#man it has DEFINITELY been a long time

[cutter-kirby]

i'm surprised i haven't seen anyone point this out yet, but.... belos isn't dead. like. sure he got stomped on. but also a few months earlier he crashed into a wall with more than enough force to crack it, shattering his entire physical form, and came back from a few drops that hit hunter's shoulder. he possessed the titan with the smallest sliver of slime that escaped raine's magic. that fucker's not dead. and before you say he got melted... the rain stopped. king said some was on his claw. we've seen belos regenerate from less. he's not dead. and i don't think he'll be dying anytime soon. not if he has anything to say about it. just a thought.

#i don't think immortality is particularly kind to him though #well i think he CAN die it's just. very hard. #and i don't think this will be a good thing for him #he thinks he just needs more time #but the longer he's had the more failures he's seen. and they've gotten worse and worse. #he loses more and more of his 'humanity' so to speak #he doesn't even have a body anymore #he has to survive on vessels which inevitably rot with him inside #but he can't give up. because what has this even been for? #caleb's been dead for a long time. but philip hasn't exactly been living. #idk man i like philip wittebane he is so doomed <33 #the villain ever :] #toh #the owl house #philip wittebane #emperor belos #this might be nothing lmao #the crew might say 5 minutes from now 'no that loser's definitely dead' #and i'd just be here like 'okay! (:' #quietly hiding my continued torment of this cringefail idiot under my bed #you don't have to agree with me of course he very well could be dead #i just like to think about the possibility #and of course i adore characters that have a wacky relationship with death

[randomwriteronline]

To the man that is claimed to be looking for me.

My name is Ingo, warden of Sneasler, Lady of the Mo. I shall be very earnest in my writing, and as concise as my long-winded nature allows me to be: seeing the means through which your message has been relayed to me, I highly doubt of your existence.

If you were, indeed, a real person - not a ruse or a fabrication of sorts - I would pity the choice of your herald, as he has shown to be unreliable when expressing his honest intentions, witholding information about them or very plainly not stating them. As such, I cannot take his word as is.

I do not expect a response. If I do get one, my cautionsess will assume it is yet another trick; the work of your chosen messenger. If you do recieve these harsh words, I deeply apologize. I simply cannot risk raising hopes in this situation.

Kind regards. Almighty Palkia be with you.

-

To who I doubt is my brother.

I am Emmet. I recieved the letter. I understand. I don’t trust my messenger either. I think he wrote your letter to trick me. He would have no reason to be so mean to himself, but I don’t know how his mind works. I don’t care. If he did write it he will read this and know I know. Maybe he’ll keep writing. I don’t care.

I miss my brother a lot and he knows, so he definitely will use that against me if he has some motive. It’s nice thinking he might actually keep his word and I’m writing to my brother. Not that nice that I’m being so rude after so much time.

Goodbye.

-

To the man that is claimed to be looking for me.

If you do exist, I am sorry to hear about your brother. I hope your separated tracks will merge once again soon, and the two of you will be able to reunite into a single double-car train at your station at the end of the line. I wish you the best of luck.

Kind regards. Almighty Palkia be with you and bless your search.

-

To who I doubt is my brother.

You’re very nice. Thank you.

I read the first letter again. I looked up Sneasler. It’s an extinct Pokémon from Sinnoh. So you would be in old Sinnoh. He’s told me as much. He said you’re a warden and you wrote that too. I still don’t think you’re real.

I don’t know what Palkia is. But thank you for that too.

Goodbye.

-

To the man that is claimed to be looking for me.

Palkia is - if professor Laventon is right - what is called a ‘legendary’ Pokémon, personification of and ruling over space. The Pearl Clan has venerated them as theirour deity and creator of Hisui - the ‘old Sinnoh’ you speak of. I have heard rumors of a change in name for the region, in honor of its true creator deity, as its name (Sinnoh) and role were erroneously assigned to both Palkia and a sibling legendary of sort, Dialga ruler of time.

It saddens me to hear that my lady’s kind is no longer with you in the supposed future in which you live. She is very dear to me.

If it can help, though I am not sure of how it could, I still doubt of your existence as well.

Kind regards. Almighty Palkia be with you.

-

To that motherfucker.

trains arrived in hisui in 1910 and hisuian sneasles were already turning from fighting to dark type by then you son of a bitch i fucking knew it you dumb fucker you think i cant open a damn history book? you said he didnt remember shit. you said he didnt remember shit but you know how we speak and you had to make it as close as possible and you forgot he couldnt have known trains were a thing by then. you almost got me because im used to it. well not anymore. dont ever talk to me ever again. slide another letter under my door and im going to burn it.

go to hell you fucking piece of shit.

-

To the man that is claimed to be looking for me.

You seem exceptionally upset.

As I mentioned, your messenger is untrustworthy and prone to witholding important information. In this case, however, it has proved directly unhelpful to whatever goals he had if he wanted to manipulate you, and has put me in an equally embarassing situation.

I was the one to warn you of his words, wasn’t I? And while you immediately noticed how strange it would be for him to start off his fake correspondence with such a harsh judgement of himself, now that would be an easy way to explain the fallacy in his retelling: because he did not tell you the whole story, I, as the primary source he made up, would and could easily correct him.

So how can I assure you I am real, now that you have proof otherwise?

I know I am. I know I am writing these letters. I do not know to whom, if to Emmet or to nobody, mere pawn in a scheme I know nothing about, though I do hope at this point that you are real.

I do not remember my life as it was before Hisui, that much is true - I have no idea where I came from or if I had any family. But despite this, I still have managed to recall some things, minuscule memories: words of a vocabulary I can’t say I fully understand (since, as you noted, their subject hasn’t come to Hisui), a partner Pokémon which lead through the darkest night, something of machines which are hidden, a man with my likeness who I cared for. Is that you?

I don’t know what will become of this letter. I want to prove my existence but I have no way to do so. I don’t even know if I should trust your outburst as much as I want to believe it’s honest. I hope I’m I hope I a I

Almighty Palkia be with you.

-

To to Ingo To who I hope is not a trick.

I burnt twenty-seven letters. He slid them under the door for a month. They were all copies of yours. He was worried I wouldn’t have read it. I read a copy first; then he gave me the original. He used completely different paper from yours. And he signed the number of the copy on the papers. That’s how I know they were twenty-seven.

His handwriting is nothing like yours. I forced him to write and he couldn’t do it. Not even if I didn’t look. So. I guess you are real.

I am terrified. If you are, I yelled at you. If you aren’t, I am getting manipulated. No win.

I need you to be real so badly you have no idea.

I put an image of me here. I’m not in uniform. So you know it’s not just a drawing over an image of you. If you look like that. We have solved the mystery.

Please be real.

Goodbye.

-

To my brother

(the letter is covered in ink splotches that make it illegible, and half crumpled. A photograph from an extremely old portable photocamera is wrapped within it.)

-

(the letter seems to have been heavily wet and later halphazardly left to dry up. Tearstains smudge every single word and make it illegible.)

-

[Emmet laughed when he saw him in person. He laughed and started coughing to try and not cry. Ingo held his face in his hands and shouted that they were so alike and then burst into tears. Volo looked at them crumble on each other like a badly made house of cards and felt a little lighter.]

#pokémon #submas #submas ingo #submas emmet #pokemon volo #pokemon legends arceus #random writing #epistolary fic babeyyyy #it could definitely be longer. then again! what the hell would they talk about #volo has been living for a long time and thought man its fucked up i just did that to some guy #hes trying to make up for it like #honestly! genuinely! no second motive. none. #bbut of course. hes not trusted. and i mean. can you blame them #volo himself is like. yeah fair ive shamelessly lied and manipulated the people i knew and actively attempted to rewrite the world #hes trying tho! hes had a long time to think as i said

[rainymoodlet]

ooooooooooh!! 🔥💐😍 for our favourite bachelor Daniel!!

eee becca!! 💛 thank you for askin about our danny-boy~ have an unused shot of this hunk from his Moment with francis as reward~

and you know me!! these got long lolol - under the cut we go!

🔥 what's a surefire way to make your oc get flustered?

heheee, everyone wanted to know this one!! given his behavior on-camera so far, i bet it would surprise most everyone to know that dan isn't often one to get flustered. but confidence? confidence gets him weak in the knees. he's always had a thing for people who are unapologetically themselves.

always a plus: daniel is notorious for his eye contact. he is intense, and intent. he listens to people thoroughly and gives them his undivided attention. match that energy? listen to him, smile as he talks, engage with his conversation and ask him questions? you'll slowly start to see a light pink blush crawling up the back of his neck!

(since it's no longer a spoiler: daniel's in-game strongest attractiveness preferences are, in order, a heavy build, facial hair, and freckles!)

💐 what is their courting style? how would they woo someone?

while he isn't too practiced in the department, daniel does have an idea of how he acts when he's interested in someone and wants their attention. he is definitely a Silent Listener: most likely you'll start off as friends, with good banter and the knowledge that dan has your back no matter what. he'll put his arm around you at a bar when someone bothers you or gladly accept physical affection and let you hang all over him, but you won't have a single clue he's into you. he's just the best friend ever! protector, dad friend, perfect hugger...

that is, until he shows up with the flowers you mentioned you liked five months ago because they're finally in bloom. until you go out to lunch and he orders for you because he's remembered everything you like. until he waits for you to get inside every time he drops you off because he needs to see you get home safe. until he starts texting you "good morning" because you're the first thing he thinks about.

and finally, months in because this man will never be straightforward, especially not about his feelings, you're up at 3am drinking whiskey and smoking and petting his dogs' heads in your lap (all three of them will climb on you ok) and he's showing you his favorite records - and daniel stops, turns to you, and says something he's remembered from ages ago that you said, that you liked, that you wanted to do...

daniel might rarely make the first move when it comes to physical affection, but the man does know how to get you to the point that you don't know why you haven't just gotten up, crossed the room, grabbed his face and kissed him yet ;)

😍 what does your oc find irresistible in others?

confidence, the true unapologetic ability to be oneself and present that to the world, wins him over greatly for sure - but daniel also finds honesty very attractive. it's one thing to present yourself to the world without fear, and it's another to admit that you're nervous or scared or upset. there's a great amount of courage in both, and daniel admires both qualities highly!

that, and ... let's be real, like. iif you've got any kind of chest hair and wear a deep v neck, he's screwed.

#ts4 #;ask game #sim: daniel #rebouks #|| #thank you so much for asking abt him becs!! ;o; #naturally i gave a way too long answer dkfhdkf #i don't know if any of this makes sense but #dan lives in my head rent-free and i can answer questions abt him like nothing jkhdf i love my lil microwave blorbos #when i tell you this man had road-boyfriends that were the #definition of hippie #they would meet at lumber festivals or county fairs or nomad campsites #share a couple fabulous days together #travel for a bit #and then part ways #because of his childhood daniel has a very hard time picturing the future #he lives in the moment and the only things he worries about are his family - he's tucked himself up on a shelf and he's not interested in #bringing any of those books down #he's been able to control that by keeping people at arms' length while still maintaining his kind and genuine self #but he's undoubtedly a Stone Wall when it comes to getting deep into emotions in a relationship #he does not. want. to. be. hurt. #and he doesn't know if anyone will like who he is below the surface of the host of your dad's garage. sure. he was kind. he smiled. he also #beat his dad's face into a pulp and (at least from his perspective) abandoned his family by being shipped off to boarding school #and then left when he didn't feel like he fit in #this man is FULLLL of self-hatred dkfhds even if he hides it well #let's see who can break this 30+ year veneer of self-preservation and stoicism huh B))) #thank you again my darling becca~

[sysig]

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#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Crackship #Teisel #Meme #I am on a roll with these lol #I knew adding Teisel to my list was only a matter of time #I am a weakwilled individual with one fatal flaw #Anyway (lol) #ZEX really has his work cut out for him with Teisel haha - it's very fortunate he's so determined and enjoys a challenge 'cause otherwise! #Teisel is hard to pin down - I mean Other Than That lol - he's an interesting guy :0 #Rough around the edges and a family man ♪ And if I get to draw long hair and big muscles then all the better hehe #And he has a cute nose! He has the bridge of the nose thing that I like so much!! Yes!! #As for the rest of him - hm! I've only had passing thoughts up to this point and getting into his head is...Something lol #It's well done to be certain it definitely Makes Me Feel it's just hard to ascribe a name to that Feeling just yet #Needs a bit more time to tumble smooth I suppose lol #One thing I know I like because it makes me sad - lol - is ZEX projecting some of his feelings about DAX onto Teisel - unexpected! #It's extremely interesting how despite his deep abiding love and fascination with Otherness he's gotten increasingly homesick #Finding things charming about humans that remind him of VUX! You can tell he's a bit desperate for the familiar :'0 #So isolated from even himself ah 💔 Hang in there ZEX! #At least he has some fun distractions hehe ♪ New things to learn and consider! Teisel keeps throwing him curveballs! #Both of them circling each other like ''? Isn't it your turn?'' lol #They both come off as aggressive in their own way and then swing-and-a-miss lol #And then there's how Teisel frames him as far as age goes - or really how everyone does pffft #It is So funny to me every time anyone refer to ZEX as ''old'' now that his age has been more or less established - at least pointed at #The fact that he might not even be in his human-equivalent 50s what is this who this lol he's not old! And Max /definitely/ isn't haha #He is the slightest itty-bittiest willowiest little twink y'ever did see pfft #I have been waiting to use that meme template for someone for ages I am so glad that I finally got the chance ♪

[sleepinglionhearts]

some little comics about work

#doodles #non fandom stuff #the customer service one still makes me giggle when i remember it #pretty sure the guy almost knocked his headset off when he answered so already it was amusing #but then the voice registered and i very nearly lost it on the phone with this poor man #definitely much better than the time i called a customer service line and the person who answered started growling at me #went ahead and hung up on that one and just left the task for the next day #hmmm the manga thing i get in.. not quite trouble but the other lady frequently in the office space with me will call me out for it #usually i end up off task bc of waiting for something. emails. a phone call. i'm on hold. if a book is there i will pick it up #this does mean i get to at least skim through all sorts of books tho my reading list is now.... long #if i can keep up this whole 'wanting to draw' thing i may draw more recent workplace shenanigans #there have been many.. someone has to record all of this silliness somehow... #enjoy the daily life nonsense hehehe

[krenenbaker]

Ikepri Opinions - Sariel's route (Romantic)

Well, I finished it. I'm finished with Sariel's Romantic route, so I'm finally making an individual post to SCREAM about this man.

It was INTENSE. It BROKE me, then it made me whole once more (in a very different way than the other aspects of his route, though it's also accurate to say those destroyed me as well. I'm so similar to how Belle is written in his route, too... so I felt especially connected / drawn into what happened.)

The good and the bad, the softness and the cruelty, the light and the dark... everything in Sariel's route slowly snaked its way around my very being. I do think Auburn was right... I believe I've found him, my dearest man ♥

And gosh, the language in this story?? Absolutely GORGEOUS. I've added some of my favourite lines - both the beautiful and amusing - below ^_^ (they're out of context, but still, spoiler warning if you continue). Under the cut are the most spoiler-y things and lines from the Romantic epilogue, as well as my opinions on the events of the story, so... yeah. I've italicized my absolute faves :)

SPOILER WARNING!

Once upon a time, or so the story goes...

In every story I'd ever read, taking a devil by the hand and agreeing to his terms meant losing one's soul forever. Once you'd accepted whatever the devil offered you, you were doomed.

Sariel: Goodness me, did I accidentally speak my mind? I can't imagine how that happened.

Nokto: You're getting more and more Sariel-esque by the day.

Yves: Would you two stop with the over-apologizing already! (this one I will give a little context - it was directed to Keith and Emma. I also relate to this INTENSELY.)

He hadn't just stood up to them — he'd countered them with a violence far exceeding their own, turning predators into prey.

It's a longing... a desire to be there for you, to support you and keep you grounded.

There's no point thinking about what-ifs or maybes. They don't actually help anyone. All I can do is accept the reality I'm faced with, whether it's good or bad, kind or cruel.

Sariel: Once something is lost, there is no bringing it back.

Rio: Instead she went and threw herself into her work, obsessively determined to do anything and everything. (me fr, haha...)

Jin: Your apprentice is a terrifying woman. She's terrifying and brilliant, and as her master, I bet you know what she's planning next, right?

A gloved hand reached towards the woman, and her lips parted, but her scream caught in her throat, forever unvoiced.

I wanted to know the real you. I wanted to get past everything you were using to push me away, and get close to the man you are, deep inside.

Silvio: So go vanish somewhere else.

Silvio: Let me explain this in a way even a peace freak like you can understand.

That wasn't me signing a deal with the devil - that was the devil signing a deal with me.

it looked for all the world as if he [was] about to sacrifice himself in the fires of hell.

It wasn't a deal at all — it was a gentle promise, given to a dying king, a promise so pure and noble it made me want to cry.

Yves: Even I can tell that you're planning something, even if I don't know what. And I get it, but— Why are you and Sariel both so determined to rush headlong into these things all by yourselves! (ME FR ^^;)

Sariel: In all other matters, you are a brilliant woman, but I am somewhat concerned by your choice to stay with me.

The only people who knew that for certain were the man who'd eradicated him, and the man who'd banished him, knowing it would happen.

Sariel: So tell me, do you have what it takes to go on dancing with the devil, now and forevermore?

Yves: And ever since Emma officially became Sariel's apprentice, it's almost like there's two Sariels in the palace.

Sariel: I've grown quite fond of tea since you started brewing it for me while we're working.

His hair was slightly damp, and he smelled of the same soap I'd used earlier, and suddenly I was imagining how he might have looked washing himself with it.

Okay, now for my THOUGHTS. First off... OH MY GOODNESS. The tension - intrapersonally, interpersonally, nationally, and internationally is so deliciously palpable and so strong. The fact that multiple people were so near to being executed or dying in other ways, the amount of national unrest, and the legitimate, imminent risk of Rhodolite simply no longer existing due to multiple foreign powers... that's good stuff, there! And the acknowledgement of other, distant countries??? OH HELL YEAH!!!

I also related HEAVILY with Belle/Emma in this route (and Sariel himself, in many, many ways, too). I was following a walkthrough, but every choice with the exception of maybe one or two is exactly how I would approach each situation. Even much of the phrasing is how I often speak... it was honestly a little eerie!

And I agree with the choice of king, considering how the issues surrounding the kingdom resolved. I believe that that choice will lead to prosperity for Rhodolite, and the surrounding nations. And the fact that summits are planned for the future between Rhodolite and its neighbours is a FANTASTIC thing! I also am so glad that there's now a new minister in the palace... especially one that's been trained so well! ^w^

I also appreciate how there are still things to learn about Sariel by the end of the route - he's familiar but still distant, in the same way that Emma is. It's honestly nice to know that they still have things to learn from one another, and are working together to open up to each other over time. Sariel's relaxed, and helped Emma to relax, too. They've given each other stability and comfort, a sense of belonging and home... a support so they have each other to lean on and share their burdens. They've provided exactly what the other needs, in a quiet way. And I find that extremely comforting, and beautiful in such a deep way.

And outside of the narrative, I just adore Sariel's character. He's polite and well-mannered, but an absolute tease. He's reserved, and clever, and resourceful. He's violent, but gorgeously composed and calculated in his brutality (HIS SCARS, OMGG). He's mysterious, and has grown and shifted, and bettered himself so many different times and different ways. He's strict, but he is so, so kind. Kind to the point of self-destruction. And he's just ethereally beautiful. I truly, honestly, and deeply love him.

I can not believe I've come to the end of his route... I honestly don't want to leave him :( I may just start his route over again immediately and read the Dramatic end, or I may just wait for Keith's route to release, and focus on events until then... I haven't decided yet. But there is one thing I have decided for certain: Sariel Noir is very dear to me ♥

#krenenbaker's :) #ikepri opinions #tl; dr - I love Sariel. I relate to both Sariel and Emma. I love their dynamic and how the story proceeded AND concluded. I love Sariel Noi #this story has me in a chokehold and I won't be getting it off my mind for a very long time #I have become mush. a purple blob. I've been shattered and reformed by this man #hmm... let's take another look at my favourite characters. (just not too close a look. #there's definitely some sort of psychoanalysis that could be done... but shh... we won't talk about that 'kay? ♡) #actually... this is kind of another instance of me going: ''Hey! That character is like me in xyz ways! You're my fave now ♡'' #ANYWAYS... I just love Sariel so much ♥︎

[synthshenanigans]

there’s one on here currently and they’re bringing back up old controversy (jashshipping)

Yeaa I saw that. They also seem to post a bunch of CJ related things, so I might make the daily photos one since there isn't one for just CJ screenshots/photos

#im gonna be a fait bit busy today so I cant make it rn #also wont be making it tomorrow as there's another strike happening then [ill make a post on that later too btw] #but i want there to be an account just of stuff from the vids or of the ones he posts on twitter #as for the shipping thing #i wish ppl wouldn't be so rude with things sometimes man #my stance is basically the same as CJs. interpret it however you'd like just don't show it to ppl who are uncomfortable with it #also don't harass or be a dick to people who do or don't ship it #im glad it died down since then at least & that there's not a bunch of hate going around #this fandom is simultaneously really nice to be in & also really draining sometimes #tho it definitely isn't the worse. ive been in a lot of ones that are a LOT worse than here. big & small #place is actually quite nice mostly. despite some things that deserve needing to be called out [like some of the ableism toward Heart] #I think things would be a lot better if people just let others do their own thing. as long as its not like. fuckin illegal or offense #or against CJs boundaries. just let others vibe out in there own corner #ain't that what we all said when TH purists complain about CJs covers? No ones forcing you to consume the content. is all good #just stay where you're comfortable! if anyone's forcing you to look at their stuff then they're the issue. and that goes both ways #again just listen to what the guy said. don't show it to people that don't like it. don't harass people who do it don't like it. an like #just be groovy #sorry for the rant this has just been on my mind for months now #im generally very neutral on things but i hate everyone just yellin at each other when there doesn't need to be yelling in the first place #again this place is hell of a lot better than other spaces ive been in #its a main reason this is the first fandom I've actively participated a shit ton in #im actually using discord & talking [a bit] to other ppl for once lol #idk man i like it here. Just don't make a reason for people not to like it here #again apologies for the rant op. this has just been on my mind for some time & i really don't want shit being blown up again #also apologize if anythins spelled wrong or sounds like nonsense #shitty keyboard + dyslexia + not being able to edit tags can make dumb results lol #moss rants #[atlas asks]

[kideternity]

Not the same person I was an hour and eighteen minutes ago after finishing watching Digimon X Evolution

#dinu yells into the void #digimon #dinu yells in the void #MAN…… #dinu watches digimon #honestly you could apply the ‘not the same person i was’ meme to like all of my experiences with digimon so far tbh #x evolution definitely wasnt the most amazing or mindblowing piece of media i ever saw it was quite flawed actually but man. man. #i had a good time and the lore and the themes will be rattling around my life for a long while now #trying to watch frontiers has been kicking my ASS so im glad i stopped to take this detour #yggdrasil……… squeezinf them.

[kinnoth]

Ok but think about how fucking horrible Loki would have turned if Thor had managed to become king. Like, even when they were only princes together, there was basically nothing Loki couldn't get away with: bullying the patriciate, being a flagrant wizard, spending extravagant amounts of money on absolute tat. And then, he was only the third most powerful man in the empire. With Odin gone, and only Thor who could possibly curb him? Dear fucking god.

Bc when has thor ever showed an interest in curbing anything loki has ever wanted or done

#thor has to get married at some point but i really dont envy the poor woman he eventually shackles to the position of queen #like just openly blantantly he doesnt love her as much as he does loki; he doesnt listen to her as much as he does loki #the fights they would have had about thor disregarding her opinions and priorities in favour of Loki's #and loki just ......the bitterest and most resentful version of himself #hatred for the woman who is in the spot that he -- by all rights and practicality -- occupies #to be fair i think Loki would have stuck around a couple of years after Thor became king and then fuckin bailed to vanaheim #he's too proud to stick around watching himsef and Thor getting further and further from one another #it would hurt too much to watch thor getting swallowed alive by the layers & layers of responsibility til he couldn't recognise him anymore #until thor couldn't recognise himself anymore or see Loki for who he was #anyway fun thoughts #internal thor tag #the woman who agrees to marry thor? definitely not sif. #sif is way too aware of the psychosexual codependent fucking trash mess that is thor and loki's relationship #she grew up around it and was in the middle of it throughout most of her young adulthood #she has too much self respect to subject herself to a lifetime of that #she's already long gone and far away by the time the subject of thor's marriage comes up #if she's married it's been to a nice man who loves her more than she loves him #if she isn't its bc she's not sure if she really wants to be married #she's having a pretty good time being a free agent now that her brother baldr has grown up and inherited their father's house

[fragmentedblade]

Fu Xuan calls March "young girl", which is understandable. But she also calls Chengjie "young man from the Artisanship Commission" and like... ma'am how old are you

#I know she is way older than she looks and given the lore she definitely isn't very young even for Xianzhou standards #Chengjie has been in the Artisanship Commission for two hundred years before we met him so he must be considerably older than that #This post really has no point other than to point this out because it's kind of funny #And it's clear that Fu Xuan is an adult woman but it makes her look ancient xD #Which tbh also makes sense. She definitely gives that air. She gives that air even to Qingque to some extent #Fu Xuan refers to Chengjie the same way Master Gongshu did‚ basically #You see her there and she talks to Chengjie as if he were a very young man. He is well over two hundred years #It's so funny and so... strange also compared to the other long-life species in the Xianzhou #Yukong is a mature woman. If it weren't for her lifespan‚ Fu Xuan would consider her a 'young girl' #I wonder if this strains the relationships between species somewhat #It seems it does. We see glimpses of that several times I think‚ like in the Poetic Genius Ingenium quest #The vidyadhara's love is always fresh and passionate and new and really can go on forever even if under different faces #But the Xianzhou native gets tired and drained and old #I don't know. I find this very interesting tbh. I understand them not being able to dwell on it for longer in the game #(longer than they already did) but it's so interesting to think about and how it could shape society in all its forms #I talk too much #I should probably delete this later

[alcohol-eyes]

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#2 whole weeks sobeR let’s talk abt it #this the longest I’ve gone without a crumb of weed in my system in 5 yrs and the second longest in 8 yrs #For a long long time I thought I was self medicating the adhd but turns out I was making it Significantly worse #I have an attention span now I can watch tv without scrolling on my phone or playing w fidget toys #My apartment has stayed perfectly clean for the past 2 wks #haven’t rly struggled with eating or sleeping routines are v important wit it tho #been relying heavily on safe foods I’ve eaten the same exact thing every day for 2 weeks but it’s fine #ashwagandha helps me not wanna peel my skin off in rage #time moves INSANELY slower when ur not h*gh every waking second of the day these have been the Longest 2 wks of my life #but also I have So Much more time to do things and SO much more energy to do the things #I thought being anxious and exhausted was just my constant state of being but turns out that was Also just the weed #The insane nightmares have been The hardest part but most of the time my dreams are just weird #Feeling emotions is weird I’ve cried more in the last 2 weeks than I have in the last 2 years #I cry about good things I cry about beautiful things art as a whole is just so moving #self regulating after stressful things like work or staying with my parents is definitely New as w as decompressing after socializing w ppl #I do things like paint and journal and make silly little bracelets now #Idk man it just hasn’t been as hard as I thought it would be #A few months ago me and ******** were talking about how we’d actually k word ourselves without it #turns out the jazz cabb was making my depression and anxiety so much worse than it actually is #shits literally fine #Anyways don’t let ppl tell u u can’t develop an unhealthy relationship w weed I was h*gh every waking second of my day for 5 yrs #Last time I tried this I immediately became an alcoholic instead this time I don’t even feel the desire to have a single little drink #Overall I have A Lot more self control in every single area of my life #I don’t waste my money on dumb shit I can eat normal amount of food like a normal person #The thought of buying my favorite cookies and only having like Two of them used to be such an unreasonable concept to my little brain #I don’t know if this is gonna be a permanent thing I definitely know I can’t do it habitually #just like I learned I can be normal about alcohol if I don’t keep it in my house and only do it when socializing for special occasions #anyways if ur thinking about taking a break from ur favorite substance maybe give it a try #thx for coming 2 my ted talk if u read the whole thing I luv u take care of urself

[quick-drawn-a]

sometimes i always every day think about how cassidy's not allowed to exist in his own tag without hanzo standing next to him, cheek to cheek —

#✯ — нorѕeѕ ιn тнe вacĸ × [ ooc ] #sorry — it's been too long since i've complained about this. #like...don't get me wrong #it's a great trope #i even ship it when developed correctly #but DAMN — I'VE NEVER BEEN SO TIRED OF SEEING A MAN'S FACE BEFORE ;; #cassidy exists outside of his ships you know... #honestly #it's why i made this blog in the first place. #to give him purpose and personality beyond that. #and i'm not just talking about his ships or h.anzo — #but IN GENERAL. like. OVERALL. #blizz definitely dropped the ball when it came to his character and development imo #a lot of people have told me that they just don't care or are indifferent about him as a character — and i hope to change that. #i honestly hate what fanon has reduced him down to tbh lmao #but that's a rant for another time // #i've stuffed some things in the queue #we'll see what else i can get done before i fall asleep at my desk #maybe reply to some dm's i'm sorry i've been neglecting y'all #i got distracted #tbd

[sabraeal]

Hi hello I adore Merry and Bright, Desert & Reward and We Seek That Which We Shall Not Find and SOOOO MOREE! They be catching me by the shoulders and shaking me with feeeeelsssss

Oh yes, all of those some very fun Obi torture devices 🤣 Who doesn't love him being in absolute agony over a Terrible Situation where he SHOULDN'T have feelings, but DOES. M&B and D&R both really roll into the whole "both of them want something to happen so bad, but Shirayuki doesn't know how to express this in a language Obi can hear", and We Seek That Which We Shall Not Find has that same thread All Pain does, where the age gap isn't big at all, but they're at the ages where it still feels HUGE, and considering the experience gap between them too...Obi is like, there is a Special Hell for people like me, CRADLE ROBBERS, you know how it is.

#asks #i love love #D&D obi has not killed a man and thus is able to assert that wanting to do filthy things to a 17 year old #is the worst thing he has ever done. but also not done because he's definitely not doing anything nope #torou his much beleaguered roommate: please god do SOMETHING #like GETTING OVER YOURSELF #that one is a fic i want to get back to since 'arc 2' is actually all planned out #it has simple been a time issue since those chapters get LONG

[warcrimesimulator]

I forgot about "radqueers" lmao god that shit is still around?

#it HAS to be trolling i refuse to believe its legit #has the vibes as those anti-sjw trolls from 2013 w/ outlandish bios like ''im cheesegender dairysexual and go by milk/milks pronouns :)'' #they just... Behave differently from like legit MAP and zoophile accounts I've blocked on Twitter #I wish I took screenshots from when I went through a shit ton of radqueer blogs because I saw a few takes that #almost made it certain to me that at least a few of these people were definitely radfems trying to make trans people look bad #if this is the case though these people are extremely dedicated cuz this shit has been going on for a long time #and there's so many of these blogs #I just. don't know man. it's insane that's all I know.

[transgaysex]

speaking of horrors theres something happening and i dont know what it is but its pissing me off

#wind howls #i think a lot of stress from still not having a job for the summer is getting to me #i just dont know what to do. #my sisters boyfriend said to look on facebook for job offers and when i did 99.9% of them were definitely fake and scams. #i appreciate the tip but i know a bit better.... cmon man.... #i guess The Rage has been getting to me a bit as well. i know thats likely the source of last nights partly trauma nightmare i had. #i sent in another application today and im worried bc its passing though an employment agency which. my last tutor said 2 avoid #but girl. im gettinf a bit desperate here. i already had a job around this time last year #and my options are limited because my mobility is limited. cant stand for long and cant drive. #and i dont have many options near my house bc its all fucking. retail jobs that get ableist real fast if you cant stand in place for long #like. from what ive heard standing up in the same spot for 8 hours is already hard for able bodied people. how am i meant 2 survive. #the few times i did that i came home crying from the pain and frankly speaking im desperate but im not THAT Desperate. #long story short. please pray that i find fucking SOMETHING this week lest i explode and start crying

[orcelito]

that one bookmark is gone and on one hand im glad i dont have to see it anymore but on the other hand im a little embarrassed at the thought of them having seen me have a whole mini spiral about it at like 5 am. like sorry random person ig

#speculation nation #i shouldnt be allowed to make posts in the middle of sleeping times #i wake up all the time while trying to sleep & then i check social media & also my ao3 stats page #usually this is fine but that bookmark note hit Just the right insecurity in me for me to make some pathetic posts about it on my tumblr #like yes i Am insecure about ppl not liking what im doing in the story lately & thinking im taking too long :') thank U for confirming #the reader support afterwards definitely helped me but Man i dont wanna b known as that author that cant take even a hint of criticism #i mean i kind of am but i dont wanna be KNOWN for it ykno #im cool as a cucumber. u can tell. Absolutely the coolest. thats why i go crying to my tumblr dot com when someone says smth that isnt #complete praise for my work. #like on one hand i dont gotta share this online. it's a privilege that u guys get to read it. so i dont wanna hear ppl disliking it #on the other hand i wish i wasnt that pathetically insecure lmfao #in my defense not having an active beta reader has been fucking with my self confidence re: writing #i was a nervous WRECK when posting the last chapter. and the other chapters too but last chapter especially. #life. is so difficult. alas. #sorry to my readers for my lack of object permanence re: ppl liking my shit. #ive had ppl repeatedly saying they love it and it's still not enough #in largest part bc im insecure about that Changing. so with every chapter im like peeking over like 'do you still like my writing...?' #'do u still like my writing pls respond' #honestly bless u readers who have kept up with discacc & continuously comment & offer me reassuring words here when im down #ur enthusiasm & kind words help me a lot. thank U