#like fuck babe I feel u

[outlaw-monarch]

"New year, new me?" I mumble, clutching a sheet around myself as I exit the morgue

#Eighth Doctor #Doctor Who #Paul McGann #Every year since 2015 I feel a little closer to understanding his level disorientation #Who am I? #like fuck babe I feel u

[inkskinned]

am i gonna put you in the book acknowledgements am i gonna be able to say your name without flinching am i ever gonna get a word in edgewise am i ever gonna recover the time i spent with you. computer virus kid; i arrived in your life already begging to be let in. somehow insecure i could even be your friend. like you had a line outside the door and we were all shifting our weight, begging.

you're so fucking good at that - at making people feel like they need to earn you, like you're a commodity none of us can afford. no kindness or careful communication could work on you - you were so good at just going-ghost, about deciding someone just wasn't cool-enough. something about that is super ironic. even the parts of it that weren't romantic felt like a romance book. i wanted you to like me so badly i scrubbed myself clean just so you'd spare me - what. your favor? a look?

okay okay okay. it's just a friendship - if it was even true that we were friends, if you even saw me as someone you trusted. on reddit someone would tell me girl literally just cut her out of your life, it's not that difficult. even i was aware of how fucked up the whole situation was. like, why the fuck do i even care about your approval? you're like, not even that fun to be around. you are often a little bit cruel.

but for almost four years of my life, i thought i had found someone like me. somebody who liked the same things i do. someone who liked to read and who liked making jokes with esoteric references and who spent maybe too much time on the internet and who was absolutely a little bit pretentious. i don't know, something about that was powerful and addictive.

i keep thinking about our last conversation. about how i said - okay, enough is enough. you pushed me too far, you really hurt my feelings.

and how you laughed and said - you think you're the victim?

#spilled ink #warm up #writeblr #she physically assaulted me and then screamed in my face #but not before sh'ing first and blaming it on me #while she was locked in my bathroom. at 1 in the morning #while i begged her to please just calm down and to try taking a deep breath and to go to sleep #and then she was like - ur just like my abuser #bc she had screamed in my face which was triggering to me and i froze like a deer in the headlights #and since i had shut down at that point evidently i was the problem child #i know she is out there telling our mutual friends i abandoned her and it makes me SO pissed off #like dude you spent so much fucking time forgiving & forgetting that your decrepit asshole of a boyfriend #pushed me down in the fucking hallway #but noooo hes <3 troubled <3 at 43 and divorced #bc according to you it's important that u don't '''see anyone as a monster'' #but god forbid i not handle you SCREAMING IN MY FACE #i couldnt even get you to say sorry for crossing my original and only boundary you were like ''what did you want me to do'' #babe i said 'the bf is not allowed around here he scares me and u said ur broken up with him' #that was the thing i wanted you to do: not fucking invite him to WHERE I LIVED #godddd typing this shit out and knowing it's only 2% of what actually happened makes me feel pathetic #i can't believe i let you treat me like that. you were a TERRIBLE friend.

[skellydun]

looked at a house that might be my house today 😯🫣😎

#idk how the fuck u tell but i was like oh i could paint this and put my table here and my cat could sit here and i did not feel an ounce #of stress. the only issue is its street parking and close to the neighbors bc its city living 😞 BUT its 1 5 minutes from downtown like the #commute babes!!!! and there's room to put a parking pad in the back eventually #AND IT HAS AC!!!!!!!!!!!! which is such a small thing but all the houses i have seen have not 💔 #but no dishwasher :( #it has THREE decorative fire places and built in shelves and stained glass windows!!!!!! and an enclosed porch #but i HATE when they paint old wooden stuff white like girl the character where is she #i will find her

[freakazoinkk]

#no bc this was originally supposed to be stede going “babe can u help they won’t let me return the fancy cashmere scarfs I bought #and Ed was supposed to be like “babe tell me who the fuck it is I’ll stab them in the throat just say the fuckinf word #Anyways I feel like I pulled it off :3 #I want a bf who will kill people over trivial inconveniences 4 me #anyways #lee #mine #art #edward teach #blackbeard #blackbeard ofmd #ofmd #ofmd stede #ofmd fanart #our flag means death #black bonnet #blackbonnet #stede fucking bonnet #stede bonnet #hhhh #ok thanks everyone

[hoonvrs]

getting blocked randomly is so funny like😭 is my crime being friends with ur friend loool

#inbox — new msg! #i feel like 50 cent #what he say fuck me for ?? #we were moots too that’s so odd of u babe

[bottombaron]

fics where Nandor is all, "i wish Guillermo would stop calling me 'Master' and use my name" like ahdkgj have you met this man??

#wwdits #what we do in the shadows #nandermo #i support all fics and writers!! this is by all means no criticism!! keep doing u babes! #but ngl this always makes me like *tries to math face* #1. nandor is That bitch and he would never #2. why would you want him to 🙃 #i have a lot of thoughts and feelings abt guillermo calling nandor 'master' #and its basically just verged into kink territory by now b/c that power dynamic is fucked sideways on a broken pendulum #let guillermo indulge nandor's (empty) authority kink #like 'yes hun you're soooo scary and powerful and comanding. now come over here so i can tuck you in and tell you bed time stories' #nobody is doing it like guillermo im in awe

[in-tua-deep]

I think I may just have to accept that my mum had absolutely buckwild manic pixie dream girl game back in the day

#my posts #I feel so unhinged right now #apparently there is a man who has been holding a flame for my mother for like 40something years #this man has added me (who he has NEVER MET) to his WILL #for more inheritance than his actual flesh and blood son will get #babe what is u doing #my mum will not fuck u just bc my dad died #baby girl this move just seems very desperate #who am I to discourage my mums rich ex from having a midlife guilt complex and leaving us money I guess #but what the FUCK do his kids and real family think about this #like my guy you literally had ur chance and blew it #u left and married another woman without breaking up with her !! she is never gonna take u back!! #absolute best kind of family drama bc I have 0 stakes and no involvement #look if my guy wants to soothe his guilty conscience by throwing his money at us that’s fine I guess ??? #my mum thinks it’s a big man move to throw money at ur problems tho lol

[thelovelybitten]

I hate how amazing this turned out bc I feel absolutely awful using AI but I wanted to try it for fun just to say I tried it….but it literally took the picture out of my head.

#otp: i cant do it alone #stendy #stan x wendy #stan marsh #wendy testaburger #south park #viv speaks #like i wanna support artists bc I know what it’s like to have my art stolen #but everyone around me was like: try it !!! if u don’t like it then don’t use it #then I came up w a silly prompt while I was doing my homework and this was it. #like. they really took stendy out of my head and put it on the screen #then I ended up making the cover for my book (not decked the halls—that was made by a friend of mine) #and for my other book (it’s a jelsa book) #oh and the cover for my stendy playlist #so yeah it really popped images out of my head but I feel like shit #it’s so freaky but I can’t lie I fucking love this #my babies deserve the world #anyways I’m never using AI again I feel guilty and horrible #gn babes

[autistic-katara]

honestly love how Velvette is a better representation of teenagers than 99% of the characters from teen dramas

#u wouldn’t catch her unironically saying “hashtag oh-em-gee” out loud #like is some of her dialogue sorta on the nose? yeah #but 1 she is supposed to represent social media like as a person so it makes sense for her nd sounds more natural than a character who’s #supposed to be like a normal teenager or smthn saying what some 40yo writer thinks is teen slang #and 2 i’ve said “hashtag-woah” nd stuff like that ironically so much that it’s just become part of my vocabulary nd ik im not the only one #smthn like this’s happened to #so again her saying “im that hashtag-bitch” and “sorry babe but i aint swiping right” does feel pretty normal nd natural 😭 #idk again not saying real kids act exactly like her but she is miles better than these mfs saying “oh em gee id totes love to come one hund #percent” yk #idk just some random thoughts i had while listening to respectless🧍 #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel velvette #ryan shut the fuck up

[secretagentsagainstwhatever]

King Prince William paying off Trisha Paytas to get spayed is gonna start a conversation around reproductive rights that non of us are prepared for….lmao

this is mostly a joke…kind of…

#this is mostly a joke #and and and #I KNOW WHAT A HYSTERECTOMY IS PLS #i’m just trying to be funny #rip king charles tho #or not idc #fuck the monarchy #abolish the monarchy #rip lizzie miss u babe #uk monarchy #uk joke #trisha paytas #i’d feel more remorse about that spayed joke #if it wasn’t trisha paytas #don’t even get me started #on another coronation #becoming likely #i’m a feminist obviously #lmao #does this even make sense #i’ve had a bad week #laugh at me #please #hopefully this joke came over here #this is more of a twitter joke #but you guys deserve it more #🥲🥲🥲 #oh and i can’t believe i forgot #very importantly #pro choice

[crowrelli]

ive had a migraine for THREE days and it just keeps getting worse

#i have like a headcold like thing again that fucking nothing is touching #steam doesnt work #caffine doesnt work #meds dont work #weed doesnt work #cutting down lights and everything helps it not flare up but like what the fuck #BUT i have to work on coms and sketches today so end me #tw illness #tw drug mention #vent tw #i dont talk about it a lot but fuck my immune system has just tanked the last few years and its honestly moved past being scary into just #straight up obnoxious and time consuming #also babe if u see this im toooootally taking it easy toooootally mhm not working at all the tag above was a lie completely ilyyyy <3 <3 <3 #feeling like the sister from the big time rush show where she gets bundled up in blankets with a vacuum sized humidifier in her face

[hopecomesbacktolife]

hey, just. friendly reminder that fanfiction is morally neutral.

yes, that includes smutty fics. yes, that includes self-insert fics. yes, that includes the fics you consider Problematic TM and the fics you don’t think are Smart or New. in fact that’s kind of why I’m writing this post.

I know we all love to talk about Themes And Narratives, but—and please listen to me very carefully here—you are not earning Good Place Points for only reading the kinds of fan fiction you feel are Smart or Only Focuses On The Important Things Like Themes.

fan fiction is morally neutral.

what I mean is this: no one is harming you, themselves, or anyone, by writing a fic about two characters having sex. (are you uncomfortable with the fact that I typed the word “sex”? hi, this post is about you. people have sex. and they write and talk about it. it’s seriously fine.)

no one is being harmed by self insert fics, by smutty fics, by anything not exclusively Smart TM about the fandom or analytically adding to it.

(and that’s not to say these two types of fics, that any type of fic, can’t have those elements— some of my favorite fic authors, my mutuals, my tumblr friends, write fic in these genres, and they also explore Themes and Emotions and analyze character traits and histories and write brilliant plots and incredible character arcs and yknow what, it’s amazing! it’s fantastic to examine what makes two characters react a certain way to x situation while also having them fuck nasty about it!) (and yes, I did just type ‘fuck nasty about it’ and I promise, that’s fine, too.)

what I’m saying, though, is that it doesn’t NEED that to, I dunno, somehow validate it into existing. it just Is. it just Exists. it doesn’t need an aspect you Approve Of TM in order to earn the right to be shared, to be written, to be published and commended and interacted with and read. it just. Is.

and I think a lot of especially younger, or newer, tumblr users especially get uncomfortable with that, and they unintentionally veer right (..ha) into self-censoring, puritanical behavior which is exactly what every person trying to ban books and generally kill art, wants. (and we’re not even going to examine in depth here, beyond mentioning it, the fact that policing, censuring, and banning art has historically and still today is being used to silence marginalized voices, so, I ask you to keep that in mind as you think on this, too, please.)

what I’m trying to say is this—if you personally don’t enjoy smut, don’t enjoy self insert fics, don’t enjoy a certain genre, that’s great, you do you! but, you must, must understand that this is not a moral stance. You are not objecting to a problematic practice, exploited workers, consent issues, labor crises… none of that applies, because no one in these stories is a real person. a story written about two Star Trek characters kissing on the bridge of the Enterprise is just that, a story. there is no actor for whose rights to fight, no wages to dispute fairness of, no ethical ramifications of scenes to discuss. these are Fictional People in Fictional Situations.

fan fiction is morally neutral.

and the moment you try to make yourself feel Better TM, More Correct TM, or—one of the ones I encounter the most—Smarter TM, by saying oh, I don’t read that kind of fic, I read the good kind, with thought in it—

you’re not only causing harm, you’re actively employing art censoring behavior. is that something that you want to do? I hope not. I certainly don’t.

next time you see a fic or a genre you don’t Approve Of TM, please remember the easiest way of exhibiting that— simply scrolling by or blocking a tag! If you’re on ao3, their system is incredible for niche content searches, and blocking a tag even here on tumblr will (most of the time) work.

I just., there’s so many better options out there for you than to… act like this. I believe you, we, all of us, can be better than this.

fanfiction. is. morally. neutral.

#my words #personal #saw one too many posts of people being ‘oh haha no I read the GOOD fanfic the SMART kind yknow’ and being so pointlessly self congratulatory #like babes there is so much joy in media content once you stop feeling shame or moral superiority about it #I just. had to put this out there #especially because like. so many. soooooo many. of the people who say those things. are just. so thinly veiling actual like bigotry beneath #‘oh haha I don’t like ship fic’ to ‘well actually it’s just slash fic’ to ‘gay people having sex is gross’ see what I mean. it’s a pipeline #the ‘smut fic is gross lol’ to ‘actually talking about sex at all is bad’ to ‘hi I’m anti choice’ pipeline is. more real than u might think #and I say this as someone fucking raised in all the problematic bigotry. but like babes you cannot flourish like that sorry! #anyways it’s just like. so much of this is just thinly veiled censorship biases or self discomfort unexamined or latent prejudice #and it’s so pointless too like babes smut fic has existed since ever you are not going to stop it from existing now #and in general hating on a fic is just.. kinda pointless! there’s so much fic in the world you can just go find the kind you enjoy instead #anyway let’s hope this one does not break containment 🫣 I have walked the puritan walk I do not need them heckling me lmao #fanfiction is morally neutral

[natsmagi]

happy 1yr anniversary to when the illness festered. i had no idea what i was getting myself into. To think it has been 1 year and im still this fucked up from it. love you wonder game

#i had been on a little switch story binge #i had read element and pleiades bc i saw ppl recommending them #but i had no idea that wonder game was significant at ALL #but i am the BIGGEST sucker for alice in wonderland. the 1951 animated movie was my favorite movie ever #and i would watch it CONSTANTLY when i was a kid #my earliest memories consisting of me just knowing how much i loved this film #and well anyway i remembered natsume had an alice card so i was like omg! i really should read that!! #and to get myself in the mood i even rewatched the 1951 film because i thought itd be a fun little refresher before i began reading #I DID NOT. EXPECT THE STORY TO MAKE ME CRY #AND I DID NOT EXPECT THE STORY TO MAKE ME A NATSUMUGIER #THIS STORY CAUSED IT ALL. IT RUINED ME. ALL BECAUSE I WANTED TO READ A SILLY LITTLE STORY WITH ELEMENTS BASED OFF #MY FIRST EVER SPECIAL INTEREST. ABSOLUTELY SICKENING #HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY BABE IM FUCKING RUINED FOREVER #nat rambles #i dont think u guys realize how deep my love for switch goes #bc like everything about them is a reminder of everything ive ever loved and found comfort in throughout my life #especially my younger years #they really do just bring me such unbelievable amounts of joy i almost feel undeserving to have something resonate this deeply with me #because thats how deep it goes #BUT ANYWAY #i cant show vulnerability online. Pretend i didnt say anything. #cant have people find out im a real person with real feelings with unique experiences in life that shaped the person you see before u today

[bylertruther]

bad boy mike fics are always good fun yeah but have you all ever considered writing something where will is the mischievous little rascal from the wrong side of the tracks that listens to loud music and always has little rogue paint splatters on his hand-me-downs or charcoal smudges on his cheek n says the most out of pocket shit under his breath that no one ever hears except for eleven and mike and yet no one believes him when he repeats what will said bc will jus looks so sweet tht obviously he would never say tht mike and mike is the more strait-laced kid that lives in a three story house at the end of the cul-de-sac with his purposely and perfectly disheveled and brand new get-up that gets flustered whenever will suggests they do something they maybe shouldn't but ultimately agrees without question because hello in what world could he ever look into those big hazel eyes of will's and somehow say no? it's literally impossible and he never regrets it even if they do get home late which of course makes hop chew him out when he catches them even though it was will's idea to begin with but again no one ever believes him n it's not like he'd rat him out anyway and coming from such different backgrounds they really shouldn't fit but they do and they're inseparable and even if it's messy cozy and all too lived-in mike feels more at home at the byers-hopper house than he ever does in his castle filled with ghosts and honestly probably for the first time ever actually and obviously they'd make their own adventures for when life gets to be too much bc will feels like he's drowning and mike feels like he's invisible and it's just will with his sketchbook and mike with his leather journal and they talk about anything and everything and share things they've never ever said to anyone else before and ofc when they talk about the future it's always about where they'll go to college together and how they're obviously going to dorm together and get an apartment afterward bc they're undoubtedly going to escape this shitty little town one day and they're clearly Something but also maybe too scared to Be something and . and. is anyone gonna write this or am i gonna have to be a big boy and do it myself 🙄

#fucking huge n scary wall of text with no punctuation at all bt idc im not rereading or editing . read my rambles or Else #every day that goes by without people using these canon tropes is another day i Die inside #rich x poor n punk x pop princess especiallyyyyy like 😭 #will plays his tape in mike's car and mike jus goes 😳 n when mike plays smth will is jus like 🤢😔 babe i have GOT to put u on #can't believe i have 2 do it myself. smth cute where instead of it being tht hopper doesn't approve it's ted doesn't like how joyce raised #him or WHERE she raised him n it's got like . forbidden love vibes u kno. but they beat the odds bc mike is a kind person beneath the #bitchiness and he doesn't see will how everyone else does he sees him as someone strong and brave and creative and loving and kind etc #and he doesn't CARE about where he lives or how much money he doesn't have or how they all share a closet or what ppl #like troy or his dad say bc when he looks at will he sees a reflection of himself. someone who goes by unseen someone that's alone #someone that just wants some company and the room to be himself #like. are u guys feeling my vibes rn. #ideas

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

so I was thinking this since yesterday because of these tags on the webweave

and this one came after that

and it made me think like what if. what if. it's actually not that deep it's just me who's so emotionally attached to this piece of media because i have known it for this long and it's my coping mechanism.like what if that second person watches jjk and doesn't connect with them like this and they end up hating it because i gave them hope and i made it deeper than it is💀

i am so mad at your brain for spiralling down this road because all i can think is OMG!!!!!! YOUR WEBWEAVE IS SO AWESOME PEOPLE WANT TO WATCH THE SHOW JUST BECAUSE OF SOME PICS AND QUOTES GLUED TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!! also pls i love the first tags so cute with DO ANOTHER!!!!

#vio babe in my experience #main kaise samjhau without hurting you 😭 #but like the canon is always so much more underwhelming than fanmade material 😭 #like for kpop you look at the content they give us and you look at the fan fiction ekdum zameen asmaan ka farak hai #but like i don't think you should feel guilty or something because like as a fan all it makes me think is omg #people writers artists are so fucking cool and poetic and awesome how did they take something simple and beautiful and turn it into #something completely different deeper richer better more fleshed out how did they put so much thought into this #and how im so so so thankful that this media existed as a base so that these wonderful artists could get inspired and make such #beautiful things for the world to see #like yk how i felt na seeing stsg i was like that's it??? what are people so crazy about that was barely anything?????? #but the fandom made me love them so much more than canon did because they analysed every little interaction #every quirk or smile or dialogue and made something complicatted and big out of it and now i see the full picturr and it all falls into #place?? #like canon is just adhoora without people like you okay you make it more loveable accessible you're literally carrying the fandom on your #that guy what's his name gege? he should fucking send u thank you cards and like 5000 dollars for making that webweave okay #ok bohot zyada bol diya if my point got lost somewhere i just mean ki ily and your over thinking brain #vio love

[warriorfujoshi]

angela… shes less like a blorbo and more like a best friend to me. a best friend who got cancelled for being toxic as hell but a best friend nonetheless … like ill always defend her idgaf.

edit: I forgot I have the perfect picture for this post

#like idk she’s done 109028101 crimes and is banned in 23 districts but she is my friend #(she glares at me) SHE IS MY FRIEND !!! #its funny bc in lobcorp I was baselessly like Angela’s my bestie (angela actively swinging a crowbar at the players head) #and now in ruina im like ANGELAAAA SHES MAKING FRIENDSSS #i cant help but feel like :/ hey thats MY bestie? roland? but also. SHES MAKING FRIENDS 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶 #I stand with my cancelled bestie. #SEEING HER FUCKING BACKSTORY OVER RUINA IS LIKE OH MY GODDD I ACTUALLY DONT WANT TO FUCK THAT OLD MAN ANYMORE EVEN #LIKE U KNOW ITS SERIOUS. IM LIKE OK PEEPAW YOU WERE GAY CAN YOU BE A GOOD DAD #pills I took like 5 hours ago still feel like they’re stuck in my throat hello? get them outta there… #she’s just so crazy and I love seeing her be crazy but also babe we are getting you to THERAPY I PROMISE !!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #if she doesnt get her happy ending im actually gonna vomit