#lynx says things

[dreamerlynx]

LMAOOOO George died and after a scream of despair sapnap was like “ok well now we can team with hbomb easy ^_^”

#after all that discussion of how h is good but Obv he wants to team with george LMAOOO #lynx says things #lynx liveblogs #sapnap

[skrunksthatwunk]

thinking about how eiji's a pole vaulter and how ash talks about eiji "flying" and how eiji's associated with bird imagery and how eiji's free (unlike ash) and how eiji comes in on a plane and leaves on a plane and how ash cannot fly, ash cannot be free, how nyc is ash's prison, and how ash is the leopard who dies climbing the mountain, unable to live at such elevation, how he was trying to reach the sky and be free but was always stuck to the earth, how he chose to die instead of climbing back down, how he chose to die where he could see the sky and hope and freedom almost like a bird with eiji's letter right in front of him rather than letting everything go wrong and ruin it once again, how eiji's a failed pole vaulter anyway, how a bad fall ruined his career and grounded him (physically and emotionally), how it took flying to america and meeting ash and needing to save him and skip for him to try flying again, how he landed hard and harsh and still the thought of that escape compelled ash to protect eiji at all costs because if he could fly that means something to him, even if he doesn't think he can fly, how eiji is the manifestation of his hope and how when he breaks and asks eiji to stay with him a while he folds himself over his legs and weighs him down and traps him and grounds him, how ash fights like hell to keep eiji alive not because he thinks he can be like him (hopeful, flying, innocent), but because he makes him forget the gravity of his situation, and so he can see eiji fly again. how he wants to see him escape. how eiji is a bird and ash is a wildcat and how ash never once saw eiji as prey. how eiji never saw ash as a predator. how it is eiji's naivete that first endears ash to him, how it is his freedom and flight and removal from darkness and his ability to leave that darkness that really roots eiji in ash's blood as something essential to him keeping on living in this hell of nyc. how it is that distance from the violence and that hope for the future that ash chooses to surround himself in as he dies. how ash dies in a dream because he feels more than anything that he can't fly like eiji, that he can never leave. how his violence is a part of him and will be forever, how it weighs him down. how he wants to enjoy the view from the mountainside rather than looking up from the ground below. as if they can both fly. as if he is with him up there and not grounded. eye-to-eye with what he can't have, seeing eiji's homeland: the sky. how he dies trying to reach the top because he couldn't take retreating and trying again. how ash, tired and tired and tired and convinced it will go on forever if he crawls back down the mountain, chooses to close his life deluged in eiji, in eiji's insistence that they can fly together, in eiji's hope for him and for them, in eiji's beautiful dream. how ash dies without trying to realize that dream. how ash, in dying, destroys it.

#banana fish spoilers #I'M HAVING A FUCKING MOMENT #mutual reblogged exactly one (1) piece of ash fanart and sent me on A Multiple Hour Long Thing and now im rewatching it lol #yes i am only on episode 2 yes i am still going to write big long analysis posts ANYWAY #whatever hope this makes sense. anyway #banana fish #okumura eiji #ash lynx #asheiji #hhhhh i can't believe i've only watched this twice in like what 5.5 years?? sheesh #anywayyyyyyy i care about them a lot ok. god #and yes i DO kinda have beef with the decision to kill ash off at the end but it really does say so much About his character #that he chose to die in the way that he did even though he's been throwing his life away since episode 1 #dying in peace in comfort in solitude rather than in some chaotic battlefield.... ough...... in the peace eiji alone could give him..... #anywayss i relate to ash a little more than i should so. this one's for us cool guy bottoms up #edit i uh.... i forgot it was a leopard.... in the story..... but whatever it doesn't really affect the symbolic meaning it's just embarras #ing that i forgot >;/

[sparklingoctopus]

It's so sad but also kinda funny

#so ive been reading the banana fish manga #and this just sounded so weird to me #idk if english people actually say this or if its just a weird translation from japanese #or if it is an 80s thing which i wouldnt understand #but i gotto be honest #i think the translation is just a bit wack at times :) #banana fish #ash lynx #aslan jade callenreese #eiji okumura #asheiji #my post it notes

[quarklynx]

I read 500 pages today. Five hundred.

What is wrong with me, why do I do this. Why can't I just enjoy books at a normal pace?

#lynx thinks #it is nearly 3 am and i am so tired #which is a good thing i guess considering how lwst night went for me #hopefully I'll actually be able to get to sleep and stay asleep #but for real... I've read half the book already and i just got it from the library today #why can't mr sanderson speed up the pace on these things i mean do they really need to be 1000+ pages each? #i would say that i havent done this kind of thing since i was in high school but that would be a lie #when i found SVSSS and MXTX's other works i went just as rabid reading them #I'm pretty sure i read all of TGCF in like a week bc it was in an online format and i had no way to know how much i was fucking reading #that work is multiple times the size of the bible and has very few words in common with it #absolutely unhinged behavior on my part tbh

[lynxfrost13]

Fucking Christ

#I want to scream #its thanksgiving holiday so I’m w the fam and they’re talking about Israel and Palestine of course #I don’t understand!!! they have no compassion for any of the palestinians #what Israel is doing is so so wrong and I know it and it feels like there’s a gap I can’t bridge!!!! they don’t understand #they’re saying awful things and these are people I love so so much aughhh it hurts in a way I can’t quite express with words #I tried to say one thing and they only doubled down #ough I usually don’t vent but this fucking sucks #Lynx talks

[skekteksfurby]

14 y/o me not even knowing what cougars look like and where they live and with a lot of confidence putting them in Austria of all places for my webseries: Yes this makes perfect sense

#tekrim text #in case you ever wondered why silkey is so golden yellow #its bc i thought cougars looked mostly like actual lions #and i based her design on safira from cow of the wild #and tabitha from alcatraz (the fox series) #who are both gold/yellow #turns out actual cougars are more copper/grayish/dun colored #i fixed this for silkeys mom in episode 3 though who is copper-y red and has more realistic cougar-like markings #also yeah i dont even know what do say about the austria thing #i deadass thought they lived in the americas AND europe #turns out i got them confused with lynxes #my excuse is that the cougars in ALO escaped from a zoo #or maybe that they're a non-extinct version of Puma pardoides #honestly i dont know what i was doing while marking this series

[werebutch]

Worst but also funniest part of owning a rabbit is that they don’t care how much time and energy u spend cleaning. They don’t like it. They actively want to live in a horrible nest

#Lynx made a whole thing under his tunnel and I’m cleaning atm lol #my sister is sitting w him playing parry gripp songs 😭 she’s says he’s a parry gripp animal

[lynxalon]

Love; Disconnection and Connection

I am a matryoshka doll

Inverse

Within me I hold

My mother

My grandmother

My great grandmother

And her mother

And her grandmother

But I am not my mother's

Daughter

Does that line end with me

I remember

Going to my grandparents house

And taking those matryoshka dolls

Apart

It felt like love

To take someone apart

Want to see all of them

It's all the matryoshka doll knows

What comes before them and

What comes after

Do I hope for that kind of love

Or do I hope

To be held so tightly

Crushed and put together over

And over

Again

What love do I want

Need

Deserve?

What love will finally (finally!) fill me

I know love because

I hold it within me

So why

Why am I still

...

#lynx speaks #quiet poems #daughterhood #i'm not sure what else i can say for this one #i feel connected to my mother in the way i cook my food and how i dry my hair and how i laugh #but i feel disconnected from any love she might hold for me #i think it's there; she says it is but. why don't i feel it? #my last name ends with me #i've been told this since i was a child #my nana's sister and her side of the family don't have it since she was married #my brother has my stepdad's; his dad's #and there was the assumption that i was straight. i'd marry a man and take his last name. the line would end with me #i've been protective over it ever since #if i ever get married i will keep my last name #i think. it's the only thing that made me feel loved and connected to my family #i wasn't like them. i was a young neurodivergent queer child. and now that i'm an adult #i don't know how to shed that disconnected feeling #because it only seems to be me feeling it but. i wonder if that's not true. if they feel it too because i've always been isolated #because of them or myself. idk. i just don't know #it's too fucken early in the day to be thinkin of all of this lol

[spindrifters]

you will never ever write:

1. the choices of the padshanks fandom

2. marginalia: corndog edition

3. wolfstar giving each other emotionless handjobs

they said it couldn't be done. they were fucking wrong.

--

Festive, uproarious laughter rises from somewhere far down below, muted by carpets and brick and centuries of black magic woven into Grimmauld Place’s walls. Somewhere in the old townhouse, against all the odds, hope springs in deepest winter. Up here in his father’s long-abandoned study, Sirius feels it shrivel in the cold.

“I’m sorry,” he says, hand still on the doorknob, halfway out to the landing.

He should leave. He’s made his choice.

Down in the warm kitchen, Remus is waiting for him. Remus, unpracticed laugh lines stretching wide for the first time in years. Remus, whose warm body stretches against his at night. Just the way another used to, languid lines and orange fur spilling into black during that freezing winter in the Shrieking Shack. Remus, who’s left the evidence of their rekindled flame across the broad expanse of Sirius’s neck and collarbone for all to see. Purple bruises sucked into palest white.

He should go.

He should.

But something about the sight of his own hand on the doorknob stills him where he stands. Fresh scratches, long and precise as needles, the answer to those bruises, freshly seen for the very first time. Something in the tiny dots of bubbling blood. Sirius has always longed to be marked by those he loves. Made to belong.

Across the dark library, a fluffed tail rises without so much as a hiss. Stoic and intent, that’s always been his way.

“Please,” he whispers. “Don’t.”

Caramel orange eyes meet storm grey and, with such meticulous aim it might as well be a strike to the very heart, Crookshanks bats a crystal goblet off the table.

Name three fics you think I will never, ever, ever write. I will attempt to write a snippet of one of them.

#padshanks ❤️ #sirius black #crookshanks #brat4brat #hmm is sirius black a catfucker or did he just form a queerplatonic relationship with the first living thing he bonded with in 12 years #hard to say #this was why sirius was late to christmas dinner btw in case you were wondering #cats know what crime is and they do it on purpose #drabble #lynx tag #fic game

[nighty-night-nh]

I do feel some type of way when I see people go through my old sona art cause i dont know if im that lynx woman anymore man, I'm in a transition state cause bad shit happened while I was that lynx. Old life's gone now and they might be too, but there's this rabbit that I hope you'll enjoy someday

#nicky rambles #yeah uh sorry bout that but big surprise i kinda mighta lied about this rabbit form being for fun #this might be permanent #someone hurt me so bad i had to go to the phych ward and the lynx sona has literally so much memories with said person #i activity dont know if i can touch they again without feeling pain #so many design and story elements had their thumbs up of support or helpful tweaks and you you want me to just keep using her??? #nah bro. #some people could do it. dont think i can. throw the whole thing out n start with a new thing you never say #anyways! i think i like they them pronouns more thats a wacky little thing to put at the end of this rant right-

[hibiscuslynx]

Connecticut 10?

short guy with a lot of rage that always brings up his alma mater who also happens to be a middle brother that gets treated like the youngest; new yorkachusetts.

#asks #ask game #lynx rambles #i was trying so hard not to say ‘new yorkachusetts’ #but that was the only thing my brain was coming up with #anyway #he gives younger brother energy but in my hcs he’s ended up as the middle brother #wttt #welcome to the table #wttt connecticut

[dreamerlynx]

😭😭😭 they just executed sylvee’s Spanish teammate roberto to get a fourth teammate and he went up to her declared her their teammate now and she went “okay yay :)”

#so funny #he also called them gringo so he and sapnap started yelling about how he’s a gringo at each other LOL #lynx says things #lynx liveblogs #sapnap #sylvee

[lynx-tales]

I get chipotle every week because it’s easy and it’s on the way home. I always get the same thing, which has

A) no tomatoes

B)no onions

Today I ordered the same thing I always do

And I came home

And I bit into my burrito and there was a tomatoes. And an onions.

Leading to the very unpleasant experience of eating my burrito very slowly and picking out anything I do not like.

#lynx tales #I normally have very good luck there #I tried to complain with the app and they didn’t have the option to say ‘there are things there I didn’t order’ #so I said it was lettuce :/ #that was the issue :: #:/ #at least I got a free drink I guess

[bananafishmanga]

#banana fish #manga #ash lynx #sing soo ling #pop off king #but also oof imagine that being the last thing you say to someone

[quarklynx]

you guyyyyyyys i just got my first ever gift as a streamer from a viewer and i'm all emotional about iiiiit i'm a real pro gamer now ;w;

#lynx thinks #they sent me a snack from the treatstream i had set up :'3 #i would say take that mom but she always believed i'd be a good streamer so... i guess it applies if the thing she's taking is vindication? #but it was so cool #i need to set things up so that i can read my alerts easier though bc that proved itself a problem

[lynx-224]

is the archer by taylor swift a mike wheeler song or do I just relate too much to the archer

#qotd #ok but liek actually #its so mike #but i might just be saying that bc its so me #i literally wanna cry when i hear it #mike is such a goofy lil boy #im tired #byler #mike wheeler #mike wheeler kin #stranger things #taylor swift #the archer #lynx talks