#oh yeah did i mention the Designated Role you get in school lol that's fun for literally nobody who ever attended school schools suck

[californiannostalgia]

seems to me like zac oyama is repping some experiences of asian american schoolkids, defined by such hits like 'regulate your anger,' 'communicate clearer to deliberately misunderstanding assholes,' and 'perpetual sense of unbelonging in both the american part and the asian part of your life.'

#dimension 20 #fantasy high #fhjy #zac oyama #gorgug thistlespring #great stuff! I can't watch that shit for entertainment #the asian american strugglebus... feeling like an alien hahahahahahahahahahahahahaahha #this is just surface level ​personal experience ofc like maybe I had a very specific version of childhood #oh yeah did i mention the Designated Role you get in school lol that's fun for literally nobody who ever attended school schools suck #but education is good! try not to drop out or at least get geds they help college is a good thing check out crash course on youtube #panic rambling in the tags tonite #my thoughts #talking about my asian-ness makes me so nervous my westernized brain is yelling 'shut up! shut up!' #I enjoy gorgug being rage-ful as a treat #asian things

[staytheb]

Seriously

Pairing: SKZ’s Chan x OC [Kierra] Genre: slice of life, slight fluff Word Count: 3,475 Summary: Kierra always thought Chris was playing and never took his flirting as something serious. She always played it off and now he wants to let her know that with her it was always serious.

Warning: curse words, i guess, that’s mainly about it lol

oh look, another ficcy featuring Bang Chan. it’s not a bad thing, but it just sucks when i picture him in the role instead of another idol, but oh well. at least it’s something than nothing. anyways, this was also part of another story with a different male in mind and to me the original person just didn’t fit anymore so Bang Chan came to be instead. but yeah, for the title, it was just something that came to mind and fits it then whatever else i can think of for it instead. anyways, that’s about it and so happy reading and kthxbai, Admin Lia~

revised 9.13.20

Kierra stared up at the Department of Music building before following Chris inside with a confused look.

"Why am I here again?" She asked while following him up the stairs.

"You promised to help me out when I asked you a few days ago." Chris reminded her as she groaned.

"Chris, you do know that you had called me at like four in the morning to ask me that, right?"

"Yes, Kierra, I do, but you're the one that accepted the request I made at four in the morning."

"Ugh. I blame the girls for my lack of sleep lately." Kierra muttered before glaring at him.

"After this is over, feel free to lose my number."

Chris laughed at her serious, but not really serious words. Kierra frowned with a rolled of her eyes as she asked him on why she was there again.

"You're gonna help me out." Chris answered, but didn't further explained on what kind of help exactly.

"Okay, but I'm not majoring in music."

"I know, but you're minoring in Journalism, right?"

"Creative Writing, but I don't see where you're getting at though."

"You'll see."

Chris glanced at her with a secretive smile before arriving on the designated floor.

"Here we are."

Kierra continued following Chris until he stopped just outside one of the rooms at the furthest end of the hall.

"I had asked one of the department professors for permission to use this room solely as my studio when I first started since it wasn't being used throughout the years." Chris explained as he pulled out a key and inserted it in to the door before opening it. "Ladies first."

Kierra hesitated before entering as she shot the male a cautious look. Chris cast her a playful smile as he motioned again for her to enter first.

"I'm not gonna do anything to you, Kierra, unless you want me to."

Kierra scoffed at his flirty words while scrunching up her face as she backhanded his stomach area. Chris let out a small grunt from her small action.

"Yeah, right. In your dreams, Chris." She remarked while walking passed him and into the room.

"Only if you're there, too, Kierra." He countered with a laugh and actually dodged another hit from the female who seemed slightly flustered, but didn't say anything.

Kierra turned away and was amazed by the recording studio like room. Despite it's small size and simple style and equipment, the room had a nice charm to it. So lost in her thoughts of observing the room, she didn't hear Chris calling for her attention.

"Kierra?"

Nothing.

"Kierra?" Chris asked louder which got the female's attention this time around.

"Hmm?" She hummed while facing him. "What?"

"You ready to help me out?" He asked while indicating for her to take a seat at the empty chair next to him.

She glanced at the chair before walking closer and sat upon it while placing her backpack onto the floor. Kierra then shot Chris a curious look.

"Honesty, I know nothing about music and I don't know why you want me to help you out when there's Jisung and Changbin that do music with you. Like all the time, bro. Even BamBam and Yugyeom can help you out, too. Oh, and those three girls you hang out with, too. Um, Sana, Chaeyoung, and Jamie. Why do you need me?"

"I just wanted a new perspective." Chris answered nonchalantly while messing around with his music stuff. "Besides, Linna mentioned that you used to write poetry and your own lyrics to instrumental beats back in the day."

"Yeah, I used to, but that was like back when I was in late middle school to early high school." Kierra informed while giving him a suspicious look. "Why would Linna mention that to you, anyways?"

"We were just talking and it somehow popped up somewhere in the conversation."

"Y'all better not be talking about me."

"And if we are?"

Chris gazed at her with a playful look as Kierra scowled at him.

"Then she better not be saying anything personal."

"Does this personal thing have anything to do with me?" He probed with a hint of a playful tone as Kierra tried to not seem phased by it. "No."

"Is that so?"

"Yes."

"Are you sure?"

"I'm gonna hit you if you don't stop."

"Stop what?"

Chris continued to play around with Kierra and he dodged her hand that came out to smack him. He laughed upon hearing her cursed him when she missed.

"Gosh, you're so annoying. Anyways, Chris, hurry up and let's get this thing started and over with so I can leave."

Kierra changed the topic with a slight flustered expression as she gave Chris a pointed look to get a move on. Chris chuckled before grabbing his mouse and moving it about. Kierra had a sudden realization when her eyes watched the monitor.

"I can't read music notes or whatever they're called."

"You can count paces, right?" He asked her as she nodded.

"Yeah, but I can't sing either."

"You can hum, right?" He asked with a smile as she reluctantly nodded.

"Yes. Ugh, there's no escaping, is there?"

"Nope. You're already here and you already promised to hang out, too."

"I'm totally deleting your number when this is over." Kierra grumbled as Chris chuckled before handing her some pieces of paper.

"You'll be fine, Kierra. Besides, this should be really fun."

"Says you, but alright. What do you want me to do?"

~~~~~~~~

"I don't think this is working out like I thought it would have." Chris commented after coming up with nothing for the past two hours.

"No shit, Sherlock." Kierra deadpanned as she's been trying to let him know that since the beginning.

Chris eyed her tiredly, but a small smile graced his face.

"I'm sorry, but at least you didn't try to beat me up within those two hours."

"Oh, I wanted to, but then I didn't want your fangirls to come after me though."

"What? I don't have fangirls."

"You literally have a fanclub on campus, Chris."

"No I don't, Kierra."

"Are you serious? There's a fanpage on the school's website dedicated to you."

One side of Chris' brows quirked up interested as he cast Kierra an amused look.

"And how would you know that, Kierra?"

"It's not what you think, Chris." Kierra explained while leaning away as she hadn't realized how close she had gotten to the male over time.

"So tell me what you think I was thinking then."

"Um, no. Don't feel like it."

"That's what you always say."

"Because that's how I always feel."

"I beg to differ."

"Yeah, like you know."

"Oh, but Kierra, I do." Chris cooed as he leaned closer to her and she shied away from him with a hard look in his direction.

"Stop."

"Stop what?" He asked playing clueless.

"You know what I mean."

"I don't though. Could you help remind me again?"

"Um, no. Don't feel like it."

Kierra smirked as Chris rolled his eyes before catching the time on the wall. He turned his attention back onto the female with a casual expression.

"How about we go grab some late lunch slash early dinner?"

Kierra's eyes glanced at the same clock to check the time before casting the male an apologetic look.

"Sorry, I can't."

"Oh, why not?"

"I have another class to go to in a little bit."

"Oh, then we can grab dinner afterwards."

"No way. I get out super late. So yeah, no dinner for tonight. Sorry."

She picked up her backpack and stood up to leave, but Chris stopped her.

"Wait. That sounds like a 'maybe, next time' kinda offer to me."

"And what if it does?"

She faced him with an amused look.

"Then does that mean I can take you up on that rain check then?"

"Yeah, sure, whatever, Chris. You can take it however you wanna take it." She dismissed not really believing that Chris would be serious about it.

"Wait. I thought your late classes were on Mondays and Wednesdays."

"No. That was last semester. This semester's Tuesdays and Thursdays."

"Oh, well now I know."

"Right. Anyways, good luck with your music composition. Also, please do not ask for my help again. I don't think it did any good on your end."

"Although quite true, but it helped with other things."

"Like what?"

Chris didn't answer her and just shot her a secretive smile. She rolled her eyes while giving him the peace sign.

"Alright. I'm out. See you never."

Chris didn't get a chance to bid her a goodbye as Kierra hurried on out of there. Chris chuckled before gathering up the pieces of paper that Kierra had written on.

"Maybe I should've suggested something else instead of this."

~~~~~~~~

Chris was waiting for Kierra to get out of her class after getting the information from Linna. When he finally saw her walked out of the building, he was surprised to see his other friend, Allen, walking alongside her casually. Kierra was happily talking to Woojin and Chris found it weird as she was never like that with him. He shook that thought away while jogging over to the pair and greeted them as he interrupted their conversation.

"Kierra. Allen."

"Oh, Chris, what's up." Allen acknowledged his friend while Kierra just smiled and didn't say anything.

The trio walked with Allen in the middle as he and Chris conversed quietly while Kierra remained quiet not bothered by Chris' presence.

"I didn't know you had the same late class as Kierra." Chris mentioned as Allen cocked his head. "Wait, you didn't? Didn't I tell you?"

"No, Allen, you did not."

"Oh, my bad. So what are you doing here?"

Chris moved his head passed Allen to glance over at Kierra who wasn't even paying attention to them before returning his gaze onto his friend.

"You know that thing I was trying to work on, well, you're like kinda in the middle of it. Literally."

Chris motioned with his head to indicate it towards Kierra for Allen to comprehend his meaning. Allen discreetly followed and got what his friend meant.

"Oh? So you're finally acting upon it then?" Allen mused as Chris nodded. "Yes. Yes, I am."

"Damn about time. Took you long enough."

"I know. Anyways, what are the two of you doing walking together though and in this direction?"

"I always walk Kierra back to her dorm building since it's so late and I gotta make sure she's safe."

"Oh, so that's why you always come back late."

"Yup." Allen glanced at Chris with a knowing look before speaking. "So, do you wanna walk Kierra back instead?"

Before Chris could respond, Kierra spoke out to them having already walked further on.

"I'll let you two catch up and I'll head over to the Girls' Dormitory myself."

Kierra's attention went to Allen.

"Don't forget we have to meet at the library tomorrow afternoon for the group project, okay?"

Allen gave her a thumbs up.

"I won't. Just make sure that you won't forget to bring the snacks this time around."

"I won't. It was just that one time. Anyways, see ya."

Kierra waved Allen goodbye before turning to Chris and doing the same thing. Chris felt a little weird as she wasn't her usual aloof and indifferent with him this time around. He felt a small nudge and glanced at Allen.

"What?"

"There's your chance to walk her home."

"But I'm sure I would just inconvenience her as she had just said that she would go on by herself."

"You're wrong, Chris. It's the other way around. Kierra hates being an inconvenience to others."

Chris regarded his friend a bit.

"How do you know her so well?"

"We've had classes since we started and always ended up as partners through the semesters." Allen explained. "So we just built a friendship between us."

"Ah, so that's why she's more friendly and comfortable with you."

Allen chuckled.

"She would be more friendly and comfortable with you, too, if you didn't always try to flirt with her all the time."

"I don't always do that."

"Well, Kierra believes so and thinks it's just a part of your personality."

"Really? She thinks I'm like this with everybody."

"Yeah, basically. She won't admit it, but I hear her grumbling about it for you to either be serious with her or to stop playing with her feelings and mind or whatever."

Allen then glanced in the direction that Kierra had walked off to and noticed her small figure in the distance before gazing at Chris.

"Anyways, this is a perfect opportunity for you or you're gonna miss your chance and Kierra's gonna keep thinking of you the way that she does now."

~~~~~~~~

Kierra was quietly walking back to her dorm with the serene campus night life surrounding her. She yawned as she thought about falling asleep in her comfy bed and being surrounded by her equally comfy and fluffy friends. That was until a familiar voice called her name and Kierra's mood dimmed wondering what the male wanted.

"Kierra!"

"Yes, Chris?" She responded, but didn't turn around and continued to walk on.

Chris soon matched her pace and would tentatively glance at her every now and then.

"About that rain check."

"What rain check?"

"The one from earlier this afternoon."

Kierra had to think about it and Chris was about to tell her to not worry about it until she actually remembered the situation from earlier.

"Oh, that. What about it?"

"Well, I was thinking this Saturday, you and me, at Compass Cafe. Yeah?"

"In the morning or afternoon? I thought it was supposed to be dinner."

Chris chuckled which caused Kierra to look over at him.

"What's so funny?"

"Do you want it to be just dinner?" Chris asked to confirm.

"It can be whatever you want it to be as I didn't think you were being serious about it. Anyways, I also just thought it was a rain check for dinner because you had ask to grab late lunch slash early dinner."

"Kierra."

Chris called her name as the two of the them stopped walking. Kierra regarded the male a bit and wondered what he wanted to say.

"Yes, Chris?"

"If you weren't aware by now or at all, but I just wanted to let you know that with you I've always been serious."

"Right. That's a good joke. Tell me something I don't know."

"No really. Yeah, it was playful, but it was always directed at you and only you. And for something that you don't know which is kinda apparent to me now, but I have no feelings for anyone else, but you. I like you, Kierra. I like you a lot."

"Why?"

"What do you mean?"

"Why would you like someone like me? There's like tons of people you hang out with and talk to more than me. So why would you like me when we barely hang out."

Kierra was being serious as she couldn't wrap this information around her at all.

"I mean, you seem to get along well with Jamie and crack a lot of jokes with her like all the time. There's even those few girls that seem to follow you around during the day and fetching you food and drinks like all the time. I'm sure you can get with them without having to try, honestly."

Chris was gonna intervene, but he allowed Kierra to vent out whatever it was that she was trying to make a point of. He was actually quite amuse by what she had to say as he didn't think this was floating about in her head this whole time.

"And then you have those fans of yours. For you, Changbin, and Jisung as 3RACHA. You have no idea how many times they scream and cry at the mention of your guys' names and songs. It's kinda weird. Also, Linna took me to one of your guys' show one time and it was insane. I never went again because I did not want to experience that, but then Linna always knows how to persuade me go to those things and so I just had to deal with it."

Kierra let out a loud sigh at the next set of words she was about to express.

"And don't let me get started on your fanclub page. It's so mind-blowing that all they talk about is your Australian accent, abs, and the type of underwear you wear or whatever. Honestly, like it doesn't dawn on them that you're more than that at all. It's pretty ridiculous."

Kierra went on to list some things she appreciated of Chris while he was left surprised, shocked, and speechless by her thoughts of him.

"Like how you're so caring, considerate, and attentive to those around you. You're ever so patient and want everyone to feel included even if you may not know them that well. How you make people feel at ease with the way your voice and words soothes them. The way your mind works with wanting to convey things in your songs and how you just go about things in general. Chris, you're such an amazing guy and you totally deserve the whole world."

Once Kierra spoke that last sentence she didn't realized that Chris looked at her adoringly when she finally gazed at him. She instantly grew shy at the thought of her expressing what she had really thought about the male over the years.

"So, please tell me how you really feel now, Kierra." Chris teased wanting to break the awkwardness between them after what Kierra had indirectly admitted and knew this sort of thing must've made her feel a bit embarrass and shy.

"You're a brat and super annoying." Kierra retorted and Chris laughed.

"Now, that sounds like the Kierra I know."

"Shut up."

"You're such a tsundere."

Kierra didn't bother to comment on that knowing it was definitely true, but she wouldn't admit to it just yet. She just needed to find a way to get Linna to stop spilling all of her secrets to Chris somehow. Because she knew for a fact that Linna had to have some sort of hand into Chris knowing some of her quirks.

"Anyways, I'm busy Saturday." She finally answered him. "I have a paper to finish that I've been procrastinating on."

"Haven't you listened to one of my song that mentions something about 'stop procrastinating'?"

"I have, but that just makes me want to procrastinate more. Anyways, so no Sa-"

"Sunday. I know you're free Sunday. Linna mentioned that you have nothing planned and are totally free."

"Why do you always gotta get Linna to tell you about my life?"

"Because I know you won't tell me."

"Okay, true, but why do you wanna hang out so bad?"

"It's not a hang out, Kierra. I've been trying to ask you out on a date."

"Oh."

Chris chuckled highly amused, but tried to not rush the female about it.

"So, Kierra, will you go out with me this Sunday?"

"This isn't a joke, right? You're being serious?"

"Completely."

"And if my body is nowhere to be found once the date is over, then please assume your fanclub got to me and did something."

"Kierra."

Kierra laughed as she couldn't help it.

"I'm sorry, but I worry about your guys' fanclub as 3RACHA and personal ones. People get scary and crazy with this sort of stuff. You can't blame me."

"I'm here, aren't I? I'll take care of you and protect you from them."

"Oh, my hero." She sarcastically stated with a feign lovely expression.

"I'll try, if you'll have me." Chris stated with a loving gesture.

Kierra rolled her eyes, but nodded in agreement.

"Okay, Chris. I'll go out with you this Sunday. We'll see how this plays out."

"Really?"

"Yes, really."

"Alright, so you take back on me losing your number, right?"

"Yeah, sure."

"Cool, so now about that rain check."

Chris laughed as he dodged a hit from Kierra.

"I thought the rain check was the date."

"No, that was just a date, date, that you agreed with me when I asked not that long ago. The rain check is still something from earlier that I would still like to claim."

"Ugh, seriously, bro, I hate you!"

Kierra made to swing at him again, but Chris caught her hand and then re-positioned them to holding hands instead before leading her back to her dorms.

"C'mon. We can make the rain check like a practice date for Sunday. We can have breakfast tomorrow."

"I hate mornings." Kierra whined as Chris chuckled beside her.

"Don't worry, Kierra, I'll be with you to make it better."

"Fine, you better."

"I will."

#staytheb #stray kids scenarios #bang chan #christopher bang

[maiji]

Some thoughts on the new YYH OVAs

Lots of spoilers if you've never read the manga, slightly fewer spoilers if you have, but I talk about differences between the two so if you don't wanna know before you see it yourself SPOILER

The following is mostly observations on technical and visual storytelling things I find interesting. 

Voice acting. (I did amateur voice acting as a kid but I didn’t keep that up and obviously I’m super NOT a pro, so apologies if some of the following technical terminology use is not quite right.) Chiba Shigeru (Kuwabara) and Hiyama Nobuyuki (Hiei) are pretty consistent with their original voices from over two decades ago, which is pretty amazing in and of itself. Ogata Megumi (Kurama) and Sasaki Nozumu (Yusuke) have both drifted somewhat more noticeably for me.

In Ogata Megumi’s case, she's gotten so much more experience since her original breakout role, and is even more skilled at hitting and working through the tonal range/vocal register for a male character. This made it extra entertaining listening to TWO SHOTS since this is supposed to be a younger version of Kurama lol.

Sasaki Nozomu's voice seems to have changed a bit in the last decade or so. I hadn't been paying much attention to seiyuu stuff for a long time but I first really noticed a few years back when J Stars Victory VS came out (one of the Shounen Jump crossover fighting games) and I was watching trailers with Yusuke in them and was aurally thrown off. He had a pretty distinct voice with an unusual timbre that made me able to recognize him in almost anything I heard him in to the point where watching a Rurouni Kenshin OVA or hearing Cloud Strife yelling and grunting in Ehrgeiz made me go HEY THAT'S SASAKI NOZOMUUUUU!!!111. But I can't do it with his current take; it’s different. Or maybe I'm just old and out of touch now. lmao

Transitions and changes. 25 years later, animation technology has of course evolved hahaha. One thing I really noticed was how much more animation of the background it felt like there was compared to the original series, especially full-on rotations like when Kurama detects Hiei’s presence, or when Yatsude actually appears.

I'm fascinated by how things are adapted for different media and how the animators fill in the gaps between panels and sequences - I just love seeing what they come up with that didn’t exist in the original. So I was much more interested in Noruka Soruka than TWO SHOTS, the latter of which has already been tackled in other versions before. But all that said, and maybe this was a result of my expectations - I was actually pretty pleasantly surprised at the level of new tweaks they DID bring to the table in TWO SHOTS, and in some ways maybe more so than Noruka Soruka. I thought TWO SHOTS tackled adaptation challenges/changes exceptionally well. I also liked their decision to drop a less critical sequence (Maya's arrival at Yatsude’s) and give more focus to Kurama and Hiei's coordination during their fight VS Yatsude. And I really liked the use of colour! The contrast between the warm sunset palettes in Kurama’s “everyday” world/school life and the cold palette of the warehouse, for example. I found it really nicely executed. 

I had a lot of fun noting keyframes based on the manga, particularly parts that are flipped compared to the original panels. Decisions in comics paneling are generally based around how the artist wants to guide the eye for reading (e.g., characters facing towards the direction the reader is reading, like right to left in Japanese, help create forward momentum, while characters facing the the opposite way help to create mental pauses or slow the action down). It was interesting to note when the orientation changes in the anime, since animators are technically not constrained in the same way by that kind of composition consideration (albeit they still have others).

Other changes are often made to accommodate, or simply exist because of, the fact that animation has additional variables of sound and motion, and often things get exaggerated. For example, Kurama says something out loud instead of it being a thought in his mind as text on the panel; his reaction to something seems more overt because not only are we looking at his facial expression and a speech bubble going "Huh!" or whatever, we see the jolt of his head, the actual movement of his mouth, and hear the force in the startled exclamation, etc. I always find it very interesting to compare the directing with the additional factors now available. In some cases I still prefer the manga, perhaps because I tend to like subtle (boring...hard to explain... lol) things. For example, the intro with the guys wandering into Yatsude’s lair - I preferred the manga version where it cuts out as a straight on shot instead of the OVA where the camera has the motion of something zooming towards them from an angle that accelerates at the end. For me personally the former created a starker horror mood.

But I have to say what MOST impressed me about TWO SHOTS was probably Yatsude. I thought they did a fantastic job translating his design and fleshing out this character’s motion/movement quirks and attacks for full animation and giving him a really solid presence and weight.

As mentioned when Noruka Soruka was first announced, I was most curious how they would handle the ending since it actually concludes in the next chapter and was adapted for the anime's actual ending. And they... did it in possibly the most straightforward way possible. Which for some reason I didn't think was what they would do since I thought it would be too abrupt. Hahaha.

Some frivolous things that amused me:

Seeing Yusuke's bedhead rendered in anime yeahhh!

Seeing and hearing Yusuke talking to Enki on the phone while the latter is getting Salonpas applied lmao

Watching the takeover of the guards with the timer. Mainly the part where Yusuke and Kuwabara land on the guards after coming out of the Jigentou dimension cut lmao

Hearing the interpretation of what the parrot grass sounds like lmao

Seeing big Puu with ears. (Togashi forgot about Puu's ears or maybe consciously changed Puu's design or SOMETHING in nearly all the panels throughout the end of the story.)

The additional sequences in the evacuation scenes. The Easter eggs of Kuwabara's dad and another alien Hiei made me laugh. Especially because I’M PRETTY SURE THIS IS THE ALTA BUILDING

SEE 

(also while trying get this streetview Google maps tried to give me directions to this building from Canada lmao) 

 Also this part:

Me: “Who’s that dude?”

Me: “OH YeAH IT’S YUSUKE’S BODY.”

Me: “For god’s sakes Keiko can carry him herself AND run out of both a house on fire and an exploding stadium.”

Last but not least, Hiei using Kokuryuha made me laugh. This doesn't happen in the manga, but I understand the need since it's considered his signature move. I just found it really funny because it's technically such an OVERWHELMINGLY DESTRUCTIVE MOVE saved for only the utmost of opponents. At that proximity it probably would have immolated not only all the enemies but also all of the Spirit World people they were trying to save. So it was kind of like watching someone go "man there are a lot of annoying mosquitoes in this room" and then whipping out a flamethrower to get rid of them lmao

#yu yu hakusho #anime #noruka soruka #two shots #spoilers #manga #anime adaptation #voice acting #seiyuu

[penmansparadise]

Billy Hargrove Imagine Smut Request- Just For Fun

So I went a little bit crazy with this one lol.  This was requested by @selenedarkbloom and I seriously enjoyed writing it.  I’m sorry it took forever for me to write it and post it for you, but I hope it was worth the wait and that you enjoy it!! xx.

Pairing: Billy Hargrove x Reader

Warnings: Smut and language 

*Just wanted to let you all know, again, that unprotected sex is a definite no no!!  I didn’t mention any form of birth control (i.e. condoms or the pill), but please know that it is not because I advocate unprotected sex.  The lack of mentions is solely to keep the flow of writing.  Please always use some form of protection!*

You laid in your bed listening to the shouting match your parents were having in the living room.  Turning to face your alarm clock you saw that the time read 6:00am. “Right on cue.” You thought to yourself before getting up to get dressed for school.  Like every other school day, you were out the door and into your car by 6:30am.  You sat in the driveway and watched your parents argue through the living room window.  It was always the same.  Dad would come home drunk the night before resulting in an explosive argument the following morning.  You clenched the steering wheel in anger before giving it a smack.  Shaking your head, you threw your car in reverse and backed out heading to school.  

At school, you always parked your black BMW in your usual spot.  Although there wasn’t a sign designating that as your spot, there might as well have been.  You pretty much ran the school and no one would dare mess with you.  Those who were ballsy enough to go toe to toe with you usually ended up in a hospital and a new school.  You were the queen of Hawkins even if no one wanted to admit it. But, like everyone, you kept your home life a secret.  With Hawkins being such a small town, everyone knew your dad was a drunk. However, no one knew about the arguments and how every waking moment could end up being a potential domestic violence case.  No one knew the reason why you preferred to not go home at night or that, when you did, why you cried yourself to sleep.  No one would ever know, not if you could help it. When you pulled into the school, a blue Camaro was parked in your spot and a rather handsome boy was leaning against it.  “What the shit?” You said to yourself as you drove past the new car.  After pulling into a spot a couple of cars down, you got out, grabbed your bag, and made your way to the Camaro.  “Turn Up The Radio” by Autograph was playing from the car and the boy was puffing on a cigarette when you walked up.  The sun was shining down on him making him look even more godlike than when you had driven by.  You let your eyes travel from his shoes all the way up to his dirty blonde hair.  His black denim jeans hugged his hips tightly and the top three buttons of his blue shirt were left undone exposing part of his chiseled chest.  A small breath escaped you as you finally made eye contact with him.  He threw his cigarette on the ground and stepped on it giving you an irritated look.  “Got a problem babe?” He asked fixing the collar of his shirt.  You shut your eyes tight, regaining focus, before placing your normal snarl on your face.  “Actually,” you began stepping closer to him, “there is a problem.”  The light breeze sent a waft of his strong cologne into you causing your eyes to shut again.  You couldn’t deny, the boy was extremely attractive.  However, even though you wanted to drown in the smell of him, you had a rep to protect.  He took a step even closer and gave you a smirk, “And what’s that princess?”  His scent was intoxicating.  You lifted your head to make yourself look taller, “You’re parked in my spot and don’t’ call me those cheap pet names.  I have a name and it’s not ‘babe’ or ‘princess’.”  The boy let out a deep chuckle and looked around before turning back to you with mock surprise.  “Well would you look at that?” He began, “I don’t see your name anywhere around here.  So, technically, I actually didn’t park in your spot.”  You gritted your teeth and clenched your fists in aggravation.  You opened your mouth to protest, but before you could say anything the bell rang.  The boy smirked down at you, “I’ll see you around…babe.” He gave you a wink before stalking off towards the school leaving you dumbfounded.  

In your first period, you sat trapped in your thoughts.  No one had ever done what that boy had done to you.  Anger raged inside of you making you want to rip his head off, but, at the same time, lust pooled within your body making you want to rip off every fabric of clothing he was wearing.  You let out a frustrated grunt and shook your head.  You didn’t even know his name, yet he was the only thing on your mind for the first half of your day.  When the bell releasing you for lunch rang, you made your way to your normal table.  Your two friends, Karen and Melissa, sat waiting for you.  Although both girls greeted you, your mind was elsewhere. You searched through the crowds of people until you finally found who you were looking for.  Your eyes narrowed as you got up making a beeline for him. He was sitting confidently on top of the table surrounded by Tommy and his friends.  When he saw you approaching, that seductive smirk fell onto his lips again.  You stopped in front of him and placed your hands on your hips, “I wasn’t done talking to you when you walked away this morning.”  He got up from the table and stood in front of you, “Yeah, but I was done talking to you.”  Everyone took in a collective gasp before an uncomfortable silence blanketed the room. Your heart began to race and you could feel heat rising to your cheeks.  He took a step closer to you, “Got anything else to say princess?”  You stepped even closer letting your usual snarl set in, “I thought I told you to not call me those cheap pet names?”  He closed the distance between the two of you.  Now, almost chest to chest, he tilted his head to the side.  “Well what else am I supposed to call you?” He asked sarcastically, “Raging Bitch?”  Your jaw, as well as everyone else’s, fell open in shock.  His smirk resurfaced at your lack of immediate response.  “You better watch yourself.”  You said in a low growl. “Or what? He said leaning in closer, “You gonna hit me?”  You narrowed your eyes again, “Maybe I will.  There are a lot of things I want to do to you right now.”  He let out a chuckle, “Believe me princess, me too, but let’s keep this PG.  I mean, at least while we’re at school.  Meet me after and I can’t promise anything.”  You lifted yourself onto your tip toes putting you and him chest to chest. “Call me princess one more time and I can’t promise I won’t actually do some of those things to you.” You said with a snarl.  He leaned his head down until his lips were grazing your ear, “Promise?”  Your heart was racing as anger and lust played tug-of-war with your mind.  The room remained quiet as the two of you stood there in a stalemate each waiting on the other to flinch.  When the bell rang loudly sending everyone back to class, he finally spoke.  “Meet me at my car after school.”  He said in a whisper only you could hear.  With your eyes still narrowed you simply responded with, “Fine.”  Before each of you separated and made your way to class.

The rest of your day went by slow as you anxiously awaited your parking lot meeting. When the final bell rang releasing you for the day, you quickly made your way to his car.  Although you tried not to, you beat him to his Camaro and had to wait.  You were picking at a fray on your jean jacket when you heard his familiar chuckle and looked up.  He already had a cigarette between his lips by the time he reached you.  “Got a little excited, did we?” He asked with a smirk. You rolled your eyes and scoffed, “As if.  Anyway, why am I here and not on my way home?”  He leaned up against his car next to you, “Because I saw the look in your eye at lunch.”  You moved to stand directly in front of him and crossed your arms, “Oh yeah?  And what look was that?”  He blew smoke out of his mouth before licking his lips, “You were turned on.  I could tell.”  Your eyes grew big, “Oh please!  I was not turned on.”  You could feel your heart rate begin to quicken again.  Everyone had always told you that you were pretty much an open book, but you didn’t think you were that open.  The boy stepped out his cigarette, “Listen, it’s okay, I was turned on too. You’re pretty sexy trying to play that whole ‘Queen Bee’ role.  I like it.” A blush crept onto your cheeks at how charming he was.  You waved him off, “Look, I’m not looking for a relationship.”  He took a step closer to you sending his delicious scent into you again.  “Neither am I baby.” He said huskily.  You rolled your eyes at the nickname, “That’s a new one.  So, what are you proposing?”  He put one hand on your waist, “That you and me have a little fun. Nothing serious.  I know you want to.”  The warmth from his hand on your hip gave you shivers and his crystal blue eyes staring down at you froze you in place.  You really couldn’t deny that you had been thinking about him all day.  Or that he was right about turning you on at lunch.  You let out an irritated sigh before finally making eye contact again.  “Alright.” You began, “Although my better judgment is begging me to tell you to go fuck yourself, I’ll give you the benefit of the doubt.  But this is only fun, like you said, nothing serious.  And absolutely NO feelings, got it?”  He bit his bottom lip, “Got it.  Now, what’s your address?  I’ll pick you up tonight at seven.”  You handed him a folded-up piece of paper, “You’re gonna wine and dine me before you fuck me?”  The boy let out a chuckle, “I guess you’ll just have to wait and see.”  You rolled your eyes and let out a laugh, “My name is Y/N by the way.”  He nodded, “Good to know.  I’m Billy.” You gave him a smile before turning and heading to your car. “I’ll see you at seven Billy.  And don’t be late!” You shouted back to him as you got into your BMW and drove off.               

As the night rolled closer and closer to seven, you began to grow nervous. You looked your outfit over at least ten times before you finally decided it was fine.  A pair of high waist jeans that clung to all the right places, a black off the shoulder crop top, and your signature jean jacket.  You sat on your bed staring at the clock waiting for Billy to arrive and hoping it was soon.  As you sat waiting you could hear the beginning of your parents’ nightly arguments.  Even with your door shut, it sounded as if they were standing right in front of you. Their voices began to raise and soon the sound of shattering glass came.  Tears pooled in your eyes, but you swallowed them back.  You sat there listening to their two-man war before finally deciding to leave.  Opening your window, you gracefully slid out into the yard and made your way to the driveway.  Through the front window you could see your drunk father and tired mother having their shouting match.  You didn’t realize Billy had pulled up until you heard his voice.  “Hey,” he said softly, “is everything alright?”  You snapped your head in his direction and quickly put your tough façade on.  “What? Yeah, everything’s fine.  Let’s go.”  You said opening the passenger side door and getting in.  Billy didn’t hesitate and soon you were speeding down the road.  

You watched Hawkins pass by as Billy drove through the little town.  Even as he exited the main strip and the buildings turned to trees, you knew exactly where he was taking you.  You turned to face him, “The lake?  Really?”  Billy gave you a smirk, but didn’t say anything in return.  He pulled his Camaro to a stop under a couple of trees allowing you to look out over the water.  You stared at the moon’s reflection in the water as Billy killed the engine.  From your peripherals, you could see him looking at you. The two of you sat in the silence for a minute more before Billy finally broke the silence.  “Are you alright?” He asked calmly.  The tears that were pooling in your eyes earlier were coming back.  You blinked your eyes hard to push them away before letting out a frustrated grunt.  “I’m fine.” You said to the floor board. Billy let out a breath, but before he could say anything in return you moved your gaze to meet his.  “I want you to make me forget.”  You said abruptly.  Billy raised his eyebrows in confusion, “Forget what?”  You rolled your eyes, “About how shitty life can be.” Billy licked his lips, “I can do that.” He leaned over the center console and quickly connected your lips with his.  His hand moved to the back of your head and tangled in your hair deepening the kiss.  It was vicious and hungry.  You let out a soft moan as you let your mind succumb to his charm.  You leaned into the kiss, lifting yourself off the seat enough for Billy’s other hand to find your ass.  He gave a light smack before grabbing your rear and pulling you even closer. You moved your hands to cup Billy’s face and soon they were pulling on his curly hair.  He let out a low groan, a sound you didn’t know you would find so sexy, as you yanked.  The hand that was in your hair, shoved your jean jacket off your body before it found its way to the bottom of your crop top.  Billy gave it a tug, “I know you probably spent a lot of time picking this outfit out, but this has to go.” He said pulling the shirt over your head and tossing it into his backseat.  Because you didn’t wear a bra, your breasts were now fully exposed.  Billy reconnected your lips and let both of his hands discover your upper body.  He let them trail over your skin from your belly button until they each grabbed your breasts.  You let out a soft moan at his touch.  His hands groped you before letting his fingers play with your nipples.  Your head fell back at the intense sensations you were feeling.  As your head fell back, Billy took the opportunity to kiss down your neck, nipping here and there, until his mouth reached one of your breasts.  His skillful tongue drew circles around your nipple while his hand massaged your other breast.  “Holy shit Billy,” you said in a soft whisper as he switched sides.  The heat between your legs was growing quickly and he hadn’t even taken your pants off yet.  While his face was buried in your chest, you quickly peeled your jeans off.  Billy pulled back earning a whine from you.  He smirked, “A little antsy?”  You lightly shoved his shoulder, “Shut your damn mouth and let me get on top.”  Billy’s eyes grew a little at your demand, but didn’t refuse.  He helped you over the center console and onto his lap. Just sitting on his lap, you could feel his large erection poking you where you wanted him.  You bit your lip at the feeling and slowly began to grind into him.  His head fell back against his head rest as he let out a long moan.  “Fuck yes Y/N.” He said moving both of his hands to grab your ass.  Without stopping, your fingers quickly unbuttoned his shirt and threw it in the backseat.  Billy’s hands pulled at your devilish red panties begging you to take them off. You let out a moan at how badly he wanted you and let him pull them off.  Before you could sit back down, Billy slid his finger over your clit causing you to arch your back.  “Oh Billy.” You moaned as he rubbed on your sweet spot.  He took one of your breasts into your mouth again and began sucking on it earning a loud moan from you.  Your fingernails dug into his shoulders as you held yourself up.  Billy released your breast and brought his hand back to your waist pushing you back onto his erection.  “God baby you’re fucking soaked.” He growled.  Your whole body was tingling as he moved your hips with his hands. “Billy,” you said breathlessly, “I know you probably spent a lot of time picking this outfit out, but these jeans have got to go.”  Billy chuckled a little before lifting you up enough to pull them down.  His large dick stood up wanting you just as badly as you wanted him.  He put his hands back on your waist and slowly sat you down onto his member. Both of you let out a collective moan at the feeling.  You quickly adjusted to him before you began to ride him.  Starting slow, your hands raked through his hair as you grinded into him letting him fill you up.  “Fuck Billy you’re so big!”  You groaned loudly.  Billy tightened his grip on your hips in response pulling you farther down onto him. You could feel yourself getting closer and closer with each stroke.  As you got closer, you picked your pace up. Instead of grinding on him, you began to bounce.  Billy’s breathing was quickening as expletives and moans escaped his open mouth. Your breasts bounced up and down with every movement.  His hands held onto your waist tightly helping you bounce deeper and faster. “Oh, Billy I’m getting so close!” You shouted out.  All the windows were fogging from both of your heavy breathing.  You nails dug deep into his shoulders again as you bounced up and down on his dick.  “Fuck baby I’m almost there too.” He groaned out in response.  The car was filled with the sounds of your moans and skin hitting each other.  You could feel yourself getting close to your climax making your movements sloppy. “Billy,” you began in a whine, “Billy I’m gonna cum!”  Billy moved his lips to your neck and began to suck on your soft spot sending you to your climax.  As you tightened around him, he bounced you a couple more times before he spilled over the edge.  You moaned in unison before he peeled you off of him and helped you back to the passenger side.  He reached into the backseat and handed you your shirt.  Once you both were fully dressed he drove you back to your house. Sitting in your driveway he turned to you.  “I could get used to that.”  He said with a cocky smile.  You chuckled, “I think I made the right decision in giving you the benefit of the doubt.”  He sent you a wink before you exited his car.  

After that night, your agreement was set in stone.  When either of you needed to blow off some steam you would go to the lake.  Some days you were on top and others the two of you would venture into his backseat and he would have his way with you.  Months passed and soon you were learning more and more about each other.  Although you had never been to his house, you knew all about his home life.  You knew all about the emotional and physical abuse Billy endured at the hands of his own father.  He didn’t want to admit to it, but when you asked him about his black eye he couldn’t lie to you.  Although you didn’t want to tell him at first, you eventually told him about your home life as well.  Soon he was fully aware of your father and about the fights your parents had.  After a couple of months, your nights at the lake didn’t always end in wild car sex.  In fact, most nights the two of you would just sit in his car and talk.  You would let him vent and he would do the same for you.  It was during those nights that you could feel your feelings for Billy changing, growing. He would always drop you off at the end of the night and you would stay up laying in your bed begging your heart to stop feeling.  

You stood by Billy’s Camaro waiting for him to walk out of the building. When he saw you standing by his car, a smile crept onto his lips.  “Hey there.” You said when he finally made his way to you.  “Well hello.” He said as he pulled a cigarette out of his pocket.  You felt like a giddy school girl talking to her crush for the very first time.  Your heart raced in your chest and your cheeks hurt from holding a smile on your lips.  “So,” you began twirling a piece of hair around your index finger, “my parents are going to be out of town tonight and I was thinking maybe you could come over.”  Billy took a puff of his cigarette and raised his eyebrows, “You want me to go over to your house?”  Your stomach fell at the sound of his skepticism, “Well, yeah.  I mean it’ll just be the two of us.”  Putting his cigarette out he shrugged his shoulders, “Alright.  Usual time?” Your smile returned as you bit your lip and nodded in response.  He sent you a wave before peeling out of the parking lot.

When you got home, you immediately began to make sure everything was perfect. From the pillows on your bed to the color lingerie you were wearing.  Even if tonight didn’t end with you screaming out Billy’s name in pleasure you wanted to be prepared.  At exactly seven o’clock your doorbell rang sending butterflies to erupt in your stomach. You took a quick look in the mirror before going to open the door.  You pulled the door open with a smile that immediately fell when you saw Billy’s face.  His eyes were a little red and one had an ugly bruise around it.  “Billy.”  You said before he pushed past you entering your living room.  You walked over to him and placed your hand on his cheek. “Billy, what happened?  Did your dad do this to you?”  You asked already knowing the answer.  He pushed your hand away, “I don’t want to talk about it Y/N.” You looked at him in awe, “Billy we need to talk about it.  This is getting out of control and you need to go tell someone.”  Billy had his back to you and you could see his muscles tense at the start of the conversation.  He clenched his fists and turned to face you, “I don’t need to tell anyone!  And I don’t want to talk about it.”  You reached for his hands, but he moved away.  “Okay, you don’t want to tell anyone, but I’m just trying to make sure that you’re okay.”  He ran his fingers through his hair pulling a little, “I’m fine!  I don’t need you to make sure that I’m okay.  And plus, it’s not your job to make sure that I’m alright. Your job is to make me forget about my asshole dad and the shit life that I have.”  Your heart jerked in your chest, “I’m making sure you’re okay because I care for you Billy.”  Billy stared at you with a blank expression that quickly turned to anger.  “What do you mean you care?  You said in the beginning of this whole arrangement ‘no feelings’.  You’re not supposed to care about me!”  Fury filled up your heart at his words, “Billy, how do you expect me to not care for you?  I’ve fallen for you! Can’t you see that?  And are you honestly going to tell me that you don’t feel the same way?  I see the way you look at me.  It’s different from before when we started this thing.  I know you care about me too Billy.” Sadness and confusion played on Billy’s face as he held your gaze.  “You’re not supposed to care for me Y/N.  I’m not supposed to care for you.  That was the deal.”  You walked up to him and placed your hands on each side of his face and this time he didn’t move away.  “Billy, deals can be broken.  I don’t want this to be ‘just for fun’ anymore.  I can’t keep lying to myself.  I love you Billy Hargrove.”  You said looking deeply into his bright blue eyes.  Billy closed his eyes and let out a sigh before opening them to look into your Y/E/C orbs again.  “I love you too Y/N.”  He said before pulling you into a passionate kiss.  Your lips moved in perfect sync as you folded into his arms.  His hands moved to the back of thighs and lifted you up allowing you to wrap your legs around his torso.  Without separating your lips, he carried you to your bedroom and gently placed you on your bed where the two of you made love.  Although wild car sex was fun, you could definitely get used to Billy’s soft and sensual side.    

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((Mod post!! Gonna answer some questions for me that have been sitting around for a while, sorry the response is so late ;w;

Everything’s under the cut to save space 0w0 ))

Anonymous said: Okay but totally loving the concept of Michael as Gil and Jeremy as Oz??? Like, freaking Alice is Christine (even tho its totally a personality clash apart from the childish aspect but shhhh) and just yes

YEAH MAN...any type of PH crossover is good hhh but GOSH imagine Michael like. After growing up and spending ten years looking for Jeremy like Gil did ahh my heart aches!! And Jeremy coming back pouting like “You’re taller than me now that’s totally not fair, M” Christine would make a really cute Alice I think, just seeing her dress up like Alice and having her kick ass as the B-Rabbit?! Hell yeah!

zekromztk2 said: Out of all of the Pandora Hearts characters, who is your favorite? Mine is... probably either Alice or Oz

HELL I LOVE GILBERT I’D DIE FOR THAT MAN LEGIT;; I love Oz and Break a lot too and! RUFUS BARMA AS WELL I ADORE HIM

Anonymous said: did I hear Harry Potter?

Ye man talk to me about the Marauder days any time I love talking about Sirius, James and Remus getting into shenanigans at Hogwarts hoo boy

Anonymous said: (Hey mod, so basically Jake and Rich are just gonna be background characters with kind of their own stories?)

Yes! Jeremy and Michael are the main focus here, but Jake and Rich sort of have their own thing going on in the background as more minor characters to the overall blog! I want to make a more developed backstory for the treasure hunter girls and Christine as well, so we’ll see how that goes~

Anonymous said: Thank you so much for introducing the novel this AU is based on to me!! Now that I've finished reading, I understand a lot more about this AU and now I want to ask... Would you consider Mr. Heere/Reyes as Morrow?

You’re very welcome, it’s a great novel so! I’m glad more people are reading it after having run into this blog, I must spread the pureness that is Aech to all of humanity //shakes fists And yes! Mr. Reyes is Morrow, I can imagine him sort of contributing to the hunt with lots of theater related things, which Christine specializes in! Book!Squip is Halliday, and there’s actually a little more about that and his relationship with Jeremy that I want to get into later.

Anonymous said: ((I had literally never heard of ready player one but I lov this blog so much I actually went out and bought it. Consider me murdled dead))

Yeah man like;; I didn’t read the novel until this past summer and after that I just got so into it and BMC at the same time so? I combined the two and here we are! Aaah I’m so glad!! Like I’ve said before I love it when people come tell me they went out to buy the novel and read it because of me, it makes me so happy :’) Hjrhjd please don’t die lol

emibeani said: ((I just finished reading Ready Player One, and thank you so much for this blog.))

I’m glad to hear it!! And you’re very welcome, I honestly didn’t expect so many people to get into but I’m super appreciative of all the interest you guys have shown so far so?? Thank you!!

Anonymous said: THIS IS NOT A ASK, BUT, OMG, THIS AU IS FUCKING PERFECT.

Glad you like it, ty! ;D

aslyn-is-artsy said: Your art is absolutely amazing

Hrhrhgfh I’m blushing thank you wow;;

aslyn-is-artsy said: Thank you so much for showing me this amazing book. I now aspire to become the real version of Art3mis. Just with short blonde hair instead. ;)

No problem!! It’s such a fantastic read and I was honestly blown away by it, so yeah...! Haha yeah I love Arty! She’s such a badass character and she doesn’t put up with any of Wade’s shit, which is great, she’s so empowered and I adore her

theitalianscribe said :I don't remember if this was answered, but is Michael trans male in this au?

Nope! I mean if you want to headcanon him that way that’s fine, I won’t stop you! I’m not going to endorse that since I myself don’t see him being that way, but you all are entitled to your own opinions so! And even if he were trans that wouldn’t be the main point of the blog anyway, I’m focusing more on their actual relationship, not their sexuality or gender or anything like that ^^

Anonymous said:i checked the book Ready Player One out from the library just because of this blog! are there any other books you recommend? (i havent finished the book but i like it so far i think!)

Oh nice!! I hope you enjoy it as much as I did! Ahhh hmm well if you like supernatural teen stories, there’s a series called Darkest Powers by Kelley Armstrong about this girl named Chloe who finds out she’s a necromancer after being sent to a “troubled teens” home, and she meets these boys named Simon and Derek who also have special abilities and then all sorts of crazy things happen! I first read it back in high school and I still love it a lot, so yeah it’s a trilogy and all of the characters are really great so! (I looooove Simon like. So much.) Check it out if you have the time, it’s a good read!

kitikat101 said: Random potential song parodies: I Love the OASIS (I Love Play Rehearsal), Find That Egg (Be More Chill, pts. 1 and 2), Two-Player Game (but with Joust), Oases In My Head (Voices In My Head)

Kit can I say how much I adore these song titles they fit so well I’m really tempted to make parodies for all of them, absolutely brilliant

geeklychic1012 said: So are we allowed to send in fanfics based on this blog? (Cuz I submitted one but my wifi is shit and I think Tumblr might have eaten it haha)

YES!! Please do I’d highly enjoy reading stuff from you guys! And yes I saw and it breaks my heart like. Why. I’ll post it soon for everyone else to see too! They must all suffer as I have hfhdjhgjg

Anonymous said: Who would be I-r0k in this au? Or would I-r0k still be his normal jerk self?

I’m actually...not sure :0 There aren’t enough characters in BMC to properly cross over with all the rest of the RPO characters so;; I might have to go through the BMC novel and find some obscure background character to sneak in as I-r0k lol, because I would like to have all of the RPO characters replaced by BMC counterparts, if that makes sense!

theitalianscribe said: Does someone else take Halliday's place in this au? Also, do the gunters have a shared obsession with pop culture from a certain time period? What time period?

Yeah, I mentioned that up above! But Book!Squip takes over the role of Halliday, and musical Squip is Sorrento, of course~ Honestly I’d say like, probably the early 2000s, since that was when I was growing up and I can actually make references back to that time lol? I mean I love the 80s as well, just as it is in the book, but I feel as if I don’t know enough about that time period to actually. Make proper references and constantly. (I mean I could ask my parents who lived during that time too but;; haha.) Most of the stuff on here are me self-projecting, like with video games, books, and anime, that’s all me lol

Anonymous said: " “You don’t need to sell me on anything, Wade,” she said. “You’re my best friend. My favorite person.” With what appeared to be some effort, she looked me in the eye. “I’ve really missed you, you know that?”My heart felt like it was on fire. I took a moment to work up my courage; then I reached out and took her hand." aka perfect au is perfect how does it fit S O well

!!! yEAH MY DUDE I LOVED THAT PART and just imagining Michael saying that to Jeremy I wanted to cry;; I don’t even know but the INSTANT Aech was introduced I was like “Ohhh man. I’m getting major BMC vibes here” and bam, a week later this blog was born lol

Anonymous said:Would you be okay with cosplay of your character designs? I can't do one anytime soon, but they look really cool (and jerm's hair honestly looks fun to do)

YES!! OH MY GOD I’d probably die of sheer happiness if you guys cosplayed these dorks! If you want I could draw a character ref sheet so you actually get a proper look at their outfits! But yes I’d highly enjoy that;; like the cosplay doesn’t even have to be accurate I’d still love it anyway, and doing things like acting out some of the asks here (I’ve seen it be done before and it’s so cute!) would be totally okay too! But yeah as always TAG ME or submit it here so I can see it aaaa I’d love love LOVE that! ^^

Anonymous said: SPECIAL BOY SPECIAL BOY SPECIAL BOY SPECIAL BOY SPECIAL B

YEEEEEAAAAA IT’S ABOUT TIME I MADE AN OUTFIT FOR RICH RIGHT I LOVE HIM SM

maysurprisedyou said: Hi! This isn't quite an ask, but!! I started reading Ready Player One because of this blog and it's really interesting so far so thank you!! All of your posts seem to make my day ahah <3

Oooh I’m happy you’re liking it so far, I’m glad my blog inspired you to read it! And aaAAAA that’s so sweet I’m?? Hhhhfh thank you! :’)

#The mod speaks #OOC #The final boss makes an entrance #Long post #Whew!! That was a lot of asks to get through #Thanks all of you for your interest and support! Ily #The mod answers

[todokori-kun]

Ack

 that sounds horrible, getting sick is the worst ;-; get as much rest as you can! I really hope you get better soon<3

(omg the pics are GORGEOUS. Like, Wow. Once I’m done writing this message I’m probably going to go back to stare at them for like an hour and silently scream over how awesome everything looks)

Don’t worry about it, I admit that Stoki is pretty much a crack ship ^^;;

And, well, the redemption fic I mentioned helped me fall deeper into Stoki hell, but I shipped it even before that XD I think part of it is just because I think they could have a really interesting dynamic- they’re just so different, complete opposites. Steve would confuse Loki so much tbh

Also, I just think that Steve (or at least, post-CW Steve) might be one of the avengers most willing to at least try to understand Loki. Partly because Steve’s just a nice guy, and then because of his relationship with Bucky- ‘cause Steve-Bucky and Thor-Loki are really, really similar and I think Steve would realize that.

And then like I said, Steve cares a lot about other people. If Thor ever told him about everything that happened between him and Loki Steve probably wouldn’t have too much difficulty in starting to see Loki as a human(?) being instead of some one-dimensional fairy tale villain.

Lastly, I feel like Steve is just the best person to handle Loki’s issues. He may not be able to personally relate to a lot of it (Tony, Bruce, maybe Natasha would be better for that) but he can take a step back and think rationally about the situation, help convince Loki that just because the rest of the world sees him as a monster, doesn’t mean he has to be one.

Hopefully this made sense? lol)

yeah, that’s pretty much how I felt about it too. It was just so freaking frustrating OTL

(And yes that letter destoyed my feelings too)

btw, can I ask what you think about T'challa? He doesn’t seem to have that many fans yet but I think he’s really cool and possibly one of the more sensible people in the CW movie (once he stops being furious at Bucky). Also the trailer for his new movie is epic and I can’t wait to see his sister…

Hisoillu is bizarre (sadistic murdery Clown with no sense of fashion + sadistic murdery needle guy with dead fish eyes) but also makes a lot of sense at the same time? Like, Hisoka got away with joking about killing Killua in front of Illumi, so…yeah. They’ve got something special LOL

omg imagine.

‘Satisfied but when you fantasize at night it’s Illumi’s eyes’

'Helpless but look into Illumi’s eyes and the sky’s the limit’

'History has its Eyes on you but it’s actually Illumi’

Why do I want these memes to be a thing

With the new revelation about who Touka was visiting at the hospital, I’m beginning to have my doubts about how this will end…maybe they might actually both survive for now???

But I’m a bit miserable rn because if one of them has to die I’d rather keep Juuzou too but it seems much more likely for Touka to survive. She’s like the main female lead, plus she has Kaneki’s baby…

R.I.P Naki, the sweetest cinnamon roll who just wanted to see his big bro again ;-;

(Also: Wow, way to go Kaneki, you finally started acting like an actual leader (in a way)! But can I just say, what absolutely perfect timing)

WTH I had no idea Soul Eater’s art style developed that much???!!! That’s actually pretty amazing! (And yeah, I know that SE has some pretty complex characters and interesting stories in it :D it’s just still a lot lighter and has different themes from the mangas I usually enjoy ^^ I might try it out though!)

Death The Kid seems really cool! (does he really have OCD in canon, though? Like, I’ve seen a lot of Soul Eater fans talking like he does but idk if it’s actually a thing? Maybe I sound weird but it just seems insensitive to say characters like DTK and Levi have 'OCD’ and talking about it jokingly when it’s actually incredibly difficult and stressful for people who actully have OCD, so I’m not sure how to feel about those fans)

Yay! Gotta go and try to find that fight scene now…

Join me in my suffering. I loved L so much ;-;

(But hey, don’t be too sad (what’s this? Is Evans actually COMFORTING Queen Luna for once instead of rubbing salt in the wound?!)! There’s always the book Death Note: Another Note (The Los Angeles BB Murder Cases)- it’s a prequel to the Death Note manga/anime with L chasing a murderer known as Beyond Birthday (…no comment on that alias). It also shows how he met Naomi Misora which is awesome if you like Naomi (I did, and kinda screamed when Light kiled her))

Eh, I think I’m one of the few people who doesn’t mind it being set in America because what’s the point of making an American adaptation if it’s going to be set in Japan anyway? I also don’t really have a problem with 'white-washing’ for this same reason (though I am disappointed because being Japanese-American would have added an interesting layer to Light’s character; despite fighting for justice, in canon, LIght’s never actually been victimized or discriminated against. He’s a handsome, intelligent young man who appears to be cisgender and heterosexual (even if it’s never confirmed) and is Japanese, just like everyone else around him. Japanese-American Light, on the other hand, would have really experienced how the 'rotten’ world could hurt people, so his acts as Kira might have more personal emotion in them)…like, it’s possible to cast a white actor as Light without it being white-washing, and since they changed the entire setting I think it’s fine to change other things too. Just, I’m cool with anything as long as they portrayed Light’s character properly…BUT THEY DIDN’T SO

I’m really just disappointed that they botched the characters and all the themes of the original Death Note story so badly. Sure, change the setting, change the circumstances, change the plot, changehe designs, but why did you have to take Death Note’s philosophy away?

But, because I might have been a bit too mean:

I will say that the movie LOOKS really good. The visuals are great. The soundtrack seems decent too. Also, though Ryuk’s motivations/role also weren’t done very well, Ryuk’s actor did an amazing job…and while I’m not happy with how L was portrayed in this movie, I do think that the actor they cast for him could have been a good L if not for the bad writing.

Well…from what I know, Light Turner ends up in a hospital at the end of the movie with his One True Love Mia(Misa) dead, so nah. The Keikaku failed.

(which just proves that Light Turner really is nothing like Light Yagami, because Light Yagami’s keikakus never fail.

Until the end of the Death note manga/anime, that is.)

Yeah, I know about SU’s terrible fandom, so I’m not going to actively participate in writing fanfic, drawing fan art or making HCs/theories with other people…I’m just gonna watch the show with my sister and look at pretty fanart XD

Tysm tho!

(Question: Which character do you think you are? And what kind of gem do you think you’d be?)

Aww, I’m so happy my awkward rambling actually made you feel better??? Like. Come on. You have no idea how much our convos helped me with anxiety and stress, so I have to thank you for that too <333

(And seriously, Queen Luna is amazing.)

For most people, they start going to elementary at seven (in international age) as far as I know, and then go to middle school at around thirteen. Then high school at…um…sixteen? Maybe? I’ve never really gone to school here so I might not be 100% correct but it’s something like that ^^;;

I really wanna try Mystic Messenger but since my phone is an old flip phone…I like my phone but sometimes this can be inconvenient LOL

(I’m totally fine with messaging here, but are you really ok with it? 'Cause if you’re not, we can try to work something else out!)

hi im luna and i wanna die.

HNNNNNNNNGH have i ever told you how much i hate school?  because i freaking hate school from the bottom of my heart i can’t feel my neck anymore from the amount of studying ive been doing that’s depressing.

anyway. heartfelt advice: do not fuck your stomach up in any way, because you will suffer if you do. take it from me, i’ve managed to develop this amazing thing called Gastritis and now i cant eat anything without getting the feeling that im gonna throw it back out which is absolutely wonderful. thankfully, i don’t throw up, but it’s freaking annoying and ive lost waay too much weight already. best part? the whole reason why i have it is apparently purely psychological,  too much stress. i got it in the middle of july. HOW my mom is also being INCREDIBLY helpful by basically telling me to ‘get over it’ like i can just snap my fingers and tell myself ‘oh yeah this is only in my head’ and it’ll all pass over. cause that’s how it works.  so is my sister by always laughing at me

oook moving on.

yep, school started and i am suffering. ive already gone through 4 tests and a bunch of oral quizzes. yay. thanks teachers for totally not putting horrible pressure on us from the start.  i stg, one of my most common thoughts these days is ‘see, this is exactly why i have a psychosomatic sickness.’ they’re sending my to a psychologist to see if i can let everything out and maybe get some advice on how to handle things better. i will laugh my ass off if i get diagnosed with a mental disorder. that’d be absolutely hilarious (I am in no way trying to make fun of people with a mental disorder, I’m just saying I honestly wouldn’t even be surprised if they said something like Burnout Syndrome or Depression (im not even joking when I say that I’ve been sleeping pretty much all afternoon + night these days, cry way too often, feel no motivation for anything, feel worthless, no apetite and also occasional suicidal thoughts which is oh so fun (ok but in my defence, the thoughts are really rare, probably caused by the fact that I feel nauseous like 90% of the time, and I would never ever do it, mostly because some people would miss me (I hope). there are moments when I go ‘wouldn’t it be easier to disappear?’ tho))

sorry about that rant

MOVING ON TO HAPPIER THEMES (and proper writing):

Yeah, Norway was truly gorgeous ^^ I don’t think I’ve ever felt more at peace than then. I fell asleep in the car at one point while watching the scenery outside, and it was one of the best sleeps in my life, despite being in the car. I’m glad you enjoyed them ^^ If you want, I can upload random pics like that every once in a whole.

Aaah, that’s pretty good reasoning! It makes a lot more sense now, thanks for explaining! 

Yeah, I kinda see why you’d ship it. Steve is a pretty understanding person and, like you said, would probably understand Loki the best ^^ Recommend me some fics and I might even start shipping it myself ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

I LOVE T’CHALLA THANK YOU FOR ASKING YES.  I mean, he angery™, but also freaking cool! Not to mention crazily powerful *^* I’m pretty excited for his movie, cause more badassery from him!

Wow those sound like genuine memes. Seriously why can’t i draw XD

Also HIstory has its eyes on you but it’s actually Illumi will give me nightmares.

GODAMNIT I JUST WANT JUUZOU TO BE HAPPY IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR?? (apparently yes)

Yep, since I have all the volumes, I like to flip through them sometimes and I’m blown away every time by the development.  I also cosplayed the main character a while ago, so it holds a high sentimental value to me. But it is a lot lighter than your usual reads, true...

Well, uh, it’s kinda hard to explain? I mean, DTK is obsessed with symmetry and will go to crazy lengths to preserve it, get mad if someone disturbs it, will jeopardise missions if he’s not sure if he left something perfectly symmetrically at home etc, but it’s not so much as a mental illness as it is a consequence of who he is (part of the Grim Reaper)? Like i said, it’s really had to explain.

Did you manage to find the fight scene?

My reaction to Death Note in general:  FUCK YOU LIGHT YAGAMI. oooh, I’ll search that manga up!

Well, I’m not so much upset about the whitewashing, more about the fact that I feel like the japanese general ideology plays a big role in why light decided to start killing bad people? Idk how to explain it... 

Oh, Japanese-American Kira would’ve been a really interesting thing to see!

Yay, at least you found some good things? Well, it’s nice that you managed that ^^

Damnit, so it didn’t go according to Keikaku! It’s all because they didn’t include the potato chip scene.

Uuh, i don’t exactly remember much of SU, but I guess I’m most similar to Pearl? I didn’t really sympathise with any characters that much tbh. As for gem. Uuuuuh *quickly googles gem meanings* ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA.  I like Zircon because of the colour and alexandrite because it changes colour which is incredibly cool!

Your rambling always makes me feel better tbh. It gives me a looong message from a friend I appreciate incredibly much so, yeah, I always smile when I see a message from you (even though my replies are so slooooooooow)

Aaah, I see! That’s pretty interesting ^^ Quite different from our system.

Ah, shame, you would’ve liked the most recent route, there is so so so much suffering.

Yeah, I am 100% fine!! Don’t worry about it! The reason why I suggested something else is because on sites w an instant messaging system, my replies would probably be a lot quicker,

I AM IN LOVE WITH THE AESTETHICS, ESPECIALLY LIZZY, THAT IS GOALS

and the drawings are adorable ^^ Hide tho ;-;

#evans #submission

[inkofamethyst]

December 25, 2018

ALL THESE COLLEGE ESSAYS REALLY MAKIN’ ME RECONSIDER MY FUTURE GOALS

oh and merry christmas

BUT FO’ REAL THO

I GOT TWELVE ESSAYS DUE JANUARY FIRST AND THEY’VE CAUSED ME NOTHING BUT MASSIVE AMOUNTS OF GRIEF AND SELF-DOUBT AND STRESS

NOT TO MENTION THE FACT THAT THEY’RE ALL JUST HOT, STINKY GARBAGE ESSAYS

...except the one that uses DnD as an extended metaphor.  I like that one more than any essay I’ve written, I think lol look at that now I’ve jinxed it and that one is probably gross too.

anyway

I got a new laptop for Christmas.  It’s cool-lookin’ and powerful but big and heavy.  Hopefully I won’t be one of those kids who ends up carrying around their laptop everywhere because mine is way too big for that.  It’s not like I’m going to be an engineering major, but alas, I didn’t have to pay for it, so I can’t really complain about it.

I also got a leather-bound journal and I love it.  It’s lined with a designated area for the date and it’s got a little leather string thing that wraps around it twice and I love it.  I love journals.  I’m nearing the end of two of them (that’s never happened before!) and I’m super excited to start a new one.  The only problem is that beginning a new journal is a Big Deal because you have to have the right First Page and the right First Entry and everything needs to be good about it.  You know, I also want a journal that looks like a spell tome from Skyrim.  It doesn’t have to have the symbol on it, but I want a hardcover journal that looks magical and fantasy-ish.  That’s my the aesthetic that I want to build.  Fantasy-ish.  Yeah...

I got some cash and also a dice bag that’s slightly bigger than my previous one.

Did I mention that I got a scholarship for choice 8?  It’s a state school, sure, but everything helps.  Can’t remember if I mentioned it earlier, but I found out about it on Sunday.

I also found out that my choice 4 could release decisions as soon as January 17, rather than February 1, two days after the decisions for choice 2 are released.  Boy, that’ll be a week, won’t it.  And then choice 9 could come out a full week ahead of the scheduled February 1.  Incredible.  I mean, it’s still a long time to wait, especially because I applied EA/priority, but it’s nice that it could be ahead of schedule.  Everything so far except choice 3 has been ahead of schedule, actually.  That’s nice.

One of my friends got me a super fuzzy brown blanket and it’s so fluffy and warm and I love it.  Ugh!  I love being warm so much during the winter.  Just so cozy.  Thank you, my Beyonce-friend.

Oh and I got this cute white sweater that I love!  It’s sort of cropped and it has a wide v-neck and I just really like it.  It goes well with my skin tone and shows off my collar bone (I love my collar bone omg).  Also it’s soft and that’s required of any sweater that I wear from now on because itchy sweaters are a thing of my youth.

I got other stuff but that’s the main jazz.

I’m torn between reading a book and listening to Critical Role.  On one hand, I really need to catch up on Critical Role.  On the other hand, I’ve got this stack of used books that I desperately want to finish reading.  And I never have time to read for fun while school is in session... so I’ll probably read.

You know how people do those one-person a capella compilations?  Well, I want to do one of those.  I would really love to sing all most (I can’t beatbox) of the Pentatonix parts to one of their Christmas songs because those arrangements are incredible.  The only issue would be the bass part.  I could probably take it up the octave, but I don’t know if that’ll impede on the alto part?  Anyway I’d figure that out.  But yeah, that’s something that I’d like to do.

Today I’m thankful for the fact that I am fortunate enough to receive gifts on Christmas day.

Yo I can’t wait to get those stupid essays submitted tomorrow.  I literally never want to ever read them again after tomorrow.  And then I’ve got a few days before I have to submit more essays for scholarships... ugh.  This process is killing me.

I also can’t wait for my last four decisions to roll in.  Good times.

Night y’all.

[thatmetalbenderlinbeifong]

Answer all the 200 asks please

Hey, quick question anon. Do you hate me? Cuz it feels like you hate me right now. lol

Ah the things I do for my followers. Answers are under the cut.

200: My crush’s name is: That’s not my information to give away.199: I was born in: Florida 1990198: I am really: I don’t know what this is asking? Tired? Depressed? Sure we’ll go with those.197: My cellphone company is: Boost Mobile196: My eye color is: Blue, mostly195: My shoe size is: That depends on the type of shoe actually. Strangely enough I wear like a half size larger in boots than I do in like sneakers. Which can range anywhere from a 7 ½ to an 8.194: My ring size is: I actually have no idea.193: My height is: About 5′ 5″ish I think.192: I am allergic to: Nothing as far as I’m aware.191: My 1st car was: I haven’t had a car yet, tho I did really want my mothers mustang. I loved that car.190: My 1st job was: I think it was working at Toys R’ Us?189: Last book you read: Oh jeez…uhm…I think it was Mirror’s Gaze by @raedmagdon188: My bed is: ??? Nice? A queen? Fluffy? I don’t know what this question wants.187: My pet: Hoo boy do I have a lot. 3 dogs, Athena, Atlas and Daffy. 3 Cats, Tigerlily, Squirt and George. A bearded dragon, Rango. A turtle, Poseidon. I had a ball python named Medusa, but she passed away a few weeks ago. I miss her.186: My best friend: I have so many friends, and more than 1 best friend. Karyn, Sabrina, @saigneux, @betarays185: My favorite shampoo is: I’ve really grown to like the Mane and Tail stuff. It’s really nice.184: Xbox or ps3: PS3183: Piggy banks are: Nice? I don’t personally use them anymore, but I can see the appeal.182: In my pockets: I don’t have pockets right now. But I’ll usually have my phone, wallet and maybe some chapstick? or tweezers?181: On my calendar: Can’t think of anything.180: Marriage is: Something I’d like to have someday.179: Spongebob can: I??? Dont know??? I don’t care???178: My mom: Is my role model and I’m so lucky to have such a good relationship with her.177: The last three songs I bought were? I don’t know about bought, but I can tell you who the last three artists I listened to were. Alizee, Utada and Nicki Minaj176: Last YouTube video watched: GTLive playing a demo of Home Sweet Home175: How many cousins do you have? A lot…like you have no idea. So many…174: Do you have any siblings? Two. A younger brother and younger sister173: Are your parents divorced? Yes172: Are you taller than your mom? No, she’s a few inches taller.171: Do you play an instrument? No, but I’d love to learn to play the violin one day, or maybe the Cello170: What did you do yesterday? Same as everyday. Eat, sleep and play video games. It’s really not all it’s cracked up to be.[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: I used to. I’m not sure now.168: Luck: I don’t know. I suppose so.167: Fate: Yes166: Yourself: Haha165: Aliens: Yes. I personally think that it’s incredibly ignorant and egotistical of us as a race to believe that out of the vast universe we are the only intelligent beings out there.164: Heaven: No163: Hell: No162: God: It’s complicated. I don’t believe that there is one all powerful god. If I did choose to believe in a god, it would be something more along the lines of the Greek gods. 161: Horoscopes: I don’t honestly put too much weight in what they say, but they are fun.160: Soul mates: Yes, but I don’t necessarily believe that there is just one soul mate for each person.159: Ghosts: Oh yes, I definitely believe in ghosts. I’ve had my share of sights and experiences.158: Gay Marriage: Well, seeing as I’m a lesbian. Yeah. But even if I wasn’t I would still regardless.157: War: I don’t know. I think that in some cases it’s unavoidable. But I also think that we fall back on war as a default to easily.156: Orbs: Like, in relation to ghosts? I suppose so.155: Magic: I like to believe that there is some magic in the world.[ This or That ]154: Hugs or Kisses: Both? Depends on who it’s from.153: Drunk or High: Well, I have a high tolerance for alcohol so I’ve never been drunk and I have no desire to be high so…neither.152: Phone or Online: Online. I have some mild phone anxiety and I don’t even like talking to my best friends on the phone. I prefer to text.151: Red heads or Black haired: Both? But I will definitely say I am partial to red heads.150: Blondes or Brunettes: Again, both. 149: Hot or cold: Cold, definitely. But preferably accompanied by snow.148: Summer or winter: Winter. Again, with snow please.147: Autumn or Spring: Autumn146: Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate145: Night or Day: Night144: Oranges or Apples: Neither really. But I’d take apples over oranges, I guess.143: Curly or Straight hair: I’d like curly, personally.142: McDonalds or Burger King: I like both to a degree.141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: Milk Chocolate140: Mac or PC: PC139: Flip flops or high heals: Depends on the occasion. Just casually, then flip flops.138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: Not really a fan of this question. But for the sake of simplicity, sweet and poor.137: Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi136: Hillary or Obama: I like both135: Burried or cremated: I don’t particularly care either way honestly.134: Singing or Dancing: Singing, tho I’d prefer to do neither in front of someone else.133: Coach or Chanel: Again, I don’t really care.132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: I have no idea who either of these people are by name. 131: Small town or Big city: A little of both?130: Wal-Mart or Target: Don’t have a preference, I like both.129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Neither. 128: Manicure or Pedicure: Manicure127: East Coast or West Coast: I’ve never lived on the west coast, so I have to say east.126: Your Birthday or Christmas: As of right now? Neither. Neither have been good the last few years and some pretty horrible things have happened near both so…I don’t really care for either right now.125: Chocolate or Flowers: Flowers124: Disney or Six Flags: Disney123: Yankees or Red Sox: Neither. I’m not really a big baseball fan.[ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War: I already made a comment about this above. 121: George Bush: I’m not getting political in this, I just don’t have it in me.120: Gay Marriage: We deserve that right.119: The presidential election: Again, not getting political.118: Abortion: Pro-choice117: MySpace: Used to have one, but I don’t really care about that site anymore.116: Reality TV: I don’t really watch it, just not my thing.115: Parents: Like, my parents? Moms good. Fuck my biological father.114: Back stabbers: They suck113: Ebay: I don’t know. It’s nice? I don’t use it much, more so Amazon.112: Facebook: Meh, it’s good for some things. I don’t use it much either.111: Work: I miss working.110: My Neighbors: I dont’ know them.109: Gas Prices: Don’t have a car so I dont even notice them.108: Designer Clothes: I could care less about designer clothes.107: College: I went. It was okay.106: Sports: I like volleyball, tennis, soccer and hockey, but that’s about it. The others are okay.105: My family: That’s complicated. I like some of them.104: The future: Unsure and scary[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: A few months ago? When I moved?102: Last time you ate: a few hours ago. 101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: When I moved.100: Cried in front of someone: I don’t know. I try not to cry in front of other people.99: Went to a movie theater: A few weeks ago. To see Beauty and the Beast98: Took a vacation: I suppose in a sense, I’m on a vacation now.97: Swam in a pool: It’s been a long time.96: Changed a diaper: A very long time.95: Got my nails done: A few months94: Went to a wedding: Years and years ago I think93: Broke a bone: Never92: Got a peircing: Almost a year ago? I got my nips done.91: Broke the law: I can’t really think of anything.90: Texted: Just now.[ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most: @betarays​88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: This is complicated and I’m not getting into it.87: The last movie I saw: Arrival. It was so good.86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: I don’t know.85: The thing im not looking forward to: The future.84: People call me: They call me a lot of things. 83: The most difficult thing to do is: Express my emotions verbally.82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: Never81: My zodiac sign is: Sagittarius80: The first person i talked to today was: @betarays​79: First time you had a crush: Like a real crush on a real person? Sophomore year of high school. My English teacher.78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: @saigneux​77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: Today. and it was @betarays​ telling me how gay I was.76: Right now I am talking to: Karyn75: What are you going to do when you grow up: Seeing as I’m technically “grown up” the answer is being a piece of shit.74: I have/will get a job: I mean like, that would be ideal, wouldn’t it?73: Tomorrow: I’ll probably do the same thing I did today.72: Today: I took a depression nap for like 10 hours71: Next Summer: I don’t know where I’ll be next summer.70: Next Weekend: Probably the same as every other day.69: I have these pets: I already mentioned these above.68: The worst sound in the world: Something sharp on glass.67: The person that makes me cry the most is: Me66: People that make you happy: I have a lot of those. Friends.65: Last time I cried:  Oh yesterday. A lot.64: My friends are: Incredibly important to me63: My computer is: a piece of shit, but it’s the only one i have so yeah62: My School: I don’t go to school anymore.61: My Car: Don’t have a car.60: I lose all respect for people who: Are willingly ignorant and bigoted.59: The movie I cried at was: Homeward Bound. Watched it the other night.58: Your hair color is: Red, right now.57: TV shows you watch: I just finished watching Wynonna Earp.56: Favorite web site: I don’t know? I guess tumblr?55: Your dream vacation: Athens, Greece.54: The worst pain I was ever in was: When my gum was infected because of a broke tooth.53: How do you like your steak cooked: Rare - medium rare52: My room is: A depression cave??51: My favorite celebrity is: I have so many. But Mary Elizabeth McGlynn is very high on that list.50: Where would you like to be: I honestly don’t know.49: Do you want children: Yes, one day.48: Ever been in love: I have. I am.47: Who’s your best friend: I already said this above in another question.46: More guy friends or girl friends: I don’t know? Probably about equal45: One thing that makes you feel great is: When the person I love tells me that she loves me.44: One person that you wish you could see right now: @saigneux​43: Do you have a 5 year plan: Ha, I barely have a plan for tomorrow.42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: No, but I’ve put a little bit of thought into it.41: Have you pre-named your children: No, but I have some names that I like.40: Last person I got mad at: My teammates in my last overwatch comp game…39: I would like to move to: I don’t know. There are a lot of places I’d like to visit. But I don’t know about move to.38: I wish I was a professional: I don’t know.[ My Favorites ]37: Candy: Three Musketeers36: Vehicle: I’d really love a bike some day.35: President: Obama34: State visited: I suppose Indiana?33: Cellphone provider: I don’t know? I guess Boost?32: Athlete: I don’t really have a fave athlete.31: Actor: Sean Connery.30: Actress: I have so many. Meryl Streep29: Singer: Tarja Turunen28: Band: Halestorm27: Clothing store: Don’t have one.26: Grocery store: Don’t have a favorite.25: TV show: Bob’s Burgers24: Movie: Gone with the Wind23: Website: Tumblr I guess?22: Animal: Snakes21: Theme park: Don’t have a favorite.20: Holiday: Halloween19: Sport to watch: Hockey, volleyball, soccer, tennis.18: Sport to play: Volleyball, soccer or tennis17: Magazine: Don’t have one.16: Book: The Dark Wife15: Day of the week: I don’t know? Saturday?14: Beach: Coco Beach13: Concert attended: Celtic Woman12: Thing to cook: Greek Fish Fillet11: Food: Seafood10: Restaurant: Red Lobster9: Radio station: Don’t have one.8: Yankee candle scent: It’s not Yankee but blackest sandlewood7: Perfume: Don’t have one.6: Flower: Magnolia5: Color: Purple, or red4: Talk show host: Don’t really have one.3: Comedian: Wanda Sykes2: Dog breed: I love so many different kinds. But, great dane. 1: Did you answer all these truthfully? Yup

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[bidickgrayson]

i’ve been really loving persona 5 so far, but i’ve been too busy playing it to actually write down my thoughts so far lol

i think persona 5 is going to be the first persona game i actually finish!! amazing. i got like, 65-75% through both persona 3 and 4 and haven’t played them in over a year lol....probably going to go back and restart them after i finish p5 so i can finally finish them a couple years after starting them. i can barely even remember what happens in both of them lol

the palaces are surprisingly fun?? also i’m super duper glad that safe mode is a thing, my enjoyment of the game went up a lot when i finally switched. dungeon crawling in p5 is fun, but i’ve never been all that invested in the actual fights themselves in any persona game, and to me they’re just annoying obstacles in the way of all the other stuff about the game i’m a whole lot more interested in. i honestly doubt i’ll ever play a persona game on a difficulty higher than easy

i’m also really impressed by how different each palace is?? i really thought after the first one that they’d all follow that same basic blueprint of like, you go in, fight enemies, find the items you need to progress, and you’re done, with different aesthetics for each one. but each palace has kind of a new gimmick/puzzle, so it’s not just finding the right order to pull levers or whatever, it’s figuring out how to beat an unwinnable game or interrogate a guard the right way for a password. it’s all so fresh and different and never feels like a slog because of that. and i love the connections between the palace and the person’s cognition, like “oh, this is that way because this person thinks of this thing like that”. lots of cool connections that way, lots of cool explanations for why a palace is a certain way

this game feels so cool??? cool isn’t even the proper word for it, because i don’t think it conveys the my strength of feeling enough. like, everything about the game’s design and the whole phantom thief thing makes me feel cool and competent as hell. infiltrating a palace by sneaking in and solving puzzles and beating up or sneaking past guard and making thieves tools and taking cover and jumping up and across obstacles and sending calling cards and assigning different tasks in the middle of a boss fight to accomplish something and hearing the awesome music after you’ve sent a calling card and getting contacts to help with various aspects of thieves’ work....everything down to the menus and loading screens, the whole game is just a whole lot of fun and looks rad as hell and makes me feel rad as hell playing it. it really feels like a group of thieves planning a whole involved operation, and that’s awesome

related, but damn, pretty much everything about the protag is cool as hell, he’s so slick, and i went from thinking his mask was kinda goofy to thinking it really suits him and it’s great

i love the group a lot. like, a lot. and i know that because i don’t want the game to end, and also because i’ve been listening to the (awesome awesome awesome) ost, and there are some endgame songs that make me almost queasy with how much emotion i feel from them, which is directly related to how much i love the group. and the last time i remember that kind of feeling was in me3 and the batfamily lol

like i said, i don’t remember much from p4, but i like morgana a helluva lot more than teddie lol. which i mention just because they’re basically equivalents in the role they play, and also because i genuinely very much like morgana

i love the confidants. it’s hard for me to think of a confidant i don’t like (although i haven’t done them all). i like that they’re all likable people, and i love that so much of the game is about the thieves finding commonalities/connections with each other and with other people. i can’t remember a lot of p3/4, and maybe i’ll change my mind when i replay, but i feel like at least in p3 there were some social links for people who.....i didn’t really like a whole lot. like maybe they were interesting or whatever, but not really good people. which is totally different from my experience with p5 for me, because basically everyone is a good (misunderstood/unfairly judged) person (with some problems too probably, sure)

related, but i feel like this game is very sympathetic to its cast of characters, which i really love. like with futaba and her extreme social anxiety. the game/characters don’t shame her for having a hard time with people and needing time/whatever (and they praise her when she does something hard for her that’d be easy for others, like going out in public!! love it) and that’s really nice. i feel like there’s a lot of compassion for the victims of the story, which in a game that’s all about questions of justice and doing right or whatever, really makes the story a lot better and more compelling to me. it’s not just about going and beating up the bad guy, it’s going and beating up the bad guy so there is justice for all the people the bad guy has abused. and characters can be angry at their mistreatment! really like that too. 

like, there are legitimate reasons to kind of question the power to change hearts how they want, and the morality of that, but i liked that it was never like “these poor people whose hearts we changed didn’t deserve that :(”, it was more like “these villains fucking deserved whatever was coming to them, but is this the right way morally to handle these situations of injustice?” i liked that they never let abusive people off the hook for being abusive, no matter their reason

it’s been nice playing because i feel like i feel the things the story wants me to feel. which is a roundabout way of saying the game has good writing lol. i like that the game doesn’t just say “these are the good guys and that’s all there is to say about it”, i liked that there were questions of whether the phantom thieves were right or not, and while they’re the protagonists and clearly who you root for, there’s also an understanding for why some people might find it questionable that there’s an option to change a heart arbitrarily. and like, i hated when they were uber popular (and being set-up), but in-story, the characters were also a little bit wary and overwhelmed, and there was some evidence that maybe this overwhelming popularity wasn’t the best. and now that period of popularity is over, and the characters are like, yeah, that....wasn’t good, and i’m like, thank god i wasn’t the only one who thought so. there are dozens of other examples. like now that they’re back to being distrusted/ppl not believing in them, they’re all like, this is actually kinda better, and i’m like, YES, i love you best when you’re doing good things in the dark basically

and my final worry on this point of matching what the game expects me to feel versus what i actually feel was finally put to rest today! yay! i’ve pretty much always disliked akechi, and i fcking called that akechi was the gonna be a baddie (or at least not who he pretended to be) from back when he said something about pancakes when he shouldn’t have understood morgana saying it, and i’m relieved that i was right. persona loves to throw in little things that are just weird enough to make me ask “now why did that happen that way” and figure it out, which makes me feel smart when i figure something out 60+ hours before it’s revealed in game lol. and persona loves the “this seemingly benign character is not what they seem!” and that makes me 3/3 on that character in each of the persona games i’ve played. which i like, honestly. i like that the clue is there, enough so i can grab it, and feel clever for it. it’s why i like the puzzles in the game too--they’re not super challenging, but figuring them out usually makes me feel pretty clever and competent without getting frustrated, which is a great feeling

ALSO!! ALSO!!!! i love it when something the game has been teasing and building expectation for for a while turns out to be even better than i was hoping for. (which last happened with olivier in sora no kiseki sc). and the whole operation where protag gets caught and interrogated by sae?? SO MUCH BETTER THAN I THOUGHT. i fcking loved their whole ridiculously complicated and involved plan, and them figuring out akechi without him knowing, and i loved all the tiny details, and i loved that once again, hours before it was actually revealed, the game gave me enough of a hint for me to realize, oh, they were wanting protag to get captured coming into this operation....(when makoto asked sae very specifically about the interrogation room in the basement). it was really frustrating to watch the phantom thieves get set-up in the badlands of september/october, but it’s gonna make it even more satisfying when the phantom thieves outsmart their enemies (which they’re already largely have so far, and it’s GREAT!!!). shido and akechi are good villains, they’ll be satisfying to beat

because i’ve never beaten an persona game, i have no idea what to expect for the ending. are we gonna go all the way through march to finish the year? is it going to finish at school or something (??) or with a big final boss?? is the protag gonna leave after his year is up and (presumably) his name is cleared? i don’t expect the game to end in december after they take shido’s heart, because the cruise ship doesn’t really feel like a final dungeon, and i think akechi is gonna have more significance than they’re giving him right now. but idk, maybe i’m wrong! i’m kind of dreading the ending just because i want to keep planning heists and playing indefinitely, but if the ending’s anywhere near as satisfying as the whole plan to get joker captured, i’ll be happy. i’m gonna really miss the phantom thieves and the feeling i get while playing no matter what tho

#the tl;dr of this is p5 is a game about a bunch of vigilante heroes wanting to do good and help people #and that's my number one weakness forever and ever amen #('heroes are forever') #but here's this post with like a thousand words elaborating on some of my thoughts on the game so far #persona 5 spoilers / #up through november #katherine plays persona #talking to myself