#not all this shit happening the kitchen

[loveme-anyway]

"I think it's weird that he's struggling to find a replacement when he has so many options right under his nose"

"...it's like he's choosing not to see them and everything they have to offer..."

"what do you have to offer?"

#not all this shit happening the kitchen #buddie #911 season 6 #webweaving #edits:) #pics #911 icons #911 headers #like/credit/reblog if u use #buck #eddie diaz #911 on fox #buckley diaz family

[coldresolve]

fun facts about the torture in moneymakers while were at it. spoilers if you're not caught up

the torture is not done in any attempt to gather reliable intel, induce compliance or as a punishment to deter unwanted behavior, none of which are things that torture can do. instead it is perpetrated for the sadistic gratification of the torturer, and for a profit incentive

except for that one time in pt34 when it was done to induce fear and make conrad's escape physically impossible, under the guise of teaching him a lesson. davin knew what he was doing

conrad complying with demands is always, always under duress. i wouldn't call that obedience, personally

you'll notice that conrad's fear of renee has turned into contempt and disgust, a subtle nod to the fact that torture victims dont typically build a whole lot of positive associations with their torturers

conrad gets more resistant over time, not less. but im sure thats just because he hasn't been beaten into submission yet

davin talks pretty openly about exploiting the media as a way to get attention in that one scene. not only a comment about the media's sensationalism of torture/violence, but also a hint to the fact that it can be exploited lol

theres not a whole lot of talk about sophisticated torture, in fact i think i even wrote a thing where renee admits that it doesnt require a whole lot of finesse to hit people. or maybe im just misremembering. its supposed to be in there tho

speaking of renee, i dont know if you noticed, but he isnt doing so well. could this have something to do with his actions? the world may never know

that part where renee thinks about the way we culturally view perpetrators... he comes to the wrong conclusion and you as a reader are not only expected to realize that on your own, but also think about what thought processes led him to be wrong. but also ive been throwing around ideas as to how i might add another perspective about it in the future so theres that

i have a whole tirade about the concept of being 'broken' coming up. spoilers ig

davin is doing just fine. davin is a machiavellian. davin, get this, also acts as an argument to the fact that the insidious parts of torture aren't in the people who act it out, but in the people who facilitate it. the people who act it out just tend to be useful idiots. sorry for the diss renee ily

anyway yeah so. that whole thing about davin building a strenuous trust with conrad in the beginning by seeming like the lesser of two evils was intentional

something about that darn profit incentive might be meaningful to the theme here but alas this falls beyond the comprehension of my feeble mind (aka spoilers lmao)

#other #this is the kind of shit that happens in your brain when you spend 9 months sanding solid oak drawers for 50 different kitchens #just you and your music. and all those thoughts you have about torture fsr

[toasteaa]

Canon Eclair behavior: being asked for your birthday while buying a bottle of wine and saying "oh no, I'm just planning a little...date".

GIRL. THEY NEED YOUR BIRTHDAY TO SEE IF YOU'RE OLD ENOUGH TO BUY WINE, NOT IF IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY 😭

#toast talks #I'm so fucking embarrassed I CANNOT believe I said that shit to them oh my god #MY BRAIN IS NOT WORKING AND I'M JUST TRYING TO HAVE A NICE DATE WITH MY HONEY WJDSIXIEJC #I blame the work day today I have been wobbly brained all DAY #anyways. yes. canon Eclair behavior for her to get SO bervous while planning a date that she does this shit. I watched it happen. #local detective doesn't flinch in the face of danger. she DOES panic at the thought of not being a good host. #someone please help her I think she might go through that bottle of wine herself AND burn down her kitchen - #oc tag: Eclair Dumont

[hxhhasmysoul]

wouldn't it be nice if the author of the fics finished them. the author is me.

#vent #for the last 4 months my life has been in stupid crisis mode #like constantly #from major ones where i had to move out for a while because it was impossible to stay where i lived #to not being able to use my kitchen for over a week #and like other more or less minor house related stuff that made it impossible for me to use something normally #not a single week without something like that or shit at work which is constantly being so fucking chaotic #and now someone died in my family #not someone very close but i liked them #and of course like feeling sad that they are gone can't be the only thing #because it has to come with the headache of i need to travel for their funeral and it's just before easter #so there's no one in this city to leave my dog with #because most of my friends either live abroad or have cats or are busy before easter.. #i'd just want a week where nothing happens #and like the writing is weighing heavy on me #because i miss it #also i wish i could finish something #i wish something good would happen that i could feel proud off #also because i'm mentally ill and fucking stupid when i was going crazy with my kitchen not working and work shit #i bought new furniture #because after 15 years i've finally had enough money to buy some that aren't fucking black and inconvenient and ugly #which is like a huge project and a crisis i brought onto myself #just because i was too burnt out to write #and i wanted something nice to happen to me #like a nice living space that doesn't make feel like i have no ownership over it because everything in it was some else's choice #and that old furniture was bought by my mother and my brother ages ago and it's handmedowns #and my fucking horrible mother feels personally slighted that i want to get rid of a bed that is broken #because my brother's kids jumped on it regularly when they used to visit pre covid #yeah it's been broken that long because i lost all my savings during covid and had to change careers to a souless pointless corpo job #long pathetic whine and overshare over

[cassynite]

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#cassy bitches #i am. so fucking tired and annoyed and stressed #our fucking shower hasn't worked in two weeks bc my parter decided to remodel and then didnt finish the job! #and now her fucking sibling fucked up our dishwasher and it leaked water EVERYWHERE including apparently under the floorboards #and im pretty sure i can smell black mold in the kitchen now which! great! another nightmare we're gonna have to fix ourselves #since we cant afford to get a contractor and even if we could no one ever returns our calls when we do try to hire someone #AND my friend went to surgery for appendicitis and that's freaking me out #and ON TOP of that ive been creatively juiced out and feeling like shit about the things i make and my ocs and like. me #like everyone's just been secretly tolerating me all this time and if i disappear no one's going to notice #i feel like nothing i make or am doing is worthwhile and im just GROSS and ANGRY and ANNOYING #and even complaining in tags on a post makes me feel like a whiny baby like. there are wars etc why am i complaining boo hoo #so i cant even talk to people about how i feel bc it makes me so ashamed that im feeling this way to begin with #ive been resisting the urge to just delete everything at this point bc then at least i wont have the urge to check everything and feel wors #why does awful shit always happen right around my birthday. why am i cursed like this

[hella1975]

so it turns out it was actually never that serious

#the exam literally went fine what the fuck just happened i feel like i just hallucinated that #like im not one of those people that go 'omg i did soooo badly :(' just to come out with top grades if i say it's going to shit #then it's becuase i genuinely wholeheartedly believe it #and my headspace before this exam was the worst it's been in MONTHS like i havent felt that bad for an exam since first year #and i sat down opened the paper and. remembered everything. like i literally just Knew the answers #im not saying ive passed bc am i fuck about to jinx it and i was still riding mainly blind bc i have NO idea where that knowledge came from #but at the very least there was a 35 marker that i KNOW i aced like i could picture the exact lecture slides it wanted me to discuss #and i had all of them memorised so at the very least ive got like. 30 marks. which is enough for me to pass the module #bc this exam is only weighted 75% and with my marks from the other 25% i only needed like 20 marks to pass this exam #which... makes it even more embarrassing that i failed it the first time but whatever!!!! #oh my god im so glad that's done im so happy IM FREE #just been in the kitchen dancing around to my little tunes and texting my friends <3 #im meeting up with one of them when she gets off work at 5 and we're going for drinks #so ive got until then to nap and chill and then ill go to the shop and get us some food and wine #and she's gonna come here for a bit & then we'll go. like actually look at me. im having people over at MY HOUSE im going out to buy us WIN #im literally a functioning adult living independently who IS she a misty memory #alas i do only have £23 in my account so this is gonna be such a slay seeing how i make that stretch for a night out #i acc could budget for england when it comes to alcohol i think like the way i manage to have a good funky time with MINIMAL funds #is downright impressive. it's a skill idc what you say #hella goes to uni

[nerfpuncher]

*Hits blunt*

Crosshair is the type of dude to get blackout drunk and wake up the next morning with his nipples pierced.

#star wars #the bad batch #tbb crosshair #i have a crosshair in my friend group and this did happen #dude disappeared on us #somehow got home #woke us all up the next morning screaming WHAT THE FUCK in the kitchen #crosshair would keep them tho #i dont make a lot of crosshair shit posts on here but man this one feels canon

[exrayspex]

i heard about #NaClYoHo (national clean your home month) yesterday, and since i've been trying to slowly take care of the house cleaning already, i decided to do it!

on the first I didn't clean, but i did work on a mend to a beloved hoodie. and that'll help free up the chair with stuff to mend piled on it. i've stitched the holes where the sleeves attached to the cuffs closed, and hand embroidered a satin stitch around about half of the cuff in a nice red to reinforce/protect it. one sleeve is done, and the other is more than halfway there.

on the second i swept the upstairs and the staircase, then worked on the mending project some more

and today i swept the kitchen, then cleaned the (filthy tbh) blinds in one big window. i've been meaning to do that for ages and i've finally started! one window down...i'm gonna try to finish the embroidery on that hoodie tonight too.

#naclyoho #I'd like to finish cleaning all the blinds #clean the slats in the pantry and laundry doors #dust the shit in the kitchen that's too high up to reach without a ladder #and then whatever else i happen to manage to do on a whim. yk the taking a rare urge to clean as far as it'll go thing. #which will apply only to certain things of course. not necessarily the things that need doing the most #but I'll go wherever that wind carries me

[meatheadmutt]

why am i having to hold a gun to googles head to show me articles on the long term effects of hormonal birth control on the endocrine system in adult patients who began usage as a teenager

#barks #i just wanna know if having a hormonal iud as a teenager fucked with my shit or not #causeeeeee i switched to copper a few years ago and everything was gucci in the coochie until a bad summer hit #lo and behold i call the gyno and she puts me on nuvaring because my symptoms were a sign of hormonal imbalance #meaning i got my ass fucked up from the first iud. right? #fuck if i know i wish they didnt make it my responsibility and then not actually give a shit as to what really happens #the absolute hell you can go through both on and off of birth control is out fucking rageous #'cool my cramps arent as bad but im a raging bitch i want to rob a bank and i want to kill everyone and then myself' #can you please for more than five fucking seconds think about the actual effects these things have on us that arent 'harder to get pregnant #also never listen to anyone that tells you you cant get your tubes tied and still be able to have children down the line #they always wanna bitch and moan about it but its literally reversible just like a vasectomy. not as easy but still possible! #do we get mad at and blame the kitchen counter when a baby smacks their head against it? no. the baby is at fault #tell me why something i have no control over is the reason i have to bear the cross #instead of the dipshit baby that cause the issue in the first place being at fault????????????????????? #im going to burn this world down i swear to god i hate it more every day #the beauty is evident but the horrors persist #hi if you read all of this

[baishouqijia]

i am desperately trying to be more active but i'm experiencing mental burnout. just want to say thank you for the interactions even when i'm only checking in here now and again - i'll respond when i'm feeling better! <3

#nothing really happened - work and the house just got on top of me. #for context i was promoted to a management position in october and i hit my stride so i have a lot of responsibilities and i'm hhh. #having to play catch up in terms of skillset. i'm good at my job but i'm not the best - therefore ? i must keep pushing :y #as for home... Man (horse.jpg) #we bought a house a year ago. i envy people who renovate days after moving in. we're a year in and i'm only just redoing the kitchen floor #after a leak that happened in JUNE 2022. it's expensive as fuck and takes so much time. #i'm so fortunate to be able to afford a house but like. i won't lie. it's really hard having to be responsible for everything that goes #wrong with it. my kitchen has been subfloor for months. we destroyed our kitchen island trying to make room for the floor to be done #so we're down storage and stuff is just piling up. eh i know this is like. first world problem and really not a big deal. #but when your house is in disrepair because you don't have the money to fix it quickly or time to do it yourself. shit's hard. #anyway this is a rant. don't want a wrench or a tissue- just wanna get it out. #[puts on pantalone hat] i have money anxiety too #like i earn the most i've ever earned. i won't really get much higher than this atm. i'm due a bonus and i can cash out my shares #but fixing up the house is so expensive. i'm worried i'm gonna lose it all somehow. idfk why. when things are going well i worry i'm gonna #lose it all somehow. growing up poor does a number on your resource guarding. if i spend a penny I Will Lose It All. #' dima why do you like pantalone so much ' HE JUST LIKE ME FRRRR #sry this is a ramble . i treat tumblr tags like my diary but i hope you enjoyed the read xoxox #anyways! point is! i'm alive! i'm itching to come back but i dont have the mental space for fun rn. #can't have fun until i feel safe enough to have fun if that makes sense. #aight byeee

[saraptor]

sometimes you forget how much it sucks to have emotionally immature parents until you get ruthlessly gutted by how emotionally immature they are. by them.

#saraptor personal #idk what happened but my relationship with my father is ruined #permanently as far as im concerned #he's immature and he's got a streak of aggression that i dont care for #this bitch got FURIOUS and slammed the door on me because i wasn't cook vegetables exactly how he wanted #he got furious AGAIN when i wouldn't immediately move aside for him to get in the kitchen while /I/ was cooking food for his sorry ass #he threatened my sister he's smashed food on the ground he's a piece of SHIT and all he has to say for it is that he's 'embarrassed' #you better be more than fucking embarrassed #he questions my intelligence my memory he says i lie and make things up all the time #when he says hurtful things he blames it on ME for 'interpreting his words the wrong way' #he moves my shit around without my permission #vent #ffffffffucking hell i just needed to get this off my fucking chest

[arsonist-chicken]

PSA, don't talk about anything in your town hall that you don't want every employee and their families to know. Maybe avoid your town hall in general and move to a town where none of your relatives or anyone else you know works unless you want them to know your business.

#source: my mother works in the town hall in the social housing department and immediately when arriving home #starts telling everyone everything that happened today and who applied for housing and who got it and who was kicked out etc etc. #which I Do Not want to know; and also it's another reason for me to move away for a while at least after graduating #because otherwise i'd have applied for social housing in my town which. requires filling out the forms that my mother reviews now. #she doesn't decide who gets housing but i don't need her to look at all my documents and insurance times and former employers etc etc #SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP I don't want to know any of this!! how do you arrive home and immediately start talking a mile a second!! #@people who are in relationships: how the FUCK do you deal with coming home and not getting some peace and quiet? #i would lose it if I came home and was immediately talked at for the entire evening about things i don't give a shit about #and that should also not leave the town hall or even the office it belongs to #'are you not hungry or do you just not want to eat with us'. what. the fuck kind of answer do you expect to that. #yes i'm hungry but i'd rather sit in my room hungry and go to my swimming club hungry later than eat with you #and be talked at and questioned about what i did today and what my plans are for the tenth time this week #and having to repeat everything twice for some reason. sunday aka me leaving cannot come soon enough #mine #vent and rant #i also don't need to hear about her GODDAMN DIET PLANS *AGAIN*. i don't care i don't care i don't care!! #leave me alone with dieting!! i'm perfectly capable of falling back into disordered eating habits all by myself! I don't need someone else #to talk about diets and weights and weight loss and calories and weight watchers all the time for that! #i'm perfectly capable of hurting myself like that all on my own; i don't need outside encouragement! god. i cannot wait to live alone #and have my own damn kitchen and enough money to buy proper food that's good for me and that i like regularly. #maybe even see a dietician once to help me find some foods with iron and other things i often have too little of. #and no one to tell me when to eat and then be passive-aggressive about it when i say i don't want to eat now

[antimony-ore]

Everytime my plans fall through with someone my mom is finally gone all day, IDK why she’s on call for these 2 old ladies anyway they are rude as fuck

#it’s like how she’s ‘watching’ this untrained dog for someone and it’s been pissing and shitting all over the kitchen #because she doesn’t take care of it beyond letting it out for like 5 minutes 3 times a day #and doesn’t even it time to go to the bathroom out there #I hate it the kitchen is my home and I can’t spend time in there because she makes it gross and hostile #the toilet still ain’t fixed #you know those episodes of hoarders where the toilet breaks so they start shitting in buckets and bags #we are approaching there #I should call in a complaint with the septic company she’s using #she’s 65 #I bet this was happening to her before I got here too and she didn’t say anything #this is no way to live

[sins-of-the-sea]

Abena lost her first baby. She also tried multiple times to have more with Josep, but he kept refusing.

Rashid got drunk and destroyed some public decorations.

Guy got in a fight with someone, resulting in Phoebus becoming scared for his life.

Phoebus also became my first disciple of the Seven as he came forth willingly.

And Giovanni got jealous of a child, prompting his Master to go murder happy.

..........

Am I talking about DE or Cult of the Lamb?

#yes that ALL happened LMAO #I have the screencaps to prove it #the RNG Gods must like my shit LMAO #the HILARIOUS out-of-character moments: #Abena can cook without destroying the kitchen #Guy has a freakbaby with Kallamar #and Josep and Ruixiong are lovers #[Verse: Cult of the Lamb]

[milf-harrington]

its really just one thing after another in this family (entertained)

#like literally just this week: my mums husbands ex-wife died and my sister has to go to the city for our dads court hearing #and all of this is happening while we keep up w our uncles cheating bc none of us unfriended him on facebook #i have to choose between two friends birthdays bc theyre within a month of each other and i can only afford to go up once #my cousins bank details got stolen while shes in another hemisphere sp she had to cancel her card and shit #AND the kitchen drawer is still broken #<- not as dramatic but it is annoying #captain speaks #thats not everything thats just this past 2 weeks

[non-un-topo]

Have to thank my partner for realizing before I did that talking about kids with people makes me extremely dysphoric --- whereas I thought I just had a problem and hated children or something lol

#you can't really start a sentence with 'i don't hate children--' though. #do i... like them..? ehh they're fine on their own. i just don't like to be around them for very long. they freak me out. #but mostly it's parents who freak me out. or people who aren't parents yet but kids are all they talk about #(cough) my sister-in-law. #it's not ALL she talks about but she does happen to bring children up an awful lot around me. and uhh i have bad news for her. #anyway i feel like the worst person on earth but my gut reaction when i hear people talking about kids is to just get pissed off #or roll my eyes or want to leave the conversation STAT. like my flight instinct takes over. #so it was my partner who figured out that these conversations activate my dysphoria like a nuclear bomb. #dysphoria has manifested in the form of irritation for me this year. same with depression. i just feel angry and annoyed all the time #plus a bit of despair. and it gets more intense with every passing month. #my sister has decided to work in childcare and is doing a placement. she also updates me on every single thing she does in a day - #- down to how many times she shits. i wish i was kidding. #so i get a constant feed of what these random children did in a day (yesterday a girl showed my sister her poop lol) #and it would be funny and fine if it didn't make me want to jump out of my gd skin. #happens all the time at school too. #'whaaaaaaaat you don't want BAABIIEEES?? but you'd make such a good mom!!!' #ahaha No i would not thank you. jesus christ please no thank you. please. #i'm a father figure to a few of my friends and it's the best feeling in the world. that's all i need. #conversations like that always trap me. i feel like a fucking rabbit. stuck with all the aunties in the kitchen. #so i have to be a dick and not offer to clear the plates because none of the men are clearing the plates. #just........ Gender. UGH!!