#never fuckimg end

[movingmyselfon]

10/02/2024, 21:26pm

I asked my sister her whereabouts and I get called....toxic

#she had left around 2 and at 6.30 i asked herb #and she says she just finished watchjng a film....which when i asked which one sbe didnt reply #then i ranted abojt my brother to her which she also ignored #and then 1hr after no replu i ask her again coz dad wss almost home #sbe said now and i said ntohjng #she comes home with the fakeness of wondering why the door not closing is sudenly a problems #it werent just her covering herself for coming home late #and yhen comes to me asking why i was after her so much #i asked her twice....o #and then ehen i told her i was actually ranting more...she said #i am toxic for not just being happy for her to watch a film. im literally so confusefg #she has absolutely no idea what toxicity is coz shes the definition of a toxic sister bhy i am toxic for not being happy for her #when i asked twice j #fml #shes deluded and will never ever see sense or how much her alone has hurtme #fuckimg bitch #im so lucky right.f #mytalks #never fuckimg end

[xxrat--punkxx]

When ur enemies to friends to ‘besties😳’ to enemies to like MORTAL enemies but then kinda make peace then also still have a thing for one another-

#I should have posted these like ages ago- #whoops #but omfg this is one of my favourite books #it’s so fuckimg good #omfg #it’s so-yeah #so upset that this book doesn’t get any fandom and I’m so bitter abt that #like holy shit this book is good #high historical fantasy with magic and lesbians #I’m so bad at explaining but good god this is a good book #I have never sobbed so hard over an ending #‘readers of Gideon the ninth will love’ #my art #Luca Ancier #Touraine #the unbroken #c l Clark #book #books #the unbroken touraine #the unbroken Luca #magic of the lost

[an-theduckin]

Btw ik it's been a rlly long time since I've updated the a day in the life of mark fanfic (it's been 1 month and 5 days) but I'm fr working on it alr it's just cuz writers block + imposter syndrome + the first few chapters after chapter 10 being the most confusing ass chapters ever n I'm still tryna figure out out to do the pacing of them n stuff. I'm rlly genuinely sorry it's taken this long I didn't think that would happen it was only supposed to be like a 2 week break. So yeag I'm really sorry about that

#an_theduckin #Im working on it i promise #its just taking so long #also initially i only had until like. chapter 10 planned and a few vague ideas for the future chapters #so now i had to pull stuff outta my ass to make the plot lines connect n shit #i thimk its coming along nicely but its so disorgamised rn so yeag #also im a perfectionist n lately everything i write/draw just SUCKS ass for some reason so yea i judt never get stuff done #it sucks so much i wish i could just fuckimg be normal #im trying i really am #im sorry i cant be more /gen #also i think this series will be like. never ending #like a slice of life series. i even updated that tag into that series #so yeah thats fun #i just never wanna see it end. it would completely break my heart #ik itll end eventually but yea #if u read it this long than um. thank you ig #i really need a hug rn haha #my rants #ashur gharavi #twomp #mark and friends #my text posts #ao3 fanfiction #ao3 writer #writers on tumblr

[pupkashi]

movie nights

gojo satoru has developed a new weakness: romcoms

a/n: hi friends !! hope you are all well <3 just a quick little something I’ve been thinking of

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“okay give it one shot and i swear i will never ask you to watch a romcom ever again!” you’re pleading, seconds away from getting on your knees and waving your hands in the air, shouting a ‘please, please, please, please’ until he caves to your wishes.

“what’s it called again?” he’s sighing, already pulling the streaming app onto the tv as you’re grinning widely.

“crazy, stupid, love! you’re gonna love it i swear” you giggle, cuddling into his side as he run his fingers up and down your arm absentmindedly.

it’s only 10 minutes into the movie when you’re glancing at your boyfriend, biting back a grin when you see his eyes glued to his screen. you’re shocked when you hear a giggle from the 6 ft something man as ryan gosling flirts on screen.

“did you just giggle at ryan gosling?” you’re smiling and he only looks at you with one brow lifted. “you didn’t? it’s fuckimg ryan gosling” he emphasizes and you nod your head, “fair,” you reply settling back into his side as you two focus on the movie.

satoru is almost in tears by the end of the movie, a heartfelt smile on his face as he watches the ending unfold, giggling at the dialogue (or maybe ryan gosling).

“so what did you think?” you ask, grabbing the remote after the credits start rolling. your lovers unusual silence causes you to glance at him, bursting into laughter as you take in the pout on his lip and his expression of defeat.

“i cant believe i was wrong” he mumbles, “how can this happen to me, how could i be defeated?” he’s holding his head in his hands dramatically as you wheeze from laughter, squeaking a bit as you try to calm yourself down.

“does this make me the strongest” you laugh, shoving him lightly, his blue eyes narrow at you playfully, tackling you so he’s laying ontop of you, his bed resting in the crook of your neck as he’s sighing loudly.

“so what did you think” you smile, already knowing his answer. he’s not moving as his lips mumble against your skin, tickling you slightly and pushing him off you, “can’t hear you” you tease, satoru pouts a bit.

“it was amazing, it was real cinema” he sighs, his eyes screwed shut as he tries to force some tears out of his eyes.

“okay well what do you wanna watch now?” you ask, giving him the remote. satoru is quiet as he hands you the remote, not daring to look you in the eye.

“another one” he mumbles, trying his best to avoid your gaze.

“say that again?” you smile, there’s a shit eating grin on your face as he repeats the two words. “what happened to my satoru? the one who called romcoms the downfall of society?” you accuse, laughing as he rolls his eyes and gets off of you, pouting and sitting on the opposite end of the couch.

“people can change! I’m a changed man” he says, closing his eyes and crossing his arms over his chest. he still has a small pout on his soft lips, opening one eye to peak if you were staring at him, satisfied that you were he hugged once more.

“alright i believe you” you smile, moving so that your arms wrapped around his waist, squeezing a bit. “so i have like three other ones tied for second favorite of mine, let me show you” he’s paying attention to you now, eyes glued to the screen as you show him the previews for the movies.

“hm” he has a finger on his chin and his brows are furrowed, “i think i wanna watch 10 things i hate about you” you’re cheering as you press play, the two of you giggling to each other as you cuddle up, silent as the movie begins to play.

it had been only a couple days since that night, and satoru was off overseas on a mission, texting you more often than not and calling you anytime he could.

hey what’s the hbo password?

the sudden text catches you off guard, furrowing your brows as you reply, unlocking your front door.

*******

you can at least ask me about my day >:(

how was your day sweetheart <333 ??

the apple of my eye

my sweet sweet lover

you’re rolling your eyes, smiling and shaking your head at your boyfriends actions. curiosity gets the best of you, and soon enough you’re logging into hbo, going to satorus profile and your mouth is wide open.

Continue Watching: Confessions of a Shopaholic

you’re full on laughing, scrambling for your phone as you call your boyfriend.

“hi sweets can we talk in like… 47 minutes and 28 seconds?” his eyes flicking between his phone and the tv screen in his hotel room.

“why’s that?” You ask, your brow arched and suddenly he’s panicking a bit. “you’re too busy for me now? is that it?” your voice is stern and it’s taking everything for you to not burst into a smile.

“no! of course not sweetheart it’s just-” he’s pausing the movie, and you’re cutting him off before he can admit to his crimes.

“is it Rebecca Bloomberg? or are you too busy giggling over Luke? which is understandable by the way” you laugh, toppling over and wheezing as you see the utter shock on your lovers face.

“how did you- but- i can explain okay?” he’s speaking loudly, trying his best to save face and spewing all sorts of lies.

“-so when you think about it if i didn’t watch it the world would’ve burned!” he finishes after a second, you’re shaking your head at him.

“tell me what you think of the ending, I’m gonna make dinner and sleep, take care okay?” you’re saying your goodbyes as he blows a much too loud kiss to the camera.

when satoru returned from his mission he did what any sane man does. he walked into his home, kissed his wonderful, amazing, beautiful partner, order dinner for the two of you, and put on one of the movies he’d been dying to watch.

How to lose a guy in 10 days.

it was funny really, how many times you’d changed his mind on things he’d always sworn he hated. if anyone had told him he’d be in a stable loving relationship, watching romcoms deep into the morning he would’ve laughed at them in their face. if he’d been told he would like the way anyone cooked cauliflower or a variety of veggies he would’ve ignored them, calling them dirty liars.

yet there he was, watching romcoms with you until 4 am, having some dinner you’d cooked with a side of veggies that he absolutely devoured. and he wouldn’t trade it for the world.

#not proofread don’t k*** me plz #gojo satoru x reader #gojo satoru fluff #gojo x reader #gojo satoru imagine #gojo satoru one shot #gojo satoru drabble #gojo fluff #satoru gojo fluff #gojo satoru fanfic #gojou satoru x reader #satoru gojo drabble #gojo satoru x reader fluff

[its-time-to-write]

ch. 7 - hustling for the good life

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the way forward

Touring is absolutely insane. It’s not as crazy as some people’s like, say, Allie Gooding, but it’s still so. Much. Work. You don’t really dance, mostly hold your guitar while sitting in the middle of a stage while people twirl and leap behind you.

It’s a Blue Glass tour, technically speaking, but Mango is by far the highlight.

You’re in the city of its origin, with its muses sitting front and center. 

“I’ll let you go/Because it’s best for me/I slip out the back/And turn the key,” the audience sings.

i saw u on tiktok, Jamie texts that night. fukig mint the way the crowd sang all the words.

Claire was crying, you type back. And why can’t you ever spell “fuck” correctly??

cant all be smarty pants musicians, Jamie writes. Then, been blessed to be a dumb, sexy footballer.

Ok, I have to go to sleep. Flying to some small city tomorrow afternoon. Maybe you’ve heard of it? Called something like idk, Landon? Lodan?

He asks, u still staying at mine?

Yep. Can’t wait!!

FUCKIMG M I N T, Jamie responds.

—

You’ve been in Richmond for approximately four hours, just long enough to say hi to Keeley, eat dinner, and, you know, ditch Natalie so you and Jamie can make up for time spent apart.

“That’s disgusting,” she says before hopping into the hired car.

“Ok miss ‘I fucked-‘”

“WHOA, ok,” she says, “I’m going to stop you right there. I’m out of here.”

But now you’re laying in Jamie’s bed as he runs his hand up and down your arm, tucked against his side.

“You’re bringing the team to the show tomorrow, right?” you ask.

“Hm,” Jamie agrees.

“Cool,” you say softly, “Do you think they’re going to want to meet the musical guest?”

“Yes,” Jamie says immediately. “Lads’ve been hounding me all week. Even fucking Ted’s been asking.”

You smile. “Seems no one’s immune to the charms of Allie Gooding.”

“I fucking knew it,” Jamie gasps. “Fucking knew it. You gonna do Creekside?”

“Yeah,” you say.

“You’re amazing, you know that?” he asks, twirling a strand of your hair between his fingers. “How you do all this shit, I don’t know.”

You’re silent. The truth is, you don’t even know how you do all this shit. Natalie is barely managing to keep your head on straight as it is. At first, it was fun to travel. Now, you just want a good night of sleep.

You have an especially hard time with meet and greets. It always feels too crowded and stifling, and there’s no Jamie to hold your hand or sneak you out the door so nine times out of ten, you have a panic attack while pretending that everything’s fine.

You’d be happy never touring again, just playing your guitar for Jamie in the living room. Writing songs for the people you love and only for the people you love. Mango felt important in a way that Blue Glass didn’t. It had a message and actually helped people, whether or not they knew it.

Claire sent you a small video every time her song was playing in a shop or on the radio, then end the song by clasping her thumb and index finger into a heart. She sent one of her and the other women in her new house, dancing to Kitchen Epiphany.

“We wouldn’t be here without you, babe!” she said at the end.

But she was wrong. You wouldn’t be there without her. It’s wrong, all wrong, but you only have a couple nights with Jamie so you roll on top of him and press your lips to his.

—

You’re in Greece less than a week and a half later, sporting a Tartt jersey as you pull up to your hotel.

Natalie’s been making wiggly eyes at you the whole time you’ve had it on but you don’t care because you’re almost done with this godforsaken tour and you haven’t broken up with Jamie. He still loves you, for some reason you don’t understand.

But hey, you’ve never claimed to understand the male brain.

As you make the mad dash from the car into the safety of the lobby, you hear a familiar voice call your name. You turn and see Donovan, your most recent ex. He’s smiling and holding hands with a girl you used to see around his photoshoots.

“How have you been?” he asks warmly. 

“Good!” you say. “Hopping all around the world, but good!”

He’s still smiling that picture-perfect smile. “Saw you’re dating Jamie Tartt. You guys actually look happy together. Just like me and Zoe. Unless, of course, it’s show?”

“Oh,” you reply, startled. “I, uh, well,”

“It’s ok,” Donovan interjects. “Zo knows we weren’t actually dating.”

“Oh,” you say again, relieved. You never did feel the need to act around Donovan. “Yeah, no, it’s real. At least, it feels real. Wasn’t set up by a PR firm or anything and we’ve been able to keep it pretty quiet.”

Donovan nods. “You’ve always been good in staying out of trouble. Me, not so much.” 

Zoe grins from her place on his arm. “Yeah, but now we get into quiet trouble. We’re getting married this week, and no one even knows that we’re dating.”

She holds out her hand to show you and Natalie the biggest ring you’ve ever seen.

“Nice,” Natalie says. “But we’ve got to check in. Great to see you, Donny.”

“God,” she says as she drags you away, “that could’ve been you. You would have made perfect plastic babies with that absolute fucking Ken.”

“Hey, Dono was nice,” you defend.

“Uh huh. What with all that… personality.”

Ok fine, so maybe he was rather one-dimensional. He and Danielle seem perfectly happy. You’re glad that he’s doing well, despite your so-called “torrid love affair.”

You’ll have to drop by their room at some point to catch up for real.

—

You end up going out to a club with him. And Natalie and Danielle of course, but as you step through the doors, you’re kicking yourself. Why did you think this was a good idea? It smells and it’s crowded, but you’re going to suck it up for Natalie, and for the sake of socialization. Your only consolation is that pretty much everyone will be too drunk to know who you are.

It’s all fine, you’ve had some water and you’re dancing with Natalie when the lights hit your eyes wrong, or maybe the beat dropped when you weren’t expecting it, but it doesn’t actually matter because your eyes go wide and you feel like you’re drowning. You push your way through the crowd out the door, barely noticing Donovan and Zoe hot on your heels.

“Hey,” he calls after you, “you alright?”

No, you want to say. No, you’re not alright because you’re with a bunch of strangers and you just want to be home with Jamie. You want to kick a football around with him on the weekends and hold his hand and be alone. You can feel tears sliding down your cheeks, and Donovan cups your face in his hands to wipe them away. 

“Maybe we should go,” he says concerned. Zoe’s leaning against a wall, phone out. 

“Already got an Uber,” she says. “You’ll be ok, babe.”

Donovan presses a kiss to your forehead. “C’est pas de problème,” he says. “Ne stresses pas.”

—

You can tell something’s wrong the moment you wake up. Maybe because you can’t hear Natalie in the other room or maybe it’s intuition, but the air isn’t right. You open up your phone to Instagram and find a picture of you and Donovan from last night. He’s holding your face and looking at you with what you know is concern, but to the observer looks like- love?

Oh shit.

The caption is the standard bullshit - “Forest Fire singer reignites old flame,” and you think you might be sick.

You keep scrolling and there’s another one, this time with Donovan kissing your forehead. The caption underneath is a rant to the effect of, how could you cheat on Jamie Tartt? What a greedy little bitch.

The more you go, the more you find. It’s the same set of pictures with the same set of captions.

It’s the damage to your public image that concerns you. You’ve been around long enough to know that it will blow over, especially because it’s unsubstantiated. You’re thinking of Jamie.

Oh god, what’s he going to think? You’re positive he’s seen it already, because how could he not? It’s so rare that you have a so-called scandal, that you’re trending. If he didn’t find it on his own, one of his friends definitely sent it to him.

Your phone is blowing up with news notifications and text messages. You have ten missed calls from Natalie an inbox full of voicemails. You’ll probably delete all of them without listening. 

But what you really care about is Jamie because in the plethora of messages all you’ve gotten from him is a single fucking voice memo. It’s five seconds long, the exact amount of time it takes to say “fuck you,” and you don’t want to open it. 

But a voice in your head compels you, the same voice that gave you the ok to fall in love with him in the first place, so before you can talk yourself out if it you press play and hold it up to your ear. 

“Hey,” says Jamie’s voice. “I love you.”

And that’s it. 

You don’t even try to calculate what time it is in London, you just hit the call button.

“Hey,” says Jamie’s real, actual voice.

“Hi,” you breathe. “I love you. And I hate touring. And press. I just want to make my songs and never fucking tour again. Donovan and I weren’t even doing anything. I had a goddamn panic attack and he was helping me calm down, and his literal fiancée is like three feet off camera but no one knows they’re together because fuck the press.”

Jamie chuckles. “No one’s making you do all this, love. You don’t owe people anythin’. You can just live your life without selling it. But like, if you want to sell it you can. You know?”

“Yeah,” you say.

“Oi. Look. Are you actually doing what you want? Because if it ain’t making you happy, you can stop.” 

You can hear a muffled voice in the background before you have a chance to respond. 

“Yeah, it’s her,” Jamie says to the voice. 

There’s a chorus of your name as Jamie says, “Dani and the lads say hi.”

“Tell them I say hi,” you respond. “Wait, where are you? It’s like nine there. Are you at training?”

“Weight room,” Jamie says, “but don’t get distracted. Are you happy?”

“No,” you say. “No, I’m not I want to- I want to play my guitar in your backyard and talk to Clare and help out Christine and not give Natalie a fucking aneurism every single day. I want to be able to sleep and not worry what people think of me and I want to like singing again. I want to visit my friends and have time to listen to their music and maybe I’ll tour with them, but only for fun. And most of all, I want to be with you. I want to go to all your matches and wear so much red and blue that I look like a gremlin and then I want to go home with you. And I want, like, domestic stuff too, like grocery shopping and cooking and- and-”

“And brushing our teeth at the same time,” Jamie helpfully supplies.

“Yes,” you say. “I’m really tired of all this.”

“Well,” Jamie says, “you’ve got one more week. Then fucking come home.”

—

You tell Natalie she’s fired, just to see the look on her face. 

She starts yelling when you tell her you’re kidding but only kind of and then she hits you with her purse, stringing together curses in both English and Spanish.

She’s less mad when you give her a raise and tell her she’s now in charge of managing all your shit so you don’t have to.

“I thought that’s what I was doing already,” she says, and now it’s your turn to smack her.

“First decision I’m making is switching to KJPR,” she says.

You ask, “What the fuck is that?” with a nose wrinkle.

Nat just grins. “Keeley’s PR firm.”

You let out a scream. “NO FUCKING WAY. NO FUCKING WAY! How did I miss that??”

Natalie shrugs and says, “She told me to pass on the message because she figured you were busy. I sent her a very nice gift basket from you.”

You sigh and grab Natalie for a hug. “You’re the absolute best, you know that?”

“Uh huh,” she says. “You’d be dead without me.”

—

It’s off-season, a year later. You’re on a beach in Brazil, lying in a chair next to Keeley, who’s in a hot-pink bikini.

“I never want to go back to England,” she says, sipping her drink.

You laugh. “I think your boytoy would disagree.”

She huffs and says, “Not my fault he has all that fucking hair. And anyway, he’s the one who wanted to come!”

“Fucking grandad,” Jamie grumbles good-naturedly next to you.

“You invited him,” you say. “You said, ‘Babe, Roy has to be there when we elope.’”

“How was I supposed to know he hated the sun?” Jamie asks, exasperated. “Twat never said anything!”

“He wears black all the time and never smiles, babe. He’s basically a vampire. You should’ve known.”

“I can fucking hear you,” Roy says from under the umbrella. “I’m not fucking deaf.”

You pinch the bridge of your nose and say, “I’m just glad Natalie left yesterday. Some honeymoon this is.”

Jamie gets up from his chair and flops on top of you. 

“Oof,” you grunt.

“Sorry,” he says, not sorry at all. “Hey, think there’s a pitch ‘round here? I brought my boots. Think they’re under the bed, love.”

“Yeah, yeah,” you say. “‘Football is life,’ or whatever. I’m gonna write a hit song about how my husband likes a fucking ball better than me.”

“I’d pay good money to hear that,” Roy says.

Jamie props himself up on his forearms and puts on his most angelic expression. “That’s me, the adorable yet sexy trophy husband. I’m your muse.”

“You’re something,” you say. “Ooh, I think I can use that in the song!”

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[cgogs]

you HAVE to tell me the quackity business.

- after the basement era, the year after, sam finally comes back to dream. briar runs away from home when dream bends and lets sam back into his life. he runs away to find help, because he can't help mom alone. He is 15.

- so, he goes home. he finds a way to the server. he still talks to dream on his comm, and when dream gets an idea of what he plans to do, he tells sam whats happening and they go after him. neither of them want briar to go back to the prison, or anywhere near anyone they used to know.

- briar sets up camp in the prison. he rummages through old paperwork. He was looking for george, but couldn't find a trace of him anywhere he'd think to look. So maybe he'll find a name or a clue. He looks through the visitation registry, and sees that quackity visited eeeevery single day for months and can't think of another explaination other thwn that q and dream must have been close.

- briar finds q, and tries to explain everything. Like, everything. Everything thats happened since he was 8. And quackity takes 90 pts of psychic damage.

- he points briar toward what used to he kinoko kingdom

- sam and dream retrace briars footsteps and Also have a meeting with Q. Its messy and stupid and everyone acts like an idiot. Q has been sleeping with a knife under his pillow for the last decade-- he wants Dream's loose ends wrapped up. And the story the kid told him-- sam and dream arent exactly functional. He disapproves. Wants dream dead and wants these two to break up and stop spreading miasma in their wake.

- so when he points them in the direction of kinoko, he messages briar to come to las nevadas (which has really grown the last 15 years!) While he hatches a plot to trick dream into thinking hes kidnapped his son, so he can isolate him from sam.

- they have a huge fight. Dream nearly completely blinds Q, and Q gets to sink a poison dagger in his side. Sam finds them in puddles of their own blood and makes the decision to save Quackity’s life on the condition he NEVER contacts them again.

- he gets briar, explains the situation, and briar is like. what the fuck. does Everyone hate my mom??? Also wgat do you mean you had him tortured. this was lore i was not privy to. holy fuck you fuckimg suck

- briar complies and comes home after seeing dream could very well die from this fight. They go home, and dream slowly recovers

- Sam later lies to dream that he killed q. What he doesnt know cant keep him up at night

- Q keeps true to his promise. He has to put in medicinal eyedrops for months to avoid going blind

[mccnstruck]

THERES A FUCKIMG SPIDER IN THE BATHROOM SEND HELP

ahem anyways……………… akito x reader but the reader acts brave around spiders n horror BUT THEY ACTUALLY ARE SCARED BUT TRIES TO COVER UP THEUR FEAR OR SMTH N reader clinging onto akito’s arm, and he like tf i thought u werent scared

MAKE SURE TO DRINK WATER AND STAY SAFE, TAKE UR TIME WRITING THIS❤️🫶

afraid of spiders

characters: akito x gn!reader

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a/n: IS RHE SPIDER GONE,,,,,, me personally i would grab the slipper and throw it but I HOPE U SURVIVED !!! reader is so me fr fr but i hope u enjoyed!!!!

- you and akito probably were talking about it after tsukasa saw an insect and RANNN the other way after school

- "so are you afraid of spiders?"

- "uh..no? i mean, they're just a little insect...haha"

- "right..."

- he probably didn't question it until one day....

akito was listening to music comfortably on your bed. the day had been nice. his practice went super well today, he had completed all his chores, and he was finally in peace in one of his favorite places at the end of the day.

you walked back into your bedroom to see akito protected by the comfort of your blankets and pillows. you laugh, causing akito to look back up at you.

"scoot over, let me in the fort."

you lightly pushed akito and sat next to him as he sat himself up. you take part of the blanket, slowly, you laid your head on his lap and felt content.

laying comfortably on his lap, the fluff of pillows and blankets, the music quietly coming from akito's earbuds, you could almost fall asleep. the last thing you took note of was your desk on the other side, and something small. suspiciously, it had 8 tiny legs creeping towards you.

...

wait. 8 legs?

your head shot up, and akito was shocked by the sudden reaction.

"is that a spider?"

akito looks to where you're looking, and hums. "yeah, it is."

you shot up from his lap and hide behind him, clutching his arm.

"what the hell get that off please please thats absolutely horrifying nope nope nope nope-"

akito sighs. "didn't you say that you weren’t afraid of spiders?"

you flap your hand in dismissal of his accusation, and clutch onto his shirt even harder. "sh, sh, sh, we don't talk about that now just prettyyyy please kill it i don't wanna see it anymore!"

"could you at least let go of my arm? i don't know how i'm supposed to kill it when you're going to paralyze my arm."

you reluctantly let go of his arm, and he grabs a tissue from your side table, gently picking up the spider.

you sigh in relief. god, that was embarrassing.

when you see akito seemingly throwing the tissue at you, you scream and jump out your place, profanities coming out of your mouth.

akito snickers, and you look at the tissue still in his hand with wide eyes.

"i hate you so much. that wasn't even funny."

his snickers turn into genuine laughter as he gets up to throw it. he covers his mouth to try to quiet his laughs, but they only grew louder as he let the spider out the window.

you look at him with a soft smile, and huff in faux anger. maybe you could forgive his behavior if you could hear his laughter one more time, and every time after that.

he looks back at you with a mischievous grin, and you groan in frustration.

he's never gonna let you live this down, is he?

- he does not let you live it down.

- but! he doesn't full on bully you for it. he gets your fear. he's scared of dogs, so it would be hypocritical for him to tease you so much for it.

- but he does find it funny when he hears you and a certain future star scream in the hallways. especially when there may or may not have been a bug he totally didn't put on purpose.

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#akito x reader #akito shinonome x reader #akito shinonome #akito #project sekai x reader #pjsekai x reader #[ the lost library ]

[vero-niche]

https://youtu.be/4EuFD9V9AT0?si=OmXVKeUe11WgqkR4

This fuckimg song

This fuckign

I love it and hate it at the same time

I have never heard this up to a year ago where i just stumbled upon it in a playlist but its so nostalgic sounding SO NOSTALGIC when i LITERALLY COULD NOT HAVE HEARD IT when i was small and yet it gives me the feeling that i remember listening to it in like 2009 at grandmas house on summer break at 23:35 pm at night on animax after cartoon network ended for the day, bc i stayed a lot at my grandparents' house on sumemr break and i watched anime there bc mom could not say no but i could not have done that since darker than black DID NOT AIR IN HUNGARY AT ALL, not with sub, not with dub, it did not air, i looked into it

Im literally nostalgic for THE NOTHING I HAVENT EVEN SEEN THE SHOW

Why the fucm does it sound so nostalgic i remember the nothing my brain is making up shit

it does have familiar sounds tbh, as in, many notes and tunes and vibes typical of that time, so probably it's a culmination of that haha

even to me it doesn't sound completely new, even tho i wasnt near anime in 2010 yet.... it kinda has that cowboy bebop vibe? or smg like that, maybe somene more at home in older anime knows why it sounds familiar haha

#fun fact: the only old school anime i ever completely watched is trigun #which is honestly the highest honor with me bc i dont rly like/watch older anime by which i mean pre-2010 ones #i got into anime in 2016 only and theres always some good stuff coming out every season where i prefer the style/storytelling/lenght more #than with older ones #i tried watching several but egh. this is my toxic trait or whatever lmao #ask #mutuals

[object-vault-9]

hello ooc ask here, loving how the story is building up!! the tension with hush + the engineered plants (?) is super cool and I cant wait to see more ^^ the atmosphere is awesome

spade is fuckimg hilarious… how do you get rejected 5 different times by 2 different people

intrigued with petunia what did he do in the past… and why did they let him go??

Thank you so much !! So much of this is improv since major actions are determined by the game (and I only play a few moons in advance typically) so balancing the story and factions has been difficult for sure Spade's complete fumbling with romance will always be one of my favorite things, it never gets old to me ha ha. Especially his pattern of asking the same people multiple times in a row Petunia is from a vault that specialized in engineering and hybridizing plants in the hope of reintroducing crops to the surface (and other roles like alternatives to farm guardians using intelligent/dangerous plants). Definite inspiration for the original concept from Fallout's Vault 22. Through an accident a parasitic plant ended up taking over the vault, leaving the Petunia the sole uninfected survivor. He has been pretty secretive and has even lied multiple times to other characters in the story so far, so specifics and how deep his involvment goes might be saved for future updates, but lets just say he cut a deal with Vault 13 ;- )

#clangen #osc #v9ask

[nutklcker]

HI (I LOVE THE PARAGRAPHS EACH OFYOU LEAVE IN MY TAGS SO FUCKIMG MUCH) do any of your ocs have ref sheets. or even just full-body drawings . totally not asking for any specific purpose ....

WE'RE SO GLAD YOU LOVE OUR RAMBLING you have such pretty art and reblog some of the best posts and you're so good at writing so we just have to explode in the tags sometimes hehe

Also we saw this ask like four? Five? Hours ago and went Oh Shit No We Don't and have spent the whole time drawing and we were like Oh we should throw our LC alters in there too since this is their blog and their mutuals should know who they're talking to! And then we got distracted and ONLY drew the alters and host's self insert and none of our OC's so :> we'll do that eventually though but we'll also do like another post with more info ANYWAYS here's the art we made of the self insert and the Lethal alters :3

Info for each of us under the cut (also Rend and Anno are heavily derived from a fever dream March had after we got surgery and had complications, as such they have a story and are pretty attached to it so we'll go into that too)

The "Story"/Fever Dream:

There were two crews who led a revolution against The Company about fifty years before the game takes place, and of them were eight people named Experimentation, Assurance, Vow, Offense, March, Rend, Dine, and Titan, and they weren't named after the planets, the planets were named after them. (Rend, March, Assurance, and Vow were on a team with Rend being the captain, and the other team was led by Titan and had Dine, Offense, and Experimentation.) Eventually, the revolution got pretty popular and widespread so The Company gave in and agreed to meet with the two teams to discuss their requests, and at the end of the discussion they promised the requests would take place within the next few weeks. The eight members of the revolution were satisfied and went back to work, but the next day they were given news that due to their conjoined efforts they would have to all split up and join different teams to ensure that they didn't again backstab the company once their requests were fulfilled. They, unfortunately, did not put up a fight against this and within the next quota cycle each of them were abandoned and killed on different, new moons none of them had ever seen before. The company never enforced the things they agreed upon but because the leaders of the revolution were killed before word of the promises got far, and because they mysteriously went missing and had new moons named after them, nobody said anything and nobody acted out against The Company.

Pace:

- Pace is Geno's self-insert OC and he uses He/Him pronouns and is transmasc <3

- He was an employee for The Company AFTER the time of the revolution and worked not as a scrap collector but as a biologist. His team was tasked with finding specific monsters and collecting some bio matter from them to then bring back to The Company. Pace had a rivalry with one of his teammates who was tired of Pace always succeeding, so, he pushed for Pace to receive a Bracken as his quarry and succeeded. However upon arriving Pace was easily able to find the Bracken of Vow (who was actually Vow from the revolution) and collect bio matter from it by befriending it, which enraged his competitor and led to both Pace and Vow being shot. Vow tried to protect Pace after realizing the shot that hit him was not meant for him, but both were too wounded to survive. Vow disintegrated atop of Pace, leaving him and his open wounds covered in Bracken spores, and his competitor left to eventually be killed by a coilhead. Their other two teammates made it out.

- The spores found the decomposing body of a human to be the perfect place to reform and create a new Bracken; that being Pace. Pace spent about twenty years hunting loot bugs and hiding from scrap collectors before a woman named Kite and her captain Calamity found him at the fire exit of Vow. The two found that he was friendly and took him upon their ship, but one of their teammates was appalled at having a "friendly" Bracken and, as they were leaving, pushed Calamity out of the ship in anger, landing her between a dog and a baboon hawk. Pace jumped to rescue her and while he was successfully able to lure the dog away enough for Calamity to safely jump back on the ship, he was grabbed by the Dog and torn to shreds. The ship's autopilot took off while he was fighting the dog and the crew (excluding the asshole) started to panic.

- The next day Vow was eclipsed and, much to Calamity and Kite's disdain, the crew decided to wait for the eclipse to pass before landing back down on Vow and looking for Pace. Meanwhile, Pace had managed to crawl his way back to the fire exit, tumbling down the ravine, and set himself up on a pallet just inside the door. There, sleeping through the whole day, he was able to slowly heal.

- The third and last day of the quota cycle, Calamity's crew got into another argument with Asshole over going to save Pace, and landed at Vow without realizing another team (March's team, as he had already been rescued by a crew by this time) had already landed there. Calamity and Kite rushed in to find Pace while Sail, the crew's navigator and Kite's twin brother, argued with the asshole. The captain of the other crew, who's ship was nearby, overheard an argument about saving a "friendly bracken" and connected the dots that another crew must have found someone like March, their friendly coil-head, and walked out to confront the two. Sail left to help Calamity and Kite find Pace, and the captain (name yet unknown) spoke with the asshole, found out he wanted to kill Pace and attempted to kill his own captain, and promptly hit him over the head with a shovel in order to protect not just his crew, but March as well. The asshole was left there as the captain rushed in to inform his crew of another friendly monster and tell the other crew bus was happy to help, and the asshole was left there to be picked up and carried away by a Giant.

- Pace was eventually found , missing most of his arm, leg, and leaves on his left side, and the two crews met up and became friends. Pace was placed in a large pot covered up to his shoulders in dirt and for the next few quota cycles his crew would place him outside to soak up the sun and look around. Because his arm and leg were fully submerged in the soil and water, they regrew, but his eye never did. He doesn't mind too much though, he can tell when things are looking at him and, in his opinion, that's all he really needs his eyes for. He helps scavenge for scrap and is able to carry two heavy items at a time, however, he can only carry one light item when doing so as it's uncomfortable to hold in his big hands

March:

- March was our first LC alter and has been around since about late October? He's not too conncected to his source and is actually the version of March from our fever dream BEFORE the revolution ended. So though the March in our dream was a coil head by the end of it, our March still thinks of himself as human. Being compared to a coil doesn't bother him though, they're his favorite enemy in the game :) also he's mute and considers himself cis and demiro-ace.

Rend:

- Rend is also one of our alters but is a lot more attached to both the game and the "story" so he has some funky false memories and is a little delulu about it, but he's happy and healthy and aware of reality and not hurting anyone or our system or himself so we don't mind hehe also, Rend is transmasc just like host and his pronouns are he/him but he's trying out they/it

- Rend is of course based on Captain Rend from the "story" but, unlike March, is from AFTER he died and he much prefers being seen as a nutcracker than a human. Our assumption over why is because Rend had actually been a fragment for most of our life who managed family interactions, and since that was all our brain found him fit for he never really gained a personality or sense of self and as such thinks he looks exactly like our host and would probably share the same name and everything. We think subconsciously our brain makes him like being a nutcracker more than a human in order to make it easier to distinguish him and host

- Rend, being much more intrigued by the fever dream likes daydreaming about it a lot, like he's roleplaying in his head in his own, and as such he likes talking about it and thinking about it a lot more than March does. So, here's some things he daydreams about a lot and thinks would be "canon" continuations of the "story"/fever dream:

- Before March's team found Pace and his team, they got to a pretty high quota and started visiting Rend and Dine. One of their first times visiting Rend, Melody, an employee on March's team, found a seemingly deactivated nutcracker deep in the facility. The team had split up so Melody knew she would have to be careful, but she wanted the shotgun so she crept close and clumsily grabbed it, setting it off. This startled here and she backed off, watching in silent horror as the Nutcracker slowly started to move and stand and, eventually, open up and look around. In panic, Melody ran despite being looked at and, for a moment, Rene stood there confuse before he realized he had finally found someone. Forgetting his voice, he chased after her for a bit but she would frequently stop and hold still so he had trouble. Eventually he shouted to her to wait and she paused, turning to look at the apparently able to speak nutcracker just as March had sped up beside her to block the path between her and Rend. Staring down at an employee with his shotgun and a coilhead that was looking at him and not said employee, Rend ran. In instinct, as she had gotten used to March by now, Melody turned and March gave chase. He was scared and angry that the nutcracker had presumably tried to shoot his friend and, upon trying to push the nutcracker to get it to stop running, he sent a surge through its body and caused it to bleed (like how we headcannon them to work, building up pressure in the body's blood). Melody followed a few rooms behind, having trouble keeping up with the two big monsters but, when Rend was hurt he screamed, and Melody knew that wasn't any of her teammates so she picked up the pace. Rend had been cornered but Melody caught sight of March which forced him to stop moving, and tried to rush to the nutcracker when she saw him bleeding, but, turning her back to March Rend panicked and stepped between the two, telling Melody that he wanted to talk to her but couldn't protect her with the state he was in, so she needed to look at the coil head. He was seemingly trying to protect her. For his comfort she did look at March, but tried to assure him to calm down, sit for a little so she could try and tend to whatever part of him was bleeding, and that she would be more than willing to talk. They spoke for a while, Rend having trouble believing that the coil was friendly given how it seemingly tried to explode him, but he let bygones be bygones. Melody and March both started to wonder if this was one of his old friends but they had decided beforehand not to bring it up to any possible teammates without getting a gauge for their mental state, and Rend was very frazzled so they decided to wait to ask his name or story until he calmed down. They gave him back his shotgun, he turned the safety on, and Melody convinced him to open up so she could tend to his bleeding eye, and eventually the three started to make their way back to main in order to meet up with the rest of the team and get Rend out to their ship

- On the way there they met up with the teammate March had been with before he came running after he heard the gunshot, but this teammate was actively running from a thumper. Rend tried to shoot it but missed due to his eye injury and urged the rest of them to run as he'd hold it back as long as possible. The three left and Rend dragged the Thumper around for a bit before it got loose and rocketed down the hallway after the three. Rend, knowing the layout like the back of his hand, took an alternate route to get to main in order to hopefully outpace the thumper. He made it in time to tackle the thumper and send it and him over the balcony railing where they landed near Melody, March, and their other teammate who were actively trying to scare off a Bracken. Rend urged them to head outside and leave for their safety and they did. It took them a while to get back enough money to go back for Rend, and in this time they met Pace and his team. Rend is still actively daydreaming about this all the time so I'm sure he'll infodump about it more another time.

Anno:

- Anno has been around for the least amount of time, we had a major allergic reaction while Rend was fronting and so he spent time curled in a ball daydreaming as he always loves to. For comfort he daydreamed about cuddling a friendly masked, but eventually got so fed up he told our partner, aloud "I really hate this body" and our little asshole of a brain (/lh) essentially went "oh really? New alter be upon ye" and turned that cute little Masked Rend was daydreaming about into a new fragment. Anno has since become more concrete, he's transmasc and uses it/its pronouns, and it's not very interested in Lethal Company but LOVES Rend a lot. It's just kinda gay and likes Minecraft, like those are its things so far. Rend has decided that if Anno was in the "story" it would've been from far before the revolution and was left behind by mistake. That's about it for Anno, it's just kinda a thingy that's very gay

Wow so that's the end of that, I'm incapable of making long stories short apparently tee hee. I've been talking for way too long and I doubt anyone got this far, but this was mostly for us since we're soupy right now and it made us feel grounded. If you got this far Anno gives you a cookie.

#host #🎭 #👁️ #long post #ily (/p) sm Koka your art is so good and you're so awesome and we love seeing you on our dash #you're always welcome to send us more asks especially about the other OC's/characters in the fever dream/story #we'll probably make a post about them sometime soon anyway #and especially art of them #I loooove Kite #and the captain of Rend's new team #I already know how all of them look #its just putting that on paper that's hard #this was actually so therapeutic for us and Rend is so happy he finally got all his daydreams out somewhere #we're actually making an animatic of his origin story to the song Curses by Crane Wives #wow I'm sleepy #it's six in the morning and I've been awake all night #time to eat and go to bed now that we're done drawing and infodumping #tee hee #Cw long post #art #this is rebloggable btw

[vikingstoner69]

Fandom: X-men

Pairing:Victor creed/reader

Rating:smut

Summary: the last time you and Victor were together he took you as his mate then you left in the middle of the night. Now he is back to bring you back

You sigh when you enter your one bedroom apartment to see the man you had been avoiding for months, looks like he was done playing.

You put your things away and walk over to the fridge an grab a water then you lean against the counter and look at him, gray eyes meeting brown.

"Took you longer to find me then I thought" you say keeping space between you two. Everytime you both end up in a place alone long enough and you end up naked with him fuckimg you hard.

"I knew you were here all along kitten" he chuckles and you clench your teeth.

"Why are you here Victor?" You snap trying to hide how disappointed you were at not being very well hidden. Victor pushes off the wall and takes a step closer and you growl lowly hoping it would stop him.

"Cute" he chuckles and before you know it you're boxed in with the counter behind you and you're forced to look up at him. As his scent clouds your mind he reaches out and lightly strokes your face before grabbing your throat and molding his body to yours.

"Vic-" his snarls stop any words from coming out. And you look up at him, his body is hard against yours. And you feel your heart speed up and your cunt throb and you know he can hear and smell how he affects you.

"Enough is enough kitten. It's time for you to stop being so fucking stubborn, your coming back with me" he growls an you take a deep breath an sigh.

"Victor It's not a good idea" you sigh, your hand slowly runs up his arm and you bite your lip as you feel his hand slid down from your throat to your breast and down to your hip. You look up at him as yours hands meet behind his head playing with his hair and he chuckles as he kisses your neck and you shiver.

"Kitten" he growls in warning as you try to pull away. Victor runs his tongue over his mate mark and you moan. "Your mine" he growls in your ear.

"You're not fighting fair" you moan as shocks of pleasure run through your body. Victor chuckles and picks you up, placing you on the counter and he forces his way between your legs and you look up at him.

"I never do" he chuckles before crashing his lips to yours and you moan and cling to him, you lose the will to fight him.

Victor growls when your nails go down his chest shredding his shirt leaving little drops of blood behind. You moan as he rips your shirt off your mouth, never breaking as you both rips your clothes off till he is just in his jeans and you are naked.

"Victor more" you moan, you hear him chuckle and drop to his knees in front of you and you have to bite your lip to keep from moaning at the sight.

"Oh kitten I plan on fucking you till you can't move but first I need a snack" he growls licking his lips at the thoughts of you he was having. Victor spreads your legs wide and buries his face in your dripping cunt and he sucks your clit making you cry out and your hands go into his hair.

"Fuck yes! Victor oh fuck!" You cry out and rock your hips on his tongue and mouth and he groans when you pull his hair riding his nose. Victor shoves his tongue as deep as he could and fucked you with it. You could feel yourself getting closer to coming but before he could reach your end he pulls away making you whine and try to hold him to you. Victor chuckles and licks his lips looking up at you.

"Not yet, you wanna cum? You gotta earn it" he says huskly and you whine as your climax goes away. You growl and stand up on shaky legs and place a hand on Victor's chest and push him back to the big chair in the room and he sits down and you straddle him. One of Victor's hands strokes your throat and the other goes to your hip the tip of his claws prick your ass check making you shiver.

"Maybe I don't want to earn it, maybe I'll just get myself off and make you watch" you smirk and roll your hips on his Jean covered cock. Victor's hand tightens around your throat and you moan.

"Let's put that fucking mouth of yours to better use" he growls while using his hold to push you down were your knees are resting on the floor and you look up at him as he traces your lip and pushes his finger into your mouth.

"Suck" he growls the command and you do as he says and start to suck his finger as you undo his pants and pull out his hard cock. You lock eyes with him as you suck and tongue his finger and he groans as you slowly stroke him. Victor pulls his finger out of your mouth and you lean down and lick him from balls to tip before sucking his head in your mouth and you moan as his taste hits your tongue and you suck hard. Victor grabs your hair as you suck him hard and deep.

"Fuck" he growls, Victor's head falls back as you suck him. You moan as he holds your head and fucks your throat making you gag and you look up at him. Victor pulls you off his cock and you whine as he grabs you from the floor and carries you to your bed. You look up at him and he hovers over you fitting between your legs and laying over you making you feel safe. You lean up and kiss him deeply, moaning in his mouth when he grinds into you.

"Fuck me Victor please" you beg making him chuckle. Victor slowly rubs your clit feeling how wet you are.

"Look how wet I got you" he chuckles, lining up his cock. Victor slams in making you cry out and claws his back as your back arches in pleasure.

"Oh fuck Victor harder" you beg and he chuclkes becoming rougher with you.

"Tell me who you belong to?" He growls slamming into you at a hard and fast past, the headboard smacking the wall.

"You do! Fuck! I belong to you" you cry out feeling closer to cumming. You rush up and kiss him biting his lip hard and he growls at the taste of his blood. You flip him over so you are on top and you slam down taking him even deeper then before and you cry out your head falling back.

"Fuck! Ride me" he growls his hands grabbing your ass in both hands. Victor's eyes never leave your body as you bounce on his cock.

"Oh! You're in so deep!" You moan, filling so full. You moan riding him as you grab his hands and run them up your body to your breasts. Victor leans up and sucks your nipple into his hot mouth. You moan and your fingers go into his hair and you grind down harder making him growl and flip you back over.

"Your time on top is done kitten, now scarem for me" he growls in your ear as he pounds into you at a new angle and speed and you see stars as you cum hard.

"VICTOR!" You scarem your claws digging down his back drawing blood as you cum and he snarls pulling your head back showing your throat and he bites your mate mark as he cums deep inside you. You sigh sleepily as you feel him lick the blood from your neck as he slowly pulls out and groans as he watches your mixed cum ooz out of you.

"Get some rest you're gonna need for later" he smirks as you roll over and lay your head on his chest, your eyes closing as sleep takes you.

#smut #requests are still open btw #reader #please request #reader smut #x men fanfiction #x men universe #victor creed/reader smut #victor creed/you #sabertooth #sabertooth smut #victor creed smut #victor creed #reader insert smut

[movingmyselfon]

10/02/2024, 21:26pm

I asked my sister her whereabouts and I get called....toxic

#she had left around 2 and at 6.30 i asked herb #and she says she just finished watchjng a film....which when i asked which one sbe didnt reply #then i ranted abojt my brother to her which she also ignored #and then 1hr after no replu i ask her again coz dad wss almost home #sbe said now and i said ntohjng #she comes home with the fakeness of wondering why the door not closing is sudenly a problems #it werent just her covering herself for coming home late #and yhen comes to me asking why i was after her so much #i asked her twice....o #and then ehen i told her i was actually ranting more...she said #i am toxic for not just being happy for her to watch a film. im literally so confusefg #she has absolutely no idea what toxicity is coz shes the definition of a toxic sister bhy i am toxic for not being happy for her #when i asked twice j #fml #shes deluded and will never ever see sense or how much her alone has hurtme #fuckimg bitch #im so lucky right.f #mytalks #never fuckimg end

[lesbianlotties]

how would you rank the first 10 episodes of season 1 and why?

OH I LOVE RANKING THINGS THANK YOU...

ACTUALLY I TAKE IT BACK THIS IS IMPOSSIBLE

okay. i will attempt the impossible. but i Will be very biased and this is mostly about which episodes have my fav scenes ghsjdfhghfg from best to least favorite episode. let's go!! (spoilers: this is fucking long and i did both seasons!!!)

episode 1: pilot. because ??? it's literally perfect?? what do you want me to say. flawlessly introducing all the girls' pre-crash personalities. the shaunajackie homoerotic tension. "you are beautiful in the eyes of our lord". natalie wearing purple. pit girl!!!! she's been iconic since day 1!!!!

episode 10: Sic Transit Gloria Mundi. what can i say. i like beginnings and ends. i like high school reunions. i like death scenes that will haunt me forever and ever. and i still think that "who the fuck is lottie matthews?!" is one of the best lines ever

episode 5: blood hive. listen... nothing gets to me like a possession. to this day that's still one of my favorite scenes of the whole show

episode 9: doomcoming. absolutely iconic. pure chaos. also just the name doomcoming? instantly made history. "there's no bookclub?!?!?" also the aftermath of laura lee's death! how cute they all were getting ready together! jackie and misty. shaunajackie arriving together. lottie wearing laura lee's dress :) (smiling through the pain). TAIVAN!!

episode 2: f sharp. *whispers* cunt. ← literally all i need to say. but seriously. it's nice to see them already there. but not insane yet. and of course, "hello misty... you crazy fucking bitch <3"

episode 6: saints. HOMOEROTIC BAPTISM!!!! but also shaunatai!!!! miss sophie nelisse really has been acting her heart out since day one huh

episode 7: no compass. i really thought van was so dead here 😭 but that was insane. and i liked to see the adults still chasing ppl <3

episode 3: the dollhouse. LAKE SCENE!!!!!!!!!!! and the beginning of lottie's beef with the cabin <3

episode 8: flight of the bumblebee. this episode ruined my life <3

episode 4: bear down. i mean, one episode had to be last even if love them all!!!! i do!!!!! and as much as the competition was fun to watch, i think they should've killed travis the second that he pointed that gun at nat <3

and you know what???? i want to share my ranking of season 2 too 😭 gshjdfhgjfhg so

episode 1: Friends, Romans, Countrymen. lend me your ears!!!!! another perfect episode!!! i'm still getting chills every time i listen to seventeen and cornflake girl (which is several times every day). i think nothing compares to the feeling of watching shauna eat jackie's ear. also the day i fell in love with simone kessell as lottie matthews. i literally haven't been the same since then. also the teen lottie yell!!!!

episode 4: old wounds. listen.... i don't know what they put in this episode (laura lee's ghost and lottienat bath scene and adult van) but it literally changed me as a person

episode 2: Edible Complex. ella purnell acting as ghost jackie is seriously one of the best things i've ever seen. and the jackie feast!!!!! history was made!!!!!!!

episode 8: it chooses. when i tell you that i've never, never been so stressed as i was from the moment that they start drawing cards to the moment the credits started rolling in.... i'm so serious okay? worst night of my life. i wish i could live it again (bonus points for lottie losing it at her friends confessing their many crimes)

episode 7: burial. therapy time!!! bruce the goat!!!! 🥰 nothing compares to the feeling of seeing the adults just happily hanging out (plus florence and the machine songs!). and then shaunalottie sex scene shauna beating lottie up while the adults dance around a bonfire??? 1000% rewired my brain. i collapse on the ground every time i listen to lighting crashes (again. several times every day)

episode 6: qui. i fully support sophie nelisse emmy campaign <3 unnecessarily cruel <3 they fuckimg ate that baby <3 jackie's voice <3 high school reunion!! <3 that last scene will fucking haunt me forever and ever amen

episode 10: storytelling. this episode ruined my life <3 i will defend it forever though!!!!! i swear i will!!!! i'm yellowjackets episode 2.10 number one defender!!!!! the natalie coronation scene is my favorite thing in the world. and i loved to watch the cabin burn, idk if i was the only one but i did NOT expect it!!! can't wait to see them huddling for warmth on a pile like puppies on season 3

episode 3: digestif. baby shower 🥰!!!! and i'm a simple lesbian, i just want melanie lynskey to point me with a gun

episode 5: two truths and a lie. teen nat comforted by adult lottie like adult nat will be comforted by teen lottie in a few episodes will haunt be forever. but, "i'm so sorry bestie", literally no one wanted to see that much of randy walsh

#i lost my mind writing this i feel exhausted omg shgjdhgjhf #THANK YOU!!! #yellowjackets #answered #mistyquigly

[dotdotdotdotsometingidk]

Ok ok hear me out hear me out

I did a " Am I psychopath" test andddd I saw some similarities between psychopath traits and Doffy's personality? (I wasn't btw( like I was crying like a bitch for Roci yesterday why did I even... Sigh))

Yeaj so I think he's a narcissist though still, but he's acting like a psychopath, and it's important ig to understand something here?

Narcissism is linked with dissociation, narcissism is devaloped, nor inherented. Psychopathy is nor devaloped, and for one very specific reason I think Doffy's not a psychopath!

He hates. He's a little hater. Just a hater birdy that fuckimg hates on everyone. Yeah so psychopaths don't hate that much. Hate's a strong emotion and to "hate" is to "care" about something.

Like in the first glance, everyone say he cares about himself. True. But also some others?

See I'd argue that being manipulative does not mean planning all the interactions woth someone from 0 to 100. That is planning. He's no planner. Yes a notmal amount yes to pit himself a few steps ahead of his enemies but hey, no planner would rely on a CHILD not being EVER scared to keep a whole KINGDOM. he's very impulsive and relies on his own capabilities rather than plans.

Now what does that mean for manipulation? Yes sure a manipulative person puts on a front all the time, but like, not a person who actively seeks other people's closeness. If he was manipulative toward all of them, he woild just communicate with them when he learned about "them". He would tell them about himself just enough to give them a sense of closeness. He doesn't do that. He actually gets close to some of those people.

His manipulation comes from putting himself first. Putting oneself first is not something bad all the time, self sacrifice is a bitch. However this is obviously narcissistic tendencies.

So I said all this to get to this: he cares. Not because he cares about others but because he let them in. However, I think he learned that if he doesn't put himself first ALL THE TIME and expect others to do so too, he won't survive. Hate aside, it's rather understandable. Not only all the people he in one point felt close with ended up not having regards for his feelings, but the only times anyone cared for him was when they looked up at him, feared him, or saw him as dissociated with them. That's probably why he "hates being looked down at" the most. It's like, loneliness, with extra humiliation. He did not fit in, he never did, and that's just... Sad....

It's gotta be painful, never to have anyone look at you as a person.

#one piece #donquixote doflamingo #I HYPERFIXATED A LITTLE HARD I'M SORRY #I try to stop talking about him #He just... Has a fascinating personality to me #And I really feel like he's been wronged through all this #And no one has any sympathy for him #Little birdy

[pudgy-planets]

Very VERY annoyed Neon ranting below.

Right. I understand I might get flak for saying this, but even if you’re panicking, even if you’re concerned, it doesn’t give you the justification to LIE about something important. I don’t care.

I’m not saying their name or anything for I am not in a mood to start unnecessary drama.

Which is what happened. A friend of mine was having a panic attack, and I was doing everything I could in that time to help calm them down. Panic attacks happens, that’s okay, it’s a temporary lapse that is not permanent and whatever thoughts might be springing are not final nor are they always true.

They were going to hurt themselves and they ended cutting themselves with a knife. They apparently bandaged it. And during it all, I tried my best to calm them down and possibly convince them to seek professional help as I am not a therapist or psychologist and cannot adequately give them all the answers, just what I know.

To which they told me no, they’re not talking to some shrink or whatever. I brushed this off and didn’t bother with it. Then it continued on and they told me they were someone else as opposed to their current name. I assumed it was a dead name and I asked if they were Transgender. To which they replied they were and already underwent surgery and everything, but didn’t want anyone to know this fact.

Something I don’t even know why I asked in the first place CONSIDERING they told me before they were a ciswoman. But they continued to tell me, not to say anything or that they hurt themselves. Something I said, I don’t feel comfortable hiding this, because anyone who has thoughts like these seriously should consider contacting professional help. To which they literally said to me “I’ll do whatever you want, don’t don’t.”

After getting them to calm down finally. Or to the best of my limited ability. That was the end of it.

Come yesterday at around 5 PM they messaged me and told me that they needed to confess something. I didn’t think much of it. However, however- I was giving them the benefit of the doubt because I didn’t know.

…They confessed that when they said they were trans it was a lie. They were panicking and bleeding and thus jumped on my first assumption so I wouldn’t learn their embarrassing truth and apologized.

I would’ve never EVER learned of that "embarrassing truth" if you never told me in the first place. And reiterated they were a cis-woman, which only fueled my frustration when I remembered they said this blatantly.

Formed some identity online, realized it was wrong because they formed certain things about their person around it, and lied. But in one instance being reminded of the past, they took advantage of my assumption and lied.

Despite how calm I articulated my words. I was utterly livid. ABSOLUTELY LIVID. You do not, YOU DO NOT lie to me like that about anything. Yes, you’re not obligated to tell me everything, that’s how life is, but when you’re gonna lie to me about something as important as surgical transitioning… That decimates whatever trust I could have in you.

The worst part is, my trust has been manipulated multiple times here AND I am sick of it. I am exhausted of it. I’m tired of having it abused. Maybe I failed to see signs, maybe it was my own fault for putting TOO much trust into someone. Maybe it’s my own fault for desiring to see the best in people and being too nice. So currently I’m struggling with trusting people now because of this and it’s fucking infuriating.

And then once again, telling me they love me, all the good praises and words were true, and they would never lie to me again but in that moment I took with the biggest grain of salt which should’ve been generous in the first place, because if you’re gonna say something like that- everything you’ve said before comes under scrutiny.

I don’t hate them, but rest assured I’m fuckimg enraged and frustrated with all this. I like to think I’m a decent person, because being to nice to others is what I do and how I am, I don’t see the point treating others like crap, but yet I always seem to be treated like this whenever and however and it’s why I blame myself for everything.

I’m angry, I’m upset, I’m frustrated. If I ever find out you lie to me about something, there better a good justification otherwise I will rip you a new one.

That’s all.

#mun vents #mun vents heavily #if I didn’t get this out I would explode

[rollingrockstar]

Okay so !! Simon trauma yay!!!!!!

cw: abuse, neglect, sh(?), suicide + attempts, transphobia, really bad ex

not in order of events btw

probs gonna rewrite some stuffs

I apologize if this is worded poorly im so fuckimg tired

- He was abused and neglected alot in school and by his parents

- His parents got mad at him pretty easily

- This shit has been happening for years to the point that he has had to sneak off to like a friends house for multiple weeks days months and he couldn't really yknow tell anyone about it because he was afraid of what would happen if he told someone like what if they get mad at him, call him silly for saying that, tell his parents about what he had said about him

- His parents used to not be like that he doesnt know what the fuck happened it just started around when he was around 10-12 and honestly who knows. I guess you could say its up to interpretation??

- In school he was pretty much yknow...treated like this since kinder-3rd

- At around ages 13-16 he started struggling w yknow...depression stuff and sh(?)(hitting himself + violently scratching his own arms but it has never got to the point they bled just hurt a lot. like a very large amount) and like suicidal thoughts

- he has tried to khs like 3 times 2 times he pussied out and the 3rd time he ended up in the hospital literally when he was able to leave hospital his dad just fucking yelled at him

- oh yeah he had this one really bad ex 👍👍 he tried to come out as a hashtag transgender to him and yknow did a silly and pulled a transphobia to him

#🌟 ;; simon