#obv my pc doesnt want that

[kraviolis]

someone liked one of my TOH headcanon posts from earlier this year and it reminded me about the specific headcanons i have for exactly what types of games the hexsquad plays and how they play them.

luz is obv an RPG fantasy fan. anything with a juicy story and a character creator and complex lore she’ll love. she definitely plays series like elder scrolls and baldur’s gate and final fantasy. she also plays final fantasy 14 and has her character as the good witch luzura and she isnt good at playing it like an mmo is supposed to be played but she loves the story. when endwalker came out luz couldnt stop sobbing to the point that camila was actually worried about her. also enjoys roguelikes such as hades or binding of isaac even if she can only play for so long before getting too frustrated. she also 100% plays genshin impact and gets into arguments online with other genshin fans.

amity is a fighting game girl. she is highly competitive and practices combos with her eyes shut. she prefers the tekken series but when luz wants to play with her they play guilty gear bcus luz likes it’s art style the most. she also likes fantasy RPGs but is way more picky about which ones she plays. she likes fire emblem. she also plays ff14 with luz and is actually good at the game (she carries luz sometimes) but isnt a huge fan of MMOs. she also is the one in the friend group with the NASA ass PC rig with a custom case and the most organized wiring you’ve ever seen with the lcd screen on the liquid cooled cpu and the azura figurine inside the case. she also does custom wraps for all her consoles.

hunter likes games that are very much like, micromanagement sims. like civ5 or cities skylines or factorio (i dont know anything about it but ive been assured by my sister that hunter plays modded factorio) but he’s also a fan of like, old school FPS games like doom and half life. i can see him doing speedruns of those games. (also he 100% once got addicted to some game like fuckin. galactic pinball or something to the point where he was staying up all night and not sleeping so he could play more pinball. in order to get him to stop playing so much and actually get some sleep, gus used illusions to make hunter think he was hallucinating about pinball and scared him into not looking at a single screen or monitor for like three weeks.)

gus is a very chill gamer but he likes games that he can sink hours and hours into. instead of playing a wide variety of games he has a select few that he dedicates his time into learning every last mechanic, but there’s also some games he just plays casually. like with pokemon games he’ll put hundreds of hours into them and carefully curate his team and does like nuzlocke runs but when he plays on his and willow’s shared-custody new horizons island he’ll just walk around and catch bugs and shit and not really worry about upgrading his house and make matching fits with his favorite villager.

willow prefers cozy games, like slime rancher or stardew valley or the aforementioned shared new horizons island, but she’s also a fucking menace about them. like she goes HARD on the min-maxing and automation and shit. while gus is wandering around their island catching fish, willow’s busy rearranging her fully upgraded mansion up in the hills and harassing any villagers she doesnt like with nets and deciding what hybrids to plant in front of her bell trees (she only has bell trees for the aesthetic. gus isnt allowed to harvest them) she would also be running the most high profit slime ranch ever but the way she treats her slimes makes hunter upset whenever he sees her just fuckin throwing them off a cliff the second they arent useful to her anymore. (meanwhile hunter names each one of his slimes and always feeds them their favorite foods and cried over casey & beatrix)

vee enjoys survival/strategic horror games, like DBD, resident evil, deadspace, or even FNAF. she’s the type of person to see the goriest most violent death in a video game ever and just go “ew yucky” then carry on. masha and her are often playing DBD together while in a call and are the most annoying pair of suvivors ever. she also likes games such as original katamari and pikmin 1 and chulip. she's also the undefeated DDR champion of the friend group.

and of COURSE they all play video games together. they all have a terraria world they play on together where they all are focused on their own little projects while still working together and are slowly building up their own village/mansion/castle/fort but luz keeps rushing ahead of everyone just bcus she's so excited and she definitely somehow ends up summoning the wall of flesh accidentally

they DID have a modded minecraft world for a few months with both tech mods and magic mods but while hunter, amity, and vee all focused on their factories and computers and technology, gus, willow, and luz fucked around with all the crazy magic and accidentally found out by blowing up a factory. this is where heightened tension between the the warlocks & the scientists began. this spark eventually turned into a full fledged war that lasted two months before it ended in mutually assured destruction to the point where no one could actually load into the server without their game crashing.

bonus: camila isnt much of a gamer with one exception-- when she was in college manny introduced her to WoW and got her hooked. it was Their Game that they played together all the time. they made cosplays of their characters together. they had several dates in game. they optimized their characters to perfect compliment one another when they ran dungeons with their guild. even since manny passed camila still plays every so often and keeps in touch with their guild members. for the longest time luz has 0 idea that camila plays WoW at all and only finds out after the whole secret nerd confession.

#krav talks #the owl house #toh #luz noceda #amity blight #hunter noceda #willow park #gus porter #camila noceda #vee noceda #lumity #toh headcanons #headcanons #eda plays candy crush. also she and lilith have a 1800 day words with friends streak going

[pictureamoebae]

Omg i feel so stupid now lol.. thank you for helping! That seems to be the problem why DOF doesnt work for me in bg3 since i’ve only tried using the regular shaders like cinematic or adof.. i’m gonna try Otis shader and see!! I have another question tho, you said it can take long like 30min to render the picture - is that the case even if you chose to not hotsample too, or only when hotsampling? And in cutscenes etc when I wanna be quick with getting a specific shot or serveral, is that possible like can i screenshot serveral times after another immediately and it renders like 2-4 pictures then, or do i have to take one - let it render - before i can move on to take a new one? Hope that makes sense. I usually smash the screenshot button sometimes cause i dont want to miss a specific scene/shot. Or get several screenshots of like the same moment. Thank you so much anyway!!!

If you want to use IGCS DoF you have to be slow and considered.

Otis' website has instructions how to use it, make sure you read them carefully and you'll understand what's involved, but the tl;dr:

Basically, the way the DoF works is completely different to a DoF shader. It moves the camera very slightly over and over again and takes a temporary screenshot each time to slowly build up the final scene (all of those temporary screenshots will be deleted once it's done). This way it gets very accurate information about what's in the scene, which is why it produces such an excellent result.

You set up a shot, you go into the addons tab and choose IGCS, click start session, and the DoF controls will come up (make sure you have the IGCS DoF shader enabled first - that shader does nothing, but it's required for the addon to work).

Then you choose your bokeh strength, and you set up your focus. You have to be very, very precise with the focus. You choose a few other things, like the shape of the bokeh, and you choose the quality. (Those settings will carry over to next time, but you'll have to set up your focus again.)

The quality is what determines how long the shot will take to render. It will tell you at the bottom how many pictures it will take. The higher the quality you choose, the more of those temporary screenshots it needs to take to get more accurate information and a better image quality. Imagine pressing the print screen key 1,000 times and how long that would take.

The lower your fps the longer it will take. If you have high fps it can fire off those screenshots nice and quick. If you have low fps each screenshot takes a bit longer. If you're hotsampling, you're going to have lower fps.

Because my PC is old, I have a quality that results in about 800 screenshots. When hotsampling and using RTGI etc that can take a long, long, long time to render.

Once the shot is rendered you take your own screenshot as normal, and then you end the session.

One thing, anon. You know you can pause cutscenes, yes? Any current dialogue animation may keep playing until that line has finished, but otherwise it will pause.

The thing about using premium tools from Otis and others, if you're just firing off cutscene screenshots hoping one will look okay you're never going to get the most out of them. They're designed for serious screenshooting (obv anyone can use them if they want). Taking your time to set up a shot, being precise about the composition, the lighting, the aspect ratio, the whole scene, is a lengthy process. I'm not especially great at composition, so my screenshots are only so-so, but I try very hard with each one, and it can take me an hour to get one I'm happy with (this is why I'm still in Act 2). Slowing down improves your skill.

#Anonymous #igcs faq #dof faq #otis camera tools faq #screenshot faq

[simsfromupthere]

do mfs legit do gameplays where they replace Sulami lots/housolds with shit like SPAS AND HOTELS!?!!?!, the only PUBLIC lots i ever replaced in Sulani with a diff builds that slightly served diff purposes were replacing one bar w a restaurant 💀 all other lots i keep the same for the sake of the world's lore it just feels off to change a world and sims that clearly heavily mirrors Polynesian islands with islands of Hawaii being labeled as the main inspirations; regions which have been highly stripped of their riches, hijacked, colonazied, treated like amusement parks for entitled rich people, contributing to land & sea pollution and who's indigenous population have had their cultures diminished, appropriated etc. I KNOW ITS a simulation game blahblahblah, i obv know Sulani doesnt exist dog, but its quite clear that the world and its the sims are heavily inspired/mirror cultural aspects of those Islands and their indigenous people, customs, spiritual believs, folklore, food, garbs etc. like the inclusion of real life roots/drinks/foods like Kava and Taro who are real life staples in many indigenous cultures within the Islands in Hawaii (not only just included within those cultures ofc but in many others as well, esp. Taro i believe), THE FACT that one of the main storylines ur sim follows in Sulani is about POLLUTION within the island with ur sim choosing to positively, neutrally or if ur playing an evil ass sim negatively contribute to the level of pollution which starts to increasingly affect the island's overall environment like can it be MORE OBVIOUS LMAO; but like doing a cartoonishly evil twirly mustache sim type gameplay i would argue is more silly and very different than actually mirrorring exactly what happens within that region in real live and the attempt to erase traditional/cultural elements or hijack them into a "themed" hotels or spas so like seeing people basically being like "u know that awful shit Hawaii people have to experience and esp. experienced during c*vid with influencers FLOCKING to their islands and leaving locals to fall ill to the point of overcrowded hospitals etc etc? hm how about i just do basically the same thing in this game i can be a damn mermaid in and replace all the original sims, do whitewashed "makeovers" that stripe character from them compared to every other world, replace existing lots and hosehold with to mid mega mansions..yeah that sounds pretty cool 😀" like idk if ppl are gonna get gen. upset about my opinion LMAO bc again this is my opinion cant control what ppl choose 2 do w their online game but at the same time is it not boring to have a life simulator where u can be a werewolf, mermaid, vampire, ghost, plantperson or whatever and choose to make it just as boring as real life is? i mean thats basically taking gen. complaints ppl have on EA making shit dull on any world that isnt meant to mirror an american surbuban neighborhood/metropolis and choose to take the few that acc have some different nack and e-gentrify them LMAO like idk dog i havent been able to play this game in some time but even though i rarely play household living esp. in Sulani ive never felt like hm this household with the island elder sims are meant to seek advice esp. spiritual from who wants to pass down generational knowledge to her next of kin would be much cooler if it was a 2 story box with walls made out of jumbo windows 😵‍💫😵‍💫 but thats just me and how i did my gameplay (in past till i get my pc fixed...one day...one day 🙏) but yeah random opinion from useless Casper the Friendly Ghost ovah here ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#non sims (?) #nonsims(?) #nonsims (?) #nonsims ? #nonsims? #nonsims kinda #non sims kinda #i guess idk #THIS IS JUST #MY OPINION #MY THOUGHTS #MY PERSPECTIVE #MY PERCEPTION #MY ANGLE #MY VISION #ETC ETC ETC ETC #me rambling #textposts #text post #textpost #text posts

[burning-sol]

i am thinking to myself "hmmm i wanna do a ranking of my fav jrwi pcs" BUT IM SO TORN?? like. what do i rank them based on??? i like them all for different reasons?????

fuck. like how do i compare my yucky gucky man rand to rumiracle me sparkling magical girl. they are disasters in difficult to immediately compare ways. some pcs i like because theyre goofy and others i like because theyve got so much going on!!! i fucking love thanatos cause he's thanatos and jay because she's a girlboss like what the fuck.

you know what FUCK IT!! CATEGORIES!!! (even some of THESE were hard to rank so yeah subject to change... some of these are nonsensical dont look too deep into it)

STRONGEST ATTACHMENTS IN CHRONOLOGICAL ORDER:

1. gillion (the original blorbo) 2. exandroth (INTENSE but took a while to set in and i hate him) 3. rand (late comer but now am an avid lover of)

HAS MY SYMPTOMS:

1. rand (gross and psychotic) 2. gillion (dissociation for realsies) 3. rumi (complete identity confusion) 4. exandroth (loud, impulsive, self centered, god complex) 5. kian (depressed in a life threatening way) 6. rolan (depressed in a slowburn way)

SAME TRAUMA:

1. gillion (wanted validation and affection to the point of killing people, hiding pain including physical ailments) 2. rand (unemployed, dyfunctional and needing to rely on others, having scary symptoms, dealing with substance abuse) 3. jay (primal fear of parental figure and trying to run away but also feeling trapped)

SAME JOYS:

1. peter sqloint (OH MY GOSH LOOK AT THAT ROCK!!! oh the BLISS of pointing at that thing and explaining the thing!!) 2. exandroth (*LAUGHS MANIACALLY*) 3. thanatos (very content with big weapon) 4. gillion (i love my friends!!! i would take a bullet for you!!!)

HEADCANON EMPOWERED:

1. exandroth (whole character is hc at this point so ranked 1st) 2. rand (schizo girl!!!) 3. kian (god what a mess) 4. angelstone (but only post-campaign p much) 5. rolan (adhd AND insert spoilers) 6. gillion (HE'S A FISH!!!!) 7. peter sqloint (making him slightly more interesting than you'd think)

JUST A GUY:

1. rolan (just a guy) 2. peter sqloint (just a guy but slightly too funny to be ranked 1st)

SAYS THEIR OWN NAME AND IT'S FUNNY:

1. thanatos 2. goobleck!! 3. GILLION!!! 4. peter SQloint 5. exandrothh

IMPERSONATED ON ACCIDENT:

1. goobleck (i had this voice during a school excursion, it was attrocious and it hurt my throat and im ranking it 1st because of the horrors) 2. gillion (not a vocal impersonation but when gillion went brooding in the fey wild i became 'evil' and just like gillion it only last a short while before i went into an emotional breakdown so yeah) 3. peter sqloint (was a very funny voice but didn't scar my psyche like the other two so ranked 3rd little guy) 4. exandroth...?

MOST EXANDROTH:

1. all the exandroth introjects (haiii i love youuu) 2. exandroth (relatively exandroth im neutral on this guy) 3. xander (called og exandroth a loser, doesnt identify with the guy so he's obv less exandroth) 4. the different interpretations of exandroth in my head that all fought each other that one time (i don't know who won)

WET AND PATHETIC:

1. chip (just look at him) 2. peter sqloint (just look at him) 3. rand (just look at him) 4. rolan (just look at him) 5. exandroth (because she is SO fucking insecure!! girl get it together!!! sopping wet beast what a mess!!!!) 6. jay (just a tad pathetic when she's not girlbossing)

ACEAROSPEC RANKS THE ATTRACTIVE PPL:

1. gillion (fuck im i love... guy actually :flushed:) 2. rand (i want to smoke with this guy and make out even if he's gross) 3. jay (if she twirled my hair in her hand i would instantly EXPLODE) 4. kian (has that sort of vibe that i associate with someone in my life who i like so yeah) 5. rumi (drop dead gorgeous but ranked last because i would be so intimidated like rumi is too perfect for me you know what i mean) 6. exandroth (analyse whatever freudian bs is happening here, idk i like an offputting guy thats also an eldritch horror and nonbinary im into that)

MOST LIKELY TO HOLD HANDS WITH:

1. jay (obvious choice, warm hand, easy to lean up against) 2. rumi (i am nervous and you are pretty help) 3. rolan (mutually scared people holding hands) 4. exandroth (i trust this guy) 5. peter (clammy hands we have clammy hands i dont even know where we're walking)

I'M SORRY I DON'T TALK ABOUT YOU MORE:

1. chip (we do not have the same trauma) 2. thanatos (why did bizly make your character like that im so mad i love you but you have been slaughtered by your creator) 3. goobleck (IM SO SORRY I LOVE YOU GOOBLECK!! EVEN IF OTHERS DONT APPRECIATE YOU!!!) 4. peter (I LOVE YOU TOO!! MY BOY!!!)

NON-HUMAN I WOULD TRUST MY LIFE WITH:

1. thanatos (structurally sound and killed gods so we're set) 2. exandroth (biased but i would feel safe with an angel eldritch horror even if she has her flaws) 3. gillion (an obvious choice!!! please protect me) 4. spoilers (oh yeah that thing is a bug you got this) 5. rumi (i socially feel safe with you but physically i would be getting nervous) 6. goobleck (i would rank you higher but i have vivid imagery in my head of you going SPLAT and i cannot shake this)

BROWN HAIRED GUYS:

1. chip (he's vintage, you know? anyways probably cares way too much abt his hair to let it be destroyed) 2. rand (he definitely has greasy hair like he needs a shower but he smells like smoke so i have a bias) 3. peter (dandruff) 4. i can imagine all these guys potentially having lice and that makes me very uncomfortable so fuck this why did i come up with this category

GIRLBOSS:

1. jay (EMBODIMENT of girlboss!!) 2. exandroth (she's a big cringefail but super girlboss) 3. kian (that one image of the anime girl in a room thats a mess with the text "MY GIRLBOSS EMPIRE IS CRUMBLING")

GRIZZLY:

1. rumi (sorry but you can't beat a classic) 2. kian stone (KIAN STONE!! *GUITAR RIFF*)

CHARLIE:

1. exandroth (legally obligated) 2. gillion (equal homicidal intent AND fish) 3. peter sqloint (he's so... sqloint) 4. goobleck (goobleck)

CONDI:

1. rolan (sad!!) 2. jay (i LOVE you girl!!)

BIZLY:

1. chip (not my cup of tea but he's pretty funny) 2. thanatos (i love him) 3. timothy rand (you know he's a guy that does weed)

FUNNIEST PONIFICATION:

1. rand (WEED PONY) 2. thanatos (because he's thanatos)

ANIME GIRLS:

1. exandroth (she deserves it) 2. rumi (they are already a magical girl) 3. gillion (gillion is out here killing evil things like a magical girl too, fucking spectacular) 4. rolan (i imagined rolan girl with a grey streak in her hair so this is too hilarious to pass up) 5. rand (one of those anime weird girls im down with that) 6. kian (also writing this down to note she should keep the abs)

MINECRAFT:

1. goobleck (you met it on a server and it was really funny and you two are now friends forever) 2. thanatos (beats your ass in every competitive game but thinks youre good enough to team with despite you feeling bad and pathetic at the game) 3. rand (has been banned several times for swearing and being stupid but every time he's back you love him more) 4. rumi (has minecraft builds that blow your mind theyre so pretty) 5. peter (has minecraft builds that blow your mind for.. other reasons. needs some improvement. i like the big rock though. this guy keeps infodumping abt and he loved the addition of andesite btw) 6. jay (she is a hacker and is flying around like no one's business and got banned and was sad posting "i thought it was funny :(( please let me back in")

HONOURABLE MENTIONS

chip. just him. idk. i think he needs it.

i should have stopped this list over half an hour ago so yeah that's it I got way too lost in this sorry....

(maybe i will do more or redo this later because it was pretty fun)

#📚 my posts #📌 thoughts

[plushiepawz]

Gush ahead lol

How did i get so luckyyyy hehehe i got such a sugary sweet and submissive whore for a plushie <3 ive never had a plushie who was a slut before :0 ive never had a plushie who begs to be fucked *literally* all the time ^^ if im not petting her or eating her out or humping her she whines and whimpers and begs until i do hehe(obv we cant always fuck, so she settles for pets, but stilll hehe so cute that she need to to be rubbed so much) shes not allowed to make herself feel good(i cant exactly say touch herself bc shes a plushie and cant rly... move? But she can astrally interact with herself/things and she COULD masturbate that way, but it doesnt matter bc shes not allowed to cum unless i make her cum)

Eeee shes sooo kind and gentle and meek <3 and she's willing to do anything i ask ^^ even if i dont ask she's willing to please <3

Hehehe i want to pin her to my bed and eat her out til she's crying 😋 hehehe then she will be in the perfect state to be fucked <3

Oh my god what if i got her a cute little cat bed for her to relax in while im not home o.o or a kennel <3 thats for the future tho, i cant spend too much money on 'pet' supplies right now lol but idk! Idk if she needs a pet bed bc she sleeps in bed with me, and i leave her with my dom when im gone(hes a pc tower so i set her on top of him) so maybes not hehe

[kouukie]

Build-Your-Room Challenge

okay so long story, short-i came up with this challenge chilling in my room and decided to share it yay! i really feel like i did an okay job so just imagine this but like waaaaaay messier. also the irl pics are from when i FIRST had my room built back in 2016 so obv it doesnt look like this anymore but U GET WHAT I MEAN! also ignore my sisters ex bf in the pics dbsajfbsdjkfsdblk

Rules: Rebuild your actual room in real life, take pics, give some fun facts about your room then tag people!

Fun Facts:

you see that chair with the pile of clothing? me and my boyfriend call it the death chair because once we put something on there we never find it again fdhbsjfsk

yep, i do my makeup on the floor in front of a mirror

my bf uses my dresser by the door as a desk for his pc fdsfdsfds

on my bfs side of the bed we use a mini fridge as the end table LMAO

i tag: @golyhawhaw, @warmsol, @oliveandoak, @plumblobz, @softpine, @astrasouls, @gloomymoood & anyone else who wants to do it!

#ts4 #the sims 4 #s4 #maxis mix #buildyourroomchallenge

[lovesickmochi]

updates and descriptions.

hey. it’s been a while since i posted on here.

there’s been a shit ton of changes in my life and i wouldn’t have it in any other way. people have come and go, but there’s so so many people that stayed. i didn’t ask them to stay, they stayed on their own. 

as much as i would love to tell them, “don’t leave my life. you’re too important for me to lose”, i feel like they already know that through my actions and my kindness towards them. 

first off, there’s my brother. he’s 27, and we’re at least a decade apart in age. but mentally and emotionally, we’re the same person. the first time he and i met, he was still a teenager and i was a baby. since then, we rarely interacted but i already knew, somehow, that he was going to be my favorite kuya. 2018, when my dad passed away, he stepped into my life as the guy that i could depend on and look up to. i’m actually an only child, so i didn’t know what it was like to have a sibling. since he stepped into my life, even when he moved to la and back here in sj, we’ve been inseparable. 

every day we interact, through instagram dms, discord dms... and we hangout almost every weekend now. even through quarantine, we’ve been hanging out. i know what you’re thinking. what’s a 17 year old hanging out with a guy who’s almost 30? well, let me answer that. he saved my life. he kept me from ending my life due to depression over the trauma that i suffered when my dad passed away. apparently, i saved his life too.. he went through a rough breakup and he was falling apart. his siblings did their best, but i truly felt that i, a teenager, should step in and be the little sister that he never had. i introduced him to my group of friends, who i now call my siblings too, well. except for the guy im kinda dating, but that doesnt matter in this paragraph.

 i wanted him to experience the last few parts of my childhood before i become an adult, since he, unfortunately, had to miss out on most of it. my friends and i love him very much and the fact that he’s now so comfortable with them, means everything to me. i love him with every part of me, and i’m thankful for everything he’s done for me. from getting me food, to giving me his old pc, to letting me spend time with him on the weekends, to letting me bother him so i could rant, to spilling all the tea with him, all that jazz. 

kuya, if you see this, i love you. 

second, there’s my older sister. 

she’s a couple of months older than kuya. it was her birthday recently and she and kuya spent the night here at my place. instead of sleeping, kuya and i were laughing at the most random shit, and ended up getting mcd’s and starbucks at 6am. meanwhile, ateh was knocked the fuck out on the living room couch. i helped take care of her with the best of my abilities and im glad that i was able to keep her happy and safe. 

she and i share a huge love for disney and it’s a huge goal for us to be able to go to disneyland together. she has this laugh that is so contagious, you wouldnt be able to stop laughing around her. like how some of my friends describe me, she’s literally a ball of sunshine. she’s the dorkiest person i know, and i can obv relate to her in so many ways. although there’s not a lot of things i know about her, i can proudly say that she’s my favorite ateh. i want to get to know her more, and i always want to hangout with her when she’s available.

ateh, if you see this, i love you.

third, there’s my other two older sisters. 

even though we’re a year and a couple days apart in age, i love them with everything. there’s the bird lady and the cat lady. 

the bird lady is older than the two of us, and she’s, different. she’s the kind of person who’s closed off to so many other people and she doesnt get the chance to experience many things that most people my age. most of the time, she’s reading or gaming or drawing, and i find it interesting that she can keep herself entertained most of the time. she’s so different from everyone else, yet she let me into her life and allowed me to be there for her. she’s strong. she’s beautiful and she doesnt know it yet. i want to be there for her when she becomes the person she wants to be.

she and i met in my freshman year in choir. she was already in concert choir two, and both choirs merged together for a concert song. when i first saw her, i may or may have not had a small crush on her. she doesnt believe me when i say that, but oh well. we ended up officially meeting in my sophomore year when i join her in concert choir two. i learned about her boundaries and i got to know her more when we were placed in the altos section together. the day when i started to really become friends with her, was when i joined a discord server with a bunch of other people that i was friends with in april 2020. it’s been over a year of me being in that server, and after so many obstacles, i get to call her my sister as well. 

in that same server, i got to meet the cat lady. she’s the witch in our friend group and she is so fucking hyper. in a good way. when i first interacted with her, i was like, “damn shes loud. i like her”. i got to know her, i became friends with her, and now i can call her my sister as well. we never met in person up until halloween 2020. apparently she met the bird lady way before i joined the server. since we met in person, i also got to know her mom. she’s strict, but she’s a very sweet person as well. 

the cat lady is a person who would do anything and everything for her friends and family no matter what gets in her way to stop her. there are many many times where i want to say that i proud of her for everything that she’s done already. but i feel that she already knows that. i know she knows that i love her. she’s someone that i want to protect, to guide her through the hard shit, to be there for when she falls apart. 

to my sisters, if you see this, i love you.

and then there’s my little brother, my bunso.

he’s something else. he’s weirdly one of the best people that’s stepped into my life and somewhat changed me for the better. he and i go to the same school, and i’ve seen him in marching band. but get this, we never met until we interacted in the discord server. we’ve seen each other but we just never met. since i met him, i got to meet him in person halloween 2020, along with the cat lady. there’s honestly not a lot that i can say about him, since i still have yet to get to know him more, but what i can say is that i’m glad that i can call him my brother. he, along with everyone else i mentioned in this post, is someone i want to always be there for no matter what, to support and love through everything. 

to my bunso, if you see this, i love you.

~

to everyone i mentioned;

i know that i dont always say i love you. i know that i dont always show my appreciation for you. i know that im not always the best person.

but.

here i am now. showing you that i appreciate every single one of you. thank yu for coming into my life and making sure that i dont fall apart. thank you for making laugh and smile and feel complete. thank you for keeping me safe in your hearts, and trusting me to do the same. thank you for hanging out with me, for interacting with me, for meeting me and seeing me as a good person. thank you for keeping me in check, making sure that im okay, that i at least laugh once or more throughout the day. 

seriously. thank you for everything that you’ve done for me and more. 

-

yes i cried making this.

i love you.

~ mochinyx_

[solasan]

3, 6, 9, 12, 15, 18, 21 + june! 💛

detective asks

3. how did they get the promotion to detective and what do they think about it?

it was kinda forced on her; despite her Past, june is objectively the best officer wayhaven has, bcos shes very smart and good at deduction, and also she likes to get work over and done with quickly so she can watch keeping up with the kardashians at her desk, so she has a high like... rate of closing cases ?? 

she wasn’t happy abt it tho; she doesn’t appreciate having more responsibility, for one thing, or more work, but also this...... wasnt what she wanted to do with her life, and even tho shes not sure what she does want to do with her life, the reminder that she’s kinda stuck here now sucks

6. what’s their relationship to bobby?

her absolute garbo ex-boyfriend. ive decided fuck canon and am making their relationship my own tho (bcos theres no way bobby’s getting into mit are u kidding me ???) so. they got together right after june came back from college (so abt four years before canon), and it was a mostly fwb-type relationship w no formal expectation of exclusivity, only things got pretty complicated pretty fast and bobby started shitting all over her self esteem and it was just... bad. so june dumped him lmao fuck that guy

9. what do they think of the supernatural?

oof. complicated. initially she was very excited; she’s been big into comic books since she was a kid, and she loves sci-fi and fantasy too, so it was like a dream come true. but then the whole murphy thing happened and genuinely traumatised her, and even tho she’s very good at hiding how she feels wrt to that whole situation, she’s noticeably more cautious when it comes to supernaturals now. not the unit tho she trusts them

12. what is their highest (professional) stat and why?

science/technology is at 84% bcos june is an actual computer genius. like, she went to mit and did computer science, and also she rebuilt an old pc in their shed when she was like 11. i love her. deduction is her second highest tho bcos shes Smort

15. what do they think of unit bravo? how has that changed throughout the story?

hsjdkcfhsdj in the beginning she fucking hated all of them. that was mostly risidual resentment from her shitty childhood tho; she saw them as the people her mom had been consistently choosing over her for years (tho obv she didnt know quite how many years) so she was pissed. but also she didnt like them trying to take over her investigation, and her and adam butted heads a lot. she has pretty high friendship points with adam, morgan, and farah by the end of book 1, and i dont rly know how that happened. her winning personality maybe ???

by book 2 she trusts them tho. her and farah snapchat each other all day every day theyre very close. also her and adam’s arguing has become mostly joking, even if she does think his whole ‘humans are weak’ schtick is bullshit. nate has begun his informal adoption, bcos he always wanted a little sister, but june hasnt rly realised that yet. even morgan doesnt rly mind having her around, bcos she’s entertaining

18. what do they think of douglas?

she thinks he’s pretty dumb but harmless. he doesnt have a crush on her bcos she didnt go out w tina (bcos i wanted the Drama of bobby turning up at her apartment) so she doesnt have a massive opinion on him, like she doesnt rly care ??? she lets him keep his phone and play his games during book 1 tho bcos shes like eh who cares. she also very vaguely sympathises w him for having a shitty dad, bcos she knows what shitty parenting does to u, but she doesnt think abt their parallels that much

21. their favourite/comfort food?

probably pizza. she loves pizza a whole lot. but a good comfort food is also --- excuse the cliche --- donuts. she used to eat donuts in her cop car like AND WHAT ?

#chuckhansen #answered #ch: june lovelace #thank u sm for asking airika 💖💖

[chiaki-c]

002 WORST SHIP, OBVS!!!

obvs!!!!!!!!! OBVS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

002 | Send me a ship and I will tell you:

When I started shipping them

summer 2013 according to my tumblr posts (yes i did check)….so since i was sixteen………….damn…..

My thoughts

they are So Special!!! like idk if it had to do with me being sixteen (probably) (and, again, damn) but i can safely say ive never felt So Much for any other ship. and to this day thinking about them fills me with gushiness.  

What makes me happy about them

broadly, the dynamic of wildly competent, shrewd, business oriented kusanagi izumo falling head over heels for all around disaster suoh mikoto, staying by his side since they were like 17 and doing everything in his power to keep him alive (short of actually telling him “i do not want you to die” ofc!!!! bc they dont do that). then i love their lil moments of banter and the way they juuuuusssst fit each other so well!! the way they seem to be shaped around each other’s habits and ways of doing things!!!!! also i was just thinking the other day that this might be the single cutest thing that has ever happened

oh really??????? cause you can tell can’t you????!!! do u also share water bottles other than cellphones and living arrangements??????!!!!!! like, who hasn’t met this couple?? 

like if you giggle happily every time

What makes me sad about them

goes without saying but they deserved better etc etc!!!!!! to be 100% honest i dont dislike the tragic nature of it all buuuut it’s. hard :( especially in the face of gora constantly rubbing it in that izumo is not!! over it!!! which!!!! same!!!!!!!!!!!

Things done in fanfic that annoys me

that only mirai is writing it!!!!!!! :(( in all seriousness….there’s not enough that i could get tired of an overused trope and what little is there is all beautiful and tragic and sexy!!!!!

i remember reading an italian fanfic of them and i got irritated that mikoto kept casually calling him izumo in front of everyone. that’s for when they’re ~intimate~ u silly!!!

Things I look for in fanfic

fanfic

My wishlist

me getting the motivation to write/finish writing all those wips i have floating around my pc since, u guessed it, 2013. wish that modern aus/mikoto survies aus were a more popular thing bc it is genuinely all i need 

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other

for izumo i love him w/ totsuka and the ot3 obvs (if it counts? since mikoto is included). except them, i suppose awashima although i never feel enough about them that i can go beyond casual shipping. but their marriage would be luxurious and blindingly beautiful bc they’re both so rich and cool and hot that it couldn’t not work. and, tbh, all of these sentences apply to kusanagi/munakata as well. kusanagi/shiotsu is also a possibility. they can commiserate….after….. :( 

mikoto/munakata is also very real and also always on the brink of being a thing anyway, so easy pick. 

My happily ever after for them

mikoto somehow doesnt die and becomes powerless, anna becomes king and season 2 happens as is, just with (even) less izumo bc he’s busy with a recovering, very cranky, very unhappy mikoto. when the slate is destroyed they elope somewhere, izumo regularly sends updates to anna and co in the form of photos of mikoto sleeping in various locations. they regularly come around for anna’s birthdays and other festivities and in due time fully slip into the weird uncles aesthetic. the end!!!

#mikoizu #defeateddetectives #thank u mirai as always for poking me abt them #replies

[lechet]

gay rambling about the gf

i love my girlfriend very much even though she teases me for not being able to say anything even remotely saucy either outloud or in text without succumbing to embarrassment thus rendering me being reduced to the most round-about way of being a top with her 

also she doesnt mind that im very quiet sometimes and i have to constantly remind myself of that - her not minding - and i trust her a lot to come to me w/ anything instead of sitting stewing on it and being mad and thats a Lot for me ive never had a relationship with such good and open communication and its hard to get use to but in a good way 

n shes very respectful of everything and really fucking adorable just,,, fuck,,, yall have seen her, shes so cute. not just appearance either shes so cute in general. just randomly sends me pictures “look at this of my day!!” holy fuck. thats so cute. its so cute ur so excited about it. even if its little shit

sent her bathbombs out of the blue the other day not b/c it was her birthday really but just because she mentioned she liked bath stuff and i never put two and two together before like she takes care of herself obv she likes bath stuff?? anyway. it was cute. i fuckin didnt notice it was called “feeling smitten” that was 100% random and it worked out amazing and she was just real happy with it 

played stardew valley w/ her finally last night she is on Missions like crazy i laughed so hard at one point i cried cos im an idiot. i dont ever really play games with people like that. i dont do multiplayer. i was scared it wasnt gonna work because im so quiet when i play games USUALLY, but it was actually?? pretty okay with her?? im still reeling. got me lowkey excited for everything else. got a whole ass new computer to play PC games. 

you would think looking at her and then looking at me like that is two totally different beasts that won’t work at all but it’s working swimmingly i feel like, i actually dont sit here all day every day constantly worried about shit like 

god this is just such a nice refreshing way of having a relationship im not paranoid over things i just trust her a whole lot to be open with and to me and i can actually function like a person in it. like if im worried im being too quiet ill just ask her if its okay and she’ll “yeah its fine ilu” and im always reassuring myself with the thought that if she ever so happens to get to feeling like she needs attention shell just say that instead of,, god, instead of just sitting there and being mad and upset and not saying anything, do you know how wild that is? i love that. i love being told shit. i love that she does that. shes so patient with my dumb ass.

i dont have to constantly be texting her and she’s not passive-aggressively sending me texts asking me why im not talking to her. i just think about her a lot of my day and i can just send a random stupid piece of shit comment to her whenever i think about her. just a little fact about my day. hey i thought about you heres whats happening to me today.

and i love when she sends me that shit too, she does the same thing. just little snippets about whats going on. pictures. not necessarily needing commentary just wanting to share ourselves with each other. 

zzz zzzzzzzzzzzzz anyway

yeah im the (soft) dom/top in the relationship so jot that down

@plumppeachprincess  i hope this isnt too rambly

#jezebel

[unravelling-the-world]

today i dreamt that i was travelling with a cute girl in a train. the stations seemed a bit off and different from all the stations i've ever been. After a bit, things changed and i was in a trip with all my highschool classmates. I didn't have my signature backpack and I had forgotten my PC, so I was sad bc I wanted to play sims and i couldn't do my genshin impact missions and that worried me. we were at a mall, but it had weird shops? I bought something to eat, but I don't remember what. we were wearing the school uniform for some reason. I was only interacting w one or two people who are my irl friends, and when we arrived at the hotel there were some big PC with monitors, they seemed old but they worked, so I set mine up. there was one for each student. when the teacher arrived, idk who she was, but she was calling roll and misgendering me on purpose. irl i never came out at school but all my classmates knew lol and they all respected it and used he/him pronouns and called me "hinata" (at least when i was present, and thats enough for me) In the dream, I was waiting for genshin impact to download on that pc,bc i knew it was somehow connected to my brain and i could change my appearance/skills like you do in game but irl. she misgendered me one last time when it got downloaded, so i got up and told her to stop. im quiet and shy, so all my classmates gasped, and she said "how can you be a man when you have so many accesories and are wearing that?(referring to the uniform,but it was obligatory in dream) and i told her "first of all, its not like a have a choice but to wear this shitty uniform, and the fact that i have accesories doesnt mean anything, the way you see gender roles are awful, every individual person gets to express their gender the way they want to" and she seemed mad, but i was more mad, so (idk how but i kind of pressed a button,like in-game) and my appearance and skill changed to kaeya's, and the teacher's desk was wet for some reason so I froze her and then killed her w one strike,but irl she kinda exploded and like...blood came out. a lot of it. the desk was covered, some in the wall, i got some as well obv, and some small drops fell on the closest classmates. some looked horrified and some looked happy. i did not care, and i woke up after this

#hinadreams

[scarlethallow160]

after playing d&d we watched the first season of st/ranger things in prep for s3 n i was kinda dreading it cuz a friend in the group and i had talked abt it before and she’s one of those that absolutely loves s/teve and acts like he never did anything wrong n i had said i didnt really understood people that acted like that while only crucifying j/onathan and im not defending what he did but shes immediately like “oh so u think what he did was ok??” like that wasnt what i was saying? i just dont care about steve that much or understand why people will do that with characters sometime. and then when the part was coming up of course she starts “jokingly” shittalking and it legitimately pissed me off cuz i fuckin hate when ppl put words in my mouth n she was telling the others that i defended j/onathan. and yet all the times s/teve did/said shitty stuff she never acknowledges but ofc when the time comes that he finally starts becoming a better character she’s like “oh my precious baby boi!!!” there was a part where i obv made a dumb joke not meant to be taken seriously, but she had to act all high n mighty and imply that i supported something shitty like it seriously pisses me off when people misinterpret what i say/put words in my mouth.

like my old friend group was emotionally exhausting bc they were always talking abt themselves but i ultimately didnt have to worry about seeming “too pc” around them, yet w this one besides the one friend with the str/anger things debacle, sometimes im afraid of seeming too much like an “s/j/w” when im with people where im unclear on what theyre stances are and dont want to be “That Person”, but then ofc when that happens someone else is so quick to call me on something that they misinterpreted/assumed like im the problematic one. like one dude is highkey one of those defensive-ass “men/inists” n the other is a whi/te girl that doesnt care about problems that dont involve/affect her yet the friend only calls me out over something i never said and a dumbass joke obv not meant to be taken seriously that is far from being the worst thing anyone in this group has said (the meninist dude lowkey made a r*pe joke that our ex-dm played off on but sure, im the only bad person here)

#its one of those things where u meet someone/a group of ppl #and ur like wow i really like them they're cool! #then begin realizing the more u hang out w them the more u realize this was a Mistake

[itain]

long.. complaint post essentially

id say rant but its less anger than just.. despair i guess

oh god i feel at this moment.... very hopeless

ive just kinda been frozen since i got home,,, talked some, ate dinner, etc... but there is so much i need to get done but i {feel i} cant do until i finish one thing in particular...... like so many rows stacked up in tetris that all get cleared with the one block that fits them all... i mean perhaps nobody thinks its that big a deal,,, idk......... i just feel like i cant breath... literally it feels like my chest is a bit tight just thinking of all this shit stressing me... like once i finally get one thing done turns out its not done and i had 10 more things to do as well... i feel that in the time it takes for me to take one step, i’m pushed back like 20 paces....

you know when you have so much stressing you that you play games or just fucking fill your mind with static to pretend nothing is wrong?? you waste time having fun while the stress just looms next to you all day every day?? thats like my usual state of being.... and here is the other end.. where things come crashing down, and im panicking, and im frozen because i can never solve things, i have to find an order in the chaos, and at this point everything immidiately turns negative and i wonder why im even alive rn... i like that ive written this much and still remained so vague.......... SIGH

uh lets see i mean its mostly all just financial shit

the biggest block rn is the fucking gym... gee am i getting so damn sick of this shit.... i am ready to sccream over this fucking gym...... ive been trying to quit almost since ive started... i FINALLY send the shit i need to on time..... and they didnt do it???? so i need to call them tomorrow asking why they havent drafted the quitting fee, and im sure theyll ask if i did the fucking secure mail where i get notified when they recieve it, and no i didnt bc i dont have money, and they will come up with some bullshit excuse reason why i cant quit still, and at that point ill want to scream and cry, i fucking wish that could solve my problem??? why cant i be like my dad who yells at the customer service people on the phone till they solve everything for free???? why cant i ask that of him now?? thoughts like these... who let me be an adult, how will i not get fucked out of shit because im a fucking pushover who just wants to please everyone and be polite.....

then lets see.......... the student loans..... the big issue with this... i mean 50 bucks a month starting in october... i mean we will fucking see if i have the money... considering im already drowning now, i fucking doubt, but my biggest concern is the logistics... what amount am i paying back? how do i know that its set up to draft out of my account??? questions i dont want to ask anyone because i’ll feel like a fucking idiot and i’ll just cry about it instead pls.... so i’ll just rot till october tyvm...

and what else... my biggest fear is the combination of these two, that i cant quit the gym and im paying like 75 fucking bucks a month for two things that have made my life nothing but hell...

but i think the other biggest stressor is the small shit adding up rn... for like 2+ months (i havent really counted but i know its been a long time now) my phone isnt working without a charger.... and to even get it replaced for a working model is like 75 bucks.. id buy some shit phone but thats 20 bucks that can be spent towards surviving... like, see above bills.... oh and id switch to an old phone of mine to even ask if thats possible would fucking cost money bc metro pcs wont answer shit without seeing money first ugh.. its made all communication and leisure time way more difficult as im chained to the wall and only a few short times a day for either.... so setting aside that, ill just fucking pray for that for christmas orz the other “small shit”...... oil needs to be changed on the car,,, means i have to find some time to buy oil, figure out what fucking oil to buy, where to buuy, if i have the money, etc... communicate with coworker friend and get a day we both have off so her friend?? can change my oil for me for free, bless.... but thats not even possible till i get back from my vacation.... so a week or two..... then we have the registration sticker that needs to be updated before september,,,, 80 to 85 bucks my dad said... that obv cant be updated with a code on my car so again, it has to wait a couple weeks... even driving with a code on my car gives me such anxiety...

so moving on to.... i guess the tiny shit that isnt as big problems but only have become such because im mega stressed..... thought i had finished the laundry... found another bag orz... apartment much more disorganized than i thought.. you know how order in the home gives a certain peace of mind.... and vise versa.... bf and i are fucking depressed and at least i want pills but that is a faraway dream rn, booking a fucking appointment, much less having $$ for a perscription????? trying to work out then losing motivation so quickly as always... but because i want to dedicate my energy towards cleaning this place... which just somehow never happens.... just never seeing a way to save money??? ive been so damn frugal and i still cant pay my bills and here i am with more bills, meanwhile my dad posting his stupid fucking bullshit on facebook about “choose happiness” like money doesnt have a fucking say in the matter.... and all the low self esteem and negative thoughts that accompany all this situation... wanting to “do something nice because ive been having a hard life/week” and then still feeling like shit, or feeling guilty for having spent anything then complaining about money...

i guess last thing i wanted to touch on..... the vacation... bfs mom takes me with them on their family vacations.... honestly i feel like the goth in the prep family? like im too much drama to make them happy.. ive been pretty open with her about my feelings towards my dad and stepmom, mostly bc she is super giving and nice and agrees with me against them.. and recently ive been more open, like about my depression even... and like... she even said she would get me a scrip... like....... i just.. this kind of thing, the vacations, the covering my half of rent, even while she doesnt have a job rn (she is rich but tighter on $$ now so) but i feel so guilty accepting it.. like if i justify it, then arent i being too greedy?? but i literally cant refuse it, or i’d be on the street right now so..... but i just feel like she owns me... if i were her daughter i think id be more okay but like... if john and i break up she put like, thousands into SOME CHICK.... i feel like in the far future i’ll need to write her a check too;; i told bf i wasnt rly feeling the vacation... of course because of the neverending drama surrounding me (yeah yeah im not saying drama is drawn to me, yeah i create it okay) this will just kinda strain more the relationship and they’ll all think i have some issue with them or smth that i gotta ruin every family trip... so i’ll just go.. but like... self esteem is out the window, so i wont want any pics.. i doubt bf will either, we both have gained so much weight, and i have perma acne that gets worse by the day, and i cant even afford to get my hair cut or colored again so its just this grown out mess.... then in the other respect of a vacation... i think ill just be worried the whole time about my finances... i mean i wont be able to spend money on anything so -shrugs- i get to just look at a bunch of nice things, thinking “i wish” or feel the guilt of her wanting to get it for me.... oh god yeah and same things w my friends.... i want to hang with them?? but i dont have money for shit??? and every time they pay for smth i die inside bc when will i even be able to pay them back its the same thing but theyre poor TT

anyways i guess thats most of it..... i guess im feeling tired maybe ill just pass out watching some youtube videos.... i was wanting to get a drawing done but ~*the cycle of feeling like shit*~ will occur worse then...

#negative #long post #dont read #sorry i exist #i wish i didnt too #the shit thing is even writing this out and posting im like... #its like there is two of me and one is saying you just want attention.. you want pity. you want money. #well fuck i want happiness but ill get what i can i guess