#love june as a concept

[redrobin-detective]

*slaps self* you can fit so much anxiety and trauma in this bad boy

#love june as a concept #the weather is perfect #summer is here! #but like fucking clockwork every 1st I proceed to drown myself in misery and anxiety over my birthday #I am working hard to undo that trauma response so i can enjoy my bday and june in general in peace #but god did I spend a lot of today just fretting and feeling sick and anxious #like I do every year the calander hits june and i realize 'oh god its almost here I need to plan shit' #thank GOD this will be the first year I'm out of my parents house and will not be seeing my mother at all #I refuse to #i dont care if Im just sitting home alone I will like my Ass off to avoid seeing her #I will not let her traumatize me for the 29th fucking year in a row #anyway oopsie #personal #will delete Im just stressed #I have broken out in a cold sweat haha #i hate feeling this way but god this day has so many bad memories attached to it I spend the whole month just steeped in dread #why'd I have to be born at the end of themonth #cant I have been born earlier get the trauma out of the way and get on with the rest of june??

[leixo-demo]

Late Valentine's day to the only dudes that deserve it, Warabi and Mizuta 🩷❤️ (they are both doomed by the narrative)

+losts of doodles of them as teens

#splatoon #splatoon 2 #splatoon 3 #splatband #splatoon headcanon #diss pair #dedf1sh #T4koyak1 #doing requetss when im finally done with school on like june theyre killing me #THIS IS MY PERSONAL SHIP TREAT IT WITH CARE N LOVE #it's not yuri nor yaoi ahato is nonbinary and warabi is transmasc so uhhhh its beyond YURI YAOI CONCEPT #YAOURI #last post was insane leaving more clear next time who are these 😁😁😁

[dearestxiao]

xiao is a man ruined by jealousy.

he spends a lot of his time simply watching not only you, but how you react with everyone around you. he follows you around (from a distance, of course, he'd never let himself get too close) to just... observe. he can't help but note down every single little detail of how you interact with anyone who isn't him. his heart aches whenever he realizes he'd never make you smile or laugh in the ways others do. he's far too creepy to make you feel safe in his arms. he's too guilt-ridden to ever hold a conversation with you. and he knows, deep down, that he could never make you happy, atleast not like this, not with how he naturally acts.

and yet he is fueled by desperation, the need to make you feel like others do. he thinks about all the things you like and all the things he is not. he thinks about how he could change for you but he was never great at putting on an act. he digs and digs, looking through everything he can to find a bit of someone else's personality to sew into himself even if the pattern doesn't belong to him.

sometimes he finds himself looking at himself in the mirror as he pretends to be more cheery or give more than just dead-panned answers in conversation. sometimes he mimics the voice and tone of someone you frequently talk to. other times he tries out different makeup styles to try to emulate the look of someone else. all the time he is unsatisfied. he can't pretend to be someone you would like, let alone love, and it drives him insane, pushing him closer and closer to the edge (and he was never that far from it to begin with).

xiao wants to be the best. he wants to be the one who steals your heart, who makes your eyes crinkle at the edge from laughter, who makes you smile so big your cheeks hurt. he wants to be so good you never think of anyone else, and you especially don't think about the long lists of faults he has. but he can't be, not when you have so many points of reference as to what the 'best' could be. if he took you away from everyone else, maybe then the fiery licks of jealousy wouldn't burn up his insides. if you had only him, he'd have no competition, no one to try to mimic, no one who'd get in the way between you and him, who'd serve as a constant reminder of what you deserve and how xiao could be better. if you had no one but him, he'd automatically be the best, right?

right?

he hopes that, in atleast one universe, even if he has to create it himself, he's the 'best'.

#silly little drabble #about the love of my life stalker xiao #june concepts! #tw stalking #tw kidnapping #yandere xiao

[cashmere-caveman]

[1] Richard Siken, Portrait of Fryderyk in Shifting Light [2] Being Human S1E5 [3] Clint Smith, When people say, “we have made it through worse before” [4] Being Human S3E8 [5] Guillermo del Toro at the 2018 Golden Globes [6] Being Human S1E6 [7] Allie X, Fresh Laundry [8] Being Human S1E5 [9] Christian Wiman, The Parable of Perfect Silence [10] Being Human S3E8 [11] Hanif Abdurraqib, And What Good Will Your Vanity Be When The Rapture Comes [12] Being Human S2E8 [13] Allie X, Fresh Laundry [14] Heidi Priebe, To Love Someone Long-term Is To attend A Thousand Funerals of The People They Used To Be [16] Being Human S3E8 [17] Christian Wiman, Flight

#being human #john mitchell #being human uk #ok enough business tags. behold my magnum opus #according to my notes i started making this in fucking DECEMBER last year. it is now JUNE #it took me six fucking months..... this is truly a disease but i am so happy w it #webweaving as a format is so perfect for me bc its just the adhd experience of going wait this reminds me of-- #anyway can u tell im a tragedy enjoyer. i love a good downfall #i also have so many thoughts abt george and annie and i have a whole idea abt the bt20 arc #and tbh i rlly wanna make one abt what the concepts of monstrous and human mean within the context of the show #but uhhhh exam season incoming so! see u in six months i guess rip x__x #i will come back to this and add alt text dw i just dont have the spoons rn #words #poetry #cavetext #caveweb

[sualne]

made Luffy and Law in tomodachi life like a week ago and im testing their compatibility with the girls (cant be gay in this game 😔) and while luffy best love compatibility is with a gnc lass named Jade Azhure aka Captain aka the fucking sea as person. he has little to no love compatibility with the rest of the girls which is so funny! He also has a 100% friendship compatibility with a guy called hamster (full name Pikimin Popuko).

Law on the other hands as a +90% love compatibility with four ppl including my fucking wife. (my wife and i love compatibility is 40%…..) why is he so popular??? is he going to steal my wife??

Law and Luffy friendship compatibility is fine, they haven’t met each other yet tho, living next to each other.

also bonus:

#undescribed #idk how divorce works in the game but I feel like after having 8 children with me my wife can’t go leave me for law. even though she would #have my full support. also anyone wants to know my family drama in tomodachi? my daughter is married to mod and her bestie is teru. #mob is head over heels for her but my girl has been considering divorce for year. I won’t let her tho cause its mob himself like cmon. #im waiting on grandchildren but i don’t feel like that will happen fjdjdj #mob and tsubomi dated a while back but they broke up and now he’s family. mogami and reigen are best friends. #sans is dating my oc gen which is just amazing as a concept. marshall lee is dating an old lady called granny justice. full name: #June Victoria. annnnd yeah. voilà. #i love this game

[hmm-paper-clip]

i finished dt17 !!!! ive never been more upset. i think if i was more prone to crying i wouldve cried so much i either threw up or passed out. love it ! but it was actually very fun i can definietly see myself rewatching it sometime soon theres just so many good eps :) in honor of this is even started a new doodle canvas. how incredible !! been trying to draw a larger variety of characters bc it was ALL louie on the green canvas so theres a lottt of learning curve going on so far

additionally, i offer a finished drawing

he had pins on his hoodie but im kinda between hcs rn so. removed

#ducktales 2017 #dt17 #ducktales #umm #louie duck #june duck #may duck #?? #dt17 penumbra #SHES SO SILLY sooo upset i didnt draw her sooner #lena sabrewing #still havent drawn VIOLET? maybe ill do a rewatch and draw some characters as they come up. thatd be fun #oh #huey duck #dewey duck #della duck #i think thats it #i remembered i made a star brush for whatever reason and its had its comeback and. its so tacky i love it #btw i drew.. like kind of mermay concepts. but with other sea creatires. for the triplets #it was SO self indulgent very silly and i wouldve added it but one. im so embarassed. two it wouldve been ANOTHER topic switch idk. #maybe ill throw it in my next doodle dump #i love posting these!!!! i am just. still slumped i think #but now in everything bc i finsihed that last sewing project and have some stuff i have to do before i start another #BEAKS R SO HARD and i havent even THOUGHT abt drawing lp or beakley. i have to work on those #ok send tweet already

[books-and-dragons]

Ik it's been awhile since I have dropped a HC on you, but consider: Akira doing some unnecessarily dangerous stunt in the Metaverse and feeling so proud of himself... and then he's shocked when the team gets angry/worried that he risked his own safety like that.

"Guys, it's fine, only I would have gotten hurt!"

And then they just get even angrier and he's confused and startled they're so worked up about it. He's not used to people worrying about him.

omg june, hi!!! aaa i yelled when i saw your user pop up, hope you're doing well!!

your brainworms are angsty as ever and oh how i love it

i'm such a believer in the akira-is-passively-reckless-about-his-own-life concept, you'll have to rip it from my cold, dead hands

considering the in-game clues we get about how he's not great about keeping himself well-fed and has an automatic tendency to throw himself aside for the sake of other people's safety, akira's probably got a huge lack of self preservation to add to that (maybe even, a complete lack of care for his own wellbeing) (i'm absolutely blaming his home life for this)

which works well enough for someone in a leadership position, he'd make sacrifices for others very easily and yeah!! he's just so used to not putting himself into consideration- he doesn't even think about his own safety. nobody else ever has, so why should he?

it trickles into everything he does. the last healing item goes to a teammate, whatever funds he makes from part-time jobs goes into the phantom thieves (nevermind that he's living on sojiro's patronage curry and instant noodles, that's unimportant, he's unimportant), he offers unconditional support and a listening ear to every confidant he meets, and helps them with all their problems- even if it is to his own detriment. on the battlefield against a new enemy, joker will do his best to find the weakness- because if they repel anything, at least then he carries the brunt of the backlash. it's natural, instinctive, and therefore he sees no wrong in it.

and for a long time, he gets away with this reckless abandon for his own safety.

except he goes a step too far, maybe he decides to distract another hoard of shadows on his own? or makes what should be an impossible zipline move to cross to the other side of a chasm. against a rampaging enemy, he throws himself in the firing line. after months of excusing the passing recklessness, this is a step too far for the phantom thieves.

when they're reunited with joker, he's not greeted by praise for his dramatic flourish, or impressed and spirited cheers for carving a path deeper into the palace, but instead worried frowns and scolding reprimands. flurries of hands which search for his injuries and want to heal, and he doesn't need it he's fine-

and oh you're so right it would hurt so much because akira would be so confused by their concern!! at first, he probably assumes they're talking about anything but him. did he accidentally break a treasure on his landing? for some reason, had the thieves not wanted that shadow hurt? what was it this time, what had he done wrong- because he had to have done something wrong he always does something wrong, eventually

when it gets through to akira that no, they're worried about his safety the boy blue-screens there and then.

it's not something he's ever been used to- care, affection....attention. nobody's cared enough to look close enough before, and suddenly akira doesn't know what to do with this worry, with this obvious sign that people care about him, that someone values akira kurusu....he's in a bit of a fugue as the diarahan washes over him, so much do he can't even scold what he'd deem an unnecessary use of energy

they call it a day in the palace not long after.

learning to value your own life isn't something that's easy, but akira's surrounded by people who care about him now- they can be patient. this time, they're taking the lead to help akira, not the other way around.

maybe makoto challenges him to find a more safe plan, that doesn't involve reckless action. ryuji helps him be more open about his feelings. ann teaches akira how to appreciate himself. futaba shows him how to trust in what people promise. yusuke guides him through self-appreciation in his own, artistic style. haru helps akira define himself, outside of the parameters his parents set for him. morgana stays at his side through it all.

in their own way, they'll help akira find some self-worth, and hope to see the fruits of their labour in akira guarding a bit more often in battle, turning to his teammates instead of charging in headfirst and bearing the weight of shadows' attentions himself. they'll wait patiently for the day he asks for help, and be proud when he does.

for now, they'll accept the occasional willingness to head back to a saferoom, or retreat from battle. they'll mentally cheer when he uses one of their few healing items to patch a gash in his side. it's all about the small steps.

#ask #JuneLuxray #june this is a love letter (tag) to your brain nobody in the p5 fandom is safe from your Ideas and Words and i love it #p5 #persona 5 #p5 royal #akira kurusu #akira kurusu headcanons #oh asdfg it's been a WHILE i forgot how fun this was #oh no oh nooooo i got so out of control in my words here i didn't realise and i just loved this concept too much #i'm weak for this idea and unapologetic about it #this hc of yours is canon to ME #would love akira to have some self preservation some day #sadly that might make him ooc #but imagine #someday #we can dream

[figureofdismay]

Pitch: An absurdist dramady version of The X Files. Like in the style of Pushing Daisies or Northern Exposure. Or Arrested Development lol. where instead of being assigned together they meet at some kind of investigative seminar (or a new agey 'self discovery' thing Melissa dragged Scully to and Mulder's there investigating something or meeting someone?), and Mulder and Scully meet and instantly become inseparable and get married by the end of the conference and have to integrate their lives. It's like a supernatural version of 'Dharma and Greg' except instead of trying to mesh the hippy stoner astrology rebel family background on one side and the WASPy conservative rich family background on the other side, you've got the 'emotionally traumatized and involved in a massive conspiracy involving aliens and eugenics for profit' background and the 'boisterously eclectic middle class family of navy brats and moby dick fanatics' background on the other side.

Scully's a pathologist and Mulder's working the x-files with Jerry from Ghost in the Machine and later Jeffrey Spender, but they end up involved in each other's cases all the time while arguing about them. Samantha was taken but returned like a year/18 months later with no memory of what happened and she grew up feeling like such a freak because of it that she's obsessed with being very normal, so she thinks Mulder is too 'out there' and too overprotective, and doesn't want to believe in the conspiracy stuff. Scully and Samantha don't get along but Sam does think she's better than Diana. Who pops up from time to time to wreck havoc.

Carl Spender is openly Mulder's biological father because it came out when Teena divorced Bill, but he's still a megalomaniacal power monger in the center of a conspiracy and Mulder still hates him, he just also thinks that Mulder should acknowledge him as a 'decent father' because he hasn't let the syndicate outright kill him and hasn't targeted his new sort-of daughter in law. Mulder and Jeffrey know they are half brothers and Jeffry is insanely jealous both because 'Ol Smokey likes Mulder better (cares enough to taunt him instead of just ignoring him) and because Mulder's much better at investigating paranormal stuff. Jeffrey has also always had a crush on Samantha and is trying to protect her from the Syndicate, but Samantha thinks it's too weird that he's her brother's half brother and won't have anything to do with him.

Jeffrey's also jealous that Mulder got married and to such a normal woman from outside the pool of special conspiracy people when CGB will be expecting him to marry who he picks, so he keeps trying to set Scully up in the eyes of the Syndicate or the Bureau in retribution but she and Melissa have the opposite of CC's 'woman danger tragedy magnet syndrome' and effortlessly sidestep his incompetent little plots without hardly even noticing by simply being focused and intuitive.

Melissa is the only one from either of their families who thinks their being married is a good idea. Also Melissa ends up dating the Lone Gunmen. All of them, in a complicated poly situation that both Mulder and Scully are mildly alarmed by this but it's actually very sweet.

Scully's friend Ellen is concerned that Scully doesn't seem to see how suddenly and wildly insane her life became, kind of like becoming a mob wife but with bugs and goo and aliens, but Scully shrugs it off because it's interesting and she has Mulder now so that part's good, plus he needs her, and you can't choose your in-laws can you.

#txf #msr #i don't even know okay #the thought just popped into my head and while I would love to write a series of minisodes to flesh this out #my ability to focus just hasn't been there since like june #but the concept popped into my head fully formed while browsing hulu (dharma & greg listed right above the x files lol) and it made me laug #and also feel insane while picturing these characters as processed through heavier absurdism filters #feel free to tell me i've snapped under the weight of 20 years of wrestling with this show's canon bc i probably have 🤣💀

[soldier-poet-king]

WHICH ONE OF YOU DID THIS it's June + bee themed (I SEE YOU 👀🐝🌈) and it's bday month

I was in a mental fugue state when I got home and just. The weepiest. And surprise package? With a very on theme, meaningful gift?

#franposting #genuinely. am sitting on the bathroom floor kinda crying a bit #this coming in on the day where ive just. been having an extra bad time with the concept of june and bodies. #(and also family but alas that's 24/7) #im so grateful #loved loved loved! the child in my head wails #i can narrow it down somewhat by who has my address but ive also been on this webbed site since 2012 so its like #more like 2 people yknow #more than like 2 ppl* its actually like maybe a dozen ppl

[coulrology]

Very big day for a very annoying person (me)

#sadly i dont have the time to be annoying about them today though bc ive got a flight later and that is going to take up all my time 💔 #BUT WOWOWOW JUNIPER YOURE A WHOLE YEAR OLD NOW.....thatse so insane to me #ive never had this much love and fuel for any of my ocs before so this really is so wild to me like i never celebrate oc bdays #BUT JUNE'S DIFFERENT HE DID SOMETHING TO MY BRAIN 💥 #they have changed so little in this past year yet I have changed so much bc of them......... #AND OHHHOHOHOO THE FIRE IVE GOT FOR THEM IS STILL GOING CRAAAZY STRONG SO HERE'S TO ANOTHER JUNIPER-FILLED YEAR 🥂 #ALTHOUGH errmm technically ive kinda sorta had him for almost 2 years now BUUUT their og concept was p much nothing and his name was diff #they weren't the ✨️Juniper Jazz✨️ you know today they didnt have that same POW so I'm keeping May 16 as his official bday <3333

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

HA I'm 100% not making this camp nanowrimo goal

#I have written: 800 words so far wITH THE GOAL TO WRITE 10K?? HAHHAA #what's funny is I wrote 10k in February #about 20k in Jan #couple thousand in Dec #50k in nov #SO TELL ME WHY I'M DISAPPOINTED BY THE IDEA OF NOT HITTING THIS GOAL #listen... not making the goal doesn't make me feel sad because I'm not making the goal #makes me feel sad because idk! I love writing! I want to do that! I love living IN it #and for me living in it is soooo in the drafting process #and I feel like I've done a really... wonderful job at prioritizing writing & now I'm realizing I need to be #gentle with myself LOL #I'm moving this month after thinking I'd be moving in june #OBVIOUSLY I just finished my degree #I'll be moving into my own room (FIRST TIME EVER!! HAVING MY OWN ROOM!! A CONCEPT!!) when I get back home #lots of change haha #I think the mental strain of all of that has just made me tired #but it's not like I don't want to write ! I do! but I'm tired and that's what makes me sad #not being able to do the thing because I'm tired! #anyway I don't usually care this much about progress but I guess #since nano it's been nice to see the “progress” not because it's progress but because #to me it shows that I'm doing this thing I love very much #anyway proud of me for all I do! #I actually think this is why write every day works better for me than word count goals #(THE HORRORS THAT I ACTUALLY FOLLOW THIS ADVICE NOW HAHAHA) #but I liked that better cuz it was like... oh if I literally write ONE word I hit that goal LMAO #think I'll pivot my goal to that and whatever I write I write! #also writing frequently is kind of a must for me considering my short term memory is just awful #I find I get confused and flustered and overwhelmed when I don't write for a couple days #but yeah one word a day??? i can do that!

[planet4546b]

ok wait can you give a basic rundown of wolf au !!

YES of COURSE i can!!!!!!! the tldr is it’s a very self indulgently emo au where june becomes a giant bloodborne beast of a raid boss

the long version is: june goes off to 1v1 the witness inside the traveler (this was before the final shape preview, so the inside of the traveler is mostly just a big ol arena), and she’s able to defeat it eventually, but it requires her to become the embodiment of violence itself to do so. the witness says ‘isn’t it horrible that this universe doesn’t have a purpose?’ and june says ‘what are you talking about? yes it does. everything here is constructed. we’re all actors on a stage with predetermined roles. it’s the most horrible thing there is.’ and then she kills it!

and then she realizes that won’t be the end of this war and all she goddamn wants is to be set free and to not be constantly fighting in a war and she goes hey i know how to end it! so (still inside the traveler!) she hunts down both the gardener and the winnower. and they say ‘you should stop this’ and she says ‘i’m literally what you both made me’ and kills them both too. she has realized at this point that 1. she is trapped in this narrative and 2. she has the plot armor and power creep and ability to do terrible violence that gives someone power in this world, and she wants to direct that power to taking control of the narrative she’s in. (june in current day canon already feels like she is constantly other peoples pawns and that she is trapped in a life of violence, this is her reaching the end of that thread by saying FINE. my turn now!)

the raw transformational power of the traveler, the lingering power of the dead gods of the light and the dark, and her own light and darkness powers all combine to turn her into a giant beast, being ripped apart by light and darkness both. awesome of her.

and then she cracks the traveler open like an egg! she just straight up rips it apart.

(side note: if any of this sounds unlikely or unaligned with lore, it’s because all of this is essentially being told from a point in the far future where it’s mythologized. the hypothetical lore book that goes with this which i’ve written a bit of is a series of myths and legends of what happened told by people literal centuries later. it’s unlikely that both the gardener and winnower are in the traveler and that a confrontation with them is even possible because it’s functioning under essentially fairytale logic!)

at this point everyone else in the world starts to freak out. everything else was happening inside the traveler, so as far as they know they send off the young wolf to go take down the witness and they don’t hear anything, but then the pyramids all shut down so…good news? right? and then the traveler gets ripped open. BAD NEWS

guardian patrols start getting sent off to see what’s going on, they don’t come back. people around the system start panicking. the nine start panicking. the first raid team sent out get relatively deep into the corpse of the traveler before encountering her, and then they get completely destroyed. the people of the last city, used to living under the threat of a coming apocalypse, start calling the unkilliable thing living in the remains of the traveler ‘the wolf at the door’. something terrible asking to be let in. hence wolf!

(for the vanguard and the handful of guardians who know the young wolf went in there and have some idea what this thing is, the name rings a little too true.)

fireteams continue to be sent in. they realize that wolf literally cannot be damaged, let alone killed, she’s incredibly deadly and she knows to target ghosts and permakill guardians (one of the hypothetical raid mechanics is scooping up your fireteams ghosts when they get killed so wolf can’t get em). one team is eventually able to temporarily stop her with the help of the nine, who sacrifice the sun, turning it into a black hole to trap wolf in.

most people are aware this isn’t a permanent solution and now the solar system is literally unlivable because there’s no sun. so while wolf lives her life as a particularly wily raid boss being constantly re-beaten by fireteam after fireteam, the rest of the sol system calls a truce after centuries of war and starts building a fleet of ships to get everyone out of the system. these ships are delightfully piecemeal constructions: eliksni warp engines recovered from the long drift, human technologies to grow food in minimal space from the city, durable uluran exteriors, the hive’s knack for truly massive (and decorative!) ship construction, awoken ley lines programmed into servitors to plot the course…etc. load everyone up, send them off to different directions, and in 1,000 years check in on what their stories about the escape from the sol system look like!

and back in the sol system a single satellite station orbits a black hole, filled with a group of guardians who elected to stay and make sure wolf stays here, who fights her on loop the way we do any raid boss to keep her trapped. and poor wolf who only wanted a way out of a life of violence is trapped in its cycle forever!

and that’s wolf au!!!! my little darling dearest of a raid boss with a kill count in the millions!!!!! and i love her!!!!!

#asks #axiolotl #THANK YOU ELLIS this is a long ass post but i love talking about my beast of an animal #it’s the most tragic end possible for june and a decent ending for everyone else it’s miserable!!! #i have like three and a half raid encounters worked ou and a bit of concept art i should really get back too #i should get back to writing those lore cards too. they were REALLY fun #wolfposting #guardian

[june-again]

i'm unwell over Firebird.... this is brilliant, every moment of it

#june shines #aaaaand it's distracting me from my homework because it just makes me zDLSdALKSzLJ;D #LIKE #my hands are shaking #i love it !!!! so much #i only listened to fever dream before this... and i wanted more very badly so i decided to wait until the whole record dropped #DEADHORSE UNIVERSE MY BELOVED #i love the concepts #and the album art #and the messaging!!!!! and the #the instrumentation #the vocals #the variety #ok back to the lit review grrrrrr #dpr #dirt poor robins

[oldfacesnewdawnoffical]

One of my favourite things about OFND is how it feels like the world's evolving. Civilizations are beginning to form again and technology is as well. Regrowing in a broken plant pot. Can't wait until Holly reinvents the wheel.

#literally hearing takes like this Makes My Day #every time #🥺🥺🥺 seriously I just love hearing things like this #I adore ofnd; it’s literally almost TEN YEARS OLD!!! (it’ll be ten in June!!!) #so obviously I’ve had a lot of time to flesh it out as a world and a concept #world building is quite literally my FAVORITE thing in the entire world #I love it I love making things feel Real and fleshed out and giving things rhyme and reason even when it’s fantastical #I want to make it Fun but also feel Solid #the world’s been wiped clean by the mistakes of a species past. now it’s up to what remains to grow and learn from their mistakes #and even though ofnd is primarily focused on Just the one (the fealty); I’d say that the world is healing pretty well <3 #old faces new dawn #ask #warrior cats rewrite #warriors rewrite #x-critter2022

[junkissed]

for the made up fic title thing: what about…. “such haunted halls we walk” 👀

or if you want something silly: “i put the ‘ass’ in ‘astrophysics’” ddssfhhgdhjfh

HELPMNKJDFSN 😭 i'll put this under a cut bc both of them got kinda long hehe

also fair warning the first one is soo sad pure angst there is not a hint of happiness skdgjfs skip to the second divider if you don't want to read it

send me a title and i'll tell you what i would write for it!

ooh i really like the first one!! i'm thinking a historical au. some kind of period piece a la jane austen featuring vernon as mr. darcy and it's super angsty, kinda like a cautionary tale about life and love and loss. it's told in a series of flashbacks as he walks down a hallway in a house; even though it's daytime outside, the curtains are drawn and it's just dark and dreary, reflecting his mood as he looks at each portrait hung on the wall and thinks about the memories that should be good and happy, but they're tainted as he looks back on them and remembers all the bad things that came afterwards instead. i'm thinking at the very end there's a reveal that's like, you ended up parting ways, not for some big, dramatic reason, but you just fell out of love with him and you didn't want him to feel like his love for you wasn't reciprocated and that he deserved someone who would give back to him all the love he has to give. it was such a clean break that he shouldn't have any reason to be so melancholy (it's not like you cheated on him or ran away with his brother), but it's such an unsatisfying end that he almost wishes you'd had a huge argument and blown up at him; he wishes he would have some reason to be mad at you, to hate you, but you did nothing wrong but give him a chance to experience what it feels like to be loved, because that's something you knew you wouldn't be able give him. so like a theme throughout this one is that in each painting and each memory he looks back on, he's remembering it and wondering when exactly you stopped loving him and why didn't he realize it sooner. ooh actually adding on, maybe he used to be a semi-successful painter and people would hire him to paint their portraits, but after you left he hasn't been able to pick up a brush since, and everything he tries to create comes out dark and tangled and choppy, nothing like the beautiful, bright, joyful paintings he used to make. so not only does he lose someone who brought love and joy into his life, he lost the ability to create art that captures that love and joy. so for the rest of his days all he can do is walk that hallway, staring at the portraits that remind him of better days and wishing he would've known some way to make you love him back.

(tagging @duhnova for this one i want u to suffer cheol thots) okay ass-trophysics is about economics major seungcheol who has to fulfill his lab credits and of course he waited until the last possible second and every other class was waitlisted so the only class available is an analytical physics class. by some miracle the prerequisites for that class are ones he's already taken for his degree and his schedule lines up perfectly for him to take this class. reader is a physics major or something so this class is required for them. you show up bright and early on the first day of the semester and you're getting out your notebook and laptop and stuff and in walks this insanely built frat-looking dude with the fattest juiciest ass you've ever seen in your entire goddamn life, and he plops down in the seat next to you and introduces himself like he isn't the most gorgeous man you've ever seen walk into a math classroom. and the semester goes on and you kinda become friends but not really friends more like classroom friends yk? and you know cheol is smart as hell but for some reason he just doesn't understand this one concept and it sucks because the entire course is pretty much built around understanding this concept. and so you try to help him pass the class and you start becoming closer, and maybe you have a crush on him but you really definitely don't btw. later maybe there's an angsty run-in with an ex girlfriend who makes all these crazy threats and tells you to stay away from him because she knows he'll come back to her, he always does, and you're like "girl i'm literally just helping him learn physics wtf do you want from me please" and she's like "i know what you're REALLY doing... back off" and so you're like. jesus okay fine whatever. so you start making excuses for not being able to help him on the weekends and evenings and days off anymore and he gets pouty and sulky like :( my bffp (best friend from physics) what did i do? and one day he's had enough and he finally manages to corner you at your favorite place to eat on campus and he's like. tell me why you're avoiding me. and you're like "well tell your dumbass girlfriend to stop sending me death threats and i'll help you with your hw again" and he's like "??? what girlfriend i haven't dated anyone since i met you at the beginning of the semester" and so you describe her and cheol lets out the biggest longest most aggravated sigh and he explains that she is his ex but she's literally insane and he has no intention of getting back with her ever and then more drama etc etc but then FINALLY they get things figured out, there's a big moment where he passes his final and you go to hug him but he goes in to kiss you and it's 🧍‍♀️ Awkward and he gets all shy and pouty again and your face is so damn hot and you're like "why did you just try to kiss me" and he has this whole speech about how he really appreciated your help over the semester but he was hoping you would go out with him because he thinks you're really smart and pretty and he just goes on and on about what he likes about you and you're just standing there shocked thinking. this man with the ass of a kardashian is professing his love to me in the middle of a starbucks and a barista is definitely giving me the side eye but oh my god yeah i kinda really do wanna kiss him and then 🫶 kissing happy ending etc etc

#🌃 : june.writes #🌠 : ask games #savventeen #im sorry the vernon one is so angsty PLS i dont know where that came from but i love the concept of an austen vernon #i would never write it bc i cannot do angst ksjdhfsj but i feel like it would be fun to play around with perspective and- #-narration and motifs and the symbolism of color and things like that yk? #also for cheol im an english major skhdgsh i hope its not obvious i have zero understanding of math and science 💀 #fun fact ! the bffp thing is a real thing my high school physics teacher used to tell us 😭 mr. berg i miss u dearly #also also if u would like an emoji just lmk!! i see u around occasionally <3 hi i'm june btw

[taniushka12]

Not to think abt my ocs at nearly 4 am but im considering making another oc to ship w/ june solely for a the flesh/the machine is yuri joke

#She can be june's side hoe except marcus is technically her side hoe. She doesnt have any main hoe though bc shes not interested in that.. #junes probably aro tbh like yeah at the end shes Fond of him but wouldnt call it romantic. Anyway. What was i saying? Yuri #i probably wont bc id have to think a really cool concept to go w/ it beyond 'the machine' #and tbh the sacredness or whatever of the machine isnt something im personally interested in (unlike the flesh) but who knows! Maybe one da #June deserves to have her own side side story yknow? I love her u_u #tani's personal shit #Goodnight!