#know who he was if i hadnt already known

[httpsuniverse]

mr lover [ ben chilwell ]

— right where you left lover girl sequel, this takes place two years later!

[ 𝗣𝗔𝗜𝗥𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗔𝗡𝗗 𝗖𝗛𝗔𝗥𝗔𝗖𝗧𝗘𝗥𝗦 ] — ben chilwell x singer!reader . ⊹ ✶ ㄔ 🫂 °.   *

[ 𝗗𝗘𝗧𝗔𝗜𝗟𝗦 & 𝗪𝗔𝗥𝗡𝗜𝗡𝗚𝗦 ] — romance, mentions pregnancy, google translated french . ⊹ ✶ ㄔ ℹ️ °.   *

࣪˖ 💭 .. 𝗘𝗬𝗔’𝗦 𝗡𝗢𝗧𝗘𝗦 ⌕ clearing my drafts again 😵‍💫 if you ask me, i’m obsessed with singer!reader fics lol

this work is purely fictional. names, characters, places and incidents either are products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. © httpsuniverse, 2023. do not steal, repost in other platforms, translate and/or claim this work as your own.

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benchilwell family time

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user am i reading this right ?? ‘family’ time ??

user his dog clinging to y/n is the cutest thing ever

user they’re such dog parents 😭

yourusername my babyyy my babyyy

benchilwell which one?

yourusername one of you will be in a lot of pain if i say who

benchilwell 🙄

yourusername

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yourusername look at me, i am the favourite hooman now.

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user not y/n quoting from captain phillips 😭

benchilwell once i get back home, i will take my title back

yourusername NONSENSE! you cannot dethrone the current favourite hooman

user y/n saying hooman instead of human 😭 that’s so dog momma of her

yourusername i birthed this child

benchilwell huh

yourusername huh

user pls he looks so comfy on y/n’s lap, he’s obviously not a lap dog

yourusername if he fits, he sits

user agreed 🤝

user why did all this time i thought y/n was a cat person

user she literally loves any kind of animal 😭 she adopted a ferret when she was a kid

yourusername omg !! mr fuzzy wuzzy was my childhood pet 🥹 maybe i should adopt another ferret

benchilwell what? no way

yourusername heheheheheheheeh

benchilwell

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benchilwell home is where the heart is.

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yourusername but god i love the english

benchilwell you know i love a london boy

yourusername 🫣🫣

user ben at this point, you really are the extra hooman

benchilwell i cant blame him

yourusername i told you i birthed this dog

benchilwell 😂

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yourprivate hehe oops

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mikaspriv what the fuck is this how i find out ?!?!?!!

yourprivate heheheheheheheeheh

mikaspriv IM PACKING MY BAGS AND HOPPING ON THE NEXT PLANE

benspriv little chilly 🔜

masonspriv i never wouldve known if i hadnt opened this account

reecespriv me too mate

christiansprivme three

jackspriv me four

benspriv me five

yourpriv what

benspriv what

yourusername and benchilwell

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yourusername we’re getting him a human in a few months 🙈

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benchilwell babe i thought we already agreed what the caption will be

yourusername mines funnier

benchilwell 🙄

masonmount who thought that covering his eyes would be cute

yourusername mine. do you have any problem with that? 😀

masonmount i don’t maam, it’s a great idea, very very cute!

user this is the cutest announcement 😭

user as a fellow dog mummy, i approve of this post!

weratedogs 100/10 for being such a good boy and will be the goodest big brother!

user as a y/n fan since debut, i feel OLD (we’re the same age)

yourusername omg since debut album?!?!?! 😳 we have to meet like RIGHT NOW

user y/n went from writing how she’s stuck in the past, to loving herself and loving a new person 🥹 now she’s probably gonna write something about her baby ... just thinking about it rn makes me emotional

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england congratulations benchilwell and yourusername! 🤍

chelseafc shall we make a onesie for baby chilwell?

yourusername omg YES PLEASE

benchilwell 🤦🏻‍♂️

yourusername JUST IMAGINE HOW CUTE OUR BABY WILL BE ON THAT ONESIE

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benchilwell eleanor chilwell is here 🩷👨🏻‍🍼 you did good mama, i’m proud and grateful to you, yourusername. i love you both

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yourusername thank you dada, we love you too 🩷

yourusername

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yourusername the happiest i’ve ever been 🩷 merci pour tout mon benji. je t'aime toi et eleanor de tout mon coeur. (thank you for everything, my benji. i love you and eleanor with all my heart)

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benchilwell 🩷🩷

user several chapters missed but i’m glad to see you so happy y/n 🥹

user i was surprised when they announced she was pregnant, bit i was more surprised to know that they’re married now 😭

user the hand placements of ben 😭

user i’m so alone yall

user AAA y/n 🥺

user literally went from being dog parents to real parents 🥺🩷

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yourusername darling, don’t you ever grow up... just stay this little. happy birthday my sweet eleanor🩷 mama (with the help of dada) wrote a song for you baby, me and dada loves you sooo much. never grow up out now ✨

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benchilwell growing up too fast, my ellie bear 🥲

user ellie bear... 😭 bens such a girl dad

user stopp im emo im not even a parent

user omg eleanor looks so cute!!

user milks expensive, im too young to be a mum

user my daily mantra every time i see ben or y/n post eleanor

user they have a little ballerina 🥺

user 4 years old already? 😭 time really flew by omg

yourusername i know right 🥺

user y/n and her happy ending 🥺 CURRENTLY TAKING A BATH WITH MY TOASTER RN

#ben chilwell fluff #ben chilwell imagine #ben chilwell x reader #ben chilwell #ben chilwell scenario #ben chilwell x you #ben chilwell x y/n #football imagine #football x y/n #football x you #football x reader #ben chilwell instagram au #football instagram au

[redr0sewrites]

HI IM THE KAFBLADE ANON. I CANT TELL YOU HOW EXCITED I WAS WHEN I SAW THE POST BRO LIKE??? YOU DID BOTH??? AND THE FIC IS SO GOOD?? 😭🙏

now. i have another request. yes its about blade. i want to fuck him until he cries!! and ride his overstimulated dick after creaming inside him!!!! and spit in his mouth while doing that!!!! still pissed he didnt come home and i got an actual baby girl (bailu) instead of MY babygirl.

ALSO if u wanted a name for me u can call me liz :3

AAA TYSM FOR THE WONDERFUL REQ LIZ!!!!! IM GLAD U ENJOYED IT!!!! UR SO REAL FOR THIS BLADE IS SOOO UGRHEHDH

🥀CW: smut, spit kink, marking, dom/sub dynamics, choking, overstimulation, sub!blade, dacryphilia, reader is amab, use of (name) like once

🥀 minors dni

Blade shuddered beneath you, cock twitching against the confines of his boxers as you pinned him against the bed in a messy kiss. you grinded down against him, raking your nails down the front of his chest as you did so causing blade to whine in pleasure. blade's hips bucked up as you caught his bottom lip between your teeth, and you pulled away leaving a trail of spit in the space between your lips.

"flip over. now" you ordered harshly, making quick work of your undergarments. blade did as he was told, turning onto his stomach and removing his boxers as well. you pulled him up harshly so he was leaning on his hands and knees. your cock was painfully hard, you needed to feel his hole clenching around you. you reached to a bottle on the bedside table and rubbed a generous amount of lube on your cock. you harshly grabbed the back of blade's neck, using your weight to pin him down. blade's arms buckled, unable to support both of your weight's combined and he immediately crumpled, switching positions so his face was now buried in the mattress and his ass was still lifted.

"aw, look at you, bending over like a bitch in heat. you look like some free use whore, all bent over like that~ who wouldve known you had such a submissive side to you bladie~" your words made blade whimper beneath you, and his hips bucked slightly in the air, begging you to enter him.

you position yourself over him, and rub your hard cock over his ass and against his weeping hole. blade moans beneath you, already pent up and you hadnt even done anything!

"your so worked up bladie~ just relax.." you coo softly, tightening your grip around his neck slightly and positioning yourself to slide in. his hole practically sucked you in, and you bottomed out almost immediately. you began thrusting almost instantly and blade shook beneath you, face pressed into the mattress as you grew faster and faster.

"this is what you wanted, isnt it? to be fucked like a slut? come on, ive barely started and your already whimpering!" you accentuated each word with an even harsher thrust and blade sobbed beneath you, his release already building.

"please- im gonna come- mmhmm~" blade was gasping, clawing at the mattress as you tightened your grip on his neck. he was seeing stars, eyes rolling to the back of his head in pleasure as his orgasm ripped through him. your own orgasm came quickly, and after a few more rough thrusts your own high filled your senses.

you didnt stop, your pace still unrelenting.

"mhm- ple- pleaaugh~ please, i just- auh~ (name)!" you didnt dare stop, not with the adrenaline and pure pleasure pumping through your veins.

"come on bladie, i know you can give me more than that. aeons, you take my cock so well, its like you were made for it~" your words made blade sob beneath you, the bed frame was shaking beneath the two of you as you roughly slammed him down against the bed, gripping his hips so hard that bruises were already forming beneath your hands. blade was babbling, sobbing your name like a prayer while his hole gripped you like a vice. his second orgasm washed over him, mouth agape in a silent scream as tears streamed down his cheeks. blade looked so pathetic like this, you couldn't help but bite down hard against his shoulder.

your own orgasm washed over you, and a ring of cum and slick surrounded the base of your cock, leaking from blade's hole and making a delicious squelching sound with every thrust. you scooped some up on your fingers, and brought it to blades mouth.

"open up!" you said, and blade took yout fingers into his mouth, slurping and swallowing your slick, his tongue running over your fingers. you suddenly forced them deeper into his mouth and he choked, gasping for air as you continued to mercilessly rail into him. yet another orgasm washed over the both of you, and at this point blade was sobbing and gasping beneath you. his face was sticky and wet with tears, cheeks a flushed pink. his shoulders were littered in bite marks and scratches, and his legs were trembling so much you could feel the vibrations against your skin.

"aw, bladie, you look so fucked out like this~ do you want me to ride you? you want to make me feel good, dont you? wanna be good for me?" blade nodded at your words, so eager to please. he was so obedient, so sweet, it made your stomach twist with lust just thinking about it.

the both of you switched positions, blade laying below you and looking up at you with wet lashes, his hair splayed out below him. you moved to straddle him, his cock rubbing against your ass making both of you moan sinfully. you sunk down onto blade's cock, blade was whimpering and mewling below you as you began to ride him, roughly tweaking his nipples as you balanced yourself on his chest.

you lean down, yet another orgasm making you shiver and blade whimpers beneath you. you roughly grab his throat, catching his lips in a messy kiss. it wasnt a sweet kiss by any means, all teeth and tongue. blade was gasping, he had barely recovered from his high and could feel another orgasm brewing in his stomach. he whimpered, letting out a moan as you pulled away, spit dripping onto his perfect chest.

"open up~" you smirk down at him, your hand still wrapped around his throat. blade does as hes told, and you lean down, spitting into his mouth and squeezing his neck tight, causing him to gasp and gag. his hands claw at your back, hips jerking up violently. there is a prominent bulge in your stomach from the size of blade compared to your smaller form, and you drag one of blades hands to rest over the bump.

"god, your fucking me so well, huh? look at how deep you are, feel that?" your words are filthy, and blades hips jerk up as the both of you reach yet another orgasm. your clenching around him so tight hes sobbing, tears streaming down his face. hes already came so many times, hes shooting blanks with no more cum left as you bring him to his final peak of pleasure. you collapse atop him, struggling to calm your breathing.

"fuck, blade- that might've been the best orgasm of my life. you did so good for me, you hear? so, so good." blade looks up, cheeks flushed and hair sticking to his forehead. you lean down and press a gentle kiss to the tip of his nose.

"lets go get cleaned up, does that sound okay?" blade nods, and you pull yourself off of him. he flinches in overstimulation, and when you both stand up he is a little shaky. you grab his hand, pressing a soft kiss to his neck as the two of you make your way to the bathroom. blade stops abruptly, grabbing your chin and kissing you on the lips. you hum softly, and the both of you bask in the warmth of eachother as you kiss and hold eachother.

i can NOT believe i wrote this 💀 pls i have never written smut before i started this blog i am lowkey proud of this i feel like im in an endless loop of saying thrust, cock, and moan when im writing smut 😭 ANYWAYS, HOPE U ENJOYED!!!! FEEL FREE TO SEND MORE HSR REQS!!!!!

#blade x y/n #blade x you #blade x reader #blade smut #blade x male reader #sub blade hsr #sub blade #blade x reader smut #blade honkai #blade hsr #honkai star rail blade #honkai star rail smut #honkai star rail x reader #honkai star rail #honkai star rail x you #sub honkai star rail #sub hsr #pls bladie is so fine and for what #i need him so bad its not even funny #hsr x reader smut #hsr x y/n #hsr x you #hsr x male reader #hsr x reader #hsr x gender neutral reader

[mattsonly]

Too innocent part 2!

Warnings: not much, starts off a bit smutty but shortlived, just fluff but a lil suggestive! no use of y/n

a/n: seeing as part two was most requested on my poll, here you go :) everyone say ty to the person that requested itttt

Moments managed to feel like hours, hours of heavenly bliss. Matt, comfortably situated inside of you, his chest flush with yours and his face in the crook of your neck, soft breathes fanning your damp skin like feather light touches.

Two bright smiles, so dangerously face-splitting your already warm cheeks began to ache at your evident joy. Finally, finally being where you had wanted to be.

The soft scratch of the boy's stubble against your chin had your eyes searching in the dim light to find his own, of which were already boring into you adoringly.

If you hadnt known better, you'd think the person you were intimate with just a moment ago and the one hovering above you now were two very different people. Matt acted so gently towards you, softly landing gentle kisses to the apples of your cheeks, the tip of your nose and finally a kiss so light onto your lips it felt barely there.

It were as if you were made of glass, as if you were a real angel, which you still were in Matt's eyes. The contradicting pace of his animalistic thrusts inside you compared to his now ever-so-light touches had your mind fuzzy, your cheeks tainted a faint pink once again.

An all-consuming, empty feeling engulfed your body, an immediate shiver rushing over your body and causing goosebumps to rise on your clammy skin when Matt sits up, gently easing his now softened dick out of you. Noticing your face of discomfort alongside the audible whine at the lack of contact has his palm clutching yours, bringing your hand to his face and gently kissing your knuckles.

"I know, i'm sorry but i've gotta get you cleaned up, angel" even his words were hitting your ears like soft whispers, as if hitting a note slightly above a murmur would shatter you.

Your head tilted to the side drearily, slightly nuzzling into your pillow as you watch the brunette walk into the ensuite bathroom, shutting the door slightly to access the towel rack behind it. The sudden running of the tap has you mildly more awake, situating yourself so your elbows are propped against your plush pillows

Only seconds later the water stops, and Matt is exiting the bathroom, a damp towel in clutch as he walks over to you with his all-familiar dopey smile. Upon reaching where your practically limp body lies, soft hands gently pry open your legs and wipe away any remnants of your previous physical activity.

The twitch of your thighs didn't go unnoticed, a barely audible "i know angel, i'm sorry" hitting your ears. After getting you cleaned up and tossing the towel into the laundry basket, a stable arm wrapped around your back, slowly pulling you up into a sitting position. "Want some of my clothes to wear?" Matt asked, a gleam of hope in his eyes depending on your answer.

Said gleam progressed into a wide smile at the gentle nod of your head, him immediately standing up and grabbing some clean boxers and his favourite shirt before kneeling infront of you once again. Your leg lifted a few inches off the ground, slipling into where Matt held tbe wasitband open for you to slip into, after doing the same with the other leg, you stood up slowly on unstable feet, your thighs threatening to fail your stability.

Earning a laugh from Matt, who slid the boxers up your legs and over the curve of your ass, landing a light tap on the area as a signal for you to sit back down after. Complying, of course, your arms were elevated above your head by the boy infront of you to enable him to slip the shirt down your body. Despite your previous actions, the soft hum that escaped your lips had Matt believing you were the sweetest and purest soul existing, his own lips curving into a smile.

After situating himself in another pair of boxers and a plain white shirt, he manouvers your legs from the ledge of the matress, allowing him to slip next to you.

The atmosphere in the room hangs heavy with tranquility and affection as you slip your body to lay atop Matt's chest, the soft drumming of his heartbeat easing the dull fuzz in your mind, bringing you back to a coherent and comprehensive state of mind.

The gentle strokes of his fingers combing through your hair has your entire body relaxing and fingers wandering cluelessly to find Matt's hand. The air in the room was almost opaque, clouded by adoration from the both of them.

In a serene and intimate setting, two souls find themselves lying side by side, their bodies entwined in a tender embrace. The room is bathed in a soft, warm glow, casting gentle shadows upon their peaceful faces. Their eyes meet, revealing a depth of affection that words cannot express. Fingers now interlaced after your hand finally located Matt's, they share a silent language of love, their touch speaking volumes.

Time seems to stand still as they bask in the tranquility of the moment, their hearts beating in sync. The rise and fall of their chests synchronize, a rhythm of love and contentment.

Each breath they take is a shared sigh of comfort, a reminder that they are exactly where they belong. Their bodies mold seamlessly together, fitting like two puzzle pieces that were destined to find each other. In this tender embrace, they find solace, security, and an unbreakable bond.

It is a scene of pure love, where the power of their connection transcends words, and their hearts speak volumes in the silence.

Words lay unspoken around them, an impending conversation of their intimate moment, but both you and Matt choose to bask in the momentary comfort rather than confront all the queries, slowly falling into the depths of a peaceful slumber

a/n: i gotta whip out a thesaurus when i write, count all the repeated adjectives challenge!!😛

@mattsenthusiast @raysmayhem-72 @slut4mattsturn @sturnlovr @ivonchetooo1239

#matt sturniolo #matt sturniolo smut #matt sturniolo x reader #sturniolo smut #sturniolo triplets #sturniolo x reader #matt sturniolo x you #matthew sturniolo x reader #matthew sturniolo #matthew sturniolo fluff #matthew sturniolo x you #sturniolo x you

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA - me and my bestfriend (bsf) of six years recently got into a 2 week long argument and at this point have stopped talking. First i need to provide some back ground of the situation. Last November i became friends with “J”. This itself caused some arguments because they have similar names and sometimes i’d slip and call bsf, J, on accident and would immediately apologize. After a couple times of this happening she got really upset but i explained i’d been doing the same to J and she seemed to be less upset about it.

In the beginning of January, J and her bestfriend “E” got into some pretty serious drama where information from both sides never matched up but i’d known and used to be friends with E for a while. He is not a great guy speaking from past experience. (he constantly talks about how he’s a narcissist very proudly) He was claiming they had slept together and was telling all of his friends about it. She was saying they hadn’t. These rumors had been going around for months about them but had died down until this. the problem is i believed J but bsf was close with E and sided with him. I’d like to make a note through this entire situation neither me or bsf played any roll in it to my knowledge. this was just between E and J. Later on i found out they had slept together from J and asked why she had said they hadnt she said it was an agreement between the two of them that they wouldn’t say anything to anyone else because of the rumors people were already spreading about them being together. But once she found out it was definitely him telling people this time she told me the truth. yeah they had slept together then he forced her to take a plan B even though he knew she was on birth control and they’d used a condom. then ghosted her and pretended not to know her when asked by Js twins sisters best-friend.

Now it’s about 3 weeks ago where i posted two separate story’s saying how much i loved J and her sister and the other about how much i love bsf. about 10 minutes later bsf texted me “just delete this.” i of course asked why but she never responded so i took it down like she asked. later that day she reply’s to a text i had sent her the day before saying “nothing much just wishing i was hanging out with you” she replied “right.” at this point i’m genuinely confused what’s happening i had a feeling it was about J somehow because every time i posted about J it would be the one thing she didn’t like or comment on and she would get annoyed when i’d mention some thing me and J had done recently. i immediately replied with “of course, i love hanging out with you. your my best friend” A couple hours later she send me a three paragraph message saying how she didn’t think that anymore because i was ignoring everything she was telling me about what E was saying. That i was only taking J’s side and always talking about what J was saying about her side. She said I was using her as a separate option that if J couldn’t hang out i would call her. etc at the end of the message she told me she would never make me choose but that she will never trust anything J says. (they’ve literally never met or talked the only thing she hears about J is through E or me) she ends it with do whatever you want to do but don’t do anything for me. keep being friends with her idk i’m keeping my distance from all that. I replied with a message basically saying that she wasn’t the second option, i wasn’t sure who to trust, and that i try to avoid talking about the situation with J. we go back and forth with her apologizing for how she’s acting then getting mad about me not just believing her over everything else i’m being told. Then she tried to claim she never said J was wrong but that she knows she’s lied to me (the thing i mentioned in the first paragraph is the only time she’s lied to me) that she never picked a side and that she can’t believe how hurt she feels when “i’m supposed to be her bestfriend” i brought up the fact that i had asked her more than once if me being friends with her bothered her and she always said no. That this wouldn’t have exploded like this if we could have talked it out before. she took that as me saying this was all her fault.

A couple days later she messages me asking to talk in person i say when and where but she just send me a message about her feelings anyways again apologizing for how she’s acting and that she felt i wasn’t listening to her but it hurt more to lose me etc but continuing to say she doesn’t think i should be friends with J but it’s my choice. I reply i was listening but i think we were both just trying to find the facts in a situation we will never really know who was lying 100%. but i made a point in the massage to say i wasn’t going to stop being friends with J and that i didn’t understand why me and bsf relationship was so affected by me and J’s. She gets mad again bringing up a hate account that was made claiming J had made it but J had shown me that she hadn’t and it was investigated by our school who also said she didn’t do it. that it was my choice to be friends with her but that i don’t understand how it’s affecting her and that it wasn’t fair. at this point i was really mad because it really felt like she was trying to force me to choose between them two in a way. i replied saying she hadn’t made the account and said i don’t think J is the reason we stopped talking and that i feel like she was making me choose even though she was saying she wasn’t. she then replied saying she didn’t make me choose but that i had chose J over her and “that i guess you though she needed more attention” (yeah maybe because J is not mentally handling this well at all and your fine because your not actually involved with this drama) i didn’t reply to her but about another week later i texted her “i just want to be friends with both of you. why can’t i do that” she replied i understand but i don’t think you should be friends with she’s not a good person but hope your having fun it’s all i wanted for you. that’s the end of the messages at this point.

TLDR : (do we do those here??) bestfriend of three years stopped talking to me because i became friends with another girl who later got into drama with best friends close friend E (A PROUDLY SELF PROCLAIMED NARCISSIST I MIGHT ADD)

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[stevie-petey]

a blurb from steve pov after bug hugs him? the halloween eps where she explains why she pulls away? pretty pleaseee i wanna know what was he thinking about at that time (sorry bad english)

ur fine my dear absolutely dont apologize !! i love this blurb <3 i'll do the hug one because we'll get more steve insight later in season 2 about bug pulling away !

enjoy !

"and who is the gift for, my beautiful boy?"

steve blushes at his mothers question. "just... a friend."

she gives him a knowing look, hums, but doesnt say anything. steve watches as her careful hands wrap the poster he spent hours trying to get. it took a lot of phone calls between him and his father, who has been away for work since the start of december. he hadnt wanted steve to "abuse his connections", which steve had thought was code for "embarrass me".

whatever. steve got the poster in the end, just in time for christmas.

and the hours of phones calls, pleading with his father, and pitiful looks from his mother were all worth it the second steve saw the shock and joy on your face when you opened the gift.

then you threw your arms around him and steves brain momentarily froze. he figured youd like the gift, but he never thought youd hug him and yet here he is, with you in his arms.

after his shock wears off, steve hugs you back with such a ferocity that hes scared hes hurt you for a second, but you only wrap tighter around him and bury your face in his sweater. hes surrounded by you. every inch of you is pressed against steve and he suddenly resents jonathan for having free access to your hugs.

"i love it, steve." you whisper, your words muffled by his sweater.

steves heart stutters a bit, and he just needs you as close as possible to him. he rests his head against yours, pulls you in even closer, and god. this was all worth it.

he'd take a million more lectures from his father if it meant he could make you happy again. steves never been hugged like this before. he thinks hes addicted to it already.

then mrs. waters walks in and steve thinks youll pull away, hide yourself in embarrassment being caught showing affection to him, but as always... you surprise steve.

you pull away, sure, but your arm stays wrapped around steves waist as you talk to your boss. you dont shy away from being seen with him, and something in steves brain goes haywire. he wants this, he wants more of this.

well, whatever this is.

he wants more of your open affection. and hes really, really excited that it seems like youre willing to give it to him, now.

steves kinda mad that all it took was buying you a christmas gift.

(it was expensive and worth steves entire allowance, but still. he wouldve done it sooner had he known).

#ask #anon #m speaks #come home blurb #m's writing #set in between seasons 1 and 2 #stebe <3 #hes so <33333

[ariscats]

Jameson analyzes part 2: Traumas (or a very long rant against Emily Laughin, who I cant be bother to learn how to spell her last name)

“Cause I've made some real big mistakes/ But you make the worst one look fine/ I should've known it was strange/ You only come out at night/ I used to think I was smart/ But you made me look so naive/ The way you sold me for parts/ As you sunk your teeth into me, oh/ Bloodsucker, famefucker/ Bleedin' me dry, like a goddamn vampire”

So there is this girl, who comes at his house every summer and has a heart diesse. She cant live so everyone has to do whatever she asks to make it up for it. Then one day she gets a surgery and now she gets to live, and who is her ticket to living? Jameson and Grayson.

Emily is his first kiss. However, 3 seconds after SHE KISSES HIS BROTHER WHO HE ALREADY INSECURE ABOUT BECAUSE OF HIS F. GRANDFATHER. And you have to be pretty dumd to not realize that what emily really wanted in the scene is Grayson to kiss her and she just used Jameson because she could (I still can’t believe that Emily did “loved” Gray more than Jameson).

Then she moves to his city and goes to his school. And, as far as a bitch she is, she must have been rl something because she became the most popular girl at school.

(Now, this is where things get tricky. I’m going to use the version fo what I believe happened. If you have another version you can picture like that)

Then they start dating. They borh want to live and do things because they can rather because they should. She got her golden ticket to freedom and he got the attention he’s been craving his whole life. They do everything together because she wants more and he wants more and nothing is never enough for them. So Jameson takes her to do everything they have the right to because Jameson is, at te end of the day, a good boyfriend.

But, its still not enough for Emily. Because she goes after fucking Grayson AND HE DOES THE SAME TING AS JAMESON BECAUSE THEY ARE THE OPOSITE SIDE OF THE SAME COIN.

Then they start fighting. Best friends for their whole life, but they slowly start to hate each other because fucking Emily turned everything INTO A GAME, MAKING LOVE A GAME THE SAME WAY TJEIR FAMILY HAS BEEN TRAUMATAZING THEM THEIR WHOLE LIFES. AND SHE KEEPS A FUCKING SCORE OF WHO HAS MORE POINTS, BY VOICE RECORDING.

Then one beautifull day Rebecca decides that betrayl by both ends doesnt hurts and tells Jameson about the scores and sends him the audio Emily made.

Jameson Hawthorne had to listen the girl he ruined his life for for over a year sumarize him and his love as some points. He breaks up with her, and she decides to go after Grayson. And then she jumps. But he is also there, because love and family are never that simple and jameson is a tiny bit (read in the level of therapy) of a masochist. And then SHE BLINKS AND LAUGHS AT HIM AND WHEN HE FINALLY MANAGES TO GO AWAY SHE START HAVING HEART PROBLEMS. BUT SHE HAS PLAYED HIM SO MUCH THAT HE DOESNT KNOW WHAT REALITY IS ANYMORE, and she hadnt had any heart problems for the past 4 years. So he leaves and she dies, and hell breakes lose.

He lost a girl he has know his whole life. He just “learned” that his love arent worth more than some points, he just got out of a increadibly toxic relasionship that ruined his life. The healthy thing would have been if he had some safe space to talk about what Emily did to him and have a strong support system. But everyone he knows is muroning her. They see her as an angle, so everything she did to him goes under the traps because how do you even dare to say something about dear angle Emily. And he has to live with the fact that he belives he killed her. And he cant also talk about anyone about that, for obvious reasons (but his grandfather knows and uses that against him).

Remember what I said about him being a masochist? Now is the era of his great self destruction (with an almost suicide attempt there, that his grandfather was present again and used that agaisnt him, *again*). Its all buttom up in him and he feels angry and sad and nothing. And between these 3, he chose anger. Also, Thea blames the Hawthorne for a death they didnt cause because who dares to say something bad about angles emily? So she puts the whole school agaisnt him and makes school unberable to him. Everyone likes to joke about Jameson missing school but has anyone ever wondered why he hated there so much? He didnt skiped class because he was a rebel 😝🤘but because everyone f. hated him and made his life hell.

#the inheritance games #the brothers hawthorne #jameson hawthorne #the final gambit #averyjameson #the hawthorne legacy #grayson hawthorne #nash hawthorne #avery kylie grambs #avery grambs

[museofthepyre]

do you know what everyones problem with elijah is? Im new to to fandom and im so genuinly confused as to why people seem to like think elijah is the worst (as in evil) character in the series. like i dont think people find him poorly written, they just, dont like him? which is fine yknow like who you like, but then people act like jedediah is a flawed but good character? which confused me a lot since I actually dislike jedediah more, as he just hurts in a more personal way it feels like. Elijah was sweeping Sydney in with promises of love that he hadnt gotten from jedediah, sydney only accepted that because of the way jedediah had been shunning him for years. It really bothers me that people forgive jedediah for his bad behavior, but then crucify elijah for behavior that while yes was very bad, had been hurting syndey way less for way shorter, and the only reason sydney was that vulnerable was because of jedidiah. Im asking because i am genuinly confused and I cant find anyone talking about the why of disliking elijah, i dont know if im missing something because of personal bias (jedidiahs mistakes that hurt sydney hit much closer to home than elijahs) sorry if this is a bit rambly, Im just very disenheartened to see so many people say they hate elijah when I just dont understand why, you dont need to answer this ask btw its mainly just curiousity

I think you kind of touched on the answer a bit already- imo it definitely comes down to what hits closer to home for any given listener. We all have unconscious biases. We all consume media through the lens of our own life experiences, and… ok ramble incoming

Elijah and Jedidiah both think/ behave in ways that are profoundly human, they represent very real concepts (see my whole Jedidiah= unhealthily distant, withdrawn and cold attachment style, and Elijah= unhealthily obsessive, suffocating and intense attachment style rant). These aren’t your typical innately evil villains, they’re just unhealthy people with warped ideas of love. That is an all too common thing to see irl. I think because of that… many of us can relate one or both of them to people we‘ve known in our own lives… alternatively, we can relate them to ourselves. I’ve heard some people say that Elijah’s actions hit a nerve because of past traumas with toxic relationships… aaand I’ve heard people say the exact same thing about Jedidiah! I think Elijah receives more scrutiny because his actions were… well they were actions. Visible, overt, right in front of you. You can point at them, pick a line from the transcript and say “that right there is bad”. Jedidiah’s wrongs often came in the form of neglect and abandonment, an absence of action, that’s so much harder to pinpoint. Maybe he’s slipping under people’s radars? Maybe more people see themselves in him and have a sense of understanding (which is valid, he embodies some very relatable neurodivergent struggles). Maybe it’s because he steps up and works on himself by the end and we don’t see that from Elijah (yet). Maybe people find Elijah “worse” because he reminds them of a more common negative experience, I’m not sure. One could speculate.

I’ll speak personally as an example of what I mean: I am wayyyyyyy more upset by Jedidiah’s actions. And that’s because of… you guessed it… my own personal experiences and how they influence my perception 🎉🎉🎉 I’ve got BPD, and I have an all consuming fear of abandonment. The idea of loving somebody and then having them suddenly withdraw, avoid you, and treat you coldly all the while providing NO EXPLAINATION WHATSOEVER… just leaving you to spiral and pick apart your own behaviours under a microscope, thinking you must be the problem— it’s a major trigger of mine. I’ve lived it!!! I grew up with it!!!!! It hits a huge sore spot for me and I admittedly struggle to overlook that sometimes when I see him.

Conversely, Elijah… I unfortunately connect with in a much deeper way. My own default attachment style is obsessive, intense, and often leaves me tunnel-visioned and unstable (…BPD), and he speaks a language I understand? If that makes sense. I see so much untreated, pre-awareness me in him. I know what it is to be involuntarily engulfed by an all-consuming obsession/ delusion. He doesn’t scare me, because I know what he’s made of- I see what’s beneath it all when I look in the mirror. Or at least that’s the lens through which I interpret him, I’m sure many disagree and yk what? Absolutely valid!!!!

There’s no one correct way to consume media, yada yada you get the idea, CHNT is unique because no character is intentionally malicious or evil (not counting Adam maybe… Lucille you’re on thin ice) and it’s fascinating how there’s such a dichotomy between the love and hate for these two. I may have swayed a bit off topic I just have many thoughts. I might come back with more later.

Ok rant over 🪱

#ramblings #camp here & there #ch&t #camp here and there #chnt #elijah volkov #jedidiah a a martin #jedidiah martin #sydney sargent #sydney o sargent #pink elephant man #the elephant man #the elephant man chnt

[demontonic]

Obi wan with a bf who infodumps a lot?

OKAY IM GONNA DO THIS FIRST CUZ ITS GONNA BE LIKE REALLY SHORT

you would be the first guy hes with

hes pretty shy at first but youre just so excited about someone finally showing interests when you go on a ramble

the first time you did it he was simply looking at the stars and suddenly he was sitting down in the grass next to you listening to you talk about supernovas and black holes

you thought he was genuinely interested in what you had to say and that you were telling him things hed never knew

it simply was not that he hadnt known everything he needed to know about the stars, but you talked so passionately about the topic he was so entranced

he made it a point to be at the spot the next night hopeing you were there

to his disappointment you werent, the next morning however he saw you working in a small restaurant

he took anakin with him and had lunch there, you quickly noticed him and started taking his order

he was shocked to see someone so smart and full of knowledge working as a waiter, it was almost too mundane for you in his eyes

he questioned you as his, what you assumed to be, brother watched the interaction

“I thought you were a librarian, or an astrologist- even a pilot with all your vast knowledge”

“Oh- no no I just like to read a lot of books, I’ve always worked here it’s actually my families restaurant so I didn’t have a choice- not that I don’t like working here or anything it’s just expected I mean even my cousins work here and it’s always been family owned! My great grandmother opened this restaurant a long time ago so- um im sorry what can I get you?”

Anakin teased Obi wan for days after that, especially once he found out you two were meant to hang out with each other soon

It wasn’t a date or anything… right?

He took you into the jedi archives, you’d traveled and seen many beautiful libraries but nothing compared to the jedi archives

He’d spent about 10 minutes explaining the different areas and topics, especially the areas with knowledge only open for jedis

after that he wondered the aisles with you until both of you were holding at least six books

you’d sat in a far corner together quietly speaking on the different books you had collected

obi wan would never tell you but he’d read most of these books, yet he sat nodding along to you explaining like it was a grand secret

once you two started dating he hadnt even told anakin about you, he was too scared to lose you

at first you didnt want to if you had to remain a secret, but you were already too in love to stop now

you hadn’t meant to tell anakin as you knew obi wan was scared he’d tell but when anakin started talking about obi wan in battle you couldn’t help yourself

“Obi Wan is extraordinary truly it amazes me to hear of his adventures, makes me wonder if im worth it”

“so you two are together”

Id imagine in this instance anakin would then come out about padme and you guys would all live happily ever after

#obi wan x reader #obi wan star wars #obi wan kenobi #obi wan fanfiction #obi wan and anakin #obi wan x you #obi wan x y/n #obi wan x male reader

[pastanest]

if you’re wondering why I’m having to repost this, or why you were perhaps previously following me but no longer are, please refer to this post. I was able to retrieve this thanks to @rosieathena - thanks so much!! ♡

Spencer Reid x gender neutral!reader

Reid x SingleParent!Reader

- Spencer knew from the first date that you were a single parent, you told him right off the bat because you knew the kind of fearful responsibility that puts on any partner you have and you were fully prepared for him to just up and leave the restaurant

- but he didnt

- he bashfully admitted he already knew because when he’d quite literally bumped into you while on a case, your phone lockscreen was a picture of you kissing a baby in a hospital, he could see baby powder stains on your bag, and your eyes only lingered on him for a moment before they locked onto a stranger’s baby in a stroller that had just started crying

- from then on you had no doubt that he was a fantastic profiler, and you would continue to praise him for being the best at his job, to which he would respond “Im the only profiler you’ve ever met!”

- considering Spencer was in his 30’s, he had decided he was ready to have a family of his own

- in his job, obviously, this ambition was a scary one, because having a family means them automatically being at risk

- but, he was confident that he could be a good protector

- it was 4 days after making this conclusion that he met you, so he had followed up that conclusion with the continued hypothesis of fate

- and when he was introduced to your daughter, he was solidly convinced that fate was as real as you were

- you had warned Spencer that your daughter was very shy and quiet around new people, especially men because she hadnt grown up in a house with a male presence, so he wasnt expecting much of an interaction with her, but he wanted to make a good impression

- he asked what your daughter’s interests were, and your immediate answer was bugs. your daughter loved insects. she loved bringing them into the house to show you and then placing them somewhere and expecting them to stay wherever she left them, which they never did, and that often resulted in lots of bugs roaming your house

- Spencer thought this was fantastic. a three year old girl fascinated by insects? it wasnt exactly abnormal, but it was also pretty rare and outside of the stereotypical interests of young children, which was perfect, as Spencer was also a somewhat abnormal man

- he arrived at your house to meet your daughter, knocking on the door politely and holding the neatly wrapped gift behind his back

- as soon as you opened the door, Spencer grinned at you, and you welcomed him inside

- once the door was closed, you called up the stairs to your daughter, and she appeared in half a second. 0.32 seconds, Spencer counted.

- she was easily the cutest child Spencer had ever seen, and this was doubled when she made her way down the stairs, one of her hands holding onto the bannister as she let one short leg down a step and then the other

- naturally, she ran to you, and you crouched down to her level so that you could hug her in a reassuring way

- Spencer followed suit and crouched down too

“Hello, I heard that you’re an insect expert!” He greeted her quietly, but excitedly.

The little girl visibly gained interest. “How did you know that?”

He looked at you and then back at your daughter, smiling slightly. “Im a secret agent.”

The little girl shook her head, but he could tell she didnt entirely disbelieve him. “No way!”

“Yes way! And on a recent mission, I came across a particular lady who I think you’d really like to meet.”

He could tell he had peaked her interest because she stopped hiding herself behind you, her curiosity getting the better of her. Spencer then handed her the parcel he had been holding behind his back, she unwrapped it to reveal a stuffed toy. Her eyes lit up.

“What is it!?!”

“This is a praying mantis! Otherwise known as a praying mantid, or Mantodea. And you’d better be careful she doesnt find a boy of her species, because she’ll eat him!”

- your daughter squealed with delight at this, and Spencer began reciting countless facts about praying matises, fascinating your little girl beyond belief, and that was the foundation of his bond with her

- after that, every time he came to visit he would have another praying mantis fact

- and once he ran out of those, he found another unique stuffed toy of an insect and educated her with facts about those, too

- you were amazed at how quickly he earnt your daughter’s trust

- naturally, it made you fall in love with him even more

- having a child meant it took a little longer for the three of you to move in together, you wanted to be 100% sure this was a more permanent arrangement because otherwise it could create serious instability for your daughter

- however, Spencer made a promise that even if you and him didnt work out, he would gladly continue his role as a non-biological father to your daughter if that was alright with you; he had grown attached to her, as she had to him

- your relationship was perfect, you still had regular date nights and you were no less romantic than a couple in the honeymoon phase who didnt have a child

- the honeymoon phase didnt exactly end for you two, though

- you fell in love with each other and formed a beautiful love as a family

- the day your daughter called Spencer “Dad”, was a day that had both you and him crying into each other for an hour straight

- he was the perfect role model, advisor, supporter and father to your daughter

- and he was the perfect lover, supporter, boyfriend and future husband to you

#spencer reid #spencer reid x reader #spencer reid imagine #imagines #imagine #x reader #fanfic #fanfiction #headcannon

[deedoop]

Can you do another part to the littler mungrove thing?

Littlest

Fuck. They were really doing this huh? Eddie honestly had no clue what they were getting into, just knew Billy's dad was a piece of shit, knew he had to help. He takes a deep breath, looking at the items he had bought from the thrift store. He'd never taken care of a kid before, let alone an adult regressed as a kid. He took a long deep breath. "Eddie Munson. You can fucking do this." He was terrified. Terrified of hurting Billy, terrified of fucking up, terrified of losing someone he loved.

Billy Hargrove in the meantime was just as nervous. He was supposed to already be on his way but here he was, sitting on his bed, absolutely paralyzed. He'd never..regressed with somebody before. Never let those emotions come out, never let his walls down like that in front of anyone but himself. What if he was too much? What if Eddie Munson love of his fucking life decided nope cant do this! It wouldnt be the first time someone abandoned him. It wouldnt be the first time someone gave up on him. His hands shook a bit as he moved the nightstand, there laid Mr. Snuffles, smushed a bit from being behind furniture. A rolling pit laid in his stomach. He didnt know if he could do this.

Eddie was starting to get nervous that Billy wasnt here yet. He shouldve been here a half hour ago. Did Neil get ahold of him? Did something happen? He was about to pick up the phone when the door to the trailer opened. "Shit babes youre late. I started thinkin' the worst." Eddie half laughed. Billy swallowed thickly, the bunny rabbit in his hand. "This..is Mr. Snuffles." He said slowly, tipping his toes into the water, afraid the water would burn. It was stifling hot in the trailer and Billy was thankful he wore his wife beater today, the anxiety only making him feel worse.

Eddie took a breath. So they were starting. He prayed to whatever God would listen that he didnt do anything to hurt Billy, that he could be good at this. "Well hi Mr. Snuffles. Im Eddie." He waved towards the stuffed animal. Billy almost immediately looked more comfortable. Eddie wasnt..weirded out, wasnt yelling at him. "I uh I got you a few things Billy. I got you uhh some crayons and a coloring book! Some puzzles and stuff." Billy's eyes looked so soft..softer than they were before. The tense muscles had relaxed. Billy who always had something or another in his mouth had his thumb, sucking on it lightly as he walked towards the toys. "Thank you Daddy." He mumbled around his thumb.

Eddie was relaxing himself. He hadnt utterly ruined anything and Billy seemed happy. Maybe he wouldnt be bad at this, maybe he could be everything Billy needed. His heart softened as Billy mumbled to the stuffed bunny in his hand. They had discussed deeply about what would be going on today, what to expect. Billy regressed to around five years old, he could be very scared of yelling, he might act out, never hit. Eddie had quite literally taken notes. He wanted this to be perfect, to be therapeutic. Billy was sitting on the floor of his living room, bouncing Mr. Snuffles up and down, a soft smile on his face. He felt absolutely safe around Eddie. Eddie who now was apparently Daddy.

Munson gently knelt down beside him, "I got pizza rolls in the oven, you wanna color?" He asked softly. Billy nodded quickly, "Yes please!" He had never known Billy to be polite. He was a loudmouth sharp tongued bastard most of the time. He chuckled and ruffled Billy's curls. "Alright baby boy." He gently placed the coloring book next to Mr. Snuffles. He had to get Billy a pacifier, it couldnt be good for his teeth to suck on his thumb. His heart warmed at the thought. Billy, sucking on a pacifier, happy and content.

They settled into their roles, Billy was coloring up a storm, not very talkative but he did keep humming some lullaby to himself and kissing Mr Snuffles on the head as he colored. Eddie had filled up a sippy cup with apple juice and sat it beside Billy who blinked softly a moment before taking it. The oven dinged, the pizza rolls were done. "Dinner is done Bills!" He called, keeping an eye on Billy as he opened up the oven door. The metal of the baking tray caught against his arm making him hiss, dropping the tray onto the floor. "Mother of fucking Christ!" He held onto his burn, "Fucksake. Fuck!" He looked back up from his wound. No Billy. Shit. Shit Shit. He looked around frantically before he heard telltale whimpers.

Billy had hidden himself behind the couch, curled up as tight as he could, rocking back and forth. All of Eddie's worst fears were coming true, that he would make Billy worse rather than better. He couldnt wallow in self pity now, there was a man he loved deep in headspace crying behind his couch. It didnt take a genius to realize why Billy's child mind was so scared of yelling, that only added onto the guilt. Munson took another long deep breath and gently crouched besides the couch. "Billy baby boy?" He said softly, not moving the couch, not wanting to corner him. "I hurt myself, its not your fault and I am not going to take it out on you." He wasnt sure if logic worked on children. He hoped it did. Billy cried harder. It didnt. "Billy baby?" He gently grabbed the fuzzy stuffed pig he had gotten for him. Eddie waved the piggy infront of the gap between couch and wall and make some terrible oinking noises.

"Hi Billy! Im uh..Im uhh Im Mr Oinks! Wont you please come out?" That drew out a laugh from Billy, the little one wiping his tears, wiping his eyes. Eddie smiled back, "I promise Bills. Not mad at ya, I did it all myself." Their was some movement, blonde curls and puffy eyes peeking above the couch and than Billy was climbing all the way back over it and running towards Eddie, hugging him. Eddie wrapped his arms around him, softly rubbing his back. "Im sorry I yelled Bills." He said quietly. Billy sniffled and nodded, "Its okay Daddy..can I have pizza rolls now?" And Eddie laughed, "Yeah baby you can have pizza rolls." This would be an adjustment, it would be a lot of talking about things, a lot of work but Eddie was excited. He was happy to help his boyfriend, happy to help him rid himself of Neil. They had each other and Eddie was never going to let Billy be hurt again.

#self indulgent im sorry #Little!Billy #Mungrove #LITTLE BABY BOY RIGHTS #PROTECT HIM AT ALL COSTS GD IT

[ha-youwish]

This is not a vent post, it’s a book recommendation and self-analysis kinda. Please consider reading this, I won’t blame you if you don’t.

Last year around this time, my granddaddy passed away. Usually, online and in formal spaces I would call him my grandfather, but that’s not what I call him and I will not limit myself for this post.

Last year around this time I was beginning my second semester of college ever. I was not doing so well. My grades were low because my attendance was abysmal and my work outside the class was shit. However the previous semester I had taken a class that I was able to stick around for more than the rest.

This class was studying how different major religions and cultures coped with death and how they thought of the afterlife. I bought the books for that class with financial aid and never read them.

Just now I got done reading one of the books, When Bad Things Happen to Good People by Harold S. Kushner, never read it until I found it sitting around today.

It’s a relatively short book, under 200 pages, about how Kushner deals with the question “Why do bad things happen to good people?” from his place as a rabbi.

Now I don’t have any sort of relationship with god. i’m not strictly atheist or anything but i tend to believe in whatever religion people want me to believe in if they ask me to pray for them or a family member.

when grandaddy died, i had nothing to fall back on. granddaddy was extremely religious and generous, i am so incredibly grateful he was involved in my life and there for me. but people from his church said it was a part of god’s plan or that there was a reason he passed when he did and when i was in such a low state at college already.

i moved away to college and the landlord sold my home. i was in an unfamiliar uncomfortable place where the only place i felt fully comfortable was now completely inaccessible. my mom moved in with grandaddy and took care of him before he passed. it was tense. he was kind but old and stubborn and so is everyone else. the drain of taking care of someone can be worth it, but that doesnt mean its not there.

i was, and am, dealing with severe depression surrounded by other gloomy people who didnt make it much better. i never went to class and i had, and have, crushing guilt that i was wasting the time and money of my family.

and then granddaddy went to the hospital. and then he died. and its unfair.

all of it is unfair, and if it was a part of gods plan then hes fucking unfair too.

now, i have not necessarily moved on. my fingers shake still if i think about it too long. i dont even know if im going to post this because of how exposed and raw i feel. but its important to me that somehow in some way this gets expressed and that someone other than myself will read it.

your suffering was unfair, whether it was a lot or a little. the world is unfair. we all know it. i hope you know that you will never be able to look into the eyes of someone who has never known suffering, and i hope you can find some comfort in that connection.

this book is from the point of view from a religious man. it talks a lot about a god i dont believe in. but the way it talks about suffering and how it effects people makes it helpful for me to parse my own feelings and thoughts.

so feel free to replace god with whatever you want, with humanity and spirit and the universe and everything good. here are some quotes, alt text included:

- sometimes i convince myself that what i feel is nothing more than chemicals, that the regret i feel from not driving home the day before and visiting before he passed was just something my mind is doing.

i once stayed up late at grandaddys house after he passed and i was shoved right back into school like my life hadnt just gotten its shit rocked.

my mom was in her room asleep, but i really couldn’t take it anymore. we stayed up late just talking through how we felt after i had cried to her. and to be completely honest, hearing that she had regrets and wished for just a little more time fucking sucked. knowing the people around you are going through it sucks, even if it was to be expected

but we connected over that long early morning. we resolved almost nothing. i felt the same as i did before and granddaddys still dead and buried. but it was easier to go on after that.

another quote, a tldr if you don’t want to read the book but want to understand what he gets at, in the end of it all.

i dont think i can forgive other people for being unfair, not without effort. but i think i can forgive the universe because the unfairness is proof that people have choices. shit happens, you choose what to do after it.

for a lot of people, mourning and religion bring them the strength to move on, as he talks about in the book. things dont get better because of prayer that god will fix everything or the universe will set itself right again or you can escape through fantasy books to another world,

they get better because something gives us strength to get up again and keep moving. to kushner, thats god and people who came together to support him. to me, i dont know yet, i dont know if i’ve really started to pick up my life yet. but i think this book helped me start to see the bigger picture

#long post #sorry this is kinda personal #but like thanks for reading if you made it this far #im not putting a readmore for Reasons. sorry

[lexa-griffins]

can you tell us more about werewolf Clarke bitting Lexa and turning her into a werewolf? How did Lexa’s first full moon go?

The bite happens immediately on that first night when Clarke finds Lexa and they fuck. Lexa pretty much begs her to do it and in her state, Clarke barely considers the consequences of bitting this human girl she has "known" for the whole of two hours, 90 per cent of those spent buried inside of her. At the time is fucking magical, I mean, for Clarke it means a mate for life and Lexa well, she's a whole agglomeration of kinks and the bain from the bite feel delicious on her shoulder as Clarke thrusts into her from behind.

After that tho, when Clarke brings a sleepy Lexa back to cave and runs arojns trying to find any furs she collected over the years to lay her in, Clarke realizes she bite her and what that means for them. She can't even send her to a village away from the one who sacrificed her to the beast of the woods, not with such a bite and Clarke feels like she turned this girlbinto a fate worse than death: being like her. Lexa, however, wakes her sore - and not only from the bite - but rather content, looking around for Clarke, which she finds on the other end of the cave, now human, knees to her chest staring at her, already apologizing for bitting her and turning her into a monster like her. Lexa crawls her way to her, thanking her for doing it - the thought of going back to her village or any village and leaving a dreadful life as a housewife would have been her personal hell, so anything sounds better than that.

Now, because Lexa isn't a werwolf by blood but by bite, she doesn't fully transform intona werewolf like Clarke, but she does still look very wolf-woman and has the same urges. Its painful to turn, she learns. Not unbearably so, but it feels like her entire body is aching until she finally turns.

That is the only pain she finds in it.

Clarle thought Lexa would want to run and hide like Clarke does so much, trying her best to not be seen but the hunger she feels always drives her closer to villages where she can smell the cooked food. But Lexa, Lexa seems enamored by the full moon. Maybe is the fact Lexa was never allowed to run freely or be loud and uncaring about how the world sees her, but unlike Clarke, Lexa embraces her wolf side with happiness and joy in her freedom. Clarke has never had this much fun during a full moon, not since she was a small girl and she experienced her first few full moons with her dad before he died. They run, god Lexa loves to run and Clarke hadnt ran this much in so long, its freeing and so nice. They fuck so much. But in their werewolf form they have more stamina and can go on for hours. They hunt, and they eat more than Lexa could ever eat when human and then they fuck again.

They wake up the next morning back as humans, naked somewhere on a small clearing, with a wlecomed soreness and heaviness all over their bodies, but Lexa is happy to know turning isnt has horrid as she thought it would be and that its actually so very pleasent for her mind to turn more animalistic and seeing Clarke enjoying it made her look forward to the next many full moons theyll spend together :)

#letter opened #anonymous-red-506 #werewolf clarke #i might i have extended myself a little 😅 #and later theyll have the babies there too :')

[gaycavendish]

Mml time travelers trio au is sooooo good! No thoughts head empty just thinking abt how cute it is... <3 actually now I'm somewhat curious as to like what Sara is up to, or how they got started with it, or if it's set in the far off future too... !!! :^D

HEHE thank you :] !! Under a Read More, i got chatty!!!!

Sara may occasionally join them, especially when they first start, but ultimately she prefers enjoying time travel from the safety of the TV LOL. She for sure has hours long conversations with milo about their adventures though, keeps a log of differences between time travel in doctor zone and the real world. I think she and milo probably made the doctor zone parts of his costume together :]. Milo brings her trinkets and such from the future & past when she doesn’t join them!

For how they got started, Melissa and Milo already have interest in time travel and, coincidentally, contact with the guy who invents it! One step closer to being queen of the universe for Melissa (also that ep where she goes on a mission with Savannah lives in my mind rent free as proof melissa is good at + enjoys time traveling), and a possible career choice for milo, where hes able to do all sorts of things and go all sorts of places (and, most importantly, help people + hang out with his friends!), since he wasn’t sure during the career day episode, and at the time hadnt known Time Traveler to be a viable option LOL. As for Zack, I think he likes the adventure + the glamour! Still a little bit of lumberzack left in him, plus he likes to hang out with milo and melissa of course, and theyd get in too much trouble to handle without him. Melissa is their sort of mission finder, since she has a good word put in for her at the time bureau and can get information. Milo of course taking the time travel expert role, and Zack being their damage control + honestly communications expert. This is entirely headcanon zone for me but i think he has a knack for talking to aliens and people from nearly every time period. Our charismatic boy!!

Its not terribly far in the future! If i remember right, doofenschmirtz is supposed to invent time travel 12 years after the pnf effect, and i sort of picture him, maybe in the latter half of the 12 years, having prototypes that he lets milo test out (it ensures durability, no? ahaha). Milo is in pretty big trouble with the time bureau for. being Milo and in contact with the literal entire spacetime continuum, so they try to avoid going too close to the bureau during any times where Mr. Block is, well, alive. (guy is Mean! and milo doesnt want to get cavendish and dakota in trouble, since god knows block would assume it was them that gave milo access to time travel)

I hope this answers your questions : D!!!!! thank you for asking HEHE they have been bouncing around in my brain foreverrr

#asks #milo murphy's law #Time Travelers Trio AU #<- i like that you called it that… TTTAU! T3AU! and i wanted a tag for talking abt it so im gonna use that :] #tttau

[daringsunflowers]

@niieve you already know the plot​

miguel had bought the flower shop five months ago from today. it was his baby and he had invested so much time and energy into it and anyone who walked in could see that. the shop was always decorated depending on the holiday or the seasons. when he had first moved in he wasnt blind to the person who had started to become a regular in his store. when they first had started coming in miguel  thought maybe she had been casing the joint out but then he realized they just came in every day to buy a single flower. it was strange and he often wondered what the other had did with the flower. but it became a habit and miguel always had a new beautiful flower waiting for them at the same time every day.  he hadnt really known much about them at all. they had seemed so mysterious which as silly as it sounded gave miguel butterflies anytime he had see them. tonight as he locked up the shop he noticed she was coming out at the same time and he gave them a smile and a little wave, then he scolded himself because all he could think about was that he was showing too much teeth. idiot."hey how-” but then his phone rang. “hello... no.. no, do you have any idea how much an uber would cost at this hour?” he stressed to the other person on the line. “yeah of course you are.. you have my car and you are blowing off picking me up. no fine whatever.. i’ll just walk.” with that he hung the phone up putting it back on his pocket rubbing his hands over his face he sighed not looking forward to the long walk. “sorry. i didnt mean to be rude.” he confessed. “i was just going ot say i hope you have a nice night.”

#c. miguel

[ravenskneebrace]

Season 5

*Smut*

The ground was not the dream we all had thought it would be. Forced underground months after arriving to the ground I was miserable. I couldnt even look forward to spending the next 5 years with Kane, as our relationship was secret. It had started on the Ark. I was willing to do anything to save my life. Anything. I wouldnt say he took advantage of me, I knew what was happening and I was old enough to consent to it as well. I was almost nineteen when I had been sent to the ground with the 100.

He made sure to sneak me onto the dropship after I had given him the best night of his life. We reunited in Mount Weather, I think he was shocked to see that I was still alive. As soon as I had recovered and began to assimilate in Arcadia he pulled me aside saying we had things we needed to talk about. I'll spare the details for now and just say there wasn't much talking. Ever since then we had been sneaking around, we couldn't be together publicly for obvious reasons.

Luckily for me I had made it onto Clarke's list. My unconscious body stayed on the floor of the bunker while others were carried outside to have their lives taken by Praimfaya. I pulled my eyes open and looked around at the bodies that covered the floor around me. I didnt know what was happening, but I knew that for now I was safe. Kane's face was the first one I saw. He was stood above me looking down. His hand reached down and I took it, letting him pull me off the cold floor.

"Whats going on?" I asked.

"Just come with me." He replied. He showed me to a room full of beds and explained what had happened. That was two years ago.

I felt a bit of deja vu as I stood in the same room with him two years later. We hadnt had very much alone time, so we had to really savour the moments we got.

"We need to be more careful." He said to me.

"We've been as careful as we possibly can." I replied. Our relationship was taboo, and anything taboo in the bunker could be turned into a crime. Legally we weren't doing anything wrong, but if people had known how our relationship had started there could be problems for us.

"I dont think we should be alone together anymore." The words broke my heart. We barely got any alone time as it was, but now he was wanting to cut it down to none. Seeing him around the bunker and having casual conversations was not enough for me.

"Kane, please." I pleaded.

"This will benefit us both in the long run." He looked upset, just like me. He turned to leave and I grabbed his arm, turning him around.

"One last time?" I ran my hand down his arm. He knew what I meant.

"(Y/n), we cant." It looked like it pained him to say it. I stood up, facing him.

"Ill make it quick." I whispered in his ear, running my finger tips along the front of his pants. We had the room to ourselves for now, but who really knew how long that would last. He wrapped his arm around my waist pulling me close to him.

"Quick." He said, looking around. We were both paranoid, but that often made things more fun. I connected my lips to his and pulled my body as close to his as I possibly could. I slid my tongue into his mouth as I pulled at his belt, undoing it without even looking. He ran one of his hands under my shirt, grabbing at my breast while I undid the button and pulled down his zipper. He was already hard, but that was common.

He grabbed my hand and pulled me to the back of the room, we were now tucked away behind some beds and cabinets. Now if someone came into the room we would have time to pull our clothes back up. We continued to kiss as I pulled his dick out, stroking it in my hands as his hands roamed my body. He was feeling me as if he was never going to again, and maybe he wouldnt. His hands grasped at me as if he was trying to memorize every small curve.

He then pulled down my pants, feeling between my legs before swiftly turning me so that my back was facing him. He planted his hand on my back and gently pushed down so I was bent in front of him. He ran the tip of his dick along my entrance before pushing into me. I let out a small gasp and he put his hand over my mouth as he pounded into me. My hands gripped the cold metal of the bunk bed in front of me and my head fell against it.

All too soon it was over. His fingers curled and dug into my sides as he came inside of me. He had never done that before and it surprised me. He pulled out of me and I heard him buttoning and zipping his pants before I had time to turn around to face him.

"Did you just-" I started, still shocked that he had done that. I turned to face him, pulling my pants up as I did it.

"I dont know what came over me." He replied, shaking his head in disbelief.

"Does this mean you'll hold my hand in public now?" I asked, knowing the answer before he could say it.

"Why would this change anything? We cant be seen together." He had his typical serious look on his face.

"Because youre going to father my child." I joked.

#skaikru #the 100 #kane #marcus kane #kane the 100 #kane smut #the 100 smut

[sexyandhedonistic]

hey queen!! just wanted to share a sp success story :)

so i’ve been into loassumption for a few years now (got into manifesting back on tiktok in 2020) but i kept doing stuff wrong and not really understanding it. i accidentally manifested this guy i wanted to like me to STALK me, which was not fun 😭 bc i was writing “blah blah is obsessed with me” 300 times a day and not making up any other nice new parts to the story (our relationship to one another was already complicated) but that’s not my success that’s an example of how confused i was and how wrong i was doing things lol. i’ve known since i was 17 (21 now) that our perceptions create our reality but i had a hard time creating new perceptions or understanding why that worked. so after struggling with my circumstances and the 3D and failed manifestations, this summer i decided i was going to take a serious approach to it and now i actually understand that everything we assume is true becomes true no matter how frivolous. SO my success story - after messing up so bad with the last guy i liked (the stalker guy) in 2020, i manifested a new guy into my life in 2021 but yk back then i was unnecessarily complicating things for myself so i made our circumstances sooo complicated 😭 and for the last year and a half i’ve gone back and forth on manifesting him liking me back bc i didn’t realize until this summer that i literally have full control and no one has free will in my reality. he goes to school in another state (im okay with this bc im manifesting getting a job offer and moving there in a few months) and he wasn’t supposed to be in our hometown in august at the same time i would be, but since may (the last time i saw him) i’d been saying to myself “i don’t care, i will see him in august, he will be home in august” so since this is my reality i did see him in august when i said i would!! but that’s not all!! all summer i’ve been manifesting that he’s in love with me etc etc, and the whole time i’ve known him i’ve been manifesting him having a crush on me just by genuinely believing and even seeing in the 3D (tho for some time i was using the 3D as confirmation which i know now is a biiiig NO) that he had feelings for me too. last december i had a total manifestation fail with him bc although i’ve manifested him to be my dream guy and treat me so well, i will just randomly switch up on myself bc i had abusive parents so sometimes i have a hard time wrapping my mind around that someone can love me lol, so he’d get close and then i’d push it all away! i’d start spiraling and telling myself he didn’t like me and things were too complicated with him, so then of course in the 3D he’d start pulling away 😭 like i just self sabotaged to the max and didn’t realize it until it was too late and he’d gone back to school again. and i like when he goes back to school bc it’s easier for me to see the situation clearly when i’m not so hyperfocused on him if that makes sense. so anyway back to seeing him recently, we were hanging in a group and we got even more close and he was talking about wanting to see me one on one before he goes back to school and wanting me to visit him at school! so i was like okay yes! so the other day i texted him, but IMMEDIATELY started self sabotaging that he didn’t like me and he wouldn’t text me back bc he didn’t really wanna hang out w me etc etc. for almost a whole day after texting him i was just despairing and wallowing and crying over it, just bc he didn’t text me back lol. the next day he still hadnt replied and i was sooo upset, (look at me reacting to the 3D and putting his ass on a pedestal 🥴 goofy) like i could not stop thinking about it and being negative. after a few more hours of wallowing i was like “girl what are you doing?? YOURE the one screwing it up. remember who you are bitch you are GOD and you get to choose if he texts you back!!” and i persisted in that i am that bitch and he’ll text me back soon for like not even two hours and then he texted me back 😭😭 and now we have plans to hang out this week 🤪 just wanted to share in case anyone else is forgetting their power today 😌💜

“girl what are you doing?? YOURE the one screwing it up. remember who you are bitch you are GOD and you get to choose if he texts you back!!”

You were SO right for that! You wavered but decided to take matters into your own hands and persisted anyway, THAT'S how you do it! Congratulations, angel! I'm so so proud of you!

#✉️ #success story