#me thinks this is going to tie into Wish

[thatothersnowman]

This shit gonna make me relapse

#THEY GOT THE GIRLS BACK⁉️ #And in the F2 adventure outfit #giggling and kicking my feet rn man I missed them #frozen #elsa #anna #once upon a studio #waiting patiently for frozen 3 or a D+ show #me thinks this is going to tie into Wish #heard the movie is gonna make all the WDAS movies into one cannon #good fucking luck

[nonokoko13]

"Short on credits" "Need a job soon" "A drama queen" "Max slacker"...

Tag yourself I'm all of them

#spy x family #sxf chapter 94 #sxf manga spoilers #my god me thinking this was going to be an arc like murder on the orient express and it was just a silly one-shot episode 😂 #of course Anya would spot a serial killer within minutes #NOT YOR JUMPING WHEN THEY IMPLIED A KILLER WAS AMONG THEM girl how have you been beating allegations for 27 years now with that behaviour 😂 #dw queen I would vote you innocent even knowing you were the killer. Keep slaying #man now I have to wait other two weeks 🫠 anyway good chapter 👍 #LOID STOPPING THAT GUY WHO WANTED TO TIE YOR Sir I know what you are (simp 🫵) #wish in the next chapter appears Demetrius....or Daybreak....... (I'm delusionally waiting he comes back ok)

[citrinide]

I've grown so fucking stressed over the span of a year and a half that I have started UNIRONICALLY enjoying those stupid slime scooping videos...

With the sound off though because autism be damned those noises sure do make my brain feel BAD (I will never be able to understand the appeal of ASMR)

#I like how the water slimes move... it soothes my brain #so free and without resistance... thats how i wish to be... move through the world with ease like water slime on an ice cream scoop. #im a barely functioning adult. im literally a core in a trenchcoat and wig #fun fact: i was never into slime. friends were. not me. #i think id disintegrate if any of any variety ever touched me (bad texture temp AND questionable sanitation) #but it's nice to observe from a distance... #my favourite slimes include Charlie and Rancher 👍 #I will say though. the ones with multiple types or charms upset me because it's so pretty and then. it gets. mixed. #i think thats why i never got into it aesthetically either. the idea of 'ruining' it viscerally upsets me #i guess it's the same thing i have about stickers and cute tuff meant to be used like those shaped erasers #OH MY GOD WAIT WHY DOES EVERYTHING ALWAYS TIE BACK INTO MY FEAR OF DEATH LITERALLY STOPPED MYSELF BECAUSE IT'S. THE SAME THING. #'ONCE IT'S USED UP THERES NO RETURNING IT TO THE STATE IT WAS' MY CORE IN SCIENCE THAT IS THE FEAR OF YOUR OWN MORTALITY SPEAKING #Why would i need a therapist when i literally have myself to go 'hey dumbass it's literally just this irrational fear you have AGAIN. stop.'

[kaikree]

something that isn't talked about much when it comes to healing yourself is that it might end up killing relationships (both romantic and platonic)

and i don't mean that in a way that should dissuade anyone from trying to heal. i mean you are where you are, on a path to try and get better, to do right by yourself and take care of the child inside you and nurture the things that have been hurt and sometimes you look around and realize that the people that you used to stand beside are a half-mile back on the track, so far that you can barely see them

and you want them to be with you still. you know that if they can get themselves up this hill with you that they'll feel better. things can get better and it's hard but you're up here climbing a hill, you know that it's possible and they can do it too! they can climb the hill with you and look out at this great view

but

you can't move their legs for them. and no matter how you wave or cajole or promise that it's not as hard once you get into it, they will not move from where they are. and you can sit there and try to talk to them from afar, but the healthier you get the harder it is to yell back to where they're standing.

sometimes there comes a point that you have to turn around completely because the path they want to stay on will only leash you back to a lower point. and that's... not actually your fault.

and yeah that can get so very frustrating. there have been times in my life where while talking to friends who were in bad spirals i would get frustrated b/c no matter what i said or did it seemed like they were hellbent on staying exactly where they were no matter how much they hated it or how much it hurt them. i could sit down and walk with them through resources and venting sessions and so many ways to to get out of the place they were in and it just... repeated. in a cycle. at some point i had to come to terms with the fact that you can't help someone who refuses to take the first step to help themselves and sometimes sticking around someone like that is only going to keep you tethered to that mental state.

#chinhands #sometimes i wonder if you'd actually communicated with me that we'd still been able to be friends #this whole metaphor makes sense in my head but idk if it translates #and then the awkward sense of feeling like the other person resents you for not being as miserable as they are #or that they resent your successes when they happen #tbh i wish i could say that i chose to end that relationship but i wasn't the one to cut the tie #i just realized that when i finally #finally #told them that they'd done something that was hurtful #that it rebounded and became about how me being hurt was actually hurtful to them #i'd made so many excuses about not telling them when they were out of line or wrong b/c i could handle it #excuses of 'theyre going through things and im privileged so i can take it' #'but if i tell them that this isn't okay then i'll be responsible for what they do to themselves after' #which in hindsight yeah that. probably. should have been indicative of something. #it wasn't something they threatened or anything like that #it was 100% my own fear and knowing that if they spiraled i was thousands of miles away #with no way of contacting anyone near them or getting help if something did happen #relationships can go bad even when everyone has good intentions #they probably think i hate them but tbh i just wish they'd get whatever they need to pull them out of the hell in their own head #they're a good and kind person just stuck in the shittiest kinds of place

[oveliagirlhaditright]

At this point, I honestly do think that Angel and Angelus are the same person (I'll probably make a more detailed post about all this later).

Like, the whole Angel/Angelus debacle--and us fans asking whether they're the same person or not--is because the show first tells us that a vampire is not the human person left behind with a demon in them: instead, the demon takes over the human's body--almost possesses them, if you will--and may have the memories and even the personality of the person they inhabited, but really isn't that human and has nothing to do with them at all.

But later on, things in the show (like how Spike was handled) make fans begin to question this.

So fans then usually come up with the idea that the Watcher's Council was wrong in telling us this first thing that we heard. Or moreover, that that's probably what they want their Slayers to believe, for obvious reasons. But really, vampires are the person they once were, they just have a demon in them now and no soul/conscience.

Like I said: I might get into all of that in another post. But like a lot of fans have come up with, I do now think that Angel/Angelus are the same person, and that Angelus sort of developed split personalities.

And fanfic writers usually give the following reason for this, if they also buy into this idea.

That when Angelus' soul was restored to him--and all the Catholic teachings he believed in and adhered to as a human--he couldn't deal with it, so came up with the idea that it wasn't really him (and in some ways, it wasn't. Because with a soul/conscience and without the demon, he never would have done that stuff). It was the demon. And thus the Angelus and Angel split was born.

I think another idea similar to that (I don't know if I've seen it in fanfiction, though maybe I have) is that when Angelus' conscience is returned to him, he can't handle all of the horrible things that he did--the mind can only deal with so much, after all--and so in order to protect itself, it comes up with the idea it wasn't truly him--and the Angelus and Angel split is born.

But one thing I feel like I've never seen anyone mention (that I was having a discussion about with a friend once)... is the possibility is that the Romani curse itself could have been responsible for the split. Or at least partly responsible for it. Because there's the loophole in the curse, that after Angel gets his soul back, he'll lose it again if he ever knows a moment of true happiness. But doesn't this make it so there will always be a monstrous version of himself that he can turn back into? It almost makes it sound like to me that the conditions of the curse make it so that "Angelus" can never be rehabilitated, even if he got a chip or whatever like Spike did, so there would always be evil for Angel to turn back into, if he had his moment of true happiness, all so the Romani could have their revenge that way. Does that make sense to anyone else, or am I just crazy? ^_^'

#buffy the vampire slayer #long post #angel #angelus #angel(us) #also. i think the real reason for the inconsistent soul writing is (a)the writers didn't have it all figured out from the get-go and made #it up as they went along. and thus there are plotholes #and/or (b) they sometimes didn't care about the soul rules if better character writing could come out of it. so they just did whatever #and i'm not condoning them for that. at the end of the day i'd better have good character writing over consistent lore #like i said. i might make a bigger post about all of this someday #but they def didn't have all of this planned out at first. they didn't even know angel WAS a vampire at first. they thought he'd be a legit #angel. lol #but like... at this point. i just see too many similarities between angel and angelus to see them as different characters #and i think even in s2 we were supposed to see them as the same character (i think writing in later seasons changed this though like as4) #but notice how in bs2 that even when angel has turned evil the scooby gang still calls him angel #i think the tie-in novels (though if you want to see them as canon or not is up to you) has a somewhat similar belief #and in s3 buffy saying things like 'i know everything that you did because you did it to me. god i wish that i wish you did. but i don't #i can't' makes me think this is right. note that she doesn't say 'i know everything that ANGELUS did. because he did it to me' or anything #like that. it's 'you' #i know this might be an unpopular opinion among my fellow bangels though. and i can get why #but to me. this is what i think canon was trying to say. but if you don't agree that's totally totally fine #and i still think you can't really pin angelus' sins onto angel. and i get why buffy thinks that too #but also get why angel thinks he needs to make amends for them #but once again. the lore IS inconsistent. so there may be no real answer here. or we may get different answers. or more than one

[legendoftherisingtide]

why did the anime and the fandom reduce uraraka to just being in love with deku??

the recent chapters have truly made me fall in love with her character but im watching the anime and everything is so,, like it’s honestly whiplash

every pivotal moment for her character is because she likes deku. I loved the scene of her jumping to save him and it flashed to her family and her newfound motives. I loved to see her character being more than Deku. I loved that growth and though I was disappointed when it started mentioning Deku, I realized he was important to her growing and who she is as a person. (Although I love the manga for expanding her character past her admiration for him)

And the moment they had together as they fell was genuinely touching,, there was no blushing, no over the top crush, it was real concern and care. I loved it. It made me forget all of the obnoxious belittling of her character and made me realize that they can be together without force. It was so simple and meaningful.

The anime can make jokes that don’t include uraraka blushing! They can write an interaction between these two that shows not tells. Her immediately rushing to calm him down because she knew he lost control. The way she slapped him like how she saved him in the entrance exam and then asked if it hurt. The soft smile on her face when she asked if he was okay. The way she holds him steady as he stumbles to get footing.

It’s all so subtle. And it’s so refreshing after so much insufferable time the anime puts into pointing and screaming Uraraka likes Deku. Gosh it’s such a good moment aaa

But then it went back to cheapening her character and continuing to push her towards this arc of mundanity. She wants to be a hero that helps people!!! LET HER BE THAT!! goodness gracious stop making every single thing she does go back to deku. STOP CIRCLING BACK TO WHERE SHE STARTED ANIME PLEASEEEE

#i also don’t like that it keeps focusing on her things with deku when she is more than that #it’s so frustrating #because I love her #but at the same time they keep reminding me she likes deku every second and it turned me away from her character years back #I love her now but god the problem is still bugging me #and it makes me roll my eyes every time they have a scene together #even if it’s genuine #but I wish that wasn’t the case #because I think these two would be great together (platonically or romantically) #but I just can’t with the poor writing of forcing a relationship that is so one-sided?? or at least not as important to deku #like they need to pick a side with her #either go the heart wants what the heart wants no matter what approach that could tie back to deku and shinsou #or let her let him go like she keeps saying she’s going to #I would like the latter but at least the former would give a coherent understanding of her character and motivations #like why does deku and bakugou and todoroki and iida get to have complex relationships and motives and wants #and explanations and thought and writing put into those while also having time and effort put in #while Uraraka is be in love with deku or be like deku #she is MORE THAN DEKU OH MH FUCKING GOD I CANT WITH THIS SHOW #LET HER BE HER OWN WOMAN AND LET HER THINK FOR HERSELF WHAT IS WITH ALL THE GIRLS THINKING OF WHAT THE BOYS WOULD DO IN THEIR SITUATION #why can’t she have a moment of inspiration and then imbede that into her personal story and ambitions instead of making everything about him #they didn’t make todoroki like this so why did they do this to her #grrrr bark bark #im just upset ig that such an intriguing character that grows to be a person for the people has to have every action because of deku #she is great and I really like the direction her character is going and I wouldn’t mind them being endgame #but as the writing is now #I kinda don’t like this forced romance that could be so nuanced and powerful if it put in the effort and time that I know hori can do #bnha #bnha uraraka #izuocha #bnha critical

[vzajemnik]

auauuuuughvhvbvhhhggggaaaaaaaabg. btw.

#🗞️ #feeling very aughhhggbghgghfggbgfggfgg at the moment #i should go to sleep i literally have a 9 hour train ride ahead of me tmr but noooooooo id rather be plagued by visions #aka wondering if i should drink at the parties im going to + thinking about my first 2 times at a club and about this girl #and how she pushed me in a bathroom stall.........and wanted to fuck me.......... :/ #not :/ at the situation btw just. :/ bc im sad and i miss it but it was literally 2 years ago almost #and a guy ordered me a drink just bc he was sad and wanted to cry on my shoulder. like wheres this energy here. NOWHERE #big cities suck you only get this type of vibe in small towns where theres just only 1 club #kidding my hometown actually has 2. but like. the other one is also a restaurant and the good club part is only open in the summer #also kidding about the big cities suck part but i wish i could replicate the small town vibe here sometimes truly #like. heeey. who wants to push me into a stall. kidding actually i just realised the girls do always do that to me. and pull me by the tie. #and shit. maybe im very babygirlable. #the men though. oh god. wheres the energy of the guy buying me a drink just to have a shoulder to cry on . WHERE !!!!!! #noooo you have to suck cock in a tree to get anywhere with them. and then theres silence. rigghhttttt #i need to stop sucking cock behind a tree btw. or in the tree for that matter. they should get rid of that tree #the tree is the problem not me 🫶 #what is this rant even about i have no clue but im laughing at myself so thats good #i do miss my hometown club though. maybe ill go there this summer who knows. probs not. but. maybe.

[theskeletoninthegarden]

A part of me really wants to take one of my fics and turn it into a published work

#personal #it's already set in an au #and has lore of my own making #id have to rename everyone and rework the canon lore and etc and etc #but there are plenty of good examples of fic turned into published works that people genuinely enjoy #not just fifty shades #Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead exists #but it sounds kind of fun? #reworking the original names and whatnot to better fit into the lore ive used to expand on the story and world at hand #im rambling but thats the point of tags for me #to get it all out #idk im just going to take all of my love for resident evil and silent hill and bloodborne and death stranding and smush it into a story #set in a wannabe high fantasy horror with alice in wonderland elements of tech #idk if thats an actual trope but its stuck in my head forever #i just wish i didnt work a fulltime job and i wish i could soundproof my goddamn room #now im really rambling #the main is also wonderfully non-binary and there might be a polymerous tie up to the romance #i think i might finish writing the fic but keep it to myself #rework the lore and whatnot #and see what i feel about it from there #i just now i have a greater drive to write when im contributing to a fandom #rather then when im working on my own stuff so #even if i dont actually go through with this ill have something to share

[rosicheeks]

I Am having a thought or two, now, yes! Mostly about how easy it'd be to fluster the hell out of you, tell you "aw, it's okay darlin, take your time and use your words," give you a little pat on the head that's Totally not meant to illustrate the height difference, just see how much I can make your cheeks glow without touching you all that much!

And then see how much you can whine and turn deep crimson with a different sort of touch~♡

Does hsbaksndjsnkdjf count as words??? 🥺🥺🥺

#and yes I did do that gibberish a few times to make sure it was the right feel 😂 #you have NO clue how easy it is to get me flustered #like I uhhhhhhhhhh #the thought of a cute person just LOOKING at me a certain way makes me blush and get a little flustered #like I’m not used to attention or flirting #so either it would go right over my head #or if it’s super obvious it would make me go BRIGHT red #I wish I could show you guys how bright I can get cause it gets baaaaaaaaaaaaaaad #every time my crush found out I liked them I was like what????? who told them??? and then I was like my damn CHEEKS told the fucker #like just reading ‘fluster the hell out of you’ and ‘aw it’s ok darlin’ makes me KndkdndkndkNnJbKBjNjJJBBJBBHJJB #I can’t handle being called darlin/darling #I just 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 #I am curious if my blushing is different or deeper/brighter when it’s from an intimate touch #I think it would be super fun for you to tie me down and see what different reactions and noises you can get out of me #kdbdknskandnd ksndkdndkdnkd #shhhhh I’m having so many thoughts right now #I wanna scream #you are so so so CUTE #mwah 🥰😘😘😘 #cute asks #ask #♡ anon

[blujayonthewing]

all the nerdy Themed Scents (usually candles) designed for wizards have really similar profiles that don’t actually match my wizard at all so obviously the only sensible thing to was order a bunch of samples of weird single note fragrances and smash em together myself

#ACTUALLY the black pepper was a Free Gift with this order but it ended up filling out this combo in a way that's actually like... perfect #which is great because my approach is very literal/ direct and I would have never thought to try black pepper #I did also own Thunderstorm already actually because I bought a bunch of water themed samples YEARS ago for Elyss #(straight up Rain ended up being my favorite for her and also in general it's very very nice) #the frankincense is WONDERFUL but it's also brighter and sweeter than I think I want maybe I'll try the myrrh instead #wish they had dragon's blood u__u again idk if that would go with these smells but as far as single notes go #it's the incense smell I'd be most inclined to give her #I also kinda wish they had like a copper/ pennies sort of smell? tarnish isn't the kind of metallic I want although it IS v accurate #AGAIN copper pennies is probably a weird smell nobody wants as perfume BUT I'm going more for Evocative than A Good Perfume tbqh #what might Melliwyk smell like 🤔 well probably incense and metal and whatever lightning magic smells like #and then build a scent around that like it's a tie-in fragrance for the romance novel description version of what she smells like lol #... wizard themed scented candles are usually Books and Leather and Pipe Tobacco btw kind of evoking Gandalf in a library #which is fine! but Mel is a mad scientist tinkerer wizard her smells need to be really different than almost any of that lol #about me #my OCs #Melliwyk insp

[be-good-to-bugs]

im switching bedrooms tomorrow im so excited!!!

#the bin #ill have drawers to hold my stuff #unfortunately i wont have a surface to use my sewing machine on yet. i wanna sew stuff very badly now that i have fabric n stuff #i will probably just move the living room table into my room for a time so i can start sewing some stuff #i do need to get an iron. i keep forgetting that all my sewing stuff besides the machine is all still in ohio #i got new fabric and scissors and stuff but my iron and ironing board and pins and a ton of fabric and stuff i dont have #i hope i get my stuff back. i dont even know what kind of state its in at this point. my sister was living in the room and totally trashed #it so im worried a lot of my stuff might be ruined. and if not because of that then it could of gotten moldy too. idk #i wish i had the money to go taake a trip there but alas. my sisters new car costs way more for gas so #i think im gonna start pushing her to figure out how much we would need for the trip and how long so i can save up that amount #i really need to go there and get all my stuff. i try not to think about it but it stresses me out so fucking much #it sucks that i didnt get time to move properly. just got thrown into moving with very little notice #part of me regrets it a lot but i didnt really have another choice. well. i hope good things will come eventually. #well. ill probably try to saw something soon. i wanna try making a skirt. i hate elastic so im gonna make it a tie skirt #i have one i really like so im just gonna make a lattern from it. idk if the fabric i have will look pretty for it tho

[cassandralexxx]

we are having a My Tie function and I’m having very mixed thoughts on it.

on one hand it’s so exciting bc like that’s So Sorority, on the other hand I have no idea who my friend would get for me and as a whole it can be incredibly heteronormative

#mylife #I was like way really excited #And like I’ll prolly get my friends talking stage guy to go for her #But like for me I think she’ll probably get one of her guy’s friends but like even though I’m not looking for a relationship I am a lesbian #So like getting paired with a dude kinda sucks #But still it’s like so way exciting #(I almost typed out what sorority Im in cringe) #Anyways my sorority has avoided these kind of functions in the past bc like DEI reasons but if our PR ppl rn dgaf #Like our other date function is also kinda ehhh on the dei side of things #It’s a Barbie and Ken function which yknow very straight; if it was titled Barbie date function the message would be the same and #It would be more inclusive #But I didn’t get elected to dei chairwoman last year so who cares what I think #Anyways yeah my tie is literally so Greek and I remember my freshman year my suitemates were doing it and it was the kind of thing I wanted #Same with like champagne and shackles idk it’s just classic stuff I wish to do before I graduate

[butnobodycame627]

like genuinely upset that I can't be a leeble and leebles aren't real

or like be anything similar tbh

I just want to live in the sky, eat yummy food, have good friends and not have any responsibilities

#I'm tired of everything. let me take a vacation to the clouds #that's why I draw myself as a leeble sometimes. because that's the life I want so so bad #I mean also leebles are cute but #hhhh. idk #does any of this make sense? am I being weird? I'm very brain fogged so maybe this is tired nonsense #if I could live in the sky like that I think I'd drop little presents down for people #or like. tie presents to balloons like in animal crossing #I'd sew little plushies for the people down below #that'd be cute #idk. I wish any of this could be real #wonder what sila berries would taste like. forget if the flavour is ever described #hhh. pointing at my leeblesona like CAN THIS PLEASE BE ME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE #omg my life soundtrack would be laura shigihara music… beautiful #god. I'm a wreck. I wanna go home to the clouds and see a sunset from up there #I've never been on a plane I wonder if I'd like that

[arolesbianism]

Uh oh (is having Wormwood thoughts)

#rat rambles #noooo hes supposed to be the guy I hate on for (mostly) no reason why is he kind of getting to me all the sudden #well I know why. smth smth the isolation of knowing that most ppl will never truly understand you and how that isolation in itself is also #smth that many cant wrap their heads around leading to a feedback loop of lonliness #but like also. fuckkkk man he isnt supposed to do it for me that wasnt supposed to carry him come on brin #like I soooo wish he had more going for him like we get the tiniest hint with some archive stuff but thats it man #hes from the god damn moon man whyyyyyy does barely anything abt him actually tie back to that #idk maybe theyll give him more to do. at some point. maybe. #well at least now I can hate him x wx from both a wx perspective and a wormwood perspective lol #ok maybe hate is a strong word but I do dislike it mostly cause its kind of boring as hell to me #idk I just dont like how sanitized wx tends to be made and I dont like wormwood being made the wx character development machine #like idk its just the most boring thing you could do with them I think #there are some things I think you could do with them but its like. idk not a just them sorta thing idealy #especially for wx I rly think their character potential shines best in a group enviorment #idk maybe Ill elaborate another time but rn its late so off to bed I go to not post again for five years

[milo-is-rambling]

I think the reason I’m so obsessed with that one Jason Todd fic slash drawn to more dark/violent/manipulative smut is that I’m so stuck in my brain that I have to imagine feeling unsafe and scared during sex as the only way to get out of my own brain and feel my body in the experience like I think that’s why I love that one fic with Jason bc he’s the same way and he’s all mouth and brain but as the fic goes on and he gets more comfortable (and the fic gets darker and darker) he can more easily turn off his brain by just letting himself melt into the manipulation but in his head he’s fighting it he knows he could (probably) think his way out of it meanwhile he can’t even see all the bad shit happening to him and just yeah thinking about that fic thinking about needles thinking about branding and bondage and ropes and blood and knives and devotion and worship and sacrifice and torture and manipulation and submission and letting your brain float away from you

#⚠️nsfw⚠️ #I don’t even want that in real life I just want to think about it all and like maybe tie someone else up #I can’t let go of control at all like it will not happen even if I wanted to #(but if I ever did I don’t think I’d ever go back. it would be like therapy to me to be able to be vulnerable. I think that’s why I haven’t #put in any real effort to text that guy from tinder who liked me. hmm. better to ignore it than to face how other people see me or how I #assume other people will react to seeing me. if I love myself so much why do I wish I was anyone else #anyways. yeah. having complicated body thoughts and feelings and just trying to ignore it and think about fanfic instead)