#my online + public diary

[dersandmannkommt]

something i find strange about the less common identities is that yall talk about not having any representation, when it's like. its you dawg. you're the representation. go represent your identity, dont wait for poll blogs to post ur poll when you can make ur own. like idk. im aroace, but im not aplatonic, and ive been seeing some aplatonic aros claim to feel like- unwelcome, I guess? or like they dont fit in. c'mon man, being aro and/or ace is already such a small part of the queer population, aplatonic is even less common!! Not to say that you guys are not valid or anything, im just trying to say that if you feel like you're not being represented, its because you're not being the representation!!!! be louder in the community!!! post more things about being aplatonic!!! make the headcanons!!! eat people!!!! idgaf

#felt like yapping #hope this doesnt come off as passive aggressive #just had some thoughts that i needed to get out #and what better place than tumblr #my online + public diary #asexuality #asexual #aro #aromantic #aroace #arospec #aro pride #aromantic asexual #aromanticism #aplatonic #aplatonic spectrum #im open to converstation #however i am adverse to criticism

[jascnbrody]

i regret to inform u all i do spend a lot of time thinking abt Bad Posts about mace that piss me off still. im just still so like gobsmacked by the audacity of some people to go Out of their Way to give excuses and soften the actions of white characters like price, ghost, and KRUEGER? and GRAVES? but portray mace as some selfish asshole who will aggressively get in peoples spaces and make them uncomfortable on purpose.

#posts #cod #the meltdown i had in cassandra and ceros dms when i saw those posts. i literally still feel the same i think posting on my online public #diary will help

[thepromiscuousfinger]

Dear Diary,

Yesterday I sacrificed a decent night's sleep for some bomb af, bedframe breaking sex.

Totes worth it 💯

#Welcome to my very public and very online diary #Misc

[rosenfey]

I honestly feel like taking frequent breaks from social media has a good effect on my mentol health because when I do come back I feel like I can post abt anything unfiltered without fear of being perceived as weird or cringe

#ambie.txt #I'm free #hello and welcome to my public online diary #we will see how long it lasts fhsmnsnz

[butchviking]

i always do this 🙃 i always always do this i am never happy and it is always someone elses fault and im never even sorry about it. Do Not Become My Friend!!

#siiiiighh. it is in my nature it is in my nature it is in my nature #having a little public online diary is so strange like hi heres the terrible emotion im going thru today. no im not telling u what happened #whgatever. im drink a bottle of wine to feel worse. #this is literally exactly what i get for waking up and listening to parachutes immediately. sis did u even try to be happy today

[phantomqueen]

i unfortunately have to be a little silly on social media because i don't know how to ask for support in a healthy way or don't have the energy to reach out first and i end up posting/sharing slightly unhinged shit as basically a failed cry for attention. but i also don't wanna feel like i'm guilt tripping anyone into reaching out to me. BUT i'm also picturing all my instagram followers as the marge simpson image where she's averting her eyes like i am looking away i do not see it lmao

#sorry!! tumbo is just my public online diary rn!!

[chirsu]

When you message your mother about your day and the things you got and how you're really interested in finding tapes that are obscure and can't be found online and send are examples of the things you bought for 50¢ a piece and it says she's typing for a bit and after a few minutes it's just... "Cool" + "Love you"

#mothers #she speaks #I don't know... Where's the conversation I just tried to start... Isn't this how you're supposed to do it? #God so many men online made me feel guilty because there are so many songs about not calling your mom but #Every time I attempt to converse with my family they act like they've never talked before #When I go out for dinner with my family everyone just pulls out their phones. No conversation. Just eating at a table in public. And it's. #Banging my head against the wall! #Infuriating. #I even showed her the dragon stove cover... I was hoping she would say that she loved it at least. #dear diary

[therandomcantina]

if you’ll allow me to be sappy on main, i am so completely in love with this man it’s kind of hilarious

#personal #online diary #my roommate took a picture of us at the end of the musical last night #and he posted it to his public instagram with the caption ‘i can’t even that’s my woman ❤️’ #which aside from the somewhat awkward ‘i can’t even’ it BREAKS MY HEART bc it’s SO LOVING #like he’s??? so in awe that he gets to be with me?? #he bought me flowers #he pretended he had to go fetch his phone but bam. flowers #he got me flowers #my boyfriend got me flowers #i’ve never gotten to say that before #like #i didn’t know i could be loved like this #and yeah he’s not always ‘on’ #he’s like me and sometimes his emotions turn off #but when they’re on they’re ON and when they’re off he’s still committed to me #sigh #anyway #sorry #had to get it out somewhere

[thepromiscuousfinger]

Dear Diary,

Today I made the egregious mistake of dozing off during Sesame Street this morning. I awoke to my toddler son's ass planted in my face as being used as a chair was deemed a suitable punishment for my crime.

#welcome to my very public and very online diary #misc

[faderifter]

i know this point has been made exhaustively but being fuck zoned hurts SO BAD. thinking you make a friend only for them to distance themselves when they realise they can’t have sex with you, for that to happen over and over, to feel like the only way you can make some kind of connection is to be sexually available…it’s crushing and extremely isolating. This is an experience I think most people perceived as female can relate to, doubly so for those who are in male dominated spaces and/or autistic

#autism #sexualisation #fadetext #i made a few friends after moving to the city after spending a while in an EXTREMELY weird and bad headspace #they were very involved in the local scene of the niche music i liked #and after meeting them i started feeling more optimistic about finding a community and about life #so when they disappeared after finding out about my relationship it was crushing #it’s still crushing and i lost my in into the scene #one was my fault for being too scared to end a misunderstanding asap #and that still hurts because we got extremely close and i felt a connection which is EXTREMELY rare for me #and i still think about them almost daily lol!! #but the other wasn’t my fault beyond if they didn’t like my personality but it still hurts #it’s hard to feel like i can have a partner OR a larger social life/friends #he doesn’t do anything to isolate me himself it’s all not being able to make friends without sex #both because of men’s dehumanizing interest in me and because i can’t open up without sleeping with someone #and they’re rarely real friends! only 2 have stuck around and one (online) doesn’t want to visit if i’m not single #so i only have about 2 irl friends and the rest are my boyfriends that i would lose if we broke up #this is all to say that i feel extremely isolated and men’s sexualisation is both further isolating and a source of temporary relief #i love tags sm thank you public but effectively invisible personal diary system #if anyone has read all this it’s sin and even if i do a bad job of keeping in touch i love you dearly #and wish you were here

[dokyeomini]

to be honest..... idk when i'll outgrow this online space but it's some day

#and it's making me kinda sad but i'll accept my fate algkldj #i've noticed the more i focus on therapy the less i have the urge to come on here and post stuff #now that i have a therapist i work pretty well with #or certainly the way i'll be online here is changing #still my public sorta anonymous diary tho #and idk why my brain is saying i sound so pretentious while typing this alhkldj #also. it's weird to come online after having my beliefs challenged in therapy bc some lf it stuff i see over and over online #whatever a large amount of people have internalized #and just maybe....... those things should actually be questioned #if i ever like actually recover from my mental illnesses #and it's fucking hard bc a lot of it like. part of my personality at this point #so im having to like marie kondo my thoughts basically.... #insane... a lot lf work #and im questioning a lot of things #my head hurts just thinking abt this

[mooseinasuit]

The moment I should have realized I was a monster fucker is when I starting crushing on the guy I worked with at a haunted house who dressed as slenderman and I wanted to fuck him with the mask on

#tumblt being my v public online diary #whatever #no one knows me on here anymore #this dude could get it though #slenderman or not #but specfically as slenderman #he was delicious

[punkflawed]

the urge to quit my job destroy all personal relationships drive my car into the river end it fucking all is SO strong today girls

#Personal #I won't do any of these things but I want to bc of the ailments rn #And if u know me irl you did NOT seen this post 💃 #It's my online public diary I can do what I want!!!!

[wastehound-voof]

I'm prrrretty sure the MAJOR national wholesale grocery distribution company (that got hacked a year ago and has only just recently kind of recovered, [shhhh, inside baseball]) has sold my email address and that's why I've been getting spam and scam emails.

#it was ALMOST so easy to cripple a major portion of america's food warehousing and logistics #and it seems to have never been reported in the news #but it happened #and if the crackheads who work in the warehouses are anything to go by I would not be surprised if they sold my email to scammers #also i tried looking up reports of the hack online and got a video of this distributor's 'why you should work for us tee hee!' video #and within the first 15 seconds they show workers improperly operating the forklifts #yet i get yelled at for standing on the forks #is there no justice in this world! #also i know no one knows what i'm talking about but you decided to read MY public diary so who is to blame here