#will delete Im just stressed

[redrobin-detective]

*slaps self* you can fit so much anxiety and trauma in this bad boy

#love june as a concept #the weather is perfect #summer is here! #but like fucking clockwork every 1st I proceed to drown myself in misery and anxiety over my birthday #I am working hard to undo that trauma response so i can enjoy my bday and june in general in peace #but god did I spend a lot of today just fretting and feeling sick and anxious #like I do every year the calander hits june and i realize 'oh god its almost here I need to plan shit' #thank GOD this will be the first year I'm out of my parents house and will not be seeing my mother at all #I refuse to #i dont care if Im just sitting home alone I will like my Ass off to avoid seeing her #I will not let her traumatize me for the 29th fucking year in a row #anyway oopsie #personal #will delete Im just stressed #I have broken out in a cold sweat haha #i hate feeling this way but god this day has so many bad memories attached to it I spend the whole month just steeped in dread #why'd I have to be born at the end of themonth #cant I have been born earlier get the trauma out of the way and get on with the rest of june??

[yonemurishiroku]

My heart is broken over another devastating loss.

#sobbing i cant remember what fic is that and im crying #i lost st dear to me and i cant figure out what it is #pls i cant stress this enough. u can orphan your fic instead of deleting it #i know the feeling when you feel like you dont want to see a flawed creation of yours buti promis sb out there loves it #so pls. if we can just avoid deleting it all forever #nico di angelo #hoo #toa #yone rambling #percico #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo #heroes of olympus #trials of apollo #percy jackson #pernico #ao3 #archive of our own #ao3 fanfic #pjo fanfic #fanfic talk again bc what’s new anw? #percico fanfic #fanfiction

[moonlume]

tumblr said draw something bad so I did but I'm mad I still didn't feel anything

#man i started tagging this and i cant even bring myself to do it. hashtag art hashtag illustration hashtag capitalism. #sorry to be sadposting... tumblr is the only place i can admit ive actually been really really struggling with my love for art... #i should be grateful. i should be thankful for the fact that i can do art as my job. i shouldnt be whining about it like this. #but theres a hole in my soul where my joy for creating used to be and i dont know how to fix it. i want to love to draw again. #its been like this for probably over a year now and i dont know what to do. i cant abandon everything ive been working on for 7 years. #im also unemployable. so its not like i would dare to quit moonlume...but i just want to find joy in it again... #but capitalism has dug its wretched claws into my skull so badly that everything has been feeling incredibly soulless. i hate it. #anyway. might delete this later. its unprofessional but this is the one website where i can let go of professionalism for 5min and be human. #i dont hate what i do and i really am thankful..i just i wish i wasnt so stressed about making everything look good and perfect and sellable #but at this point its subconsciously connected to my survival that every time i think about drawing i stress myself out before i even start #ugh idk. neither here nor there. cant quit but dont feel connected to my work but cant change what i do or i will alienate my audience 👍

[figofswords]

the post grad why did i get an art degree what am i even doing what do i want in life where am i going crisis has finally hit i want to. lie down in the dirt. or something

#WHAT AM I DOING!!!! #i get up i go to my stupid retail job i stick labels on bags they pay me fucking thirteen bucks an hour i come home i lie on the couch #too tired to draw in too much pain to go anywhere no energy to reach out to college friends to do anything fun #no idea where the even start with getting an industry job no clue what i even WANT at this point #trying to remember what i loved so much about comics i want it BACK i HATE this #WHAT IS THE POINT!!!! WHAT DO I WANT WHERE AM I GOING!!! WHAT COMES NEXT!!!!!! #there's no clear career trajectory i can't do freelance i need structure i can't work too much i need free time #my brain doesn't work every job requires me to move across the country the irs just took fucking three hundred stupid dollars from me #my friends live in different states i can't get a job without experience i can't get experience without a job #i can't work on my portfolio with no energy and no time and i dont have any money and everything is so expensive all the time #i can't get anywhere bc i dont drive and im too stressed to think about taking driving lessons again #and WHAT DO I WANT! #THE MOST INTERESTING THING I DO EVERY WEEK IS GO TO PHYSICAL THERAPY! #I AM EXCITED EVERY WEEK FOR PHYSICAL THERAPY!!!! WHY!!!!!!!! #anyway WHATEVER i need to go to bed #delete later #i got into spx. today. so. had to have a crisis about how i felt when i attended spx (energized. excited. a part of something. ambitious) #versus how i feel now (tired. unmotivated. kind of apathetic about art. disconnected) #i dont miss the stress of school but i miss being around other artists. ppl who speak your language and who want the same things you want #ppl who are excited abut art and that makes YOU excited about art. ppl who get you #i miss that i want that back #whatever. its 1am i gotta go shower i have an 8.5 hour shift tomorrow. wahoo. $13.50/hr lets go

[doodlebloo]

Hiii guys.

I've already been out of my mind busy for the past few months, and with midterms happening and my thesis defense soon I may not be super active here for a bit.

As it stands now I'm not leaving this blog. This has been my home for the past few years and I love the story too much to let go. I will assess how I'll talk about Tommy/Phil/Tubbo etc going forwards based on their responses, lack thereof, info on what is and isn't allowed to be said legally, etc.

If you're reading this I love you so so so much. I am at all times overflowing with love for the dsmp/mcyt community and what it's done for me. Some of the happiest moments I've had in my life were because of you all.

Also, if you're rebranding or moving blogs or w/e and we're mutuals I'd love to follow your new account even if we share 0 interests in common now, feel free to lmk where you're headed to (if you want) ❤️

#i think i need to be less on Tumblr for a minute because well. #i have an unhealthy attatchment to this community. i like get physically sick when i see a blog i loved has deleted. #and i cant really take the stress of watching ppl leave and checking for updates/statements on this situation rn so. may take a short break #i am coming back though. promise. probably wont even be a week. #(disclaimer 1: supporting shubble should always be everyones first priority. not trying to make this situation abt me just posting an update #on my blog about how my blog will be handling things.) #((disclaimer 2: if you see me post this ans a few days later im back here that means i failed in my attempt to not doomscroll 💔)) #doodle.txt

[lesbiancarat]

man, part of me really wants to type out a whole rant about this shit but I feel like if I do there won't really be a central point and it will just be a bunch of disjointed rambling. so all I'll say is I'm so fucking tired of svt being under a giant corporation. like regardless of opinion about pledis by itself/pre-hybe, at least then we a) knew what we were dealing with and b) had /some/ collective power as fans to influence the company (ex. getting closer MV and svt ring as merch incidents)

all the hybe acquisition did was add 10 more layers of politics onto everything. for every one thing you could argue hybe improved or fixed, there's like 100 other pieces of bullshit that got introduced directly or indirectly. and it's not even a situation of hybe trying to sabotage svt or whatever like some ppl try to fearmonger about, it's literally all just capitalism and trying to please shareholders and make a profit and I'm so fucking tired of it

#this isn't about any one thing btw this feeling has been building since the acquisition was first rumored #and there were a couple things in the last couple months or so that have just brought it all to the surface #but also i feel like im just frustrated bc a lot of this stuff i saw coming like 4 years ago when the acquisition was just a rumor #and like. idk with every passing year feeling vindicated in the worst way possible #bc i wish i was proven wrong #but capitalism always wins so i cant really be surprised #ugh kind of ended up ranting anyway hopefully im making sense #idk might end up deleting this later anyway #bc i like to keep this blog relatively positive for both my own and yalls sake #and idk if i have the energy to answer any asks that might arise from this either #esp since ive been having a stressful week at work too #but ugh we'll see #melia.txt

[potatobugz]

*leans against door seductively* does anyone have any tips on what to do when its hard + uncomfortable to breathe and ur heart is beating faster than normal to the point where its hard to focus on anything else

#rambles #/genuine #preferably without having to go to a hospital or anything #i dont have Money and also i dont want to go anywhere or call anyone i just wanna feel better enough to finish this drawing #and/or go to sleep please please pls #dont stress or worry abt anything btw im fine im just In Pain and its hard to ignore. ots not even the kind that hurts a lot #i just feel horrible in a physical way like im out of breath #will delete later sory if this is a scary post #at all. again donot worry i will be A OKAY #i hate when my body does scary shit like this man i just wanna draw km already constantly paranoid abt stuff like this #(shh dont tell anotne i said this but im gonan start crying like actually 😼) #i guarantee my own safety. muah. ily my beloved mutuals + followers #also ove been feeling like this since abt 2-3 pm i think if thats anything #iiirc? #it feels like its gotten a little worse but maybe kts bc im laying fown

[cannibalmutual]

#personal #delete later #one thing abt me i love suicidal ideation #i’m so stressed and i kind of hate my [redacted] and i don’t know what to do #but u kno what a rlly easy solution would be . #you’ll never guess #if i ever did pls don’t sell my dolls idk what to do with them but idk if i could stand it #me sitting here abt to type out my will in tumblr tags #:| #lame ass suicidal bitch can’t even leave a note like a normal person #as a side note i have no active plans just active desire #but i’m tired and my cat is asleep on my feet and im hoping it will rain again soon

[starheirxero]

SO. this is. a lot!! I want to truly genuinely honestly thank everyone who didn't immediately shoot me dead in the street for the side blog, bc yea it is mine LOL. Which,, I was hoping it wasn't that obvious but oh well. I hugely, wildly appreciate everyone who has been chill (and everyone who's actually followed me bc of all this LOL) and I am sooooo so so so sorry to everyone caught in the crossfire :( I hope this all levels out soon bc. blehg.

Also!!!. listen. I hate to be this guy, I really do, but I want to remind y'all that I use it/its pronouns and nothing else. I am seeing a lotta they/them and while I know y'all're likely not being malicious, just keep it in mind pretty pls if I'm talked about at any point forward. love y'all 🙏

#xero says things #im p sure the anon that sent the first ask that spiralled all this was the same anon i got yesterday night #got someone asking about the blog and i just silently deleted it bc. if i dont bring attention to it we can be cool yk? #but uhm. tsk. yea #frankly im very very scared bc the /idea/ of this happening is smth i genuinely have lost sleep over. and its happening!! #but ill be okay!!! #this is petty online shit!! it will not effect my actual life and—while still stressful—the time will pass and itll be whatevsies #important #discourse #< i. feel like i gotta make a blacklisting tag for this somehow. lol.

[cassynite]

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#cassy bitches #i am. so fucking tired and annoyed and stressed #our fucking shower hasn't worked in two weeks bc my parter decided to remodel and then didnt finish the job! #and now her fucking sibling fucked up our dishwasher and it leaked water EVERYWHERE including apparently under the floorboards #and im pretty sure i can smell black mold in the kitchen now which! great! another nightmare we're gonna have to fix ourselves #since we cant afford to get a contractor and even if we could no one ever returns our calls when we do try to hire someone #AND my friend went to surgery for appendicitis and that's freaking me out #and ON TOP of that ive been creatively juiced out and feeling like shit about the things i make and my ocs and like. me #like everyone's just been secretly tolerating me all this time and if i disappear no one's going to notice #i feel like nothing i make or am doing is worthwhile and im just GROSS and ANGRY and ANNOYING #and even complaining in tags on a post makes me feel like a whiny baby like. there are wars etc why am i complaining boo hoo #so i cant even talk to people about how i feel bc it makes me so ashamed that im feeling this way to begin with #ive been resisting the urge to just delete everything at this point bc then at least i wont have the urge to check everything and feel wors #why does awful shit always happen right around my birthday. why am i cursed like this

[squuote]

I think people should be allowed to share their distaste for certain headcanons n such without people making posts about how they’re ‘gatekeeping’. for as much as I’m a ‘do what you want’ kinda dude, I do think that includes allowing people to express why they don’t enjoy something. like most people are pretty civil bout it until you antagonize them by pointing and saying they’re ‘policing’ spaces.

#crow thoughts #sorry fandom stuff is like. kinda stressing me out a bit #and it’s kinda making me nervous to post opinions on things. #additionally I think people need to hear out minorities when it comes to things and not antagonize them #additionally if they aren’t going up to people and saying rude shit or actively posting rude shit in the tags #what does it matter if they don’t enjoy your headcanon? #like I’ve already seen four different posts all talking about fandom negativity and it’s like. just block them. #additionally maybe also don’t put those posts in the main tags? especially if the other person just posted it to their blog :-| #im not explaining this correctly. I just don’t have good experience with people who point and claim negativity #especially in the context of actual criticism about character design preferences and the treatment of certain designs #like you cannot deny that people treat fat designs very differently from skinny designs #ur not a bad dude for having a skinny design but you gotta allow people to discuss and critique things #idk I’m just tired as fuck seeing people in the main tags make longass posts about an opinion from a handful of people- #-who only posted it to their blog and not directly in the tags yknow? #if I get too anxious I’ll delete this but for now I’ll post this

[rosamundpkes]

i know its in the name but why is being chronically ill like this. just when i’m nearing the end of a medical issue from one disorder, another issue arises from a different disorder. by the time the month is over, i will have spent 2k$ on necessary health stuff and i still have at least 2 more procedures scheduled and whatever tests and treatment i’ll need for this new problem

#i might delete this later i feel like im oversharing im just also so…. #this latest problem finally made my dad realize what i’ve been dealing with so thats kind of stressing me out #hella.txt

[silenthillbunni]

me rn

#im gnna shut up now #nd i'll be back int he morrow to delete these posts 🫶🏻✌🏻 #ill be a normal girl again 💗 #i think when u have no one to listen to u #u get this patjalohical need to just word vomit everything thought in ur head #like nobody cares damn i dont care #im just trying mot to kill myself girlei nd instead stress posting on tumblr dot com #ok imma donit fr #imma close the apl noe i can do this im stong bbbb!!! im strong gurl can do this hes yes

[birdinabowl]

Me verses the urges

#it’s not anything bad I just sometimes want to delete my stuff off the internet because I get way to insecure #Ehhh I’m just stressed out sorry for yapping #Like I just want to bomb my art and writing sometimes 😭😭 #Vent #I think this one person is just stressing me out way to much which make me rethinking everything ever on the internet #Im just stressed and need to sleep but at the same time i literally can’t sleep #Grahhhh :(((( #Sorry for venting 😭😭

[ratingboomercomics]

Whow so basically men love to watch sports and women love to shop? What?? I’m so glad someone made this amazing observation in comic form.

“Women be shopping” - Brian and Greg Walker

2/10 because I actually always liked the Hi and Lois art style so much even if I never cared to read it. Their faces are so cute

Btw this was submitted to me literally two years ago I think(I stupidly accidentally deleted it somehow while I was trying to check the date again)and I stupidly didn’t check my inbox…. Sorry if you’ve ever sent me a message I will reply to them I am just stupidly sorry thanks for the submission

#boomer cartoons #boomer comic #2/10 #idk how I even managed to delete it because the delete it when that button is I think one over from the one I was trying to hit #don’t know what’s wrong with me #I’m posting a lot bc I’m going through major life changes and it’s extremely stressful so I’m distracting myself with dumb stuff #im just a little guy #in a boomers world #anyway

[foursidecity]

Not that It matters because I just deleted my instagram but does anyone know if getting continuously logged out is just a bug or possibly being hacked

#about an hour ago i randomly got logged out so i changed my password and logged back in #and now it just repeatedly kept kciking me out so i just. deleted it because i cant deeeaaaallll with rhat rnnnn #im so stressed :[