spit it out before you drown yourself in lady feelings."

"He wants his room back," Carina said.

"OF COURSE I DO!" Morgan looked exasperated and threw his hands in the air. "I was the original roommate. There was nothing explicit in the house rules about me NOT sleeping on the couch El Buffo."

Zondra leaned over to Carina, and spoke in a muted voice, but loud enough for Morgan to hear. "Think he's as hairy everywhere else as he is on his face?." Morgan blushed and Carina smirked.

Something outside caught Morgan's eye. "Guys, Chuck's getting a phone call." They turned, watched Chuck talk on the phone, hang up, come inside, grab his keys, and head toward the door. "Chuck, where are you going?"

He spun towards them. "Jordan can't sleep, I'm going to see my s-" he paused. Morgan was grinning. "I'm going to see him and see if I can help him go to sleep."

"Good," Casey said, staring at the others. He was standing there, arms crossed, a no nonsense look on his face. No one said anything. "That kid's been through enough." Chuck nodded and headed out the door. Everyone turned toward Casey. "What?"

"Married in 6 months?" Carina asked. Casey laughed.

"Three," Morgan replied, and then, as though a thought hit him, went over to Chuck's computer."

"Grimes, what are you doing?"

"Oh, nothing, Casey. Just making sure my officiant's license is up to date."

-ooooo-

Chuck opened the door and saw Sarah on the couch with Jordan. Jordan looked up at Chuck and threw his hands up to be held. Chuck walked over, scooped him up, and sat down beside Sarah.

"What's wrong, Buddy? Your mom said you wanted to see me?"

Jordan pouted for a moment before asking, "Why can't we stay with you? Everyone else is." Chuck and Sarah exchanged a glance. He noticed she was fighting a smirk…not very well.

He looked down at Jordan, intentionally ignoring Sarah. "But, Buddy, you just moved to this house. Don't you want to stay here in your room."

Jordan just shrugged. "I like being at your place better." Chuck felt, rather than saw, Sarah wince at that one. He wasn't sure what to say. "Don't you want us there, Chuck?"

Sarah had heard enough. It was one thing when she got to see him get just a bit uncomfortable when Chuck was thinking about asking them to move in, but for Jordan to emotionally blackmail him… "Okay, Jordan, I think that's enough for tonight. Chuck came over and you got to see him, you promised you would go to bed if you saw him."

Jordan gave Chuck a hug. "Thank you, Chuck."

"Hey, Buddy, it's not that I don't want you there, it's just that's something your mom and I have to figure out. My dad left me when I was a kid, so I get it. But I'm not leaving, I'll be at my house, and you can call me, and I'll see you. I know I'm not your dad, but I'm not leaving."

Sarah took Jordan toward the bedroom. "Good night, Chuck," Jordan called out.

"Good night, Buddy."

Chuck and Sarah locked eyes for a moment. She had an indescribable smile on her face, and then disappeared down the hall. Chuck sat on the couch, not sure what to do. In a perfect world they'd be a family, and Jordan would be his son. Jordan wanted to live with him, Chuck nearly called him his son earlier. Chuck was so confused as to what to do.

"I'm so sorry, Chuck. I didn't intend for him to say that." Chuck looked up at Sarah and gave her a grin. "He's having trouble."

"Hey, at least it's that he wants to see me instead of not wanting to see me." She sat down beside him and squeezed his leg. "I'm sorry I'm causing the problem."

She gave him a level look. "Chuck, you're not the problem. He thinks he has a second dad and he's kinda better than the first. This is on Daniel, not you."

Chuck looked down at his hands. "Full truth?" He looked over and saw her nod. "When I left my house and they asked me where I was going, I nearly said to see my son." Sarah pulled both her lips between her teeth to keep from smiling. "Since you've left, I've missed you two."

"If only there was something we could do about it," she commented softly.

He looked her in the eye. "Are we moving too fast?"

She shook her head, an amused smile on her face. "Not fast enough if you ask me." Chuck's jaw dropped and she bounced a shoulder. "You asked. Deal with it." Chuck gave her a look that nearly melted her. He took her hand, gently tugging her toward him. She surprised him by planting her far foot, stepping over him, and sitting on his lap facing him. She smirked at him.

He pulled her toward him, their foreheads touching. He kissed the tip of her nose, earning a smile, and then he slowly captured her lips with his. She squirmed against him, a happy sigh escaping. His arms wrapped around her torso and she wrapped hers around his neck. His fingers ran gently across her back and touched the bare skin where her pants and shirt met. She pulled back quickly.

"Chuck, we can't…Jordan."

He nodded, a mixture of understanding and frustration on his face. She stood up, and he did the same. He gave her a hug as she looked at him questioningly. He walked over to the door, turning back to look at her as he started turning the doorknob.

She decided to end this quickly before he did something really stupid. "Where the hell do you think you're going, Bartowski?"

"Uh, you just said, right there," pointing toward the couch. "Chuck, we can't."

"That's right, we can't right there. I have a son and he doesn't need to see that." She walked toward him smirking, as he worked out her words in his head. She locked the door, and took his hand, leading him down the hallway. "Worked it out, yet?"

"I'm a little slow."

"Now we know that's not true, Nerd Boy."

"How come it sounds so hot when you call me that?" She pulled him into her bedroom, shut the door, grabbed his arm, spun him as he hit the door and she trapped him there against it. "This is new," he sputtered.

"Nah, I just didn't want to scare you back then," she said with a wink. "I love you Chuck Bartowski. I have for a long time."

"I love you Sarah. And I am begging you, if this is a dream, please don't wake me."

"Deal, now quiet, mamma has work to do."

"That shouldn't be so mrphf." Sarah began to kiss him and he began to get lost in her. He felt his shirt being pulled out of his pants, the buttons slowly unbuttoned. She pulled away as she pushed his shirt off him and she stared into his eyes. He saw love there…a whole lot of lust, but love. She stepped back, pulled off her shirt, and shucked off her pants. Chuck swallowed. He walked towards her, wrapping his arms around her waist. She lifted an eyebrow, smiled, and pulled him toward the bed. He reached for his pants, and she smacked his hand gently, making him smile.

"Stop, I want to enjoy this." Chuck grinned at her. She unbuttoned his pants and pulled down the zipper, looking in his eyes the entire time. A saucy smile covered her face. He leaned down, capturing her lips in his. Her eyes widened in surprise a second later when her bra was unfastened.

"I'm sorry, was it only supposed to be you enjoying yourself it?" He waggled an eyebrow at her, and she tackled him to the bed. She grabbed his pants and flung them off, and then her bra. Chuck lay there, trying to figure out where to look.

"What, you not enjoying yourself?" She waggled her eyebrows with that one.

"You're gonna get it now, Missy." Before he could move, she pounced on him. A minute later they were both naked, him on his back, her over him. There was a momentary pause as they looked into each other's eyes, trying to figure out if the other was sure about taking this further. Chuck broke the silence first.

"Sarah, are you sure?"

"Sure about what, Chuck? Am I sure I'm in love with you and I want this more than anything? Am I sure that I want you in my life every single day? Am I sure I want you in Jordan's life? Yes. Am I sure that you're going to survive this? No."

Chuck took his hand and rubbed the back of his fingers on her face. She closed her eyes and got lost in the touch. She opened them and leaned forward. "Hi," he said with a grin.

"Hi," she replied with her own grin.

"I think we need to have a long talk about things."

"Later if you don't mind, I'm busy."

"You mean, gettin' busy." Sarah gave him a look. "Right, shut up and kiss you. It's always that I'm too talkative. I mean mphf." The kiss quieted him for the moment. Then he wasn't as quiet, but that was okay, because she wasn't either.

-ooooo-

"Don't go," he muttered with a crackly voice. Daylight was just making its way through the bedroom window. Chuck had started to leave last night, not because he didn't want to stay, but because he didn't want to make things weird for Jordan. Sarah asked him to stay. They had made sure they were dressed somewhat, just in case.

"Hey, I'm just gonna get Jordan up so I can get him to preschool." She stretched and he felt every inch of her against him.

He let out a low groan. "You are positively evil." He opened an eye and saw her beside him, propped on an elbow looking him over, smirking. "You look proud of yourself."

She bounced a shoulder. "What can I say, Nerd Boy, you know how to scratch my itches."

He took the backs of his fingers and softly stroked her cheek, a slight look of melancholy shadowing his features. "You know, this is all I thought about all that time we were apart." She started to say something but he quickly shook his head. "No, I'm not upset, it's just I love you, and if I could do this every day, start the morning off just seeing you…."

She took his hand and rubbed it against her face. "You can."

"Tell me how."

She grinned at him, lowered herself onto his left side. "I have it on good authority there's room at your place and Jordan would love to live there."

"But what about Jordan? Do, do you really think-" The bedroom door open and both Chuck and Sarah turned to look at Jordan, who walked in, looking sleepy.

"Mommy, can I have cereal for breakfast this morning?"

"Absolutely," she chirped. Chuck was holding in the laughter of the ridiculousness of the situation. "Chuck was nice enough to stay over and see you this morning."

"Thanks, Chuck." He turned and left the room.

Chuck let out a breath. "Well, that went better than expected."

Jordan came back into the room. "Wouldn't it be easier if we just stayed at your house?"

"Jordan," Sarah began.

"Sarah, may I?" She gave him a look, shrugged, and settled into his arms. "Jordan, buddy, what if you and your mom moved in with me?"

"Would Mommy get her own room?"

Sarah let out a wet laugh. "Jordan, I don't want my own room."

Jordan thought about it for a second. "Okay, but Morgan said he wanted to live there too."

Sarah was snickering into Chuck's shoulder, and Chuck was just shaking his head. "Jordan, buddy, uncle Morgan and I have to have a loooooong talk before he can stay."

"But we are?"

Chuck turned to Sarah. "It's up to your mom, Buddy." Sarah grinned at him.

-ooooo-

"I think the short one should get to stay," Carina said. Carina, Zondra, Casey, and Chuck were all in the living room talking about how things would be. The house was built in a way that it could have two separate families live there. Ellie always kidded him it was so she could move in with Awesome and their family one day. Chuck had never told her she was right, but she was.

"You talking about the bearded gnome or the cute one?" Zondra asked.

Carina grinned. "Sounds like the same guy to me."

"Fine, he sleeps in the room beside you," Casey muttered.

"You guys know I kicked him out last time for sleeping El Boffo." Chuck wanted to make sure everyone knew what they were signing up for.

"Carina is well aware," Zondra commented.

Chuck looked around the room. "I would like you three to say whatever you are going to say about the new living situation now. I mean it, get it out now."

"Do you think we can get reimbursed for having to buy earplugs?" Casey asked.

"How many Chucks can a Sarah-" Carina began.

"WHOA! WHOA! WHOA!" Chuck yelled. Carina and Zondra were crying they were laughing so hard. "Perhaps I didn't think this through."

"Didn't think what through?" Sarah asked, walking in with Jordan. Chuck turned to her and smiled.

"Telling Carina to get all her lewd comments out at once," Zondra answered.

"What's a lewd comment?" Jordan asked. Everyone turned to Zondra, Chuck and Sarah with the same amused expression on their faces.

"It's a bad comment that Carina isn't going to make around you," Chuck replied, staring at Carina. Carina bit the inside of her jaw. "Isn't that right, Carina?"

"No, DAD, I'm not."

"Chuck's your dad?" Jordan asked, his eyes wide.

Sarah was beside herself. First Chuck was watching out for Jordan, now Carina had stepped in it. She decided to take over before it got worse. Sarah squatted down beside him. "No, Sweetie. She's calling Chuck dad because Chuck is looking out for you."

"Isn't that what good dads do?"

Sarah wasn't sure how to answer.

"Kid," Carina began. "He'll make sure nothing happens to you, or me, or Zondra, or any of us, because Chuck is a good dude. So, in that way, he's a dad."

Jordan turned toward Chuck smiling. "So he's my dad. I'm going to my room." Chuck started to say something, shut his mouth, and turned to Sarah, who was grinning like the cat who ate the canary. He spun toward Carina.

"You're welcome, Curls," Carina said shrugging. "You know it was destined to happen, I just sped it all up." Sarah laughed, wrapped her arm around his, and pulled him away.

"Hey," he said softly. "I meant to say this earlier, but well, you walked into some stuff. Welcome home."

She looked at him, her eyes full of tears. She turned into him and kissed him softly. She was here. She was finally home.

-ooooo-

Later, after everyone had retired to different sides of the house, the front door opened and Morgan entered, his hands in the air like he had returned, victorious.

"Honey, I'm home!" Sarah chuckled. "Chuck, I swear, I'll behave."

"Not up to me, it's up to them," Chuck said, jerking his thumb to the other side of the house. Morgan opened his arms, and Chuck stood and hugged him.

"Night, buddy, love you," Morgan said, heading down the hallway.

"Love you too, buddy."

Sarah shook her head at the two of them. "Come on, Jordan, it's bedtime."

"Okay, Mom." He hopped up, came over and hugged Chuck. "Night, Chuck, love you," he said, mimicking Morgan. Chuck caught Sarah's eye. It was indescribable.

He pulled away, and ruffled Jordan's hair. "Love you too, Buddy." Jordan wrapped his arms around Chuck again. Sarah led him to the bedroom, wiping the tears from her eyes. Chuck sat there for a second and realized, he had the woman he loved, and the family he always dreamed of. It was up to him to not make the same mistakes his parents did.

A/N: Hoped you liked it, reviews and PMs are always welcomed…til next time.

#Chuck #Sarah #Charah #fanfic #fanfiction #Wanting It All

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Love Is You - chapter 5

a/n: The chapter moodboards don’t end up how i want them to be… i can find better pics but i don’t wanna change my face claims for the characters + since they are in their 50s in the story, it is even harder. Also i wanna tell the face claims i use for the characters. Scarlett: Isabelle Huppert, Sirius: mostly Gary Oldman but sometimes Johnny Depp, Severus: Alan Rickman.

It was Friday and Carina hasn't heard anything from her dad whole week. She was worried about him because he was staying all alone. Carina decided to go to Remus's room to ask him if he got any letters from her dad. She knocked on his door and second later heard. "Come in".

"Carina hi! How are you doing?" He smiled softly at his goddaughter.

"Hey uncle Rem. I had better days to be honest." She sighed and sat down.

"Do you want to talk?"

She nodded. "It has been so hard for me since the divorce. I am trying to keep it together for mum but... it is just too much..." her eyes were full of unshed tears.

Remus poured some tea for her and handed her some chocolate while sitting next to his goddaughter.

"If crying will relieve you, you can cry. I understand that it is not easy for you and also you have to take care of your mum." He rubbed her back.

"Seeing mum like this hurting me so much. I am scared that she will do something to herself..."

"Shhhh Carina, she won't do that. If i know Scar, she doesn't hurt herself for someone's stupid act."

"I would say that too in the past but she doesn't act like herself lately."

"She will feel better soon, everything is just so new right now. She wasn't ready for any of these stuffs."

"Me neither." Carina sighed. "Thank you for being there for us."

Remus hugged her and kissed her head "You don't need to thank me, i will always be there for you all."

"Actually, i came here to ask you about dad, have you ever heard from him? He didn't reply my letters and i started to worry."

Remus shook his head "No i haven't, actually i was thinking to go and check on him after my last period."

"I'd like to come with you and spend the weekend with him. I am still angry with him, but he needs someone too..."

"That would be nice but what about your mum? Can she stay alone?"

"She doesn't get out of the room if i don't force her to do so, i guess she will be fine and i can ask professor Snape to check on her about the pills."

"To Snape?"

"Yeah, it turned out they were classmates and mum talks to him, not much but still."

"Yeah, they were... I need to go to my class Carina, meet me here after it okay? Then we can go."

"Yeah sure, see you later."

They both left the room; Remus went to his classroom and Carina headed to the potions class. Snape was marking some quiz papers.

"Hello professor."

"Hello." He kept marking.

"Can i ask a favour from you, sir?"

He nodded while still marking a paper.

"I need to see my dad today and i am planning to spend the weekend with him and professor Lupin. Mum will stay here, could you please check on her occasionally?" She sighed "I know i am boring you with all my requests lately but some serious family issues are going on... i am sorry."

He put his quill down and looked at her.

"You don't need apologize Carina. I will check on her, do i need to know anything that she supposed to do or else?"

"Thank you so much professor, that means a lot to me. Umm she has to take her pills after the breakfast and the dinner, and she shouldn't have any alcohol. But she is not willing to do any of these..."

"Okay, i will make sure she eats and takes her pills."

"Thank you very much, i will return the favour." Then Carina left to pack her stuff for the weekend and let her mum know.

Carina and Remus arrived at Carina's family house. She opened the door and walked in, strong alcohol and cigarette scents welcomed them.

"Dad?"

She called while Remus was picking up some empty beer bottles. They found him on the floor lying with photo albums.

"Dad!? Dad can you hear me?" Carina shook him worriedly.

Sirius grunted and mumbled obscure things. Remus helped him to sit.

"Sirius? Are you alright buddy?"

He shook his head and tried to reach the wine bottle.

"No more alcohol Sirius, you need to pick yourself up. Drinking won't change anything. Carina can you make a strong coffee for him?"

Carina just nodded and went to the kitchen. She wasn't expecting her dad to be that much bad, she was shaken by it.

"At least do it for your kids, Carina is miserable between you and Scarlett. You don't think yourself but think about your daughter." Remus whispered angrily.

He just nodded lightly when Carina was back with the coffee.

"Here, dad."

"Thanks, my little star." He smiled to her.

"We will spend the weekend with you. We can do whatever you want."

"I don't know what you want Padfoot but after the coffee you have to take a shower. You stink." Remus made a funny face.

Carina giggled. "Uncle Rem is right daddy."

"Fine, i will." Sirius drank his coffee slowly. He wanted to ask about Scarlett but then he remembered the things Remus just said and decided not to make his daughter more stressed and sadder about the situation, wanted to let her to breathe a little bit.

Scarlett was curling up on the bed and crying. She was trying to hold her tears back when Carina was around but actually all she wanted to do was cry her heart out. The scene she saw in their bedroom, the things Arabelle said and Sirius were on her mind on replay. She couldn't stop thinking about these and they were killing her softly. Then she heard a knock on the door but she ignored it. But the person behind the door was persistent and kept knocking until she answered it. Professor Snape was standing there. He immediately understood that she was crying, her cheeks were still wet from the tears and her eyes were red.

"Are you okay?" He asked but he knew it was such a stupid question and the answer was clear.

Scarlett ignored the question.

"Carina is not here and won't be till the Sunday night." She was about to close the door but he held it. She was surprised by that.

"I know. Did you have dinner?"

"No?"

"Do you want to join me tonight?"

"Why are you doing that? Carina wanted that didn't she? You don't need to babysit me."

"I am not doing that because she told me to. I don't know what you are going through but i want to help. So will you join me for dinner? No is not an option."

She sighed and gave in. "Fine. But i am not eating with the crowd."

"Okay, just you and me. I can bring some food here, is it okay?"

She nodded.

"Any food requests?"

"No but can you bring some wine?"

"No i can't, sorry."

He went to the kitchens and got some food for them. Meanwhile Scarlett washed her face and cleaned the table a bit. Snape walked in with the foods since she left the door ajar.

"Cheese tortellini and raspberry cheesecake, good?" Severus knew she loves these two so he hoped she would eat them.

"Good, thank you." She sat down. "Sorry about my nightgown, since i don't go anywhere i don't change it."

"It is fine by me, don't worry."

They ate in silence, but it was not an awkward silence though. Then Scarlett took her pills before he said anything.

"What are those pills for?" He asked in concern.

"They are supposed to make me less depressed and less anxious but apparently not working." She let out a nervous laugh.

"If you want to talk, i am here."

She needed to talk to someone desperately since she couldn't talk to Carina because she was already dealing with her shit for days and Scarlett didn't want to make her even more sad. But she wasn't sure if Snape was the right person to talk about this situation. He was seeing that she was struggling and tearing up.

"I need to stay alone, please..."

"It is okay, i will see you in the morning okay?" He stood up and picked up the dishes.

"Okay. Thank you."

"Good night."

Severus smiled softly and left. But all he wanted to do was stay and comfort her. He could tell that she was in so much pain but refusing to share, classic Scarlett.

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