#new apt

[enterintoevidence]

you’re on your own kid is for the besties in a new city and going through a quarter life crisis

#left a long term relationship #moved to a new city #new apt #started law school #my last living grandparent died #my dog died #attempting to go complete no contact with my brother #having trouble maintaining my friendships from back home #JESUS LOL #tw death #tw pet death #taylor swift #yoyok #midnights

[inkskinned]

something bad happened to you, and you died, and you came back wrong.

not wrong all the way. the little ways. you forget important dates, stopped going out with friends. it's harder to make you smile. you're apathetic towards things you used to love, afraid of places you used to go to cheer up. quieter. flinching. different.

you came back for love. you're still here for love. what pulled you back was a brightness so loud that even death couldn't outshout it. death heard the call and smiled at you and said okay. go home. somebody is waiting for you.

but you came back different. like lot's wife; you've turned into salt. you used to chirp through life in hops and skips; but now you lose skin just standing up. you have to move slower, skimming across this world without-touching-it. most things feel dull - until they're suddenly all-too-much. life, and being alive just rushes up and over you and you get hopelessly crushed.

you try to explain it to them: it is ugly, but this is what you are, now. the huge golden hoop of your halo now a little bronze ring. you are still watering your plants and wearing the same clothes. after all, you worked hard to come home. this life; so odd and off-color, now that you are wrong.

but they waited for you - it's just that they wanted the "you" that happened before this. the "you" that could sing in the show and hug people tight and look at a blade without breaking down to cry. the you with a smile in pictures. god, holyshit, it's like looking at a completely different person, isn't it. that other-you; the one they actually wanted.

you are the consolation prize. you are the body that forgot the ghost. you are the memory of the bad thing, and the death after; like you are wearing that memory as a banner. you are a fragment, an assembly. simulacrum. you don't make eye contact in mirrors, afraid the light will glance off and your true nature will flash back at you.

you hear them talk about it in their hushed, desperate whispers. sometimes they even admit it to your face; harsh and violent, acid thrown at christmas dinner. god, can you just fucking be normal again. you do not remember what normal is. you had to climb so far to get back here; you are far too exhausted. you want to open the glass door of your heart and show all the gears. can you help resolve whatever got messed up?

you try so, so hard. you came back for them. because you believed they would love you, even when you were so horribly broken. because you believed they would be patient. because you believed unconditional meant "without exception." you cannot do things the same way. you just get tired too quickly these days.

you want to put them on a couch and pour them the tea with hands that shake more than they remember. you want to line them up and draw them a map of where you have had to wander. you want to show every bruise in a backsplash; the little helpless ant of your soul carrying all that weight, over and over. you want to say: yes! it is different! but i did it for love!

you want to say: "i'm not the same, but i'm yours and i'm here. can that be enough?"

#this is very obviously about my battle with #ptsd #but i think it's also like a pretty apt metaphor for a lot of things like setting boundaries or going to therapy or choosing recovery #i was thinking about the 'comes back wrong' trope and i was like. oh no i have feelings about this bc i have mental illness #and once i stopped masking - i was WRONG. i was different #here's the good news: i am now INNUNDATED with love. fucking swimming in it. excelling at it. the people who stayed #learned my new self. my new different body and how i am different but i am trying. they have held me so tightly #and my life no longer feels quiet. it is not based in my suffering. it feels like i have been growing a tree in my chest #and now it is flowering. #it is so lovely to be surrounded by people who have said - oh! you cut off so many branches i was worried you weren't the same. but now... #... this is just a new you. and i love you. and i love that you're different and happy. #(but yeah also im nb so i was absolutely influenced by Trans things)

[liecanthrope]

wait because seriously being an adult therian fucking rips, especially when you start being independent.

dog with a blog? nah. dog with a JOB. i come into work with my tail and my theta delta necklace and the building implodes from my sheer swag. weirdo teenagers love me. also having your own paycheck means you can get whatever gear/treats you want (once bills are paid, of course - bet youve never heard a dog say that!)

living in your own apartment? well the pet limit is 2 but if i include myself im going over the limit. whoops! good thing i love lying to landlords (fuck landlords). living alone (no roomie) is even better bc theres no one to judge you for your animal habits. i can make a huge den in the living room and who is going to stop me?

i even have my own health insurance. bro. imagine being a dog with medicaid. im climbing the walls and howling and barking. i love being a dog filling out government paperwork.

having your own vehicle? THIS DOG CAN DRIVE! if i feel like going to the lake i can just go to the lake! nobody is stopping me! midnight ride with the windows down to howl at the moon? yes please!!

you can literally just go wherever bro. i moved 11 hours from my hometown to the mountains to feel more at home. i lived in the great plains and now i can just go out for a hike in the rockies and howl at the sky.

being an adult therian slaps so fucking hard i cant wait for the youth to grow up and experience the joy of freedom. yes being an adult is incredibly stressful but if youve been stifled living with family, you get a real chance to develop who you truly are. adult therians i love you im rubbing against your neck and mixing our scents. mwah.

#no shame of course if you do not or cannot have these things #but i wasnt granted much independence as a youth so im very happy now #sorry for the ramble im just feeling rlly accomplished today #still settling into the new apt but i finally got my books and some of my trinkets unpacked and set up :) #feeling a little more homey and im enjoying the weather quite a bit. we're having a rainy week #angel barks #therian #therianthropy #dog therian #wolf therian #feline therian #otherkin

[mochabeanzz]

🎃👻

links

#a spooky throwback for your thursday while I still get settled in the new apt #mochabeanz #nsft pics #queer nsft #alt girl #alt gf #emo girl #emo gf #thick babe #big boody #big booyt #green hair #girls with colored hair #content creator

[mattodore]

theo’s bedroom is slowly coming together

#river dipping #theodore doe #echthroi #ts4 #ts4 edit #after the save broke yesterday morning for the fourth! time i finally pulled up mod manager and started looking through the hundreds of #conflicts i apparently had and also deleted well over 500+ duplicates... my mods folder is SO rancid i'm sure i missed some conflicts #bc see those dark blue pillows on theo's bed? those are actually white :) but for some reason when i move the pillows near the wall they #change color depending on the time of day... it's not just those pillows some other objects do it too... just closing my eyes at it <3 #the bed and desk are where theo spends most of his time so i spent forever on them. his bed needed to be overwhelmed by stuff #there are... ten pillows i believe two large covers a sheet and a blanket. theo kind of just... burrows into the center and hides. #bunny boy behavior........ and yeah those are matthias's gloves on theo's desk <3 #i have to recolor the stuff on theo's walls later. i imagine his walls are mostly empty and it's just the floors in his apt. that're messy #but i wanted sticky notes to help him remember things and that back wall is going to have matthias's art and love letters #<- which theo definitely takes down and hides whenever matthias actually comes over lmaoooo #also i finally moved all of the pins from theo and matthias's boards over to @theodoredoe (mattodore was taken 😞) #i wanted a place just for my oc boards and i also wanted to be able to add sections to each oc's boards so! new acc! #yk how i mentioned theo's board looking so cluttered? yeah so. figured out it's bc over half of his board is just quotes #i made a section and threw all the 200+ quotes in there and will slowly put some of them in his main board #his board just looks so much better now like i'm so happy about it 🥰 it was definitely worth the time #OH ALSO!!!! IF ANYONE HAS SOME DEAD PLANT CC PLEASEEEE SEND IT MY WAY!!!! #theo really loves just. ripping plants and flowers out of the ground and taking them home to put in little pots but. he always kills them #jsknndkhj so i need dead plants!! limp!! DEAD!!!! #but i seriously can't find any #anyway... that's my build update <3 fr not much has happened bc i've had to start over four :) separate :) times :) but it's getting there. #i miss mattodore tho...... gkhjndfkhjn so i might take a break and get some poses and an edit going soon

[madwickedawesome]

silly little thing i made to cope with finishing season 1 (this is in me and my friend's au where things r normal and all is well)(please ask me abou it.........)

#twdg #twdg season 1 #i cried a little too much tbh #i started season 2 and continuously lost my mind.i love them theyre so silly #when they get back to the apts clem goes to show duck her new toy and kenny laughs at lee #(btw the Group lives in an apartment complex.if u even care.) #twdg clementine #lee everett #my art style makes me look like i watch lots of anime (i dont. i dont know why i draw like tha)

[meteorcrab]

Forever thinking about Saitama almost destroying the earth bc Genos was dead and then proceeding to kick him out of the new apartment like a week later

#yes yes he doesn't remember #but it's still hilarious? #<- said through tears and insane laughter #also the new apartment isn't THAT much smaller than the other??? #be honest or learn how to make better lies #surprised that Genos didn't say some shit like comparing the exact measurements of the apt but anyways #opm #opm spoilers #dan weeaboo momence

[galateagalvanized]

you open the cover and it's ten (10) paragraphs about the Clone Rights Bill and one (1) sentence about how Fox brings her coffee sometimes

#riyo chuchi #foxiyo #tcw cosplay #my cosplay #my works #i wanted to make this along the lines of #''meet our new chancellor after the old one choked on a grape!'' #because I think the dress is very... Imperial... #and that is a real galaxy art piece i have in my real apt hahaha #but i liked this better in the end ;) #she just seems like she'd end up in the news a lot haha

[aluuuuu-art]

Elise Louella (new roommate in @apt502-if ) she/her / bi / 24 / 5'6 / THAT new artist in Simpatico

>does oil paint, pottery and wants to try sculpting >tries very hard because of.. idk lawyer (ex) gf >always tries to look "the part" >is actually just a crybaby >didyoubreakupwithmebecauseIcantcook >looks very serious but is always soft around RO

RO = I can'T decide YET

I feel blessed having found this IF. Thank you for making this.

#apartment 502 #apt 502 #hosted games #not another fandom with no one to talk to #dang it rainn you little nugget #im new here cant you tell

[koopabeach]

#this is the view from my apt #Mine #Photography #Gas station #Cumberland farms #New england #Colors #Portland maine #Maine

[zzoupz]

oh my god, they were roommates

meursault belongs to @megakinsenpai695

#so glad to finally be drawing them #meursault lives in the new haven apt. and offered rick shelter then once he knows it basically adopted him like a feral cat lol #faith the unholy trinity #faith airdorf #faith game #faith oc #oc stuff #ricky bates #zoup art

[krogerkryptid]

The semester is almost over which means! We're almost back to analyzing the entirety of the Sherlock Holmes canon while looking at Victorian queer culture!! Stay tuned!

P.S. I am such a boomer when is comes to tumblr dot com and since I post other fandoms/interests a lot would being updated for this be easier with a tag to follow? I'll add a poll since my reach is tragically small (I am but a little guy) and who doesn't love a good survey

#I am so so excited about this #john watson #sherlock holmes #acd canon #acd holmes #acd watson #sherlock fandom #I am so serious though I am a detective #an investigator #I'm going to use the cork board in my new apt to map this whole thing out like a madman #I have already made a map of notable queer places in Victorian London and it's my prized possession

[chantalstacys]

2024 vibes ♡

#got a raise! #booked some babysitting jobs! #planned a trip to disneyland with bf next month! #organized TWO social outings for next week! #made a reading list! #ordered some cute new things for my bedroom! #tried heatless curlers and looking SO cute! #apt tried raising our rent by a lot and bf talked them down! lmao #good things ☺️ #diary

[traumxrei-archive]

hello, i wanted to post some updates ☆

1 - it's almost been over a year since i last posted my writing,,,,which is crazy bc i havent stopped writing twst brainrot at all– the "moving to another country + settling in" thing really killed my motivation to post n stuff, but i am still into twst yipeeee

2 - i will be posting my maid zine piece on here soon ! it features the second years, and has lots of shenanigans happening in them, so i hope you look forward to it ^^ (and it features some rlly amazing spotart by the one and only dumple !!)

3 - i also wanted to announce that i will be opening writing commissions around end of april-may ! yayy finallyyy !! if you ever wanted anything written by me, be it a one shot w/ twst ocs or headcanons of your faves, please make sure to check it out ^^ (i'll post my comm carrd on here + when comms will open later after i finalize it yipee)

#/archive bulletin #I CANT WAIT TO PLAY THE BNNUY EVENT #and book 7 ! #i've been too busy w/ dissertation + finding an apt to play thru book 7 cries #I NEED TO KNOW SO BADDD #also. commissions are finally happening yipeee #after 328304842709 yearsss #all the moneys will go toward my new comp fund bc my current one needs to retire :')))

[s-4-fira]

waiting for the @apt502-if demo drop so i drew some mcs (and i say some cuz im probably gonna have way more)

but anw here's Tulip (she/her) and Clementine (he/him)

#apt 502 #myart #clem #tulip #tulips a news anchor n clems a teacher #and probably way bigger than u think he is and also yes thats a kids bandaid on his face #hes clumsy #i have no idea abt their ros yet i love everyone #i hope to get to drawing them one day to ong #*too #also these r kinda rough so do not zoom in ty

[pokimoko]

I have had it with these motherfucking spam bots on this motherfucking site.

#personal #tumblr stuff #vent post #spam bots #i've been getting like 1000 spam bot followers a day for the last few days and blocking them all is getting--dare i say--TEDIOUS #wake up. block 300 bots. go to work. come home and block 500 more bots. spend evening checking tumblr to block bots. it's becoming a chore #it's starting to feel like I offended the tumblr gods or something. this is ridiculous. but like hell will i let them win #i won't let my follower count be 50% bots. i feel like a deserve a tumblr badge or something for fending off so many bots. #tribble #the trouble with tribbles #a very apt metaphor i think for these bloody spam bots; block one and five more come to take its place #but upside: the spam bots are helping me compile a Rosetta Stone for the word 'Untitled'. woo #also if you just joined tumblr and want to follow me: for the love of god personalise your bloody blog #i don't care if you have a icon or a summary. if your blog and likes are empty i'm blocking you #because i don't trust empty blogs and i really don't have the time to sort out who's real or not right now #(though if the blog's offering free mp3s 'just click the link!' or is advertising US keto gold coast gummies i know for sure it ain't real) #but hey! good news to people who followed me in the last four days who haven't been blocked; you passed the blog captcha test #anyway just had to get this frustration out of my system; gonna go block some more bots now i guess. i'll be very happy when this stops