no you know what? I can’t believe this and it definitely surprised me but if I could bring one show back from the dead (with the possibleee exception of odaat) it’d be diary of a future president. and I’ve had to sit through every show I follow or love be cancelled for the past three years so there are a LOT of them. this show just never failed to make me smile and felt like a warm warm hug and made me miss the childhood I didn’t have and it’s just so fucking special to me and @ginawylie you ruined me by introducing me to it only to have my heart broken yet again 😭 I’m still not over the doafp shaped hole in my heart and I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again doafp getting cancelled on my birthday will forever be my villain origin story
i think my laptop is finally dying (after 12 years!?) so here I am back on my phone. Maybe typing with my thumbs will slow me down.
It's day 8. Driving home from house-sitting, I had so many fantasies: I could buy a bottle of wine, sneak another cigarette and not tell anyone, get a pint of some liquor to minimize calories, SH high on my thigh where even a swimsuit would cover, binge Freddy's or Chipotle or just get ice cream, save money and just snort a bunch of Benadryl once home (fewer calories, too). Revisited my plan(s), realized I would want to unbuckle my seatbelt before wrecking - that detail had never occurred to me. It's disturbing that the fantaplans have continued to evolve, but I'm here. Day 8 without smoking, safely home with no booze, eating a reasonable and balanced dinner, and will probably only take 75mg PO. Because I'm not ready (willing?) to force my death on other people, and I know I won't feel this way forever, and I don't want to make more of a mess for my future self to clean up. So I'm white-knuckling.
I'm sad I've shared my primary blog with my ex bc now I can't talk about him OR her there. Meanwhile they're both love-bombing me and I cried so hard on my birthday that I had a Carrie-level nosebleed all over my aunt's guest bedding and I just want to relapse and binge and self-destruct and hide. I almost kicked the dog several times. I'm not happy, I'm not good, I'm not okay.
ODAAT, motherfucker. Not doing shit tonight - I'll deal with the rest later.
Well Odaat, I was doing so good losing weight, then I decided to weigh myself before scheduled, and I've gained 3 lbs. Overall, I've lost 12 lbs since starting in March, so not horrible. Still a little discouraging, but I'm hanging in there.
12lbs since March is AMAZING! Just keep on the right track and don’t let this discourage you. If you’ve gained 3lbs because you got off track with nutrition then that’s totally okay. You’ll probably lose it fairly quickly getting back on track. But if you’re doing everything right and you’ve gained 3lbs but aren’t sure why, don’t get frustrated thinking it’s not working. Because the number on the scale doesn’t tell the whole story. Here’s an example of that…
I started really working on getting healthy again about 3 1/2 weeks ago, April 10. I completely cut out sugar/junk food/fast food…all of that stuff. And I’ve done the math to where I’m in a 500-1000 calorie deficit every day. Plus I’m walking 3-5 miles or doing some sort of half hour workout 5 or 6 days a week. And with all that, I’ve only lost 3lbs — including the water weight of losing all of that initial sodium. And for my body 3lbs isn’t that much because I’m about 40-50lbs overweight. If I didn’t know how this worked I would’ve looked at that number and said “Only 3lbs after a month of hard work, what the heck?! That’s barely anything. I quit, not worth it!” But those 3lbs don’t tell the whole story. Because I’ve gone down almost two notches on my belt. I’m able to wear shorts that were way too tight to put on 4 weeks ago. I’m feeling much more comfortable in medium sized shirts again versus large. And I can see a difference in pictures of April 8 (left) vs today (right)…
So I’ve probably lost a good amount of fat, but because of all the exercise my body is retaining water and I’ve surely gained some muscle. So that’s why I take the number on the scale with a grain of salt and focus much more on the other things that truly show whether or not I’m losing fat. Those are the things that help keep you motivated, the scale not as much.
Please don’t get discouraged and give up, because you’re doing a FANTASTIC job! Weight goes up and down constantly, so just ignore it if you’re doing everything you’re supposed to. And if you get off track and slip up every once in a while, you’re always able to get back on when you’re ready. This is a lifestyle change, not just something you do for a few months and then go back to bad eating habits when you reach your goal. It’s about creating good habits that you can maintain forever. You’re still less than you were when you started, so you’re on the right track! And I’m so incredibly proud of you ❤️
@tree-gelbman your tags as always make me glad to gif alvareider and also stubbornly glad the odaat fandom ever existed because they can try to make soulmates behave like siblings but they can’t take us away from us
I love One Day At A Time don’t get me wrong but for me I don't think any tv lesbian humor will top Hanna Marin asking "is this a gay thing?" and Emily Fields replying with "no, it's a brain thing"
“The bigger person shouldn’t have to be the kid.” - In far too many shows, I have seen the worst of parents treat their kids like crap in uncountable ways, and always what usually happens is that the parent does one nice thing, and that’s supposed to redeem their entire character, to show that oh yes! They cared all along! They’re actually a good person! Now the child has no reason to be mad at them, because after all, family is family! The child must push aside any remaining trauma and wholeheartedly forgive them or now they are the bad person! The child has to acknowledge that their parent has changed and therefore deserves praise for it!
On this season of ODAAT, Elena’s father did change. He accepts her for being gay now, he allows and encourages her to be herself, but she still feels hurt and betrayed by what he did and not all is forgiven. The show allows her to acknowledge this pain and shows her anger to be deserved. Her brother, Alex, even supports and encourages her to let it all out in a safe space, rather than disapproving of her feelings and telling her that she should just acknowledge that her father is a different person now and forgive him, like what another sitcom might have done. But this is not the show that ODAAT is. And I am eternally grateful for that.
Since I blocked the marvel and the Shadowhunters HT (bc spoilers) my dash is very lonely so pls reblog if you post one specific or various of those fandoms: