#ok last thing bc this is funny

[lesbiacnh]

omg i get a little stressed and to cope i end up playing esthetician until 130 am and go to bed feeling worse than before. and like id pluck every leg hair out but haven’t brushed my teeth yet. and after that my skin gets soo bad and im like whattttt why is this uappening.

#text #the past couple of months have been crayzeeeeeee but now things are cslm. but im still 🫨🫨🫨 mentally bc im not in a good routine or anything #it always starts bc im like ‘i need to take better care of myself’ and then ends badly. lol #tiktok ‘everything shower’ joke kinda made me get back into the strange habit of doing the absolute bare minimum + doing everything in one #night and feeling worse. instead of like having a more consistent routine #rly i need to start working out again. it helps me regulate things bc i like to plan ahead lol #im on anxiety meds now so im gonna TRYYYYYY to help myself by getting in a better routine #AND BY THAT. i mean SLOWLY bc ive gone through this cycle before and and starting things all on the same day is a variant of this. #and i gotta get off my phone. my neck fucking hurts from sitting weird and scrolling too long #tiny bit cringy to admit but i want to find a stim toy that i could do the same scroll motion on. if that makes sense #like a smooth peice of metal or something. maybe i’ll buy a little keychain and see if that could replace the motion while im chillin doing #something else #SORRY if anyone does read this usually i reread my posts to make sure im coherent before posting but its 140 something am and im high again #ALSO 2024 resolution im done being high on most week nights. i need to calm down w it #ok last thing bc this is funny #phoebe bridgers song came on while i was driving home and the one lyric was like im not afraid of going back to school……. #and it hit me in that exact moment bc I AMMMMMM AFRAID TO go back to school but im not‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ it’s fine‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ i am not gonna #ok goodnight. i brushed my teeth #sabotage this.

[wikoymi]

akechi (and some jokers) which all have the same exact pose for some reason

#i finished the stupid game. i hate persona 5 royal DNI never talk to me again #working on an animatc so. huuurhgh #goro akechi #persona 5 #persona 5 fanart #p5 #fanart #art #doodle #wikoart #im literally so. #@ person who rbed my last akechi asking if i was having fun. No. im not #ok rant time #DUDE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #dude. they chiaki’d him. this sint funy #second time this has happened to me. why can my favs never be happy!!!! (and real) #THE FUNNY THING IS LIKE #ME AND MY FRIEND WERE JOKING ABOUT HIM BEING CHAKI #BC I NAMED JOKER NAGTO KMAEDA. and akechi killed him #like lol dnganronap reference #AND THEN #FEBRUARY 2ND. #i was so sad when he died then when he came back on dec 24 i literally screamed my friend was like Yam u should unmute #i was at peace. #anyways royal content activating so many of my neurons like Ur reminding me of gnsn mobsai dgrp gravity falls somehow like HELLO? #akechi would be sucha great fatui harbinger (<- crazy) #he reminds me of scr chlde and arle so like. Hrm #also human morgana made me want to die #Bryce Papenbrook GET AWAY FROM ME NOW.

[potatobugz]

i submitted my lovely mouseboy Finnegan for the @ahatintime-oc-competition yesterday :D here is the art i drew 4 them!

for those unaware: he came from a dream i had once involving him and Snatcher But As A Bird; and i sorta just. added onto them from there. they're so sillay

#a hat in time oc #potatart #ahit #(just for the art tag....sorry : #Finnegan Snowshoe #get propergandered. i will conjure up more art of them soon i think #very vivid image in my mind of what their personality is like but its rlly hard to describe #........... #ok quickly avert ur eyes i am going to say something that is embarrassing to me #oc competitions make me nervous and it is because i think last time i did one it went Badly #like idc about the losing part i thought that was really funny but i just felt like everyone.hated me : #i know thats not true and its the brain poison talking but #i remember somebody skimmed thru my account and saw that i was hyperfixated on south park at the time and #uswd that as a reason to not vote for my character #which was one of those things that made me so so nervous that i felt Physically Ill and it ruined like my whole day #confidence is key. i think. so i am grabbing myself by the shoulders and going “YOU ARE GOING TO HAVE FUN!!!!” #sorry for the very Personalness that just jappened here. its okay thought bc i trust everuone averyed their eyes to my sad ramblings #besides i like finnegan :] and i trust most ppl to not Kill me Dead #anyways. ignore ignore ignore FINNECHER NUMERO UNO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #THIS IS A LITTLE SOMETHING I LIKE TO CALL: PUTTING TOO MUCH EFFORT INTO THINGS

[reasoncourt]

#tomgreg #ok soooo I haven’t been online much recently #had to ruin my life in new and exciting ways #it’s been pretty funny #maybe I should tell you all about it #I’ve been looking really cute recently as well #so undecided whether things are going well or not dhehsjsjs #I should rant about the people in my hometown bc fr I forgot how insane this is #anywaysssss yeah I’ll be more online from now on #bc I miss my people #if you messaged me over the last few weeks then I’m rlly sorry I’ve been the worst at responding #and I will do that soon #mwah mwah ily #(if you didn’t notice me gone then pretend you never read this) #succession #should I have done this for romelukas as well… kind of fits them too tbf #hi dee hi Laura I miss you especially a lot a lot

[astranauticus]

Do mechanites cry?

#rolling with difficulty #vrla rwd #mrsn rwd #vr la rwd #mr sn rwd #art i made #yet another thing i drew then just fully forgot to post LMAO #man i had to listen to 3.7 like 3 times for this. goddammit #easter egg: the 4 big infernal books in the shelf all say contract law like its a textbook series i guess #the small one next to them says Doctor Faustus bc i was looking to my irl bookcase for inspiration #and the christopher marlowe play was one of my alevel lit texts #also i think it would be really funny if the devils have their own version of the story of the deal with the devil guy #honestly this may have been the kinda. last straw of my burnout cuz this was a lot of time spent on a lot of stuff im really not good at #and none of it turned out... exactly how i wanted but oh well. it is what it is #ok the kinda annoying thing about me spending far too fucking long drawing super emotional scenes like this is i kinda #desensitise myself to whatever im drawing. like i felt it the most with the demon possession comic i casually tossed into the discord #bc thats the exact kinda angst i personally LOVE but it just doesnt have the same punch after ive been staring at it for 5 hours straight #(anyway go read cal's fic about it its on ao3 and its bloody good) #all this to say. when i first listened to 3.7 and austin had that exchange of like #'noir can i ask you a lore question' 'sure..?' 'do mechanites cry?' #i straight up got fuckin CHILLS. and sometimes i forget that but i try to force myself not to

[cherubytes]

does the guy complaining about the amount of gay ultrakill fanart they see know they're on the gay fanart website???? "i cant scroll through the tag without seeing 30 fanarts of gabriel in a skirt" my brother in christ that man isnt wearing pants

#ramblings #ultrakill #sorry i usually dont pay attention to this kind of thing but that last complaint was really funny to me #“nothing in this game is meant to be sexualized'' in the game that has buttplug support?????? #like ok. i get not wanting to see anything nsf/w but that can be remedied by like. blocking the suggestive or nsft tags #as an asexual i do get the frustration of not being interested in the nsf/w side of fandoms. idk how it is on reddit or twitter #but i imagine that its a bit more difficult to avoid without a tagging system. i honestly have no clue since i rarely go on those sites #but the way this guy went about it is so weird lol #what happened to curating your own online experience or whatever. ive got fandoms i like where im not interested in what #most people like to post about. so i just go look elsewhere #cutting this short bc this is already way too long

[xannerz]

☁️🌞☁️

#so this is my first trip abroad and I’ve cried multiple times #it’s kinda funny tbh LMAO. like I’ve just been so in awe at the sights. #I also cried bc I’m sad my parents won’t be able to see this in person like. ever. #my mom medically should not fly and obvs my dad and I aren’t gonna like #go anywhere without her even if we had the chance #so I’ve just been dwelling on that #I called them last night to say hi and instantly starting bawling bc of it and they looked at my snot-nosed face on FaceTime like ‘bro’ #I go from crying bc I’m homesick or stressed abt work and family to crying bc I’m so overwhelmed w joy at being here LMAO ⚖️ #also missing my gf …. ;^; my friends are so cute we’ll be in a shop #and they’ll see me holding a couple things and they’re like is that for [birb] and I laugh like yes it is 😌❤️ #ok I’m rambling sorry I’ll clean these tags up later #mine #chianti

[bangcakes]

.

#LMAO.... i was not meant for this loveydovey shid. i am sooooooo lovesick its not even funny #like can someone save me. its gotten so bad #i talked to my mom about it on n off for like 3 hours NDNDJDJJDJD #im just !!!!!!! ah.... i have to be patient. thats just what i have to be #bc rushing will only make things worse #and i cant be heartbroken during the semester. like thatd suck #but then.. i also dont knownif i wanna be in a relationship during school either??????? #like can i handle it or will i go so googoo eyes that i flunk out aJdkdkdkdkdkd #and IN MY LAST TERM????? #like hhhh im so scared i'll never see him again when schools over. which... ok unlikely bc we have the same friends #but even if we DO see each other it wont be as often as now !!!!! #hhhhh i wanna see him everyday 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #HHHHHHHHHHHH GOD #feel like im gonna end up confessing to him the last day of school NDJDJJDJDJDJDJDJDJDJDJD #which !!!! again bc we have the same friends....... could be sooo detrimental!!!!!!!!!!!! #but god i cant just be just friends alright. like hhhh !!!!!@@@ i like him so much 😭😭😭😭 #his eyes are so kind n like the way he looks at me i just !!!!!!!!!@@@ baboom baboom baBOOM.. !!!! ya know !!!!!!!!@ #n e way....... im not seeing him tomorrow (heartbreak hotel) so now i gotta wait A DAY????? incomprehensible #personal

[jinx-you-owe-me]

PART 20

of the dfk 2023 audiobook translation

@cnka

Narrator (audiobook): Robert puts another piece of wood on the trunk and swings the axe.

Bökh: „And you never wanted to get in touch?"

The Nichtraucher picks up a piece of wood.

Silence.

Nichtraucher: „Why should I? We didn’t see each other for the past ten years either.“

He rips the piece of wood apart with his bare hands. While holding eye contact with Justus.

Silence.

Justus lowers his head.

Jo: „Uh.. weren’t you-" Martina, quietly: „Jo, leave it. Lets go.“

Martina, louder: „We need to go! We still have something to do.“

The kids leave. Jo and Martina are holding hands as they walk away.

Bökh: „Yeah… Thank you, kids.“

Jo, whispering as they walk away: "What was that just now?!"

Robert picks up the chopped wood and walks back to his wagon. Justus looks after him.

Narrator (audiobook): If the two friends will find back together? Matze isn’t so sure of that.

Matze, sarcastically: „Well, that was a great success!“ Jo: „Yeah, so much for friendship between Internals and Externs.“

Narrator (audiobook): At least Robert granted Herr Bökh access to his wagon. He looks around lost in thought more or less, while Robert washes the dishes.

Dishes clatter. There is silence otherwise.

Justus stares wistfully at Robert while he washes the dishes.

Justus takes his eyes off Robert and starts looking around while Robert continues to ignore him.

Bökh: „I thought you were living in London.“ Nichtraucher: (silence) Bökh: „It's nice here.“ Nichtraucher: (silence)

Justus starts walking around.

Bökh: „I told the kids about our friendship.“ Nichtraucher: „As a cautionary tale?“ Bökh: (chuckles/scoffs) „No. Of course not.“

Narrator (audiobook): Bökh spots the poster of „the Bandits“, the same one hanging in his apartment.

Bökh: „The 'Wild Dog' that we always played in is still there.“

Nichtraucher: (silence)

Bökh: „Should we meet there sometime? For a beer?“

Robert looks up.

He lets out a small huff, almost like an incredulous laugh or a scoff.

He dries his hands on a towel and folds it.

Nichtraucher: (silence) Nichtraucher: „I don’t know what we would have to say to each other.“

Bökh: „Hm. Well. A lot of time has passed.“

Narrator (audiobook): Robert sits down at the table and lights himself a cigarette.

Justus turns as well and starts looking around again.

Nichtraucher: „Why didn’t you come to Marie’s funeral back then?“

Nichtraucher: „You didn’t even get in touch.“

[„You didn't even get in touch“ -> parallels to „And you never wanted to get in touch?“]

Justus is silent. He starts fiddling with his jacket and pulls it off his shoulder. He lets out a deep, shaky sigh and is silent for another few moments.

Bökh: „…I don’t know, you met her and… and suddenly you were gone.“

[Parallels to „suddenly your closest loved ones are gone“]

Bökh: „As if everything -our friendship, the band- as if that had all just been a dream.“

Justus turns around and looks at Robert.

Bökh: „Wir zwei. Wir hatten doch Pläne.“

Bökh: „That really hurt me.“ Nichtraucher: „It hurt you.“

Silence. Just the music.

Bökh: „Yes. Very much back then.“

The Nichtraucher lets out a soft incredulous laugh again, almost like a scoff.

Nichtraucher: „I see.“

Long silence. Justus stares out the window. Finally, he turns and walks to the door.

Bökh: „You know where to find me.“

Justus leaves the wagon. Robert nods to himself silently.

Narrator (audiobook): And with these words, Herr Bökh leaves his friend’s train wagon. If the two will ever see each other again?

#das fliegende klassenzimmer #dfk 2023 audiobook translation #dfk #das fliegende klassenzimmer 2023 #mine #this is the most scene of dfk 2023 to me. i am having so many feelings and thoughts about it #there is so much to unpack #i really hope this did it justice... the whole. silent staring obviously doesnt translate #the silence in general doesnt translate #i would recommend to actually watch the scene #the silence is so so pivotal #another addition; #ach gott ich nehm grad neue bilder auf weil diese szene hq wirklich wert ist #und ich komm immer noch nicht darüber hinweg dass justus den nichtraucher allen ernstes 7 SEKUNDEN LANG ANSTARRT WÄHREND DER SPÜLT #ich hab hier wirklich am image limit gekratzt #tbh mit dem foto von den kindern kann ich nichts anfangen aber es scheint nicht unwichtig zu sein so i included it #it cant be robert and justus cause these kids are waaayy too young #if robert and justus met in school #these kids are like. idk. 9?? #and i assumed they met when they were around the age of the kids in this movie #but maybe i got it wrong?? #its so funny at some point i dont even talk about the Main Things of this scene anymore and focus on the most miniscule details instead #thats probably bc ive watched it maybe 10 times now and literally know this scene by heart. but let us PLEASE talk about the Main Things #i am so ready to have endless discussions about justraucher #hopefully the last addition of tags; #ok honestly i made almost as many edits to the tags as i did to the post #cause i kept changing little things so my comments werent up to date anymore #i think this part will be my magnum opus out of them all. but who knows theres still 9 to come #i think it shows that this is my favourite 🙃 #oh yes i also added mentions to the parallels. felt like these were significant

[daydadahlias]

Omg I just saw your post about having to fill out a student alert form. Are you ok? Are you safe?

hi Dee :) ok so,,, some Jess lore right now is that I am currently being <3 stalked <3 a little bit irl. which is obviously not great lmfao and I am nOt loving it but I'm safe and I'm ok !!! my life is not in danger. it hopefully will not progress any further now that I've talked to my boss about it and she made me file a student alert form abt the whole thing but !! yeah. it's been. a very frustrating few weeks here in the real world :/

#pigeon #dee #for some context i work at this writing center at my school #assistant director of it in fact :salute: #and when i was doing research last semester for MiM (isn't it funny how all these things loop together) #i had a tinder for a couple days that I used to understand online dating dfghj and to write the chapter where ash/cal make ashton's tinder #and anyway i matched w/ this guy. and we talked for a day #and then i deleted the app bc I was done w/ my research lol #fast forward to now... turns out !! he goes to my school !! #and comes to my work to schedule appointments with Only me #he refuses to go to any other consultant #and he keeps trying/pressuring to ask to work on papers Outside of the writing center #and during appointments he always tries to ask me personal questions about <3 where I'm from and what I do on the weekends <3 #and like he saw me at dinner recently on my day off and came and. sat with me at dinner. even tho I was like ~please leave me alone~ #and emails me outside of writing center hours to ask to meet and look at his paper #and like ! no ! u fuckwad im not doing that lol #so yeah it's been a Constant thing these last four weeks and it's just been Annoying. but after the whole #dinner thing and the email thing. and then another thing today <3 #i talked to my boss and she was like 'ok yeah this is a stalker situation and you need to report it' #soo i did #and we'll see if anything comes of that !! #i love being me it's very fun and exciting #i love how casually i can say I'm being stalked #bc this is not the first time this has happened dfghjk #which makes me sound like sUCH A PICK ME #but this will be my third time being stalked on this college campus #kind of a veteran at this point not to brag

[mqonlighting]

real talk in the tags for a second because i have a crush on a girl and i. a hehe. ahehehe.

will be burying this in reblogs and never touching on it again

#so random disclaimer this girl is like a year older than me and in high school it’s like a nono for older and younger batch to like be #a thing so i know i generally have no chance but i like to live in my own insanity and the progression of my crush on her has been absolute #ly cuckoo bananas. so like it started out as ‘i wanna be your friend’ and progressed into ‘shit they’re really pretty’ to ‘wow ur so??’ to #‘fuck i like them’ and then it died down and then by all golly it came back but more of a hallway crush now which is bearable bc i’m #not really a part of their life?? like we know each other but we don’t wave and shit and we don’t like ever interact that much so i was lik #ok this is fine bc they literally never think of me so i’m just admiring from afar. and the FIRST inciting incident was i request them onig #and i expect to not get accepted because according to their friends they onyl accept close friends and i’m like k this is a bad idea probs #but the worst that could happen is i get left in their follow requests right?? RIGHT?? but then within like two hours of reqing. lord. #i got. ACCEPTED. and they requested back. and suddenly it’s +1 tangibility like ok?? maybe we’re not as strangers as i thought we were #i later discovered i was not that special for this but also?? cool?? anyways for a while it kind of laid dead and we never spoke at all eve #tho i was in their acc now (at this time they barely posted but whenever they did it was so?? funny like they would slap the randomest shit #on that acc) and it was still a hallway crush altho my friends r awful (/pos) people who would always make me pass their hallway and i #would run into them so often but at this point we only ever like exchanged glances and they would walk right past me like i wasnt even ther #but THEN the second incident happened which was basically we had to play instruments for this christmas event thing and bc they’re literall #y amazing they played for it and i was roped into it and. i was so gay the whole time. bc who wears a leather jacket to school and gets the #prettiest haircut ever right on the last day before a long break?? and the worst part is whenevr something confusing happened they would #turn to me and this one other person and we’d b laughing together. like we r friends. and they’re so fucking nice they were checking up on #us the whole time i was literally dying i kept dropping my pick and stealing looks AURURUGH and they’re so gen funny and interesting i just #and the first few days of holiday break i just couldn’t stop thinking abt them it was so bad? like that was the moment where i was genuinel #like is this more than a hallway crush… eventually it died back down until the next event we had to play together where they were being SO #SO much more comf w me? like exchanging knowing looks when smt funny happens and that stuff.. at this point i didnt even know what to like #think of my crush on them so i just let it be yk. atp they’re not even waving at me in the hallways at all still so maybe they’re just bein #nice! BUT NO. THAT IS UNTIL I AUDITIONED FOR A BAND (theyr in charge of accepting) AND THEY ACCEPTED ME WHICH COOL BUT LIKE A DAY LATER I #HEARD FROM OUR MUTUAL FRIEND THAT THEY SAID ‘yeaa im so happy i got (my name)’ AS IN IN THE BAND. LIKE. HELLO?? HI U THIUGHT ABT ME?? and #during the first band mtg where everyone’s all awk they kept making eye contact w me and asking if i was good and making sure i got to say #smt before anyone made a decision and it. murdered. me. i’m sorry maybe it’s the fanfic writer in me or this shit is literally nothing and #think they’re just nice to everyone but who cares bc it means they’re nice to ME too. and then last week happened. which was like the nail #in the coffin. INTERACTION ACTIVITY. I IMPULSIVELY ASK IF THEY WANNA B GROUPMATES AND THEY SAY YES. THEY ONLY TALK TO ME AND THEIR FRIENDS. #I ACT STUPID. THEY ALUGH AND TOUCH MY SHOULDER. I ASK ABT THEIR CAMERA AND THEY GO ON A LONG-ISH (cute) RANT ABT SMTH. THEY ASK WHY I HAVE #BIG ASS STACK OF POST ITS. WE TALK. THEY LAUGH AT MY JOKES. SUDDENLY. THEY SAY A FULL HELLO IN THE HALLS. THEY WAVE AT ME A DAY LATER. FUCK

[magentagalaxies]

i really want to start making a table collecting statistics on the audience demographics i'll perform my aubrey material for (like what generation most of the audience is, whether i'm performing in a predominantly queer space, etc.) and how well the jokes land bc like. i need to collect more data points before i can properly present my findings but the results so far have been fascinating

#again i do not have enough performance experiences to make any definitive claims about who ''aubery's audience'' is #but i find it funny that any time i show my aubrey material one-on-one to a queer gen z person #they're always like ''i love it but straight people will definitely hate it or not get it'' #and i get the inclination to be like. ''i like this thing so people like me will like this thing'' #and cishet society seems so polarized w/r/t queer topics it's like. the assumption makes sense #however. whenever i've done an aubrey performance in front of an audience that's predominantly queer and gen z #i've actually received a primarily negative response!! and somehow straight people have never given me shit for my aubrey material #(''well straight allys don't count'' i told some of my aubrey jokes to a joe rogan dudebro and he enjoyed them) #(which yeah maybe could be a mark against my comedy but i like to think i opened his mind a bit at the very least) #i really want to test my aubrey monologues in front of a primarily gen x/boomer audience #bc so far i only have actual performance experience in front of gen z or millennials #and the older people i've told jokes to individually or shown videos of my stuff have really liked it #luckily paul has said a goal for when i'm in town this summer is to get me to perform my aubrey stuff in as many different places as possib #for both queer audiences and non-queer audiences so i can gauge reactions since i don't want to be confined to one demographic #so i'll get a lot of data points this summer #@ paul get me a performing slot at senior citizen pride lmao these are my people #(shoutout to paul going ''jess stop collecting the old homos!'' last time i was in town) #(and when i imitated him and was like ''old gay men are not your pokemon!'' bellini was like ''ok but they may be your audience'') #also one data point i really want to see the variation on is how my one specific joke plays in these different demographics #bc i have a joke that like. it's literally not even about AIDS and doesn't punch down at all #i literally say ''if you're gay and over the age of 50 you could violate the geneva convention and i'd still be like support our troops'' #like obviously being like ''you have been through hell so i will let you get away with literal war crimes you deserve ultimate immunity'' #BUT. in the line right before the quote i use the phrase ''AIDS generation'' not as a derogatory term but being like. #this horrible thing impacted the entire generation y'know? and bellini and scott and their friends call themselves that it's just the term #but when i said the phrase ''AIDS generation'' in front of my gen z audience i heard gasps and felt like they all hated me #and when i did the same line in front of millennials it wasn't quite as striking but their eyes did widen #like i was suddenly an ''edgy comedian''. but like this is a part of our history and it does inform the story i'm telling #the story i'm telling is comedic but it's grounded in this real world context #and i'm like. @ the audience who was offended: when was the last time any of y'all spoke to a gay man over the age of 50 #bc bellini loves that section of the monologue and was offended that people would even take offense to that phrase

[meatmensch]

.

#thinking again abt the horrible things he said to me bc some of them were so stupid and mean i will never truly get over it until i go to #his house with the hammer!! #'why are you interested in the yiddish language' 'well first of all most yiddish speakers are dead it's a dying language it's a fucking #murdered language and i think it's important to preserve plus it's cool' 'well by that logic most english speakers are dead too' here's #what i should have done in that scenario. get up grab my things grab my keys and leave. versus what i did. continued to try to explain to #him why i'm passionate about the culture for hours and he never truly got it. #and it was so funny because the next day HE was all mopey. i was like 'what's your problem' he was like 'i think i feel bad about some of #the stuff i said last night...' here's what i should've said. 'yeah you rat bastard you should feel really bad you suck i hate you beg on #your knees for forgiveness.' versus what i did. a simple dose of the silent treatment #i will never get over this i will never get over this because no one i have cared so much about and thought was so kind and understanding #has been so stupid he's just an antisemite. i was like he's not a nazi he's just dumb. girl when u gotta ask urself 'is he a nazi' get out #of there pronto. and of course i feel stupid for still having feelings about this a year later. but i don't need to feel that way it's ok. #ok i'm tired. goodnight #personal log #back again. reread the texts i sent to my best friend immediately after that conversation like righttt i'm not crazy that WAS mean. thank #you melanie from a year ago!

[astrxealis]

i am so obnoxious over bg3 but like. privately. bcs i'm still urgehafsjsh over how astarion is literally everything to me now and i really adore him but hi: i haven't played bg3. anyway. half-elf + bard maybe!

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #sorry. sorry. sorry to be so annoying but ASTARION..... #mr neil did so good voicing him all lines HIT. not a single bad one. oh man #i adore astarion's character from the outermost layers to the innermost i love his development and all the different scenes your choices #can lead to. how different he can be. how dramatic he can be how sarcastic how soft he can be. astarion. #wtf the obsession kicked in late... #bcs okay i learned of bg3 just. around tumblr. and what got me finally the Nudge to get into it was THE NEWS OF THE BEAR ASTARION THING #LMFAO and then i was like Oh Yeah hm maybe astarion will be my favorite (insert my thoughts here) #and then i learned more abt baldur's gate only Then and then got obsessed whooo but very normal #and sometime there my twin also got interested and whooo normally obsessed w bg/3/astarion and then got insanely obsessed #and here i was a few days ago or last week. normal. then all of a sudden i GOT... obsessed....... #astarion has consumed my every waking moment and i'm also in lov w the other characters. gale... karlach... shadowheart... etc... #and astarion has easily become one of my most favorite characters. which is not surprising at ALL #when you consider . every general factor of my favorite characters #+ how the story of how i came to like him is a STORY INDEED to tell ..... and how i got spoiled a bit too on some stuff but thats ok w me... #and my circumstances w my favorite games are real funny (for a lack of a better word) too i realize. oh man. #anyway. astarion. i adore him #it's unfair too i'm in my hozier era fully rn so. brain consumed #me listening to all of hoziers three albums (i adore hozier) and associating so many songs w astarion :/ like work song #idk. astarion reaaaaaally deserves hugs and love and and and i adore him

[humanmorph]

lemferos. thinking so much about them lately

#friends at the table #fatt #seasons of hieron #hieron #rosa art #fero feritas #lem king #lemfero #ok you can barely see safewater in lems hair in the first one but he is there #i listened to a mountain goats fero playlist the other night and it made me a kindof miserable #and the next day i went well what if.i drew fero happy for once what about that #lemfero is The Thing its true and real to me basically. theyre #the thing is their breakup is so fun and i really love when theyre kind of awful to each other BUT WELL the potential for them caring. #about each other and being sweet. its post canon to me ive got a whole timeline by which i shouldve probably drawn them more wrinkles #im having fun drawing lately AND liking what i draw its still. mindblowing #gearing up for secsam.i guess : ) #i love drawing fero on green backgrounds i think 80% if feros ive drawn are like this #ok one last thing well if you read all these. thanks : ) i like talking. but yeah when i started sketching lem looked wildly different #in each drawing(i had another one of just him i just didnt like at all) and it was funny to me bc u could clearly see #who my favourite of the two was(its fero) but i think now its kind of fine so i cant make that joke anymore but i still did wanna mention it #. #im going to bed now