#no cause the only reason i want to us bc

[sunfloewer]

it’s taking everything in me not talk about a certain special interest that i got so good at not talking about but if i’m listening to taylor swift and watching doctor who again i MEAN….

#xoxo gossip jinx #no cause the only reason i want to us bc #marauders era tik tok is the most trenchiest TRENCH of hp tik tok #besides sn*ly shippers and anyone who loves that character #everyone is white and everyone is timolethee chaidjdhs #and ofc the (1) character of color is mary WHO IS GETTING THE MOST BORINGGGGG EDITTTTT #YALL KJOW THE ONE!!!! #THEY NEED TO BE EVANGELISED!!!!!! #if i speak on a certain ship i’ll be crucified but i’m willing to have an alliance #if y’all are willing to FIGHT FOR DIVERSITY #CAUSE WHY IS IT 2022 AND SIRIUS AND REMUS ARE ANDREW AND BEN??????? #LIKE IM BEGGGGGGING #WE NEED TO DO SOMETHING!!!!!!! #maybe its better if it completely deteriorated in this way but like #ppl are turning their tumblr experience into job experience #feeling like i could sell ideas to companies to make this shit better #it’s so bad rn y’all have u seen it #like i’m not being dramatic you’d think it was 2008 #happy full moon im a clown for this but it’s okay

[collieii]

idk if this is controversial but i don't think vash is ashamed of his scars. i think vash is mainly concerned abt the picture he presents to the world and other peoples well-being/feelings. so the reason he doesn't like others seeing his scars is because he think it will make them uncomfortable, and it also sort of undermines the image he wants to project of someone who's very sillygoofy/carefree etc. similarly, i don't think vash is ashamed or insecure about being a plant/having those inhuman features, more he's concerned with how other people react to them. (the plant stuff esp makes sense to hide given how people literally stoned him lmao)

but yeah i don't think he's filled with self loathing over the scars and being nonhuman. i feel like vash's self image is fine, he just prioritizes how others feel and reacts based on that. his whole philosophy of covering up how he feels inside (that smile is fake!) is based on this principle, it doesn't matter if he's depressed as hell as long as he can pretend it's ok, because external presentation and how you affect the world is what really matters to him.

#trigun #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #thinking more of trimax than stampede vash but i think this applies to both? #anyways i've been reading a lot of trigun fic if you couldn't tell #the plant/wings stuff is addressed p well thru meryl in trimax #where it makes sense that ppls immediate reaction to seeing them is fear #(seen in ch 38) #but ofc anyone who knows vash would know he'd never intentionally use his powers to hurt ppl #even if they are terrifying and it's reasonable to be scared #meryl is scared of vash kinda instinctively but she pushes thru it bc he's her friend yk #and there's a whole line where someone just points that out directly i can't remember which chap but yk what im saying #oh when i say his self image is fine i am not referring to the guilt of causing insane tragedies that different #i just mean he's not insecure i feel like it might look like there's overlap w what i'm saying but it's different it's different #only saying this bc i've seen other ppl make him more insecure abt it which is fine but i wanted to add my 2 cents #trigun meta #.lieii #.lieii txt

[annihilatius]

Working on lots of stuff that I look forward to finishing...... here's a sneak peek of one of them

#v.png #Not related to the post but I had to uninstall the Tumblr app so I'm on chrome right now #Because one of the system apps on my phone is nearly 2 GIGABYTES for no discernible reason #And I can't do anything to make it smaller or prevent it because I don't know what's causing it #It just grows in size randomly #So it kept getting bigger to the point where my phone constantly only had 400mb available #So I had to clear out my cache if I wanted to use more than one app at a time or else I'd only have 100mb available #And even after uninstalling Tumblr and Discord which are 300mb together #My phone still won't go lower than 15.4gb out of 16gb no matter what I do #It'll be fine but I just wanted to talk about it #Sighhhhhhhhhh #So if I'm not interacting with my mutuals a lot (bc Tumblr on chrome doesn't like putting your mutuals on your dash) that's why

[dazais-guardian-angel]

kinda wild to me that one of the most compelling aspects of both Chuuya and Kunikida's characters to me, that I never really see talked about, is how they're heavily set on a doomed crash course towards complete and utter destruction, and how I am so, so worried for them both.....

#bungou stray dogs #been thinking a lot about chuuya lately (shocking for me i know (said with no sarcasm truly lmao it is rare for me)) #cause of the 15 manga and also playing the fucking jeht quest in genshin impact ugh (where's the one dual genshin bsd fan who Understands) #but like this pressure has been building up for chuuya for so long due to being used and manipulated by all these people #first the sheep then mori then verlaine then still mori now #he was groomed since childhood just like dazai #but unlike dazai he didn't have an oda to help him get out of the mafia........ he's still stuck there #and his personality is different from dazai's. dazai was more self-aware imo (but still a groomed emotionally abused kid don't get me wrong #but chuuya's whole thing is needing to belong and wanting a leader to be loyal to but ending up in positions of leadership himself #which makes him feel pressured but he accepts and stifles any negative feelings just because he wants to belong #and all this crushed him with the events in the light novels and yeah he went through character growth but he's...... Still In The Mafia... #and that fucking scene asagiri added to the cannibalism stage play i don't think hardly anyone even knows about bc IT'S NOT DISCUSSED ANYMO #where mori emotionally manipulates him with the flags!!! and it deeply hurts him!!! and he presumably deals with that shit all the time!!! #it is WORRISOME. it WORRIES ME okay. #chuuya doesn't have anyone who can save him from the mafia (dazai is in no position to okay; it's all he can do just to try to save himself #and it's so so scary. it spells awful things for him. #didn't asagiri say he'd have a rough path or something??? and he added that fucking scene in the play!!! it haunts me!! #i fully expected this shit to hit a turning point in the meursault arc but we can't have nice things i guess #and as for kunikida a;lskdfl (took me this long to get to him oop) literally the ending of Entrance Exam (the novel) is just #One Big Foreshadowing for Kunikida's downfall #he's compared to the azure king for a reason. Sasaki saw the azure king in him for a reason. it's fucking worrying!!!!! #there hasn't really been anything like that since in the manga (just like for chuuya lol ugh) but he's TERRIBLE at coping with his trauma #and it only gets more apparent once shit hit the fan in the doa/hunting dogs/meursault arc #it's not good!!! i'm worried for kunikida too!!!! #even if the manga isn't focusing on this these worries are always in the back of my mind man #both kunikida and chuuya are doomed to hit some kind of breaking point eventually and i await those moments with dread yet anticipation #i want dazai to be able to save kunikida from the despair being too good a person brings the way he couldn't save oda #and chuuya.... if we get a scene with him & mori mirroring the one in dark era where dazai finds out that mori orchestrated the kids' death #oh man i think i'll fucking die (give it to me i need to cry)

[munamania]

maybe this is just a curse of the circles i find myself in on this internet but some people will jump in with a QUICKNESS to talk about how much they dont like "popular" lesbian music and how there arent any good lesbian musicians that aren't just depressing and they DONT want to hear about muna or chappell roan and they for sure need you to know that they dont want to hear any of that shit at the club. and along with the insane backlash or just blatant ignoring of dyke media (esp when it does have to do. with sex.) it's like damn you people really saw some lesbians having fun for once and decided you needed to make it your problem expeditiously. you said shut that shit down. christ!

#i want you to name me any muna song outside of silk chiffon. quickly. and dont say i know a place. cause yeah silk isnt for the club. #doesnt have to be everybodys taste and like theyre not the only lesbian artists worthy of attention but yall wont even let us #get to like. close to a household name. you for some reason need to snap your jaws on it immediately the second they reach like #tiny desk or play a single late night show. or the second a lesbian movie comes out u dig for something to cancel it #maybe you could take the haterism out of your heart for five fucking seconds peace and luv <3 #had to unfollow a girl on tiktok bc i saw her in the comments of another video going on and on about how well gay club music is just #more fun than anything above. by gay club music they mean azealia banks and charli. btw. as if dykes cant like that #but why r u singling out artists who specifically do identify as lesbians like. can u be normal. #abby talks

[crypt1dcorv1dae]

Metalheads who don't like/respect Babymetal bc their "look" isn't, what? Traditionally metal? are so cringe. Like bro it's an alternative music scene we're supposed to say FUCK tradition????? What's wrong w y'all... Embarrassing

And also they are missing out bc Babymetal fucking rules

#its like pol who are like punk is only if you look like *this* and im like. you are asking me to conform to a societal expectation? in PUNK? #like what. the fuck are you talking about. NON CONFORMITY CAN LOOK LIKE ANYTHING. THATS THE WHOLE FUCKING POINT OF NOT CONFORMING #yeah i dont always dress like a typical punk but thats bc the clothes tend to he fucking uncomfortable or a lot of work and i dont care #like why would i put so much effort into looking a certain way... in... a nonconforming alternative group... why would i conform... what #like the way you look doesnt fucking mean shit. a real punk is someone who actually fucking thinks and acts like a punk. #thats all that matters #punk ain't about how you look or causing random mayhem its a fucking. lifestyle. its a culture snd belief system about the world. #its about saying fuck you to the way things are if the way things are isnt fucking fair. its about community and taking care of your fellows #its about safety in numbers against a ruling power that wants people who are different to stop existing. #the mayhem is for a reason. its to say you cant fucking keep us down and if you try we WILL fight back. you cannot keep us down. #thats the POINT. #idk how my post about people being snobs about metal and missing out on good music bc of it turned into a rant about punk ideology but. #well. here we are. i have a tendency of going off on tangents in the tags..... #point is. trying to enforce a 'norm' in a non traditional alternative genre is fucking stupid and against the whole POINT of the thing #and i think it fucking DUMB that ppls get so caught up in appearances when its never been about that

[craycraybluejay]

I'm just gonna start calling people theymab till they realize that being referred to by your agab is a particularly fucked up version of midgendering

#theymab #ok fine you want to be transphobic i will play ball #same with degendering. ok ur pronouns are they/them now too have fun. #i am SICK of people walking all over us #i like trans women but if you randomly reference someones agab against their will and invent slurs for people like.. #its fucking annoying how many of you just let someone talk to u like that just bc they claim 'more oppressed' title by some ideology #u can say black people are more oppressed than latinos but if u call them slurs and are racist ur still fucking racist even if ur #'more oppressed' #your token oppressed status does not make your bullying and hate and discrimination not that #youre still a bully and bullies deserve to get hit back #literally the only way someone will stop bullying you ime is strike back physically or otherwise #ignoring them or 'laughing it off' or going full doormat just makes them do it harder bc they think they can get away w it #the reason i wasnt bullied? because someone tried to fuck with my property and i very near punched them in the face #and purposely caused a scene #and you know what? no one ever touched my shit or said rude shit to me again. everyone got very kind and civil #self defense is all about losing the guilt smart bullies will try to put on you so you dont fight back #nevet ever let someone walk all over you or your friend

[dipyronegirl]

i have once again been discriminated against for my accent

#i’m kidding it’s not discrimination at all it’s just #i live in rio de janeiro right. and we have a very specific accent that’s different from all other states #we drag our sentences (so it sounds a bit lazy??) and we pronounce our S like an X #like. take the word ‘bolas’ (balls). we say bolash while literally every other state just says bolas like the S in the word ‘say’ #anyway. our accent makes us sound like players somehow; it’s hard to explain #and the carioca (means from rio) stereotype is that we always find shortcuts to everything; to get what we want without working for it #and it’s partially true tbh #but for some reason (i have no idea why) my accent specifically is very very strong (& i only found out ab it a few weeks ago) #and it makes me sound even more of a ‘player’. i asked ppl to be honest w me ab it and they said i sound like #a drug dealer or someone ‘shady’ that works w something illegal #and like i’m lazy and don’t care ab anything and maybe don’t take things seriously #and i mean all of it is true. kind of #but it’s shit that ppl can guess all my flaws just bc of my accent #sorry im rambling i’m so annoyed by this. i’d change if i could but idk how to speak differently fr #and ab my flaws. well i know i /can/ change them but idk how. i’m trying and i hope i become less lazy and more interested in serious thing #(cause yk. my biggest flaw is that i can’t bring myself to give a fuck ab the things i should care ab like responsibilities and shit) #god i’m rambling again im just so ughhh #text #giocore #about me #language

[nanodot]

a danganronpa bnha au but it just has makoto with deku's quirk and kyoko with todoroki's quirk

so my hand slipped but i have a perfectly reasonable explanation---

#danganronpa #danganronpa trigger happy havoc #kyoko kirigiri #makoto naegi #i have so many thoughts about kyoko having todoroki's quirk #so 2 reasons why kyoko doesn't use the fire side the first few times #so we know that jin is the disappointment of the family and kyoko hates him for that #so something like that happened and kyoko refused to use the fire side bc she didn't want to be associated with her dad #readon number 2 #so i only read the first volume of the kirigiri novel (can someone please translate the rest) #and i only know snippets of how she burnt her hands #but basically what i'm trying to say is that the quirk was also the cause of how she burnt her hands #and she doesn't use the side bc she's scared she'll get hurt or somethin #idk how makoto gets the quirk #probably found it on the side of the road or something #my inspo was the deku vs todoroki fight #bnha au #may add more tags idk #oh yeah kyoko has temperature proof gloves #nano art

[22degreehalo]

Oh my goddddddd I blocked all the terms I could think of related to that stupid game because literally everything just fucked up my moral OCD like nothing else and I don’t even want to Play it the literal most interaction I have had is wathcing one (1) episode of a comedic let’s play and also just still having positive emotional associations with the franchise alongside negative ones because they don’t it turns out cancel out

And yet I am still being forced to see them!!!!!!

#my guys!!!!!!!!! this is Not Actually That Important!!!!!!!!!! #do u know how many creators donate money to causes you don't believe in?!?!? #the only reason this is becoming The Thing is that people want to use it as a Loyalty Test #and the problem with loyalty tests is that these things are never actually equally easy or difficult #oh my god it's so Rich that I saw reblogged a post all like 'I dont mind throwing ppl under the bus bc Im the main character of the universe #my guyssssss do u even know how many ppl u are throwing under the bus with your own problematic viewing lmfaooo #it's just that everyone has decided this is the One Thing it's reasonable to ask people to do #and everyone should just Do It regardless of their circumstances #Im not even playing the game!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate ocd so fucking much oh my GOD

[aberrantmind]

cant show any negative emotions just in case my ex is cyberstalking me. i need them to know how happy nd thriving i am without them

#8lah #hate using the beta editor btw #hate the confetti it gives you when you post smth bc . the only reason i use it is to make posts unrebloggable. #so. it kind of ruins the mood #oh im fine btw i just didnt want people to reblog this #oh i do have like #probable cause to believe theyd cyberstalk me. im not just being paranoid for no reason. im being paranoid for a reason.

[revelmaven]

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#im fucking tired of having to be a perfect example all the time #having to be perfectly behaved and pleasant and kind and reasonable #while everyone else is permitted to do anythign they want to me #im so angry #i am SO angry that im not allowed to show that i'm autistic and i'm not allowed to need accomodations and i dont get to be taken seriously #but entitled rude people can come to my place of work and scream in my face and tell me im worthless and get away with it #ESPECIALLY when they claim to be neurodivergent and so that should excuse it #nothing excuses you being an asshole. you CHOOSE how you act. your conduct is YOUR responsibility not something you can palm off #and accept no responsibility for #sorry man ive been autistic my whole life and it's never caused me to tell someone to fuck themselves bc i didnt want to use manners #ive been autistic my whole life and never demanded to be allowed to do whatever i want with no restrictions because im special #like fun fact its almost like being neurodivergent isnt a catch-all free card to be an abusive asshole #crazy that #im genuinely so angry about this i hate it #i hate that im the only one who has to behave #that i DO that i CAN control myself even to the point where i dont even Raise My Fucking Voice at these assholes #and somehow it's still my fault when they don't want to be told what to do #i can't take people's entitled aggressive dangerous fucking attidues anymore im going to fucking snap #and i swear to god i seem to be the only person in the immediate situation who thinks it's remotely serious #i am NOT okay #im fucking terrified for my safety and im furious and im going to fucking snap #i can't take it anymore #i can't take these customers lying through their fucking teeth and humiliating me for fun #this is fucking insane how is anyone supposed to live with this? #anyway if u know me irl etc etc #trauma files #vent #ignore

[coffee-bat]

i finally had a hyperfixation dream and it really wasn't what i expected, but you know what, it was fun i'll take it.

#just woke up from a dream that started with me going with the tf2 mercs to a local supermarket #and everyone of course started causing chaos in the stokrotka (the market chain) #especially because spy was taking incredibly long looking for Very Specific cosmetics he wouldn't go for anything else #while i was running around like a tired mother of 9 and profusely apologizing to the employees #then for some reason i accidentally made friends with one employee and as i do i got a crush on her #that's when the dream turned away from focusing on tf2 #so we went home after FINALLY finishing the groceries but i wanted to go back the next day to see the girl #so the next day mom came with me (by car) and we tried to go in the store but it was closed because apparently a murder just took place #in it (????) #so we went back to the car but it wouldn't start so while mom tinkered i kept watch #and i was really anxious bc there was yknow. a murderer on the loose in the area #multiple guys approached us as usual when you're in the city after dark #asking for money for booze and shit #and i was freaking out every time just ready to spring to violence #then one guy did actually turn violent when denied money and i stabbed him repeatedly with the jumpstart cables i was holding. #the car finally started so i looked around to check if no cameras caught me and we left to go home like nothing happened #midway through i had a sudden revelation of 'hey wait i think repeatedly stabbing a guy might be illegal' and i asked my mom if dna stays #on metal #she said yes and that we'll clean the Murder Tool when we get home and that's where i woke up. #honestly. while the mercs were only part of the dream 'stabbing a guy with jumpstart cables then leaving like nothing happened' IS still #a very tf2 thing lmao #ramble #murder cw #violence cw #so anyway. i just wrote out a funny dream were i murdered a guy. hope you enjoyed

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

My roommate was telling me how I’ve been up until almost 6am every night and how she tells me all the time to be quieter and when I told her that coming out of her room to ask me when I’m going to bed and telling me she doesn’t know when I ask her if something is wrong doesn’t tell me to be quiet is apparently gaslighting??

#bestie has been moved around 5 times now for housing bc she can’t get along with anyone #I’m seeing why #literally. first time she’s said she wants me to be quiet. and I’m like oh yeah for sure #and then she’s like I’ve told you so many times to be quiet at night just because you’re up all night doesn’t mean I have to be #and she was like I want to change our roommate agreement bc ur such a problem #clearly you’re only doing this bc I enforced the overnight guest rule that they can’t stay past 1am #and I’m like. none of that is true?? and she’s going on and on #and then she’s like well how would you like people being awake when you want to sleep?? and I’m like that’s something I’m super used to #and then she’s like well you have no empathy at all you’re so defensive and rude it’s just not nice #and it’s like. bestie. i knew all about u before u moved in. there’s a reason we had to fill out our agreement with the housing coordinator #she’s like and you should know I’ve been in contact with our ra. and I have someone one the phone right now as a witness #this was like 20 mins into the conversation like buddy if that’s the route you wanna go I will go #also me and our ra? besties. i make her cake pops and desserts. she really liked the lemon cake pops I made #and she can’t stand my roommate bc she goes out of her way to cause problems and lie #so like. we were already talking about her today when she stopped by for a cake pop #she was just telling me earlier like hey you really should email the housing coordinator for her doing those things it’s really not alright #the things being every time I have a conversation with someone she cracks her door open to listen in #but now I can’t send that email or else it’s retaliation #this girl is an absolute trip. universally hated by every ra on this campus #also she tries to freak my ra out by telling her we talk about her all the time. i do by best to not interact with her at all if I can help #oh oh oh. and she texted my ra saying I was having people over past what’s allowed every night for a week straight. which I haven’t at all #she really underestimates how good of friends I am with my ra. I’m dating a very close friend of hers and on top of that she used to be at #my apartment like every other day until roomie moved in. and she’s a known liar! why would either of us listen to a word she says about us #so yeah. those r the updates that I’m battling against #soup talks #no but for realsies tho. bestie has been moved so many times. her old roommate is an ra friend of mine and they cannot Stand each other #I’m pretty sure this is her last chance with campus housing. and god do I see why #also girl hates sound. Hates it. calls the ra on call whenever there’s wind bc we have old windows that r noisy #oh it’s also important to note we aren’t roommate roommates. we have our own bedrooms it’s like a normal 2bd apartment #so if she wanted to shut herself in her room she could. but noo she’s gotta crack open the door to listen in to everything I say and do

[earlyspringtranscendence]

i wish betting on wrestling was like a thing because while i would never win if i bet on anything else (am bad at recognising patterns that actually mean anything) i would cash in soooooo much because i can ALWAYS tell when a jericho feud’s gonna run way too long again 😌

#hello hi . im stressed out this fair sunday evening #feel like im failing at school already its been like a month and yet #one of my teachers v much implied i'd fail her assignment if i didnt do a bunch of extra shit and like #theres reasons for it that i can see from her side but theres also just the issue that i told her about of like #i just dont know how to work with that many materials and slash or i cant go out and buy all these things right now #and then she's like well go down to xyz and ask them to do it for you and its like honey i dont know why you think we've got such a like #mutually beneficial relationship going on between all the applied and fine arts in this school like #thats a fiction that lives in your head ... especially after we just didn't exist in this school for a whole year #and anyway. i went ahead and tried some different materials and its just like. you cant make up what an insane failure thats been #and its not that i didnt try my best its just that like idk what she wants from me #cause anyway theres a reason i picked the materials that i did the first time round #changing those just kinda changes the meaning of the thing in general... which is something SHE teaches us #anyway. and tomorrow i have class w someone who i'm Difficult with (as in like i have a hard time around her im not purposefully difficult) #(its just that she makes me feel that way cause of the 'tism and cause of the fact she thinks she knows how to handle the 'tism) #(she doesnt) #and again i did a lot of work for her im just sure she's gonna expect me to have done more #but in my defense. i need to go to the doctor and see if they can prescribe me some form of ritalin bc my exhaustion was so bad last wk #and has been bad for a hot second lately #and theres really only so much i can do with the spoons at hand #anyway. and im also Sad Right Now because ive been ignored and interrupted while saying things a little too frequently recently #and im not laughing. im having a Time. #i didnt even have that bad of a week all things considered but goddd i need a break

[rubiesintherough]

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#(( ooc. )) #venting tw #negativity tw #mil and husband are both pressuring me to get my driver's license #and theyre going about it .. in a konda ableist way. like the resson i dont have it is 1. parents didn't even allow me to start trying for #it til i was 18... and that's about the time my health issues really starting rearing their heads #and 2. i dont feel safe driving due to my disability. #like. the pain can flare at any time. and get really really blackout bad in a matter of seconds #and stress is one of the many many things that can cause a flare. #i have my permit. i am doing some driving just with my husband in the car #and that way he can take over if i have a pain flare... or even if it came down to it grab the wheel #wtf am i supposed to do if im driving by myself and it happens?? and they dont seem to understand that THAT is a real fear #and theyre talking about how i could drive myself 2 hrs away to visit my sis #and im just like... yeah sure if i didnt have a massive pain flare on the way and crash and maybe even take someone else with me #its irresponsible for me to consider driving alone. especially bc health is on the decline. has been for years now #its only going to get worse and im slowly trying to accept that im just not able to do some of the things i used to #but trying to explain your disabled life to someone who's never dealt with debilitating physical long-term disability before #is really almost impossible. they view your explanation as excuses. they cut down every reason you give and their replies #prove they just... dont understand. 'wouldnt you feel better if you were more independent??' 'arent you tired of not being able to just #get in the car and go when you want??'. #no. not really. it would be nice sure. but its not safe. but god trying to explain it to them is impossible. #they dont get it. they dont understand. and trying to point out that their pushing and disregard for my feelings and health concerns in #this is ableist?? met with denial #dismissial. straight up telling me im wrong and just being immature or dramatic. #its my body. my disability. my limitations. i think i know it better than they do #ableism tw