#omg I like to make myself cry

[anightingales-blog]

The sun was too bright that day

aziraphale and Crowley were at the beach the sun was really bright and kids were running around playing “we’ll meet again “by Vera lynn

Crowley looked at aziraphale who was holding book reading it while Crowley was sitting beside him

“Angel”

“Yes dear?”

“When this be real”

Aziraphale didn’t reply he looked at the sea and after one second there was no voice no children running no beach music nothing

Just the sound of the ocean

Crowley looked at aziraphale like he was begging for him for this to be real

“Dear you need to to wake up” finally aziraphale answered

“I don’t want to “

“You can’t just keep dreaming about me”

“You left me no choice angel you left and here is the only place I can find you”

Aziraphale looked at Crowley who now changed his appearance to be like that kinda long hair tired eyes he was not that chic demon he was just tired

“Oh Crowley this dream won’t last forever also”

Aziraphale held Crowley’s face and kissed him

And then Crowley woke up at the bookshop were Muriel was playing “we’ ll meet again” and hamming to it

“but I know we will meet again some sunny day”

#good omens #aziraphale #crowley #ineffable husbands #ineffable idiots #aziracrow #david tennant #michael sheen #good omens 3 #i wrote this #omg I like to make myself cry #Crowley misses aziraphals

[romidoes]

- what’s up with those prison clothes and the fucking mayo?!

-you said you wanted to do prison roleplay. i thought you felt nostalgic

#when i had this idea i was so sure of myself LMAO #i thought ‘omg i’ll just draw them from the video but i’ll replace their clothes with prison ones #to make it seem like ian wants to roleplay !!!!! #for the sake of good old days!1!1!1!1!1 #but as i was done with it i realised it makes no fucking sense #😭 so i wasted 3 hours on this #i’ll just pretend it was for practice so i don’t cry about it too much #anyways…. yeah #my humor…. #gallavich #shameless #shameless us #ian x mickey #mickey x ian #noel fisher #cameron monaghan #ian gallagher #mickey milkovich #shitpost

[chloecherrysip]

"I hope you told your brother how much you loved him, because you're probably never gonna see him again."

"..."

"Was that too dark?"

"YES!"

"Sorry."

#mario movie #mario move spoilers #super mario bros movie #super mario bros #mario and luigi #super mario bros movie spoilers #cherrysip edits #i was gonna make a different gifset today but then i found that new trailer and WELL HERE WE ARE lol #TOAD SERIOUSLY CAN YOU READ THE ROOM HERE??????????? #first time in the town was kinda funny second time was genuinely a bit upsetting to the point that i gasped when i heard the dialogue #mario would prefer you Do Not Say Things Like That!!!!!!! #he is no way shape or form emotionally prepared to grapple with the idea of his brother being dead or never being able to find him #that would end him. that would destroy him. he would truly not know how to go on. so that is just firmly Not a Possibility in his brain #(and now i made myself REALLY sad thinking about mario remembering this conversation a little later and wondering #when WAS the last time he told luigi he loved him????? he can't remember. he loves his brother more than anything and anyone #but he hasn't said it outloud in so long and the realization of that is extremely painful. there's some more angst for you!!!) #anyway this is just a compilation of all the significant scenes where mario and luigi are actually together we've seen so far and I CRY #also the brand-new one of them running through town!!! omg it's perfect #with mario doing unnecessary parkour and luigi just diligently jogging along on the outside and avoiding the mess #the characterization even in the tiniest moments like this is truly CHEF'S KISS #will be working on more gifsets because my brain just needs to stare at all this until the movie comes out lololol

[theancientwonder]

i think that Akechi aged 10 should end up on Tatsumi Port Island for some reason and somehow bump into Ken and then they should talk about Featherman 😭😭😭😭

#goro akechi #ken amada #persona 5 #persona 3 #crying in the club #I was double checking their birthdays and this is how I found out that Akechi is two-ish weeks older than Ken #Imagine Akechi and Ken seeing the persona 2 cast (all veteran featherman fans) and being like “omg they are so cool i want to be like them” #i am making myself sad

[yangjeongin]

HYUNJIN | 221231  @ MBC GAYO DAEJEJEON

#hwang hyunjin #stray kids #bystay #createskz #malegroupsnet #a9gifs #usertaeng #hyunjin #flashing tw #*gif #*ccarly #*hyunjin #*carly:hyunjin #sacrificed one of my best stamps for the sake of all of them having red bgs. crying #but it's ok i like this set but that's prob unsurprising ya girl loves red and cyan! #words cannot explain how angry this guy makes me in the first gif in particular omg :) #this was not on my to do list but. somebody had to do it and i wouldn't be myself if it wasn't me!

[faunandfloraas]

i love being friends with girls and then they get a boyfriend and then he becomes the center of her entire existence and all she talks about and all she focuses on and i sit there and i smile and i nod and i feel myself becoming genuinely evil

#shut up about your fucking boyfriend I DONT CARE #<< i never say that bc im not a horrible person but good god idk if im built for this #im crazy and im always a little bit in love with every girl i know its just how im built #like i guess its bc whenever ive dated someone i keep that shit to myself #like you have to torture me for me to admit anythings happening so when other people make it their whole personality #and totally abandon friendships bc OMG must focus 100% energy on some guy it just makes my eye twitch #and then when they wanna come crawling back omg he sucks he cheated i want your shoulder to cry on and im like well you didnt even text #me when my nana died last march so. cry on your own shoulder. #full admittance i am also a jealous person so theres a bit of crazy jealous jessie at play Always. I'm nothing if not honest #sorry kpoppers you get my insnae ramblings this friday night #i'll make up for it i'll post like bang chan ass shots or something tommorrow dont worry

[hwiyoungies]

welcome back kang younghyun 💕

#day6 #young k #youngk #ok so i thought about doing something more complicated but also i'm So burned out from this series LMAO #so i did my best for it to look some what cohesive and uuh man what's the word #smooth? yeah smooth #can't even say my proper feelings in the tags yet because i finished this 25 days before he's actually back LMAO #b.edits #missing yonk #day before but i need to add tags now because i don't trust myself tomorrow LMAO #but thank you SO much for accompanyingon this silly gif making journey #it was. honestly a bit exhausting and i'm never doing it again only 50 days or 30 LMAO #and thank you so so so so much to everyone that reblogged every single set #i was genuinely looking forward to your tags and reblogs and if you didn't i was worried like omg are they ok #but our boy is back!!! he's finally back and i can't wait to see what's in store for him #i just. appreciate him so so much and i'm just so grateful for him i know i've said this before #he just. means a lot to me and i'm so so happy he's finally back #yeah i'll stop or i'll cry for real LMAO

[ickypuppi3]

girls when they think about billy hargrove’s freckles

#billy hargrove #calling myself a girl but in a camp way #billy would get it #tell me you understand #tell me it’s not just me #there’s something #about them ​that makes me absolutely unhinged #i DONT KNOW what it is #it’s an actual problem #billy in that scene by the pool #ignore literally everything else and look at his face #sobbing #he’s just so pretty #me when there’s a fic and steve’s like ‘omg you have freckles’ literally screaming & crying #someone should kiss them maybe probably #(steve) #it happened actually idc #that’s what s3 was about #ickyspeaks

[lord-squiggletits]

Pharma's place in a Functionist society (headcanon)

So I've talked in some previous posts about all the reasons that Pharma isn't a functionist because canon never showed him espousing functionist ideals + he's actually in a place to be a victim of functionism. And I've been working on a Pharma-centric oneshot that made me put into words the best metaphor I can think of for Pharma's relationship with Functionism:

He doesn't support Functionism, but is simultaneously a beneficiary of it and also marginalized by it, because his position of being forged both a doctor and a jet basically turns him into a "token minority" of sorts.

I know that sounds kind of silly or maybe like a clumsy political allegory, but hear me out. There are a couple facts about Pharma and the circumstances of his forging that put him at the crossroads between privilege and marginalization within Functionism:

Tyrest says that Pharma was "famous for being forged." Not famous for being a forged medic-- otherwise surely Ratchet would be just as noteworthy-- but famous for being FORGED. But also, note that this is an opinion that SOCIETY had about Pharma, not something that Pharma espouses about himself. (For the sake of an example, Pharma isn't Starscream, who has an explicit, deep-seated need for others' love and approval. Pharma himself doesn't express any opinions on his own popularity or convey that fame/adoration is something he wants.)

Functionism on Cybertron held that if someone was born with a certain alt-mode, they can/should only have certain jobs. For people born with flight alt-modes, those people were almost always regulated to military or transportation/courier jobs

SIMULTANEOUSLY, Pharma was forged with medic hands, which under a Functionist society were viewed as the peak of medical care and all the best doctors were forged or at least had a "special something" that non-forged hands lacked (according to Ratchet).

So taken in combination, this means that from the moment of Pharma's birth, he straddled a line of Functionism between two different "predestined" paths for him, where he was simultaneously forged to be a doctor and also forged to fly, fitting into BOTH of these categories despite norms of Functionism which say you're one or the other. And I speculate that the reason Pharma is "famous for being forged" is precisely because of those lines he straddles: his very existence is a contradiction, but he was also FORGED that way. The same creed that dictated the two different functions of "hands" and "alt-mode" also says that Pharma should be what he was born to be. What he was born to be was a forged medic jet.

In my opinion, I think that being "famous for being forged" is sort of like a token-minority situation for Pharma, where perhaps Pharma was seen as a curiosity or even something exotic, not just as a person. Maybe because he was a jet and people assumed jets were only soldiers/transportation, a lot of his achievements were put in the light of "Oh, he's a really amazing doctor, for a jet" or "It's crazy that he's a doctor AND a jet at the same time". The attention Pharma received for the unique circumstances of his birth WAS positive, but it would've likely been framed in a bit of a condescending way, as if Pharma is noteworthy and famous not for being a good doctor, but for being a good doctor despite being born a jet.

So I would say that as far as Pharma's personal experience with Functionism, he simultaneously experienced privilege and marginalization. He enjoyed the privileges of being a medic while avoiding the restrictions of being a flight frame. However, a lot of the idolization and attention he received would have also come from a place of tokenizing Pharma: he's "famous for being forged," because in this society he's defying expectations merely for existing as himself. That is to say, Pharma in a Functionist society wasn't treated as remarkable because of who he is as a person and how hard he worked to be a good doctor; he was treated as remarkable for the circumstances of his forging, something he had no control over and can't change, and apparently Pharma being a forged medic jet is such a noteworthy origin that he's "famous" for it.

The above paragraph is purely headcanon, of course, but I like to imagine that part of Pharma's reason for having a big ego isn't out of simple vanity or insecurity, but because of a sort of "gifted student" syndrome, in a sense. From the moment he was forged he was treated as a rarity and an incredible phenomenon, and he would have had to work incredibly hard to be seen as "an incredible doctor" in his own right rather than just "that forged medic jet." Maybe, as a jet, he also had something to prove; he had to show to a Functionist society that being a jet doesn't make him an inferior doctor and that his alt-mode has nothing to do with his skills at his profession.

That is to say, I don't think Pharma would have been openly anti-Functionist, or had many opinions about it at all. I actually lean towards the interpretation that Pharma basically saw himself as getting lucky with the way he was forged and being content with the fact that he'd managed to carve out a reputation for himself as being incredibly skilled. However, Pharma not getting involved politically in Functionism doesn't change the fact that he WOULD have had a very complicated relationship with Functionism, in that alt-mode discrimination would have had an effect on him even though he was in the scientific/medical class and supposedly privileged.

#mtmte #mtmte pharma #transformers idw #transformers meta #mtmte meta #squiggposting #pharma apologism #pharma doesn't fit neatly into categories of privileged or oppressed and that makes him especially interesting #tldr: pharma probably got microaggressioned a lot at work lmao #some med student: oh my gosh... a flight frame in medical school... how did you manage that? #omg pharma it's so craaazy that you can fly and you're also a doctor #wow pharma your hands are incredible it's a good reason you have them or they probably wouldn't have let you in #pharma smiling tightly with a drink in his hands: yeah. crazy. #pharma: anyways i'm gonna go perform a triple organ donation everyone fuck off i'm working #i think pharma never got political mainly because he comes off as the type who focuses on his job and nothing else #like he's experienced marginalization on account of being a forged medic JET but he kind of just went #well I overcame the odds and i'm the best doctor ever now and my position in society is comfortable that's all i wanted #but it's a far cry from fanon that decides to make him a full on card carrying functionist that's openly bigoted #i feel like i just repeated myself over and over again without saying much ah well

[cowardlycowboys]

"do you like it (your job)?" next question please

#omg kiera no one cares #like no but yes but no and no and no but yes #everyday i want to kill myself because of my job but i loveeee my kids<33 #but the thought of going to work makes me want to cry each morning and want to vomit #but i like my kids and love them sooo much and i love playing outside and doing art

[hella1975]

im genuinely the dumbest person alive

#im so fucking angry with myself im SO stupid #like yes im only 20 ive never really handled my finances alone before #this is only my second year of paying rent EVER there was bound to be mistakes #and im lucky to have a family that can support me when those mistakes inevitably occur. but my fucking goddddd #basically i didnt plan ahead and turns out my TOTAL student loan for this year covers my TOTAL rent this year #but ofc the installments dont cooperate and the sums are different per semester etc #so instead of looking ahead and going 'oh shit my last loan won't be enough to cover my last rent installment' #and using that very easy to make observation to figure out that i need to be saving the leftover money from my loan throughout the year #i instead went 'omg i have leftover loan this term!' and fucking spent it #im short £600. im going to owe my parents £600 #and yes in the grand scheme it's not a huge amount of money like it could have been #but not only will i not be able to pay my parents back until july bc i CANT take out of my america savings #and i definitely cant start saving up £600 ON THE SIDE OF TRYING TO SAVE A GRAND FOR AMERICA #but on top of that being in debt to my mum is the worst thing in the entire world and now i have no choice but to be in debt for 3 months #before i can even start paying it back. like that's 3 entire months that she's going to use it as a stick to beat me with #like not only does she sometimes REFUSE to take money that i earn waitressing bc she insists on having the debt paid through actual labour #but she's also just a complete bitch about it and i know it's very spoilt to expect not only to be covered when i get into debt #but to also expect her to be nice about it but like. im not asking her to CODDLE me i get initially it makes sense for her to be angry #but she could at least acknowledge that i ALWAYS beat myself up over shit like this way more than anyone else will #like im so mad rn im trying not to cry just bc im so FRUSTRATED and the entire time she's fucking shouting in my face #about how she moved out at seventeen and had three jobs at uni and no one to support her etc etc #and just name-callling shit im already calling myself like it was an HONEST MISTAKE #she's acting like i purposely went behind her back and took £600 when i was very visibly horrified when i figured it out #and i immediately came clean to her regardless of how scared i was to admit it. im just so mad like i know i sound spoilt #and like im huffing and puffing over something that could have been SO MUCH WORSE if i didnt have my parents to cover me #but like. i can pay her back within 2 WEEKS of waitressing. ive never handled my rent before. i didn't do it on purpose #and im more annoyed with myself than she can ever be and she KNOWS that about me. so like. please dont shout at me lol #it's just i was SO proud of myself for saving for america and how hard ive worked and i should have known i was gonna fuck it up somehow #& now the £1500+ i'll total have saved for america that i worked so hard for is gonna be tainted bc i owe £600 all bc of my own stupidity #hella goes home

[myfriendtheghost]

goodnight my beautiful lil dork

#I am. very afraid for this week lmao 😭 #my roommate is home and I have to drop the news on her that I’m moving out #which would be very normal and understandable under most circumstances #especially in this situation because she will soon be making $30 an hour and our rent is only $550 a month lmao so she can afford it easily #but …… she is so terrible to communicate with <3 and does not like spending money <3 so I’m afraid <3 #I just have to keep reminding myself that it will be worth it #I’ll be happier #I’ll be working towards my goals #I HAVE goals for once in my life LMAO #it’s going to be okay I just have to get through the bad parts first 💕 #on top of that I also dread work tomorrow lmao #BUT!!!! #I had THREE SEPARATE PEOPLE contact me for photography jobs today !!!!! #one of my aunts is having me photograph her crochet pieces so she can sell them online #another aunt (who owns a popular local hangout spot) is gonna have me photograph an event at the end of the month #and I got invited to photograph a CHRISTIAN MUSIC FESTIVAL ??? #LIKE OKAYYYYYY #my emotions r everywhere #and now I want 2 cry over josh being the prettiest ever like omg #anywho I am exhausted !!! love y’all sleep well

[natsmagi]

happy 1yr anniversary to when the illness festered. i had no idea what i was getting myself into. To think it has been 1 year and im still this fucked up from it. love you wonder game

#i had been on a little switch story binge #i had read element and pleiades bc i saw ppl recommending them #but i had no idea that wonder game was significant at ALL #but i am the BIGGEST sucker for alice in wonderland. the 1951 animated movie was my favorite movie ever #and i would watch it CONSTANTLY when i was a kid #my earliest memories consisting of me just knowing how much i loved this film #and well anyway i remembered natsume had an alice card so i was like omg! i really should read that!! #and to get myself in the mood i even rewatched the 1951 film because i thought itd be a fun little refresher before i began reading #I DID NOT. EXPECT THE STORY TO MAKE ME CRY #AND I DID NOT EXPECT THE STORY TO MAKE ME A NATSUMUGIER #THIS STORY CAUSED IT ALL. IT RUINED ME. ALL BECAUSE I WANTED TO READ A SILLY LITTLE STORY WITH ELEMENTS BASED OFF #MY FIRST EVER SPECIAL INTEREST. ABSOLUTELY SICKENING #HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY BABE IM FUCKING RUINED FOREVER #nat rambles #i dont think u guys realize how deep my love for switch goes #bc like everything about them is a reminder of everything ive ever loved and found comfort in throughout my life #especially my younger years #they really do just bring me such unbelievable amounts of joy i almost feel undeserving to have something resonate this deeply with me #because thats how deep it goes #BUT ANYWAY #i cant show vulnerability online. Pretend i didnt say anything. #cant have people find out im a real person with real feelings with unique experiences in life that shaped the person you see before u today

[pepprs]

feeling despair i don’t know how to put into words. im trying to figure out why im like this and how i got to be this way but i can’t even do it bc of the way i am and what im like. if that makes sense. like the problem prevents me from fixing the problem bc i can’t get to the root of it. despair despair despair

#purrs #delete later #basically i can’t internalize anything about myself. i can’t internalize that i am talented smart strong whatever and i can’t internalize #evidence that i matter and belong and am loved. i take in this evidence constsntly and it just evaporates. and then it’s like i have none of #it at all and im starving and shaking and dying and howling like a wretched little animal. and i live in this constant defaulstate of like.. #feeling worthless and alone and utterly empty and like everything in my life is a dream or something. and in feeling that way and being #quite literally incapable of having emotional object permanence.. i actually make that situation real for myself. i make myself alone and #wretched. i isolate myself and shut down and don’t let myself take up the space i can. and it’s just awful. it’s unfixabke. #i just suck it all dry. i deny myself to myself and to everyone else. and idk what made me like this bc i don’t think i always used to be #this way w depression and depersonalization or whatever the fuck dsm 6 type shit i have going on. but i can’t internalize anything about #myself and my life and have no desire / willpower to look back beyond a certain point and really analyze and probe to figure out what #happened to me to make me like this so i can heal the core wound. soim just constantly in wretched tortured panicking creature mode. awesome #this cry for help brought to you by: my sister guilt tripping me into doing her laundry + my brother showing me his beautiful music + #realizing that unlike redacted i have not documented every part of my life and have no access to early childhood artifacts that would reveal #anything about me and that it does n’t even matter / isn’t special anyway. i love being normal 😎🫶🏻‼️ #at least i haven’t been dissociating as badly about work stuff lately but. that’s definitely still a thing too so. what if my whole life is #just the wrong timeline i wasn’t supposed to be in and nothing is actually real. lawl 😳 #this is a ​really awesome time for my therapist to be going on a monthlong honeymoon btw 😍 she deserves it so much but omg im dying already

[dyk3leepuppy]

me if thinking abt the most kinky depraved filthy tickle scenarios was illegal

#like why can’t i stop thinking abt being tickled to hysterics and begging for mercy only to get ignored #even better have them mock you and coo at you while you’re hysterical with laughter and babbling nonsense 🤣 #idk been getting off to the idea of being tickled till i pee myself recently. like mean absolutely sadistic ler… #…tickling u harder when u beg for a break bc u can’t take it or ur like omg im gonna pee and they just KEEP GOING. 😵‍💫 #like that’s so HUMILIATING 😭😭😭😭.and then they add to it by mocking you/making fun of you for that. 😭😭😭 #me when my thing for humiliation and tickling come together to form the most depraved filthy scenarios #i’m fucking insane . #i’m crazy #😞😞😞😭😭😭😭i wanna be tickled to fucking tears PLEASEEEEE i just wanna be crying and begging for mercy only to have them laugh in my face. #.like a fucking sadist and just keep going or maybe even tickle harder 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 as they tease u with the cruelest shit ever .

[alex-just-vibing]

grah my head feels like it might explode

#this essay prompt makes 0 fucking sense #love this teacher. fucking hate how she teaches tho #we're supposed to have a rough draft by the end of class tomorrow #okay not too horrible #IF MOT FOR THE FACT SHE KEEOS CHAINGING THE ALREADY FUCKIBG CONFUSING ASS PROMPT #i can write essays about whatever stupid fucking novel you need me to #but myself?? #a significant memory i have??? that i learned a stupid fucking lesson from????? #i have like 0 significant memories from before the age of like. 10. and still not all that many after thay <3 #should i talk ab how my dad fucking died? would you like that you asshole????????? #what fucking lesson would I have learned from that? dont become a fucjibg alvoholic? #shit i feel like im gonna fucking cry again i cant do this shit #i have the general vibe for each paragraph listed out ill work on it more in homeroom tomorrow #we wont even have the full fucking class for this tomorrow cuz she's a fucking asshole who gives us like five fucking seconds in class per #assignment #fucking hell dude #especially since half the class said they hadnt even started writing by like halfway through our (shortened!) class yesterday #im gonna fucking explode #my stuff #alex is not vibing. #also pjysicially too my dumbass forgot to eat dinner cuz hehe haha omg i can sing and suddenly uts 10 and i havent showered yet and my mom #will be getting home soon so i need to shower then rush my gay ass to bed #which i am in currently. #so im also feeling the forgor to eat feeling too <3